My season 2 OFMD playlist is going to have so much my chemical romance on it do you understand

Let’s talk about Poly, the intro.

Well, folks- here it goes.

I’ve thought long and hard about whether I wanted to create this blog or not, and clearly I came to this conclusion. Now- that being said, this is only my perspective on the relationship-  while I’m sure my counterparts would say the same things- this is exclusively my opinions on here. I’m sure to feature them on later blogs. 

Well, now that we’ve got that out of the way. Here’s a little (a lot) about me- rapid fire! I’m 27 years old, I have been married twice, and I have two beautiful little boys (with my second ex husband). I am a reformed emo kid from circa 2007- though if you look at my Spotify playlist you would realize that I am only partially reformed and I will never cease to listen to Hawthorn Heights and My Chemical Romance. I’ve worked most of my adult life as a hair stylist, but have recently started bar tending. Besides my day to day life a little more about me- I’m a Cancer so I’m told that means I’m over emotional- which to be honest Guillllttyyyyy, I read FAR too much in every situation, its disgusting really but hey I didn’t pick the anxiety life- it picked me. Oh shit- my names Haley by the way,.

Okay now that your know some vague information about me, here’s some more. I’m currently in a relationship with two people- a married couple in fact. L(shortened for some privacy)- a feisty blonde haired, red bearded jack of all trades (master of none). Last but certainly not least B- a black haired, Susie homemaker with a heart of freaking gold. Now- long before I came along B and L had a life (amazing right? I always thought I was the center of the universe but it turns out people still have lives with out me- mind blown) like 5 years of life and three kids before they ever met me. Now you’re reading that correctly. 3 kids- and as of 6 months ago a fourth minion! Now- when i first embarked on this journey i fucking hated kids- all kids- young, old, fat, skinny, loud, and quiet. I hated all the kids that i didn't directly push from my body. But here I am almost 8 months later getting ready to move into a new house with B, L and said minions, in addition to my own spawn, Six kids- SIX KIDS- and all the stock in Ibuprofen. 

Its really fine now, I’ve learned to embrace the chaos- and chaos is certainly freaking is.

Let me just say that HANDS DOWN, this is the hardest relationship that I have ever been in. I don’t mean hard because we don’t get along, but the most complicated as far as emotions go, its honestly hard to put into words. 

I love her, and I love him, separately as well as together. 

Now here are the questions I get asked-

- Don’t you get jealous? Meh- yes and no. and what I do get jealous of isn’t what you would think. I get jealous that I haven’t known them as long as they’ve known each other, I get jealous that I’m coming into this so late, and that I may never be an equal. Not that they have ever made me feel that way. But you know- this big ol’ dumb brain likes to play tricks on itself.

-So you like, have threesomes all the time? UGGGGHHHHH SHUT UP- I get it- you think one dude and two chicks- every dudes fantasy. EYE ROLL. It’s easy to purely sexualize my relationship- but it would be cooler if you fucking didn’t. I get it- i do but it gets old. 

-Where do you guys sleep? In a bed... like you, a king size one. We all snore too. B is infamous for falling asleep first, L will fall asleep and then pretend like he didn’t when you go to turn it down or change the channel. I’m a snuggler- I never use to be, never was a cuddler but now i like to sleep in the middle, like the cream filling in the Oreo.  SO TOASTY.

I’m sure there’s more- but feel free to ask, with in reason of course.

We grocery shop, we talk about bills, we laugh and cry, we get frustrated with each other, we go camping, we’re no different from the rest of you.

This being the first blog of a series, its hard to not keep rambling on and on- but I want to be more specific in the future, and I would love to hear your feed back! Let me hear about your relationships, questions about ours, blog ideas, or anything!

xoxo Haley 

I got tagged by @vintagesimstress. Dzięki Ania! I haven’t done it in a while so here it goes.

Rules: answer 21 questions, then tag 21 people you want to get to know better.

Nickname: I never had one. My name is quite short so maybe that’s why?

Zodiac: Leo

Height: between 155 and 160 cm

Last thing searched: ts4cc lol

Favourite musicians: I’m too old to fangirl over singers or bands. I mostly listen to whatever’s on the radio or on my ipod playlists. I used to love rock, metal or punk but I’ve never been a part of any subculture. However, I do have a soft spot for Linking Park, Korn, Metallica, Slipknot, etc. I also love listening to classical music, good soundtracks from movies, tv shows, games and even Bollywood, and wrestling themes. And I could listen to anyone with a good English accent forever. Oh, and Lana del Ray.

If you had a time machine, would you go back in time or visit the future? Being born in the wrong era is the story of my life. I’d go back in time to see all of my favourite historical figures and then I could die happily.

Do I get asks? I used to. Now, I’m scarcely even here.

Following : 391 people

Would you rather be rich or famous? Rich. I’d love to build myself a castle and live there peacefully. Fame is not for me.  

Amount of sleep: Never enough.

