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my sense of taste is completely gone so that's probably a bad sign
#evan says shit#i have literally no idea where to get a covid test tho#they dont seem to sell them at pharmacies and the health website says to just not bother unless you're high risk or like. dying#super cool#i also can't miss more class#mask up and hope i guess#i made tacos and i have literally no idea if they're good or not#i could just barely taste the faintest hint of vinegar in the hot sauce#and i can almost taste mint gum#but that's it#everything else is gone
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"haha, are you an art gay, a science gay, or a math gay"
Actually, I find the division between art, science, and math to be a very nebulous idea and useless when you actually interact with the universe. The more you learn about the world, the more you surround yourself with art and science and math, and you'll never be able to see it any other way and it will be beautiful. When I take your hand, it won't be the science of our atoms closing the distance between us that we will experience, but the math of our fingers interlocking and the art of our bodies that we will experience. You are math and you are science and you are art, and nothing will make you any lesser💛
#positivity#the planets are singing right now. are you listening?#if you can't experience the art of science and the science of art then i think you're missing out#the more i intentionally try to learn the more i love art and sfience and the world 💛#i was always more of a humanities person but i've grown restless and taking up science??????? holy shit??????#i was in class the other day and a very simple concept finally clicked in a fundamental way and i think that's why i'm alive actually#i think i know how michaelangelo felt when he painted the creation of adam#this is why i really encourage y'all to look up on youtube some free lectures because some of them are so amazing#like i watched a lecture about elements and it's still fucking me up when i think about it#this is also why i despise the whole 'modern art isn't really art; it takes no skill 😡' thing people like to do#please sit down and paint one of the installments of Who's Afraid of Red Yellow and Blue#i've learned to appreciate that installment and art series as of late and i think it's nice art#i love this stupid fucking world 👾
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So, the thing with Qiu Qingzhi vs Qiu Shenji is that they *are* different characters in a lot of ways. Qiu Shenji is more explicitly morally complex whilst what we see of Qiu Qingzhi is much lighter grey, all considered. But the root of their sense of morality remains, for the most part, identical.
In both cases, they have people they prioritise as "their" people. And for these people, they would sell the world. In the cdrama, this applies to Li Bing and the former slaves/convicts. In the manhua/donghua, it's the people working beneath him (such as General Lang in her former role).
Qiu Shenji is very much running the numbers game in a way that implicitly devalues the lives of civilians, purely because of the potential that the civilians could themselves be sleeper agents. He's been burnt before by doing the "compassionate" thing and so now would rather his troops get away safe, even at the expense of potential innocents. He even outright says something to this effect in his discussion with Minister Xu. If it's not their blood on the ground, then it's his.
To be quite frank, it's entirely possible that Qiu Qingzhi is off doing similar maths in the background of the cdrama, and it's an adaptational choice not to make that too explicit. But at the same time, Qiu Qingzhi's chosen people are not *necessarily* the same as Qiu Shenji's. And so the people he is willing to sacrifice to achieve his aims and protect those close to him differ accordingly.
The cdrama doesn't overly concern itself with asking questions of morality, being focused on more personal stakes overall, rather than weighing up any lofty ideas of what constitutes "ends justify the means" or the distant idea of a "greater good".
But just looking at the wider framework here. Qiu Shenji and Qiu Qingzhi are both a lot more politically aware than Li Bing and this heavily informs their actions. Li Bing can afford to rally for justice because of the space that's been made for him to do so. Qiu Qingzhi and Qiu Shenji do not have that option.
In Qiu Qingzhi's case, it's because his upbringing as a slave cannot be cast off. (Both he and Lai Zhongzhu have this in common. Where the donghua/manhua go for morality and politics, the cdrama goes more for class commentary. Qiu Qingzhi and Lai Zhongzhu both claw their way up from their birth stations and yet neither can remain there for long. They would never *truly* be accepted, not matter what actions they take to prove their loyalty). He has seen how disposable he and his fellow slaves are considered to be and so knows he cannot put a foot wrong.
