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arcadequeerz · 1 year

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Today sucked.

#cade.vnt #animal death ment in the tags.#let our cat DC go today. he was 16 years old. raised hin sunce he was a few days old.#had diabetes and it was progressively gettjnf worse even w hin veinf on insulin.#wasnt eating anymore wasnt moving anymore.#couldnt make him go through any more shit then he has.#vet said he was likely in kidney failure.#i wasnt there but my mkm held him the entire time. im going go miss him.#hurts already to see his spot in the cat tree empty.#cost 500 dolllars just fo that. and we cant afford to get his ashes.#god i hate not hsving money i hate this.#trying to mot yhink ablut kt right now but it feels like #weve abandoned him. i know we didng but it feels like it and i just want him here.#god im tired of everything fallig apart around me. im tired of losing people. he was a cat but still.#trying to be happy becajss in a few days #im going to visit my nephew to celebrate his first birthday #i sont want to be like this aeohnd hin.#if someone reqds thks please give your cats a kiss on their heads for ne.#life keeps feeling like ifs gettinf worse n jt keeps getting harder to exist. and i don't #want to be like ghis im so tired of being sad i wanna be happy and i dint want to be #a drain on people.#constantly feel like i need to apologize for bsing lie this all tje time.#anyways sorry for fhe spam of aes posrs. im looking through mh likes.

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andragoras-in-vanity · 1 year

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ah the bathtub scene, akin to what the shower scene is to slashers

#we love a bathtub scene #also i miss my haunted old house but im VERY glad i never faced that #the thing running across the dinning room at me was just not a favourite moments #but i miss my old house so so so much and i wish we could move back #but if my mum and i are leaving then why cant we live one of those ghost stories where the somewhat downtrodden mother and child move into #the ancient and shoddy home that has more than a few tragic secrets #or just the movie practical magic #GOD DAMN. ID LOVE TO LIVE ON LAND THAT HAS A BOAT HOUSE #FUCK #i just want a big old house again even if its haunted especially if its haunted #i love ghost stories but my god why do i feel the same loss of a woman in a gothic novel whos husband died at war #she haunts the house she wants him to haunt the house she wants what he never gave her the life they never got to have #i miss being around the spirits so much they soemtimes eased my heart better than any living person could #so why do i feel like the love of my life is already dead before i ever met him #im haunting the earth and i cant even find a home to haunt instead and i dont want to be dead anymore #i want the man who should love me but its hard to have faith he even stull exists when i fee the sorrow of losing him in a previous life #qnd the god awful pain of his funeral happening before mine #the sheer injustice of that orange sunset when they buried him and having to live without hin #for however short it was before i died too #ill never know if it was sickness or a cut on the wrist but i couldn't live without him and i still cant #i shouldn't have watched this episode #gothic horror destroys me usually in a good way but not this one this one just hurts #im more dead than alive i miss my ghosts #cabinet of curiosities #the murmuring #that was a perfect episode to end with and i want a series of stories just like that one

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luvlyhyunjin · 25 days

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🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️: literally fuck you angie you said hyunjin was gonna get kidnapped and he never did

But also fuck yeosang this is making me wanna scream and cry and hit myself over a hundred times like wtf is he doing does he want me to bring changbin to fight him or something like please for dear life can he stfu and go on his way what is wrong w hin you don't understand the goosebumps and the anger I got when I saw the messages with him.

No because she should really go to the police about this blackmailing because its really not even funny. I wouldn't be surprised if y/ns dad and him were working together because by the seems of it he's just like her dad and maybe just maybe if they do end up together he's eventually gonna get tired of her and go back to yeji..

But please what did hyunjin do to deserve this? He just wants to feel loved, to give love. To be free and spend his days all happy hanging out with his friends and s/o but yeosang is actually so jealous he needs to ruin everything like wtf.

