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lightsoutletsgo · 1 month

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mimi congrats on 500 <3, sending this for your event!!! (1) ship pretty pls :3 i listen to everything? mostly fall out boy, joji and the cure <3 i am a graphic designer. kinda hate dessert but i am addicted to energy drinks HEH. i love traveling to big cities! so very anti beach ❌. i’m lowkey introverted but very very extroverted online 😭 HEDJSIFKS dream date???? museums!!! very very into staying in but not against to going out? i’m very passionate about the things i like? but kinda sensitive to every other thing HEHEHE tysm! congrats again!

awi!! omg omg omg hi sweets!! tysm for sending this in - I'm so excited to do it for youuuu! (I got your other request about the nsfw bit dw) happy reading! mimi 🤍

MAX VERSTAPPEN ᝰ.ᐟ₊ ⊹ - calls you schat or liefje - has an obsession with your legs. loves having them in his lap when you're cuddling or wrapped around his waist - his love language is physical touch! he's a man of few words so it's small touches like a hand on your back or a quick kiss to your hand that let you know he's there and how he feels - max will do anything for you and he cannot help but spoil you. you barely have to mention something once before he's driving to the store or ordering it online for you. nothing is too big or too small for him to get for you.

max's music taste is... limited? so anytime you're driving anywhere, he's more than happy for you to have aux! he loves discovering new artists through you and with you and anytime you make him a playlist he always listens to it pre-race. of course he has to let everyone know that his amazing love made it for him. to which they usually reply "we know max, we heard the first time." (really they think it's sweet that he's so dopey for you)

he literally supplies you with all the redbull you could ever want! sometimes he 'jokes' that you're only with him for that reason but a quick kiss to his cheek has him blushing and flustered and the thought has left his head. speaking of blushing and flustered, max loves when you play dangerous games with him. sliding your hand higher and higher up his thigh at dinner before sneaking off to the bathroom with him.

max is obsessed with watching you come apart underneath him and he puts as much determination and passion into making you cum for him as he does into his driving. he loves how fucked out you look and he can't get enough of gently holding your throat and telling you to open before spitting, relishing in the way he feels you swallow under his hand. he also can't get enough of watching you in the mirror. bending you over the sink, putting you on your hands and knees on the bed, bending you over against the hallway wall; anywhere there's a mirror, max is sliding into you from behind and whispering filth into your ear as his hips roll into yours.

he loves jetting off to city breaks for the weekend with you when he can; new york, paris, seoul, budapest, prague, tokyo, florence, krakow, chicago, seville, nice; your passport is full of stamps and stickers from your trips with him. you've started a scrapbook together with a postcard and a polaroid of the two of you in every city you've been to!

he loves taking you to various art galleries and museums in the countries and cities you visit and he's become surprisingly good at being an instagram bf and taking aesthetic pictures of you in galleries and exhibits. max loves watching you as you look around, the way your face scrunches when you're focusing, the way your lips move as you read the placards, the way you excitedly tell him all you know or you've read about the exhibit and the way you're moved by the things you see. cosy date nights are a must with him whenever he's home and most nights (whether wild nights out or dinner dates at home) end with you cuddled into his side on the couch and the cats on his lap. it's his ideal evening and he won't tell you yet but he plans on hopefully making it a permanent fixture in his life soon.

max loves your passion for life and your passion and drive for the things you love, even if he doesn't love them in the same way or understand them. he learns so many new things through you and with you. he loves the way that you light up his life and make him feel warm. max swears he could never win another race for his whole career and he'd still get that world champion feeling just by looking into your eyes.

"schat, what do you think about going to paris next weekend?" max asks. you giggle and look at him leaning against the bedroom door frame as you lie on the bed, with jimmy curled up on top of your feet and sassy cuddled into your side, "max!" you point at the still half-unpacked suitcases at the foot of the bed, "we just got back from prague!" he shrugs, seemingly un-phased by your argument, "your point is?" "we can't go away again! what about the cats?"

max sighs and crosses the room to plop down onto the bed next to you, sassy glaring at him as he accidentally shifts her from her cosy spot at your side, you stroke her back absentmindedly as she takes up a new spot on your stomach, "we can ask lando to cat-sit!" you roll your eyes with a smile, max is grinning like a child, "you've already booked the tickets haven't you?" "nooooo..." "max." "maybe..." "baby!" he pouts at you and you can't help the way you laugh, leaning to kiss his cheek, "you're trouble, you know that?" he gently pushes sassy and jimmy out of the way and they almost huff at him before stalking out of the room as he rolls on top of you, pressing a dangerous kiss to your neck, "you love that I'm trouble liefje..."

#mimi's 500 celebration ₊˚⊹ ᥫ᭡#mimi.writes #mimi.thirsts #f1 x reader #max verstappen x reader #awi #omg you need to pick an emojiiiiI!!

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etirabys · 7 months

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I put off wedding planning with the expectation that I would do a terrible but functional job once deadline urgency kicked in. This has started to happen. One consequence is that I have (probably but hopefully not temporarily) had to become a timely emailer.

The impetus was procrastinating on clicking a link in an email that it turned out I should have read ideally acted upon immediately. This is an embarrassing but characteristic mistake – my habit with emails is to open them, get a fast (and sometimes wrong) impression of the contents, have the emotion of not wanting to deal with it, and marking it as unread. I do this with a lot of non-email messages across all platforms, too, with the result that I drop a lot of messages that I forget to or can't mark as unread again.

I knew perfectly well what a loathsome creature I am to do this, but Willpower did not work.

I've been much faster with all messages in the past week and will describe what I understand of the change, so that it will hopefully persist.

(A prerequisite: for many years I have unsubscribed from, filtered, or blocked unwelcome senders. I try not to give out my email address for any reward greater than $20.)

i. I had to radically accept that I am tired and stupid most of the time.

Radical acceptance is a concept from mindfulness / dialectical behavioral therapy, and mostly means the opposite of "trying to believe something that isn't true". It means understanding and accepting your actual circumstances without flinching from them, and acting in a way that actually achieves your goals in those circumstances.

So it turns out – in some part because my expectations for myself haven't adjusted from my pre-burnout days when I had more energy and a better memory – that I put off things because "I can tell I'm dumb right now, and if I try to book this flight I'll probably double-book myself even if I check my calendar three times, and I should do this when I'm more awake." Or "I shouldn't resume this conversation about an art commission, because I don't feel all here today and I'm probably going to mess up the conversation". Or, of course, "I shouldn't make this decision the wedding planner is asking me about right now, because I'll make the wrong one."

While there is variance in my mental abilities depending sleep and time of day and so forth, I almost never pass the bar of cognitive competence I implicitly set for making these decisions. So if I keep the bar where it is, I'm never going to get anything done.

I have to radically accept that I am (compared to when I was younger) tired and stupid all the time, and I still need to live my life. I need to double-book myself and then pay $20 to reschedule my flight, arrange for a tasting with a caterer that doesn't meet a desideratum my spouse told me about, join a reading group I'm too busy for and then leave, get on a call that I forgot to do research for beforehand... etc.

And: I have to respond to emails and messages approximately as soon as I see them, because "my future self who will make informed decisions about things I cannot" is an illusion.

ii. Conversely, I should never check messages when I'm not prepared to make respond to arbitrary textual stimuli.

I used to check my email or messages when I was bored. This makes no sense! The contents of my email inbox are determined by the decisions of a large number of other people, and could contain anything. It is this variance that makes this addictive, and it is also this variance that makes it important to read it when I have the wherewithal to react appropriately.

I don't want to keep training myself into being the kind of person who repeatedly clicks and unreads a scary medical bill email. To stop that behavior, I want to have a mindset of "if one of my emails is a scary medical bill email, I am willing to read the whole thing, think about it, and take the appropriate next action" whenever I am about to navigate to my inbox.

