something about house in 4x03 telling wilson i love you right after dying and seeing no afterlife and so drugging and showing wilson what death is like in 8x21 to replicate that experience, but when wilson wakes up from his fake death he just tells house that he believes in heaven, instead of finding himself compelled by life’s love like house did. death made house value life, value wilson. but in that moment death doesn’t make wilson value house. house feels like he’s secondary to wilson’s heaven. like wilson thinks life might be better after death, after house. something about house not wanting to live if wilson hates him. something about him living for a man who’s now refusing to live for him. something about him throwing away his rationality for wilson. for his love of wilson. and then wilson throwing away his rationality for a belief in heaven. something that makes his death less awful for him, but not for house. it even acts against house’s desire to get wilson to truly value him. the first thing house does after nearly dying is tell wilson he loves him. he doesn’t want to hurt wilson in death. he needs wilson to know that he’s living for him. but wilson now doesn’t return that favour. wilson is centring the pain of his death around himself. he says don’t worry it’s fine i believe in heaven!! but house is standing there like what about me bitch!!! meanwhile house’s relationship with the afterlife is centred entirely around wilson. i’ll tell you i love you when i learn there isn’t anything after death (or after you), i’ll choose to live for you despite you hating me (i’d rather be dead than have you hate me), i’ll fake my death and turn you into the afterlife i’ve never until this moment believed in. whereas wilson just believes in this foreign, impersonal heaven. his own dying is about only him. house’s dying has always been about wilson. luckily!! holding on is about wilson realising and accepting just how much he loves and values and needs house. because house has always known. and, whilst he only fully realises the extent of it in everybody dies, house has never denied his love for wilson. but wilson has regularly tried to. he’s tried to reject it to instead prioritise himself. but holding on sees it all bubble over. foreman tells him that the only person he’s consistently loved is house, and that has to mean something. thirteen tells him that house is the only person he wants to spend the rest of his life with. he realises that he needs house to tell him that he loves him before he dies. and then he sees those fucking oreos in his cupboard and goes shit man. he needs me. and i don’t think that’s a bad thing anymore. i haven’t actually just been living for me, i’ve been living for house. if i can’t even look at a fucking oreo without thinking about him then surely. my life is entirely about him. and so wilson is prepared to do chemo for house. to suffer in life for house. but house tells him he doesn’t need to and instead joins wilson in killing himself so that they can live together in death. life has prevented them from being who they want to be. the only life they want to live is one completely devoted to the other. their afterlives aren’t heaven or hell, they’re each other. they turned their deaths into their love for each other. their deaths will exist forever as their eternal love. and like this is canon

this is how all the guys in the terror look to me

f1 teammates jarno trulli and fernando alonso goof off before their visit to renault’s ayrton senna complex — brazilian gp 2003, automoto tf1

"We... I, will avenge him." HAHA OKAY OKAY IM OKAY ALEIGHT OKAY COOL OKAY ALRIGHT OKAY

"sneak peak" of a panel from my comic. sneak peak in quotations cuz like. this bad boy's not getting finished any time soon. lmao.

trying so so hard not to be a hater (lying) and i havent seen the new ep so this is just based off posts ive seen but what do you MEAN sally doesnt kill gabe ….. WHAT DO YOU MEANNNNN

okay first of all was anyone going to tell me that ac/dc is an australian band. and second of all was anyone else going to tell me that they're apparently colloquially referred to as "acca dacca" in australia

favorite local hardcore band is doing a show tonight …… and i cannot go ……… world is a fuck……

Lost 3 years worth of obeyme progress because I forgot to transfer my data before I factory reset my old phone :/

Hey so. I went to the other side of the apocalypse and no one there loved you... Yeah.. Dude, I'm sorry....

in a piss poor mood. do not disturb turned on I do NOT want to receive texts. the very buzz of phone enough to be irritable. truly gone cunt mode I don't have anything left in the tank. listening to terrible country music that's how far we've fallen tonight

Actually the worst thing in the universe is getting to take multiple high level classes where ur allowed so much freedom and flexibility and then having to go back to take a 100 level class where the professor makes it seem like he’ll commit suicide if you name the file on ur assignment wrong.

literally it is so torture that I am not within walking or ubering distance of an underground electronica show or rockish house party show every other night.

TWO very important threads were abandoned that ill never move on from which were 1-Five chose his name, effectively refusing Reginalds favoritism game and sibling rivalry, and rose above it (in his head) and 2-Five got close to Vanya specifically because she was Outside of the ranking game and was unable to either be competition to him or a threat. theyre both so RICH with potential because 1 can be framed in any emotion it can be as victorious or as bitter as you want it to be and 2 sets grounds for THE most interesting relationship dynamic within the siblings because Allison-Luther is winners coalition and Klaus-Ben is losers comradery. but look where we are now. Five's character is still just a cog in the machine. Viktor and Five existing in the same frame is a rare miracle.

can't see fob can't see paramore might as well die i guess

bashing my head against the wall till it bleeds