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doperel · 5 months

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ventie in tags

#isnt that really wonderful having a major surgery that greatly effects your physical and mental health tomorrow and literally almost none of #your friends say anything about it to you #in the main server i talk in wirh just friends they literally didnt even respond #and went straight to talking about their lives #fucking thanks guys really making me feel seen and listened to #ive gotten more messages from my old guildmates on wow wishing me luck for surgery than i have any of my friends #and thats fucking 3 messagss #it really really huets and makes me super upset #i have literally had a fucking countdown going for this that multiple people have seen and still nothing #it honestly feels like a majority of the people i talk to could care less considering #none of them talk to me unless i initiate a conversation #i feel incredibly alone with this and i just want someone to talk to thatll listen to me #i cant even fucking get into any support groups near me because theyre all fucking dead links or dont exist anymore #endometriosis has been the most isolating experience of my life #i just want somebody to talk to thats it #im miserably lonely and i hate it #and im getting to be more and more angry and bitter about it because of the lack of care i recieve from #people who i consider friends #ever since i first got endo my friends have dwindled in number so much #if its not fucking me making the plans and going out people just do not fucking care #and the fucking people i was close with ended up using me for fucking sex and making me their therapist while dealinf with this #it feels a lot like people dont want me unless they can date me or i pay to do things with them #i legit feel like the last crumbs in the bowl

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witchspeka · 11 months

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I dont think Mob is naive as much as he's socially unaware, like the reason why he trusts Reigen so blindly is a bit more complex than just him being naive

Cause Mob reached out to Reigen because he was desperate to find someone like him, someone who understood his psychic specific issues, someone that could truly know what he's feeling and going through and give him guidance and support

Post incident Mob's thinking process was something along the lines of my powers hurt people -> my powers are bad -> my powers (my emotions, my instincts, myself) cannot be trusted

So he lost all confidence and trust in his own actions, resigning to being as passive as possible to avoid any further damage to anyone else, thus he started doubting his own perception of reality too

He's a kid already struggling with being ostracised for being socially inept, who just got traumatised and all of his insecurity increased by the tenfold, he doesn't know how to process what he's going through. He needs help.

And here comes Reigen, seemingly reliable, a responsible adult in a child's eyes, someone who claims he can understand him

Even tho Reigen doesnt. But it doesn't matter, because Mob finds comfort in his words and takes them to heart

Even if Reigen doesn't fully get it, even if he doesn't see the bigger picture, even if his advice isn't always the best

Eventually, Mob grows up, realises Reigen isn't as honest as he seemed through his 11 year old perspective, but like most things, he refuses to acknowledge it on a deeper level

Mob knows, but never tells Reigen, never thinks about what all those lies mean to him (ofc until he forces himself to face those doubts regarding Reigen, to properly acknowledge both of their flaws and accept them as they are, I should scream into the void about Confession Arc more God)

Due to his lack of trust in himself, Mob has relied on Reigen for years now to shape his moral compass, his thoughts, his decisions

Because well, Reigen lies, sure, but he isnt a bad person. When he hurts Mob, it isn't intentional or with ill intent, he still wants the best for him, what's the issue?

Except that it stunts Mob's growth. He doesn't develop as a person, doesn't have goals or wishes or ambitions, can't make choices on his own, he doesn't even let himself acknowledge his own emotions, he refuses to let himself exist

But Mob realises in time that he wants more than that, he wants to become better and be independent and feel again

Still, he puts the acknowledgement of the lies on hold for as long as he can, unwilling to question the way things are

This can make him feel a little naive, he constantly relies on Reigen and trusts his decisions and raises questions rarely until separation arc when he finally puts his foot down

And I do think that moment is the most resounding proof we have that Mob knows and allows himself to be used by Reigen, not wanting to shake the status quo, until he gets fed up

I mentioned the social ineptitude at the beggining but idk if I should even elaborate on that, you've watched the show, you know what I mean

He's blunt and can't read social cues or tonality that well and can't speak in front of crowds and is overall pretty awkward and I do think some people conflate that with naivety