The same goes for clicking into Discord or Messenger, because I need a similar presence of mind to react to invitations to high-effort social events, requests for help I may not be able to give, requests for information I need to think about before providing, etc.

The important thing is to not mix actionables with entertainment. I need mental separation between those two, because perceiving personal pings as a subset of social media notifications made me treat them more passively. "Oh, huh, a decision to join a Paradise Lost reading group is on TV. Interesting. Now an ad..."

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I expect to backslide on my improved response rate/quality once I'm done with the wedding, but hopefully writing the above will act as the strut of a dam.

#rambl #human stuff #nia specifically should not read this because I haven't responded to her on discord

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anonymouspuzzler · 1 year

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Yay Yipee I Finally Remembered I Should Update Folks On Things That Are Happening

because hey whoops as some of you might remember Supposedly I Stream Sometimes! That Uhhhh Hasn't Happened In A While Has It! so I should probably let folks know what's goin' on!! the long and the short of it is

Around late November/early December I started having issues where Discord would crash and restart anytime I tried to screenshare my capture software with my friends who I stream with. This put console game streams (so 2/3 of the games we were streaming) on the backburner till I could troubleshoot and solve that issue

On top of that it was Fucking Finals Season for me at my Graduate School so at a certain point I had to be responsible and focus on getting my final projects & essays done, which meant sacrificing stream time till my break (where I would hopefully have time to troubleshoot and then do a ton of streaming to make up for lost time)

Except THEN literally the second I went home for the holidays my hard drive abruptly and completely died. It is very possible that this contributed to the aforementioned tech issues

I was able to replace the drive and get my computer working again but because I have a Fucking Curse a lot of tech-side things were lost or started experiencing issues due to the new drive, namely A) I haven't been able to get my capture software working yet and B) whoops my entire OBS layout is just gone now I guess

This whole saga, on top of juggling other life shit and work and the like, effectively ate up my entire winter break

so tl;dr! I have a computer curse and because of it streams are gonna have to wait till I can get both OBS and my capture software working again. I'm hoping to work on that this weekend so I can be back to streaming next week, but given my school & job workload I'm guessing it'll more likely be two or three weeks. On top of that, I won't be streaming most of March due to reason of "my partner is visiting then". all of this sucks cause I want to be streaming, both for reason of "i like spending time with my good friends doing this" and "haha whoops I'm not earning money now and oh boy there sure are a lot of expenses flying at my head like rocks huh".

I've already rambled a bit more than I'd like to now so here's da main points:

Streams will (HOPEFULLY) be back in February. When they are, they'll be Monday & Tuesday nights, 5:30pst/8:30est, for as long as my friends remain available at those times (we're all adults having to look for or maintain Day Jobs so availability could change. y'all know how it is). I may also do occasional one-off streams on weekends as my energy 'n schedule permits, most likely art streams

I'll continue to be around on Holly's streams Fri/Sat/Sun as her schedule permits, because I don't have to rebuild OBS from the ground up for that

There is a 99.99% chance I'll be totally absent stream-wise during March

Even though streams are facing The Troubles I am still taking art commissions! Those haven't been affected!! You can submit an interest form here and I'll reach out to confirm prices as soon as I'm ready to start work on yours

If, out of the kindness of your heart, you would like to toss some support my way during The Troubles (which would be much appreciated; as said I've got a lot of expenses coming my way and unfortunately my day job covers my rent and nothing more), here are some other ways you can do so: -- Tip me on Ko-Fi; if you pay $9 or more you can request a doodle that I'll do for you and post on here & twitter (and might stream the process of drawing once that's up and running again). Here's an example of some Ko-Fi doodles I did previously -- You can also tip through my stream page if you want but I probably won't see those till I start streaming again. Still appreciated!!! -- I have a Throne Wishlist that's mostly stuff like kitchenware, household goods, stuff for my kitty, etc. There's also a few Fun Things though, like vinyls and a billy big bass Jay insisted I add. Either way, if you wanna contribute to something on there it means a lot. You can also suggest items to make me laugh

an' above all: thank you for reading and for bein' around!!

#long post /#anonymous puzzler talks #sorry for the big ramble!! i just figured it was worth putting everything out there #you mighta heard bits and pieces of this on friends' streams slash twitter slash wherever #but i figured it was worth puttin' in one place #anyway if you read this far: i hope you're having a good day and if you're not i hope a good day comes your way!!!!!#edit: i forgot the link to the doodles!! silly me!!! that is in there now

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real-oddity · 1 year

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"Whats your favorite idea? Mine is being creative!"

Ok so I've been sitting on the idea of drawing all the main teachers in a style like this, and only now got around to it because I only just recently got the energy to finish it lol Paige's lineart has been mostly done for, like, months now-

I'm planning to do Tony soon!

more info below the cut! (rbs are super appreciated! <3)

Speaking of, here! Paige! The very first of our lovable torturers!

I always kinda imagine Paige as a character with both a lot of darks but also a lot of pastel colors. Sense she only has hair sometimes, I just desaturated the colors of her hair to go with the blank page her face usually is. She has very fluffy hair because I just think she's a fluffy hair kinda girl, baggy clothes, and a cute little apron. I realistically should have put a ton of paint smears on it but uhh I have no excuses lol.

I gave her inky hands like I've seen some other people give her, similar to the ink she dumped on the autism creature Yellow Guy's clown painting.

Also I snuck in some Larry x Paige because I like Imaginarydreams a lot, probably my favorite Paige ships if I think about it.

I do plan on doing Tony soon, but soon for me can vary a lot ehehe. I hopefully will get it done before June, sense I'll have a lot to do for Pride Month and Art Fight preparations, though!

Until then, though, I aim to actually post art again soon, as I got into a weird mental rut for a while.

If you read all this thank you so much >:D

#my art #dhmis #dhmis fanart #sketchbook dhmis #paige the sketchbook #dhmis tv series #dhmis tv show #dont hug me i’m scared fanart #dont hug me im scared #fanart #imaginarydreams #paige x larry #sketchbook x larry #sketchbook x lamp #imaginary dreams #ok idk what else to tag this as #hmm

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room-on-broom · 1 year

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Using mermay to motervate meself into Finally giving my oldest (most baby cinamon roll) OC the art and reference sheet he deserves!!!

Another meet Stingray folk. This is Tim. Or Tola or Tokla, or ToklaTima, or he who speaks for his highness. He has many names and he's my sea monkey Starbucks shape-shifting mermaid.

Notes:

Tola lives and works in Pacifica as a translator to Aphony and his guests. When not doing that as well as teaching lil uns plus, hes also learning about and documenting thier culture. (He's also trying to research his own which he was separated from.)

He then gets caught up in Stingrays shenagins and gets roped in to help, becoming an occasional translater/ emissary/ messenger/ guide for the WASPs and the humans point of contact.

Originally tolka set to appear in 'Seasick' but seeing as thats on hiatus and I love him so much I've kinda a little one seprate shot to introduce him

He/him pronouns. to place his age but I put him bout 18-24 ish human wise and maturity. He does have a baby face tho.

Originally more "lister from red drawf but in the sea," in personality my sweet sweet boy became a bit less of a lad then lister but I kept his hair thou. He likes to put beads or shells in his dreads.

Soon as he hits salt water boom tails stead feet. Very H2O and not in his control. Can transform in fresh water but more control.

His spepies can normally shape-shift with more control to resemble many things. but as he is half human his abilities are limited. Has three forms, human looking and mer although they take energy to maintain. His 'true' form settles between the two although it goes cause his body to flux a bit where helis weight settles in his body and can make him a little clumsy at times. Has feather like spines in his hair and along his shoulders.