What I’m wearing: Everything black. Although, I’m not an emo or a goth. I just like black a lot. And I’ve got lots of black clothes left from the two mourning periods that have happened during the last couple of years. Honestly, everything in my wardrobe is either black or all kinds of blue with rare green/purple/grey colour accents.

Dream job: I don’t have one and that’s why I’m never satisfied with what I do.

Dream trip: A tour around European castles, palaces, and royal gardens.

If you were an animal. What would you be? A dog, a horse or a bird. Preferably a bird cause it’s free and independent. A raven, maybe?

What are some of your favourite books/films/shows/games/etc.?

Books: I’m a bookworm. I love to read. Actually, I mostly read biographies of my favourite historical people. Aside from that, I read historical fiction, fantasy, horrors, and thrillers. I adore Agatha Christie and American gothic, so authors like E. A. Poe, Nathaniel Hawthorne. But I also love good old Shakespeare and his tragedies as well as modern drama, Chekhov, etc. And fanfiction. Who doesn’t read it? My favourite book is Mists of Avalon by Marion Zimmer Bradley. Honourable mentions go to: Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoyevsky; A Song of Ice and Fire series by George R. R. Martin, A Sword of Truth series by Terry Goodkind and Gone with the Wind by Margaret Mitchell.

Films: There are so many so I’ll name those I feel most nostalgic about: Gone with the Wind (1939); Ivanhoe (1952); Sleeping Beauty (1959 animated); Anne of the Thousand Days (1969); Sissi (1955); Trędowata (1976); Noce i dnie (1975); Clash of the Titans (1981); Steel Magnolias (1989); Dracula (1992); The Swan Princess (1994 animated); Braveheart (1995); Jumanji (1995); Dilwale Dulhania Le Jayenge (1995); Matilda (1996); Anastasia (1997 animated); Practical Magic (1998); The Parent Trap (1998); Kuch Kuch Hota Hai (1998); Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon (2000); Gladiator (2000);  Kabhie Khushi Kabhie Gham (2001); The Fast and The Furious (2001); Troy (2004); Van Helsing (2004); Kingdom of heaven (2005); Casino Royal (2006); 300 (2006); Pan’s Labyrinth (2006); The Wolfman (2010); Sicario (2015).

Shows: I mostly watch everything historical, Game of Thrones, Legend of the Seeker or vampires and zombies. No comedies, doctors or layer dramas. For anyone interested in historical tv series, I’ll try to list them periodically: Tut (miniseries 2015)Hercules; The legendary journeys (1995-1999); Xena Warrior Princess (1995-2001); ROME (2005-2007); Starz’s Spartacus (2010-2013); BBC’s Merlin (2008-2012); Camelot (2011); The Mists of Avalon (miniseries 2001); Viklngs (2013-2020); The Last Kingdom (2015-); The Pillars of the Earth (miniseries 2010); The Lion in Winter (TV movie 2003); BBC’s Robin Hood (2006-2009); World Without End (miniseries 2012); Labyrinth (miniseries 2012); Marco Polo (2014-2016); The Hollow Crown (miniseries 2012); Medici: Masters of Florence (2016-); Da Vinci’s Demons (2013-2015);The Borgias (2011-2013); Borgia (2011-2014); The White Queen (miniseries 2012); The White Princess (miniseries 2017); The Spanish Princess (miniseries 2019); The Tudors (2007-2010); Reign (2013-2017); Muhteşem Yüzyıl aka The Magnificent Century (2011-2014); Muhtesem Yüzyıl: Kösem aka The Magnificent Centuruy: Kösem (2015-2017); Versailles (2015-2018); Black Sails (2014-2017); Outlander (2014-); The Frontier (2016-); Крепостная aka Love in Chains 2019); Poldark (2015-2019); Victoria (2016-); Ripper Street (2012-2016); Penny Dreadful (2014-2016); Dracula (2013-2014); The Crown (2016-)

Games: TS4; Crusader Kings II; Hitman; Tomb Raider games; Assassin’s Creed games; God of War games and The Last of Us.

Play any instruments? Unfortunately, no. ;-(

Language(s): Native: Polish; Second: English; The rest: Russian, Spanish and Latin. Self-learning: Hindi and Turkish

Describe yourself as aesthetic: …”A solitary maiden whose only friends are dogs, flowers and her companions-books”

I TAG @sifixcc, @theroyalsims, @pandorasimbox, @kellymarie69, @miraraeblog whose yt royal series is my fav pastime nowadays and anybody else who’d like to participate :)

