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Or: the childhood friends au:
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Roier doesn’t remember a lot of his childhood, but he remembers enough to know that he was a bit of a little shit. He was a problem child. He probably has the outline of a shoe tattooed onto his back after all the shit he got up to as a kid.
(R-01 gets one hour of supervised outdoor time every day to keep him from getting sick. He sits beneath the big oak tree in the facility’s enclosed garden, and he lets his fingers twist in the grass beneath him.
[The grass isn’t real, but he doesn’t know this yet.]
He sticks his tongue out to catch the sunlight, all of seven years old and unsure as to what sunlight tastes like.
Abuelo stands by him complaining, but all R-01 hears is static.
And then there’s a rough hand yanking him to his feet and dragging him back into the facility. Apparently, according to Abuelo, someone has managed to sneak into the facility.)
But it’s fine, really. Roier doesn’t need to remember his past to know who he is, and he knows who he is. He’s Roier! He likes tacos and kissing men.
In his sleep, Cellbit rolls onto his side and latches a clingy arm over Roier’s waist. He snuggles close, face burying itself in Roier’s shoulder with a pleased little ‘Mrrp!’ noise. His tail brushes against Roier’s thigh just once before settling down.
Roier smiles into the night. There are dark circles under his eyes and a sick feeling in his stomach and a gnawing something in the back of his mind.
He can’t sleep. Which is kinda funny, really, considering he’s usually the one asleep clinging to his overworking husband.
(R-01 stays in his cell for days listening for the jingle of Abuelo’s keys, but all he hears is the familiar screaming of the duck in the room next door. Must be her feathers again.
With a sigh, R-01 paces to the other side of his cell. She’s loud!
That’s when he hears it: a soft sobbing from the cell next to Roier’s. Not the duck, she’s loud. This is quiet, and there isn’t any quacking.
R-01 gasps. Someone new!
“Hola?” he dares whisper, not too loud ‘cause he doesn’t want to get in trouble, but he doesn’t like crying. It’s illegal. Abuelo doesn’t like it.
The crying stops. Then something taps at the wall right next to Roier’s ear. Another tap, and another, and it’s code, right? It has to be!
R-01 isn’t very smart, Abuelo tells him this every time they do their lessons, but he’s got this! If it’ll keep his new neighbor from crying and getting in trouble, he’ll solve this… this enigma!)
Richarlyson is with Bad again, and Pepito is staying with Quackity again, and Cellbit is asleep. So it’s just Roier and his thoughts and the distinct lack thereof that he’s trying to find somewhere in the mess that is his silly goofy little brain.
“You’re thinking,” Cellbit suddenly grumbles, jolting Roier from his thoughts (and the distinct lack thereof.) His voice is thick with sleep. Adorable. “Stop thinking. That’s my job.”
“What? You? Thinking? No way.”
Roier shifts in bed until he’s on his side facing Cellbit. Cellbit moves with him, pulling him fully into his arms and melting as Roier’s fingers find their ways to the hair at the base of his ears.
“Go back to sleep, gatinho,” Roier says.
Cellbit purrs at him in mild disagreement.
“What’s wrong?” Cellbit asks. He’s only halfway awake, but at least he cares.
(R-01 slowly manages to figure it out. He uses his mandatory arts and crafts time with Abuelo practicing his alphabet with colorful finger paints that make Abuelo sneer in disgust every time R-01 uses them on his own face.
His neighbor is talking to him, and it’s a secret. R-01 is basically a spy!
Every tap is a letter, he thinks. So two taps means “B”! Easy.
So, while Abuelo is busy with the duck, R-01 sneaks to the other wall and taps out a “Hola!”
The response is immediate and a bit too fast for him to be able to get, but he hears seven taps and then one tap and that’s “G” and “A” and there’s gotta be more, right? What words start with that?
Hesitantly, R-01 taps out: “MEOW”.
The duck screams. The neighbor laughs. The guards outside start shouting and banging and shooting. Footsteps come down the hallway, and then they say, “No.”
And then it’s quiet.)
“Nothing,” Roier lies. But, well, it’s only sorta a lie, right? Nothing illegal. Marriage-illegal.
“Okay,” Cellbit simply says, and then it’s quiet.
He purrs, rusty from exhaustion.
Roier pets him idly, eyes shut tight.
“It’s just…” he slowly says, “Bagi isn’t a cat hybrid, is she?”