Again half human. His mother was sudued by and 'married' a sailour. She and tola were castout from her home/people because this but settled in with a nomadic tribe (disappearing ships kinda vibes). His mothers people were then under Titains rule. Tolk Tried to find his father once. Didn't work but gave him an excuse to cross the oceans.

Has studied in London, Liverpool and Manchester (that's how he ended up being called tim) as well as several other cities. Swam in the cannels and rivers.

Can breath underwater but cannot go as deep as some species for as long. Very fast and strong.

Can speak and many languages both above and below including understand Pacfica and aquaphibians.

Always curious. Loves it when people info dump. Easily frightened but is brave still. Does try to seem cleverer then he really is sometimes. Strong bit shy.

Can often take things literally, Gets his words muddled a little and funny phrases. but again MULTIPLE LAUNGUES

Surfer dude meets dark academic. He loves human trinkets and bright colours but also librarys and books. Wold wear flipflops/sliders with suits.

Has a crush on Fisher. Still a little in awe of Marina and the Stingray crew.

Aphony is fond of him and Marina takes great delight in having someone to talk and relate to. Sophia despite her no nonsense attitude treats him as she does many of her young relatives. Josker absolutely affectionatly bullies the hell out of him.

And that's my boy! Hopefully finish it soon

#OC #oc art #illustration #work in progress #stingray #stingray fanfiction #stingray 1964 #orginal character #seasick #sketches

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bvannn · 1 month

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Weekly update March 22, 2024

I’m still exhausted beyond words. I’m also on a bit of a spiral where I’m worried about the quality of my art and about my output, but it’s okay because I’m chipping away at old big projects still and as soon as classwork is subsided I’m going to try to learn a new skill, because any time I feel insufficient I learn a new skill so I can be better. Classes have been kicking my ass mostly but hopefully big things will be coming sooner rather than later.

I’ve been doing a number of drawings to time myself and update my comms. Turns out I’m a lot less consistent than I thought so it’ll be a bit longer till I get prices sorted out but it’s coming along. Also good chance I’ll add more on to it later once I sort out more things I can offer. My usual drawing style will be the main one, but I’m hoping I can also add the epithet erased style, the chibi dnd mini style I do sometimes, options for backgrounds, and eventually also music.

Problem with music though has been my exhaustion. The only music stuff I’ve really been drilling at has been bigger projects, but I’d like to just sit down and do a small beat as well at some point. Once I catch up with classwork I might try. I have been chipping away at a couple instrumental pieces, as well as the larger vocal cover and I did some lyric writing today for the two ‘finished mostly’ ones I’ve been sitting on. I did have to scrap and redo a character theme for the second time this week but once I have some time with a clear mind I can reroute that one and use the melody I wrote for the last draft. In development right now are an ambient character theme, a 16bit-ish instrumental theme, a Zelda medley, a song cover with Kyo, a small gabber song with no affiliation to anything, the two original vocal songs, one symphonic rock and one EDM, and a handful of others that I haven’t been actively working on. As soon as I have significant time I’m going to try to finish off some of them.

Once the music is finished I’ll have to throw visuals together for them too. I really want to put in effort to make animation rigs again but I don’t have the time or energy. I might do one for the vocal cover song since I could be reusing the character but I’m not sure it’ll be necessary. Once the cover is done I’ll storyboard something and decide then.

Comic is also still going, I haven’t had a ton of time to do thumbnailing/writing, but I should be down to the last scene. No guarantee I won’t have to add more after editing, but it’s getting there. Once that’s done I’ll try to post roughs of specific panels so it’s a bit easier to keep track of where it’s at. The thumbnailing is a big bottleneck right now because it takes a lot of brain power but it’s almost done. If I get myself together this next week it should be done by the next update. No promises though, I have a lot of classwork.

Last couple things, a good amount of my exhaustion is the result of insomnia, but I’ve been using that time to plan out TTRPG campaign stuff. I think I have some really fun creative encounters. I think I probably will try to write it out and find a way to release it, just in the interest of getting more people to play the anime campaign system (or whatever they end up renaming it to when the epithet erased version of the rules drops… eventually). I might throw together art for that too, but that’ll be a ways off, after the writing and encounters are done. Plus ideally I’d want the module to be available for free, so I don’t need to add too much anyway.

Last thing, as I mentioned I’m a bit unsatisfied with where I am with art stuff. I want to thank everyone who has been sticking around, I am trying to make it worthwhile for you too. But whenever I am unsatisfied with myself I need to learn a new skill, so I may be dipping my toes into pixel art soon. I do have that 16bit ish instrumental song I mentioned, that’s been on the back burner since January but I’ve finally been hit with the inspiration to finish it, and a little pixel animation would be nice to go with it, but that would require me to learn pixel art itself first, so I’ll try to do that in the coming weeks. Idk how soon though.

This next week will be primarily dedicated to clearing up schoolwork and fixing my sleep problem. After that I’ll try finishing up that cover song, finishing up comic thumbnailing, and finishing up that instrumental song, in that order. Anything else is a bonus. Will class work and insomnia get in the way? Probably, but I’m still doing my best.

#weekly update

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thetwelfthcrow · 3 months

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I would love to ask you anything about any upcoming fics you have but I also don't want spoilers so 😭

well! then i will tell you spoiler-free what my upcoming projects are!

currently finished & posting:

racing heartbeats finished her up entirely! is posting every other week now :)

actively working on:

only bought this corset so you can take it off with @pinkjamblesss !!

will start on these soon:

keep me under the charm 2/3 parts finished (60k), brainstormed the majority of part 3. will start writing when i've got more time, in a month or so.

you crawled inside my head and set a fire there instead the soulmates fic! only got to write a sex scene. so, hopefully, will finish that after kmutc!

brazil, 2022 brainstormed this. a threesome fic. recently also read all those lewis/max/charles fics so i am itching to work on this lewis/max/checo fic!

the netflix padel event this is such a silly idea but i think it'll be a fun oneshot. got it fully brainstormed, will work on it after kmutc, or maybe if i'm blocked on that. i think this'll be 10k tops.

H2O ! 4433 the mermaid!lewis fic! i think this'll be a big one so it depends on how much energy i have left after finishing kmutc. it's got quite a structure but not everything's planned out yet. i take ideas !!!

i'm a cult leader, mind reader, heart eater the championship whore club! bit of a longer oneshot, maybe 25k. got a broad outline but still have to work on the finer details

a couple bodies in the garden where the grass grows serial killer!max but it's not an au. i think it'll work best if either i pick the 2021 season for this or max gets challenged a bit more this season. or maybe i'll pick 2018 for funsies. or make up a season, we'll see. i need this man Frustrated

got your naked pictures and i keep 'em in a folder the first 4433 fic i ever brainstormed. gotta take a long hard look at her to see if i'm gonna keep what i have now bc it's all very spontaneous and open and without any plan so. gotta. find a story there first lmao.

i shake my milk until it's sweet and has a sugery taste #primary teacher!max, au where max is a teacher for lewis (and nico's) daughter. max can't stand lewis at first, but then he slowly falls in love... | brainstormed with all of you! if you have ideas, please send me an ask!

other stuff for the future

i'm planning on picking up art again! it's been a while and i've never really drawn people but i do enjoy tracing pictures to put these boys into situations. i think it'll be nice to do a little doodle thing on @theeleventhcrow where people send me horny images and i'll try and draw the driver's faces on it. could be fun idk. i'm not good at art but i feel a little bit motivated for the fist time in a long while!

depending on how life is gonna look like and how my fic ideas are gonna be and if it all goes how i want to or if i randomly get a 350k fic idea (unlikely!), i might open commissions! but i'm not even sure if people would want to pay for my writing. it could be fun to try and write new things bc of it, you know? we'll see.