Artist Name: These Hearts Genres: Post Hardcore, Easycore, Metalcore, Pop Punk, Emo Pop, Christian Hardcore, Melodic Hardcore Similar Artists: A Day To Remember, Taking Back Sunday, Fight Fair, Four Year Strong, Me vs Hero, Chunk! No, Captain Chunk!, Can't Bear This Party, Set Your Goals, New Found Glory, Sleeping With Sirens, Pierce The Veil, From First To Last, We Are Defiance, Four Letter Lie Bio: I've been listening to this next band quite a lot recently. When I'm not teetering on the edge of everything I've been blasting this like I'm being paid to do it. These Hearts has been, and I can say this 100% honestly, the very best thing I've listened to in a while because of what it's done for my mood. I actually discovered a new subgenre of Post Hardcore because of these guys when I first discovered them. It's called "Easycore." Now at first glance it seems like an elitist phrase created by Fugazi and Husker Du loving snobs who don't like sharing the term Post Hardcore with anything in skinny jeans and swoopy hair but it actually isn't all that bad of a term. It's essentially the crossbreed of Post Hardcore, Metalcore, and Pop Punk which just so happen to be some of my three favorite things. If you're not familiar with this type of music, I feel like this along with Fight Fair are very good introductions to the style. Now, onto the band themselves. The band got started all the way back in the magical musical year of 2007 in Fargo, North Dakota. The original lineup consisted of Ryan Saunders as the lead vocalist, Daryl Van Beek on guitar, Isaih Folk on drums, and Skyler Patzer on Bass. Tom Westerholm would join them as a guitarist in 2008. Also in 2008 was their first independent release, a gorgeous EP called Mistakes and Second Takes that came out on September 16th. This EP contains the right amount of post hardcore intricacies and guitarwork, speed, screams, with all of the catchiness of Pop Punk. I'm not going to lie though, some of Ryan's vocals on this release is a bit of an aquired taste but they will either grow on you or you'll appreciate the growth he has in releases after this. His voice is somewhere between Sonny Moore and Kellin Quinn on the "I-don't-know-how-he-can-hit-that-note-o-meter". It's still a solid release with a nice piano interlude and some fantastic songs such as She'd like To Wear The Pants, But She Can't Fit Into Mine, the title track which felt like if Taking Back Sunday was a little more hardcore, and ending strong with Hats Off For Discontentment. In 2009 Skyler leaves the band and Kyle Colby joins as lead guitarist and backing vocalist. This year is when they put out a two track demo called the "Nada Demo." Somewhere around this time, the band was signed to Victory Records. Greg Gentzkow becomes the new bassist for the year of 2010 but it later replaced by Tyler Rice in 2011. On June 21st, 2011, the band puts out their first studio album Forever Ended Yesterday. With strong songs on this record like Apology Rejected, Denial Is Not Just A River In Egypt, Romans 15, Are You Mad?, and Live To The Point Of Tears, this also features a studio version of She's Like To Wear The Pants which is even better than the original. This album also has perhaps one of the sweetest songs I've ever heard, Thinking In Terms Of Two. Just go listen to it and feel the feels. In 2012 they put out the Elephant In The Room EP which features Denial and a new track called The Inconvienience along with some acoustic tracks. There are many faith-based elements to the lyrics of These Hearts, as they were a Christian hardcore band. I feel like it's worth mentioning at this point that although they were a Christian band, they're probably some of the coolest types of Christians ever and it's never overbearing or judgemental. It's overt and proud, but not toxic. I felt like saying that since sometimes religion can be a bit of a sore subject with some people who listen to hardcore music, especially those who were raised in Conservative environments. There's nothing toxic about These Hearts, in fact it's totally encouraging and positive if anything. I consider myself someone of faith so music like this really makes me happy, but I feel like non-Christians can enjoy These Hearts just as much. In 2013 they'd put out Yours To Take on July 19th before disbanding, but not before being a breakthrough release upon the Billboard magazine charts, peaking at No. 36 on the Christian Albums chart and 33 on the Heatseekers Albums chart. By this point Ryan's vocals improved greatly and so did the musicianship. The easycore sound on this album are absolutely killer with all of the speed and catchiness you'd ever want. Whenever I've been down (which I have been a LOT as of late by the way) I've listened to These Hearts. It's been great driving music but even greater singing into my hairbrush music. I'm definitely proud to admit that I'm a massive fan of this band and if you give them a chance, I doubt they'll disappoint you. EDIT: Tristan had originally taken this post down after harassment from another user regarding the problematic things that Ryan Saunders has done in the past. (He has since apologised though apparently) I'd just like to let everyone know that both me and Tristan do not condone or excuse the actions of Ryan Saunders. Nor do we support his questionable political views. This post was made purely to appreciate the music the band had created, while separating the art from the artist. I'd like to make a disclaimer that in a few future posts I'll potentially be covering artists who may have done problematic things. Whether I'm aware of it or not, if I know an artist is really problematic I will indeed clarify it in the post about them. If I don't know if they're problematic, please message me privately (in a polite way) and I can add a disclaimer like this one. Remember that if I cover a problematic artist, I'm purely doing a post to appreciate the talent of their music or other members who've worked with them and not to condone their bad actions. I hope you guys understand. Anyway... go check out the discography for These Heart's music down here. Discography: Mistakes And Second Takes (iTunes)(Spotify)(YouTube)(Deezer)(GooglePlay) https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/mistakes-and-second-takes/291788447 https://open.spotify.com/album/3VztFF4jqkZZHZPPgpAZ2v?autoplay=true&v=L https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLPd0PhXe3Hn_oJKAbaQRu950y82W72sDO https://www.deezer.com/album/774467?autoplay=true https://play.google.com/music/m/Bkbhe5puq4c4oshhwmitqf2j5wa?play=1 Nada Demo (iTunes)(Spotify)(YouTube)(Deezer)(GooglePlay) https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/nada-demo/320113752 https://open.spotify.com/album/7sGUYnbKZr9GGZqgYlcCt2?autoplay=true&v=L https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL-psFLkeb48bS2qd67Cl3q2cD2Zi8aARP https://www.deezer.com/album/774636?autoplay=true https://play.google.com/music/m/Bu2yghtdyduw6z2ylpx5olaujjm?play=1 Forever Ended Yesterday (iTunes)(Spotify)(YouTube)(Deezer)(GooglePlay) https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/forever-ended-yesterday/467076580 https://open.spotify.com/album/2AeLF6gAlqqckO17CEQxh5?autoplay=true&v=L https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLB6Y_0YwwQIP8PvWc5PsYY95oIbD-Mkay https://www.deezer.com/album/1266912?autoplay=true https://play.google.com/music/m/Bx52efkbywn72td6hw4lrligtwq?play=1 Elephant In The Room (iTunes)(Spotify)(YouTube)(Deezer)(GooglePlay) https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/elephant-in-the-room-ep/554449559 https://open.spotify.com/album/5pFBnsqirD2ihFCJczrhfW?autoplay=true&v=L https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLca7REVQkotlNf-bT8SY4lsyEPRyhxJD7 https://www.deezer.com/album/5549771?autoplay=true https://play.google.com/music/m/Bx2xpenuje5yjrilufjphus4w4q?play=1 Yours To Take (iTunes)(Spotify)(YouTube)(Deezer)(GooglePlay) https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/yours-to-take/662293127 https://open.spotify.com/album/3NsWXiSZQ474zqqH6GvMSZ?autoplay=true&v=L https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLDsMHHY9vx8sjnUG2Mo6MNmXXIwVWyRID https://www.deezer.com/album/6689451?autoplay=true https://play.google.com/music/m/Bdyag4kzhsfzbxcyzz7uowm5y4m?play=1 Favorite Lyrics: "Tonight I'll fix what's left of your soul, the scars that you have are emotional. This is how you break a bad habit. What were you thinking all along? This is how you break a bad habit when your life means more than what you're good for." (Romans 15) Recommended Songs: Romans 15 (x)https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CPHyl5BeIBQ Are You Mad? (x)https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OPHOjqxS0mU Apology Rejected (x)https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5bZCrPybKww Denial Is Not Just A River In Egypt (x)https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tut7Wz4vm_0 She'd Like To Wear The Pants, But She Can't Fit Into Mine (x)https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DOaL2hjwbSk Hats Off For Discontentment (x)https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ax8ElRruNNk Thinking In Terms Of Two (x)https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AnXrYPHmYaQ Miserable (x)https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZbJ2MIxpjsk Mistakes And Second Takes (x)https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PSHcSZZj2g4&index=5

