My words woken up, talking about art,ai,dyingworld

this is the only cat that visits us heh

Its finally started to get cold here.. idk if there's a normal to get back to, or to be anything at all, what drive to put out towards anything when my soul is barely fueling me to live through the day. Seeing death, dying, murder, and feeling even more helpless to stop it or do the least thing, and wondering why I'm spared but to only live in isolation, cut off from the world and have debilitating fear of people and/or social interactions that rules the majority of my consciousness, no matter how I try to conquer it.. even knowing it's something long should have been diagnosed..

I was, and maybe still, heavily depleted by the casual use of ai renderings and it feeding on the legal and the illegal alike. It's only goal, in my eyes, is to feed the rampage of consumerism, while continuing to diminish the general value of art and it's effectiveness in life, or still demand it by less of it's labouring value. Not to mention how they gather data of their users and somehow have a right to use those info and their likeness however they like. And the worst of it I seen it used to make fake information, convincing looking or not, that's what we totally need more of in this world/s

It was another 'why bother' looming over me for months, I try to shoo off with continuing to post.. and every wordless post is me having enough of it all, even tho the whole time I'm drawing it I'm bursting with things I wish to say..

I know it's all the more reason to resist by producing and expressing more as nothing matter in art than expression, in my eyes, there's a human intent behand that line and that what gives it real value, even if that line was random. A person who picked a tool and felt the need to create something, it makes me wonder, always wonder how they were feeling drawing it, their conditions, their wishes, even if what they are thinking negates the subject of their artwork, as art, only art can allow us to experience more than reality can offer, or help make a reality realised.

My art always was tied with the deep rooted feeling of my need to express emotions that I could not express or show, a comfort zone of daydreams of a better life or a wilder fantasy of one, ideas I could not reveal to anyone, innocent basic ideas, and suffered greatly every time I was spotted drawing from all kind of abuse, because it was "religiously" forbidden. And that's only a small portion of the trauma that was inflected on me in the name of religion— but more like, general illiteracy and ignorance..

I was so afraid to use it and still do but something inside me just sparked in my heart, after all the tears and prayers for them, a candle lit inside me, and I used my art in a place I fear cuz the bigger picture matters..

I'll use it to be okay too, I'll use it to be the Mani I wish I can, I'll use it to create the unisex fashion I crave, I'll pour into it the bromance and the platonic love I'm full of, I'll use it to draw all the fun naughty junk that makes me hide away in ugly giggles, I'll use it to make fan fictions of characters that their companies are anti anything human beings and make them the best pros.. because I'm still alive and I'm still able to make it.. and that's better than doing absolutely nothing, even if I'm still living as a phantom

I wish you all the best of the best, always

A bleeding world #earth #world #bleedingworld #change #dyingworld #art #artist #sketch #sketchbook #draw #drawing #bleeding #blakeryder7 #artforever #artistsoninstagram #artofinstagram #artoftheday https://www.instagram.com/p/CPR0KwwLhyc/?utm_medium=tumblr

It’s difficult to keep yourself together under a crumbling world #illustration #digitalart #digitalillustration #digitaldrawing #digitalartist #digital #procreate #oc #originalcharacter #sugarskull #2020 #dyingworld https://www.instagram.com/p/CDFmmhQA0_F/?igshid=1mhgz1vcasw6j

So, are we gonna ignore that the amazon rainforest is burning for 3 WEEKS (and for a long time already) ?

#books #reading #buenocorderoadventurasdeèl #shutup #dyingworld #wow (at El Pueblo,Ponce PR) https://www.instagram.com/p/CCjfv2lnWW3/?igshid=1uvinop6wpg9t

"Last Time" The final concept for my latest mural in San Francisco California The figure is representative of the living earth slowly being constrained by the ever consuming fade of healthy sea and land of our world. The bird is the Red Tailed Black Cockatoo, an endangered bird of oceania and the sea creature is the Vaquita Porpoise, a rare endangered being of the pacific ocean. the legs are the legs of the giant octopus, another endangered being of the pacific ocean. How long will we watch the world burn and dry up around us sipping away at the fruits of what we have caused? #endangeredspecies #vaquitaporpoise #redtailedblackcockatoo #chakana #giantoctopus #dyingworld #muralart #acrylicpainting #artoftheday #streetart #sanfrancisco #missiondistrict @seawalls_ @pangeaseed (at Mission District, San Francisco) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1pGOVbAhEs/?igshid=1inn350mt5c75

A ver si os concienciais y empezais a reciclar de una puta vez ya! Ostias!! #animalicos #animals #trash #plastic #dyingworld https://www.instagram.com/p/BumKZUBgDK9/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=du01l1mpbkpp