#zhalia's lil' answer chat #Anonymous #fun question time !!#these colors mean nothing i just thought it'd be cute

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occult-roommates · 1 year

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Airport interlude

Around a month later, Akva finally had some time to take a few days aside and go to Del Sol Valley visit Paisley and her family. And then some of her friends showed up at the airport with her to have conversations I really wanted to write but had nowhere else to put idc this ain’t a professionally written novel I do what I want.

Akva: Thanks for coming with me guys! Bye everyone! Dawud: Ciao. Rudi: Welcome, that was a nice walk. Now I gotta go home, it’s the Eurovision tonight and I don’t wanna miss my country humiliating itself yet again. Daniele: Rud, it’s like 8 am, I know Europe is a few hours before us, but I think you’re overestimating it a bit. Rudi: I wanna be ready. Oh and by the way, I’m rooting for your country. Daniele: Aw, thanks. Dawud: No idea what you guys are talking about, but I know a few German songs cause you know, I took German classes in high school. Like Rock me Amadeus or 99 Luftballons. Rudi: Literally everyone knows 99 Luftballons. Daniele: To be fair, I don’t think I know any other songs in German but that one, so kudos to you Dav. Rudi: You dont- You don’t even know Rammstein? Like...Rammstein! They’re famous as fuck and they’re icons from my dad’s hometown. He even brought me to one of their concert when I was 10 which...In hindsight he 100% should not have but you get my point. To be fair, I don’t think my dad really knew what he was getting himself into, we had been invited by his best friend. Daniele: Eh, I know them by name, but it’s not really my type of music so I don’t think I know any of their songs.

It was now Dawud’s turn to leave the conversation, as his mechanic lessons were just about to start. Hopefully that day, he was not going to injure his hand. Whelp, now Rudi and Daniele had no reason to stay at the airport, so they just left the scene too.

Daniele: By the way, the other day, don’t remember why, I tried looking at all of the burger joints in the city, and did not see the restaurant you work at. Why? Rudi: Because I don’t work at a burger joint?? I work at a Filipino restaurant??? Daniele: Oh...I just thought...Ok you’re gonna make fun of me but it’s because the place is called Bob’s House and I don’t know, that has strong burger joint energy. Rudi: It’s because their logo is a pineapple, duh...No that’s not a joke, the name was their daughter’s idea and she was like, 5 years old back then. She told me personally while we were smoking weed together behind the art museum. Daniele: I don’t get the joke? Rudi: Ok, I can believe you don’t know Rammstein but...Spongebob??? How the fuck do you not know Spongebob??? Daniele: I did not made the connection alright, calm down. Rudi: Wait, I just realized, but the daughter, her name is Marisa by the way, she’s a mermaid...Well, obviously the entire family are merfolks, but she’s also the same age as Akva, give or take a year or two. And like, she’s bi. I know it cause one time I was talking about wanting a tattoo and she showed me hers, and it’s a heart shaped bi pride flag...Do you see where I’m getting at? Probably not, but I’m still asking just in case. Daniele: Matchmake her with Akva? Rudi: How the fuck did you guess on the first try? But yes, that’s my plan. I think they’d be cute together. Daniele: I think they need to have more in common than just being mermaid. Like, I don’t think Akva would be the type to date someone who smokes weed. Rudi: Ah, come on. Akva’s been through a lot, she deserves a nice girlfriend. Daniele: Please, first you wanted ruin Dawud’s relationship with Matteo, which I get you wanted to do that for me but still, now this? You’re aroace Rudi, stop trying to interve in people’s love life you clearly don’t know what you’re talking about. Rudi: Um fuck you, and I’m no longer rooting for Italy, my vote is going to Finland now!

Rudi did not care, as soon as Akva came back from California, they were gonna try to make her and Marisa meet. They would be so cute together, or at least that’s what the werewolf thought.

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bubbleecloud · 2 years

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Yooo was wondering if you could do a tword Byler drawing or fic, whatever you prefer! But maybe a D&D au? :)))

Yes, absolutely! Sadly I know like nothing about dnd so hopefully this doesn't blow😭

"Relaxing"

Lee!Mike Ler!Will

~Will notices that Mike seems to be quite weary after all their adventures, luckily he's more than happy to help him wind down~

Dusk was setting, and the party was eager to settle down for the night. Then came the long, tiresome bother of setting up camp to recuperate from the long gruelling day of facing sudden death at every corner. At least, that was how Mike saw it. In truth, the young paladin truly did like the travels he set out on with his party, but he was in a particularly sour mood that day. He was just so tired!

He pulled his heavy armor off with a groan, happy to be rid of the cumbersome wears. His body was battered and bruised, aching with over exertion. Slowly, he laid down on his cot, set on getting a good night's sleep. Finally he could get some peace and-

"And just what does thou think they art doith?! "

Ah. Of course. Oooof course. Mike took a deep breath and slowly brought his body upward to glare at the boy peeking into his tent. Dustin was staring at him, an amused smile on the young Bards face.

"C'mon man, get up! It's grub time!"

He sighed. "Alright, alright, 'm comin"

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Gathered around a fire, the party ate. Mike had sat himself on a makeshift log seat next to Will, staring off into space while the other boys chatted about the days mishaps and planned for Tomorrow. Of course, Will noticed right away that his friend seemed off. He nudged Mike in the side with a small smile. "Hey, you.. Ok? "

"Wha-? Oh. Yea, yea uh- I'm fine"

The response came out as a mumble, and will took in his tired expression and slumped posture. He looked... exhausted! His frowned, and then stood up. " I think we should go to bed, we have a long day tomorrow, we need the energy! " His request was met with some light protest, but eventually they all settled down, with Mike and will retreating into their shared tent.

As soon as they were inside, Will turned to Mike again with concern. "Are you sure your ok, Mike? You don't have to lie to me, you know that right? " He sat down and put an arm around Mike's shoulder, patiently waiting for his response. Mike suddenly let out a loud sob, leaning into Will as all the pressure and strain of the last few days crashed on him. "Shit- I don't knowin just, I just- i- I can't- everythings just so- I'm so tired, Will! " He finished simply, wiping always his tears with embarrassment. Will frowned again, tightening his grip on Mike. "Hey, it's ok, it's ok! It's ok to be tired, Mike. With what we do all day, no one can expect you to be full of energy all the time. Maybe we'll all take a day off tomorrow and do things around camp yea? We all need a break, anyway. "

"I can't think of anything I'd like more, Jesus Christ-! " Will laughed at Mike's relieved tone, patting him on the back. "It'll be ok, you'll see.. "

He trailed off, and the two sat in silence for a moment and for a while Will thought Mike must have fallen asleep, until he suddenly said,

"Thanks, will... "

Will felt his breath catch in his chest for a moment. "Oh- of course! What else am I here for, right? " He asked, giving Mike a gentle nudge in the side.

Mike jumped, his breath hitched at the sudden feeling. The two sat in a tense silence, a smile steadily growing on Will's face. He had just been struck with the most amazing idea. "Hey Mike... I think I thought of a way for you to relax a little.. " Mike blushed, he eyes going wide. "Will- c'mon-"

He scooted away from Will, lovely bubbles of anticipation fluttering in his nervous system. Will followed his movement, hooking an arm around his hips before he could get away. Mike yelped and squirmed, but let's be honest, Will was pretty strong. "Cmon Mike, you need to loosen up a little! "

"Nooo- will please-! " Mile was cut off when will suddenly poked his side again, and giggles finally broke free from the poor guys lips. "Wihihill, dohon't! " Will smiled, he loved spending time with him like this. "Don't what, Mike? I'm a cleric, not a mind reader~" He moved his hands down to gently squeeze at his hips, noting the way Mike's laughter seemed to spike. He seemed so... Happy.