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Reputation Tour - Minneapolis Night 2 - The Show

I am so extra when it comes to these types of posts so I am going to start with the concert itself (nothing before or after)

Well ok, we can start with the pre-show setlist because it was lit. 

I knew that she played Tequila and Bad Reputation but I didn’t know the rest 

*** disclaimer: I’ve low key been following the concerts, but I’ve mostly been following the B-stage song (and fans reactions and experiences ofc). I’ve looked at the full setlist before but I only knew the first and last song. I had a phase where I would follow along to a lot of an artist on tour and see how each show went but I actually prefer this because it’s more of a surprise, I’ll likely follow more now that I’ve had my show. 

Babe, Selena, Roman Holiday, Curious. I loved when My My My came on and in my head, I was like I’d love to hear strawberries and cigarettes, and what does she do? Play it right after.

This past spring, during my last semester I had both songs on a short playlist that I would play on repeat when I was studying for tests, it got me through. The only thing about listening to them in the stadium is I realized as a college student I listened to a lot of music but I don’t necessarily know all the lyrics to songs I listened to at the time bc I was multitasking. Rip.

I loved that she played Obsessed, I thought that was hilarious, I was into that song during junior high. 

Anyways now on to the concert.

I don’t even know how much I’ll have to say because I was just DANCING AND SCREAMING LYRICS most of the time, like there were certain points where I had to bring myself back to reality because I was so lost in the music that I forgot to focus on Taylor  - Like that tells you that it was a D*** good show. 

ok lets go song by song. 

…Ready for it? 

I wasn’t sure where she was going to come out but WOW WHAT AN ENTRANCE. I loved the fog and ahhhhh

I Did Something Bad

THIS SONG IS POWERFUL

I felt bad bc one of my friends really wanted to come to the show but it didn’t work out and this was the song she wanted to see the most.

Like this song DESERVES to be heard live. Like honestly this entire album the live versions bring it up another level. 

