#i mean unless there's a ton of interest in seeing them make that baby if u know what i mean askjdalksjd
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this gentle life of ours
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Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Archive Warning: N/A
Fandom: Supernatural
Ship: Midafer
Additional Tags: Mpreg, Pregnant Lucifer (Supernatural), Pregnant Michael (Supernatural), Domestic Fluff, Light Angst, Alternate Universe
Wordcount: 3039
Summary:
Getting Michael pregnant is an accident. Lucifer? Not as much.
Or, Adam and his two pregnant archangel house spouses <3
Notes:
Now this is for @nugget-of-joy, who gave me a prompt, yes, but made it a submission aksljdalskjd. but i forgive her and give her 3000-ish words. the original prompt was "Midafer with both angels being knocked up 👀 thoughts?" and my thoughts were Yes :)
Lucifer has been staying with them a few weeks by the time Michael starts to show.
Michael was the one who dragged him home. Adam doesn’t have the full story, only that one day it’s just him and Michael in the house and the next, their guest room is the devil’s new home. Of course he’s curious, but so far, he’s pretty sure he and Michael have carved out a life for themselves by virtue of no one noticing they got out of the Cage. Bringing Lucifer in jeopardizes that, sure, but trying to figure out where he was before Michael found him is asking for trouble that Adam, frankly, doesn’t need to deal with.
For the first few days, he didn’t even see Lucifer. Michael spent most of his time with him. The ability to be jealous was burnt out of Adam a few hundred years ago in Hell. It would require him to believe Michael would ever leave, and that’s not just unlikely, it’s laughable. Lucifer started leaving his room after that beginning lull. He was quiet. Adam might call him jumpy, even paranoid. It was something in his eyes. A hunted look. Pity came first and easiest, but compassion? That was harder to summon up for him.
Not until Michael was gone one day, and Lucifer was freaking out about something he refused to explain to Adam, and Adam had to tug him over to the couch to lay on top of him like his own personal weighted blanket. Lucifer melted where he was pinned under Adam. They stayed like that until Michael came back, far better equipped to help Lucifer than Adam was.
After that, he began to fit into their lives in places Adam hadn’t known were empty. Lucifer cuddled between them in bed and eating dinner at their table and sleeping in their bed. Michael takes brotherly love to a whole other level, and Lucifer soaks it up like he’s starved for it. Adam can't help falling in love with him, too. Especially as Lucifer begins to relax a little more, trust that he and Michael aren't about to throw him out. He learns to cook, he builds himself a garden, and he pouts for attention when he feels he hasn't gotten enough for the day.
And then, Michael is pregnant.
There really is no other outcome for him and Adam never using protection. Adam had assumed that Michael, being an archangel and powerful enough that he dragged them both out of the deepest part of Hell by pure stubbornness, was able to keep himself from being knocked up. Adam was wrong. He’s not that upset about it. Having a kid is terrifying, having one with Michael even more so, but at the same time, he thinks about their little terror running underfoot one day and finds himself smiling without meaning to. (He even thinks about their kid growing up with Lucifer still around, and… he likes it. This is their home, this is their life, and Lucifer is going to be a part of all of it.)
Michael's belly grows, the curve of it undeniably pushing on every shirt he wears. Adam’s a little obsessed. Michael will let him put his hands over the bump while he tells him what’s going on underneath. It’s too early to feel any kicking, but Adam can’t seem to pull himself away. That’s Michael’s baby. That’s his baby.
As his computer tabs fill up with searches about baby food and cribs, he begins to notice Lucifer watching them. He hovers in the doorway while Michael and Adam are debating which color to paint the new nursery. (Michael says it should be dark since the point of the room is to put the baby to sleep; Adam says it should be something brighter because they've had seen dark places in their lives.) He doesn't say a word when he sees Adam babyproofing the house (something Michael has told him again and again isn't necessary, as though an unprotected electric socket or a stray bottle of detergent could actually harm their child, but it's about the principle of the thing) but he does follow him from room to room. He pretends to be doing something else whenever Adam glances over at him, but he's not being particularly subtle. It's the first time Adam starts to have doubts about him being around their kid. They'll be half Michael's, half angel, but that other half of them will still be human. Adam's pretty sure that Lucifer's opinions on humanity haven't shifted much since the Apocalypse. (If anything, they've soured more since he's seen what humans have done to the world he loves. It's a touchy subject, and therefore, banned from the dinner table.)
It hurts more than Adam expected it would to think that Lucifer won't love their child as much as he and Michael will.
The morning after those thoughts begin to stew in his head is a pretty one. Almost clear skies with wisps of cloud that let the sun stream down through their windows. By the time Adam is awake, his bed has long been abandoned by his archangels. (The night before, Lucifer had still come to sleep with them, but for the first time, he'd slept with his back to both of them. Michael had noticed, but he hadn't said anything, only fallen asleep with his frown pulled tight.) Adam drags himself reluctantly from his bed to the kitchen. He can't hear coffee brewing, but Michael hasn't been able to stand the smell for the past week and Adam will do anything to make him more comfortable, even if his caffeine-addicted brain hates his guts for it. At least Michael's there for him to wrap himself around, face buried in the crook of his neck where he's warm and soft. Adam's hands sneak around his middle to caress his belly.
"Good morning," Michael says. Adam grunts an interim response while he wakes up enough to make words. Being near Michael is helping. He smells nice.
"Morning," Adam finally manages, and he lets Michael turn around in his arms so that he can kneel down and press a kiss to his baby bump. "Good morning to you, too."
"You know that they can't hear you yet, right?" Michael asks, spoiling Adam's fun. Adam ignores him.
"You be good to your dad today, huh? He's grumpy enough already." Michael huffs, and Adam smiles up at him. He rises to kiss Michael, wiping away any hint of annoyance. Adam rests his forehead against Michael's when the kiss breaks. He misses having Michael possess him, but Michael needs to keep their baby safe and the idea of being pregnant himself makes Adam extremely dysphoric. It's different when it's Michael, even in a body that mirrors his own. Michael is so happy with parts of Adam that used to make him feel sick that he sees them in a new light, and even his own memories of living in a body closer to how Michael keeps it are no longer as painful. Besides, and Adam can admit this without any shame, Michael looks hot carrying his kid.
It's Michael who tilts his head away from Adam to look behind him. Adam follows his gaze, glancing back over his shoulder as Michael asks, "Lucifer?"
Lucifer winces when Michael says his name. He looks immediately like he wants to be anywhere but there, watching the two of them talk about their child. He turns his gaze down to the floor and refuses to look up again.
"This isn't going to work," Adam says. "You can't stalk us around the house like this. What's so wrong about Michael having a kid that you can't even look at him?" Michael makes a noise, quiet and hurt, and Adam realizes he hadn't even put the pieces together about why Lucifer was acting weird. He hates that he had to be the one to bring it to light, but if they don't take care of it now, he can see it snowballing into a serious disaster. They've built something together, and Adam isn't about to give it up.
"I never said anything about that," Lucifer answers. He speaks very softly. Adam's never heard him raise his voice in the entire time he's been living with them. (He'd been expecting it. Arguments between him and Michael, day in and day out, only slightly better than the Cage because the insults wouldn't echo for a hundred years afterwards and cut just as deep. Instead, even as he feels more safe around them, Lucifer is still quiet. It's like something out there had fun breaking him, and no one had bothered to pick up the pieces before Michael brought him home.)
"Then stop acting"—Adam gestures at him, frustrated—"like that. Like the whole world is going to end because of a baby." Lucifer still won't look at them.
"Is that what this is about?" Michael asks. "Lucifer, our child-"
"Your child," Lucifer corrects. "Adam didn't give them to me. He gave them to you." Adam blinks. Finally, Lucifer glances up at them.
What's on Lucifer's face isn't disgust. It's longing.
"Are you jealous?" Adam asks in disbelief.
"Is that so hard to believe?" Lucifer's voice hardens for the first time Adam's heard in a long time. He turns his accusations onto Michael, ignoring Adam's surprise. "You knew we could create life? That I could-" There's a choke that cuts off his words, and silence, and quietly again, "You knew it would come out wrong if I did it, didn't you? That's why you weren't going to tell me." Lucifer was terrifying, once. Adam's sure he could be again, if he wanted to. He stands at the threshold of the kitchen, shoulders slumped, and looks as though he's been kicked until he won't get up again. "It would be like me." The resignation in his voice is so heavy, even Adam feels weighed down by it.
"Wait," he says, buying himself time to process all of that, "wait, you- You're mad at Michael because he's having a baby and you aren't?"
Adam's life was supposed to have reached the point at which it couldn't get more surreal a few years ago.
Lucifer doesn’t answer him.
They have a big nursery. Room enough to fit two cribs, side to side.
Adam takes a step away from Michael. He feels Michael’s fingers trail down his arm as he moves, but he’s not going anywhere. Only far enough to hold Lucifer’s hand and draw him further into the room. He shouldn’t be standing on the sidelines anymore. He belongs here.
“If you want a baby that bad, you could just ask,” he says.
”Michael already-“
”We can have more than one baby,” Adam explains, purposefully slow so that Lucifer will get annoyed with him and pull his energy away from being upset. It works.
”I didn’t tell you because I had no idea you wanted it,” Michael cuts in. “Brother, any child of yours would be a blessing, not a curse.” Michael lifts a hand to cup Lucifer’s cheek as Adam squeezes his hand. He can hear the words unspoken, and neither are you, and hopes Lucifer can, too. Though, if he still can’t, if he doesn’t believe Michael, then they have plenty of time to prove it to him. Starting with this.
“Then, you’ll let me have a baby?” Hope is such a rare thing to hear in Lucifer’s voice. Adam grins.
”Only if you’re okay with changing diapers.” Lucifer does make a face at that, but it melts away as he realizes he can get exactly what he wants. He squeezes Adam’s hand back.
He waits a moment, and then says, “Has it happened yet?”
Adam and Michael stare at him. Lucifer stares back, unbothered.
“We haven’t…” Adam trails off. It occurs to him that he’s never had sex with Lucifer, and Michael has never mentioned having sex with Lucifer, and between the Cage and the Apocalypse, Adam doubts he had time to get down and dirty with the demons or humans he equally despised. Which means that Adam has to ask a very important question. “You do know how babies are made, right?”
“Human ones. I’m not human.” Adam looks at Michael.
“We’re in human vessels,” Michael says.
It takes Lucifer a minute of frowning to figure out what they mean. When he’s done, Adam swears he can see his cheeks flush.
“I haven’t done that before,” he admits.
The devil is a virgin. He’s asking Adam to deflower and knock him up all at once. It’s a lot for Adam to handle. His dick happily disagrees. This is exactly what it wants to handle.
There’s only one way to take care of him. Adam grips Lucifer’s hand in one of his and takes Michael’s with the other, and he leads both of them to their bedroom to finally make better use of their king-sized mattress.
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By the time Lucifer’s baby bump is showing, Michael’s has grown huge, and Adam is in (exhausting) Heaven.
Their bedroom has become a nest where he swears more pillows are added every day. Being pregnant drains a lot of Lucifer and Michael’s energy, which they aren’t used to at all, leading to situations where they tire themselves out using more grace than they should and Adam has to haul them to bed or the couch to lay down for a minute. Michael gets cravings for foods that have gone extinct, and because of that, Lucifer’s garden is now crowded with several impossible plants bearing fruits that haven’t grown on Earth in hundreds of years. Adam keeps seeing toys at the store and buying them, even though it’ll still be a few months before the babies are born and longer before they’ll be able to appreciate stuffed animals.
Here, in their secret corner of the world, the future is starting to look a lot brighter.
(Adam’s not fooling himself, though. He knows this won’t be easy. He’s heard Michael and Lucifer whispering to each other about how much harder it’ll get to hide their children once they’re older. Adam hasn’t even met either of them yet, but he’ll fight off the whole world, Heaven and Hell included, if he has to to protect them. Though, maybe he’d be better suited to holding the babies while Michael and Lucifer take care of all that that.)
He’s rubbing lotion into Lucifer’s skin, the kind that brags it can ease stretchmarks, which Lucifer doesn’t really understand (He loves the few that he has. Adam’s seen him admiring them, pleased by the changes in his vessel.) but lets Adam do anyway because he loves being pampered. He’s almost purring under Adam’s touch, leaning back against his Michael’s side with his eyes shut.
Michael looks tired. He’s more prone to overextending himself than Lucifer is. Months of a baby nephil draining his grace haven’t taught him to take better care of himself, but that’s why Adam’s here. He can give Michael a massage once he’s done with Lucifer.
”We’ll raise them as brothers, right?” Lucifer asks. Adam drops a kiss to his navel. Michael’s belly button popped out a week ago, yet another difference between Adam’s body and the one Michael inhabits that was based off of his. Michael doesn’t answer long enough for Lucifer to open his eyes and glance up at him. Michael smiles.
“Brother and sister, actually,” he corrects. Adam looks up from kissing Lucifer’s belly. Lucifer blinks, and then he looks even more excited than he did before.
”You’re having a girl?” Adam asks. Michael nods. Adam feels his chest pull tight. They haven’t even discussed names yet, but he’s been thinking, of course he’s been thinking, and Kate would be a lovely name for a baby girl, and- He takes a deep breath to calm his racing thoughts. “That’s amazing,” he says. They have all the time in the world to sort that out.