Cellbit’s purring stops.
(R-01 wakes up on the table this time. He screams as the bear’s scalpel cuts into the skin beneath his eye, squirming in his restraints.
“No,” the bear simply says.
It’s the mean one, the one with the knife. R-01 doesn’t like this one; it’s the one he heard outside of the cat’s room. And he hasn’t heard from the cat since.)
Roier doesn’t remember much of his childhood, but at least he remembers having a childhood. Cellbit doesn’t have that luxury. It’s kind of his whole thing at the moment, working through his assloads of trauma one tiny little baby step at a time.
All Roier knows, and all that Cellbit knows, is that Cellbit crashed onto the island with cat ears and a tail, and that Bagi is totally and entirely human.
“But maybe you just got the furry genes,” Roier suggests.
He feigns a yawn and scratches the spot between Cellbit’s ears he knows makes Cellbit turn to goo, and goo does Cellbit become.
“Guapito…” Cellbit sighs.
Roier cuts him off with a ‘Shhh.’
“In the morning,” he promises. “I promise.”
“Mmmm,” Cellbit agrees, as smart and as well-spoken as ever. “‘Kay.”
Roier smiles, more genuine, and he kisses Cellbit once before at least trying to relax. It’s fine, right?
(R-01 gets one hour of supervised outdoor time every day to keep him from getting sick.
He waits until Abuelo isn’t paying attention to stretch his hand up towards the sun.
The duck is gone. They’re still looking for her. And R-01 is still looking for the cat.
The garden is surrounded by four walls, but there’s no ceiling. Just the open air, because ducks can’t fly. No risk of escape.
But spiders can climb.
Squeezing one eye shut and sticking his tongue out in concentration, R-01 points his fingers at the top of the nearest wall like how he thinks a superhero would. Because he is a superhero now!
The web comes out as painfully as ever, but all R-01 cares about is the wind against his skin as he’s pulled out of the garden and to freedom.
Abuelo is angry and shouting down below, but who cares? R-01 is a superhero now! They made him one, and he’s got a kitty to save somewhere!)
[Cellbit’s parents used to chastise him and his sister, telling him, “Curiosity killed the cat!” But Bagi had always argued that, well, so what? They aren’t cats! They’re people!
But then the bear said the same thing as it stuck the IV in Cellbit’s arm. And Cellbit thought of the dead little girl with rabbit ears he found in the woods, and the dead little boy with the bird wings, and, at the ripe old age of eleven years old, he cried as he realized how big of a mistake he had made.]
#a.d.'s fics i suppose#a.d.'s fics i suppose.#dunno how I feel about this one tbh#I just wanted the idea down yk?
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I reject the basic assumptions of civilization, especially the importance of material possessions!! :3
#Dunno how I feel about this one tbh#i drew this based off a drawing in my sketchbook and i feel like the style doesnt transfer over very well#but alas we cringe on#fight club#fight club fanart#soapshipping#tyler durden#the narrator#my art#digital art#digital painting
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wanted to take a crack at drawing one of the dragons so here's Dinraal
#dunno how i feel about this one tbh#i guess we'll see if i violently hate it in 24 hours#the legend of zelda#botw#tloz#artist#breath of the wild#dinraal
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Today’s prompt was Photograph :]
#purples art!#my art!#mine!#fanart!#tpoh#the property of may#tpoh hero#dunno how I feel about this one tbh
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Man I love litwtc’s new mascot
#cw suggestive#I think#charlie stfu#shitpost#digital doodles#life in the world to come#litwtc#litwtc fanart#chris dunne#should I even tag this one as will wood?#I feel like if I do some poor will wood fan who has no knowledge of this podcast is gonna stumble upon this and get so confused#tbh that’s how I feel everytime I tag will wood in a litwtc post#but idk there’s just something about this specific post im about to post#that makes me think ‘I dunno…. maybe I shouldn’t use the will wood tag for this one.’#eh fuck it#will wood
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Man, I know no one really talks about Ken's SL for obvious reasons, but I forgot what a gut-punch his rank 1 is. Like... this is just a kid. The way he's wolfing down food implies he probably hasn't been eating well, and if that isn't sad enough, he hits us with this shit.
This is RANK 1. It's such a little thing, but at the same time... it's such a genuine regret. It's been two years, and the older he gets, the more he's understanding how much she did for him and what he lost.
