#i may forget about this in an hour
Text
Bloodweave is neat, but it's based on traits that don't define either character.
Their names both contain references to nature. Astarion's is a LOT more of a stretch--the little star definition comes from Latin, not elvish, and Star is a cutesy nickname--but Gale is. Well. A gale.
There aren't too many nicknames I can think of for Gale, honestly. Bluster? Windy? Storm?
Kind of rude, honestly. But.
What if we called them stormy skies.
#YES IT'S A STRETCH#I'm thinking Young Justice ship name conventions like museum heist#i do not remember which ship that was.#i just really loved the creativity#anyway.#yes I'm adding way too many shipnames. I'm having a good time#bloodweave#galestarion#stormy skies#i may forget about this in an hour
41 notes
·
View notes
Text
#when i was first coloring him in he was gonna be golden chinchilla colored but then i was like ehhh jonah magnus should be red/orange but#elias should be gray ...so i just desaturated what i already did instead of recoloring lol but#he is now supposed to be shaded silver lol#but thats why his coat pattern is on the darker side compared to what it *should* be#og elias bouchard coming from an important/roch family and while whole thing with thinking he just *deserves* stuff bc of his upbringing.#etc. -> he is purebred and matches the breed standards etc for a scottish fold of his color#obviously the eye color doesn't matter because. ahaha#i thought elias fit the Scottish fold vibes because: Scottish folds are known for looking sort of like owls and having intense eyes#and the cat body/face type (also present in british shorthairs) to me gives off sort of... unnasumming vibes?#like ahaha yes i am a boring boss who loves paperwork look at how unnasumming i am season 1-2 elias y'know#trying to think of what cat breed jonah would be. and also jon gerry etc you know all the other characters i like#would it be boring to have multiple british shorthairs#i mean..#Michael shelley/distortion is a laperm that's all I know#i didn't particularly care with the personality attributes associated with eliascat because it didn't need to fit his personality on account#of not being his original body. but i do try to keep in mind the best personality/look/etc. cat attributes as a whole for a character#also sometimes get obsessed with jt making historical and geographical sense but then it just limits me greatly to a point im not into it#so i don't care about specific breeds in that respect lol#tma#my art#elias bouchard#the magnus archives#some notes looking back(made it 2 hours ago but still looking back ok..) on it now are that i feel like elias would never choose this breed#for his next bodyhop because of the inherent health issues in scottish folds. I saw the breed was created in like the early 1960s and#assumed that maybe the health issues wouldn't have been common knowledge until later enough for jonah to be unaware of them but actually no#there's legislation about it like 6 years later LOL so jonah would..maybe not make this choice#i guess in the future when drawing i will just make him a British shorthair#my catTMA is simultaneously 'they are just regular cats or like all show cats or something' and 'exact tma plot but as intelligent cats'#LOL its just vague in my mind idk..also maybe jon can be an Abyssinian#ALSO WHAT WAS I THINKING 'jonah may not have been aware about x thing' like did i...did i forget. me 2 hours ago was dumb as rocks
23 notes
·
View notes
Text
Wild that anytime I post an update a lot of people read it and are even excited about it and have their own thoughts and reactions to it that I'll never know.
Comments are only the very tip of the iceberg with it. And I am Very grateful to commenters for letting me in on it. But in the same way that I'll be excited with my friends when a fic we love updates, it's likely that Other people enthuse with Their friends when my fic updates. And it's just so strange. An experience I'll never have access to.
Everyone's relationship with my fic is unique. So many different people with so many different circumstances and preferences... and the number of people that have told me that my fic is one of their favorites, some even saying it's their Favorite favorite... every single one of them have their own relationship with my writing.
It's just interesting to me. I think and think and think on my writing. I have my plans for basically the entire fic, the way I want it to end already thought out, all the major plot beats and the relationship progressions, All of that thought out. I love my writing so very much, but I'm on the inside looking out. This is my mechanical horse, and I'm in here laying out the groundwork and pulling levers and constructing limbs, puttering away making the horse move. Forever and always, my relationship with it will be more intimate than anyone's, and yet more clinical. Because I know it better than the back of my own hand, but I'll never have the experience of reading it fresh. Of reading it without knowing everything that's going to happen from now to the end and beyond. I won't have the thrill of the plot twists I have planned, the delight at seeing things progress, the horror at seeing things go wrong...
This is my mechanical horse, and I'm making it move.
I just always wonder what it must be like to see it from the outside. I hope to others that it's a pretty horse.