“I love her,” Lucifer says. “I love both of them. They’re ours, Michael, we made them.” Lucifer’s voice gets soft, almost giddy, whenever he brings that up. It means the world to him that he can create this new life, that it will be beautiful and all theirs to take care of.
”What, not mine too?” Adam teases, though he knows Lucifer doesn’t mean it like that. Humans make babies all the time. Angels? Not so much. Still, Lucifer turns to look at him, still grinning.
“And yours,” he agrees. "These ones and the next few-“
“Next few?” That’s the first Adam’s hearing of that.
“We can’t just have two. They’ll get lonely. We need at least four.” That tugs on Adam’s heartstrings a little, but not enough for him to agree to that just yet.
“Let’s see how well we handle having these two first. Then we’ll see about having more.” Lucifer huffs, but he doesn’t argue. His hand splays over his belly. Adam covers it.
“How hard could it be to raise two children?” Michael asks, with the doubt of someone who was left in charge of hundreds of little angels and thinks that any of those skills he acquired leading Heaven are going to translate neatly over to snacktime and putting them down for naps.
“We’ll see how you still feel once she’s able to cry,” Adam says. Michael does not seem convinced this is going to be a challenge. He’s going to eat those words, Adam’s sure, but they’ll get through it together. “Hey, how do your ankles feel?” Michael tips his head down, realizes he can’t see them past his belly, and props them up on the coffee table. Adam clicks his tongue. “I told you to stay off you’re feet or they’ll swell up worse.”
“I’m not going to sit here and make you take care of everything,” Michael says as Adam slides off the couch and onto his knees, bringing Michael’s foot into his lap. He gently massages the swollen area.
”Why not? I would,” Lucifer says, sleepily. Michael sighs, but it rolls into one of relief as Adam rubs his foot.
Adam smiles to himself. They’re going to handle this just fine together.
#fic: midafer#fic: spn#fanfiction#prompt fic#fic: michael spn#fic: adam milligan#fic: lucifer spn#this fic. this fic. it had like five false starts do you know that?#one was an outside pov of tfw walking in on adam with his pregnant angel house spouses and the chaos that would come from that#and then two of them started with lucifer being pregnant first#and even this version i ended up cutting the smut scene from because uh. well a) i am still sick and writing this much was surprisingly har#(hate that hate that hate that i want my normal writing energy back)#and b) i felt it worked better like this. the focus more on them being pregnant than on the making the baby part.#i mean unless there's a ton of interest in seeing them make that baby if u know what i mean askjdalksjd#anyway! i hope this came out good and you like it!#(im gonna upload this to ao3 too as soon as i come up with a title. and tags.)#also i sprinkled in trans!adam. <3 pros of giving me promtps is sometimes i will just make the characters trans.#fic: pregnant!michael#fic: pregnant!lucifer#fic: angelcest
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:O !!! Wait a second... GHOST DINOSAURS!!!
They died. There are ghost animals. You CAN NOT tell me getting fuckin nuked from space by a GIANT rock that blasted you and everything you've ever known into near instantaneous oblivion, wouldn't leave some Unfinished Business and a shit ton of Ectoplasm.
BILLIONS of things died all at once.
Did most move on? Probably. We're any of them sentient? We have no idea! Maybe! Unlikely, but maybe! Still a MASSIVE, countries wide, molten earth lined, crater of instant death. World shaking and history making. Death in the blink of an eye.
If you're lucky.
But! I hear the arguments now. That was one event. The X or Y dinosaur lived before that! What I'm interested in came AFTER! Good points! But not RELAVENT!!! Because you know what ELSE that giant fuck-off meteor is good for? Aside for Death(tm)?
Television.
Makes for some damn good documentaries. Exciting graphics and neato visual effects. Ooooh~ look at our dramatic recreation! The cute baby animals, unsuspecting of their Doomed Fate~! Tense music! And now, a world from our advertisers!
You know who LIKES Space Documentaries? Danny. He's all ABOUT that Science Channel. Granted, they've been pulling more and more of these mid-tear "aliens built the pyramids" and "look at these swords!" Shows... but! Still! He grew up on this channel! He doesn't WANT to give up on it!
And, yeah, this is... kinda hammy... but it's still watchable!
He's enjoying the live tweeting from paleontologists who are ROASTING the thing to a lovely golden brown. Has choked on his noodles like three times already. It's great! But now? They are arguing over what the dinosaurs actually looked like again... and??
And, look, maybe it's the good mood and boredom. Maybe it's having the house to himself. Maybe it's his parents finally encouraging him to use his "ghostiness" for SCIENCE(tm)(!) the other day. Could even be his bad idea impulse acting up again, buuuuut.....
Teeeeechnically?
Nothing? Is STOPPING him? From finding out? He DOES have Zone compatible cameras. And can probably back trace where they should-ish be? He can find out. The colors might be off, but it's a starting point? Right? And heck, he's pretty sure inverse coloration in standard unless someone's shape-shifting, so he'd just have to inverse it AGAIN to get an approximately correct coloration for them!
....eh, as long as he leaves a "not exact, this was the best I could get" note, it should be fine.
Road Trip time! Better call Dani and see if she wants to ride a few giant mammals and some lizards!
(Needless to say? Some researchers get VERY exciting emails. And only accept they are POSSIBLE, because this is a DC crossover. So there is aliens and magic regularly popping up in their field of expertise, so WHY NOT? Just the other day, a whole ass TOWN that has been wiped out... got UN-wiped out! 23 years later! It's made headlines. Weird shit happens.
So gib. Release to them the Dinosaurs, mystery email man. Fork them over before they begin biting. You think this corduroy jacket means they won't hunt you down? HA! You know NOTHING of academics! WHERE ARE THE EXTINCT ANIMALS? Where are you hiding them!?!?)
@the-witchhunter @hypewinter @nerdpoe @ailithnight @hdgnj @mutable-manifestation
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I will say, I think it's interesting when people say that arguing that the finale and Kataang happening the way it was just giving Aang what he wanted is somehow us taking Katara's agency away. Katara was rightfully angry with Aang in her last two encounters with him. Giving her agency within that narrative would look like her actually having a conversation with Aang and telling him how she felt. I don't just mean romantically, I mean having an actual conversation where her conflict with him is laid out and resolved, like it would be in any healthy friendship, and much more a healthy romance. People can argue that they had a conversation off screen. That's fine. I will never tell anyone they can't headcanon whatever they please. It's none of my business unless they make it my business. Have so much fun. Don't even think about me or my opinions. They don't matter.
However, she never had that conversation. It's not in the show. It's not in the comics. It's not canon. The way her moment of "oh, I like him" was set up implied that she only considered him romantically because he ostensibly singlehandedly "saved the day" (he most certainly did not). There's never a moment where she gets to be vulnerable with him and have him help her carry her burden. No moment of why she might like him romantically (and also, may I add, we never see what, aside from her looks, Aang likes about Katara). Any "build up" of Kataang on her end is largely done through external circumstances and not the result of her coming to understand her feelings (this from the passionate girl who wears her heart on her sleeve for the entire series). They are also never again brought up by her- and the times it brought up by Aang in canon are disastrous (Lava Fissure Incident. EIP. Arguably DoBS). Katara never has a chance to confront Aang on his blatant disrespect of her culture, and it's never walked back- in fact, IIRC, in the comics, he supports the soft colonization of the SWT by the NWT.
I can understand why people have the headcanon that Katara and Aang had a deep conversation off-screen that resolved all their issues and gave Katara a chance to tell him she liked him and why. I think that if you ship them, you kind of have to headcanon something like that. But I do not think canon supports it. Their deep conversations center Aang and his feelings. Katara's feelings never seem to matter that much to Aang. He didn't even care that Katara and Sokka had lost their father to the Fire Nation after Hakoda sacrificed himself to save Aang's stupid behind. He wanted to go run off and play. Our hero, ladies and babies. There has to be a lot of head canoning to make Kataang work. I know because everything I hate about Aang and Kataang is canon. If I'm basing Kataang on the canon, it looks just like the glimpses we get in LoK, only with a lot less hero worship of Aang.
Don't get me wrong, all the overt romance in Zutara is pure headcanon. I recognize that and I love that for us. What's not head canon is that Zuko shows Katara a ton of support and respect in their short onscreen friendship. And at the risk of upsetting Aang's fans, I will argue Zuko showed her feelings more consideration than Aang ever did in the entire series.
#atla#anti kataang#anti aang#zutara#i don't care what anyone headcanons in regards to aang#i'm not here to argue anyone out of their headcanons#but i still have opinions about aang as a character and kataang as a ship and what EYE think makes sense in the context of the canon#i don't headcanon a deep conversation between them#i headcanon that katara only ended up with him out of a sense of obligation to him#i also headcanon that they ended...quickly#canon is more of a set of guidelines than actual law#which is also good news if you ship kataang
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What are you most controversial/unpopular OP opinions??? Sorry if it was answered before
You want me to get canceled so bad-- If I speak-- But idk, I guess I'll say the controversial opinions I can say publicly without a bunch of people coming at me!
Zo$an is a bit... Overrated? And by overrated I mean extremely/annoyingly overrated. I like the ship and its canon dynamic but I think at least 80% of the fandom portrays them in a very mischaracterized way. Not to say that... The ship is literally everywhere and the shippers always look for every little thing to prove they're canon, even if the "proof" has literally nothing to do with them. It's not that I don't enjoy the ship (although I must admit I prefer other dynamics a lot more) I just can't stand shippers that go to extremes. It's funny because I think Zo$an's dynamic is way more interesting and romantic in canon than it will ever be in the fandom. It's a bit sad, ngl. I liked them a lot at first but it got so tiring and now I am pretty exhausted from seeing it everywhere. The people force it to be more than it is when the canon is already pretty fucking great.
Adding to the Zo$san thing. I think that relationship would only work if Luffy is there somehow but it wouldn't last a day without him in the relationship. Unless there's like, a ton of character development most of these people don't make them go through.
One Piece Film Z is my worst enemy. It's such a boring movie. The only good thing is the soundtrack and maybe the suits but God watching that was torture.
Boa hate is uhhhh weird. I mean, I get why the joke about her being in love with Luffy might be annoying, but I think most of you need to learn to understand that Oda's sense of humor is sometimes a bit too exaggerated (and not funny) and it has basically nothing to do with the actual canon dynamics between characters. Boa likes Luffy because he's one of the first men who has ever treated her right, so of course she confuses that feeling with love. And of course, yeah, it isn't canon. Whatever. Just read between the lines, maybe? And also, stop using words like "pedo" to describe her because using that term so lightly about 1) a fictional character and 2) somebody who's clearly not a pedo is fucked up. Lmao. Do you even know what that word means???
Once again complaining about Pudding hate and saying that it's stupid. I won't overanalyze because I always do it with her, but the only reason people hate her is for misogynistic reasons and because they're babying Sanji. Evil male characters are okay and hot and very traumatized but the second it's a woman she's the most evilest person ever! Because God forbid they make mistakes! Suddenly their character development isn't valid because they hurt their babygirl!
Now that we're talking about my dearest Pudding. Not tagging anybody of course, but I saw this post with so many interactions of people agreeing about Sanji considering violence as a sign of love which??? Doesn't make sense at all?? OP said it was because he couldn't tell the difference between love/abuse because of his family, but that's just... Not accurate. That could only happen if they had manipulated him into thinking abuse is a type of love, but he had healthy love growing up. Even when he was with the Vinsmokes (Sora and Reiju, I love you). And yet OP said Sanji considered Pudding's behavior flirting (wrong) and that's why he let her attack him (nope) and that it was proof of Zo$an. And okay, it's not a hugely popular theory, but a lot of people agreed with it and it bothered me a lot because it's both out of character and also using Pudding (complex female character) once again to try and prove the canon of a ship (that doesn't have anything to do with WCI either???). It just bothers me. People can perceive the story however they want but... Y'know.
OPLA isn't that good. Or good at all? I only like it because I like the cast and it's funny seeing my blorbos irl. But the script is simple and dull and just stupid most of the time. The characters are either simplified, mischaracterized, or forgotten. And tbh most of the shots are very awful and could be a lot better. The directing is also nonexistent. It's 6/10 and 3 of those points are because both the Zolu and the cast.
Apparently this is a very common theory about Nami's origins, but, uh, I don't think we need to know? What else do you need to know about her? People say she's a lost princess or something like that as if we didn't have a lost princess already (Sanji ily). Repeating the same plot would be boring and underwhelming, but also? It'd be extremely useless for the plot and it'd go against everything about Nami's story and the way Luffy reacts to it.
Luffy isn't canon aroace. In fact, the reasoning people use for him being "coded" is the same Oda uses for Zoro too and Zoro is almost never portrayed as the "idiot who doesn't know what sex is" the way Luffy often is. If you're calling Luffy canon aroace for what Oda said about him being focused on adventures, the same goes for Zoro being focused on his dream. They could be coded arospec but there's nothing confirmed and the constant discourse about it is stupid. Attacking others because of their ships just because you don't agree with them and saying it's wrong using our identity to do it is very fucked up. Especially since most of the time people complaining aren't even aroace. The only reason people do it (attacking others saying they can't ship Luffy and that it's "weird" and "wrong") is that they infantilize Luffy/Don't want him getting in between their ships (<- aroace person writing this) (also, it's very ableist since people agree on Luffy also being neurodivergent coded and treating him like a kid bc of that but this isn't about that now).
Somehow this is very common. Some fucking how. I can't believe I have to say this. I'm tired of people blaming Usopp for what happened in Water 7. Or in general hating Usopp. Actually, he's one of the best-written characters in the whole show and he's so underappreciated it's so frustrating.