In Qiu Shenji's, it's because he knows full well how easily he can be implicated by his former relationship with the Li family. (Something that the actual Li Bing was politically astute enough to pick up on years before any rebellion had taken place) And, honestly, even with his other reasons, I wouldn't be surprised if that also plays somewhat into why he's so overzealous in quashing rebellions. The idea of taking down rebels so viciously that he cannot ever be accused of being one himself.
Both Qiu Qingzhi and Qiu Shenji act strongly in their determination to achieve their aims. They want to shoulder the hard acts because they believe that they *have* to be done, but at the same time, are entirely willing to take on that burden *alone* without demeaning those who feel differently.
For Qiu Shenji, General Lang mentions she couldn't stomach his rebel-quashing tactics and so he made sure to obtain her a position elsewhere. She says he had also done this for others and seems thankful, even as she must know she is still complicit. Qiu Shenji knows how he is seen by the general populace, but thinks it an acceptable sacrifice for maintaining peace.
For Qiu Qingzhi, he made his deal with Yi Zhihua and then locked out Li Bing entirely, despite all their history. He would rather Li Bing hate him but be safe than let him in and put him at risk.
Both Qiu Qingzhi and Qiu Shenji commit to drown themselves in the blood of others so that they can protect "their" people. They made their decisions long ago and remain committed. Even choking, caged in a trap slowly tightening around them, they will not flee.
#tldr; qsj is probably a great case study for philosophy majors. meanwhile qqz is just down really bad.#also I say cdrama goes for class and donghua/manhua more general morality but both are really critical about the expendability of civilians#it's just the cdrama tends to highlight specific groups (slaves/convicts/disabled etc) whereas donghua/manhua is more generalised?#white cat legend#white cat legend spoilers#...I really ought to start separating out my donghua and cdrama tags but I can't help overlapping them in my musings ngl rip#also disclaimer that I've only read eng TL of manhua and am aware there's probably loads untranslated I'm missing on that side#the donghua shuffling some events around probably helps somewhat but can't entirely cover for the parts I simply don't know.
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so I guess I'm gonna have to start the class on Monday a little later so that I can get that Nokia Arena show ticket lol
#this better be worth it#don't get me wrong the ice hall show was nice#but it wasn't _as_ special as i thought it would have been#of course there were lots of special effect and ROBIN so yeah in that sense it was special#but the setlist wasn’t surprising at all and that's what i was slightly disappointed in 😅#hopefully there'll be more surprises in the setlist for this show but i'm not holding my breath#as apparently it'll be the last show on their 'bug european tour'#and they usually don't make major changes to the setlist mid-tour#the european tour which i'm going to btw. i don't know where they'll be playing but i'm going 😤#also i hate how literally everyone and their mother knew about the nokia arena thing already so no one is surprised 😅#in any case i missed the pmmp tickets because i was an idiot / at work#but this one i need to get alright the monday morning class will have to wait 😤#sorry but the teacher has things to do and concert tickets to secure lol#who's going to the golden circle / VIP with me 👀#*BIG european tour lol i'm on mobile and can't edit the tags anymore#bug tour...😂
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Y’all are being subjected to my Sims 2 tests, so there
The other set of Vargases came over for a visit and Scriabin picked up Shmee and started talking to Scriabin through him. Very normal, very usual
I downloaded some circle-glasses recolours and hghghh they look so good! Closer every day to his final details! Getting ever closer!
Edgar too! I made him a custom hair with a lighter undercut - I’m mostly happy with it, probably could’ve shifted it a shade closer to his skintone but the texturing was weird no matter what :P And his stripey shirt! I wish Body Shop didn’t have that hands-on-hips pose lol, it looks so much better in-game, but that’s all the better :)
I got some new clothes for Todd as well! As soon as I saw this ‘fit I was like “Oh that’s 100% Todd there he is.” Scriadad hug ♥ So cute
Foot-dancing together stopp it’s so cute!!