"Will nohohohoh!! GoddahahaHAMNIT! "

He weakly tugged at Wills hands, but he was determined. He pulled Mike closer.

"Aww is the strong paladin ticklish, huh? How cute~"

Rude! That was so unfair and will knew it! He "hated" when Will teased him like that! "wihiHIHILL NOHO! IHIHITS TOO LATE FOR THIHIHIS-! AH-!! "

He was cut off in his speech by Will suddenly scratching gently at his stomach, making Mike want to crawl out of his skin. "Oh, is it? Is it late, Michael? " He coo'd. "*YEHEHEHES*"

Will chuckled. "Wehell,you don't *seem* to be making much of an effort to get away from me~" Mike's face bloomed at being so balantantly called out, that mixed with the tickling and his ultimate tiredness pushes him over his cute limit.

"WIHIHIHILL! PLEHEHEHEHEASEEE! "

He grabbed onto his wrists in desperation, and Will slowly stopped his attack, running his fingers through Mike's hair as he soothed. "Alright, ahalright, I'm done, ya goof. " Mike giggled lazily, putting his arms around his neck.

"Fuck... 'M sleepy.. "

Will giggled. "I'm sure you are! Cmon, let's get some sleep."

And thus, the two settled down for some well deserved rest. A cleric and his paladin, together in peace.

Wooo I did it! I hope you all enjoy my brainrot, again I apologize if anything is inaccurate!

#byler!#dreamywrites #tickle fic

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theoldaeroplane · 10 months

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jouwnaling

had a really, really nice day yesterday, was just in a lovely mood all day. I think it may have been related to the fact I did not get high the night before, so I'm going to try to test that theory and dial my usage down. I really enjoy weed and think it has a lot of benefits, especially for neurodivergent folk, but I'm recognizing that I used it as a way to cope with my situations last year. I'd like to wean myself off it a bit and be more present now that my life is starting to not suck. Still gonna keep it around for fun and really bad ruminating though. Weed makes it so much easier for me to hang out with people in person for a long time, and to go into overstimulating spaces.

Been having tons of fun rotating my version of Link in my brain for Antebellum (the WIP name of my LoZ fic). He has so many problems. He is a dumb motherfucker. I'm also consciously putting a lot of things I've been struggling with into this story, both to process them for myself and to give the fic, you know, that extra layer of authenticity, relatability? It's nice, I'm excited to be excited again. I'm gonna fuck up that elf boy so bad.

Had my second yoga class last night, it was nice. I'm not sure if I can afford to keep going but I'm going to try to. In a way it feels silly to pay for something I could technically do for free at home with a YouTube video, but I think the atmosphere makes a significant enough difference to be worth paying for.

Finally made a vet appointment for the dog. She needs her shots and I can't put off the fact she needs dental surgery any longer.

I really, really need to reopen commissions, but I still feel burned out on art. I'm trying to make some adoptables and YCHs as a middle ground. Haven't had a lot of success there yet. That said, I've been putting a lot of my energy into cleaning up my house and taking care of myself. The house is coming along really well, and hopefully soon I'll have it leveled out enough to make it a nicer space for my creative endeavors.

I applied for another job this week, one totally out of my field and experience: house cleaning. It's not something I'd ever considered, but I found the listing by chance and it occurred to me that a job where I just clean and listen to podcasts sounds like heaven. Especially for my autistic ass. No constant stream of customers. No dress shirts. No repeatedly explaining terms and price sheets. Just show up and clean. I'm sure such a job has its own frustrations (hard on the body, exceptionally gross houses, telling people when something is not in my job description, driving a lot), but, like. My current job---while I genuinely like a lot of the work, and I really love my boss and coworkers---the customer service aspect is killing me, the dress code brings back bad memories, and even though I'm working full time (over full time, even, I'm there 8:30-5 because I take a thirty minute lunch break) I'm not making enough to fully support myself. I keep getting sent home early because there's nothing for me to do, and my boss is only a regional manager and has been very forthcoming with the fact I am already at the absolute highest end of the payscale for my position without taking on more responsibilities.

The fact that I can be working full time and still have to rely on a side hustle, and even THEN can't put anything aside for savings, is awful. I can't do more hours, I can't take on more responsibilities, and I can't get a second job. Any of those things would seriously compromise my mental health and I have to take care of myself. I've always dreaded it when I'm asked to take on more responsibilities at my jobs. I don't want advancement, I don't want to manage anyone (I can barely manage myself!), I don't give a shit what my title is. I want to do my work really well, get paid, and go home.

And the cleaning job, at the absolute lowest end, still pays about 5k more per year than my current position.

So, currently, yeah, housecleaning sounds like a dream job. Show up. Clean. Leave. Repeat. The company in question also has glowing employee reviews on Glassdoor, with the worst things being "could pay better" and "sometimes there's favoritism." I don't have any qualms about """being a maid""" on like a social level or whatever. I like the idea that I would be making a tangible difference for individuals, instead of printing out hundreds of advertising mailers that are going to go directly into the trash. I finding cleaning very satisfying. I like the idea of not sitting around bored because there's no customers and nothing to do and I'm not allowed to have my phone out, and then getting sent home early so I miss out on half my pay for that day. And so much less masking! My god! It sounds like paradise!

The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence, but sometimes that's because it really is better grass.

So. Hoping to hear back about that soon. I filled out a questionnaire thing for them yesterday that seemed like it was basically checking to see if I was a narcissistic sociopath or not. I have a weekend without any Special Events happening for the first time in like a month, just my tabletop games and my volunteer work. My clothes and bedding are all washed, I got most of the dog piss smell out of the carpet from when I was too exhausted to take her out often enough, and I cut my hair. I have a writing project again. I've been making new friends and reconnecting with old ones. I adore going out to the barn every saturday. My therapist says I'm doing really, really well. Everything's coming up Corgi, for now. Fingers crossed :)

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captainkurosolaire · 2 years

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Update ~ Return & The Swan Song 365 Challenge

365 Marks the number of days I will be challenging myself to and that voyage starts tomorrow. I will have this be my swan song. Yes it’s true no one hits harder than life, but what it’s really about is toughness, not power. Enduring is what makes us still stand, that's getting to the last round and that’s how you win. One hit and it’s just defense. And... that’s what I’m going to do! (I’m going raw in-depth beneath the cut.)

I’ve left pieces of my heart into the possession of many and I’ve watched them soon after throw and neglect it into the trash. Time and energy spent accosting my vitality. And it’s not on them strictly, it’s my own fault for being careless of the importance of where I devote myself too. I have left pieces of my body being torn and dissected to try fixing a disease and body that continues to decay and now is inoperable to fix from the holes carved into me. Hospital visits erased my opportunities and allowed me to stand side line oddly. I still recall being stuck there for a month, and I was bet against. Told I wasn’t strong enough. Watching my dreams shatter from Olympics, wrestling, everything gone, but one vital thing.

My mind is still intact. Although I deplete and have bitter limits. As long as I have that, I still have all I need. But expression is what I believe is the most important thing being’s bring; inside art you can prove that. In that atmosphere, you create worlds. And while you may get destroyed, you can convert that into something better. When things die like dreams, they can be recreated and transformed into a whole new positive landscape and impact.

I push myself to boundaries, challenge cause I need nothing ever wasted again. There is a way to do that. I can turn my entire life of years into memories good and bad, and bear it all on the table, in ONE full year... I can turn into stories, experiences, adventures. I can put it all into form and unleash it. Reveal my truth.

See although people have entrusted pieces of them to me. I have never lost it. And they are still important to me, to immortalize because every scar physically and mentally builds no matter how it’s constructed and molds you. I’ve always been second-rate in almost every regard, but I have never felt that way when sharing here and I continue to prosper and push because of the fondness and the out-pour of all the encouraging people who’ve tuned in, no matter the gaps in my appearances, or it almost seemingly like I’ve gone off to the seas and abandoned them on the shores.

