no judgement but I am dying to know why you're scared of bread

oh my goodness!! it's actually so stupid; i was raised in a forever-dieting household (specifically, low carb) and have been conditioned to "fear" carbs,, i genuinely get anxious about having bread even though it's so good and fluffy and delicious

a guy can be shapes

dinosaur jumpscare under cut

this can be spamton too if you believe in yourself

I was wondering if I could give Horror a big ol' hug with a box of donuts?

p/s: ilovehorrorsobad, heissogodlycuteandineedhim.

Horror: <- put donuts in inventory

Nightmare: "consider: be one of my employees. you'll get your asks prioritized, we'll update your design if you don't like this one, etc. i can write up a contract and whatnot"

i truly believe that people are going to laugh at me when i cant make a sandwich in paldea

Let 'em talk, cause we're dancing in this world alone!

I just age 40 grams of protein sludge i think im going to die

PICCREW TAG! 🧀

thank you for the tag @sweetxvanixlla + @flashnthunder <3 here is the piccrew if you want to make your own!!

no pressure tags: @lostloveletters, @vera-keller, @frstcorinthians, @trenchenjoyer + anybody else who wants to do this but hasn't been tagged, tell em i sent ya ;)

i think i need the taste of blood, maybe raw meat will fix me

in retrospect it’s kind of funny how ed treatment centers are like “we will teach you how to have a normal relationship with food ❤️ we will begin by classifying anything anyone has ever done in regards to consuming food as an ed behavior. you can’t mix food on your plate or we will take it away and force you to drink the most nauseating meal replacement shake in the world that tastes like if cardboard hated you! oops looks like you have some salad dressing left in the portion cup….. drink it! yeah, the straight up dressing! this is a normal thing that normal people do when they didn’t pour half a cup of dressing on a salad the size of their palm :) if you don’t drink an entire mouthful of straight salad dressing, uh oh! the meal replacement shake from hell! the water is consistently tepid because they never refrigerate it but you’re not allowed more than two ice cubs :( hey for breakfast we have you marked down for two frozen waffles with five tablespoons of nut butter each! once again, this is how regular people interact with food ❤️”

I can't explain the joy and pride you feel as the parent of a neurodivergent child when they try a new food and like it 🥹💖

I need to get buff. I need to get buff SO BAD

So glad food names like "pigs in a blanket" exist. "Ants on a log". "Angels on horseback". "Frog in the wall". Putting animals in situations. Evocative names.

MATPAT I LOVE YOU BUT I DONT THINK THERES A GUN IN MY PEANUT BUTTER

Misc. photos from the past year or so ~

You alive?

YES I AM ALIVE

I'm gonna make this as short as humanly possible because I have a tendency to make posts needlessly long.

Ok so for the maybe 5 people who somehow still remember who I am, uh, hi lol. I don't even remember when I last came on Tumblr for more than 5 seconds and had any sort of activity. And if you don't remember who I am, I don't blame you since it's been forever anyway .-.

But yeah anyway, I want to just say why I've been on a silent hiatus for so long and what's been happening. To start, I first stopped activity cold turkey because being online 24/7 was really draining me physically and mentally. I was staying up all night and not doing anything during the day, and wasn't communicating with any of the real-life people I know. I have a tendency to either put my all into something or not put in any effort at all, which doesn't necessarily need to be a bad thing, but it turned out negative in this case. My mental health was also in the toilet too, I was always grumpy, sleep-deprived, had no motivation, and my procrastination was worse than it had ever been. I decided to take a month or two off the internet to better myself and improved a lot over that time. But of course, I wasn't only gone for two months (I think :P), which leads me into the next thing.

The next thing is I MOVED :D!! I just moved in with a close family friend a few weeks ago. The reason for this is college, and this way I don't need to live in a too-expensive apartment worth 15 human beings :P. It was a bit of a hassle though, since I moved a timezone away--EST for anyone curious--from my family's home in CT time. I honestly meant to start college last year, but things came up and that got postponed to this year. But yeah, moving took another few months, and I am happy to announce I am now well-adjusted and ready to come back to the online space!

BUT, there is a bit of a catch to this. I still very much remember what happened when I DID stay on my devices for too long too often, and don't want to go through that again and go on yet ANOTHER hiatus. So, I am NOT going to be nearly as active as I used to be. I'll still try to keep my activity relatively consistent, but I will not stay up as late as I used to and won't always reply to interactions in 2 seconds. I want to have a healthy balance between reality and the internet. It'll take me some time to figure out, since I'm not really good at doing things in moderation, but doggone it I am going to try my darnedest.

Anyway that's basically it, I'm really sorry for seemingly vanishing without a trace...again. It's a very bad habit of mine as I'm sure you're aware. I swear on my Lancer plush--yes I still have that :P--that I'll try and improve on this. Hope you're all well, and have a good rest of your day!

*vigorously shaking a stick at my brain* stop! feeling! nostalgic! about! our! abusers!