Mob is still a child, he doesnt fully understand how the world works at the ripe age of 14 years old, but some folks take that as him being inherently naive/innocent/whatever which I don't find true

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scamoosh · 6 months

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this is gonna sound whiny but nonbinary ppl can immediately tell when u just see them as their agab jsyk👍 its just frustrating 2 b surrounded by other queer ppl and even in those communities without fail if i make any comment abt period cramps or having worked in childcare or shit like that theres an Immediate shift to like oh okay ur actually a Girl got it . like . there was anothr nonbinary person i used 2 kno who had zero problem using the right pronouns for me until they heard how high my voice was on a call once ☠️

#this isnt targeted its just a vent #idk its just annoying. like i can get away w painting my nails but i feel like thats bc #its trendy in niche communities now for cis boys to do it #and i hate feeling like my masculinity is constantly being stacked next to like . the pillars of cis man and cis woman #like . idk im probably not articulating this v well #like . especially as somebody who thinks of themselves as transmasc but doesnt want top surgery its annoying bc that alone #means i lose legitimacy 2 some of the queer ppl i try 2 talk 2 abt gender stuff with #and beyond that #the stupidass responses ive gotten to telling ppl i dont ever rlly plan on coming out to my family #like girl.... i cannot be the first person uve met who doesnt have a safe or comfortable environment to be transgender jn????#and beyond that i dont think its that big a deal that i dont ever come out like . officially #the ppl i care abt know and they see me the way i want so thats enough for me #but in like . largely lgbt online spaces thats where it gets frustrating #like we r supposed 2 b beyond defining gender solely on stereotypes and tit size #tw transphobia #like not rlly but jic it makes anybody uncomfy #thank u that is all #SORRY FOR BEIN CRANKY FIRST THING IN THE MORNING 😵😵 love and light etc #its not like a huge deal either its just smth that gets frustrating specifically in spaces full of ppl that u have some expectations #of understanding from #sorry if this is like complete nonsense LOL

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agapeeternal · 2 months

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Glen Powell attending THR's Power Stylist Dinner

#glen powell #thr power stylist dinner #the hollywood reporter #im so whipped #im absolutely fucked #@god idk what i did but i ain't complainin''#i would like to thank not only god but also jesus #the lord is my shepherd and he know what i want...have mercy #his body tho like look at him goddamn #do u fiuckin mind #him i wanna [REDACTED] [REDACTED] [REDACTED] because this man i can't #👌 👌👌 👌 💯 👌 👀 👀 👀 👌👌good shit #💯 thats what im talking about right there right there (chorus: ʳᶦᵍʰᵗ ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ) mmmmmᎷм💯 👌👌 👌нo0оଠoooooоଠଠooooᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒ👌 👌👌 👌 💯 👌 👀#i need to go touch some grass #i'll just .. . .#baby gas it up for these bitches bobby flay #do you ever just 🥵🥵🥵#i just…fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck #@god what did i do to deserve this #@god idk what i did but i ain't complainin'#somebody call an ambulance because i'm about to cardiac arrest #respectfully? disrespectfully? carnally? all of that.#*big sean voice* oh god #i ..... help

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jrueships · 5 days

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What are the psychosexual consequences of the twolves dominance right now

mmm.. i have been Chewing on this...

for quite some time .

so this is a thought i have always had tbh. These playoff results so far have just been bolstering my confidence in it.

Ant and Kat's love is loud love.

The Suns love is no love. Not that they dont have any love At All, because they do. But for each other? Im not so sure. The Suns is Men doing it all for the image of finally being champions so they can prove themselves to the people OUTSIDE their team.

The nuggets is domestic love. It's quiet, it's comfortable, it's won a championship, it's retired love. Retired does Not mean dead, it does not mean completely inactive, it means slower moving, at a personal pace, enjoying what you find to be the thing you wouldn't mind dying doing. Jokic and Jamal don't have to say they're in love 24/7 to let us know they're in love. Jokic doesn't have to talk about horses all the time to reporters for reporters to find out how much he actually does from him always going back to visit them. It's quiet, but it's so strong that it doesn't have to be anything but quiet to know

The mavs is a love built on respect. Wordless, they know they can depend on the other no matter what troubles the other may be dealing with or how much is happening, they Know someone will always be there to get the job done. They KNOW it's not a waste, whatever they're doing .