Sanji's perv jokes are annoying af and we all know that, but people who hate the character and consider him a red flag for that are missing the point completely. The point being "Oda exaggerates jokes to an annoying extent and most of the time they don't even reflect the character". I understand they can make you uncomfortable (same here tbh) but reducing Sanji to only those jokes is a waste of his character. You need to take jokes less seriously.
If I see one of these "red flag OP boys" TikToks adding Law/Ace/Zoro/Sanji next to fucking Doffy I will riot. Also, stop adding Crocodile there. He's a mafioso, there's NO way he won't be a sweetheart to his lover.
Baron Omatsuri's artstyle and animation is amazing and it fits the plot and aesthetic of the movie perfectly and people saying it's ugly will forever bother me.
"Usopp is suddenly hot after timeskip!" He has always been hot what the fuck are you talking about.
People reduce Nami to her "mean"/"sarcastic" personality a lot when she's quite literally one of the most kind-hearted characters of all. That being said, morally speaking she's probably one of the worst. I could explain how that works but I don't want to do it now, the point is-- Let the girl be sweet instead of making her mean all the time. And also, let her be mean and selfish without making it her entire personality. There's something called "balance".
Film Red was kind of bad. Like, the songs are amazing (thanks, Ado) but the ending is awful and the plot is very meh. I'm only here for Uta and Shanks but the rest of the characters are just useless. I do appreciate Sanji's hair in the movie, though.
#i am aware that most of these aren't that unpopular and i think i've just been on tiktok too much#some of my opinions should stay hidden from the world i don't want to make people angry lmao#anyway here it is hope you like my hot takes hidden in between mild takes#one piece
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John's Relationship with People Outside
There's an interesting thing with John and his relationship with others who aren't Arthur.
Ultimately his knee-jerk reflex is... not to care. He cares about Arthur, the rest of the world means very little. Usually if they are helping someone, it's Arthur's initiative: the wraith, the policemen on the boat, the old woman in Harpers Hill, Cana, Marie, Hatty, Oscar. But there were some exceptions, and his attitude is evolving, so I wanted to look into this in a bit more detail.
The first time he expressed the desire to help was when they found the abandoned car on the side of the road. I can't tell why - mostly it was a way to improve Arthur's mood to make him go along with what John wanted of him, a manipulation, but there clearly was a genuine will to help, too. Especially when they found the baby. This was the first of the few non-personal cases.
Lily. She didn't need helping, but she's the first person in the outside world who picked John's interest and gained his affection, the first personal connection that wasn't forced onto him.
The woman in the tunnels on the island. This was more about John's "any creature can be redeemed" - if Arthur considered a woman who was likely a victim of the circumstances (in John's POV, at least) a monster whose death was justified, what was he going to think of John.
Lily the Dreamlands creature. A debatable one since initially it was Arthur who decided to interact with them, but John got sympathetic later on his own accord.
People in the mines. Again, debatable. John would have been fine with leaving them to their fate (and he expressed as much when he came to his senses) unless he wasn't fresh from the Dark World's horrors and yeeted straight into Arthur's corruption ark. His desire to save them had to do more with saving Arthur's humanity than people themselves (not saying he didn't care at all tho).
Noel. Now, this is an interesting case. Because this is the second time John got attached to someone other than Arthur, and the first one when he could actually interact with the person. And this did wonders to his character. No more being too posessive, instant understanding of how much he fucked up with Oscar, tons of regrets, just as many happy moments. Noel was the closest thing John had to a friend other than Arthur, and the first one "on the outside", the first one he and Arthur shared friendship with. I think that's why John was so desperate to save him that he even manifested and beat Yellow. Noel might have become a bridge between John and other people, help him see them as, well, people rather than unimportant background characters.
That's why I think Noel is a very important character. He gives both John and Arthur a whole new spun on their character developement that is probably going to last.
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Thinking of writing a fanfic crossover where Jack and Nana end up in Decking city after a magical accident (Still fleshing out the details of how said accident worked).
If comfortable answering:
I'm curious about how you think Nana and Jack would react to such a such a big change in a new place like that, in a general sense. Especially if there's a bigger issue bringing them here and they realize they have to solve it to go home.
Thank you, and lovely day either way ପ(๑•ᴗ•๑)ଓ ♡
A fanfic of Jack and Nana would make me screech because they are the most ship ever for me and I'd be overjoyed. 😭💚❤️ The concept of anyone considering taking time out of their day and writing a fic about my OCs in general makes me happy.
and WOW my brain waves are powerful because I was literally thinking of an old Beanstalked plot point that basically dealt with the idea of how the main team get yeeted from Lore to Earth and have to figure out how to get back and how to tie it to Glitter and Guilt for a funny little crossover arc.
I won't go into detail about the ACTUAL events that cause it to potentially happen (bc I dunno if I'll do it...I mean I probably will but as a separate oneshot from the main storylines of both stories) BUT I can def answer how Jack and Nana would respond to a similar situation.
This will be a long one so buckle in
First thing to know is that Lore and Earth are two separate planets in the same solar system. Both are waaay closer than either think.
Lore occupants know about Earth, specifically they know it as "The World without Magic/Happy Endings/Fairy Tales/etc." It's kinda of mythicized.
Earth has no idea Lore is a thing because Lore has magic rings (kinda like Saturn's but cooler I dare say) that spin around it and make it invisible.
Bloopers are a glitch in reality in Lore where things from Earth often pop up there. Often old or lost objects.
Jack works part time for Baba, who tends to have a whole bunch of bloopers in his shop, which means he has very mild knowledge of Earth. Not a whole lot but if he winded up there-he would know "Oh! This is Earth!" and he'd be able to point out some stuff and name it. So he would know a car when he sees one-it's just a matter of actually being aware of how one works.
Hazel and Kettle have a TON of bloopers they hoard in their bedroom which serves as the attic for the inn Miss Castor is the keeper of. Specifically, they have the super fun bloopers like retro game consoles and comic books. Chances are, they even have some Sweetheart merch but are under the belief that she is merely fictional character.
So Jack is vaguely aware of Sweetheart. SPECIFICALLY as "The pink hero my little siblings thinks is cool".
Merch of villains is a whole lot more locked down with most being illegal save for what is made for the Decking City Park of Heroes AKA the Disney World/Universal Studios of Decking City entirely focusing on it's homegrown hero culture.
So Bitterbat is def not someone Jack is aware of.
When it comes to Nana, she doesn't really dabble much in bloopers or even learning about Earth. Unless it's from Jack's ramblings or mini adventures, she tends to limit herself to Lore and its shenanigans. She spent most her life living in a forest and is just now branching out to learn more about Briar Patch and Lore as a whole thanks to Jack making her realize "Oh hey the outside world is kinda fun".
She's taking baby steps and Earth is a very big jump she ain't trynna make yet.
So when it comes to them getting yeeted to Earth, SPECIFICALLY Decking City, Nana is def more reliant on Jack when it comes to knowledge. Where ever he is going, she is gonna be right there, hugging onto one of his arms for dear life because neither wants to lose the other.
Decking City is very interesting with how it's the least mundane setting for Jack and Nana to wind up in, which works perfectly because they come from a fantasy world. They will ironically feel a lot more comfortable when they see a giant monster attacking or some hero versus villain battle going on than dealing with crossing the street with a buncha traffic or even walking through a grocery store aka over stimulant central.
The biggest problem would be adapting to their temporary stay. Decking City is loud and busy and both would be overwhelmed quite easily from just the sights and sounds alone. A city is vastly more imposing than a kingdom when it comes to its buildings and even then, Jack and Nana spend most their time in Briar Patch which is a small humble town.
Nana would have the worse time because her keen Lupine hearing means every car honk, screech of tires, Kaiju alert siren, civilian yelling at another civilian, would lead to the biggest headache.
Protecting the other and making sure they're safe is their main priority. They care deeply about each other and seeing the constant look of discomfort on Nana's face and how nervous she is is enough to break Jack's heart. And the second anyone so much as breathes in the slightest bit of irritation at Jack seeming to not know where or what he's doing, under the belief he's a tourist, would lead to Nana snarling with her full set of chompers on display.
That's enough to cause anyone in the proximity to steer clear of them...or at least treat Jack very nicely because it's very obvious the two are traveling together.
ULTIMATELY, both would want some safe place so they can gather their thoughts, which are currently being scrambled by the city sights and sounds, calm down and figure out what they need to do to get back home.
Whatever they need to do, they are def willing to accomplish because they are used to being in some slice of hell situations. They've always figured their way out of them. Back on Lore, the gang adventures a bunch and have encountered a lot. Some of which I cannot share for spoilers but just know they are no strangers to dealing with the unknown.
It's just a big matter of figuring out exactly what unknown they are dealing with this time.
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Omg Omg Omg. First off, loving all of the anons popping off today. I’ve been sleuthing for a few weeks (more on that below) and was already a fan but today feels like justice.
Second, I especially loved hearing about that tweet about an actress losing roles to Kaia Gerber. Not bc it’s a good thing bc it’s too real!! I’m also in the industry and am likely not up for her roles (slightly different demos but not by much) so I can’t commiserate too personally but I have tea anyway bc boy do I know people who have had the misfortune of dealing with her in one way or another.
-The reason not a ton of tweets like the one mentioned exist is because people who work in the industry have to unplug. Going on Reddit or something to read about show business gossip is not the relaxing time it is for those not in the industry, ya know? And the last thing you wanna see online is some untalented offspring eating at Nobu or shopping in Beverly Hills while having access to roles and directors and more while we go unnoticed in our acting classes and- if we’re lucky- bit parts on shows or landing that tampon commercial 😖. Social media users also cling to their favorites with rabid fever, so why risk getting our experiences gaslit bc some fan thinks we’re “haters” or strangers who lie on the internet. Also, some stuff is too specific to a project and it’s unsafe to spill tea ( either bc it’s too identifying and we can’t burn bridges or bc of contracts stipulations-sometimes you can’t say ANYTHING about a project until it comes out and even posting anonymously isn’t necessarily safe.) That said, with the strikes I think more of us are bored and online more and- speaking for myself- am looovvvving finding content like your blog and some other sources bc it’s validating to see not everyone thinks Kaia Gerber is a great actress all because her mom is famous or whatever. Like we in the industry have issues with her, but when she keeps getting cast in things it messes with our sense of reality ya know?
- I know writers who are FURIOUS at their words being spoken by these nepo “actors.” Writers rarely have power with castings (unless maybe they wrote a movie that they are directing or created the show and are the head writer. And even then there’s sometimes other political stuff at play…it sucks) so it’s heartbreaking to actors when parts go to people who can’t even act like humans. Look, I’m not saying American Horror Story is amazing and hasn’t gone downhill, but it started fine until they kept doing stunt casting and jumping ship! (Again, writers only have so much power. They take the jobs they land, but the show runner decides where the plots and themes of a season are coming from. Meaning many talented writers write for bad projects bc they a) have to take a job and b) can only do so much depending on what’s outlined for the season- if that makes sense.) Hollywood is brutal but seeing some famous spawn phone in the work and bastardize their words and plots is just the sour cherry on top. Every writer I know HATES, nay RESENTS Kaia Gerber the most out of alllllll the little nepo babies bc of how truly awful she is. If they ever get to rise up in the ranks and get more power (like becoming a show runner), they all hope to have enough power to blacklist that sorry excuse for an “actress” from their projects as revenge. And frankly, best of luck to them and I hope they succeed.
- Kaia is also not exactly as warm and friendly to everyone on sets unless you’re, you know, Laura Dern or of some importance to whatever the project is. She’s not a bitch throwing cell phones but she does not give a fuck about anyone not in power…and it shows. I sadly know a few people who had the misfortune of working with her and she was not interested in having real talks with anyone not important. Multiple sources from multiple projects have told me that. Only unkind people act that way bc they can’t keep up a facade when under the stress of filming. And I’m not talking one or day off days…consistently uninterested in anyone who does not have power. Many people more famous than her treat everyone the same on sets…just saying. People need to stop assuming she’s nice bc she what, doesn’t act like a total brat on red carpets? Everyone can act nice when there’s a camera around, c’mon people. What you see in interviews is not reality!
- Responding to another anon, sure Austin should join the strike pickets. He doesn’t have to post on social media but others would do it for him and it would show support, even if it’s a touch performative so many week in. (I know this is an Austin safe space so I’ll refrain on saying more.) That said, I’ve picketed a bunch and have yet to see a celebrity. Most days it’s the actors and writers who are not famous striking, but when famous ones show up it makes the news and genuinely helps with morale. Yes, of course sometimes they show up but not even close to as much as the little people do. I wish more famous people would, but when the nepos don’t…it’s even more insulting. They literally bought their way into much of their success (even if bribes don’t happen for roles c’mon, do you know how expensive a publicist is? We know all about the nepos before they hit the catwalk or land their first role bc they hire people to do PR, which gives them an even bigger leg up in addition to the connections they already have). These nepos do not care they are out of work bc they have other things they can do and still have financial security. It’s just insulting. And I think the original anon was speaking to Kaia mysteriously making news for walking her dog when she has a movie coming out she can’t promote. I’m not sure but I don’t think Austin has any movies for a moment so it’s not as egregious that he isn’t doing that this week ( unless I’m missing something, which I may be bc I don’t follow him much). The least these nepos could do is support the little people who are actually impacted by the strike. It’s proving how little they care about the industry and how unaware they are or how hard it is (we’re striking because we’re not being paid enough!) One social media post is a joke- especially since she was on one of the few projects that got an exemption!! She can’t act, she gets to act in the strike anyway (with exceptional people, btw), and then goes to Nobu instead of the picket lines? Please. That’s how I read the original anon at least (and loved their support so thanks if you see this!) and I don’t care for the second anon picking a weird fight about it. If Austin has struck work then fine, they’re right, but if not it’s not the same thing- at least not at this moment.