THE FIRE THE FIREWORK 

I can’t

you could literally FEEL the heat from the flames. I wow. 

During the bridge when all of the dancers were lying on the floor as burning witches - it reminded me of the thing Taylor does best, the theatrics. SHE PUTS ON A SHOW. Like idc what people say about Taylor's music, you don’t have to like it, but you can’t say that she can’t put on a show.

This song is such a BA and makes me feel powerful. It doesn’t take any sh**

Gorgeous

We love transitions. SOme of them are cheesy but I am such a sucker for them. I love that the screens show pictures of the Olivia and Meredith. 

Ok so this song took a while for me to get into when it first came out. Now i love it ofc. but like this son also deserves to be heard in concert because it’s fun to be over the top with it. 

Style / Love Story / You Belong With Me

Have I mentioned that I love this woman with my entire heart? One thing that I love about concerts, is how the artist changes the arrangement, and this mashup exhibits that well. 

Like as a fan who has been here for 10 years I appreciate her singing old songs so much. Also Style is wow one of my fav songs off of 1989. 

Ugh IM GETTING SO EMO WRITING THIS SHE MEANS SO MUCH TO ME HER MUSIC MEANS SO MUCH TO ME AND EVERYTHING JUST BRINGS BACK SUCH AMAZING MEMORIES.

She acknowledges the band during this mashup, and bjwailvuke,hrgoiuelakrj,nfwleiaksjbvn IM SO EMO ACTUALLY GOING TO CCRY that was one of my favorite parts of the show when Taylor was leaning against Paul and Amos while they were playing. They’ve been there with her through it all. They’ve stuck around. They could get any job in the world and they stay (my eyes are watering up so much I can’t see). I clapped so hard for them. I appreciate them so much and they deserve all the love in the world. I can’t imagine how emo they get over long live because I get emo over long live referring to them more than anyone else wow. 

AND WOW you belong with me. That gave me Speak Now flashbacks in how the screens looked (she played that song going back to the stage from the b-stage during that tour).

Look What You Made Me Do

I feel like seeing rep in concert just made me appreciate the album 10000 more than before it is so POWERFUL & SEXY. The sound of this song live mixed with the power of the music video wow. This woman OWNS THE WORLD

I didn’t realize that they actually did the phone call during the show but I LOVED being able to scream she’s dead. 

Lol I was so focused on the screen or in my head at some point that I DIDN”T NOTICE THE SNAKE COMING OUT OF THE STAGE. My friend was FREAKING OUT as was half of the audience. I knew about the snake pre show but it was still like wow hi hello. 

End Game 

I guess if there is anything that I was ??????? mildly disappointed with was that this song was so short, I mean like I didn’t know what to expect either because I didn’t expect her to do the rap or ed’s part. This is just one of my favorite songs so I would’ve loved to hear the song for longer. 

King of My Heart

I guess out of the entire show this one stood out the least, but like that means very little because I was still screaming the lyrics and dancing the entire time.

I love the harmonies in this song and it was*sounds of heaven above* to hear it live 

A good transition to the slower songs. 

Delicate

For her speech - I was surprised by how many people hadn’t seen her before but I was just smiling because I was so happy for them.

Also, I don’t remember if this was during this same part or when it was but when she was asking who was from MN and who was from elsewhere - can I just say that I met someone who was from KOREA attending the show. And she had seen it the night before and if that doesn’t tell you the power of music there’s nothing else. 

Ok actual disappointment of the concert. NO ONE BY ME SCREAM 1, 2, 3, LETS GO BITCH I was so sad. And I forgot to tell the friend I was going with about it. The other friend I was hoping to go to the other night did know tho and wanted to do that. But I was like I’m not going to scream profanities is no one by me is so I kinda mumbled off at the end of the phrase. (more like it made me self conscious that I was saying it at the wrong time, but I wasn’t) It sounded like other sections were louder like it was loud enough to be recognized in the venue. But idk if ppl who aren’t part of stan twitter would understand what was being said unless they were by a fan who said it. 

Lol I’ve probably watched more videos of people saying this that of the rep songs pre my show. 

Ok I didn’t realize that this was the song that she goes over to the b-stage with and awwww. I knew it was pretty but it was gorgeous. My friend (who is more of a casual fan but was still hype and singing during the show to everything besides the expected (long live, TTWAS, and should’ve said no) was so appreciative of that part, she was like it felt like she was looking at me. I was just so happy during that moment she makes me so happy. I was one of the few people not waving because I was just taking it all in, the beauty of it all. 

Shake it off

lol the one song I completely forgot was on the setlist I was so surprised. I didn’t realize that the openers were on the stage until they had been on the stage for like 45 seconds. Before my show, I didn’t see many people post videos of this song. And the visuals were so fun and colorful and the confetti.

Also like after the song confetti was flying through the air during the acoustic show and PRETTTY.

After this song was over my heart was beating so fast because I couldn’t wait to hear what the secret song was.

So it goes… 

Ok so this is the part of the show were I got very confused.