Angie I'm not even joking if the next update is worse than this I'm gonna lock myself up and cry and block you I'm not even joking

WHY R U DKING THIS I CANT EVDN LOOK AT YEOSANG THE SAME ANYMKRE MY POOR BABYGIRL HE WAS MY FAVE CHARACTER AT THE START

you might wanna drop carousel cus i dont know what to tell you anymore😭😭😭😭 because we're diving into the deep end

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a-normal-girls-thoughts · 9 months

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Some characters i relate to

Charlie from the perks of being a wallflower-

I relate to this character because i think i am really diasosiated idk if that how you spell it or call it but i dont really feel like im there and there are times were i go to this really dark place and i just dont know what to do and its all my fault because if it wasnt then i think i probably wouldnt feel this way but um i also relate to him because of what happened to him wirh his aunt but that about all im willing to share(im alright now if anyone was wondering)

Fiona from shamless-

I relate to her because i feel like all the things my parents done they dont give a shit about me they think that just becasue im kind and nice and mature that i can take whatever they throw at me but i really cant i dont know what to do most day because at a very young age ive been put to take care of children that werent mine but my sisters because of her disgusting drug problem like frank lol but um my mom think it isnt fair for me to blame her because shes rigjt its not kust her fault but wtv but i also relate to her because my mom and my father never really cared about me sure my mom cooks for me and helps me when times get hard but thats her job and my father isnt really here and when he is its just putting blame on my mother but its wtv

Shoya from a silent voice-

I relate to him because there once was a very dark time in my life were i did think of kms because i felt digusting with myself i felt like i wasnt beatiful I genuinely thought there was no point in living if i just didnt even like myself but then i found this person who helped me get out of it and sense then i have gotten better i think but sadly that person that helped me has uh walked away from my life so now i am alone but im not lonely and i dont feel alone anymore so i will forever be greatful to him

Hachi from nana-

I think im alot like her because i think i give to much love that most of the time i dont get in return and sure it makes me feel like an absolute idiot but i just turn a blind eye because sometimes you just dont know when to quit and i just relate to her alot because i know how it feels to have your heart crushed over some stupid pathetic boy who couldnt really love you as much as you loved him

Ik this one might be a bit weird but Robin from DCC (in general)-

I relate to hin because i feel like hes just really left behind and hes always trying his best and no matter what hes usually just not seen or disregarded and i think hes me because i am usually disregared most of the time and when people do decided to include me its like there just joking around and doing it to make me feel pathetic

I think that about the main people that i relate to but if anyone does see this just know im here if you wanna talk

#vent #girlblogging #girlblogger #the perks of being a wallflower #charlie kelmeckis #fiona gallagher #shameless #shoya ishida #a silent voice #venting #kins #dc robin #dc

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ineedacalicocat · 1 year

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Every single live Jk did in 2021 he brought up Jm and was crucified for it. On his IG questions he brought up Jm every time & was crucified for it. He couldn't even mention Jm without Tkk coming for blood & PJM's hating on him & Jk solos being mad he mentioned Jm. Now that he doesn't, y'all are using it against him. Just say you're a bitter ex Jkk & now that you don't believe in Jikook anymore, you hate everything about them. Drop the superiority complex ex Jkk you're no better then current Jkk.

He didnt mention him. Armies mentioned him. Today the same thing happened. Someone else mentioned vibe thats why he sang it. It always like this. Even that time when there was fancafe he joined a room and talked with armies and at that time jimin posted a selfie westing white channel tshirt and armies went omggg jimin posted a selfie to that chat room nd jungkook went aaaaa jiminshiiii he was just reacting to armies going crazy for jm but jikookers went out of theur ways and they were like omgggg jk couldnt stop mentioning jimin -_- like really? All the things you just said are things which were mentioned by armies and he replied to them. Thats it. Even when he said i hugged jimin its cause literally army asked hin did you go to his room?? If they are in a closet i think at least why he can do good is support his boyfriend like nothing would happen to him or his relationshio for not mocking jimin. You guys relaly piss me of so much. Like living in that bubble. Cant see shit all day reading jikook analys videos or blogs writing the same stuff those bloggers write. Like these shit you just said were literally mentioned befire some other blogger here. You probably copy pasted them. The reality is when tae was in depression jungkook seont time with jimin after tae and them starte dbeing friends again he stopped hanging out with jm and also they changed. Jk changed. So his character seems more up to beat with taes. And jimin hangs out with peoole like him. Thats the end of story. I dont thing jimin would hang out someone like tae. Jimin just respects them and loves them as his coworkers but thats it. I dont think he cares that much about whether or not tae or junkook hangs out with him or they are lovey dovey like that used to be. And the reason why he called jk for his birthday is literally why he said it cause jk is the dongsaeng and he cnt say no to him cause jm is older. Even tho he mocks him at least there is some respect left for him. But i dint think jimin will ever do that. If you see he doesnt do that anymore. If he asks and jk doesnt come he wont say it again. I think he sent some boundaries with him between members. If they dont want to he wont do it. See hoe tae became like that rn. Trying so hard to do something eith jk cause he knows he will get that attention. He really wants to do insta vlive and get on the trends. Whatveer man i just want jimin and sering people making this fake ships like its something is so boring like cmon its 2023 there is no ship. Can you guys just like wake the fuck up? Jk literally dated that girl in 2019 got his heart broken even wrote a song. They guy cant even date in peace cause his fans wants him to fuck his members instead....