The way he looks at them stoppp <3 <3 They kept doing this right up til they left for home haha, Todd’s giggles are the cutest
Used SimPE to save him to the Body Shop, I now have infinite copies of The Boyyyy ♪
Moved him in with his “parents” as just shadow people basically, they’re not gonna matter in a bit as long as I remember how to get the Social Worker/Adoption process to work properly. Get her Todd!!
Wanna play? :D
Menacing :(
Look, Todd, your new dads are here! Initially I wasn’t sure who I wanted to adopt him, got lots of options; the first passes, the married couple with their own Todd, Johnny?? He definitely doesn’t have the facilities for a child lol
But these are the ones that showed up on their own, so the married Vargases are the winners!
Scriabin cares more about him than his actual parents ;; A stranger off the street shows him more care! Not that it’s a high watermark
Look at him being a good dad!
Weh, he just wants friends ;; Poor baby
Best timeline, thank you
While we wait for CPS, let’s get some other interactions in! Nny is mean so he tended to prank the other two with a nose flick - mostly Edgar lol ♪ Now kiss
“Oh please don’t break all my bones~ :3” I love Todd looking up at them haha <3
Pffft, I think he was talking about the other Scriabin and just how attractive he is. Classic Scriabin. Alternatively, also funny to imagine him bragging himself up about how he’s just so handsome that Edgar can’t help but love him hahaha ♪
Allow me to tickle you with my KNIFE! >:D
Get a load of this guy lol
He ended up passing out at one point - I forgot which motives make CPS show up >.> - and completely 0%’d his comfort, but for some reason stargazing increased it?? It’s the same ground wh
Is two not enough to satisfy your butterfly bloodlust child?? He ended up with three, I had him release them before he was picked up by the Social Worker - success!
He rolled a new Want as soon as Todd was taken away - “Wants to see Ghost of Todd” Woah, dark! :0
And here he is on the married Vargases’ lot!! Success!! I did it right!! Heck yeah! :D Unfortunately they were uh, indisposed at the time. Good job guys pft
Goes right for Shmee, he really is Todd <3
#The Sims 2#My queue is too backlogged on main! And I /have/ been working on a lot of Vargas-specific Sims 2 retextures so it's fine lol#These are still tests - as said up top lol - so these events are ''non canon'' to what will eventually be my actual Vargas family#The beats will be similar tho! It's mostly just a lot of tweaking at this point to get everything just where I want before the domino falls#Edgar Nny and Todd are all so close to done - Scriabin still needs a bit more work lol of course he's the problem member ♪#It'll be worth it tho! >:3c Handsome lad <3#Did find out some interesting things with the Social Worker/Adoption process :0 Most importantly that adoption basically wipes everything#Wipes memories and family relations and changes the last name! So I'll have to go in with SimPE to change his name back once I'm there#I love SimPE haha ♪ I mean it's just an extension of how much I love TS2 but I just ughsjkhagf it's a good program!#It's extremely powerful and easy to get lost in if you don't know where to look but it's also incredibly user-friendly if you do know#Like - it's as easy as ''Open this sub-menu. Click this button. Rename this. You're all done'' it's just jdsflf Sims 2 my beloved <3 <3#I decided to cheat down the Casils' relationship with Todd before everything else - thus why his father is menacing him for the prank#I've seen Sims with not high enough friendship to not take a water balloon as a fun invitation but not between a parent and child!#It's subtle but the parent being mad and the kid cowering :( It's sadly appropriate for Todd#I stuck the Casils in a box to wait things out and they ended up glitching frozen in bed - they're effectively dead by Motive but can't move#So they can't die /or/ live - feels fitting#If you'd like to recreate CPS taking your child away without straight up torturing them! - Hunger. You just need hunger lol#Alternately you can also have them miss class if you'd prefer to feed them - both will result in being taken away after long enough#If I return to this save it's gonna be confusing since both Todds are identical and have the same names lol#I do have a bunch of new clothes! Second shopping trip :D#There's something oddly fitting for the Vargases to adopt twin/clones lol - fun shenaniganary until the Final Version comes to pass#Although now that I think of it I Could also give them a toddler!Todd hmmmmmm#It's an idea :)
