sel sel sel!!! its been a while since i popped into ur ask box so i thought id thank u for ur rb on my gojo drabble here :3 i come w treats 🍵☕️🍩🍪🍰!!

but god sel u r. the sweetest in the universe i think?? i appreciate you so so much for working ur way through my masterlist 😥🥺 n taking the time to pick out lines and comment so thoughtfully on everything!! (pls dont feel pressured to keep going if its draining tho!!! just knowing that u enjoyed them makes me so happy!! <33) u always say the kindest things and u always Get it so well too… ur spoiling me w all ur bigbrained thoughts i love reading em sm <3

as always im so happy u enjoyed my characterization of our boy 🥺🥺 means sm coming from u!! i dont write for teen gojo v often but i see him and adult gojo as fairly different… to me teen gojo is in this state where hes detached, but still has some kind of hope that he can breach that distance and connect w others…. while adult gojo is totally resigned to the impossibility of anyone genuinely understand him </3 but thats also why i can see teen gojo having a crush and like. wanting to Act on it as opposed to adult gojo who feels one single ounce of intimacy and immediately backs off LMAO

im trying not to rant too much in ur ask box PHDJD but!! i rly do want u to know how grateful i am for u!!! knowing that u like my writing means the world to me 🥺😥 all ur comments r so thoughtful and u rly do always see exactly what im trying to do w certain lines n dynamics and its just :’3 yeah. im picking u up and spinning u around!!! i hope this week treats u w all the kindness that u deserve sel <333

ari omg?!!?! 🥺 YOU are so sweet coming in here, thanking me with this looooong and sweeeeet message 🥺

read ari’s drabble here

i am munching on all those treats 🥺 thank you so much 🥺🫶🏻

i am soooo far from completing your masterlist omg this is just the tip of the iceberg!! truly!!! i always save ur works for a time when i know i’ll be in the right headspace to read and process it 🥺 but!! i am always so excited and happy to leave my comments on your stuff!! i adore the way you write and characterise!! you deserve every bit of appreciation 🥺

YOU have a big brain pls. 😭 i agree that teen gojo varies so much from adult gojo & i think the turning point was probs suguru 😭 i love the hope you attach to gojo as a teen, how he still hopes for something amidst everything 🥺 it also just ACHES me to think that he’s turned a bit jaded as an adult and no longer thinks anyone will get him 😭

pls feel free to drop by w everything and all that you wanna share ari 🥺 i appreciate YOU so much for writing works like this, for also being so supportive of others’ stuff, for being sososo sweet 🥺 i hope u r getting all the love u deserve this week ily 🥺

i can write you another letter right?

im sorry. i can't sleep. i've been trying to but i just keep spiraling back to missing you. and that i should've left a text or something instead of leaving you in the dark. that i never wanted you to feel alone, and god forbid you wake up missing me and go to sleep doing the exact same thing.

fuck that shit bro. 🥺 i actually miss you too much now. i never want you to feel like you haven't had enough of me yet. because i want to always be there for you. and it sucks bc i wasn't and i just keep overthinking it for myself -- yes ik you're probably gonna be like its okay you dont have to stay up or let me know for me but -- i want to???? i want to really bad. i want to beam you my thoughts whenever im super sleepy but ik if you were able to do the same i'd bother you nonstop and struggle between falling asleep and never getting to sleep at all.

it doesnt even work super well, bc when i was thinking abt beaming thoughts to you earlier today, it was when i was horny and i was hoping you'd never hear me in my mind bc you'd just get distracted by how quickly my mind changes from 'i dont wanna do anything im so tired i gotta plan out what to do for homework tomorrow' to 'thaddea~ i like it when you grab my ass so hard in the way it spreads my pussy 🥺🥺🥺 want you in me so bad' like even i had whiplash over typing that jn and i mean it when i say i do switch thoughts like that and omg never hear them pls 🤦‍♀️

but also im. still really sorry ig. because i feel like id let you down? and ik its not that big a deal to you but it sure does for me. like i never want you to feel lonely ig. i wanna be by your side whenever i can. and yes to me even if im sleepy as hell over 48 hours of sleep debt or w/e i still Can^tm be by your side. and i feel guilty that i wasnt. and ik this is weird but thats how much you mean to me. and ik liking you should be an act thats done under taking care of myself too but. idk. idw if its with you somehow, in a selfish way ig. i wanna serve you first as my utmost priority. we can talk about feeding me later or w/e.