Kat Needs positive reinforcement, reminisces on it, dreams for it, grows restless and angered without it. Gets real self-conscious and starts faking everything to seem like he has everything so people can start treating him like he's not just some everybody in the world, but a SOMEbody in the world, someone whose opinions, thoughts, actions, and.. possibly most importantly.. WORDS will always be remembered as a meaningful contribution to the world.

Ant is a people pleaser. But he's not the meek, 'let your favorite teacher pronounce your name wrong until the grave' people pleaser where it can be pointed out as a problem, he's a Clever one. He's the kind of people pleaser who can step into a room and spotlight the targets that need the most self-value.. all so He can assure his Own self-value, and protect it. Because, ultimately, the phrase 'everybody loves Anthony edwards' is all about Anthony Edwards, which should be obvious, right? The answer's smack dab in front of your face, but the Confidence. The charisma of it all. Covers it. Conceals it just briefly, just enough for him to get away with it. Ant always knows what to say without even thinking twice. He's such a charmer. Except he's not. He's Always thinking, always brewing up the best ways to become a spectacle. Why even video himself saying that slur shit in the first place? Why not just keep that between him and his friend in the car like probably a good chunk other basketball players do ( because let's be honest. These are probably pretty straight men. They hate people like us. )

He can't. That wouldn't give him the best results in the kind of satisfaction he craves, which is all self based, when boiled down. He HAS to not only impress his one friend in the car with his in power teasing of others who don't even have a clue, he has to try and impress Everyone that he's included in his circle, and he just accidentally included the wrong crowd in that.

Ant and kat together are just two self-conscious people who like being together so they don't feel like they're two self-conscious people who like being together. Love can come in multiple forms, but, in my opinion, love oftentimes needs multiple forms to be at its strongest. When you pour all your love into one bucket, it leaves the others hollow. Love can be quiet, and it can be loud, it can be through words, through actions, through the easy times, AND the hard times, it is love.

I like to call Kat and ant the warped jaren and ja bcs unlike jaren and ja where it can all get spoiled from jaren saying something stupid like 'i love you' when they ARE in love and are just uncomfortable saying it, kat and ant NEED to say they're in love so they can feel like they aren't in it. It being Actual love, deep love that requires more than just pretty words and over-the-top compliments and sayings and comparisons and declarations. Actual love like ant going to kat's house and bringing the rest of the team because he knows kat misses having a stable family, hates the fact that something is missing and he'll never get it back.

Actual love like being awkward with each other

Which they Hate. Terribly. The two of them.

So they'll say how much they're in love with the other, how fondly they think about their memories, how they're so close. They'll tease and laugh and try to instruct the other. And the media laps it up, of course. Especially over the quiet love. It's just so boring in comparison.

Love is thrilling, and it is also boring. Like doing menial activities together like watching the news when you two could actually be the ones on it by doing something crazy together, but you don't, and you aren't, because you both agreed it's going to be a cozy day today where you'll both just be a cute pair of couch potatoes on a sofa watching TV together.

Ant and kat CANT be boring. They CANT just sit in that silence together. They have to say something. They have to know the other doesn't consider them a waste of their time because they don't have that same assurance in themselves.

Love is being scared.

Theyre not scared.

They can't Be scared.

Being down by 2 doesn't mean anything besides we'll bounce back. We're not scared about it. I played well, the shots just weren't falling, but i did good. We are doing good. We love each other. We swear.

We're not scared .