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dreadedinsights · 2 years

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NUDARC

i absolutely fall in love with you over and over again

i remember exactly how we met personally for the first time.

i could remember my heart beating so fast as i approach the plaza where we’ll meet, seeing you stand near the entrance with your hair curled out and the genuine smile you have, i remember the small conversations and the awkwardness, the shyness stood out and your glance was the nicest thing I've ever seen, your scent is unforgettable and even now... you still smell the same, the smell of denim on my skin and the masculinity of it.

i remember how we strolled in town like two birds flying in the sky,

the warmth and comfort of your hand as you slowly held my hand at the crossroads.

our heads were sweating so much despite the cold weather we had,

i still see you as the same person you are EIGHT YEARS AGO.

gentle, sweet, protective and emotionally deep.

i remember the gentle kisses you always give me and up till now i melt on those kisses. i love you so much and weve both been through so much,

i love you so much and we killed each other so many times our tears just dripping down our faces, we love each other so much and now we question ourselves if do we still feel the same way now,?

or are we the same people as we were before.

i love you so much now i question myself if you still remember every good thing we had,

i love you so much i wonder if you'd still send me a message today.

i miss you so much and i cant stop missing you despite how bad our relationship has gone.

i miss you more than ever when were high i feel like sometimes i cant find you deep down inside cause the real you is buried from so much pain,

and i feel so bad and guilty because it is myfault why you have changed.

i want to let go of you because you are not happy with me anymore our laughter always gets killed with anguish and pain that i have caused and i cannot ever blame you for the treatment you gave me cause i deserve it.

i deserve to be hurt and feel the heavy pain, because you are just a nice, perfect and the ideal guy a woman could ever have.

and i am not the woman you're looking for it hurts me so much right now to say this i am not the one whom you called the “perfect wife”, because i am crazy and broken and stupid, i am just a fool who seeks love and attention and i don't make sense anymore . i lost myself in the process of trying to fix myself . but still you are there.

PLIP! i am sooo sorry for everything and for what i have made you become right now. i write this with so much pain i have and guilt for not telling you that the reason your like this is because of me! and because youre right naman talaga, and mama too ... I AM NOT CAPABLE OF LOVE but CHAOS.

im feeling so down right now and i just want to hide in my rabbit hole. if ever you read this one day and you just left in silence i would understand why and that because you might have read this. Masakit na hin duro ha dughan nga nakkita ko ikaw nga nag tutuok ngan naulolan. unta mapasaylo mo ako na kayano ha personal diri ko ini mayakan naak gn aabat. i have been so cruel to you AND ITS NOT YOU WHOS CRUEL. i made everything so hard for you and it gets harder when i am your present.OHHHH GOD!!!!! GOD KNOWS HOW MUCH I WANT TO BE WITH YOU!!!!!!! AND I DONT KNOW KAYANO INI GIN PAPA ABAT HAAK HIT KALIBUTAN! YOU ARE THE LESSON IN MY LIFE, AND I am just an obstacle you have to surpass for you to find happines. Im so sorry my love im really sorry for everything, for everypain i put upon you. i dont know how i will let go and survive but if you walk out my life i will learn to accept the painful decisions you have to make. but always please remember I LOVE YOUUUU SOOO MUCH DY!!! AND MY LOVE FOR YOU WILL NEVER EVER CHANGE! FORGIVE ME FOR EVERYTHING!! :(