What are you living for? Are you living for the kingdom? Are you living like you're living for the kingdom? Are you even trying? Gods word commands us to help those who are in need. I sometimes sit with this homeless lady, Amanda, my sister in Christ.  Please don't think I am saying this to show off or think that I am better than you because I really am not. We are all sinners saved by grace. It just breaks my heart seeing people walking past the homeless, without even smiling or anything. Like you could at least offer a smile. Being kind doesn't cost a thing. Even today I say hi and hardly ever get a hello back. I smile at others but they don't smile back. It's really sad to see the world we are living in can't even show the smallest amount of kindness. As followers of the truth, we should be setting an example, we are the light of the world. It is our responsibility to show the love that saved us. #jesus #kingdom #God #showkindness #smile #evenwhentheydontsmileback #makeadifference #dyingworld #light #love #nature #heaven #photography #sunset #beautiful #preachtoallcreation #homeless #christian #reachout (at Auckland CBD)

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🌧️- favorite thing to do on rainy days? so cute question .          i like to sleep... watch youtube videos, play video games, and lay in bed.. and drink tea, have soup or  hot coco!! i guess my ideal rainy day would be doing all that kind of stuff with my friends...i like rainy days :D

🍭- how tall are you? im only 5′4  -_- ............like not short enough to be cute short but not tall either. so lame....

🎶- favorite song right now? DIFFICULT QUESTION right now ive been playing formations from hypnospace outlaw  on repeat.. but the other song thats been keeping me going is as per usual dreams come true by black dresses............i love when they write songs about gathering the will to live in a dyingworld... its important to me

THANKS SO MUCH WREN u are a very valued mutual andi hope oyure having a super lovely night.

The World — feels Dusty When We stop to Die — We want the Dew — then — Honors — taste dry — Flags — vex a Dying face — But the least Fan Stirred by a friend's Hand — Cools — like the Rain — Mine be the Ministry When thy Thirst comes — Dews of Thessaly, to fetch — And Hybla Balms — #emilydickinson 🌎🌍🌏 When we are able to find the way to minister to the dying we show them The Way to living forever. #dyingworld 🌏🌍🌎#ihavecometogiveyoulife 🌱 #differentkindsofdusty #differentkindsofdying #choosewisely

♛#SaliAndTheFiveKingdomsPromo ♛ Release & Review ~ Sali and The Five Kingdoms by Oumar Dieng @odieng #Survival #DyingWorld #DormantThreat ♛ PURCHASE TODAY ♛ Amazon: https://amzn.to/2Lj2upd ibooks: https://apple.co/2sE7ahE Kobo: http://bit.ly/2LjEVwy Nook: http://bit.ly/2MfDGin ♛ ABOUT THE BOOK ♛ A civilization is threatened, and she may hold the key to the world’s survival... As a child, Sali watched her mother vanish into thin air. Despite knowing what she saw, no one believed her—including her family and the police. Years later, she receives an anonymous note, hinting at her mother’s whereabouts. Unexpectedly, Sali is pulled into a dying world where she meets Yakhar, a young man who is next in line to rule over Centaura, a world of five kingdoms. A world that seems strangely familiar to Sali. But the looming death of the planet has unleashed a dormant threat. Together, Sali and Yakhar must convince the council of elders to change a centuries-old law to defeat a race of powerful beings, or Centaura, and Sali’s mom, may be lost forever. * * * * * * * * REVIEW This is my first read of Oumar Dieng and i decided to buddy read this story with my fifteen year old daughter. Sali and the Five Kingdoms is a YA read aimed at Thirteen plus age range. I would say that i agree this book is definitely for the younger fans of YA/Fantasy reads. It was a good fantasy story, easy to read with an interesting concept. For me there were times that i found the story to slow down. This is why i think it is more for teenagers, but the writing is good. I think the younger generation will enjoy this story. Freya my daughter, found the story interesting and really liked that the story centred around a young girl. A girl who never gave up the search or belief that her mother was alive. She enjoyed entering the different world and is looking forward to seeing where Sali is going to end up next. @thenextrealmpr @thenextsteppr

It’s a bit difficult to keep yourself together under a crumbling world #illustration #oc #originalcharacter #sugarskull #illustrationartists #art #artist #dark #dyingworld #2020 https://www.instagram.com/p/CDFmVHOgyZZ/?igshid=172936y0qrnym

#Choke When will our 'esteemed leaders' finally put our health first, and billionaires' profits last? #poetry #pollution #dyingworld #poison #poetsoninstagram #writersofinstagram #choking Image from pexels.com

The kid says, "there's a hole in.." i finished her sentence tangenting with, "the bottom of the earth.." and continued with the rest of Dying World to her blank stare. #subhumans #punkrockdadtangents #dyingworld #spiderlegrecords #dadyouaresoweird

Death is not the real loss,it's what dies inside of you while you're still alive within the soul #emptyworld #dyingworld #sinfulworld #devilslie #temporarysituation #almightygodoflove #isthetruth #answer🌷🌸🌺🌹🍁🍂🌻🌼💐