(TV loves confidence)

(Love loves fear)

#love is being terrified. petrified. of losing smthing permanently #whatever u do. it will never be enough to get back what u loved the most #im not saying theyre not in love. or they havent felt it #they are in it. they call each other family now and they have both felt a deep love for people they call family before #and they have both lost people that they love #ant & kat are like the im not like other girls powder puff ( girls football) player tomboy who used to make fun of girls wearing makeup wit #her asshole guy just friends cus im one of the guys friends (even tho the guys would criticize an 'ugly'/nonconventially attractive girl fo #not wearing it ten seconds later) falls for the dopey incredibly kind but thinks she's dumb bcs she's pretty and blond volleyball player #who always tags along with ant at bars so ant can ask guys if they wanna see them make out bcs they find it hot without knowing that kat #finds it hot too #& it turns out ants tomboy obsession with makeup is from her denying love of feminity on others #it's appealing. it's entertaining. it's everything u want to see blossom and grow #but. it takes TIME.#time that places like the ruthlessness of businesses might not always have no matter how captivating #if you are a waste then youre a waste #kat and ant cant stand waste. they cant stand the idea of all this acting like theyre in love (LOVE. love) is all for not #is all for not Actually being in love. just a big elaborate talked up grandiose excuse to say theyre not afraid to be in love #now THATS television!!!!#is it a sturdy relationship though? will something have to change to survive? will SomeBody (or somebodies) have to change? um.#cut the cameras.#deadass.#ted asks #ted longer #ant eds #katman #TY for this ask. i have been munching like a goat. uve probably forgotten abt this.. but i... i never forge-#im like an Elephant <-watched a replay of game 2 & thought it was an entirely different game

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seal-berry · 3 months

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the dirkroxy yaoi lamentations of a madman

#dirkroxy #dirk strider #roxy lalonde #homestuck #if anybody wants to participate in my lamentations by talking to me about this i WILL kiss you on the mouth about it #this is all borderline incoherent workplace discord rambles but dirkroxy yaoi. no thats real. thats the real shit #need somebody to really unpack dirks discomfort with roxys transmasculinity actally #i would write this but i just dont think i can write dirk i dont have the sauce

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fiomeras · 4 months

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Maybe im not a true media liker but i could never truly be really into something unless i make something for it. Not fanart, But a whole reimagining or explorative extension of that media.... Truly it cannot get better than this. Its a great mind workout

#i talk #ive been putting off saying this bc i feel people would misinterpret it as me admitting i only participate in something to get attention for #-my ocs ← unbelievably delusional sounding on paper but ive heard people say this but i know that is not true #FOR ME ATLEAST..... once again.#in all honesty. its more of i like it so much that i wouldnt want to touch or tarnish it lest im wrong in my interpretation #so thats why i focus on expanding on whats there but never eleborated on. its just something i like to do always #despite all that though. i dont actually enjoy au content i was always on the fence trying to figure if what im doing IS categorized as such #bc well. none of the original guys are BARELY in it. i think its closer to a fan creation set in the same universe #but what do i know im just a guy. im not that particularly in on the works of what people do... smh #also something something if somebodys already doing it why should i interject. probably the reason why i gravitate to this way of creation

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taeyungie · 8 months

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#i haven't addressed yoongi's situation yet because i'm honestly still not hit by it i guess. like it didnt gwt to me yet #i dont think ill ever love anyone the same as i love him you know what i mean #he has been the first reason of my self development. like he literally raised me??? i learned from him how to be the person i am today #and its like im saying goodbye to a family member. the thing is i have never griefed anyone's absence like this #its like a part of my soul will be missing until he comes back #but at the same time i know what he would want for me. to move on and to become my own reason #he would want me to be kind to myself. to focus on myself and not miss him that much.#he would want that for all of us right #but i have a very hard time processing things. do you guys remeber the festa last year? when we found out theyll be going on hiatus #the reality of it snd the fact that it will be happening hit me onky after around 3 months.#thats when i first cried because i realized what it meant. ofc i knew but it didnt occur to the emotional part of my brain at that time #and i feel like im truly gonna fall apart when THIS hits me in 3 months lol #my life has never been worse and thats honestly the time when i need the reassurance the most #when i need the people i love and find comfort in the most.#but its just me and thats technically just my problem. but since i am talking about my view on this then thats okay i guess hahah anyway #i just hope he knows there are milions of ppl who love him as much as i do. and thats like extra love like forever & beyond type of shit #i honestly dont think other people ever truly fully understand how we feel towards them. especially when you really love somebody #because they have their own opinions about themselves. they debate whether they deserve some kind of treatment or not. we all do that right #and i just know he does that too. i just reslly want him to feel completely loved and cherished and appreciated.#i want him to see himself through our eyes. to surround himself with people who see him exactly the way we do.#to fall in love with somebody who will see him like we see him #nobody deserves better life than this man. and i hope that after our reunion he will live that life to the fullest 💓 i can't wait to see it #anyway. if somebody needs to talk about it or wants to get sadness out of your system - im here 💓#please keep your heads up and lets wait for him 💓#we have esch other and we will be okay 💓#sorry for typos i can barely see its 1am 🤓