TL;DR- Thanks for all of the posts today. It was a good and validating read after a hard summer. Keep sharing why Kaia needs to be canceled! I don’t even believe in cancel culture and think it rarely sticks, but I’m willing to make an exception for Cindy’s entitled spawn who brings absolutely nothing but headaches all around. If nothing else, let’s encourage her to go back to school if she’s so “scholarly” with…is it romance reads in her book club? I genuinely don’t understand it and don’t want to but geez, that girl needs perspective outside of Hollywood for a few years and I hope she gets it somewhere (school or otherwise) bc that’s genuinely the best thing that can happen to her. I pray for the day she stops getting cast and my friends do instead.
omfg anon, whoever you are, i love you endlessly and i honestly don't have any words. this post should be sent around to the ENTIRE FANDOM because some people need to wake up.
am i shocked that people in the industry are fed up with kaia? absolutely not. i have read a couple of small blind items in the past that have mentioned her bitchy behavior. and while there weren't many of these accounts coming forward, it was those in the whole pile of good publicity surrounding her that always stood out to me more. it's so easy to fake being nice when you want to rub elbows with important people to get a foothold in the acting door.
im also so incredibly sorry that you and your fellow actor peers are even going through this strike right now. it's horrific and it should never have happened. it's the little people that already struggled to get jobs in the first place to get by that worry me more than some A list celeb that can't work on another movie but can chill in their nice house until the strike ends.
people that have creative type jobs and that work for their passions are always getting shafted by society. we shouldn't have to suffer because we don't want the typical corporate career. too many actors work their asses off to go to 100 auditions and are lucky to book maybe one thing in a blue moon while working day jobs at cafes or something. im sure it can feel depressing and degrading. you guys just want your big break, and to pay the bills while working your dream job. and im sorry that people like kaia gerber steals the work from right under your feet without a second thought. AND she butchers the roles she in, making the whole thing a farce.
im so glad you decided to come over here and talk about your experiences. honestly i hope more of your actor and writer friends speak out about the injustices. if you don't have a blog of your own i'd suggest making one now to document your feelings. who knows, it might get around and in the right hands of people to promote it ona grander scale. the regular media is barely covering the strike as it stands. we need to see that you guys are continually being shafted left and right.
and hey, i hope that more A List celebs picket with you guys on the front lines. it helps to make the headlines. thank you again for your commentary <3
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Rambling about an OC under here lol plus maybe vague and not terribly important first-chapter-ish spoilers for the still unnamed sequel to >E.04642-SYS: Failure to compile. (but I mean if you liked Valentina I guess it could be interesting because that's who I'm gonna ramble about)
So there's a TON more Valentina in the sequel and she's an absolute delight to write, which like. Maybe that's blowing my own horn a little bit but whatever. I'm allowed.
The thing about her as a character and also in-world as a reploid is that she's very easy to not take seriously. She was created as a sex worker. She likes being a sex worker, at least when she has autonomy about it, and that makes her kind of bizarrely human-adjacent and even gross to most reploids. And it's not subtle, it's not something she can just hide, because she's physically constructed in a very different way to the rest of them. She doesn't even have the goofy feet (which actually means that she's got a very good balance system, since she can't make up for it by just having a large footprint like a lot of reploid designs do. She also uses it for dance). Humans look at her and see a thing made for their entertainment or abuse, reploids look at her and see something even worse. If she's not gross, she's pitiful, but either way, ew, she's not really One Of Them. She's kind of alien to both groups.
And yet she's emotionally intelligent in a way that most reploids are not, because she's got a lot of life experiences that are specifically with both humans and reploids and not in a work capacity. She's the kind of person who hangs out with the freaks and weirdos. She's dated both humans and reploids, sometimes at the same time, in a lot of different capacities. She's been homeless longer than a lot of the others and she's known a lot more people of all stripes so she's got a lot of street smarts that reploids in general never develop. Valentina is actually ridiculously capable and resilient!
But that tends to go unnoticed because she was designed to be a manic pixie dream girl that you could rent for a few hours. And she doesn't even deny or dislike that. That's part of her and she's into radical self-acceptance, so she doesn't even see it as "yeah I'm a sex worker but you should still value me because I'm a person underneath that." She sees it as "yeah I'm a sex worker AND you should still value me because you should value everyone no matter what they do with their body" and that's a much harder sell.
X sometimes even trips on this despite his best efforts because he's just not had to ever consider how to treat somebody like Valentina before recently. She's not a combat unit, she's ridiculously good at what she does, but what she does is all soft skills that he's never learned to value. He does figure it out, and they actually become good friends, but it takes a lot of conscious work on his part and in the wrong mood if he's feeling antisocial (aka something's triggered his PTSD that he definitely has but doesn't know what to call) he'll still slip into 'ugh why are you bothering me with your frivolous shit' mode unless he calls himself out on it.
But the thing that Valentina talks about in >E.04642-SYS: Failure to compile. (while she spooks X pretty hard lol), where she says that they aren't that different, is pretty accurate actually, and X comes to realize that months later because he's slow and has the emotional IQ of a doorknob, while Valentine's kind of a prodigy for a reploid. They were both pushed into doing what they hated with skills that they had originally enjoyed having and it really fucked with both of their senses of self and ability to relate to anyone else (and resulted in a trail of corpses, whoops). She's got a huge head start on processing it though.
The thing about Valentina that X appreciates absolutely the most though is that she does see where they're similar and treats him like a regular person about it. He's not a poor little broken baby or inspiration porn or anything. He's just a guy who's Been Through It, like just about everyone else she's known. She's actually pretty comfortable to talk to as a result because she's a good listener and gives him a fair amount of insight, and she turns into probably X's third closest friend, which is a tight race with Glitch and Mack (X would never even try to put them in any kind of order either). I've really enjoyed watching that develop more in the sequel. She's got a pretty big role!
Anyway I love Valentina. Absolutely simping for my own OCs today and nobody can stop me.
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⋆ ˚。⋆୨୧˚ about eri !
hello ! so first and foremost, my full name is erilyn. i go back 'eri' as a nickname. i started this blog because i love to write & recently got into the marauders fandom as a joke, but now i'm emotionally attached. there's no turning back now, i suppose
this is going to sound super pick-me, but i swear it's true. normally, when i have a conversation with people, i try to keep the topic more directed toward them because i have a hard time talking about myself. so i very sincerely apologize if this post is structured weird, worded strange, or anything like that. i'm genuinely struggling suuuper badly right now #help
okay, anyway ! some of my favorite to do are read, write, listen to music, and snuggle my cats. it's a pretty short / bland list of grandma hobbies, but i love them more than life itself.
one of my favorite books is obviously atyd, it's what i read to first get involved in this little community, so it will forever hold a dear place in my heart. regardless of how basic of an answer it comes off to be. but as for physical (non-fanfic) books, my favorite is definitely powerless by lauren roberts.
i've been writing for as long as i can remember. there are pictures of me as a baby writing shit down as though it actually meant something. but when i was thirteen, i decided to actually write for a purpose ⎯ which would make my work mean something in an attempt to make baby eri proud. i've written a TON of short stories, and a few original completed books. none of which are published, of course. my imposter syndrome is far too severe for that kind of commitment..
since i mentioned music, i'd love to list some of my favorite artists (i say that as if anyone actually gives a shit). my all time, forever number one favorite is hozier. he's everything to me. his music means so much, and the poetic nature behind his lyrics is everything i strive for my own writing to come off as. a few other artists i enjoy : lana del ray , david bowie , noah khan , the weeknd , queen , mac miller , the lumineers , coldplay , benson boone , arctic monkeys , the smiths , rhcp (red hot chili peppers). as well as so so so so many more. my music taste is honestly all over the place, and i apologize, but i wouldn't trade it for the world because it's literally entangled into my soul & makes me who i am.
oh my god now i get to yap about my cats! AHH!
i have two kittens (they're over a year old now, but i will forever & always see them as my little baby kittens, fuck off). their names are indie & teeves. indie is super cuddly and loves her momma to death. she hides from everyone who isn't me, and will scratch you if you look at me the wrong way. teeves, on the other hand, is waaaay less sociable. she hides from everyone ⎯ like indie. but unlike her sister, teeves hides from me as well. nobody can ever find her unless she eating or using the bathroom. i'm a tad bit offended by her ignorance, but as long as she's happy i'm happy.
alright i'm done yapping now ! i'm honestly surprised if you made it all the way through my rambling, seeing as none of it was interesting for anyone except me. i hope you guys enjoy my page & my writing provided. if you have any questions, don't be afraid to ask, my DMs are always open if you need someone to talk to. i love you guys !!!
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Can we please talk about autistic grief,,
This is more so directed at when you've gone your whole life undiagnosed or something along those lines feeling internally isolated from the world and its inhabitants.. that something is inherently different, or even wrong with you.
And then come to find out when you understand autism is more than caterpillar toys that spell out words, tablets and puzzle pieces, that you learn your experience has a genuine name with so many other experiences just like yours and oh my god suddenly this all makes sense..
So you do research. Tons, and tons, and TONS of research, and you do nothing but relate but God forbid you tell anyone because "I don't see it." "You don't act like 'them'" "but you're so smart and pretty!"
Because it's a spectrum. Because it's not Asperger's, a Nazi term or next step in evolution, because you've always felt out of place and despite sharing interests there is still this invisible wall trying to push you away from the vast majority of your peers, your family, your sense of social security and self image. You start to think you're weird, and no matter how many times you encounter the opportunity to make this friend, this acquaintance or mutual- while you think "maybe this time it'll be different, maybe this time I can keep this relationship, whatever it may be,", you fail.
They look at you, they sense something's wrong, something's ... not quite right. Why do you give me that face? I answered at the right time, I said the right things, I did the correct actions and interactions, why do you ostracize me? I do not understand what I am doing wrong, I don't understand what's happening and why you tell others I'm weird, make kiddy rumors that because of that weirdness I must not be right in the head, that I'm wrong and contorted in my mind, that I'll be a different person when I grow up, one for you and those who are like you to look down upon.
It hurts. Peace is nowhere in sight and now the need to interact has been hidden away in a box.
Is this schizoid? EDD? Maybe? It's not just "shutting off my emotions," no it is deeper, more primal than that. Something else. But now I understand that yeah, it's autism and maybe now that I know, I can work with this and figure myself out. But no one really knows how to deal with us, I suppose. People will be angry, mean, yell obscenities and have blatant disrespect towards me for one of my actions until I say "hey! I'm autistic and unless you tell me calmly we're not getting anywhere with this!"
Sudden kindness and understanding, how I loathe it, shouldn't that have been there in the first place? Instead of yelling, making rumors, throwing insults and jokes that are meant to drive humiliation and lower self image. Now they switch. "autistic=baby voice" "autistic=lower intelligence" and yet... They're surprised that I AM smart, when I AM more successful than them, that I'm capable of kindness and just want to help.
And that isn't even close to scraping the end of the barrel.
I've been ridiculed by both family and peers, ostracized from family and people who I unfortunately mistake friendly as friends, I've been dragged through hell and back because my personal experience, abuse occurred. Instead of understanding I was usually met by passive aggressive lectures, demeaning comments about health and IQ, I've even been left in the cold with thin clothes not built for it. My offense? Apparently I had a texture issue with some ricotta cheese my mom knew I was also allergic too. All but one of the many things I've gone through on a daily for now more than 18 years yeah, my situation isn't the worst case scenario, and it's not even close to some of the obscenities human kind are capable of.
But it is one thing:
Bad. For better or for worse,, bad. And that is an understatement, to treat any human with insensitivity and beliefs that you can hurt their emotions without consequences is vile.
And what happens when you're sabotaged of a normal skill set because wow,, no matter how hard you tried you didn't understand what was wrong with you, so you couldn't fix it. It's a gut wrenching feeling, to say the least.
#autistic things#autistic problems#undiagnosed disability#autistic grief#rant post#important psa#lets chat#please rb#ok to interact
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ELVIS AND AUSTIN!ELVIS ASK GAME: 🦁 EDITION
(courtesy of @aconflagrationofmyown)
Technically I was tagged to do this almost a week ago and then I Forgor about it sooooooo. No time like the present tho! Especially considering it’s apparently Elvis Presley Day (everybody say thank you @loving-elvis). I was tagged by @mymamalife and @lindszeppelin (ty lovies!) and I’m not sure who all has already done this so anyone who hasn’t done it yet and wants to do it just say I tagged you
Let’s start off gently shall we? Because this most definitely devolves into thirsty madness later, you’ve been warned…and also, we are all at various stages in the Elvis fandom, some of us have been suckling the gospel of EP from birth, others just had their sexual awakening with the 2022 movie, and then there’s the ones among us with frickin’ doctorates on the man. All are welcome, it keeps us colorful. Feel free to pick and chose which of these you want to answer.
When and what was your first exposure to Elvis Presley?
