longing for the taste of strawberry ice cream

So yeah, Harry Potter was the first fandom I ever read fics of. I was very tiny and still hadn't gotten my queerness awareness (lol) so Dramione was my introduction to the beautiful world of fanfictions, but then Drarry happened.

I have lost count of how many hours I spent reading, crying, swearing and swooning over them. It's been more than 10 years, and I never ever had the guts to write about them because, god I love them so much I'm so scared I'm gonna mess it up.

And out of the blue now I am, words are flowing fairly easily even though I've got no clue where they are going. I got no plan, no plot, no nothing.

I don't even know if I'm going to put this on ao3 if I ever manage to finish it, but I'm so happy.

I've had a writers block since 2017. If something was gonna get me out of it, sure as h*ll was gonna be this two f*ckers.

When you are rereading a fanfic and are suddenly transported back in time to when you originally read it.

To when the show hadn't yet been canceled

To when you were listening to the soundtrack on repeat (and suddenly the songs are stuck in your head without having to actually put them on)

To when the Fandom was feral and thriving

To when it felt like only hours between ao3 update emails instead of weeks

It's a special kind of melancholy.

I ache.

Every time Wednesday and Enid get in a fight in a fic and Enid ends up living the room the only thing I can think about is the influence it must have on Wednesday to see her leaving instead of fighting for them.

One day Enid won’t be aloud back in that room and I won’t even be mad about it.

( It is a good representation of how they saw their parents handle this kind things growing up tho. I feel Enid’s parents would just ignore it and take it out on their kids and she doesn’t want to do same on Wednesday so she leaves but on the other side Wednesday as watched her parents hold each other through everything her whole life so it must be really hard to watch Enid leave and just being left wandering what she did wrong when she probably hasn’t done anything wrong.)

I might be a little sad about it actually.

I'm being so brave rn

Jeremiah Fisher | tsitp 1.07

I think I’m going to permashift.

Another Toki since its still his b day and I fucking love him.

Plus his waist is snatched

Omg I just finished this commission I'm so happy with how it turned out

the thought that the life i want may never begin is horrifying. i remember being around the age of 11 watching movies and thinking about how bad i wanted to be around the age i am now. the fact that i spent my entire life so far looking forward to this moment and now i'm here and unsatisfied is terrifying.

I'm not the only one struggling with this but- doesn't it hurt when you fail ONE subject? I cried my eyeballs out a few moments ago cause I failed social studies 💀💀💀

Anyone else in this thread experiencing anguish and existential dread

Fuck my life

Got a haircut and they cut it too short :/

so i only have an acoustic guitar, and i know that when i do buy an electric i'll have to stop myself from just picking the prettiest one

and well

today i was Just Looking at the secondhand section of a local music shop website and i saw. the most beautiful guitar. i don't need it! i can barely strum! my younger brother says i can use his electric guitars whenever! it costs $2000!

and i've worked myself up about wanting this particular guitar. i joked about how instead of buying it i'll just look at the listing every day and mourn when someone else buys it.