There's a lot of validity in the idea that older Bakugo is a traumatized pro-hero with major PTSD... but you know what's kinda fucked up to think about? The fact that Bakugo is also a 22-year-old pro-hero with major PTSD even before that, too.

It's almost easy to imagine that things are actually better when he's older (the therapy finally a routine, the trauma long set and on the path to being healed)... and that it's his whole 20s that are spent as a pool of disaster trying to recover from the war(s).

He looks back and barely even remembers being twenty, much less twenty-five or twenty-seven. Barely remembers how little he slept, not at the hands of trying to balance hero work and getting a degree at the same time, but just out of the pure insomnia that came from trying to move on and every nightmare attached.

Hardly ever showering, never shaving (not that he ever grew much of a beard, but the facial hair was definitely there. There's pictures of him on the news with an awkward, grown out haircut and patches on facial hair that make him look positively... immature), barely even eating more than a few protein bars or an energy jelly drink-a day. It's a blur, and his friends are hardly there to pick him up out of it because they're all going through it, too. Somewhat.

It's definitely weird if you meet him during this period. He's not all there, at least, not all of the time. He doesn't really register your interactions, the friendship you extend to him (a younger, or ever older, version of him would've shown you that deep seeded ferocity in response, tried to bite the hand that fed him, even if it were love... but 20s Bakugo... doesn't seem to notice). Even though only one of his eyes is clouded over, the good one never seems to brighten up.

There's definitely moments when the old him shines through: when he's with Deku, when he's in the midst of battle, when he finds out that Todoroki still does a shitty job at chopping scallions. But it's a long time before he's even close to the same, able to step out from underneath the fog of simply surviving and into the sunshine of recovering.

But I think sticking through it with him is worth it.

(It's a weird moment, a happy moment, the first time you realize that Bakugo has changed. That the pouring rain outside hasn't bothered him since he showed up at your apartment. He forgot his umbrella, he's been quite careless ever since the war—wet and shaggy hair frizzed up, cheeks red from cold—but he doesn't seem to mind, with his bare feet up on your coffee table, his eyes gazing out the window. You hand his tea, and instead of gulping it down in one go, letting it burn in his throat, he winces at the heat.

"Tastes like shit," he says, and you laugh because it always does. Just this time, he noticed.)

rip james potter you would’ve loved i can do it with a broken heart <3

*Through the fire and flames of the mountain king, you and your feline friend are still filled with determination.

(Edit: I forgot to add the link.... AU INFO HERE)

last reblog. hasegawa got sold at the ugly depressed lame horses auction for bitcoin (here's how we get a sakamoto-hasegawa omake story)

Rollo Flamme is autistic. I had suspicions about it but after reading his vignette I heard a voice in my head confirming it. God has told me the truth and I must spread the word

He would also be ok with Batman, if he's not his most favoured hero. Oh and he also probably has PTSD and depression. Thanks for coming to my ted talk

the eternal question: is scheduling w friends as an adult That Hard or am I just bad at it

me today 💤

man i hate how much bearing money has on my mental health. like technically it's the applications and effects of it [and its lack thereof] but still. if i had a hundred bucks to buy groceries i would not be nearly as depressed as i am right now, groceryless

if you wanna know how bad i'm feeling, må posted a pic of ethan licking vic's nipple cover and all i wanna do is go to bed

can't wait to eat my frozen burrito after work!

I really don't think I'll ever write a better romantic moment than 'curry-is-a-metaphor-for-love'

promise i’m not ignoring anyone!! had a long day and running on very little sleep. social energy is lower so i’m just vibing with some creative stuff that comes easy.

things should be more free for me to circle back to once i get some stuff done in the morning. fgdfhghj

also anyone worried i may have missed out or skipped them in my whole rampage to see what threads are being kept/tossed/paused and talking with new peeps on starting stuff: i’ve gotten through most of my list (which is really just the list of threads i keep, people i’m talking to as a reminder to reply and then me going through my followers list to reach out) so chances are you’re in the last chunk i’m getting to. if for some reason i still haven’t gotten to you or you’re worried still, you can just tap me. i’m trying to be considerate in catching up so if anyone feels not gotten to, just tell me!!

trying to write a character who’s starving and had him like literally rip apart bread. immediately realized that is just how I eat bread

IT’S FISH DAY IT’S FISH DAY IT’S FISH DAY

back from therapy! feeling incredibly depressed but on a brighter note my fucking therapist in college with her friends played soul calibur 2 AKA one of the best games in the franchise i grew up on. would have sweetened the deal if she had also played SCIII but like 2 is so good too that i cant be mad. just the funniest fucking thing to run into because most ppl don’t really know soul calibur much so that was really exciting

thinking about how fucking ass backwards society is going is making me want to throw up