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I NEEEED to start keeping track of the stuff I'm in the process of making or wanna start making/drafting cuz I just opened one of my sketchbooks and flipped through and was like FUCKKK I really like this idea why haven't I finished it yet........ It's cuz you also have 8645312 other ideas you really like and haven't finished yet just get a grip man
#diary#I use 3 dif. sketchbooks most of the time and I just started scribbling on a 4th cuz I missed it#(I get my sketchbooks from the supermarket so I always try to have more than 1 of the ones I rly like)#and also two small notebooks. Like journal sized if that makes sense.... that are messy also.#also I don't take any sketchbooks to school cuz I have 2 classes a day at MOST + taking out an ENTIRE sketchbook is distracting I think#so I do whatever on just regular notebook pages and then rip them out; fold them in half and shove them between the front page and front co#***cover#and it's all floating around. like oh I wanna learn how to structure comics I wanna revamp this character I wanna design this other OC#I need to give these guys names I need to start drawing them more consistently. ETC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111#it's just frustrating TBH#but I'm sooo messy that I can't ever keep up an organized system#I'm like Whatever I'll remember it<3#<- LIAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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vent incoming:
got my grades back for my courses last semester and most of it was to be expected, mostly A's, maybe an A-, etc. but i honestly can't get over the fact that my independent study (the buddy cole documentary) was for some reason given a B. like sure getting a B isn't bad per se, I usually get at least one B every semester and i honestly don't really care about what my exact gpa is as long as i can graduate, but come on. this school put me through months of psychological torment over this project and didn't even have the nerve to give me a B+??? i'm still coping with the self-doubt they forced on me and this bullshit is not helping!!
#honestly it's kind of hilarious ngl. especially bc i also got my documentary work counted as an independent study the previous semester#and the previous semester even tho i barely worked on the doc itself#(mostly just planning and putting together the crowdfunding which was still a lot of work but like compare it to the past few months)#they were willing to give me an A (my school doesn't do A+ so this is the highest mark possible)#vs this semester. like i'll admit my final assignment was late and could have been more polished#but i was literally on tour in documentary-mode 24/7 for several weeks. i filmed an entire comedy special! i put together a live interview!#not to mention having to fucking negotiate with my own college censoring the footage they'd promised me of an event i put together#and play nice with a professor who literally outed me on twitter in an attempt to cancel one of my best friends#at this point the ''B'' feels more like a petty grudge than anything else#like ok we can't get away with *actually* fucking over jessamine's grades bc clearly ze did do the work. but let's just give zir a B#like i will admit the audio quality in my final isn't great. and i could have used more polished footage in some sections#but counterpoint: 100+ students were arrested at a protest while i was editing and i was having a mental breakdown#the fact that i finished *anything* is goddamn impressive especially after they essentially conditioned me to hate myself any time i was#working on a project i loved!!!#due to the aforementioned student arrests my college did put out an option where we could change any letter grade this semester to pass/fai#so anything passing wouldn't impact our gpa if we didn't want it to. so i could just change the B to a ''pass''#but really what's the point. ''B'' is still a good grade and my GPA is fine (3.65 on a 4.0 grading scale. 