-LOVE-

MOMMY HEYAM

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starshineden · 5 years

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#ignore this im just venting again #tw negative #but like yikes #im gonna spam the tags a little but like legit ignore this #but yeah can i please stop getting my hopes up for anything ever #its all fun and games until dimitri fucks up again #like first fuckup was bc i didnt have feelings #this fuckup is bc i do have feelings #cant win lmao #and its not his fault at all #immnot blaming hin #hes wonderful and a good friend and i appreciate him #its good he ended it now i guess considering how much it fuckin hurts rn #instead of letting it continue #like i knew i had no chance #but i had itty bitty hopes #its okay #i guess ill get over it #gotta find out whatever tf my brain did to make me not be into blake anymore and just #apply that here too #shouldve gotten over it like a month ago #but i drink too much dumb bitch juice to do smart things #i love that i could respond so calmly to him while like sobbing thi #fuckin talent right there babey

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cptnruski · 4 years

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Idk, all my friends have blown me off all day and I just... hate that feeling of “am I too much? Did I do something wrong? Am I annoying?” and it’s happening and I hate it. Also, realizing I may be legitimately in love with my best friend, who I know doesn’t like me like that, who I just want to be friends with, who I know I cannot and SHOULD NOT be in love with... this is too fucking much I can’t fucking believe myself. Boys are stupid and I can’t believe I like one.

#dont rb #ruski rants #ruski speaks #delete later i guess #maybe #i dont fucking know anymore #i dont want these feelings #i want a friend but its been months and i cant stop thinking about him #hes the nicest guy i know and everytime im near him uts butterflies and #AND I HATE IT #i just want to be friends especially because weve had this discussion and i know he doesnt lile me #but here i am and j cant fucking get hin out of my head

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guhhhhhhhhhhh · 6 years

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Hugs and nice words would be appreciated because I think I just lost a job I really loved and I'm a little shook

#it was a very unexpected phonecall from my boss saying he thinks im too stressed and stuff to keep working rn and wants me to keep up #with school and stuff and not worry about having to come in anymore #and i thought things have been going well and i liked what i was doing but hes right i am Very Very Stressed #but it was just so completely unexepcted and i dont know what to think #like it also spunded like he could have been trying to soften the blow instead of sayig he was firing me for other reasons like my work #and how i was handling things but idk idk #but the phonecall was so short and abrupt and so im going in later just to thank hin for the experience and all that and maybe ask for a #second chance later when i have less on my plate because i really love what i was doing #i just #idk what to think really i mean hes a realy nice person but maybe our personalities didnt quite click which i can understand #or my work just wasnt up to par which i understand because the last time i was in there it wasnt a very good day but idk idk #i cant just let this end at one short phonecall though #i need to at least be able to say ive tried #personal shite

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aquagustd · 2 years

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No bc snora is such a two faced bitch?? Like going as far as kissing junho but then saying it's a waste of money that they both earned?? (I doubt)

And then jungkook's asshole persona showing some cracking esp the last part ahsjdjd idk what to think anymore esp with the vmin situation like who am i supposed to root for esp knowing that the jk and snora thing is just a farce ajsjs and like it was jungkook who came to her not tqehyung and taehyung has smth to do with yoongi getting shot?????? And what is hoseok's role in this im so curious like i mean aside from hin and oc having history but like why does he have bad blood w jk aside from that lmao aahh i cant wait you're such a good writer!!