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dandyshucks · 3 months

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starting to think maybe i should turn rbs off on that post actually bc im having heart palpitations now fdsjgjkl why is this happening to meeee

#vent //#me when the paranoia is Getting Bad fjkfdsjkl #its stemming from m.oral o.cd i think bc i am mainly worried abt more eyes on my blog and ppl seeing me frolic here #and the brain gophers have been insisting that i am doing smth horribly wrong and not realizing it #and the worry is that someone is going to see that and bypass talking to me abt it and go straight to making a callout post #and i will be sitting here with Zero Idea abt it #and continue hurting ppl by doing the Unknown Wrong Thing #but i also am not sure how that would happen bc i overthink literally Everything i post #if u see me put tags on smth that isn't just a simple ''ough'' or ''hehe yay!!'' i probably sat there for two mins making sure it was okay #running thru the words at every angle i can conceive of to ensure its not going to hurt somebody somehow fdsjkl #and this paranoia has been so bad the past few days. and when it gets bad then i get worried bc maybe i somehow have a guilty conscience #without even knowing !!! just subconsciously having a guilty conscience somehow !!#which ... only makes the paranoia worse fdsgjkl its a very bad vicious circle #anyways. i have been lowkey avoiding being here lately bc of this but i feel like avoidance just makes it worse #so . hrm. i just do not want to have more crying breakdowns bc i tried to figure out what on earth i could possibly be doing so wrong fsdjk #not exactly a fun way to spend time FDSJKL but ... what can ya do i guess #like i can't ask ppl ''hey am i doing smth wrong?'' bc thats. very vague. and subjective. and also i shouldnt rely on other ppl like that #but my brain is so goofed up that i genuinely cannot tell when i get like this sdjfkl bc i feel so sure i must be doing smth wrong somehow #so every tiny thing seems like maybe its wrong in a way i dont understand yet... ough #ANYWAYS SORRY THIS IS . NOT A GOOD POST TO MAKE. LOL. but i feel like this is the only way im going to bust myself out of this cycle #hopefully if i just Say that i've been really worried then if smth IS actually wrong someone will let me know #and if nothing is wrong then !! i can move on from this continual paranoia spiral !! maybe !!#i feel like me posting this is going to be a Wrong Immoral Move but fdsjkl rly trying to just. break out of it rn fsdjkl #dandyshucks

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eirian · 1 year

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its rly rough still kind of lowkey being interested in media that u used to be into but stopped engaging with when u realized it wasnt like Good Media to be interested in

str8 up im talking abt hetalia and dmmd for me. i miss the characters and designs and stories and fan content i used to engage with. i view them with a different perspective now and that perspective knows that theres very problematic and shitty parts of the media that shouldnt be like..excused. yknow?

at the same time i do tend to defend ppl's right to be into problematic media as long as theyre critical of it and recognize why the problematic parts are bad and dont excuse/praise/support them. maybe i should extend that to myself tbh. i always feel like im a nasty person for still thinking of stuff like that but maybe i need to give myself more credit. im in a much better headspace to indulge in shitty media than i used to be lol

i still dont feel super comfortable posting abt it on main yet but hey thats what sideblogs are for i guess