This is probably a very common answer (especially for younger Elvis fans like myself) but in terms of what I can actually remember? Lilo and Stitch! I’m sure I probably heard my parents listening to Elvis growing up (we have a veritable fuck ton of Elvis CDs lying around the house, including every film, every special and all of his gospel albums AND the Viva Elvis soundtrack from the Cirque du Soleil show, which is very good if you’ve never heard it) but Lilo and Stitch is when I actually remembered hearing it.
And what was your first impression?
Catchy stuff. I remember being very fond of Stuck On You for some incredibly specific reason. As an adult, however, Lilo laying on the floor listening to Heartbreak Hotel is probably my favourite (and very relatable). But I didn’t really think about him beyond that until much later in life.
Lace shirts or jumpsuits?
In terms of what I would wear? Lace shirts. In terms of what Elvis would wear? Both honestly. One fits the love I have for the pretty boy aesthetic and the other has an element of camp to it, which fits the love I have for camp and kitsch. He manages to look good in both (and just about everything inbetween) and that’s incredibly unfair because I don’t think I could ever pull off a jumpsuit.
You can steal one of Elvis/Austin’s outfits, what’s it going to be?
Again, in terms of what I would wear? The Trouble outfit. 100%. I’m a big fan of Green Day and from the minute I saw it I started calling it the American Idiot outfit, which has led to very interesting debate in my household as to whether or not Billie Joe Armstrong based THE American Idiot outfit off of Elvis, which I think would be VERY interesting if he did, considering the nature of who Elvis was, especially when he was starting out. The image- and subsequent outcry as a result of- a young rock n’ roll rebel rauser from the 1950s and what it means to be a punk musician (particularly an American punk musician, and definitely THOSE American punk musicians) are actually quite similar, at least to me. Putting my own comfort aside, however, I’d say the pink suit lace shirt combo from the hayride. I’ve been obsessed with it ever since. Unless there’s something Elvis actually wore that had lions on it. Comfort or no, I’d wear it because I have an image to maintain. (Honourable mention: the tiger jumpsuit. Rawr)
C’mon, we know you’ve been watching/reading old interviews and random footage of the man, so what’s your favorite random Elvis quote?
During the ‘68 comeback special where he curls his lip and says “I got news for you, baby: I did 29 pictures like that!” while making fun of how much he curled his lip.
Did you find Austin Butler’s lips distracting despite them being in a movie about the King of plush upper lips? (Be honest now)
Well I do NOW.
In all honesty I was actually probably more distracted by his eyes. Anytime I see a gif of Austin kissing someone, however, I am most definitely thinking about his lips.
What’s an aspect of Elvis’ character you wish more people appreciated?
I think there is a lot to be said about Elvis’ faith honestly. His gospel albums genuinely moved me to tears and, shockingly, are what won him the three Grammys he has. 14 nominations throughout his career and he won all three for his gospel albums. His version of Amazing Grace is one of the best versions I’ve ever heard. I think, although I didn’t know him personally, but I think there was something very genuine about Elvis’ faith, which isn’t always the case for someone as famous as he was. I hope it gave him some semblance of peace whenever he needed it most.
You meet Col. Tom Parker for the first time, forewarned with the knowledge of what a scumbag he is, what do you do?
A. Nothing. You’re a coward who doesn’t care about abused golden-hearted men
B. You give the Colonel a stern telling off
C. You encourage Elvis to leave him and break the contract
E. You slap a legal document against that fat suit and declare “Mrs. Claus is bringing you a lawsuit!”
F. You waste no time with formalities, it’s a letter opener to the juggler for that piece of trash
I know how hard it is to try and accept that someone close to you is abusing you or taking advantage of you, and it’s especially hard to do on your own. I think it’s not unreasonable to think that, if Elvis had been able to get out from under the Colonel’s thumb, he might have lived longer, or at the very least had better quality of life before he died.
What was your favorite aspect/scene from the Elvis 2022 movie?
God it’s hard to pick just one thing. There’s so many things I love about this movie in particular. I think it might actually be my favourite Baz Lurhman film to date (which is impressive because I fucking love Moulin Rouge), and as much as I love Austin’s performance, it’s not the only thing that really stands out to me. Everything about this movie is magical. The cinematography. The sound design. The costumes. The sets. But if you’re really going to make me pick just one.......as much as I love Trouble (and believe me, I do. Especially after watching King Creole), I might have to go with the introduction to the Vegas Years with the way Baz builds up the orchestration to the Vegas rendition of That’s Alright Mama. I had chills the first time I saw it and I about had chills every subsequent time I saw it. The way it not only builds anticipation, but builds the very track itself? Genuinely inspired imo, even for Baz.
You can choose only one song or piece of media to convince someone to become an Elvis fan, what is it going to be?
If I Can Dream, and the context surrounding it. The 68′ Comeback Special is renowned for a reason, but If I Can Dream is something else altogether, because it’s not just a brilliant performance. It’s a brilliant performance that means something. It actually reminds me of U2′s Super Bowl halftime show in that way (and it’s my favourite halftime show as a result). If I Can Dream came at a time where the nation was particularly divisive, and it is genuinely one of the most moving- and heartfelt- performances I’ve ever seen.
How many children would you give Elvis Presley from your own -or theoretical- womb? (listen to the beast in ya, your feminism won’t serve you here)
Due to a multitude of reasons I’ll say one or two. We’d adopt.
Where are you hanging out with EP, his bedroom with the teddy bears, Club Handy, his private jet or Graceland?
Graceland. Especially the jungle room. I never knew what it looked like as a kid so whenever someone mentioned it I always pictured the tackiest looking room with fake vines and forest wallpaper and animal heads...only to then find out it’s actually very tasteful and warm and quite gorgeous actually. I think I would spend a lot of time in that room honestly.
What is the peak Elvis era? (Warning, this says an awful lot about you…)
Late ‘60s early ‘70s. Elvis had always been a sex symbol, but the raw, unrefined sex appeal of the ‘68 Comeback Special had me in a grip. He was no longer that young boyish rebel of the mid to late ‘50s, and after many years and failed attempts at the kind of film career I wish I- and Elvis himself- had gotten to see, Elvis had finally returned to his roots as a musician, and a rock n’ roll musician at that. There was a maturity to his sound that I really loved.
How long have you been an Austin Butler fan (be honest now, God is watching)
Radicalized June 24th 2022, but now I’m in it for the long haul. God help you all when that biker movie comes out. Also Dune. ESPECIALLY Dune. As much as I actually liked the 1984 version, it is an absolute injustice to Feyd Rautha, and I know Austin has the range to play the nastiest little space twink I know and love.
However if they make him bald I will quit my job and go full time in the walls of Denis Villeneuve’s house.
What kind of Elvis chick are you? A 1950’s prospective wife material that he’s already sampled, a 1960’s film set fling, or a Vegas torrid backstage affair?
Hmmmmmmm. I was a drama kid growing up so of the three I’m gonna say film set fling.
Is Austin Butler an honorary southerner now? Answer options:
A. Hell no, California can keep his sweet cheeks
B. Hell yes, he’s practically been possessed by the soul of the King of the South
Pick your poison in the fan-fiction realm: angst, fluff, smut, fluffy smut, angsty fluff, angsty smut? Or is reading about Elvis Presley an acknowledged health hazard?
Angst. I fucking love to suffer (and I like to drag everyone else down with me. Just ask any of my friends). And it’s not just fanfiction, either. My favorite show right now is literally Succession.
Spit or swallow for this man? (And if you don’t understand this question move right along)
ABSOLUTELY NOT
but also if you’re really going to make me choose.......spit.
Would Gladys approve of you? Take your above answer into consideration.
Honestly? I’m not sure. I think I’m the kind of person that would try to conform to her expectations to an unhealthy degree, but in terms of my feelings for Elvis? I want to hope that she would appreciate the sincerity.
Which of Elvis’ cars is your favorite?
Not the pink Cadillac, but the purple one!
What are your odds for besting this man at karate?
Well I DID watch The Karate Kid so
less than none probably (Sorry Ralph). Unless I’m in Eagle Fang. Then maybe one or two. That being said, I would love to see a fight between Elvis and Terry Silver. I’m getting an ABSURD amount of satisfaction at the thought of Elvis beating the shit out of Terry Silver. I would point and laugh for hours on end.
If you could meet Elvis and have enough composure to tell him something, what would it be?
A hug. Some words of encouragement. If Elvis truly felt like he never made a film he could be proud of I’d tell him that I loved him in King Creole. Maybe offer to say a prayer for him if it would bring him even some small semblance of peace.
What’s a hobby or pastime of yours you wish you could share with Elvis/Austin!Elvis?
I love making playlists because I listen to a shit ton of music. Getting to listen to new music with Elvis and be able to make playlists together just sounds so cozy to me honestly.
What’s the Elvis 2022 quote you’ve been mumbling to yourself ever since you heard it?
EIGHT HUNDRED SHOWS. YOU DON’T HAVE A GODDAMN PASSPORT YOU SON OF A BITCH.
What are your top 3 go-to Elvis songs?
Where Could I Go But To The Lord, Heartbreak Hotel and Polk Salad Annie 🐊
If you could spare him one tragedy what would it be?
Addiction.
Is there a modern artist that sorta scratches for you the itch that Elvis’ absence leaves?
I can’t say there is one when it comes to Elvis. The absolute closest in terms of Elvis specifically is, for me, getting to listen to Austin Butler, but that’s about it. The more I’ve come to learn about who Elvis was and appreciate the magnitude of his loss, the less of an answer I have.
How did you react at the end of the movie when In the Ghetto started to play?
A. I got up and fixed a snack because I have no soul
B. I left feeling alarmingly horny
C. I was impressed but didn’t realize how affected I was until days later when it was still with me
D. I cried buckets they had to bring in a mop
E. I may have appeared emotionless but in fact my soul was leaving my body and I don’t think it’s returned quite yet
If you’ve got a favorite gif or photo insert it here and bless us all
#WHEW LORDY THIS TOOK AWHILE#dash games#elvis presley#elvis 2022#austin butler#this was so much fun tho omg
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You should write your own version of Ash in Paldea fanfic because i would like to read it
Anon, my dear, I am sooooo sorry it took me FOREVER and a day to respond to this ask! As much as I would like it I feel that would be a bit much for me to write a proper worthy fic! Such a fic would take a shit ton of planning and time and I already had some still in progress fics that have long been waiting to be updated! But your ask did make me wanna at least do a run through of which of our Paldea Pokémon would Ash have most likely gotten had he been able to hang out in Paldea! Let’s go through them one by one (or evolution group by group)! Some of my answers will be short one sentence stuff but others might be more wordy! Overall though it’s gonna come down to “can I picture him with one based on how well I’ve gotten to know him over the past 20 something years?”
I’m leaving out the four ruinous treasures Pokémon as they are considered legendaries and Ash doesn’t officially get the legendaries unless they are the “follow you from the start” ones like Nebby in Alola was for him. As for the Paradox Pokémon I was originally gonna include them (other than the legendary versions again) since I'd generally consider them to be similar to Ash's Poipole/Naganadel in being more special than other Pokemon but still fair game. However I thought it over more and considering the game emphasizes the whole "Paradox Pokemon will more than likely cause harm to the ecosystem as they are outside their own time period and so need to be kept in Area Zero where they and those around them will be safest" I think it'd be FAR more likely for them to be used in special episodes like the Ultra Beasts were treated in the Alola anime.
For the record my own opinions and biases are at play here! If anyone reading this has their own thoughts please share them!!! I definitely wanna know what others think on this!
Koraidon-Miraidon: Like I said earlier Ash doesn’t get the legendary unless they’re with you from the start and that’s the category the raidons fall under! I think either one could work well with Ash and while personally I would love Miraidon as that’s my baby I feel like Koraidon would probably mesh better with Ash’s vibes. I can actually imagine a storyline where both Professor Sada AND Professor Turo exist and are clashing with their ideals regarding past and future (so both kinds of Paradox Pokemon will be around to run amok). And while Ash gets one of the raidons as his buddy the other raidon (the alt one instead of a copy) can play as Ash’s raidon’s personal antagonist. How the relationship between the two raidons change over time would be interesting to see!
Sprigatito-Floragato-Meowscarda: The Galar anime brought an end to the tradition of Ash being guaranteed at least one of the starters. And before that Kalos broke the tradition of Ash for sure getting the grass starter. But I still feel like the Sprigatito line has the best chance of being part of Ash’s team of the starters. Is this partially fueled by how for every generation to date Ash and I have meshed on starter choices (yeah I guess that doesn’t mean much for the generations he got all three for BUT STILL!!!!) Plus I love the idea of Ash getting a Grass/Dark kitty to go with his Fire/Dark kitty Incineroar!
Fuecoco-Crocalor-Skeldirge: This friendly fella does have a fair chance, although I picture it following the same vein as Oshawott or Rowlet or Totodile before it.
Quaxly-Quaxwell-Quaquaval: Again, I can see it but in the sense of being treated like Oshawott, Rowlet, and Totodile were.
Lechonk-Oinkologne: Hmm, I can’t really see it.
Tarountula-Spidops: Really can’t see it.
Nymble-Lokix: You know, I can sorta picture it. Not one of those “oh yeah totally fits” ones but if it did happen in a canon setting I wouldn’t raise an eyebrow at it.
Pawmi-Pawmo-Pawmot: As much as I adore this line Ash NEVER gets the Pika clones since his main buddy is the original Pika pal!!!
Tandemaus-Maushold: Nah I don’t see it happening.
