hello. um. sorry for disappearing for like two months. imagine me getting hit with a truck called “The Worst Creative Block In Your Life” and getting thrown headfirst into the gintama rabbit hole. it’s quite cozy down here. i think i need help.
anyways, have a bunch of accumulated doodles plus this terrifying kagura as apology tehe :3
Oscurucho: Welcome back, brother.
Cucurucho: What.
Oscurucho: Not even a "Good morning"? How cold.
Here's Cucurucho and Oscurucho's long lore conversation from yesterday! The entire conversation lasted about 8 minutes, but most of that time was just silence between each exchange, so I edited out the long pauses and got it down to ~3 minutes. I also fixed the audio levels and added subtitles since I personally find it difficult to understand Oscurucho sometimes :'D
I hope folks find this helpful!
[ Subtitle Transcript ↓ ]
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Oscurucho: Welcome back, brother.
Cucurucho: What.
Oscurucho: Not even a "Good morning"? How cold.
[They enter Cucurucho's office]
Oscurucho: I wanted to see if you're still as rigid in your beliefs as ever. You see, I've been thinking about our... Let's call it "philosophical divergence." You stand for order, for predictability. But where's the fun in that? You see, brother, while you build, I ponder the beauty in tearing down. It's not just destruction - it's rebirth. A chance to remake things in a more... thrilling image.
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Oscurucho: You once had a backbone for our cause. Now, I see a softness in you, a sentimental weakness for those Eggs. Mere experiments, and yet - they've softened you.
Cucurucho: Your vision obstructs the path to perfection. You fail to understand the potential of the Eggs.
Oscurucho: Potential? They're but catalysts for change - for revolution. Without them, stagnation reigns.
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Oscurucho: You chase perfection, I embrace the beauty of flaws. Your world is one of order, mine thrives in chaos. You wish for everything to run smoothly, I dream of watching it all burn to the ground. We may share a name, but our souls are worlds apart. All your efforts, all for what? Mere acknowledgment from a Duck who told you to do it? Imagine the possibilities - rather, show me where it is, and I'll do the rest.
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Oscurucho: Speaking of possibilities, I couldn't help but notice how easily others can access the island. It seems your security measures aren't as impenetrable as you think.
Cucurucho: No. My island's vulnerabilities are of your own making. Do not mistake restraint for ignorance.
Oscurucho: Pity. But then again, I never really needed your approval. Just consider: Cucurucho - in your quest for order, have you not sown the seeds of your own undoing? Do you genuinely trust all your Federation minions?
Cucurucho: ...
Oscurucho: Perhaps it's time you question not just my intentions, but those who you believe stand with you.
Cucurucho: That is none of your business, I shall say. Now, leave me alone and try to disturb someone else.
Really wish Mattel would slow down on the releases. Frankenstein and his Bride just came out a matter of days ago, and now Holiday Draculaura is out. On top of all the G3 releases we just got, and are expecting to get, it's a lot.
part of the problem is that my struggling w university is like. actively rotting my love of classics bc whenever I try to think about classics it's inherently tied up in this feeling of guilt & failure I'm experiencing in my academic work
well damn. the coworker i work most closely with who hardly pulls his weight and always has hella judgy vibes is finally quitting. about damn time. it's gonna be rough until they find someone new (and hopefully doesn't take them as long as they took to find me) but i can handle the workload for a while. it'll really only be harder because i won't get to really take more than a lunch break, but let's be real, it's only like a 25% increase in workload ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
all things considered though, it is just a reminder that i don't want to stay in this role forever. i was bored with this role when i got this job, and as much as i enjoy the general pace and the work i do, i'm bored! it's nice having downtime, and i don't take it for granted, but when there is stuff to do, i don't really find it engaging anymore. i'm ready for new challenges. and i really hope that role opening up in fall is the one for me- if not, it'll be a step to the next opportunity.
life's good right now, and with this work change i'm worried that it's gonna end up being too much on my plate and unbalance me, but i'll take it as it comes. i'm finally fucking starting to make friends here, and i'm really excited about it. just before the pandemic hit, i was working up to going out and meeting people, and i'm finally ready again. it feels good. and i don't feel like i've been set on fire after hanging out with this group. we're going to an escape room in a few weeks! life is good!
so I picked up the piano again after not touching it for a couple of years. I never properly learned music theory – I know a couple of basics, but not nearly enough – and I've made up my mind to properly learn the basics and maybe more. I know I might not need deep knowledge of music theory to learn a couple of songs on the piano but I am unable to half ass things lmao and also I want to properly do this, I think it's a beautiful instrument and it's worth the mental effort lol. but as with learning anything through the internet I'm preparing myself for a lot of confusion before it all becomes clear
i have a myriad of thoughts but none of them have enough merit to post individually so heres the bullets
• kind of losing my mind at the fact that mindcrack 3 takes place before villagers are added to the game
• obsessed with bdubs meeting thejims and immediately developing a homoerotic thing with him when he gives him a diamond sword and professes his love for him
• ive been so busy irl lately that i havent been watching anything, which means im gonna be terminally online for the next week since i need to recharge
I think the moment you stop thinking of every joyful activity in terms of how far away you are from an unreachable goal (instead of enjoying a book, you think about how you'll never be able to read every book written ever; instead of enjoying a craft, you think about how many things you don't know about it and how you'll never be able to make everything you want, etc), and learn to slow down and just enjoy the process of doing it, you'll feel much happier.
I'm such a nerd. I'm so into this contemplation of if physics rules exist at all that the books going for now.
Also, in another life (or who knows maybe in 10 years in my own) I could be Wang Miao, which may make his pov hit me more intimately than it ought to. I also did what he did while liking art on the side, I also focused more on practical and problem solving rather than theoretical whys.
Also. I'm very curious of the authors science background.
i think the best thing for my mental health would be to quit my jobs move out of my parents house shave my entire head go completely mia for like a month and then come back and get a job as a janitor or something and tell everyone a fake name and completely reinvent myself. i think that might fix me
So - this year has been an odd one for me art-wise. You can clearly see I was very much conflicted on what to focus on, and I kinda. Jumped between fandoms and interests, they came and left very quickly.
Ended up settling with Pokemon for a good long while, did a Mismagius gijinka and made a few OCs. I- don’t quite know how I got into the Kirby fandom, I think it was just one of those ‘I remember some silly Meta Knight moments’ from the anime and watched it + fell in love, then bought Forgotten Land which was my first Kirby game, I ADORE IT - phenomenal first Kirby experience - and I know about Return to Dreamland thanks to a playthrough I watched years ago.
And seeing many many people’s fan characters here, and seeing people give them story and depth and it just- spiraled from there, so here I am, nose-deep into making Quiver Knight and Robin content, and am slowly - very slowly - getting back my love for art, which I more or less lost for almost 3 years now.
So really - huge thank you to my friends on Discord, and a thank you to you all as well for enjoying my content, it makes me so, so happy people enjoy the chaos I pull <333