FELLOW TRAVELERS 1.08 "Make It Easy"

Stills from episode 8 (the last one omg) of fellow travelers!!!!

I have loved you my entire life;

My great, consuming love.

FELLOW TRAVELERS 1.08 'Make It Easy'

promise you won't write. i won't.

THEIR CHEMISTRY >>>>

Just thinking about this scene again. Hawk is so broken here. He's clinging on to life with his fingertips. He's saying, "This is where I am. I need you, but I can't be who you want me to be right now. This is all I can be. Please, meet me here." And Tim realizes that he can do this for Hawk. He tosses everything aside, his morals, his conscience, so he can meet Hawk where he is. Hawk needed Skippy, and Skippy showed up.

I just finished watching Fellow Travelers and oh my god. I cannot stop thinking about the contrast at the end of Tim literally about to die but he's on stage surrounded by his community and he's standing up for what he believes in like he always does and his life has so much meaning vs Hawk walking into his house completely healthy and alive but the house is empty and he has nothing. And also the fact that Tim has no regrets because he always lived as authentically as he could and fought with passion and loved Hawk unapologetically whereas Hawk will always have to wonder what his life could have been if he hadn't shut everyone out to protect his own image. Hawk remains "bulletproof" all the way to the end but that also means that he closed himself off to love and vulnerability and real happiness. And when he finally does start to let his guard down, it's too late.

for a lot of scenes between lucy and hawk there is a parallel scene between tim and hawk that shows how surface level the relationship between lucy and hawk is. a few examples:

lucy was gifted a tiffany bracelet by hawk for christmas while a few scenes before we saw that tim was gifted hawks cufflinks with the initials h.f. on them. hawk gives tim something personal, a part of him while he gives lucy, while expensive and beautiful, something materialistic with no personality attached to it whatsoever.

episode six was full of these parallels. we see lucy and hawk having sex. they're both fully clothed, it's quick and unpersonal. hawk seems to have sex with her that night for two reasons: one, he wants to prove to her that he is, in fact, aroused by her. that he can be the man she needs. he wants to prove to her that he can be that man because he saw her flirting with Chet Stover. he saw them coming out of the house together during the firework scene. hawk is, after all, a jealous man that likes to claim his property. he does not want to be ridiculed by his friends and least of all by his wife.

if we compare that to the several scenes where we see tim and hawk being intimate, we can see a very big difference. first of all they're never fully clothed, this symbolizes that they're open with one another. there are no secrets between them, no barriers holding them back when it's just the two of them. secondly, they don't just "have sex" they're intimate. they play with their kinks, they tease each other; it's about pleasure between them, not about performance, like it is for hawk with lucy.

in episode six we also see lucy and hawk struggling with raising jackson. neither of them know how to talk to him, which results in frustrations on both sides. then we're shown jackson interacting with tim. tim understands jackson, he knows what the boy is going through (because he's been through the same; not feeling loved by hawk the way he wanted to feel loved by him). we get a glimpse of how happy a family tim, hawk and a child (jackson in this case) could have been. how great a team they would make if given the chance. the way hawk shows up differently for his son after his talk with tim, the way jackson opens up to tim and feels understood by him.

lastly, another lovely detail to show the personal relationship between hawk & tim vs the impersonal one between hawk & lucy. hawk gives tim the nickname "skippy" after 0.001 seconds of knowing him, while he keeps referring to lucy as "lucy smith".

i love how fellow travelers shows the hardships queer people had to face in the past. especially because it doesn't show just one story but different one's and includes poc voices!!

This show

is going

to kill

me

FELLOW TRAVELERS 1.03 "Hit Me"

SPOILERS EPISODE 8 !!!!!

Oh, okay, so they're definitely going to a gala next episode (it's so good seeing them together in public 😭)

Probably that guy that Tim wanted Hawk to introduce him to is gonna be there?and they're gonna talk about that bill that has to get passed. They're both so-

We're gonna cry so much next episode for the finale

Jonathan Bailey as Tim Laughlin in First Teaser Trailer of Fellow Travelers [x]