#speculation nation#itnl shit#didnt mean to write this much about the concept but i really am so...#jealous almost. id love to be able to read my fic as a reader.#because it's tailor made to my tastes Exactly.#and i know it's good writing. i surprise myself even sometimes with how good things end up.#it's never a doubt in my mind that i'll make things good. even the harder things . while bringing trepitation . i know i'll figure them out.#the relationship a fic writer has with their own fic is so... yeah. intimate. but still somehow emotionally removed.#but thats how it goes with any art piece i think#the creator sees all the bits and pieces that went into it. remembers the thoughts as they made it#they know their work better than Anyone Else. but they'll never be able to experience it like an outsider.#is my fic helping someone through a rough breakup? is it something someone rereads when theyre sad?#is it a fic that people stay up way too late reading? the fic that someone discovers and consumes all within a day?#that voracious love. ive experienced it many times with other fics. but i can never experience it with my own.#but in the end. that's okay. i will just continue to do as i wish with it. and maybe people will continue to like it.#it is my goal to make a fic that people will never forget. what that may mean differs depending on the person.#i want it to be the best fic it can be. and i will make it so with every brick i lay down.#puttering about for days and weeks and months. it's Most of what i think about. it's my impact on the world.#and it's sitting for 3 hours after work in the storage room writing until im shivering but Satisfied with a productive writing session#it's writing some of my most emotional scenes while sitting for an hour on the toilet#no one else knows what the toilet written scenes are. but I Do. such is my relationship with my fic.#(the focus in the Quiet Rooms cannot be underestimated. the bathroom is indeed one of the Quiet Rooms lol)#& man. ive rambled so much now. but i just love my fic so very much#i'll never be an ITNL reader. and that's okay. because i'm its writer. & that's a status that No One Else can boast.#even those people who state that it's their Favorite favorite cant rival the intimacy of my own relationship with it.#I Am Its Writer and that means so very much to me.#i... really do love my fic y'all
20 notes
·
View notes
Text
3:23AM, time to post Hatamori fankid and retreat back into my hiding hole
#this is what i was referring to in my last post#sometimes ideas will just pop into my head and i will be unable to resist the urge#i missed sprite editing. it had been a while since i last made a person's sprite#anyways her name is Akira and I haven't decided if it's Akira Tomori or Akira Hatano yet#i like both of their surnames a bunch#thinking of her from a scenario where Ayame and Kizuna survive the kg and get together a while afterwards#Akira is adopted. obviously. Her biological parents died in the tragedy she was adopted at around 4-6 years old#doesn't remember how her bio parents where because she was like? 1-2 years old when they died?#being with them in whatever happened that led to their deaths she may have some form of memory problem from the accident(?)#Akira is pretty forgetful and slow on the uptakes. but it's nothing too worrisome#she doesn't actually care that she can't remember her bio parents because the family she has now is much more important to her#she takes more after Kizuna especially in tems of personality (tho definitely not as bad as she used to be in Dra if you know what i mean)#put them in a room together and they will gossip and talk about random shit for hours#she loves Ayame too! they just don't talk a much? Akira used to follow her everywhere when she was a kid but now that she grew up#Ayame being the awkward-ish person she is struggles a bit on how to talk/interact with her#they work out together sometimes and Ayame will always volunteer to listen to Akira play some new song she's writing#and give her opinions on it#as you can see she is a musician. aspiring rockstar specifically#this came to her as a way to vent about the tragedy and all that mess sorta#may ramble more some other time i am getting sleepy#dra#danganronpa another#fankid#hatamori#sprite edit#edit#hyena scribbles#Akira Tomori Hatano
15 notes
·
View notes
Note
Have you ever read "I Want To Be Where The Normal People Are" by Rachel Bloom (of Fuck Me Ray Bradbury and Crazy Ex-Girlfriend fame)? It's mainly about OCD but really resonates with me as a story of growing up as That Weird Kid On The Spectrum
Oooh no but I'll put it on my to read list! I have been going to the library lately and just got a new card, so once I'm done with the ones I'm reading I'll check it out! I'm currently reading Autism in Heels by Jennifer Cook O'Tool to get a better idea of how autism can present in women and people raised as women! Liking it so far, though it's a bit of work to get through emotionally for me. Gotta read it in bursts haha!
