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silhouettecrow · 4 months

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365 Days of Poems: Day 10 (January 10th)

Harmonious Anxiety

There is a music inside me

There always has been

When I was younger,

before I knew much of anything,

my fingers fumbled over the keys and strings

attached to my organs

and what came was a cacophony

produced by my movements

inside

I tried to teach myself

how to turn the discordant noise

into something—anything—pleasant,

and sometimes I would stumble

upon notes that fit like a jigsaw,

but mostly,

I made it worse

with a mess of overthinking and insecurity

I learned to leave the music alone

and let it play itself

however it wanted or needed to,

but sometimes the cacophony would return

without my influence

and I would have to intervene,

trying to muffle the sound

and silence the chords,

but I rarely succeeded at that too

Eventually,

someone else—a musician—took my hands

and taught me

how to pluck the strings and touch the keys

to make a melody

that grew into a symphony

with my internal orchestra,

and they taught me

it's impossible to fully stop the cacophonies

but it is instead possible to make my own music with it

until it passes

They were right:

the cacophonies have never vanished,

but I have since learned

to live with them in harmony

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Here's the link to the corresponding writing prompt post

#very much still trying to catch up with posting these #so oof #this poem is very much drawn from my experience with my own anxiety #and this poem acts as a metaphor of how ive learned to cope and live with my anxiety #and the 'musician' here is a mix of the counsellor i had in high school and my girlfriend as they both have helped me immensely #as for what i did on the 10th i kinda have no idea (i was at least a bit sad cos that was david bowies death day)#so oopsie for that #thanks for reading #writing #writer #creative writing #writing prompt #poem #poetry #writeblr #trying to be a writeblr at least #*for #edit: i actually now remember that my girlfriend and i watched more squid game on the 10th

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feuqueerfire · 1 year

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Midnight (2021) Rewatch Live Blogging

I watched this in October 2021 after watching Squid Game and wanting more Wi Ha Joon and thought it was good enough but didn’t stick with me. However, I’m really craving thriller/non-supernatural horror shows/movies with little to no romance right now (very rare for me bc I rarely research for thriller/horror and am always into romance) and the November 2022 What We’re Watching episode for Certified Noonas mentioned it and I was like oh! I should rewatch. Maybe I’ll like it more this time.

lol this turned out to be very spoilery about Strangers From Hell as well, so it’s all under the Read More.

yeah, I remember this beginning. It also kinda reminds me of Strangers From Hell when Moonjo killed the journalist in the car and then called the cops pretending to have stumbled upon the dead body and also made a show of being very affected.

I don’t remember Choi So Jung much, does she die too? Actually something’s unearthing in my memory, I think she gets caught by him and the brother chases down the killer guy while searching for her. I’m kinda remembering the brother hitting him with a chair across the back of the head or something

omg the terrible female boss is the same actress as Jongwoo’s girlfriend’s terrible boss in Strangers From Hell lol is she typecast?

ah these fucking weirdo creepy men die die die! once again, part of the horror is the workplace and its people

well, at least the mother’s boss gives her the payment she deserves rather than tricking her

Tech: A sensor in the car to show what’s coming from behind and how close it is

ah when he runs behind So Jung at 19:40 and we can hear his footsteps and breathing until he disappears from the frame and then it’s just white noise while the camera focuses on the mother because she can’t hear anything while he’s tryna maim So Jung

when she’s tryna open the parking lot door and she can’t hear that it’s making squeaking noises but it gives her away to him ah

oh i fucking forgot bout him pretending to be So Jung’s brother to trick our main character and her mom bc he had the mask on while chasing her and he changed his clothes agh fucker

the cops expecting to be understood while speaking but being like well we can’t understand sign *shrug*

lol once again just like Strangers From Hell, they’re at the police station but the cops don’t fucking know that the killer is the killer

ah shit so the fucker’s looking at Kyung-Mi’s statement or whatever to get her address?

The mom has really good instincts, she knew that there was something off about the killer from the beginning

wtf the murderer so stupid he really doing this at the police station but then again the cops are even more brainless bc there’s another hour of the movie left el oh el

dumbass cops really just let the murderer go lol happy to not have to investigate cuz he was like ‘let’s not make a big deal of it’ and the cop was like ‘oh really? thank you!’

Tech: lights and the little toy playing cymbals whenever there’s lights sound around the house

it’s cool when all the lights are going off and on around the house and we can’t hear anything for so long as Kyung Mi tries to find what’s happening until we see the killer has turned on some sort of alarm so that the lights can’t properly track sound

not her putting her head against the door like girl?

she’s texting the man which is fine to call for backup but why not the cops? Edit: Is it cuz she can’t talk when she called 911? Is there no service where you don’t have to speak?

there’s some stupidity of the characters like any thriller/horror of course

ah rip the man’s gonna leave her to find his sis? oof dumbassery

man the scene of Kyung Mi asking the public for help but everybody being afraid bc of her knife + erratic behaviour + probably her not speaking, and then the fucker stopping that man from calling the cops with ‘she’s my sister’ is so ahhhhhhhhh!!!! D: every time

oh these stupid stupid cops - literally forcibly bringing her to him with no proof that he actually is her sister or that he has authority over her or any concern that literally handing her to him like an object might not be the best idea even if he was her guardian/caretaker whatever considering she’s so against it. not to mention they both have blood on them

the part of him literally looming over her in this crowd and with the theat of death is insane. it’s in crowded public place and yet. reminds me of why I partly love the Strangers From Home restaurant scene - only Jongwoo and Moonjo really know what’s happening and what Moonjo’s capable of even though there are so many people around them who have a different idea of what’s going on

oh lol the memory wasn’t of the brother hitting the killer on the back of the head but the other way around. dumbassery, just catching up while with his back to the killer who’s supposed to be knocked out

I did remember this part quite clearly of her stabbing herself to make it seem like he did it, though I didn’t remember the cops actually shooting the killer to death oof

This was good but like most thriller/horror shows like this, suffered from character dumbassery or frustrations sometimes but generally was good. I liked it though, esp since the main character and her mom were deaf/HoH and they had access to some technology to help their day-to-day life but also showed the shortcomings of society, especially of the police force when it came to communicating.

I liked the use of sound and how we also sometimes couldn’t hear things that the main character wouldn’t hear. I also enjoyed finding parallels between Strangers From Hell and Midnight.

Rating: 6.5/10 - still the same as before

#ep by ep commentary #midnight 2021

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