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#everyone calls me a perfectionist and IM NOT TRYING TO BE LOL I don’t know how to gauge what I can or can’t be dismissive of!!!
ruffgem · 2 months
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I hate school so fucking much lol and I always just thought I was taking too many credits but this semester I finally took a normal amount of credits and it doesn’t matter. It’s not the amount of classes, it’s just having any classes at all. I feel like there was definitely a time where I could handle it but not anymore lmfao… this place was crazy. Sent me into my first real and scary panic attack, broke me out in stress hives, ruined my sleep, turned me into a mega hater…. smh. I know it could be a million times worse so I feel bad for complaining but it was not cool. All I can hope for is that my degree and good grades that I damn near died trying to get for literally no reason do me some good in real society tho I doubt it lmao
#like why did I try so hard lmfao…… I don’t need a 4.0 I’m not going to grad school I’d rather kms#I don’t know. I didn’t realize I was trying that hard I just thought that’s how hard I was supposed to try#IDK!!!!#I have never been good at knowing how much effort to put into things my entire life#I give everything 110 percent when it feels like I’m giving it like. Idk. 80 percent#everyone calls me a perfectionist and IM NOT TRYING TO BE LOL I don’t know how to gauge what I can or can’t be dismissive of!!!#it’s hard for me to discuss this problem I have without it sounding like I’m being like ‘omg I’m so smart that I do everything perfect by#accident’#THATS NOT WHAT I MEEEEAAAN#whatever#some people’s mental health issues make their grades tank but I have never had below an A- in my life and if u ask me that is also#indicative of an issue like LOL. if your child is like that then get them help for fucking real#ugh I love my mom and it’s not her fault but when I was a kid I was literally bawling and having stress headaches and canker sores DAILY#after school and being unable to sleep because I was so afraid of going the next day#and she was just like. ‘I was like that too :) it’s normal. you’re just a perfectionist’#ACTUALLY IM SCARED OUT OF MY MIND FOR NO REASON but okay#ok sorry let me just shout out some gratitude tho to the handful of teachers I had who were epic and had swag#I loved them#they didn’t make up for the rest of this bullshit though LOL
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heartofswords · 3 years
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Guidelines
ABOUT THE MUSE
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Name: Senju Tobirama
Height: 182 cm (6″ for you heathens oversea)
Favourite food: fish (the only real way he can be bribed is with good sushi)
Smartass. Like you wouldn’t believe. (He appreciates it in his friends, too, but cannot tolerate it in his subordinates, for he sees it as lack of respect)
Sexual orientation: Gay (but good luck with that)
He has a summoning pact with snow leopards (ok, it’s a headcanon, but you can pry it from my cold dead fingers)
Hopelessly addicted to caffeine (Sleep is for the weak anyways)
Kind of a perfectionist: you either do things well, or you don’t do them. (And by ‘well’ he means ‘his standards’. He will NOT stop until a task is done.)
Helpful timeline by @senjutsunade​ , @minaa-munch and  @konohagakurekakashi
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ABOUT ROLEPLAYING
I’m mutuals only, as I don’t want to clutter my dash, but I’m always open to making new friends! (IMs are open to anyone, feel free to introduce yourself!) → Anyone can send ooc memes such as “questions about the muse/mun”, but only mutuals can send actual rp starters. → Don’t tag me in a starter without being mutuals and having plotted it with me, please.
I admit I don’t quite get the ‘no likes no reblog no personal blog’ policy some people have. I’m an attention whore: please like everything I post, reblog all my headcanons and answers if you want to have it on your blog. Follow me with 13 different accounts, inflate my ego. Just don’t reblog actual RP threads, as my partners might not approve.
I’m picky with OCs, I admit it. Do your best to prove me wrong. Please contact me in IM before sending me starters.
Same for multimuse blogs: I often don’t follow because I’m mostly on mobile and 90% of the times I can’t get a clear idea of your muse(s). If you want to rp, come tell me about your muse(s) in IM!
I prefer 4-5 paragraph and won’t easily do one-liners. I’m too wordy for that.