So, the one downside of looking at the setlist was that I KNEW that this song wasn’t on the setlist. So I thought this song was the secret song, so ngl I got low key sad even though  ITS MY FAV song off the album (not including singles) (ranking to be posted sooon, idk my order yet, still).

I was still happy to hear it, but I wasn’t able to appreciate as much as I would’ve. I did later tho. 

THE SECRET SONG

The morning of the show, or the night before, someone who had met her night 1 had posted that she had talked to taylor and knew the two options taylor was thinking of for tonight. And I was like ugh I wish she could givea vague hint, that no one would be able to guess, but would make so much sense after the fact. I didn’t want to be spoiled but iwkjbsvk still the part that I was most excited about. (fun fact it didn’t end up being either song that the girl had discussed with taylor)

Taylor talked about people saying she’s been listening to people from all platforms asking her to play old songs. At one point she even said 13 years, and in my head I was like is she actually going to play I’d Lie (DO IT). But once she started describing the song I knew it right away. Lol I recorded the speech beforehand and you can just hear me muttering tied together with a smile over and over again.

I was correct

Tied Together With A Smile

This song has always been beautiful. From 2007 I have always liked it because sonically it’s soothing (I know I’ve been through other stuff with this song but not enough to be remembered). But honestly, doing my album rank the other week made me REALLY REALLY appreciate this song, in a way that 6th grade me wouldn’t have been able to comprehend. I know I’ve cried to this song before, but not in memory of the way I realized it.

This song is me during the end of high school. I always did well in school but suddenly I was struggling and I fell apart. I put so much pressure on myself and I felt like such a failure. It would lead to bad anxiety, breaking down, and later being depressed. And then during my first year of college, I was in a depressed mood state still and I just felt so numb I couldn’t feel anything. 

I SCREAMED THIS SONG. I probably shouldn’t have during the verses. BUT IT DESERVES THAT. This song is one of those songs that you sob to, and honestly, at one point I looked like a wreck during this song because I almost cried. 

I am so happy she sang this song. Like she reminded us to be kind to ourselves. ANd can I cry again? I love her so much. Like honestly this is something we all need to remind ourselves at times. 

ugh what beauty.

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When the show was over I thought we had heard every song from rep, but after research, I realized that she switched dancing with my hands tied with so it goes… Like wow am I happy that I got lucky enough to get to hear one of my fav songs and I got a DEBUT ALBUM song what even. Like rip for 1989 the secret song was mean. for red both songs were really good, but the night that I wasn’t there was just a little bit better. I still love begin again it is gorgeous. But like tied together is a song that SO many fans haven’t heard live before 

(I’m listening to each song while writing this post and Carrie Underwood came on shuffle after this song and I got so distracted, I never realized that I know almost all of her music except her most recent album and few singles)

(now I remembered that I need to listen to troye new album, but back on track. Troye’s album can wait, memories on the other hand only last so long)

Blank Space 

This happened a few times during the show where I just started singing the lyrics but I didn’t know what I was singing. That’s what happens when you know the entire discovery of someone who has more than 2 albums out. 

This was another song that I completely forgot that she was performing. It was fun. The arrangement felt different which I appreciated because it freshens up the song, and for people who went to 1989 it’s not an exact repeat. 

Dress

I

this song has the best visuals and dancing with it.

Everyone was looking at the back screen to get to unedited close up of her but I was staring at the main stage. 

It was enchanting and that’s all I have to say. Beautiful. A Masterpiece. 

Bad Blood/Should've Said No

Lol the snake bring her back to the stage went so fast. Low key felt bad for the people on the other side because I feel like they didn’t get as much time as she went past. 

Based on how hard I went during the concert this was my favorite song. I WENT SO HARD during should’ve said no. 

Boy go home.

This song was such a tease tho bc the music of shoul’ve said no kept playing in the background while she was still singing bad blood. I liked the visuals of this version of bad blood better than the 1989 tour. But I will say that it is one of the songs that stood out during the 1989 tour. During 1989 tour I got that out of this world chance to sit front row middle catwalk during that tour and the next night I won ticket in the lower level. And during the second night the visuals stood out (same goes to ootw).

Wow I want to hear should’ve said no live again.

I heard it during speak now, but wow it went so HARD>

Also I kept thinking of the CMT performance. 

Don’t Blame Me

This song was all about the hand gestures. I love the gospel choir feel of this song. 

Long Live/New Years Day

Lol this is probs the only part of the show I was relatively chill. Because I was just so happy so many memories, so proud of taylor, so happy for her crew band and dancer, and everything was right. Still screamed some of the lyrics of long live when I probs should’ve been quieter (or at least been trying to sing like a normal person)

Why She Disappeared

Ok I was excited for this. This is one of the things I purposefully didn’t watch bc I wanted to save it for the concert. But I must’ve blacked out or something because I remember trying to film it. Then my space filled up. But I barely processed half of it. So I am going to have to go back to that. But I do like the transition - and the story she tells. 

Getaway Car

after so it goes… this is my next fav song off the album. The visuals were very entrancing during this song as well.