I always return as one of the few constants.

Three months last year, I should just go for that alone as a benchmark, or go the normal idea and go for a consistent goal of Four, but I want more, more and more. In my heart of hearts.

One year. That’s where I want to go.

I will lay out every single emotion and I will turn it into some sort of screen set, writing, gif, comedic skits, poetry, lyrics, something to productively let out daily. Of course, I've had a handicap for one month and although that seems like a lot of distance to be ahead of me and easily achievable, I assure you all it takes is one bad day and that’s gone. A shifting wrong blow from life and it’s gone and I’m out.

Even if I don’t make the criteria of this challenge, I’ve set forth. I’ll still be happy with what I did and my opinion, alongside the love that I still can give myself daily, doesn’t change anything. 'Cause I did what makes me feel alive. Though I strongly believe, I can win this distance.

The reason is -- I’ve already succeeded in getting a month’s worth of work. Where my passion was perceived as a fire, thinking it dimmed, that the blaze couldn’t come back. I assure you, I’ve found it’s an explosive now.

It’s in my gratitude to all those who over the years have been on a life journey, being beside me, going through it all. Watching me adapt, evolve. I’m certain sometimes, there could’ve been questions if I was diminishing or regressing.

My duty is to hopefully aspire and inspire and I can take it that wasn’t easy. So that’s my apology if I’ve ever let your expectations down.

But now, if you stuck with me in this wild ride, I will deliver you the best that I’ve held in holding and couldn’t get too.

I owe it all to those who’ve come and slithered in whispers against me, targeted me with poison, aided in doubt. Thank you for allowing me to inject that into myself. It took a considerable amount of time to learn how to turn that poison into something useful, but I’ve found the antidote and gained beyond a tolerance to it, but immunity.

For those who’ve been my stars, who've been my guiding compass to return, who saw my spark, and encouraged me. Watching me leaping into turning my spark into a lightning strike here and there, I owe you a few worlds. Consider them created. I’ll go from lightning to thunder! And from there, I’ll become a whole thunderstorm of unbridled passion!

Even to those who often remain without even my presence, I have all my heart for you in this and it has given me my conviction to overcome. I’ll bring warmth into even the shadows themselves.

I’m out to develop a new writing style and form of art and trespass into it and ideally if it works, I’ll master it. If doable, I’ll be telling stories in this format. Not only easier to absorb but better for me too. But I haven’t given up, I attend to create all Captain’s stories, arcs, which I’ve hundreds remaining. Though this will allow me to ease it up and turn it into an alternative until I do so. I’m also going to be developing Captain’s final state and character arc, leading him up to being his pinnacle, prior to him going for his Last Voyage. This is a better idea instead, because it allows me to not only return to RP anywhere, but prevent partners from having to contend with any Story that is happening anymore. Now it’s strictly stories that are happening / stories that have happened. I'll be allowing them to be filled out / teased in my new style, and also one day, whenever not this challenge, I’m back to writing again, I can go at it.

Things haven’t changed though I’ll work on getting back to answering more stuff, being easier reachable for stuff. But most importantly, Build. Support. Hoist. Back to showcasing a lot of your inspiring tales, amazing works. You’ve kept all the engine running and that’s what matters. We’re all in this as a crew. Thank you for taking care of the helms and still never halting either in going through your tides. You’re what makes those seek fortune.

As always much love out to you hearties and glad to be on this vessel again, thanks for being embodiment's of treasure. But it’s land ho!

#Swan Song Challenge #<-----#Be the tag #Still use daily practice #Gonna be jumping all over the place again with creative stuff #Try new things out a lot #Posts around 1PM CST #Hopefully get that 365 #I'm excited for what I don't even know yet #OOC #Update #Status #We back #Hop into answering some asks from prior #Had some set-backs already #But I've got the grit

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ettawritesnstudies · 2 years

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etta! thinking about you and your wips tonight! take this as a freebie ask to ramble about anything!

Hi Katie! How have you been doing?

Currently I have more non-writing active works in progress than stories but the quick rundown goes as so!

hand-sewing a pirate shirt as part of a cosplay base: but specifically so that I can be Vin from the Mistborn series this halloween. (I hope) I have all the materials I need and they're mostly cut out and stitched together in various stages of progress depending on what part of the shirt we're talking about. I mostly work on this during zoom calls for dnd games, but I've also been sick on-and-off since MAY and so I also spend a decent amount of time on the weekends just sitting around for hours and hyperfixating on a relatively simple task while youtube runs in the background

Editing Runaways before summer ends so that I can throw the 3rd draft at a second round of Beta readers while I'm dealing with the inevitable senior year uni drama. This is slower going than hoped due to being sick more or less all summer and not having the energy to do braining but we're getting the ball moving again. The core of the story will remain the same but this draft includes several big fixes that will hopefully help smooth out the entire story, such as...

Refining Hannah's character arc and her relationships with her family members

Providing more exposition and backstory as to the villain's motivations and the greater conflict going on in the fae world that the characters don't directly interact with,

Tweaking a couple of continuity errors and changing the worldbuilding to eliminate contradictions

strengthening the tone and voice and mood and pacing and all that good nitpicky sentence level stuff

Learning a bunch of songs on the guitar: I got a fingerstyle version of Fireflies by Owl City that I've been slowly picking up and I have some other pieces that I've been learning to sing and strum when I have a voice.

Figuring out audio recording, storage, editing, etc: This started as a project to record my dnd games for our group to use as review, but I might be exploring audio drama and podcast options in the near future once I get my act together.

Catching up on people's stories and my reading goals on goodreads: I can mostly read at work thanks to the nature of the tests I'm running at my internship this summer, so I've been splitting that between audiobooks, podcasts, ebooks, and fanfic

Sewing a bunch of patches onto my jacket/misc. embroidery projects: idk if I ever posted about this on here, but I have this green handmedown jacket that I love and want to customize so I've been embroidering homemade patches for it and sewing them on for several months now. I have a couple more my parents got me to add, there's florals attached now to give it some 3D texture, I want to add charms to make it noisy, it's a whole project on it's own separate from the sewing. I've also got leftover scrap fabric from the shirt I'll be turning into a dnd dice bag eventually

Author platform stuff/Catching up on writing reviews: because reviews really help indie authors! I want to do my part to help them get the recognition they deserve. Also maintaining my website is a part time job in and of itself so that's a decent chunk of my evenings.

Teaching myself digital art/animation: I impulse-bought a drawing tablet on a good deal earlier this summer and I'm putting it to good use with updated character art and illustrations, and hopefully some animatics or vine comps soon once I get my act together with THAT and overcome my fear of video editing.

Talking to friends and working on club stuff for uni: because none of them are here and I miss them :(

basically, I work for ~40 hours a week and spend the rest of my waking hours desperately wishing I had more free time, even those this is the most free time I've had in probably two+ years haha. If my body could stop dying for more than a week that would be great though :P

Thank you for checking in!

#right after my internship started I lost my voice #which turned into bronchitis #which turned into an infection and bruised ribs which left me too sore to do much #and then I was fine for a few days and then got a stomach bug #and now I'm over that but my throat's starting to hurt again and I swear if I lose my voice for the FOURTH TIME THIS YEAR I will cry #anyhow #etta rambles #wip update #works in progress

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mythicaldemigoddess-of-deltarune · 2 years

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Toxic-Fans Can Be Jerks That Give Other Fans A Bad Name...

you can't just force a update of either a web show or even a video game, it takes time and a lot of energy.

and it doesn't help to bully the creator of the said series into "hurrying up" when they are going through a lot.

even if it is different from what I went through, I know how it feels to reach a breaking point and it doesn't help that I had gotten over having the first depression type feeling (this happen a few years ago now), and I ended up having a second depression.

which I think the second one might of started around either 2015 or 2016 and I didn't get fully better until December 2017.

even if there are Toxic-Fans who are acting unreasonable, there are some Fans who knows it takes time for projects to get fully done,and sometimes there will be delays beyond control and a project will need to be placed on hiatus.