2.0 is required to graduate)#it just sucks that after what i went through last semester i feel like nobody takes it seriously#i was reminiscing earlier about how it's honestly kind of funny how after that professor outed me on twitter#i was at the hotel with scott like an hour later sobbing and having an existential crisis about my relationship to gender#and scott was so supportive but also awkwardly being like#''i know i should offer the crying child a tissue but where the fuck are the tissues in this room what do i do''#and he just handed me a full-on towel instead like oh my god he was trying his best but also so clearly out of his depth#but of course i then had to remember how when i told that story to a different professor to be like ''this is how much scott cares about me#this guy called me fucking UNPROFESSIONAL for crying in front of the subject of my documentary?????????#like yeah maybe so but how DARE you call me unprofessional when a different professor tweeted my full name and gender without my consent#in an attempt to fucking cancel one of my friends for ''misgendering'' me for using pronouns i'm fine with him using!!!#i don't think i'm ever going to be able to forgive my college and i don't know how i'll be able to get through one more semester#that experience genuinely changed things about my psychology that i'm not proud of and i need to work through#so if i have to miss a goddamn kids in the hall event because i have class this november i am going to set something on fire
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yknow realizing my family was super fucking mean to me for no reason before i turned 18
#no cause. why did my parents threaten to beat me for having a low C almost D/ any missing assignments. but now whenever my mother finds out#about it she like. actually asks if i'm doing alright and not yelling at me to turn them in (she still wants me to do good but like. there'#no more threats?) i mean my bio dad might still do that but i don't tell him anything about my classes anymore#AND ALSO HOW I USED TO BE PICKED ON BY MY BIO DAD AND MY GRANDPARENTS WHEN IWAS YOUNGER FOR HAVING TEXTURE ISSUES BUT NOW THEY'RE LIKE#“oh yea i can't eat this food because i just don't like it” AND UNDERSTAND ME WHEN I SAY I CAN'T EAT CERTAIN THINGS.#i just GAHHHHHHH WHAT THE FUCK#i still remember when my mom and bio dad thought i was lying to them about losing my glasses when i was FUCKING 9-10. they thought i#hid/threw them out!!! and when i found them like a few years later because they were in a spot in my bag young me never really used#MY MOTHER STILL THOUGHT I PUT THEM THERE ON PURPOSE. THIS WAS YEARS AGO BUT I'M STILL MAD ABOUT IT#I HAVE BEEN TREATED LIKE A LIAR ABOUT THINGS FOR SO LONG TO THE POINT THAT I CAN'T HANDLE JOKES ABOUT LYING AND ALSO GET SCARED THAT#I'M NOT BEING TRUTHFUL EVEN IF I AM!!!#anyways :D#i'll probably delete this later idk i feel bad right now
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
#CATIUA........#I love you for more than just your priest class. but also. I'm going to miss the priest class#why can't clerics learn missile spells............#tactics ogre#let us cling together#space-spring liveblogging
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we're relatively well-adjusted as far as systems go. most of the time we can get through a day with however many switches no problem. then other times we have to stifle a panic attack in class, dissociate, and then i get dropped into the middle of an anatomy lecture full of charts that 1. make me sick to look at and 2. are of a different anatomy than what mine should be. now i've just got to... decompress. in bed. for several hours. - A
#vent#do you understand how distressing it is to suddenly be in a very important lecture you know nothing about#because as far as you're concerned your anatomy is more similar to that of a very human-shaped flower#not to mention i am very bad at writing! i can't write very quickly! i have no idea how pluto takes notes that fast!!#this is i guess also my apology in advance to pluto for probably missing a lot of that class in our notes#but our professor is uploading the video lecture for this class anyways so! it works out!