Fidough-Dachsbun: Listen I would LOVE if Ash got this line! My boy deserves an adorable puppy Pokemon okay? It would be the cutest shit imaginable and I would be all in for it! But in a canon setting I personally would be pleasantly surprised if he got one rather than thinking it’s one of those almost guarantees. But holy hell do I want a universe where this dream is real.
Smoliv-Dolliv-Arboliva: I find this to be an adorable little guy who evolves into an interesting guy but I don’t know I can’t exactly see Ash having one. But I can’t exactly give it a hard no either because Ash’s Sewaddle-Swadloon-Leavanny was one I didn’t think would work but ended up fitting more than I expected and the Smoliv line kinda is in that same category.
Squawkabilly: Don’t really see it.
Nacli-Naclstack-Garganacl: Originally I would’ve given this one a pass but I’ve kinda grown on the idea of Ash having one? I don’t know I guess it’s a step above my reasoning for the Nymble-Lokix line for some reason. Yeah, this is one of those “I can’t explain why but the idea is more interesting than expected” ones.
Charcadet-Armarouge-Ceruledge: FUCK YES! Please it would be a travesty if Ash didn’t get one okay? I actually have an idea that follows that plot that tends to get repeated of Ash taking in another trainer’s abused Pokemon. Ash taking in this poor little Charcadet that had been let down over and over by its previous trainer and slowly learns to find a new happier and healthier home with Ash and his friends. And as it grows stronger over time it also has to face up to those emotions it feels over what it went through with its old trainer. And trying to sort through those emotions and how it grows and accepts different aspects of itself and what happened to it and how it will live on comes together when it has to decide which armor it will wear, and thus whether it evolves into Armarouge or Ceruledge. And honestly I think good arguments can be made for it picking either evolution (Ceruledge is my baby so I want that option so badly) but I feel like Armarouge and everything that evolution stands for may ultimately be the one that it takes.
Tadbulb-Bellibolt: Another one of those “don’t picture it too well but wouldn’t be too surprised if it happened” ones.
Wattrel-Kilowattrel: This is a tough one in that Ash has a habit of getting a regional bird (though this tradition is not that set in stone but still happens). But Paldea doesn’t exactly have a true regional bird. The closest would probably be the Wattrel line. I don’t know I’m really fond of the idea of Ash getting one but I’m not as set on it as I expected to be.
Maschiff-Mabosstiff: I don’t think so. I mean a small part of me can picture it but for the most part I feel like this fella is way more associated with my guy Arven. And in this hypothetical anime with Ash I do indeed picture Arven in it and of course they’d give him Mabosstiff.
Shroodle-Grafaiai: I won’t give this one a hard no. I’m not sold in all the scenarios I’m picturing but I can warm up to the idea.
Bramblin-Brambleghast: Not really seeing it.
Toedscool-Toedscruel: Haha I live for the silly run this guy has in the game but no I don’t see Ash having his own.
Klawf: As much as I think this goofy fella is entertaining I don’t see one ever joining Ash’s squad.
Capsakid-Scovillain: I can’t imagine this spicy fella with Ash at all honestly!
Rellor-Rabsca: No I can’t see it.
Flittle-Espathra: I really like the evolution of this line but I just can’t see one meshing well with Ash. But part of me would want it to happen just to see how the anime would make it work!
Tinkatink-Tinkatuff-Tinkaton: Listen I’m surprisingly invested in the idea of Ash having one of these fellas on his team. Like it can be genuinely cute and cool and I actually like picturing Ash helping out Tinkatink with gaining bravery and confidence, and how that growth and bond between them affects each evolution.
Wiglett-Wugtrio: Nah, not at all 😂
Bombirdier: Not seeing this one either.
Finizen-Palafin: I’m more into this than I expected! I can’t say hard yes or hard no. But I like the idea of it and would wanna see how it would work in the anime.
Varoom-Revavroom: I don’t see it.
Cyclizar: I don’t see it. And it’s not just because I believe Ash would get one of the raidons, even if they didn’t exist I don’t see Ash clicking with a Cyclizar.
Orthworm: Gosh I love this silly looking guy so much but half the fun is when it’s that giant Titan sized one and unless Ash gets that giant goober what’s the point???
Glimmet-Glimmora: Another one I really don’t picture Ash having for his own.
Greavard-Houndstone: No I don’t see it. I actually picture this Pokémon to be more evolved in a special episode with Ryme that goes into her backstory rather than Ash getting one.
Flamigo: Gosh I want it. I find the idea so funny! And I think Ash could actually work well with one of these guys. Just….the idea of Ash going around with what is basically a fucking flamingo 😂😂😂
Cetoddle-Cetitan: This is yet another one of those 50/50 “can’t say yes for sure but can’t give it a firm no either” ones. I actually find the idea of Ash getting one cute!
Veluza: Don’t see it.
Dondozo: Another don’t see it.
Tatsugiri: And a third don’t see it, sadly!
Frigibax-Arctibax-Baxcalibur: This is an odd one in that you can make a fair argument in either direction and I’d probably say “yeah I get it” every time.
Gimmighoul-Gholdengo: Ahhh this oddball. Yeah sorry, I cannot imagine it in the slightest.
Annihilape: This is one where it’d be nice to have Ash’s Primeape make a comeback for a potential evolution into Annihilape! And you know what it can be a fun episode of character growth of Primeape centering on whether or not it WILL evolve and what that means for it and its character and all the training it has done so far and will continue to do. Plus I love me those good old evolution drama episodes they make for some good character stuff!
Paldean Wooper-Clodsire: I adore this adorably cuddly fella so much!!!! But hmm I just can’t imagine Ash with one. Like I try to picture it and it just doesn’t come through.
Farigiraf: Not really. I never really could picture Ash with a Girafarig to begin with, so it hasn’t really changed with the evolution.
Dudunsparce: Nah, I don’t see it. I can imagine it showing up in a couple joke episodes though!
Kingambit: You know I like the idea of it. Ash finding a small Pawniard who so desperately wants to become strong but is a tiny fella always pushed around. And Ash helps it to train and prove itself to the other Pawniards. And by the end it proves it has grown but knows it needs to explore more to gain more strength and improve. And how better to do that than by joining up with Ash in his journey to ever grow and improve as a Pokémon Master in the making! And we get to watch the little guy grow over several episodes into Bisharp and finally Kingambit.
Paldean Tauros: You know what I was originally gonna say no because Ash already has his herd of 30 Kantonian Tauros. But I started imagining a fun episode where maybe Ash runs into a Paldean Tauros that, for some reason, doesn’t have its own herd and is having difficulty integrating with another. Maybe Ash tries to help this Tauros bond with various herds over the episode but all failing while also he himself bonds with the Tauros. And maybe Ash at the end is like hey I have a bunch of Tauros of my own and they’re a great bunch would you like to join? And Ash has this Paldean Tauros meet his own 30 Kantonian Tauros and at first it’s like “oh Paldean Tauros has already been rejected so many times what if it happens again?” But then the Tauros happily let the Paldean Tauros join the herd. And fuck man now I’m invested in this 🥹
And yup, that’s all my thoughts on which of the Paldean Pokemon Ash would likely get if we did get a Paldea anime with him!
Yeah I know like 99% of my “no” choices basically just came down to me being unable to imagine Ash with that Pokemon 😅 But I did say my opinions would A) basically come down to that and B) be biased because how can it not be? But like I said earlier I would LOVE to hear any other thoughts, both from those who agree or those who disagree. Whatever, I’m game! It’s a fun little thought exercise, right?
#story time with me#pokemon#pokeani#ash ketchum#precious gem#gosh this poor anon has been waiting for-fucking-ever for me to answer their ask#and I just haven’t replied until now because of this and that#and the main bulk of my response doesn’t truly have to do with their ask 😅#but I hope you enjoyed my response either way anon!#and I hope others enjoy my thoughts and would like to add their own!
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My Unpopular Bookish/Writing Opinions
Since I got to uni I’ve been suffering from really weird burnout, so until I get that fixed a little, you are unfortunately stuck with this kind of posts! Lol, I’m sorry. But I’m getting better by the day, pinky promise.
Anyway, I’ve realized I have tons of unpopular book related opinions so why not start my new theme causing people to fight in my comments, am I right?
Romantic Fluff in Non-Contemporary/Romance
I’ve seen other accounts talk about this BUT, unless romance is the main genre, why do we never get to see the couple get together and interact as a fluffy in love pair???? I would give anything to see a fantasy couple fight monsters together while holding hands. I get slow burn and angst are really popular, but for once I’d love to see a couple get together without any complications. Their world is hard enough, why not let them have one nice thing?
HOWEVER, open endings >>>
Okay no bare with me. I KNOW this is super contradictory buuuuut, there’s just something about an incomplete ending. Now, I don’t mean LAZY, more like... If you’ve ever seen the movie Inception (2010), at the end of the film the MC is wondering if his kids are real or part of the dreamscape, but the camera angle changes before he can get his answer and we’re left with the intrigue. OR, picture, a romance story in which the MC and the LI haven’t seen each other in years, the MC finally gets the courage to seek them out, gets to the coffee shop the LI works at and the story ends before the MC opens the door or the LI turns around. It’s such a disliked ending, but I LOVE that.
Plot is more interesting, but less important
If you know me, you know I LOVE writing plot and analysing characters, but hate analysing plot and writing characters. But the fun thing about storytelling is that plot requires characters, but characters don’t require plot. If you have a strong plot but weak characters, you have a weak story and that is a much larger hole to dig yourself out of than the other way around.
Adult Authors Writing YA Smut is Weird
Enough said. I don’t know how else I can elaborate about this. I just find the thought of a, idk, 35 year old author thinking about seventeen year olds having sex VERY weird. I understand the good intentions behind it in books like Breathless by Jennifer Niven, but I just can’t get behind it at all.
Age Gaps
Vampires, immortal villains, fae... WHY have we made it a point to romanticise these weird-ass age gaps in fiction?????? I’ve heard many people justify it with “but they’re immature so it’s like the immortal is 17 too” and, come on, if someone says that about men in ANY other case I don’t think I need to fill in the gaps of what other contexts that’s used...
The insane power imbalance between a 500+ year old and a teenager is so overlooked and it’s disgusting. If the LI wasn’t hot, we’d be having an entirely different conversation.
Editing >>> Writing
I’m sorry but WRITING?!! No thank you. Creating a story is fun, yes, but actually putting it into words for the first time is SO hard and stressful. But there’s something so magical about cleaning up a story and making it stable that I love so much. Editing is where I think true power lies, tbh.
Sci-Fi and Dystopia Please Come Back
I know we basically live in a George Orwell/Brave New World/2010 YA dystopian hybrid monster baby world right now, but this genre was really the peak of all modern literature. The power to see the world through the eyes of pseudo-sociology and the worst possible scenario cannot be topped, I swear.
And then with sci-fi. Of course, I’m a sci-fi writer so obviously I have this opinion lol but there are SO many amazingly cool inventions and discoveries coming up every single day, how these not used more often in fiction???? There’s so much potential to do cruel, I mean, epic things in fiction using modern science and I’m lowkey disappointed we’re not using it to its true potential. I mean, what other point is there to science.
Marketing Fantasy Novels
Okay, here comes the big one: the current marketing techniques RUINED fantasy for me. WHY has the industry made comp titles such a big deal? It’s understandable from a selling point of view - to a publisher, not so much an audience. Being able to compare your book to another has become such a huge requirement that books are no longer unique, instead they’ve become shadows of one another. I see this so often when querying. So many agents say “please provide two titles that resemble your book - this shows you have studied the market well” dude no, this shows that I’m a well trained parrot and can write my book to be like anything I want it to be. This whole “Hunger Games meets The Witcher idk” concept has made it so that, to me, all fantasy books read the same. They’re all some watered down Percy Jackson or Shadow & Bone or Hunger Games story whose plot has been tainted by this outside information that really wasn’t necessary for me to buy or read the book.
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🌌 Jupiter in the Houses 💫
- Jupiter in 1st 💎
* Jupiter in 1H people are people who most likely have big features on their face/body (e.g, big eyes, big lips, a big forehead, big thighs, etc.)
* When you get to know them you'll probably find that they are the most confident people you've ever met (but they don't necessarily boast too much about it). They may even be too confident and it can manifest as arrogance.
* Fortune is not too scarce for them (throughout their life). They may have gone through rough patches here and there, but they always try and look at the positive side, and thus, positivity (fortune) comes in easily for them too.
- Jupiter in 2nd 💎
* I think this one is pretty obvious. People with 2H Jupiter are fortunate when it comes to finances, possessions, skills and luxury. Jupiter gives these people an abundance of what the 2nd house holds: money, assets, wealth, talents/skills, so they do find luck (if not now then later) when it comes to these things.
* Most likely they enjoy boasting (maybe in a lowkey way) about the things they have. From luxurious items, to their skills and abilities to do something, to their body (2H also rules the body).
* They also most likely hold many values, ethics & priorities and try to keep up to their many values.
- Jupiter in 3rd 💎
* People with this placement may be individuals who like to talk or enjoy thinking and talking or communicating to a bunch of people. People also just seem to be drawn to their way of communicating. They may even be digitally well-known.
* These people may also have a number of siblings, friends or cousins and probably get along with them well. It's not likely that they are lonely or have too few family members or friends [unless their Jupiter is badly aspected].
* They most probably also have a lot of activities or interests. This could range from hobbies they have, to a collection of something (movies, books, magazines, etc.) or social activities they're part of (such as clubs, societies, bands, etc.).