I’m chat-friendly, feel free to ask for my Discord. Tumblr IM sucks.
I don’t have triggers.
I do death and gore and smut. I’m a creepy little cookie. I’ll tag those with “blood tw” “gore tw” and such. NSFW will be tagged “nsfw”.
If you reblog a meme from me, please ask me one? Pretty plis?
No godmodding.
Shipping: I’m a multiship blog. I love shipping, I think romance adds interesting nuances to a relationship between two people. However, we need to develop chemistry between our muses first :3
This applies to all ask meme of the romance of smutty kind. If I don’t know your muse well and there’s no chemistry, I will be at loss as to how to answer.
I made my icons (yes, I screenshotted 20+ episodes x_x). This is the template I used.
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ABOUT THE MUN
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I live in the time zone of Central Europe, GMT+1. Americans, keep this in mind.
I’m of legal age (28).
You can call me Holly :3 (she/her)
Like everyone, I have a life outside the internet: I have a job, a lot of friends and I’m trying to date (and failing, but who’s counting). I will prioritize real life over Tumblr, as I’ve gone down that rabbit hole in the past and it didn’t go well.
I’m the proud companion to a Bernese Mountain dog, who is without doubt the fluffiest and cutest dog in the world.
I have the memory of a goldfish (I have ADHD. It’s STAGGERING how many of us there are in the RP world LOL). It has sadly happened that a reply slipped my notice and I completely forgot about that thread. Please don’t be afraid of coming to my inbox knocking if I don’t answer for 2  weeks.
I have a penchant for feels and angst. You’ve been warned.
I have a main blog, REDHOTHOLLYBERRIES. That’s also where all my fanart comes from, if you’re interested.
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95825s · 6 years
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cold
member: hwang minhyun
summary: cold and quiet minhyun gets curious of the cold and quiet you :)
genre: fluff (im bad at this omg)
a/n: requested by an anon! so this is really new to this blog because a hwang minhyun was requested and i actually do ong and daniel scenarios HOWEVER i did say i could try to write for other members at my very first post, it’s just that it’s harder for me to write for the maknae line lol also i think it’s a little lacking for this because i’m not used to writing minhyun….. and it’s short huhuhu
hwang minhyun doesn’t know why he is still stuck with these other 10 guys who are twenty-four seven being loud and noisy
while him being the most sane, and quiet, preferably using the word ‘preserve’ is the best one for him
but he doesn’t know why he’s being called cold-hearted and really quiet to most people
like all he does is literally ignoring the presence of other people, and talk as if they’re nothing to him
okay so maybe he’s a little cold and quiet
“hwang minhyun” he hears sungwoon’s voice calling him, his face remains expressionless
“what?”
“say something”
“about what”
sungwoon stares at him in disbelief, “were you even listening to anything we just talked about?”
minhyun shakes his head, casually drinking his cold water while sungwoon sighs
“i got paired up with y/n to do that project we have” sungwoon explains, and minhyun squints his eyes in confusion
he doesn’t know who in the world is y/n so why would sungwoon bring that up to him
the older male sighs one more time, rubbing his temples frustratingly, “i guess you have no idea who is y/n”
minhyun nods his head lightly, his eyes look at sungwoon who is currently pointing somewhere, “that’s y/n and they’re in our class”
“our class?” minhyun grows curious over the new information, he turns to see you, sitting alone at a table that’s a little further from theirs
the way you quietly eat your food while scrolling your phone makes him wonder what’s going through your head
and somehow it ends up him looking at you way longer that he expected
“hey, earth to hwang minhyun” sungwoon nudges minhyun’s arm before sungwoon’s hand waves in front of his face
“are you still staring at y/n?”