She was so cute during this song. She did a little slide. And wow now that I’m watching a video from last night I didn’t realize that this is the only song shes alone on the main stage?? 

Also, I love this outfit. 

wow I love her so much

(now I’m just thinkng of how powerful it is for her to be on stage ALONE in a room over 66 thousand people.)

Call It What You Want

This is the point where I don’t have much to say

this song is also a fav and the confetti she’s so pretty the song’s pretty, she’s in love and I’m so happy for her. The fountain was out and suddenly it was bittersweet. I didn’t want the night to end. 

She laughed during the song. ugh I love those small moments when she smiles or reacts to something. 

We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together / This Is Why We Can't Have Nice Things

GOES AS HARD AS POSSIBLE

This moment is so beautiful. While it’s talking about people that we don’t want to be friends with and we need to let go (doesn’t mean we don’t get upset about it) but we were in a room fill of people all there to have a good time and all there for the same reason

To have the times of their life and to share their love for Taylor and her music

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One thing that really stood out about this concert was how nice everyone was, the warmth felt through out the stadium there was so much love. And wow.

It was such a great night.

I’ve been to speak now, red, 2 nights of 1989, and now one of reputation and this was by far her best tour ever.

Thank you for coming to Minneapolis. I hope you had an amazing night I sure did. 

Music shuffle survey

50 questions

SONG #1: "Long Road to Ruin” by Foo Fighters

1. How old were you when you heard this song for the first time?: 15?

2. What album is it off of?:  Echoes, Silence, Patience & Grace

3. What genre is it?: Alternative i guess

4. What’s your favorite lyric from this song?: "A stubborn heart remains unchanged”

5. Does it remind you of any certain person or event?: not really

SONG #2: "When Love was still around” by Billy Talent

1. Which of your friends would most likely enjoy this song as much as you do?:

I honestly don’t know if Bobbie or Toni would like it. I think Anita would really enjoy it.

2. Is this band your favorite, or at least one of your favorites?: yep, they’re my favourite :)

3. What do you think this song is about?: It’s about a guy having made bad choices that eventually led him to criminal activity and prison

4. Have you ever blasted this song in your car?: I don’t have a car

5. Do you own it on CD?: It’s not a single. I have the album as a vinyl though

SONG #3: "Sliver” by Nirvana

1. What language is this song sung in?: English

2. Have you heard this song on the radio?: once or twice

3. How did you discover this song?: When I first became a fan of Nirvana, I scrolled through more songs of them on Youtube and found that one

4. Would you mind if this song was played at your wedding? no, but then again, it’s not really festive :D

5. Does this song have any cursing in it?: I don’t think so?

SONG #4: "Kings and Queens” by 30 Seconds To Mars

1. How often do you listen to this song?: whenever it comes on shuffle

2. Do you have it on any of your online playlists?: nah

3. Does this song have a music video?: yes

4. Is this a popular song from the band?: yeah i think so

5. Is the band popular at all?: I think fans of the genre will know it

SONG #5: "Sex Drugs Internet” by Xin Kuzi

1. Have you seen this band live? If so, did they perform this song?: I have and yes, they did :)

2. Is this a very well-known song? Was it played on the radio?: I don’t think it’s one of their most famous songs. Never heard it on the radio before

3. Do any of your friends like this song?: no

4. If you could pair up one historical event with this song, what would you chose?: erm, no idea

5. Just going by the title, what do you think this song means?: It’s about how the internet took over and is now as important to people as sex or drugs

SONG #6: "From Yesterday” by 30 Seconds To Mars

1. How long have you been listening to this song?: I first listened to it when I was 14 or 15, so more than 10 years ago.

2. Is this song from the band’s newer or older music?:  old, it came out in 2007, if I’m not mistaken

3. Ever heard this song on MTV/Fuse/etc.?: yes

4. If you went up to a random person in the street and mentioned this song, what are the chances they’d know what song it is?: It’s not mainstream but people listening to emo/alternative rock will definitely know it

5. Are the vocals male or female?: male

SONG #7: "Ich bin korrupt” by Madsen

1. What’s better in this song; the vocals or the actual music?: vocals though it’s the lyrics that do it for me

2. Do you have this song on your iPod/Zune/MP3 player/whatever?: yep

3. Do you have this song downloaded onto your computer?: no

4. How old is the person who sings this?: at the time he was 34

5. What instruments are used in this song?: electric guitar, drums, bass

SONG #8: "Hurricane” by 30 Seconds To Mars

1. What memories does this song bring back?: no particular feeling tbh

2. Was this song produced earlier than 2005?: nope

3. Is this song leaning more towards rock or rap?: rock definitely although there is a rap part

4. What’s a song that sounds similar to this (think of a band that sounds similar)?: Imagine Dragons? Or Linkin Park?

5. Do you own a band shirt of this band?: nah

SONG #9: "Pimentaite” by Happoradio

1. What mood does this song put you in?: motivated, understood

2. Did you ever reference this song for a school paper or in your diary or anything?: nope

3. How can you relate to this song?: I understand the feeling of everything is predestined and there is nothing we can do anyway. But I also like how in the end, it has a positive spin and is like “actually, your decisions do matter”

4. Do you know all the lyrics to it?: no but most

5. Who got you into the band that sings this song?: my friend Tuuli

SONG #10: "Sleep in the Heat” by PUP

1. What country does the band who sings this originate from?: Canada

2. Ever heard this song live? How does it sound compared to the CD version?: never heard them live

3. One instrument that really stands out in this song?: electric guitar

4. Can you play this song on any instruments? If so, which ones?: nope

5. Do any of your family members know this song?: I doubt it

Currently...