I just learned about something that I didn't know before until just now, after watching about Latest news that has to do with Episode 8 of Helluva Boss.

and I agree that Vivziepop does indeed deserve better, and I hope she is able to fully heal and stay safe, and she can take as long a she needs.

there was a type of Fan Art I did, that has to do with the whole what if Stolas had a younger sister (which would be Helluva Boss AU/Fanon Only type thing.)

but I think I will wait a while before I post it on here.

I don't think what I went through is the same as what Vivzie is going through right now, but I hope that she will be able to fully recover both mental health

as well as the heart, I know that yesterday I wasn't just feeling tired, I was kind of feeling a little down too, like one of those can't help but not feeling happy type days.

I think that those Toxic-Fans, should just shut up and stop being jerks, but for now I guess it's best to ignore them unless they act like they did before again. there are somethings that Fans should NOT cross the line in, and this is one of those times.

and besides the Toxic-Fans, it does seem like there is other stuff that are going on, I think I will try my best to pray for Vivzie to stay safe and heal,

and yes I am going to pray to both the Earthly Mother & Heavenly Father for this, and I know I'm not gonna let some jerk get away with misusing those "may the lord have mercy on you" at me just because I’m including The Goddess Who Was Wronged a very super VERY long time ago during the warlike Indo-European times of 2000 to 3000 BCE (it talks about it in Stones Of The Goddess Crystals for Divine Feminine and it’s by Nicholas Pearson.), and yes it did hurt when it first happen that involved that Toxic-Religious person, and it kept hurting when my words of how it was hurting my feelings, wasn't getting through to the Toxic-Religious person who kept throwing those misused words at me, even after I pointed out that my feelings were being hurt and it was making me cry.....

I know that not every religious person is like that, but that person who hurt me was a insensitive jerk. I can have friends who are religious or even some who might be atheist, and so long as they respect my different new belief, it will be okay.

it's like to agreeing to respect that my new belief is well slightly different... anyway like I said, I'm going to do my best to pray that she heals and fully relax and taking it easy.

hopefully it wont be ignored, or not granted soon enough like the last prayer I made to have something be stopped right away.... it does give me another reason why I want to go live with Earthly Mother... what I was praying for, it had to do with some really bad stuff that was happening...and I wanted it to be put a stop to...

anyway, even if some fans can be a bit more careful when asking about a update, but you shouldn't cross the line when it comes to it.

hopefully things will work out and Vivzie will be able to fully heal after what happen, sometimes it takes time to heal....

and cats or dogs or any form of animal, can be great to help, I know I have my fluffy baby cat, who even makes the cutest baby like sounds. it did hurt when my first cat died, I think I was almost getting over being sick during the time when it happen. I had been throwing up and everything, it was before the Covid thing (and before I caught it, but only was sick from it for a few days, though I didn’t know I had it when I had gotten sick again....)

the video that I watched that talked about what's going on, did bring up a cat, so I hope that Vivzie's fluffy baby helps with the healing as well.

and yes even if there are Toxic-Fans, there are Haters who wouldn't know jack about anything, and well let's save that talk for sometime later... also if something is going on with A24, and I did want to try to trust them but if they even pull something....

and I can only hope things work out, A24 shouldn't own the rights to the Hazbin Hotel series,I mean if it is true and it isn't just rumors....but still, if this is one of the problems, then hopefully it will be fixed someday when it is possible.

even if they have some form of power for some networks, they have to understand that there are some shows they can NOT fully own. they can perhaps help with showing them, but the rights should go to the original creator if the series.

if things don't go well and if the rumors are true, then maybe SpindleHorse Toons can get the Full Rights back away from A24.

but for now, I guess we can only hope that A24 doesn't do anything that will be harmful, as annoying as it is to think some info I found might be true that has to do wit A24, which it can't be helped at the moment.....what's more important is that Vivzie is getting the much needed time to relax so she can heal.

I mean it is possible it isn't just the Toxic-Fans that are the problem, but hopefully everything will work out....and hopefully the Toxic-Fans will learn from this. like not to be selfish jerks for one, because it takes time and a lot of energy to work on either a show or movie or video game, it just does...

I hope some of you can understand what I'm saying, and don't misunderstand it.....I don't like it when that happens, like when I try to say something, it gets misunderstood in the worst way.

to fans who have heard about what whats going on, but maybe just found out just now like myself, I mean the video that talks about it was posted on June 5, 2022. and I didn’t see it until June 6, 2022.

if the rumors about A24 are true, then hopefully there will be some form of justice that will have the Team of SpindleHorse Toons, get the full rights back.

but if it is all just a misunderstanding, then well hopefully it can be cleared up,

but it better be a good one, and wont make any fans mad and be more protective. I mean I guess if there is some bad rumors that are true, than it would be best that someone else owned A24 and made sure creators of different shows or movies that they trust them with, will still have form of rights to their creations.

also I’m not sure if it will work for everyone, but maybe Vivzie could try to get gems to help, I have my bracelets that are suppose to protect me....

and I also use them as sealing charms and limiters, it does seem that pray/programming them by using some good salt (like holding both the salt together with the bracelets in hands like in a wish, but would have to use water to get any salt that is stuck on it off, but maybe like mix of warm and cold water.)

the only time it didn’t work, was when I kept one of the bracelets off for too long, and I had to re-do it.

Amethyst and Black Tourmaline might help, though if it does, it doesn’t mean it will work fully right away, it could take a lot of time and even longer I think.

I know that one of the new reasons I have to have my bracelets on,

is because I don’t want to get telekinesis where I can end up moving things without even touching them, but so far it is only when I hold a item either it be a bottle of pop or a precious childhood item, that I hold with my fingers like I’m holding my pendulum, that it will start to move in the same way if I think either clockwise or circle or side to side....

so long as I keep the bracelets on, that wont happen, and it will only move pendulum when I hold it with my fingers.....and I should make sure to take a break from using it once in a while.

I don’t know my idea will be of any help, I mean it is possible that some gems can help some, but I guess it depends.

for the sake of Vivzie, please try to show support and understanding with what she’s going through right now, even if we all might not understand the full picture of it and only can get it from bits and pieces of info we hear about from that one video that talked about it, well it more of like had the words and didn’t have anyone really talking, but it still counts.

if what is going on with A24 is just rumors, then hopefully it will be cleared up.

even if the video I found that talked about what’s going on with Vivziepop,

did say that a new episode will be released I think around July...?

I forgot what day though, but if it has to go to another hiatus and might take a while, then we must be patient and understanding, and not be shisnos about it.

I think a Amethyst and Black Tourmaline bracelets might help a lot,

though we can’t just tell her to get them, because we believe it might help.

I know I do use my bracelets to protect myself too, and I do wear them to sleep now since I got them....but I still have to take them off at times.

I just think it be good way to help with the healing, I mean there is a chance it wont work for everyone, and it might mean that my suggestion is terrible.

I mean it is just one of the things that I can think of that can help,

well that and having adorable fluffy baby that can help sooth you when you are not feeling all that great, and if anyone did any physical harm to my fluffy baby, there will be heck, I still stand by my words from before that if any Toxic-Pagan (who gives other Pagans a bad name) even so much as touch my precious fluffy baby or try to use them for a certain ritual....