“so what’s wrong with them?” minhyun asks, ignoring sungwoon’s question as his eyes still lay on your oblivious self
“they rarely talk and literally ignores everyone… like how am i supposed to do the project with someone like that?”
minhyun stays quiet, still observing your every move, as you avoid the obvious eye contacts with people by playing with your phone
“how about trying to understand them a little?” he suggests, finally turning his attention to sungwoon
“are you serious? i can’t even understand you but at least you talk… a little” sungwoon says, half judging minhyun, half getting frustrated at you
“do you want to switch partners?”
you’re going into the library, for the meet-up with your partner, ha sungwoon, and you really don’t want to meet him to be honest
you dislike the fact that you have to talk with someone and have to act nice when you’re dying of getting out of there
but sungwoon had told you that he has something to talk about and you really hope it’s him wanting to do the project separately
but then you witness someone else waiting at the table that you and sungwoon decided to meet at and you lowkey want to shoo the person away
but all you did is stare at the person who’s head is too focused on the book he’s reading
and you’re waiting for sungwoon to come but he’s like super late and you roll your eyes irritatingly
the male finally looks up and sees you, and you both have the same expression
which is like actually just expressionless
and you both are looking at each other without saying any words at all and the male’s eyes seem like he’s trying to read you (or your mind) and you start to turn around to make your leave
“wait”
and your legs just halt, like you could’ve walk away but you just… stop
“i’m hwang minhyun, i switched my partner with sungwoon so you’re my partner now” the male says, making you turn back to him
your arms cross and your left eyebrow raises, “is that all?”
minhyun becomes silent, obvious that he’s a little taken back by your reply but at the same time he feels intrigued by you
“if that’s all, then i’ll be going” your eyes left his, turning away from him before walking out of the library
minhyun reaches you out on the day when he bumps into you after the library incident, making you grow annoyance by him
you simply ignore him, giving him short answers and move on with yourself, away from minhyun
and it’s odd because you’re pretty sure the hwang minhyun is the same exact kind as you, the cold and quiet
not that you actually pay attention to him though…..maybe
but he suddenly talks average more than you, mostly about the dreadful project that you just want to get over with
and it’s worst when you figured out that minhyun is a perfectionist and likes everything neat
while you just don’t care at all
and you really don’t want to be bothered by minhyun anymore 
until one day ;)
“you’re doing that wrongly” minhyun says, his tone sounds angry but calm, and it’s the nth time you’re tired of hearing him correcting you
“what now, minhyun”
“the paper should be pasted on top, not below” 
you sigh heavily, throwing the gluestick onto the table, before you stand up, “then do it yourself”
you’re about to leave the place you both are currently at, obvious that you’re done with him
but your wrist is grabbed by minhyun, and you try to shake it away from you but he holds you tighter
“where are you going”
“home”
and you feel yourself being pulled and your eyes widen in shock because minhyun really just bring your face so damn close to his
“are you angry again”
“yes. isn’t it obvious” and you move your face away but his other hand pulls you back by the neck to look at him
“what the hell do you want, minhyun” you asks, trying so hard to remain angry, trying so hard to hide the fact that your heart is beating really fast
“i want to finish up the project” he replies calmly, like as if he’s not making you feel things that you thought you would never feel
on the other hand, minhyun is nervous and he has no idea what is he doing or why is he doing this
but he wants to do it because his heart says so, and it’s the first time that he ever listens to the heart instead of his head
“can you do it by yourself because i’m tired of you”
“tired of me?” he repeats, but his lips slowly form a smile and you really weren’t expecting that
and you weren’t expecting your face to feel very hot because of him
and the whole atmostphere just turn quiet and it isn’t awkward at all
instead it feels comforting and warm and you’re so confused with yourself because your stern look becomes softer and you’re just staring at him
and you back your face away from him again, but you go to your seat and stay quiet
and minhyun’s smile never leaves his face and he’s glad that he made you stay because
he likes you
and it’s a first that he’s so curious of someone, and that someone is you even though he just met you
like he finds you being quiet kind of attractive to him,,, and he can just look at you, admiring you when you’re quiet and his heart just flutter whenever you look at him with a question expression
and he just shakes his head, adding another silent to the whole meeting with you
and also you barely converse a lot but he likes that… and it’s weird for him to realized that he’s the one that talk more and he never was that person until he knew you
so he’s looking at you now, that’s pasting the paper on the top like what he had told you but with your face a littler calmer than before
and you both knew something is going on but you ignore it
and hwang minhyun doesn’t want that hehehe
so he grabs on your hand and you get another shock from him and you took your hand away
“what”
“do you know how much i’m intrigued by you?”