This week the sun has been shining, it may be a little cold still but it’s a sure sign Spring is well on its way.

If that isn’t something to be happy about then I don’t know what is.

Listening – I only gave it a couple of listens when it dropped last year so this week I’ve been giving Macklemore and Ryan Lewis’ second album This Unruly Mess I’ve Made another listen. I really like it, but it seemed to disappear from the airwaves pretty quickly. The sunnier it gets the more I just want to play my 2001-2007 pop punk playlists.

Watching – On Sunday I finally finished Gilmore Girls – AYITL and I’m not going to lie, it was a little emotional.  I’m absolutely heartbroken to be saying goodbye to that world and their lives.

Now that I’ve finally finished that behemoth of a show I need to find something new, can anyone recommend anything similar with a large but dedicated fan base?

I’ve also started Big Little Lies, just finished Rick and Morty and can’t decide whether to do Legion or One Tree Hill next.

Special mention to One Day At A Time on Netflix, I love that show.  I like how it tackles certain subjects and stereotypes in its own unique way.

Reading – I’m 15 pages away from finishing Robin Hobb’s Royal Assassin, instead of moving on to the third book in the trilogy I’ve decided to take a break and will pick up Stephen King’s The Eyes of the Dragon in the meantime. I’m also going to finally read Tim Burton’s The Melancholy Death of Oyster Boy which was known as the emo kid’s bible back in the mid 00’s lol.

Gaming – I’m still on Uncharted 3

Vinyl - I’m in the midst of logging our entire collection on Discogs…it’s taking forever.

Blogging – I started the year so well with a set of theme posts and tags and now I’m falling back in to my habit of posting random topics or whatever crosses my mind. My dash just seems to be a constant stream of memes and reblogs and I honestly don’t understand 95% of them…a sure sign I’m getting old and that my time here is coming to a close.

Personal – So yeah I turn 30 at the end of this month and I’ve been dreading it.  I know it’s just a number but I can’t help but feel sad that my twenties are finally coming to an end, apparently I’m supposed to be a grown up by now but I’m not quite there yet.

I need to stop being grumpy about the inevitable and embrace it with a load of fun activities and do something special to celebrate.

Is there an over 30’s club for the OAPs of Tumblr?

Let´s talk about this FUCKING WONDERFUL playlist. It just originally caught my eye because MGK was in the pic but they switch it out regularly I guess^^ It´s like someone created a modern emo playlist and I AMMMM SOOOO HERE FOR ITTTT!!! I listen to it multiple times a day ´cause it´s just so fucking purrrrfect. Before you start the yada yada yes I´m an original emo kid (that old indeed^^) and a lot of the music I asscociate with that time is pop punk. But not just. Sometimes it´s about the lyrics too. To be honest I´ve never been great with labels in music. Of course when we think emo we also think like Bullet For My Valentine and Simple Plan and stuff like that but none of that “heavy” shit is in here. Not that Simple Plan didn´t have some songs that would totally fit in here. They diddddd. But like that it´s just a light hearted new emo wave. From the vibe anyway. The lyrics are heartbreaking/filled with fuck off attitude sometimes. Just like the good old days where we just sat in the darkest corners playing with razorblades *irony off* Someone did throw some retro bangers in there though. Misery Business? Check Yes Juliet? I can feel your nostalgic ass playlist creator. Thanks for that :3 Also how the fuck did the latter just now pop into my orbit??? That song is from 2007 and I would have fucking loved the shit out of it. Reminds me a lot of Plain White T´s early stuff. Let´s get to a few of the songs I keep on constant repeat from this playlist though. Just for the heck of it: FLAMES (of course man, Mod Sun & Avril are just SO DOPE together and I couldn´t be more exited about them being an acutal couple as well*-*), LOVE RACE (big hype girl for MGK anyway, what a cool dude and Kellin - how awesome the hell is he? never been on my radar before), DIRTY (grandson mannnn, the whole dude is fucking amaaaazing, what a lyricist!!! looove the message of this song), KARMA (it´s Mod Sun again but for real allllll of his songs just fucking slap!). But the rest is so great as well. Like there´s no song in this playlist I don´t like. How crazy is that? And so much Travis Barker. Whatever that dude is a part of lately is just next level! I honestly could.not.recommend this playlist more^^ Now go and listen! Ps: Yes I will totally talk about some of these songs individually again ;)