- Jupiter in 4th 💎
* Having Jupiter in the 4th house can make someone rather fortunate when it comes to foundations/groundwork. They've had good, proper and solid foundations throughout most of their life. This can range from forming a plan, to starting a business, to developing a hobby that ends up being something substantial.
* The 'Jupitarian abundance effect' for them might take on mostly the family department. They most likely also have a big home or family whom they really love and feel blessed to have.
* These individuals may also be pretty connected to their background/heritage. They really do try to connect with their roots and see the good in aligning with where (they feel) they come from.
- Jupiter in 5th 💎
* 5H Jupiter people are probably fortunate when it comes to the romance department. They like to meet people who seem very compatible with them and they gel really well. However, Jupiter likes to give things easy and give things a lot. Meaning, these romances don't last too long cause there's another one waiting.
* On the other side, these people may also have an abundance when it comes to children and have a lot of babies.
* They also probably have a ton of hobbies, or go out/have gone out a lot. They enjoy having fun out with the people they love. They also most likely enjoyed their teenage/adolescent phase, doing many things throughout their high school years.
- Jupiter in 6th 💎
* People with 6H Jupiter are often people who constantly have work or jobs to do or that they create for themselves. They enjoy it though, because Jupiter (being a positive planet) makes them see the positive side to it. This can then make them quite busy people.
* They most likely (lowkey) have an obsession with their body, how their body looks, how they should treat/feel about it, and what they eat. This is a stretch, but they may also be people who like to eat weird stuff or exotic stuff. Always trying things out.
* Most 6H Jupiter individuals also like pets/animals or have at least one pet/animal.
- Jupiter in 7th 💎
* People with this placement often meet plenty and various people throughout their life. And from the people they meet, they take or learn something. They almost never meet someone for no reason.
* They probably have this thing of giving people the benefit of the doubt. So they always try and see the positive in people, and have belief in the things they say.
* Similar to 5H Jupiter, they are fortunate in the romance department. They meet amazing people and get all carried away, falling in love in 0.2 seconds. Unfortunately, with Jupiter comes abundance, so these don't last as long as they'd hope for because the romance department is making room for more.
- Jupiter in 8th 💎
* Jupiter in 8th house people relatively receive an abundance of karmic experiences. They may suffer from one thing at some point, but eventually that suffering ends and breeds a new life within them.
* They may also suffer from feeling indebted though. It's like they see something great about giving to someone. Whether it be their family, friends, people from their past, or anyone, they have this sense of constantly giving [and sometimes giving their all to something too].
* This is a bit of a stretch, but these people (when they're emotionally/mentally healthy) can be some of the most iconic individuals. I see a lot of icons with this placement.
- Jupiter in 9th 💎
* Most 9H Jupiter individuals are either the most open-minded or the most closed-minded people you'll ever meet. Their way of thinking and sense of higher-knowledge is unique. You could either find it easy or hard to speak to them because of the beliefs they have.
* In general though, they are thought-seeking people who just love experiencing things. From travelling, to dates, to debates, to talking about dreams, etc.
* Fortunately, they also have their Jupiter where Jupiter enjoys being placed. The 9th house is naturally a good house for Jupiter because Sagittarius rules the 9th house and Jupiter rules Sag, so these lucky-stars live life with a bit of ease, connecting comfortably with the abundance that Jupiter has to offer.
- Jupiter in 10th 💎
* People with Jupiter in 10th are really fortunate. Not only to have this placement because this is pretty much the best one, but to have fortune when it comes to their career and public life.
* They are perfectly fit for the career or jobs they would like, they gain a lot of experience (pleasant experience too) in their field of work, and are seen as admirable/have a prestigious position.
* Their life can be focused too much on their career though if they don't also dig deep into their roots and appreciate their loved ones, so it's best they try to balance it out to live a successful life.
- Jupiter in 11th 💎
* Having Jupiter in 11th house can mean you connect with a group or groups of people in quite a beneficial way. There is an abundance and fortune when it comes to you involving yourself with certain groups, the community, societies, or social media.
* So 11H Jupiter is a pretty favourable placement for people who would like to one day be famous. If you have Jupiter in 11th then connecting with a large mass of people, mainly on social media, should not be too difficult or harmful for you.
* Your goals and aspirations are also ones that don't become too difficult for you as the power of Jupiter makes reaching them pretty easy. So if you're aiming at something, it'd be best for you to push it. Jupiter is with you.
- Jupiter in 12th 💎
* Jupiter in 12th house people, from what I've seen, are pretty spiritual people who typically come across an abundance of karmic experiences or get to see and feel spiritual insights throughout their life a lot.
* They see the positivity and beauty in aligning with spirituality and connecting with the subconscious/retreats from the world and believe that they mainly find their fortune there (which they do).
* These people may, more often than not, find it hard not to dream wild or have a 'grand scale' image of what they want/the things they plan. They keep a lot of hope for the future in that sense. At the same time though, they may get deeply sad (but try to keep it hidden) because they're such hopeful beings; and that sometimes people don't understand them.
Side-note: Having a Jupiter in retrograde can make the advantageous energy that Jupiter gives off a bit wonky or not as efficient/powerful as it normally would, so there are some (not-so-good) side-effects that could come around in your life if you have Jupiter in retrograde.
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On "Why do people headcanon Azula as a lesbian?"
I originally posted this as a response to a thread, but I think it's important enough to start a new post addressing the rest of fandom about this. It's something that comes up fairly regularly, and it impacts my ability to enjoy the fandom.
Hi. Actual Lesbian™ here.
I know it seems like lesbians are as rare as lion-turtles in this fandom, but we are here, and we are talking about why we see ourselves in Azula. And we notice how you talk about the fact that we see ourselves in this character.
People who ask this probably don't mean anything negative by it, but this thing where they ask non-lesbians to explain lesbian headcanons comes off as a little gross, as if the real question is, "What's wrong with Those People that they see Azula Like That?"
Here’s the thing.
Unless you are a lesbian or go beyond fandom to learn about what it's like to be a lesbian, it may never “click” for you why some people, like myself, gravitate toward reading Azula as a lesbian.
That’s fine. What’s not OK is putting things in the fandom space that suggests that a lesbian headcanon requires proof to be valid, as though viewing her that way is irrational. Non-lesbians may not intend or realize it, but that kind of thing tells me (can’t speak for other lesbians) that I have to to justify seeing this part of myself as part of the worlds, stories, and characters that I enjoy.
And I don’t need that in the places I go to unwind and have fun.
Speaking of which, I’ve never seen people ask fans who aren’t gay men to justify or explain gay headcanons for Zuko, Sokka, Aang, or any of the other male characters on the show. I’m almost certain that's primarily because I don’t typically go for slash ships. That being said, for some reason, it's odd that the lesbian Azula headcanon is one that people need to have explained to them.
I’m not saying that you’re a bigot if you don’t headcanon Azula as a lesbian. But come on. It’s like some of you think lesbians are aliens or something. People have no problem imagining Azula as many things: a dragon, a time traveler, a waterbender, Ozai’s firstborn, Iroh’s illegitimate daughter, a guy. But a lesbian? Oh, no! That’s too much! Where's the logic in that?
I would love to share my thoughts and experiences about lesbian Azula headcanons. Oh, look! I even wrote a post asking for people to talk about Azula and queerness in a non-shippy context! I also started a whole thread asking questions about how Azula navigates being a lesbian in the society and world she lives in. And it’s not just me! Here’s another queer woman talking about how Azula’s behavior parallels certain lesbian experiences!
There’s tons of stuff we can discuss with lesbian Azula headcanons. Does she know she’s a lesbian? Is she out to anyone? Who would she come out to? Under what circumstances would she come out? How would her understanding of herself change over time? Does she immediately recognize that she’s only interested in women, or does she come to it in a more roundabout way? How does she deal with homophobia? How does she navigate a world that expects her to marry a man and have his babies? What would happen if she found community with other queer people? Where, if anywhere, does she see herself reflected in the Fire Nation’s history and culture? How would that affect her? How does the world interpret her lack of romantic interest in those who are not women? And on and on and on.
There’s so many things to discuss that don’t amount to asking, “Why do you have to make Azula a [d-slur]? What's wrong with you?”
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His God-Given Solace (Part II)
Summary: Derek and Penelope are determined to make you and Spencer realize your feelings- turns out, they’re a bit behind.
Genre: Fluff
Word Count: 4.1K
Pairings: Spencer Reid x fem!Reader; Penelope Garcia x Derek Morgan
Includes: Kissing, Light Mentions of Food/ Alcohol, Brief Mention of Injury
A/N: Thanks for all the love on part one, ily all tons ♡
Something was different. It was obvious in the way Spencer’s cheeks no longer matched the color of rubies when your name was mentioned. It was especially prevalent in the way you no longer fought Penelope when she claimed you were in love with Boy Wonder, instead opting to shrug and walk away with a ‘whatever you say, Pen’ thrown in her direction.
Thinking back on it now, Penelope couldn’t even remember the last time the two of you had interacted during work hours unless it was for a case. Her and Derek had been working overtime at getting the two of you together for the past few months, but as far as she could tell the only thing they’d done was pull you both apart.
***
Four Months Ago:
“We need to do something, Der! You should’ve seen Y/N when I mentioned her having feelings for Spencer this morning- it was so obvious” Penelope’s voice was hushed, eyes steadily fixed on the doorway as Derek sighed and rested his palm on her shoulder.
“I know,” he murmured, fingers steadily tracing patterns over the wool of her cardigan, “Reid was the same way. I don’t know what else we can do besides let them figure it out themselves though”.
A twinkle made its way to Penelope’s eye, mind already swirling with the ways she could prematurely force the two of you to admit your love.
With a raise of her brow she stood, fingers moving to dance along the edge of her lover’s jawline “Are you doubting my skills, Derek Morgan?”
His heart skipped a beat, putting a silent prayer of thanks into the universe for blessing him with the goddess that is Penelope Garcia. “Never, baby girl”, he let out in a gentle murmur, sealing his affirmation with a series of light kisses against her fingertips.
She beamed, pulling her fingers from his lips and instead using them to clutch the warm fabric of his collar and effectively bringing his lips closer to hers. She sealed the gap between their lips with bated breath, feeling time stop as she relished in the feel of his lips much like it did the first time they shared a kiss, and with each of the infinite amount of kisses they’ve shared since.
His left hand found purchase in the strands of her hair, his right swiftly moving to pull her hips flush against his. As a slight gasp left her lips he inwardly shivered, mind quickly moving to contemplate the chances of them losing their jobs for initiating some very not safe for work behavior. Luckily for both of them (because there was no way they were going to stop on their own accord), the clearing of a throat in the doorway snapped them both out of their reverie.
Their lips separated with the force of two opposing forces, bodies moving to leave a foot of space in between as they laid eyes on their intruder. Spencer was leaning against the doorway, shrinking into himself as his eyes roamed the room and a rosy-red hue made its way up his neck.
He cleared his throat, sparing a glance at the couple on the opposite side of the room. “I- I um- I hate to break up this love fest... but we’ve got a case”. With that, he turned on his heel and made his way to the conference room as fast as his feet would carry him.
Derek and Penelope swiftly followed in silence, but not without sharing a grin behind their friend’s back.
And as the two of them sat around the round table waiting for Hotch to begin the briefing they couldn’t help but notice the way you and Spencer gravitated towards one another. Your body found home in the seat next to his, both of your torsos twisted to face the other as he whispered something in your direction, no doubt regaling his tale of the compromising position he had found Derek and Penelope in.
You stifled your laugh under your hand, his lips twisting into a smile as a result of your happiness. The love was ever prevalent between the two of you, and as Derek and Penelope locked eyes a silent conversation took place between the pair: Let’s do this.
The days that followed found the team in Boston, the nights bleeding into mornings as the team was entirely buried in a case. On day six, the capture of the unsub as well as the saving of three hostages left the team in a state of bliss that Penelope took full advantage of in the hours before her family arrived home, busying herself with plans to unite the most stubborn people she knows.
And later that night, as she found herself cuddled into Derek’s side enthusiastically catching him up to speed on her ideas, a plan was officially put into action.
***
Three Months Ago:
“Hello my loves!” Penelope’s vivacious voice carried through the bullpen, her hands coming to rest on the back of the chairs you and Spencer were currently lounging on.
You glanced up at her, a smile immediately breaking out on your face as you took in the charismatic expression on her face.
“Hey Pen!” you whirled around in your chair, swiveling to face her as Spencer did the same.
“What are you two up to tonight, say around 7 or so?” She questioned you both, inquisitively observing the way Spencer’s eyes immediately gravitated to yours as if the answer to all of life’s mysteries laid in your hands.
Your eyes found his, and as the seconds passed Penelope felt as though she was intruding on a silent conversation. She watched as his eyebrows rose in your direction, your head slightly nodding in response and the smallest of smiles gracing both of your features.
“I’m free, so whatever you’re planning I’m in,” you declared with a smile and Spencer’s nod of agreement followed, albeit much more hesitant than your own.
The desire to ask about whatever it was that just transpired between the two of you was strong, but she and Derek had agreed that they’d be in charge of situation making but leave the actual falling in love part to the two of you.
She was definitely regretting that choice now.
“Great!” She started, placing her hand on her heart and leaning in close to her favorite lovebirds, “because Derek and I are going to see a movie tonight and I just know you’ll both love it!”