#Going through P3P with a friend to prepare for Reload and tbh I only mostly remember Shinji's SL oops so this is fun revisiting#I dunno man! I love my Justice kids and i feel so awful that Ken was handled that way in FeMC route.#We decidedly ignore that path and stick with the big sister vibes here.#It also kills me because this being Rank 1 implies that he was always kinda ready to talk about his mom and his feelings about it#but he never really had the chance to be one-on-one with someone with it. i dunno but it's just so different than how he is at the dorm.#obviously Main Character has that effect on everyone but still.
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Drew Kale in my sketchbook and decided to draw him digitally
#myart#Hi-fi Rush#Hi-fi Rush Kale#Kale Vandelay#Tbh I've been struggling to draw lately#But I was able to complete this Kale drawing which I'm quite proud of#It's kinda crazy thinking about how I first drew him and this drawing#I feel like I'm hella inconsistent in drawing him XD#There are changes and improvements :) me thinks#I'd like to imagine he made this face towards Chai#Dunno what Chai did or said but it did aroused Kale in some way#Enough of my blabbering#I hope yall have like this one and have a good one <3
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#that's 2 of 3 partys in my moms honor down. this one was our childhood neighbor friends#which it was really good to see them but it was really just a party. no one really talked about her at all. the subject was avoided#i think bc ppl r awkward abt it. like im fine to talk abt it. it happened. i dont see a point in avoiding it#but im also not the most socially adept. which i did pretty good talking to ppl but i was still the most awkward one there#and idk this experience has really taught me that u should have a lot of friends and a spouse bc i dont kno how a person like me could go#thru what my mom did and survive if i didnt have my dad. so i guess i have to con someone into marrying me#id b difficult to marry. im difficult to b friends with. im too avoidant of any people#im gonna die like that lady from 6 feet under with no friends. like a fridge fell on her or something. idk#but i cant die bc my dad cant go thru this again. i dunno. well see what life throws at me#also. my childhood friends r a lot of real smart ppl. like a lot of engineers and medical doctors#they make me feel so dumb. but alas. im but a humble environmental Science person#ay. i dunno. it was fun but im drained#and my cousings boyfriend is still a fucking freak who harasses animals. he really upset one of our dogs#my sister says she can imagine him murdering someone and tbh so could i. so i hope my cousins safe#unrelated
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when people complain about getting like, a 98% grade on something because it was "so close to perfect" its like. i understand what you're saying on a technical level. but that is a line of thought so far away from my experiences and ways of thinking that i do feel like im from another planet. 100% isnt even a real number to me
#i kinda understand when its something like a multiple choice test or something where there is an objective answer#it might feel like u got so close but just missed one#again still a bit alien to me because my scholarly performance is mysterious and anything over 70 is great to me#but i mean ive had a 98 before once in a math test. i did get exactly 1 bit of 1 question wrong#but i didnt really care that it was one off from perfect i was too busy being happy because that was the highest mark id ever received#and the previous math test i had taken got a 53% . grade 11 was a wild time for me in math class GHJKSHFKds#anyway i kinda see where ur coming from with stuff with right or wrong answers like that#but i sometimes get friends in class complain that they got a 95 or something on an art assignment#because they think they got docked 5 points for one or two little things#but i dunno. thats not really how fine arts departments in university tend to grade things#you dont start at 100 and get docked marks for things you got wrong. i dont think ive ever seen a 100% on something like that#tbh the numbers are a little arbitrary i find. i do prefer to try to get em higher because that helps with grants and stuff#but the numbers dont mean all that much in fine arts or in art history (my two majors) a 75 and a 95 can function the same depending on lik#weighting and context and feedback and whatever. i dunno its a wild world out there#it might just be the perspective of someone who did really goodbad in school. (GoodBad (tm) its when ur good but also kinda bad at school!)#compared to someone who got a lot of perfects in mandatory schooling. i sympathise i really do that kind of pressure sounds insane#but while i sympathize i cant really empathize as much unfortunately with this specifically orz its a world very far outside my purview!#100%s arent real to me so they never cross my mind to be worried about LOL
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so a lil heads up!! that i will probably be very scarce/quiet until monday! despite my efforts to juggle everything, this weekend is just busy and it's got me pretty tired. thank you for being patient with me and pls have a very lovely pre-halloween weekend!!