“what do you mean”
“you’re the first person to make me feel this”
and you’re so lost, so you ask him with “feel what”
minhyun smiles, “the feeling of wanting to know someone more… the feeling on wanting to care someone… a lot”
and you’re left speechless but your heart feels like it’s gonna burst any moment and you’re trying to remain cold to him but 
you feel the warmth
from minhyun
and you’re blushing, and stays quiet because you really have nothing to say back
and minhyun is fine with it honestly like it’s way better because it means you’re allowing him in
“let’s go out” minhyun blurts out confidently, his eyes stares at you and his lips are still smiling, “you know, after we’re done with this project”
“to eat?”
“to date” he says, and somehow your lips just naturally forms a smile, for the first time, and hwang minhyun is finally out from your list to be cold to
and you both just become that cold yet cute couple in campus to be honest while sungwoon is just so damn confused with what’s going on lol
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warmau · 7 years
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I know u don't rly do shinee but it's my birthday and it as wondering if you could do headcanons for what the members would be if they weren't idols? With maybe some romance mixed in? Your hcs are just rly good but if you don't want to do them then it's fine!!
hsfdc this is late, but i hope it is still ok!!! again, i usually don’t write for shinee but some others actually sent me asks asking for more of these guys and since it is your (quite late) birthday - here you go!!! 
shinee x career!au 
Onew
emergency room surgeon 
is insanely good under pressure and makes quick, good decisions and isn’t afraid of leadership roles. he keeps his whole team well managed and even in life or death situations for his patients - he never gives up on them or jumps to conclusions. if there’s even a one percent chance of surgery saving them, he’s willing to take those odds
looks really REALLY good in scrubs and like all the nurses argue over who’s going to work the ER night shift just so they can see doctor onew
everyone at the hospital assumes he’s a classic gentleman, and ok sure he might dress like one, but then you go out drinking with him and he’s all dad jokes, messy eating, and totally a goofball 
you’re on one of the night shifts at the hospital and it’s pretty dead, just people coming in with the stomach flu and what not so the surgery department is pretty much falling asleep where they stand 
and you’re walking by with some snacks that you brought down for them
and once you get to Onew you’re like “Doctor, are you hungry?”
and Onew gives you this random smile, one that looks way too excited and you’re like ???
and Onew shrugs and then goes “How can I be hungry, when I’m Doctor?”
and everyone around you groans because god how much more cheesy can you get 
but you - you damn near drop all the snacks you’re holding because you laugh so hard you try to use your hand to slap your knee but everything tumbles out of your hands and Onew gives you this shining grin because FINALLY someone has acknowledged his comedian side
and he helps you pick up the snacks and he’s like ‘want to hear another good joke?’ and you’re like yes please oh my god
and he tells you jokes the whole night because no surgeries come in and you end up in tears at how bad, but funny they all are
and when shift changes come along, Onew offers to go buy you breakfast if only so he can tell you more jokes (and you know,,,,,get to know you a little better because hey you think he’s funny and you’re mega cute)  
Key
dog show judge 
know way too much about dog fashion. like way too much. like no one should have this much knowledge on such an obscure topic
is universally feared and respected through the dog show community and anyone who participates is always worried about him because he has the highest standards
loves poodles. has a poodle shaped pen that he takes notes with when studying the contestants
if Key takes a photo with a dog, that dog becomes internet famous
owns 53 different ties all with different breeds of dogs on them
you’re a novice when it comes to dog shows, but your friend really wanted to enter her toy poodle in an upcoming event - too bad she got sick the day of and begged you to fill in
so you’re standing there in line and being judged by a bunch of well….other people with dogs
and your friends dog is dead about to roll over and fall asleep on your shows and you don’t know the first thing about dog show etiquette and you’re just a mess
and when you go up you see this handsome man in front of you whose eyes are piercing your soul and you’re like gulping and he’s like
“Well, what is your dogs name?” and you almost forget your own name when he speaks to you because wow dear god he’s - stunning but you mumble out the dogs name
and Key examines the dog like it’s some invaluable work of art and you see a small smile and you’re like ok ok ok he likes the dog
but then the portion where you have to walk the dog around the ring comes and you’re like trying to get the pup to budge but it wont and you can feel all these eyes on you and you’re like c’mon please,,,,,,
but then all of a sudden your friends dog bolts and pulls you along with the leash and you lose your footing and almost fall face first to the floor
but thankfully someone catches you around the waist, supporting you back to your feet and you look up and Key gives you a chuckle and he’s like
“First time?” and you nod your head, looking at him like a lost puppy and he’s like “You’re lucky you and the dog are cute.”