#thats how most of my life is going right now. in bursts. but im coming back to things instead of forgetting about them so its like good#instead of spends 6hrs straight reading its like ok spend 30 mins reading then 30 mins painting then a few hours gaming then 10 mins tidying#etc etc#and its WORKING???#its never worked for me before so thank you guacamole meds#its guanfacine i beleive actually#god plus doubling my effexor of course changed my life completely this year#i still cant believe it was that simple#also i may just see if my elibrary has it too and go crazy who knows
30 notes
·
View notes
Text
A lil animation test
#star draws#star reblogs#Look ma I can animate#This to me five hours just for one second of an animation#kinitopet#kinito the axolotl#kinito my beloved#i want to squish him#I may post the colored version later#No I didnt forget to post this#I don’t know what your on about
14 notes
·
View notes
Photo
in an intensive course this week so i’ve got no time to draw for kanda’s birthday </3 but he’s everything to me as always. anyway picture of him cropped from the canvas from when friend held me at verbal knifepoint to sketch them all in color for once in my life
#d.gray-man#me saying 'as always' like i post about him regularly. i forget that as much as i draw him i mostly refuse to share. sorry#this came out Okay i think (guy who doesn't like drawing in color and just does it when forced)#anyway his birthday is tomorrow where i am but of course the parade of birthday art on twitter started like 12 hours ago#so it may as well be now#color
42 notes
·
View notes
Photo
김준서 (KIM JUN SEO)
1st Mini Album
[ECHOES of love]
2022.11.20 6PM (KST)
#kim junseo#wei#ouiai#DEAR GOD it's 10AM as i draft we have 6 hours to go until i post but oh my god im finally done i thought id never finish dear GOD#this is far from the best thing ive ever done. but it was an interesting experience#nd definitely took some time (not the most tho . nothing can beat paula's birthday set when it comes to that) but also .... surprisingly#less than i thought ? like longer but also shorter .? u know ?#this made me go insane i kept forgetting about my food and i also kept working in silence half of the time bc i would forget to put smth on#eri if i decide to do a second one next year PLEASE tell me to start sooner like if i start brainstorming into ur ear in like may pls accept#i say 'if' as if i wasnt already working on song choices for next year lmao#i was really excited for this and i think that made me not rlly think as much as i should have i think i can do better next year . if i star#if i start early enough#ANYWAYS#happy junseo birth <3 my prince <3 or smth idk#pls dont perceive the mcd thumbnail from up close i beg u#boy who's so important . . a boy so fox . . . nation's model (2) pretty boy with pretty voice . . whatever im not gonna start rambling more#but he's very important n i hope he knows that he is & that he's so very loved & i hope that he's happy today and always . etc#nd i love him or whatever . whatever whatever no one look everyone close your eyes#*mine#special thanks to eri as always my bewoved who has been hearing me talk about this for the past like month thank u for putting up with me#(re:this and also in general i love u)
66 notes
·
View notes
Text
do you think getting rolled flat with a giant rolling pin and then left out to re-rise like a loaf of bread is a valid solution to “ow everything hurts” or….
#lucy's thoughts#i always forget how much physical labor goes into proper arch work#i am digging up old romans but also i moved lots of big rocks today#which my back and knees and shoulders are not happy about#also: dealing with cramps on top of that#so i’m really just looking to trade out my physical form for a while#who needs one of those#give me something that doesn’t get tired instead#anyway hi i’m temporarily in a non-US time zone#hours will be sporadic til may
16 notes
·
View notes
Note
This is really sappy and parasocial (/hj) but your friend group on tumblr full of ur tumblr mutuals like Hari and everyone is just so fun and nice to see
You guys are so funny and I think it would be so cool to have a friend group like that but you all are so cool
THIS IS SOO SWEET ☹️💗💗 i love love my friends ive been feeling particularly sentimental tonight so u get my unfiltered # thoughts but i feel so lucky to have connected with them thru dtblr -- with the exception of jan, everyone in my little group ive known for at least a year and a half and thats sooo crazy ++ i appreciate u guys putting up with some of our nonsense TYSM ANONOGIE 🫂🫂🫂
#and jan may be a newerr friend but well she has said things to me that i will never forget as long as i live. (her fucking food photos)#and ik you will acquire your own girl gang BELIEVE ! it will come to you in your darkest hour.......#ik dtblr ribs about being an unhappy family but i love so many of the people here so much thanks for having me 🫂#ask
22 notes
·
View notes
Text
jesse i need the rest of drunk history of cobra starship
#i refuse to believe out of 3hrs of footage there is only like. 7 mins of usable stuff#u know me though i would sit thru 12 hours of pete and gabe drunk off their asses on a couch#you may think everyone forgot about the rest of it gabe and pete. but not me i didnt forget. i didnt forget#i need the rest of that FUCKING VIDEO#red.txt
7 notes
·
View notes
Note
What if I told you I'm the reason you got sick :) looks like the spell book worked. You will soon have multiple tragedies happen in your family! Have fun!