hjgbfkfhifhjfhfjfhkfjgkf i feel bad for saying that too bc idw you to worry abt me either aaaaaaaaaaa

um if you wake up n see this i have some tea??????? proj work b cray cray in dgp. and also like i wrote this bc my yearning mixed up w my sad emotions and ig if above was the sad emotions then heres the part of yearning

so when sab n i were walking around ikea there was a playlist on and one of the songs i had in my playlist for you was on too. and immediately i went head empty and what awful timing too bc we were looking at a showroom for a family and i was thinking too hard abt wanting you to be my husband or however the song goes n we'd have a dining room with multiple chairs (for kids ig) and like. yeah thank god sab was distracted by all the nice cups on display 💀💀💀💀💀doesnt help i was also busy singing the song under my breath while being head empty ig

oh and otw out we were looking ay cookware bc we had to go through the section to leave n sab was wishing she had a reason to buy cookware???? and i rly wanted to be like same n think abt being domestic w you n visiting ikea n getting cookware w you for our new home or w/e 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 but we dont have a home lmao and theres no reason for us to share cookware either ig except to save costs bc its not like we're married or w/e (haha jk unless? @ govt pls sponsor our hdb more) and if i thought too hard abt cookware id drop the comedy act w sab in the end so i didnt think too hard abt it at the time on purpose

and and and sab went to tamp w me to pick up stuff aft our ikea visit????? and when we were getting boost juice (her request not mine) i was mentioning to her where you waited for us the other day like im still not over it and that i definitely do not have a crush on you or anything. obvi not. idk i was even joking abt it on the way there being like 'haha random info you definitely do not need to know about but i will tell you bc idk haha' mmgjfhdkfhdkhfkfjf and that was when you were texting me that you were at jewel do you rmb 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 jk you dont have to

(and like also is it bad that i kinda do wanna be domestic w you fhjfkfkfhf like ik you said its my choice but its also my choice to wanna serve you well right 🥺 and like work fucking sucks and has its own hot bed of problems but at least with you, my sweet angel, my honey, my darling, as a ux designer i would know and study you better bc you're always around me as my subject of focus? so like. id cater to you better just on observation alone. and like i wanna make sure you're at your tippy top whenever you head out to work too? n be comforted by the fact that someone capable is taking care of your living space n working hard on your behalf too? with tangible visible outcomes? and idk if you wanna throw in some kids for that horny fantasy too i wouldn't mind because yeah i do wanna be kept home by you and your cock too big for my pussy and the loads you keep giving unto me but thata neither here nor there and as you can see im obviously missing the point of this paragraph now)

um where was i going w this i dont rmb

i like you a lot thaddea! and i cant sleep bc im missing you too much. and i want you to fuck me senseless. and also i'm really sorry that i didn't manage to tell you abt me being sleepy or catch you on time to talk to you earlier.

yknow i bgjfhfjhf i started crying when i realized i didnt manage to ask you abt your day??? fhjfngjfn sorry ik it sounds rly dumb n weird but-- idk i keep wanting to chalk it up to 'thats how much you mean to me and my day' but i also dw look so clingy and so co-dependent. like yeah, maybe i can't operate w/o you in my life bc you're my routine, one of the only things keeping me grounded. that's bad, right? am i supposed to follow this up with 'so what'?

hfjfjfj idk. i wanna sleep soon, so i can wake up to you and give you all the affection i know you deserve. and also that i can talk to you sooner and cuddle with you earlier bc ik while sundays are difficult for you to reply to me in the morning, we still have our nightly routines right? that'll still come earlier if i just sleep n make time go by faster.

i miss you thaddy. 🥺 i do mean it though, can you forgive me for falling asleep on you? you can brag abt it to everyone ig. idm. 😤 if its you, i dont think i'll ever mind. i like you so much. 🥺

okay im gonna sleeb now fr this time or at least try to ig lord knows i suck at sleeping so haha gnight daddy rest well ❤

my ateez hi touch experience !!!

so a lil intro gkdjg basically what happened is vip ppl stayed in the concert hall n then after some waiting they took us through this side door n into some hallway and i thought we were gonna go and stand in line and wait for our turn or smth but we literally walked through the door n turned around a corner n they were RIGHT there n i was like bouncing bc i was so excited n nervous and i went around the corner looking like an idiot n first thing i see is jongho like In My Face and i started freaking out it was so scary kgjsdgj also disclaimer the descriptions for each member arent equally long bc the staff rushed me on a few members + i was too shocked to do anything sometimes i promise im trying not 2 sound biased (except 4 the one abt san. tht one is probably biased but i cant help it im in love and i talk a lot when its abt him.) i love them all i swear gkjdsgd

jongho: like i said he was first and idk how 2 describe him he looks so much? bigger? irl like taller n more broad than id expected HDJDJ but really handsome n i noticed immediately his skin looks really soft and he has v round cheeks hes. cute. i was really dazed so i forgot what i wanted to say to him which was compliment his vocals n i only used one hand i did that for all of them bc im dumb n didnt think hdkddj when i held his hand he went hi thank you! so i just said thank you i love you bdkdjjdk :( i FAILED i was gonna be cool and call him a vocal god but i got all shy .. but its okay at least he knows i love him