I will show no mercy to their hair, I will pull it so hard that they will know not to mess with this Defective Earth Angel who’s blood type is RH Negative.

I think I will wait until the day after tomorrow to check my blood type to see what type of RH Negative I am, if it does come out O RH D Negative for a third time, I will fully accept it.

I know I’m Defective, and I don’t “work correctly” and maybe that’s a good thing.

and well maybe I can explain why about it another time...

but I think it is good to have gems that can help with different energies, and well it could work for some but it might not work for everyone.

and it’s okay if Vivziepop doesn’t like the suggestion, but I’m still going to hope that she gets lots of her time and gets lots of Rest and Relaxing and her fluffy baby is making her feel better each day.

also just in case, I’m placing the “don’t reblog this without permission.”

there can be some jerks out there, who will well not be so nice...

even if there are some you can trust with reblogging a post, but sometimes it’s best to be careful.

also I’m not gonna put the tag that says “Read More” for this.

I will only do that when I feel like it, so please respect my wishes when I don’t want to put it as one one the tags.

also I think I should try to look up to see if having some days where you go through a numb-flux is normal...?

it seems that ever since I had my two depressions, when I have days where I don’t feel as 100% great, there is like this “feeling” and it’s like a numbness.

maybe it is nothing and I was just having a off day, maybe it is all in my head and there is nothing wrong with whatever I was feeling on the inside.

but I still am curious and would like to try to look it up.

I know during the first stages of when I was getting that second depression,

I wanted to punch the bathroom mirror but common sense kept me from doing it, because well for obvious reasons...

everyone can have different levels of a emotional and mental hurt,

and it does take time to heal, and depending on how bad it is, it can take a way longer....and well I hope other fans will be supportive and not act like Toxic-Fans and not make anything worse, and just try to be the positive support.

I think what I need right now, is to check out some fan art on here....

maybe to help with calm myself as well, and I think what I will do first, will watch Steven Universe Future, I will start with the Steven Universe Movie then I will watch Steven Universe Future.

I will keep myself signed in on here, while I watch Steven Universe.

also I hope no one misunderstands anything I said in this post,

I mean some misunderstandings can be okay if they are small and can be worked out but sometimes they can be misinterpreted in the worse way and it can cause some pretty bad hurt feelings.

like if you make a comment on a fan art, but what you say gets misinterpreted by the one who drew the fan art in the first place.....

it’s like that, and well hopefully some can understand about my thoughts and feelings that if some rumors turn out to be true that has to do with A24, then it will be fixed and things will work out hopefully.

I’m not 100% sure if whats going on is partly have to do with them,

but it does seem that Toxic-Fans can be a bit mean, when it comes to trying to hurry what cannot be rushed....I mean the video I found did make it seem that some fans are what is the problem, but there can still be more to it.

but it’s best to just not worry about what is the cause right now (but we can still keep a eye out), what is important is that Vivzie heals and gets plenty of TLC and R&R.

I’m not sure if Vivienne/Vivziepop will read this, and if she does I hope it isn’t misinterpreted and well I hope everything works out and she stays safe while doing some much needed healing while taking a break.

#get better soon #we support you #self healing #vivziepop #helluva boss #hazbin hotel #don't reblog this without permission

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swemory · 3 months

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When will the other call of duty bunny drawings come out

soon!! still working on the next few. i have to draw daily for practice & whatnot, so its become realllly tasking for me. drawing feels more like a chore than a hobby, but im trying to slowly get out all the ones i wasnt able to :)

i have a busy schedule this year with art, my work outs, this podcast being made and a fewwww other life/career related things im getting sorted out, but im hoping to push out more art. meaning, hopefully, i can put my artistic energy back into silly CoD bunny doodles. again, theres just alot of stress being tossed at me atm.

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shhthesecretdiary · 9 months

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Thought Dump (Aug 6, 2023, 12:32 AM)

Go ahead, put anything.

Sorna, yan kasi nakalagay before ako magtype.

Anyway,

This is attempt to produce something rather than spending a shit ton of time scrolling through different social media platforms.

Currently it is Sunday midnight, so day off. And, since I can barely get my shit together, I will write something about my life so far.

It always saddens me how I always fall short of my goals for myself. I can always start, but it is really so hard for me to be consistent and to see something 'til the end.

8th of July, I subscribed to a gym membership for 1 month. I did about 3 sessions and that was it. :( I had a lot of complains, which is true that I always feel pain on my calves, making it so hard to move them. Also, one of my pain points was that I have no effin idea what to do there, I had a personal training session during the first day, but that was too tough, I wished it was a taken a little bit slowly. Feel ko nabigla katawan ko. So I rested, and that lasted for weeks. Mageexpire na yung one month bayad, it's out of my budget to go for another month, so my goal is to lose weight first through waling and AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE, PLEASE, LESSEN FOOD INTAKE AND BE WARY ABOUT WHAT I EAT.

Okay next aspect, work. I had finished my probation period last 24th of July, got the salary increase notification on the 25th, I'd be lying if I said I am satisfied with the increase, but I had to take into account na 'di pa rin ako magaling, 'di ko nababalanse yung tasks ko, nahihiya pa rin ako magtanong, still have no idea with corporates, still struggle with conversations, takot pa rin sa f2f convos with client, and still not in close relations with all of them. Bano pa rin. But I just hope they consider that my pay isn't enough in the first place. Pero sabagay, credentials ko rin.

Another, life. Hay, ang inet jusko. So far neutral pa rin ako, walang travel twing weekend, wala ring masyadong mayayang friends. Pero all in all mainit rin kasi. It takes a lot of energy and money to go out. And I wanna sleep in. Hopefully I'd get to try a lot of things soon. Once the weather is fine and I have enough money. Travel galore na. I'd really like to enjoy my youth and have something to look forward to aside from sleeping. To try something new and to explore. PERO PERA!!! I am also not on track with my budget.

Next, education. Ilang buwan na ako dito sa UAE, ilang buwan na rin akong 'di nagrereview for CPALE. Sometimes I just want to move out of here and live somewhere near the office, with my own apartment. Then sing alone, exercise, make my own food, then lesser time for commute, more time for myself. But still, money, and for sure mama will not agree. I also lost my streak to Duolingo French and finding it hard to go back. Consistency issues. My Coursera certification was buried na, and for the taxes and laws here, idk anymore.

Health, I feel like this has been my shittiest physical appearance, the worst look I've ever been. 73kg with a lot of acne, no menstruation for two months, losing a lot of hair, and I'm already numb. Lack of sleep during weekdays, oversleeping on the weekends.

Creativity, I feel like I am losing touch on the things I loved to do before. Art, music. Singing, Dancing, Recording, Video Editing, trying to do photography. Will make a conscious effort to try and produce some art again.

Hay, for the wins: Got credited for a Lexis Nexis article with Daisy for UAE Corporate Tax, working on another one I absolutely have no idea about, getting a hang of my work so far, and got inspired by Bhavika to read books once again. I loved The Kite Runner so much! Currently reading The Magic Strings of Frankie Presto. Another work of Khaled Hosseini next, which would be A Thousand Splendid Suns.

I am pretty much neutral now. But at the back of my mind, a lot of my "falling short" moments haunt me. But maybe this attempt on being aware of this would be the start to acting towards it.

Checklist:

Create a budget tracker now, kahit through Zoho. Ipon for travel to Caucasus.

Increase steps 10,000-15,000.

Make conscious steps to edit life videos

Start reviewing for CPALE again.

Connect with people more.

Fix sleep sched, and conscious eating (but writing this @ 1am)

Oil hair and minoxidil (pls), skincare

Be organized

Try to do something new often

Embrace your feminine energy and take care of myself more.

Mindet and action.

Marami pa, and this is very vague tbh but ayon, I need to sleep na rin.

Good midnight.

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