YES YOU CAUGHT THAT HUH ??? i hate it when people act nice to kids but then shit talk them behind their backs even if they don’t know what that means. like that’s the worst kind of deception imo. just say you don’t like the kid and go ✋🏻 it’s giving very much step mom

we don’t know if oc & jks relationship is fake or not !! i haven’t said anything about that yet. but yeah. jk was so quick to give oc the bad news about yoongi. like what if yuri told her what actually happened and then he showed up like 🗿

hoseok & jk do have some beef 👀

#it goes deeper than oc #fic: hie #squishies #smileysixth

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nctworststuff · 3 years

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Sorry not sorry

P-Ex-husband!Taeyong x reader | G-Angst | W-Mention of cheating,divorce,argument,too much talking (?)| Wc-0.7k

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You hate him. Everything he has done to you, you never forgive him. You will never

You're going to meet him,not going to say 'goodbye' or what. You just want to take your son. You already promise to yourself that you never get back with him. Now, you step out from your car. As your legs step on the land,nervousness filling up through your body and soul. Ding dong. You press the door bell button. When Taeyong open the door, he froze, look at you about a few minutes

"Where's Daniel?" You asked about your son, firmly.

"Why?" You not answered him but walking pass him instead. Not forget to shove your shoulder with his that make Taeyong hurt more. But he never let you go. He stop you by grab your wrist. His eyes went darker

"What you want to do with him?" He asked you again

"He is my son!" You whisper-yelled

"That's our!" He fight you back and hold you shoulder. You doesn't feel want to arguing with him right now but the situation force you.

"But we are not together! So I want to hold a responsibility against him!" You yelled and push him from his hand on your shoulder

"We are just divorced yesterday! Cant you give me a little bit time?" You dont have any idea but all of sudden your mind flashing a too much image right now when he said 'divorce' word.

The girl you saw, the way he handling her hand, the laughter they had and also document divorce, all image flashing in your mind now, even your memory you had with him. And all just a memory now

"Can't you just-" but you stop as you hear someone crying. You saw your son, Daniel, is crying on the stairs. He already 12 years old, so whatever you and Taeyong said, he understands an thats the reason he is crying

"Daniel,come here" you calling him softly, trying ti not make hin afraid of your. He run towards you and Taeyong. You quickly hugging him and said his nama again softly

"Im sorry, dear but I have to do this okay? Now, please go to my car first, I want to talk with your dad,okay?" You look at him and wiping his tears

"But mom-"

"Go" you cut him off. Without any objection, he run to your car. You want to make sure Daniel already go before turning to look at Taeyong.

"Im sorry, Tae but I cant give a responsibility against him to you"

"Why? You cant trust me? Am I not a good father?" He almost tearing and so are you

"Taeyong. Im not saying that you are a bad father. Im just doubt with you and afraid if other girls might hurt him. Plus, sometimes someone can changes depends on their environment. But Im not going to stop you from meet Daniel because you are his real father. Just tell me if you want to meet him. And we are over. Clear?" You explain

He shake his head slowly, all just unbelievable. You sigh heavily and walk towarda th door, wishing that all just over here. But Taeyong stop you again.

"Y/n, I love you! Please, can we fix it back?" Finally, he said it.

"And Im not love you, after what you do to me just want to get the girl, I never forget and the scar still stay on my soul"

"Y/n! I already broke up with her just want to get back with you! Cant you just love me back?" Love him back? How? You also never hear his voice louder than this time. You shake your head

"That's your business. Just find another girl. And dont call or text me if it aint related with Daniel. Sorry not sorry" You cant take it anymore but let the tears stream down to your cheeks. You not wish any of this but you know not everyone have a happy ending

"One more thing. I give my heart for you to keep it. Not to broke it" you said before shut the door, wanted to leaving the house that just lived by memory.

Taeyong doesn't stay still. He open the door, calling your name softly a few times but you pretend you didn't hear it. He just regret after everything happen. He is crying so harder now.

You open the driver seat's door and saw Daniel who just looking at you. Everything just silent in your car. Just tears keep streaming down to your cheeks when you drive all the way

Peoples changes,feelings fades,promise broken

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zuffer-weird-girl · 4 years

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do you think you could write something with kai and his hormonal s/o? maybe she's pregnant with kin at the time so you catch her crying because she cant hold and carry kaito properly anymore. or maybe she just snaps at mimic and rappa before crying because she wants hot chocolate or something XD

He sighed in annoyance while getting inside his home after a few hours of walking, the bag still on his gloved hand.

This pregananvy of yours is... rather irritating this time.