yeosang: first of all he looked so soft and adorable all night n kept doing cute things during the performances and i love him so much gkdfokh anyways hes so beautiful up close LITERALLY an angel and he had the sweetest shy smile and i still couldnt think properly so i just held his hand n said i love you so much bcjdkkd i cant remember if he said anything back or not i might not have heard it if he did kgsdjg i actually wanted to tell him that i think hes really amazing and precious but i rly couldnt get any words out other than i love you ksdjgs and i didnt have any time w him at all im sad bc hes one of my favs but hes th one i remember the least from the hi touch i feel like i didnt get to look at him at all :(

mingi: hes SO large but not intimidating at all like i didnt realize he had been towering over me until i moved on to wooyoung who was so much smaller kgjdsg anyway mingis so so warm and smiley and at this point my brain finally started working a bit again and like i swear as soon as u see mingi n his huge smile u just wanna give him the world and tell him hes the best person in the universe like theres smth abt him that just makes u want to give him so much love as soon as u see him so i said “youre so amazing i love you !!!!!!” n he smiled so big at me and said thank u i love u! also his hand was huge n i held it w my tiny hand fhdjkdj

wooyoung: idk if its just bc he was standing right next to mingi but he looks kinda small irl HDJDJDK obviously still taller than me but he looked tinier than i expected. and so beautiful aaaa i really had no idea what to say to him n i was nervous but i said thank you i love you :( it went so fast the security rushed me on quickly so i didnt get a lot of time w him and i feel bad djdkdjdk

seonghwa: godddd LITERALLY the prettiest person ive EVER seen you cant even imagine how gorgeous he is irl and the second he saw me he smiled really bright and was like “my princess!!!!” bc i was wearing my tiara n like my brain shut down it rly caught me off guard BDJDBDJ this is like my clearest memory from the whole concert i can still hear his voice in my head how he said it n his smile ggjdksgjo i was rly flustered ANYWAYS.. i was like stunned but then i was like yes thats me!!! DFFHDF??? and while security were telling me to move on i quickly said “i love u ur my prince!!” n he like held onto my hand a lil longer n was looking back at me while i was saying it even tho i was being rushed away gsdgsdk

san: okskskhmdff the love of my life literally i.....i stared at him for a sec when it was his turn like what the fuck thats the love of my life right in front of me ????? like what am i supposed to DO... and not to be het but hes literally soooooooo beautiful hdkdhddj his facial features look a lot more defined? irl.. idk how 2 say but he looks softer in pics and hes just sooooo handsome jdoddjdkdn its crazy and he smiled rly cutely at me when i came up to him n he held my hand skgjd n like FINALLY my brain was working again so from here on i started actually speaking korean to them like i WANTED to gdgkds i managed to say like half of what id planned to say i literally went autopilot i said it like w/o stuttering and i dont even know how bfkdh and he went like :O and leaned super close to me to hear what i was saying UDHDJDJCCJXJ i said “thank u so much for making me happy!!!” and n his eyes were sparkling n so loving when he realized what i said and he put his hand on his heart and said thank you and bowed at me (nearly headbutting me in the process bc he was so close jgsdgks) n seemed rly happy n touched like genuinely and then i was being rushed on by the staff so i quickly yelled i love you!! n he was like i love you too! dkdofkh i love him so much n he loves me back wow...what a time.. i miss him gksdogkg his hand was so soft and warm 🥺🥺

yunho: didnt get much time w him either i think the staff had their eyes on me bc id lingered at both seonghwa AND san (accidentally i SWEAR i didnt realize i was getting more time w them bc the staff didnt notice i was still there kjgsdg) i wanted to sing happy birthday 2 him but i completely forgot everything n it was going so fast :( so i panicked and i yelled happy birthday i love you !!! rly awkward and he looked SO happy but he clowned my yelling at him n said thank you back in a similar tone as i did KGJSDG he is sosososo cute irl literally just a big teddy bear i wanted to hug him so bad and he has the most sparkly loving eyes i swear also i think he was really happy to spend his birthday with us and im so happy i got to tell him happy birthday in person i feel super lucky :(

hongjoong: okay so like most precious person in my life.. he was last which made me emo bc it felt like he was like the one saying goodbye to me fhdjdh so i was abt to cry and he rly looked at me like i was the most important person in the world gjsdogk like its true what everyone said abt that seriously he loves atinys so much uhghhgh ... n he held my hand as soon as i came up to him (lol the staff said no hand holding n hongjoong said fuck your rules bitch) and he looked rly surprised when i started speaking korean his whole face went :O kjsdkg i asked him if we can be best friends bc ive always been calling him my best friend n i need 2 make sure we r on the same page u know? and he nodded n was like yes!! yes!! n he held onto my hand a lil while i was walking away :( im officially hongjoongs best friend u guys he said it himself...