#on a side note i devoured the second book in the shadow and bone trilogy and it's got me YELLING!!!!#kinda sorta wanna add nikolai but in classic bel fashion i feel the need to read everything involving him before i ever do that#and i found out this guy's got a duology?? haha : ) i'm about to run through ruin and rising so quickly#the guy is just my kinda character -- someone who changes their personality for each situation and hides their true thoughts??#sounds familiar :' ))#i also wanna make an oc but i dunno!! tbh as much as i love the series i wouldn't know how to even enter that fandom#bc no way am i making a whole other blog when i know i can barely manage one asdfg#and my attempts to enter a non anime/manga fandom didn't go very well this last time with my multi#don't really wanna repeat the experience tbh uvu#ANYWAY sorry for rambling in the tags so much asdfg i'm just maybe a little or a lot hyperfixated on the grishaverse rn :' )#definitely a comfort when i've been so tired lately#get ready to ramble | ooc
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*threatens todd with a bat* there is a good game hidden beneath all this jank todd i can see it. why did you insist on adding all these empty planets everywhere todd? why?! why the forced focus on exploration when we already always wanted to explore your games without you forcing us?!
#saskia plays starfield#i had a lot of fun last night tbh#i started the uc questline and i was pleasantly surprised how the quests where written tbh#i had a lot of personal conversations with my companions which i loved! her background and some perk she has coming up during dialogue#i did the mantis quest which was awesome#just! yesterday was great#but today. god so many instances where i was just dissociating through them loading screens again#counting damn sheep until my protag finally managed to walk 8787m through an empty planet to reach some quest area.....#it feels like im doing work sometimes which is not good#just. there is so much where im like ''god i cant wait until there is a mod for that'' dunno man. rather would have bugs rn than that#the beginning is so slow and then it becomes good. just to be constantly disrupted by its flaws#and dont get me started how unfortunate it is that new atlantis is the central hub and first impression the player gets of the game#the blandest city i have encountered yet#there are just. a couple things where i just dont understand what toddy and co. where thinking#actually i do understand but i wish it was different. oh well#sorry about the rant if anyone is reading this lmaooooo#i just hope tomorrow will be a good starfield day again. i paid enough money for this damn game#just imagine how this game could be if it where all on one map like bethy games usually are. i cannot imagine i would rant about it
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My apologies for being kinda quiet today.
#tbh things are#not good for me mentally right now#just a haha funny brain moment#but just hit me that for the first time#I'm not going to have my granddad call and wish me a happy birthday#i got 26 years with him and that's more than anyone can ever ask#but...#that man raised me#sure my parents were around#but it was my grandma and grandpa who raised me#they were the ones i lived with after my parents divorced#and i feel like i should be over my mourning#but i think about him every now and again and i have to push it out of my mind#because it helps nobody if i just...#break down#but i know that it's not healthy to pack my shit away all the time#it's not a good thing to compartmentalize all my emotional turmoil to deal with later#ah...the mind is a funny thing ain't it#i dunno i always figured that he'd be here to see me get married#but things don't always work how we want em to.#i miss him#i miss him and my grandmother so much
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You asked for some serious tea, and I'll give the favour back. What about Anders and Meredith? :3
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Oh boy, getting right to the meat huh? xD (ty for the ask!)
Anders
First impression: "Lmfao. Already love this dude." I saw him first in Awakening and i still love his character intro there so much fjsdljdfl. His animation/body language and the "wans't me." when the Warden runs into him is very fun.
Impression now: Literal embodiment of poor little meow meow. Kind of an ass but one of the most intriguing characters in the series. The fandom does him dirty by woobifying him
Favorite moment: Well again, love his DAA intro lol, but his DA2 intro also kicks ass. The way he's immediately ready to throw hands if sb threatens the clinic... kind of sad, really, but also very badass
Idea for a story: .. wish i had one :') Would love sth about his youth and his time in the Circle & with Karl, or his POV in Amaranthine.