#i always hate talking abt this subject bc i dont want to be lumped in with proshitters and the like. bc i dont fuck w those ppl #but i also definitely agree with the fact that theres a huge purity culture thing going on nowadays that turns ppl off from #using their critical thinking skills in favor of only indulging in “good” media. i dont vibe w that either #like man idk u can be a good person and be interested in media thats got shitty aspects to it. bc u recognize that its bad.#and u dont support it. yknow?#i honestly am just. so tired. of walking on eggshells with the media i consume #im 26 dude i have other things to worry abt than if somebody on tumblr with a fandom url thinks im shitty for being into something they don #deem “good media”#at this point im just like. who fucking cares dude. who cares!!!#life's too goddamn short to worry abt this shit anymore methinks #if u see me post dmmd or hetalia in the future dont worry abt it ok. just ignore it. unfollow me if u have to. blacklist it i will tag it

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grasslandgirl · 1 year

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this is good this is good im listening to we’ll never have sex at 11:30 pm. this is good this is a good sign about my mental health and how i feel about my ability to make and maintain relationships. yeah. this is great.

#its fine im good.#just. feeling again like i am romantically unloveable and even if i was i wouldn't know it and wouldn't recognize it and wouldn't know how #to carry it or maintain it. feeling once again like there is some part of me that will forever be very alone- no matter how many friends #whom i love so dearly i have around me- i will never be somebody's first choice and singular favorite person in the world #and thats just kind of. sad. i don tknow. maybe im just selfish and needy. and want to be loved and needed as much as i love and need others #and i just. can't. am not will not cannot be. and i guess i just have to find a way to accept and carry that. and most days i can #and some days its just harder.#anyway! points at my sign! no good thoughts after 11pm !! time to go to bed!#ignore this im FINE its FINE #moments i wish jamie was real so we could talk about it </3 but thats okay

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bangcakes · 6 months

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#lmao every other week i talk myself out of this crush or whatever is going on with me n this guy #bc i just !!!! dont wanna get hurt #and im worried i may have ruined it (tho everyone says i havent)#i just..... i dont wanna get hurt 😭😭😭#like.... god what if its all in my head??????? like i dont think it 100% is but im still like #idk it seems Impossible that someone would like me back #like..... idk the idea that i could be with someone im attracted to n like a lot could like me back.... it just... it doesnt seem plausible #like...... idk. this stuff doesnt usually work out for me. and thisll probably go nowhere #so ive decided to just..... go with whatever happebs #and if thats nothing then.... i guess thats fine #bc now ik what its like to truly like somebody...... ya #gonna focus on school..... graduating like super soon LOL #personal #im also just upset bc i might not see him this week. but that was also the case potentially last week....#and ended up seeing him and even goin to dinner with him n a few of our mutual friends so.....#never know what the future holds. i just..... ya....#i want it to work out but also like..... me being in a relationship seems impossible #like i didnt even wanna be in one but then he comes in my life n im like oh actually marriage is on the table NDJDJDJNFNFNNFNF

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bugsmoocher · 7 months

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mmaster hcief

#personal! ok idk why but i am in such a bad fucking mood after realizing that yet another year has passed where my father hasnt like.#really ??? cared ??? i dont know man my parents are taking me out to eat but i didnt get a text or a call or anything #like man i know im not the one thats ur blood child but come on i remember yours and wish you every year :(#my mom only really remembered when i showed up and jokingly was like “ey next time you see me ill be a whole year older”#this week has sucked so bad brother i hope it wont set the tone for the next year LKHL:D:FLGHK #happy birthday more like KILL YOURSELF INSTANTLY POTION #god only like my friends and two family members remembered im realizing. fuuuuuuuuuck. not even the people i live with minus my fiance #i only exist to these people when its time to talk behind somebodys back brother #maybe i drive my car into a tree tomorrow ^_^ in theory itd be good for me but at the end of the day if these people didnt care when i went #to the fucking mental ward for plotting to kill myself i doubt theyd care if i bled out in a ditch either #they never called or visited they just picked me up and told me to never do that shit again #maybe i should have Not been born...............!#ermmm #personal #vent #i guess. idk. just so if people have those tags blocked itll get filtered or whatever #i probably shouldnt just throw this out into the wild but i dont want to directly bother anybody i know rn idk.

