If I am honest with myself, I think one of my biggest sources of internalized transphobia is based on my desire for a "typical" bottom surgery, something along the lines of phallo, even.

I think I truly only wanted a "simpler" bottom surgery because I was inundated with comments for six years straight about how disgusting phallo is, how it is "barbaric," and no trans person should ever want it, and the desire for a phalloplasty is shameful. Those things burrowed its way into my mind because it wasn't just dyed-in-the-wool transphobes saying that it was also other trans people. It was other trans guys and transmasculine people saying those things.

The point of this post is that when you are talking about transitioning, surgeries, or hormones and such, you aren't talking about ideas or nebulous concepts. You are talking about real people and their real in-the-flesh bodies. Be careful that you aren't carrying water for people who want to see them dead.