He even stopped with his own work and experiments to just start searching for something that would at least ease up a bit your emotions, which seemed to be completely out of control.

He had to get out of his office along with chrono to prevent you for killing Mimic because he yelled at something or something related to that.

Not even comenting about the river of tears you spilled today for not finding a pantry you had bought once...

He didn't even dared to comment that he knew who exactly eated that sweet of yours, only sighing in despair and patting your shoulder, telling you he was going to be out for a while.

Now... he didn't even reached one of the rooms and immediately heard your sniffles and cries.

Oh god you were crying still since that hour?

The moment he stepped his foot on the living room he saw his wife crying while his son patted her arm, eyebrows furrowed in worry.

"What happened?" He sighed, putting the bag on the coofe table while he looked down at you.

"Is just- Is just-!" You tried to speak before succumbing to sobbing ugly in your hands, even whimpering a bit.

"... brat?" He looked at his son, in hopes that his 6 years old child could at least solve his problem of not knowing what the hell had happened.

"I asked mommy to pick me up a bit and when she tried she winced a bot before crying." Kaito sayed nonchalantly but his eyes expressed his worry.

"I AM A HORRIBLE MOTHER!" Both of the boys flinched at that before you returned to sobbing.

"No mommy!" Kaito protested while hugging your neck while Kai was almost panicking.

He wasn't good with emotions. He knew that, you knew that, heck even his son knew that. So why both of you had to be cursed with a emotional pregnancy?

He once flipped your forehead, an action that both of you were way too used to, and you literally exploded in both yelling and crying.

Then you just started to cry harder, begging for his forgiveness SECONDS LATER.

He never felt so lost in all of his fucking life.

He awkwardly picked up the pantry and opened it before poking your leg.

"There." He offered while you lifted your puffy red eyes up with a 'huh?'. "Its yours. I went to pick it."

Kaito let go of your neck to lay his head on your arm as he sitted on your lap, snuggling a bit in your chest and very careful with the baby bump.

"Thank you hon!" You smiled brightly before picking the pantry up.

...seconds. It was in a matter of seconds that your mood changed.

He needed to finish that medice...

Kaito suddenly then glared at the baby bump, poking with a finger as he pouted.

"Is the baby's fault mommy's crying so much. Stop it. You're hurting my mom." Kaito mumbled and even before Chisaki could scold his son he stopped for a moment.

The kid wasn't exactly wrong...

"It had to be a Chisaki. Just had to." He growled before placing his gloved hand on there while lowering his mask to give you a kiss on the forehead as his free hand wiped the rest of your tears away.

"Stop with that brat. Im also tired of you making your mom cry. First your brother that made her sick and sore, now you just making my angel cry? We're going to have some troubles."

You couldn't help but laugh at seing both grumpy and talking like that... before you stopped out of the sudden and pushed Chisaki a bit to stare at hin in the eyes seriously.

"Kai? Who ate the first pantry? I know you know who it was."

He needed that medice. RIGHT NOW.

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noras-wafflehouse · 3 years

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Theres a little headcanon of mine and it could trigger some people out there so i will Tag it . And also put a fat TRIGGER WARNING MAYBE right here . Also it's including SPOILERS FOR THE CHAPTER 290 OF MHA .

I had this thought for a while now . A little storry about myself in forward as i can Talk about it atm . I got Bpd diagnosed just about a year Ago and now my therapist getting to undo all the layers it brings with it . Bipolar just .. (the hardest mood swings ever . You just .. if you dont experience it .. you will not know how this feels . And even if you have it you cant tell if its a good Phase a manic Phase ore if you're just... you just dont realy know like .. i dont realy know . Probably there are a lot of people Who know ! . And tha'ts great !keep it up !) , eating dissorders , being suicidal, self harm , paranoid episodes , dissociation , psychotic episodes , etc ...

I just realy feel like Dabi / Touya got BPD . I know there are a lot of mental illnesses that are similair to bpd and it of course needs to be diagnosed ( so it's actually nothing else . So it's realy bpd . Ore realy something else so i wont say if you have Symptomes of bpd you have it . It can be something else . I hope i dont offend anyone if i do, call me out as im a confused mess . )

But that probably will not happen in bnha . And it's just a headcanon . I realy can imagining him haveing this mental illness as of a result of his Traumata as a child . The abuse , and just ... my god . He probably got Big PTSD as well .