Spencer’s brows furrowed as he looked up at her, “What movie is it? If it’s the new sci-fi about the explorations of space then you’re definitely right. Did you know that they based the entire premises of the movie on Explorer 1?”
“I didn’t know that Boy Genius, but what I do know is you’re gonna have a great time tonight even though that’s not the movie we’re seeing,” on that note she left the pair to her own devices, but not before hearing you tell Spencer that the movie he was talking about seemed interesting and you should definitely go see it together (but not without teaching you about Explorer 1 first).
Yeah. You were definitely in love with him.
***
The movie was the definition of awful. The acting was brutal, the plot made no sense, and Penelope couldn’t believe this was the number one romance movie in the country.
What wasn’t awful though? Watching yours and Spencer’s romance come to life two seats down from her.
Penelope’s fingers were intertwined with Derek’s, his thumb tracing patterns against her skin. She nuzzled her head in the space between his neck and shoulder, laying a kiss on the fabric of his shirt as she twisted her body towards his, eyes drifting towards her favorite couple-to-be on the other side of him.
“As much as I wish this cuddle was just for me, baby,” Derek mumbled against her hair, “you’re using me to take a peek at Pretty Boy and his Pretty Girl aren’t you?”
She let out a noise of affirmation, lifting her head for a slight second to peck his lips before returning to the warmth that seemed to always radiate from his body. “Mmm-hmm and it’s working. Now let me spy in peace”.
Derek chuckled, taking a moment to look at you and Spencer from his vantage point. Spencer was sitting to the right of him, a container of popcorn settled on his lap. Every now and then your fingers would inch towards the bucket to grab a few pieces of your own, but not without brushing against his arm each time.
Derek watched as Spencer’s cheeks flushed each time your skin made contact with his, each flush accompanied by the brightest smile he’d ever seen on his friend’s face. He watched as you stole a glance up at Spencer whenever you thought he wasn’t looking, your lips slightly parted as you admired his soft features.
And later that night, when he and Penelope were lightly swinging their joined hands and observing the two of you from a short distance?
The mumbled conversations about space and the lingering glances between the two of you left one thing for certain in the couple’s eyes- you were definitely in love.
***
Two Months Ago:
“So, I was thinking we can have the team over for board game night,” Penelope’s voice rang from the bathroom as Derek got settled into their bed.
He shook his head, knowing exactly where his girlfriend was going with this, “and by the team you mean Reid and Y/N, right?”
Her melodic laugh met his ears, and he knew then and there that he got it right in one shot. He watched as she made her way into the bedroom, sitting on the edge of their bed to brush her hair.
She turned to look at him, letting out a brief sigh. “I thought they’d be together by now, I don’t know what they’re waiting for! But last time we said anything they were all weird about it and just- ugh!” Her head fell back against his chest as he wrapped his arms around her torso and laid a brief kiss on her head.
“As much as I love those two, I’d rather we didn’t talk about them in our bedroom, babe,” he smiled as she turned in his arms, her face moving until it was within an inch of his own.
His lips puckered, eyes slightly closing as he felt her warm breath fan over his mouth. As her lips brushed against his own he moved his hand to grasp her cheek, but when deepened the kiss she pulled back until her lips were just out of reach of his.
“Does this mean we can host game night on Friday?” she asked in the most innocent voice she could muster, lightly drawing her fingers down his side until he flipped them over, leaving his figure looming over hers.
“We can do whatever you want Baby Girl- just kiss me already,” he let out with a groan. And, well, who was Penelope to turn down a request like that?
***
Friday night came, and Derek found himself sitting between Penelope and JJ on the sofa, his gaze steady on your figure as you wiped away tears of laughter from the corner of your eyes. Spencer was jumping up and down, trying to give you all as many hints as he could at his word, but so far all he was doing was creating the perfect ammo for future blackmail attempts.
“Spence, what are you even doing?” JJ laughed from her spot next to Derek, falling into Emily’s arm that rested on the edge of the sofa as the two let their screeches of joy reverberate off the apartment walls.
Derek joined in, letting out a chuckle of his own. “Are you supposed to be a kangaroo or something?”
He watched as Spencer’s cheeks began to brighten, his jump faltering and his arms beginning to rise as he tried to think of another way to get his point across.
Turns out, there wasn’t a need as you leaned back from your spot on the floor and gently shoved Derek’s knee. He playfully scoffed, meeting your eyes as you glanced up at him. “Alright, Y/N, what do you think he’s doing then?”
A widespread grin made its way to your face and you tilted your head to lock eyes with Spencer. “Easy,” you proclaimed, “he’s pretending he’s in a mosh pit”.
A breathless “what?” left Emily’s lips at that, and even Hotch looked at you in confusion at your guess.
“Kid, I doubt that’s what he was doing,” Rossi started to let you down gently, only to have Spencer triumphantly place a piece of paper in his hand, the words mosh pit scrawled across the center in Penelope’s handwriting.
“Yes! I knew if anyone would get that it’d be you”, Penelope’s praise left a permanent smile on your face, one that only seemed to grow as Spencer claimed his spot next to you on the floor, his thigh coming to rest against yours.
Derek raised his brow in his girlfriend’s direction, a light squeeze of his thigh accompanied by a silent promise of I’ll tell you later. He brushed her hand in understanding, laying his focus on the pair in front of him for the time being.
The nervousness that was present a month prior at the movies was no longer there, instead replaced by an almost familiar sense of comfort between the two of you. When your hand brushed against Spencer’s as you gestured with your hands in the midst of a story he simply smiled, completely embracing the feeling of your skin against yours.
And when his palm brushed against your back later that night as you were putting your coat on there wasn’t a blush in sight. The actions spoke volumes to Derek, the comforting nature of your reactions a far cry from where the two of you were a month prior.
It was an odd change in pace, one that threw him for a loop because since when was Dr. Spencer Reid comfortable with casual touches?
In Derek’s mind, there was only one explanation that made sense- it was love.
***
One Month Ago:
So, maybe it wasn’t love. Maybe she and Derek were completely off their game, instead pushing two friends into something neither actually wanted. At least that was the only reasonable explanation Penelope could find for the two of you still not dating.
Her and Derek had tried everything. After she heard about how comfortable you both had been the month prior at game night she was convinced that you had admitted your feelings for each other behind closed doors.
Now though? Now it was like you barely spared a glance at each other unless it was an absolute necessity. Casual touches had become a thing of the past, the space between the two of you widening with each wayward glance cast your way.
She made it a habit to bring Spencer up in conversations with you, and likewise with him, as often as she could, but she was met with a diplomatic response each time, you face schooled into a poker face so perfect she thought you were both taking lessons from Hotch.
As she made her way home with Derek that night she couldn’t help but bring up the thought had been plaguing her mind. “I just don’t understand how a few months ago I was telling you he looked at her the same way you looked at me and now it’s like they’re strangers”. Her tone was quiet, head downturned in defeat as she thought back on the past few months versus the past two weeks.
A hum of agreement left Derek’s lips, his hand leaving the steering wheel to give hers a subtle squeeze. “I don’t think they’re strangers, baby- there’s definitely something there but maybe they just need some space from our constant hovering. Trust me, she’s still His God-Given solace,” he smiled at the chuckle that left her lips before he continued “even if they’re both in denial”.
“They really are in denial, aren’t they?” Penelope laughed, laying a kiss on his cheek once they reached a red light. “Thank you, my love,” she whispered.
“Anything for you, P, you know that,” he responded with a slight smirk, “even helping you and your schemes”.
***
The spying continued in the gentlest of ways ten days later when the pair found themselves face to face with the two of you at the end of a rough case. Penelope was waiting for the team at the elevator when you arrived, her arms instantly flinging to wrap around Derek.
His lips found solace in her hair, the scent of her shampoo and the overall feeling of home already bringing color back to the dreary state of his heart.
“How is she?” Penelope whispered against his neck, hand moving to gently rub his back.
Derek sighed, shifting his head to steal a glance at you. You were leaning against your desk, your eyes glazed over as you examined the stitches on your hand. You had come face to face with the unsub during the last case, and while you were lucky to escape with a concussion and a deep laceration to your hand it was too close of a call for comfort.
He sighed as he watched a tear escape your eye and moved to take a step back from Penelope to check on you. But before he moved an inch, Spencer was there with his hands gently cradling your head as you cried into his shoulder.
Derek watched as your arms encircled his neck, your fingers making contact with the loose strands of Spencer’s hair. He watched as Spencer’s lips brushed against your ear, his mouth moving with unheard words of reassurement.
You nodded as he pulled away, and the smallest of smiles graced your lips for the first time since you boarded the plane nearly a week and a half ago. Spencer grinned in return, his hands grasping the purple scarf wrapped around his neck, swiftly moving to wrap it around yours instead before he pulled you in for yet another hug.
The tears were still trekking down your cheeks, but the slight smile remained as you closed your eyes and nuzzled into his chest. There was no doubt in Derek’s mind as he watched the two of you together again after weeks of avoidance.
“She’ll be just fine, Sweetness,” he murmured against the top of Penelope’s head, sparing one last look at you and Spencer finding solace in one another in the middle of the bullpen.
And well, comfort like that? It could only mean one thing- it was love.
***
Present Day:
As if no time had passed at all, Penelope and Derek found themselves back at the bar that had started it all. In the weeks after your recovery you and Spencer had begun to distance again, the memories of the night Derek had witnessed him comforting you resembled a long lost dream at this point. If Penelope hadn’t looked back at the footage to see it for herself, he would have thought he made it up entirely.
Nowadays, they were lucky if the two of you talked during a case.
But, something else was different that night. Penelope watched as Spencer excused himself from his conversation with Hotch, leaving the table to ‘get some air outside’. It wasn’t anything out of the ordinary, but what was unexpected was the way you left the table to ‘use the bathroom’ only to turn left instead of right once you got there and heading out the doors Spencer had disappeared from.
And, well, there was no way Penelope wasn’t going to check that situation out.
She laid her palm against Derek’s thigh, playfully rolling her eyes as he wiggled her eyebrows in his direction.
She tilted her head towards the door once their eyes fully met, an unspoken command of let’s follow them dancing between their bodies. With one last sip of his beer, the two excused themselves and made their way out the door that had been graced with yours and Spencer’s presence only moments earlier.
The chill of the night air caused a shiver to run up Penelope’s arms, but nothing prepared her for the jolt of energy that ignited her soul when she spotted you and Spencer intertwined a few steps away.
Your hands laid their claim on Spencer’s torso, one bringing him closer to you by the back of his collar while the other remained settled against his side. His left hand continuously drew patterns on the plain of your side while his right held your face still and his lips hungrily moved against yours. The two of you were entirely lost in one another, the rest of the team clearly the last thing on either of your minds. It was a kiss of familiarity, and in that moment Penelope knew she and Derek had been played.
Her mouth dropped open, her eyes meeting Derek’s who looked just as dumbstruck as she was.
“I-I’m sorry what’s happening here?!” Her sudden screech of shock caused you and Spencer to look up, both of you jumping five feet apart as if that would erase her memory of the kiss she just witnessed.
She stepped forward with a hand on her hip, eyes moving up and down yours and Spencer’s figures while she committed your look of guilt to memory.
“And just how long have the two of you been keeping this from us?”
The visible swallow in your throat explained everything she needed to know.
“A month? Two? Three?” Her onslaught of questions continued as Derek stepped forward and placed an arm around her waist, chuckling at the look on both of his faces.
“It’s um,” Spencer cleared his throat and moved to give your hand a squeeze (and Penelope just barely kept from jumping up and down at that). “It’s been 3 months, 17 days, 12 hours, and 27 minutes if we’re um- if we’re being technical”.
Derek’s hand clapped his friend’s shoulder, a proud grin overtaking his features. “Look at you, Pretty Boy! I had no clue you had it in you”.
“I’m so happy for you guys!” Penelope’s praise released the tension in your shoulders, her acceptance all that mattered in that moment.
“Which one of our plans worked? And why were you acting like you hated each other?! We were so worried!”
“Wait what are you talking about?” Your nose crinkled in confusion at her questioning, turning to Spencer who looked just as confused as you felt. “We were trying to stay away from each other at work to keep things professional- but back to the important part- you guys made plans?”
Derek shook his head, gesturing towards Penelope with his right hand, “that’s all you, Baby Girl”.
She rolled her eyes at him, before facing you and Spencer, “when did you guys get together? Was it after the movie? Ooh or was it game night?!”
You laughed, thinking back on all the times you had caught them staring at you over the past few months. “No, actually- we ended up talking about how you thought I was in love with him about two weeks after we went to the bar a few months ago? Then Spencer told me Derek said the same and we realized you were right. We went on a few dates, and then that was that”.
Derek’s lips parted slightly, looking between the two of you in wonder. Because how two of the most clueless people in the FBI were able to get together so smoothly and keep it a secret was one of the greatest mysteries he’d ever heard. “That’s it?”
Spencer nodded, giving your hand a gentle squeeze. “That was it. We’re gonna head back inside. I guess it’s time we tell everyone else?” He threw a questioning glance your way and at your eager nod you both left Derek and Penelope standing in shock on the otherwise deserted street.
Penelope faced Derek, letting a laugh escape her lips at the absurdity of the situation. “So... we’re gonna consider this a win for us, right? This is our doing?”
A kiss was placed to her temple, Derek’s eyes portraying nothing but love and admiration for the woman in front of him. “It’s definitely our win, Sweetness”.
***
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