and with that he takes a hold of the leash from you, makes a clicking noise and the dog follows his commands perfectly as he walks the ring with it
and everyones whispering like oh MY god,,,,Key helped them out,,,, K E Y of all people,,,,
and when the show is over, your friends dog manages third place and you’re happy with that but when Key hands you the ribbon he slips in something else before leaving with a sly smile
and you look down to see a number on a piece of paper and it says ‘third place for a first timer is ok - but call me, and we’ll make that pup a winner.’
is Key asking you out because he thinks you’re adorable or because he thinks your friends dogs is adorable? im sure you’ll find out on your date~
Jonghyun
movie director 
aesthetics, a e s t h e t i c s, A E S T H E T I C S 
“how can such a loud voice come from such a tiny body?”
gives actors acting advice without ever having acted himself but the advice is actual super good tbh he’s very in demand for movies nowadays
loves directing tragedies. he lives for the Drama 
will openly criticize bad script writing and will demand changes if he thinks things aren’t working out
he basically tries to do 23354 jobs at once, but his passion for good movie making is why any movie he directs ends up being a blockbuster
you work on the lighting crew for jonhyun’s latest film and everyone around you is always complaining about him having a ‘stick up his ass’ because he’s a perfectionist 
but you always feel uncomfortable talking about him that way because you know how hard he works and how much effort he puts into things and so most of the time you just don’t take part of the conversation
until one day one of the interns turns to you during break and is like ‘what’s the directors problem? he keeps badmouthing the male lead - but that actor has like ten years of experience. the director is so damn full of himself’
and you want to just keep eating your sandwich but you’re like no Time to Spill the Tea
and you’re like “that actor has ten years of experience of bad acting. he debuted with a movie that was a flop and has only starred in flops since. jonghyun is trying to save his ass from another flop so really we all need to shut it and let him do his job because without him - that actor would probably be done for.”
and with that you excuse yourself and get up to go get some coffee from the refreshments tent but you walk straight into someones chest and you’re like eep- im sorr-
and you look up to see jonghyun and you’re like gfdkhlslfd oh m y god im sorry director-
but he just grins and suddenly puts his arm around you and is like “do you mean that? that im that actors saving grace?” and you’re like oH YOU HEARD
and jonghyun gives you a toothy grin again and is like “you don’t think i need to get off my high horse?” and you like shake your head like “tbh i dont think you were on a high horse in the first place, that actors just on the floor compared to you.”
that makes jonghyun laugh and he ruffles your hair a bit and you blush like,,, what’s he doing,,,,,
and jonghyun is like “it’s nice to have someone on your side in the crew - remind me to hire you again for my next movie.”