- somebody you used to know
this is actually the most pathetic message ive ever gotten LMAOOOOO
#ooo oooo im sooooo scared what do you want me to do ? cry ? you want me to cry and weep for mercy ?#shut uppp lmao get a life if youre still mad at me because ive totally forgotten about you#You're no bigger than my actual dog#and neither am I for openly insulting and bullying you#but at least I admit I'm pathetic.#You are far more pathetic than me in this current situation.#I hope you move on and get a life pal because I'm not worth it.#I'm just some kid with a better understanding of what not to say on the internet than you.#This didn't hurt my feelings at all and I WILL forget about this in about an hour#but just so you know#you're absolutely nothing for threatening somebody on the internet because I may have hurt your feelings.#chances are that if I was cruel to you#you did something to deserve it#but I admit that doesn't make me a bigger person in the slightest.#and yet I am not sorry because you decided to try and cast whatever stupid hex on me and my family. Thats still a threat and its a sad one#Good day#replies of the stars#anonymous
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
i sure am applying to a lot of jobs on the other sides of the country for a person who has never moved before and is terrified of even slightly messing up important things like finding housing and moving
#i'm that “apply for a job and immediately forget about it forever unless they contact me” kind of person which i'm happy to be#so the scary part is when i get the potential interview offers and i look at the location for the job and go UUHHHHHH#like it doesn't really hit me that i might possibly be moving there until that moment lol#i have like 10 potential interviews on the table rn. the closest one is 350 miles away and the farthest is fucking um. 2‚100 miles away#i pull up google maps and see “42 hour drive” and i'm like. uhhhh uhhh uhhmmmm............ uhh.....#see i love driving and i would actually love to be like. a long-haul trucker or something. but i don't know Cars™ or Vehicle Maintenance™#fear of my poor 2002 car giving up on me in any way... especially while towing a uhaul trailer containing all my earthly possessions. 👍#(girls who have little real-world experience and need their hand held through everything but are embarrassed to ask for help#because they did so well academically that people don't expect them to have trouble with these sort of common processes#due to falsely equating academic intelligence with other types of intelligence and experience that the girls may in fact completely lack#(i'm girls))#bluh
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
fucking demolished 3 separate beverages today @ work. just spilled liquids on every surface imaginable for no reason. i somehow got a cup of orange juice to rupture and spew everywhere by trying to put a lid on it. and i was so brave about it by the way
#.txt#i also knocked an entire bowl of coleslaw onto my bedroom floor an hour ago but#that was my fault for putting a bowl of coleslaw on the bed and then forgetting about it#i think there may have been some sort of supernatural malfeasance at play at mcd’s though like how did i manage to fuck up THAT much
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
hm. accidentally made mead ??
#3615 my life#actually it may be just a step before mead but like. it's still mead#which i thought was more than fermented honey but no it's just that and some stuff from flavor#'put the honey in cold or lukewarm water in order to not kill the bacteries'#ma'am they've been boiled and they're still alive and thriving#so the explanation is that i very often not finished my tea#which actually contains zero tea. just water honey lemon juice and ginger-lemon-honey bits (infusion pour les français)#and i use metals bottle now so that shit is screwed up tight after the 'oxygen period'#so often when i don't finish it and forget about it for coughs hours it will have...#in my mind like milk left over the night. the taste change and is weird and there's a little bit of gaz when opening the bottle#this time i just left it uuuh a few days. unopened.#and tonight i remembered that i do not have a good track with bottles half filled left unopened for too long#and i did well because the top did nearly come out of my hand when opening it because of the gaz pressure#wait with the lemon maybe it's not mead...it appears there's three kind of fermentation#i'm a bit sad i don't like fermentated things because apparently it's VERY good for the guts#which i have zero problem with. i could eat cement. but just in case you know ?#maybe my body makes me dislike fermentated stuff because i've got all the peeps i need down there for everything to work well#anyway. down the drain it went. don't like fermentation don't like alcohol
1 note
·
View note
Text
feeling gay and emotional
#but thats every night isnt it#woke up at 9pm after about 22 hours of sleep so... here we are#i got some nano wrimo to catch up on#maybe ill put out a fic! doubtful#one day i'll get another toh fic out and ill dedicate it to my only fan 🥰#ive published 1 fic thats not a drag on myself#theres one person out there who read it and loved it and keeps coming back to it#next fic i finish is dedicated to them. 100%#anyway im slowly losing it out here#7 days til i get my cpap machine#17 days til i have an intake with a new psychiatrist#itd be too optimistic to think i'll be able to start weening off the propranolol that day but#its the next step#i can dream#also this blurb counts as my paragraph of writing for the day fuck off writing gods#gays are always winning. dont forget#and yunno what? im tired of feeling out of place#i may not fit in cis spaces OR trans spaces anymore#but as far as im concerned? the less binary you are the better#fuck society#fuck the status quo! be as weird as you can!#queer EVERY aspect of your life! toast in the oven! silverware thats blue! STARE DOWN THE BARREL OF THE GUN AND PEE INTO THE WIND#its 3am#id say delete later but i wont#month 5-7 of unhinged lack of health here we gooooo
2 notes
·
View notes
Last Seen Blogs
feliscumplepoyo
🌈🐥🌈
creature-machine
meow
pielegniarstwopomocedydaktyczne
pracedyplomowezpielegniarstwa
erisha-hema
Untitled
cutxstrings
Remember the Fallen