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jrueships · 10 months

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hi ted, is this josh between de'aaron and steph c ??

https://64.media.tumblr.com/4aa4415b394ce18638932c6c8b5448e1/0ce3b2cab8478c9b-78/s1280x1920/868bf4956853cc72ad22f3332ebf470b72008fac.jpg

hi anon 😊👋! lol i feel so professional

it IS josh!!! looking like a skrunkle devoid of happiness.... a Struggle. a struggle skrunkle. the all black outfit and his emo eyes 😭 the bowlegged stance is being rlly exposed here omg. This is the poses you'll find men who attend private Christian campuses to be in when you enter

#the random speck on the wall above gups head ??#driving me insane somebody GET THAT!!#choose your character im picking scoot bcs he looks like there is nothing happening in that head #how did he become besties with steph i wonder?#hes always so nervous to talk to him bcs he doesnt wanna seem like an annoying fanboy #even tho steph is always more than happy to help him #he even brought his husband to help coparent like SCOOT!!#u are WANTED here! u are their SON!#i like how u specificed the last name intial of steph lol #he is not just steph... but steph.. C!!#fox looks so skinny compared to the rest #he can never leave twighood #he will never blossom into the strong oak trunk !#thats ok i love u twink twink #the photo honestly looks like some type of positivity intervention 😭#theyre trying to help gup out of his emo spiral #(it's not working. his body may be moving but trust. that mind is stagnant and sorrowful)#even The Smilies and The Stupids (klay and scoot) could not help..#but at least theyre trying!!#an in progress photo...#next photo gup will be utterly elated shopping at a farmers market or smthing #totally not thinking about green suddenly liking old ladies #LOVE!#WIIINS 🫡🫡🫡#agonized sobbing echos in the depths #gup #ted asks #thank u for showing me this omg.. this photo radiates such odd energy 😭 i love it it's amazing ty #fox #scoot scoot

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party-gilmore · 2 years

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me, noticing that I've picked up a lot of the body language and physical tics of the autistic character from the show I've been watching lately the same way I usually tend to absorb the speech patterns of characters I identify with: huh. sure hope this doesn't Dawn Any Realizations upon me.

#like i know theres a lot of overlap between adhd and autism #but I thought i missed most of that?#not in a 'whew dodged a bullet' kinda asshole way just in a 'i dont seem to have any problems socially and am good at understanding peoples #intentions and tailoring my responses accordingly so i dont want to claim something thats not mine to claim' kinda way #but holy SHIT if the physical stims she does arent extremely... 'haha i do that' vine but in a '?' kind of way #and also now that im thinking about it I always thought the analytical approach to conversation of 'oh this is an X scenario so person B is #is using Y tone so I should response with Z in a casual setting but B in a professional setting' was just how... conversations worked???#like thats JUST TALKING to somebody like regular?? except now that im typing it out instead of the reaction happening in .3 seconds in my #brain its like...#...ah.

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weirdlizard26 · 8 months

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i guess the thing abt the diagnosis for me is that. nothing has ever been severe for me. its just kinda. annoying and vaguely concerning. people with the real disorder are out there suffering and im just. mildly bothered. but im still diagnosed nonetheless? sounds fake

#wl26 #and its not just abt ocd. well it kinda is bc thats the only diagnosis ive got #but like with all the other suspected disorders too #like the other day i told mom that i brought up with the therapist that i struggle with studying and preparing for classes #and then a few days later she was napping while i studied #and she said hey maybe its not a disorder problem. maybe its just because ur always getting distracted to text somebody #and i didnt wanna admit it to her so i took evasive action but like fuck! maybe so!#n she said maybe if you just closed all ur apps for an hour and focused on studying maybe then u would get it right #n im like fuck! maybe !#but i dont want to is the thing KFJDNGDFGD #guy who is so painfully lonely every second of his existence. tbh #i dont want to have to NOT talk to my friends. i dont want to #so its like. do i actually have adhd or am i just a stubborn childish loser who deliberately refuses to put effort into ANYTHING #bleh

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