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back on my nonsense (I'm replaying Three Hopes)
#between that and Houses it was the less mentally taxing to replay bc I don't have to keep track of as many things#also since my main thing is that I want to get class mastery for everyone in everything#the mental fuzz is real and I just wish things would Stop Happening so I could try to recover a bit of energy#until then though no new games bc I can't devote the time to really enjoy them only replays of stuff I don't have to think about too hard#and anyhow for as lackluster as the story writing is#Hopes is stupidly fun to play#like truly the ideal mix of Warriors and FE gameplay#and I'm on a harder difficulty to try and grind out more exp and hopefully I get more nonsense weapons#nothing will ever beat my favorite Gradivus w/ the +10 to basic and strong attacks but I might find some other nice weapons#also it'd be really nice to see if I could find this one unique battle quote I sweat I remember reading#bc I was thinking of making art for the FE rarepair thing and I'd love to use the quote if it actually exists in an art#but I have yet to find it in ANY of the current scripts but they're also missing a lot of optional battle dialogue SO#fingers crossed I didn't misread another battle quote bc of how hectic some of the maps get#anyhow I actually really do love this game a lot it's so fun to play#oracle of lore
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the stupidest part of being deeply suicidal and constantly carving your life smaller in response to trauma & brainfuckery is just how difficult it is to try and fix it once you realize that maybe you want to live and that life could be good. it's worth doing don't get me wrong! it's probably the thing that's most worth doing! but it's also. really hard to look at the pieces from the life that's been broken for the past several years and go okay, how do we put this back together
#and i'm doing good! you know!#all things considered. i'm doing good.#i'm on top of most of my classes i'm trying to finish the ones that aren't.#i've got friends and people i trust.#i'm slowly earning money.#and things are slipping. you know. as they do.#some days i forget to brush my teeth or i can't go to class or i miss an assignment becasue i decided something else would be easier. and.#that sucks. you know#it's a game of trying to decide whether today's energy is best spent trying to fix what i broke#or trying to keep more things from breaking#and that's. really sad#because if i had been doing better. and if i were more capable. it would be easier now#but you know. every day it gets easier doing it every day is the hard part.#so i'll take my minor victories and scrape a life back together. and who knows#maybe in a few months or years it'll be good. and i'll be happy and i won't be picking up after myself anymore#rokowski's 'it was hard to rewrite my life into one i wanted to live but today i want to live'#and abdurraqib's 'but i'd like to stay alive and keep trying to make my own tragic corner of this sad spinning pebble as clean as i can'#BUT ESPECIALLY calvocoressi's 'oh my gd! i did not want to die that day. ... why don't we talk about it? how good it feels? ->#-> and if you don't know then you're lucky but also you poor thing.'#you get it. you understand#call me!#sorry i can't refrain from tags rambling. i'll delete this later maybe. did you know that being awake and alert for once in your life#can actually feel. good?#it's crazy.
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i don't even want to take half my classes that im registered for autumn quarter
#this is just me spitballing here -#definitely need to take the security related classes that i want to do and even if i did dogshit at databases i still want to take the next#-class in the series bc i heard its more programming#also maybe the instructor won't suck that was a huge part of it#and im dropping data science im sorry i can't do algos i can't do machine learning. fuck cs theory im not into that.#but the question now is - do systems (which would give me a leg up in the security track) or do animation capstone (which is cool)#downside of systems is that theyre some of the hardest programming classes and i have to do group projects#downside of animation is that i missed the ball on most of the stuff and its a lot of classes in a sequence. also group projects.#(or neither and fuck off and do the global health minor or take english/art/architecture/philosophy classes just for fun idfk)#the stem major's curse#the last humanities option is looking nice rn maybe i can also take a bunch of public health stuff too#i actually kind of want to enjoy college even if im a commuter with no friends#hm ok i will go look for some classes later today#the data science stuff really screwed me over im glad im free of that at least#milk (normal)#i am kind of the ''mid at everything'' guy so no specialization for me or else i get bored and start attacking myself with hammers#and i change my mind about who i am and my personality every few months so thats really fun to deal with.