So .. why do i Think he might have bpd ? He got that ... Impulsive behaviour . When something fucks him up . Ore excites him as we see.. he is going all over the place Being verry dramatic, and verry self harming .

He feels empty . ( he certanly is'nt dont hate me ) Like when i look at him , i See a man whos either holding his emotions back so well . Ore he just 'dances' between , OVERWHELMING and Feeling EMPTY .

I Think he got paranoid episodes , and also psychotic episodes . (But that also can just be me projecting ) i can't tell when im in a episode so i can't tell you the effects actually , as i dont wanna read into it couse my hyper functioning brain will make Symptome up . And i would not like that to happen . So it would be cool if you just Google it :3 read a little about it if you're interesting . (But hes deffently paranoid )

He is suicidal . And he dosnt give a shit about his life . ( you can shittalk me for that its fine . )

I also feel like hes takeing a lot of meds ( substance abuse ) because of his scarrs . They must hurt like hell more .. we never See hin takeing any drugs ore that couse its a CHILDREN MANGA ( i feel like its not though .. like i wouldnt let this watch my 6 year old child . Ore 12 year old . For Sure not) but how would he cope with the pain ? Okay .. so i cant say anymore as my head goes blank .

Dont understand me wrong , i love dabi . I love MHA . (I just dont Think it's for children ) i didnt mean to offend anyone with this , you can send me youre complains. this is fine .

I read from a lot of people that write stuff like that getting a lot of death threats ore hate speeches . Blast me full with it but you cant do that to everyone here , like you dont know when someone is realy takeing that to heart . And some people are haveing just THE BLOG . So they of course dont want to delete it, but as im just a shitpost Blog i can so .. have fun !

And everyone have a nice day/ night !

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fumikomiyasaki · 3 years

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🔮For Mizuki x Mellow 👀

"My Queen, as you invited we asked the courts Merchant Into the Castle."

Mellow seemed still a bit nervous and bowed to the Queen. Mizuki signaled hin with a Hand movement that He doesnt Need to bow to her.

"Lets Go to the gardens and Talk."

She invited him Into the flower Garden of the Castle so they could Talk without much Guarda around.

"Sorry Mellow I had you come Here so suddenly…. Its just for once I wanted to flee all This courts buisness and I wanted to know how you are doing…"

"Um… lets say buisness is going Well, Leroy and the Others took down a Secret cult who wanted to Attack your Castle… so you can feel save now my Queen."

"Please, I told you to call me Mizuki. You are one of the only people I still Trust here because from the beginning you treated me more as a friend than just the Queen. So I would rather you call me by my Name."

"Alright, M-Mizuki… you always seem to dislike this place, dont you feel lonely?'

"I do… aside your visits people Here only are after my title Not who I am… it does make me feel alone Here."

He put His Hands above hers.

"Then why dont we r-run away together… listen what kept me and the others in this Kingdom was your kindness and because I… because I actually hold feelings for you… however I cant stand to See you He chained down as a Queen of a Kingdom who doesnt even appreciate what she does for them. So why dont we make a Plan to get you Out of Here and Travel the world together. Henry Made it as Prince of His Kingdom so I think you can too."

Mizuki nearly cried and smiled at him, however still forcing it a Bit.

"But who will take my place when I am gone… the Person will suffer the same as me…"

"Leroy and I will come Up with something… anything… there are enough nobles that wouldnt Doom this country and want to do more for it."

Mizuki wrapped her Arms around Mellow and hugged him. He put a Hand on her head.

"I will do my best to protect you Mizuki… I promise… Just Trust me with this Plan."

"Thank you Mellow… You are the only Person I can rely on after all anymore…

Lets Talk it Out tomorrow, once I Made my choice."

"Sounds good, Till then."

He pulled Out a Necklace from His Pocket.

"I Made this one for you, soo See it as a good luck Charm for whatever comes."

#mellow mildew #mizuki yume #mellow x mizuki

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