he gives your hair another ruffle and you’re like omgomomog he likes,,,me,,,enough to want to keep working with me omomomg
and tbh you can’t help but do a little victory cheer for yourself and jonghyun’s going back to re-read the script but he can’t stop himself from smiling because he’s like “who knew we had such cute people working for us,,,,,” (you. he’s talking about you)
Minho
sports broadcaster 
everyone loves him because he starts off relatively calm and you know he’s making comments about the teams strategy
but halfway into the game he’s pulling his tie loose and yelling into the mic and losing his goddamn mind over a game of soccer
and whenever korea gets a goal he belts out like half the national anthem and is like KOREA 4 LYFE
and he basically gets super hyped and in turn it gets everyone else super hyped and it becomes a party
once ripped his pants jumping up onto the announcers desk and almost mooned every1 on tv,,,,,,beautiful 
you’re his makeup artist and every time you’re like ‘Minho if you sweat a lot the concealer might come off-’ and he’s like ‘ok i promise i won’t start getting overworked’
but LOL that doesn’t last by the next commercial break you have to run over and wipe the sweat of and touch up his whole face
and you’re always grumbling like Minho,,,,you are killing me,,,,,
and he’s always apologetic giving you the damn puppy eyes and you’re like thAT DOESNT WORK JUST CALM DOWN AND DONT SMUDGE UR MAKEUP
but then the next break comes and you’re back over there to touch him up and one day you’re just like “i swear you’re worse than idols who have to sweat when they’re dancing - you’re just here getting worked up over-”
but then you feel his arm come up to touch your cheek gently and he’s like “really, i know it’s hard but im really happy you bare with me.”
and you look at him, a small bit of sweat still apparent over his brow and his deep set pretty brown eyes and you swallow like
oh,,,,,it’s nothing i was just saying that because,,,
and Minho’s lips curl up a bit into a smile and he’s like “after this don’t fix my makeup - just get your things so we can go get dinner.”
and your heart jumps but you’re like gflkgljfe ok 
and the camera man is like we’re back on in 5 seconds and you need to scramble off the set, but then you catch Minho’s eye and he winks and you’re like,,,,,,,,,oh,,,,,,
and you’re like he really is a sweet perso- and then he starts yelling and you can see him touching his face with his hands and you’re like MINHO YOUR MAKEUP GOD  DAMMIT
Taemin 
museum tour guide 
“what did you study in college Taemin, art history?”
“I studied Egyptology with a minor in mortuary science. Do you want me to tell you exactly how it was that they made mummies? I even know the step-by-step intestines extracti-” 
weird facts enthusiast 
refuses to wear the ‘suggested uniform’ of the museum staff which is light and friendly colors he’s fine wearing his black eyeliner, black jeans, and black large sweater that swallows him whole
tells kids about how the god seth murdered osiris and when parents are like isn’t that a bit explicit Taemin is like ‘death is a part of life, they know that - right kids? we all die, isn’t that fun?’
how he hasn’t lost his job is a mystery 
you’re at the museum looking for something fun to do for a freelance project and you’re like trying to gain inspiration from all the cool ancient gods but nothing’s coming to mind
and Taemin notices how you keep scrunching up your nose and writing things down only to cross them out hastily and curmple the paper
so he like comes over and is like ‘Need help? (—-:’ and you’re like sighing like ,,,,, no not re-
but then you look up at him and you’re like in your head like o wait no ur hot and so you’re like ‘yeah!! do you know anything cool about the Egyptian gods-’
Taemin puts up his hands and is like ‘Say no more. I’m the man you’ve waited for your whole life.’
and you’re a bit red like,,, oh,,,w-what and Taemin is like my shift ends in 5 minutes wait here
and that’s how you end up in a cafe across the street where Taemin unleashes the longest explanation of ancient gods that you ever thought you’d ever hear in your life
but somehow it is super entertaining, maybe because Taemin is so passionate or maybe because the topic is actually much cooler than you expected
and Taemin somehow finally stops and you’ve got a whole half book of notes and he’s like hope i helped!!! and you’re like you did more honestly how can i ever repay you 
and Taemin scratches the back of his neck and he’s like ahhh,,,wanna go see this new documentary coming out on King Tut with me? Unless that’s bori-
but you’re like YES let’s do it it’s a date and Taemin is like cracking out into this big smile because usually people don’t want to be around him when he’s geeking out over stuff he likes but you seem so eager and he’s just like before you leave he’s like 
“can i kiss your cheek?” and you’re like omg ,,,sure but why did you ask?? and Taemin is like “Goddess Isis would not be pleased if I didn’t ask you first-” and you’re like hehe cute 
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