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Ah. Still not far enough into TotK that I feel safe to remove associated tags from the hidden list, but make no mistake, the curiosity is killing me
#I also have so much to say!! but I can't yet!! because there's definitely so much that I still don't know about!!#and so much of that is just Revali Thoughts™ like you wouldn't believe#I don't know if that is a good sarcastic remark or not at this point. Of course I have Revali Thoughts™ I always do!#but I personally didn't expect to have so many?? TotK is being such an experience#feeling like the game caters to my interests and it is both a blessing and a curse. idk if that's the case or I'm just too far gone#I'm reading too much into everything#take this damn thing away from me#luckily! I'm a victim of finals until the 29th and there's one lingering class after that as well so... no more TotK for a few days#at the very least#Ahh but I already miss it 🥺🥺🥺#shutupcaguay
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We've officially reached the 'too demotivated and drained to bother to go to class' part of the semester. Awesome
#if it wasn't for the strike I'd just go home on tuesday morning#because i don't want to miss too many korean sessions because we can't be absent more often than 4 times#but i don't plan on going to my monday and tuesday classes#and thursday is a holiday so that class is canceled and i am willing to miss wednesday's korean class if it means getting to#see my dog a day earlier#but alas i cannot#because no trains and shit#also my friend asked me if i wanted to join for drinks sometime this week(end) and i desperately need new friends#(i.e. i don't want to turn down invitations from people i don't hang out with often because i basically am getting#actively excluded from my other friends' activities (literally. if you don't want me around it's literally fine. just don't fucking act#like you do. i hate it here lmao)#no but that friend was like 'I'll always invite you' and damn i LOVE to hear it because the others apparently hate having me around#(again. fair enough. I'm not particularly outgoing or fun so i get it. i just don't want to make any effort there anymore so i kinda need#to make an effort with other people? because i really like her and all but i also don't feel like going out#and would much rather go home see my dogs- but if i turn down too many invitations she'll stop inviting me#which is only logical- idk i don't really want to have to have friends anymore#i just know life is better when i spend time with people sometimes and have someone to get through university hell with#anyway. i don't wanna go to class anymore and i really don't wanna do this degree anymore and i actually do not#want to go to korea but i have to because it's my only chance but it makes me want to kill myself but also not doing it would make me want#to kill myself so i don't really have anything going for me there#void screams
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i feel like noting something rn for the non-brazilians
rozzi’s journal has a moment that implies she was nicknamed bela/bella (from isabela, or isabella, depends on whether the parent is close or distant from the brazilian equivalent of kayghtleighn parents, which is something like my sister’s classmate who was named ysabelly)
that wouldn’t happen, i think. i’ve only ever seen isa as a nickname for isabela. partially because, like
you know how calling someone bella is like ooo it sounds ~foreign~ so americans pull that shit all the time in media with a foreigner that’d speak french, italian, or spanish when they’re flirting with a lady?
it’s not a foreign word here. when directed towards a person it’s basically like saying they’re gorgeous or beautiful. brazilian translation of beauty in beauty and the beast is bela
it’s choosing to call a little girl a word that deliberately means beautiful. yeah, there’s non-weird connotations, but it would sound kinda weird and a bit creepy, so if you had the choice you’d just pick the other part of the name that will not sound weird
realistically she’d be nicknamed isa and to me it’s mildly funny that they could not get the names 100% right every time because of a technicality
#not a quote#to explain that last bit in a tiny bit more detail#marcelo is definitely a realistic name. just not a name i picture in a kid. i picture my uncles or the guy in my college class#who's like married with kids#but when they had isol they introduced francisco. which. I GUESS. MAYBE. IT'S NOT IMPOSSIBLE#i'm not gonna say no brazilian is named francisco but i'm gonna say it's extremely unlikely#more of an argentinian name i'd say. missed your dart in the world map a bit#isabela is the perfect name. pretty. age-appropriate generally. very common#but that bella fucking shot me dead upon first reading#i simply cannot imagine that happening ever#i guess it was a catholic orphanage. there's a joke about catholicism in here somewhere#today has been weird! i have been reading about the cold war and the brazilian dictatorship and then bella#all to the tune of the pression (você é você). very hart floyd song#i noticed the period of the cold war matched with the dictatorship and researched it a tiny bit#you would be surprised at how all brazilian calamities had us-american involvement somewhere!#'it can't be all of-' it is! every single time it's 'and also the us slipped a fifty to this party because brazil being in disarray helps'#in this particular case the dictatorship was good for not letting us have communism#so they helped finance a coup! wouldn't be the first or last time they do that!#apparently jfk was one of the people who was suggesting it first too. 46 days before getting shot in the head#which is the only thing keeping me from getting angry right now because that's so funny#new stupid jfk assassination theory! it was actually brazil all along! you thought it was russia or the cia? it was brazil baby#cebolinha did it. tudo de acoldo com o plano >:)#sometimes you make jokes just for you
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