Unpopular opinion: I do not like his romace. And before yall come at me fkldjsl, i mean it as in, i don't like how it is framed? Like. I think the romance is super intense and intriguing! But imo it does not feel healthy at all in the way that it is portrayed (especially the rivalmance, but i have gripes with rivalmances in general), and I wished the games would treat it more as "Anders (and potentially Hawke) are Very Unwell and not treating this relationship the way they should, rather than "this is fine :)"
Favorite relationship: Justice! For obvious reasons, i am sure xD Truth be told i am not the person to turn to abt meta or hcs about them, but i do love
Favorite headcanon: As said above, basically anything to do with him and Justice. Absolutely love seeing different interpretations of how they interact post possession. Also sth that is practically canon to me, but i love the HC that Hawke (regardless of romance) lets him stay at their estate for refuge, and/or lets him use the expansive basement as an extension to his clinic (ik the entrance being right beside the clinic doesn't make much sense lol, but also: Kirkwall canonically has elaborate tunnel systems under the surface, so why shouldn't there be one that leads up to the Hawke estate?)
Meredith
First impression: This is the bitch??? Who allowed you to have a badass intro ftw. More composed and polite than expected. (re: her Actual Intro Scene, i know she's present behind the scenes right from the start)
Impression now: Love to hate her. Themes. Narratives. Still a bitch tho.
Favorite moment: Well. Her intro was cool xD DA2 has a way of doing that. Also cannot deny that her going batshit with that red lyrium and animating the gallows statues was pretty damn cool.
Idea for a story: Meredith POV from anywhere in Act 2 onwards. Yes it's easy to assume what she was doing and why but i wanna Know. I wanna look into her brain.
Unpopular opinion: Hmm dunno if i have one? Idk if this is unpopular but i think the very direct and very personal power she has over Hawke and their immediate surroundings makes her feel more threatening than either Loghain or Cory
Favorite relationship: Well. Hawke. Unsurprisingly xD Biting them like a chew toy.
Favorite headcanon: Hmm drawing a blank on this one rn x'D Might come back to it when i think of one dsfjdf
#anders#meredith#had a couple candidates for unpopular opinions for anders oops#ask game/ my answers#one of them being how the fandom interprets his and fenris relationship bc that always irks me a bit xD#went w this one tho bc this one i have stronger feelings about#tbf i cannot judge anders romance entirely bc i have never done it#but the a lot of the bits i've seen (both in game and in the fandom) & his behaviour re: romance in general in-game made me kinda :// tbh#like. dunno. just made me uncomfortable.#but i also think it is a shame when the romance (or anders in general) gets watered down and uwufied so much#bc there is so much to them! theyre fucked up and messy and complex#but yea. idk. i avoid talking abt anders much bc i anders stans scare me x'D (note: important distinction between fans and stans)#also meredith oughhh#ik ive rambled a bit about her in another ask recently but ppl have talked about it way better than me before xD#she's so fun tho. fave da antagonist for sure
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#new artstyle kinda fun actually#it’s not even a new artstyle it’s just a different pen and way to draw hair#and eyes#wooow jello draws something other than legos??#don’t keep your hopes up i will go right back to lego ninjago#5 second rule on is holding a hotdog btw#if it’s not clear#when i make guidelines on the faces and dont follow them 🥰🥰#i did all this without a reference by the way#i’m kinda proud of myself#not sure how i feel about the arms in the first one tbh#i dunno i didn’t spend too much thought on this#i really like the way i did the hair i might reuse it for lloyd#the front bit at least#putting little parts of yourself onto characters is healing for the soul#kill the part of you that cringes#and of course i had to add in morro ninjago#he is constantly on the brain#do you think this counts as an artsona#what even is it#it’s not an oc it’s just me#well ofc it doesn’t look exactly like me but yk#jellos scribbles#my art#ninjago morro
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#meg talks#dude trying to write jean vicquemare is so hard 💀#i think mostly bc like. idek how to articulate my thoughts abt this guy#tbh i can’t say i Like jean since he’s. y’know. a cop#kinda like how harry is v interesting and i am invested in him as a person by virtue of inhabiting him#im sort of invested in jean as someone who’s important to harry#and as someone who’s an interesting individual in his own right#(never not thinking about ‘’there is nothing more in that beloved future of yours. we are all done there. done and gone.’’)#but im also like. man i dunno. i don’t think harry has any real future w the rcm#not a good one anyway#and i feel his friendship w jean is like…#well it’s on its last leg really isn’t it… if you don’t stay sober and u have no one to vouch for you#he leaves you to potentially die#i don’t know… sksbsbxjxj I understand how and why they ended up where they are now#but i don’t feel like there’s any real chance of them coming back from it u know#i get the appeal of the content of the task force friendship™️ stuff but i just can’t get behind it#like yeah they’re friends but they’re so… [gestures helplessly]#i can’t even articulate it!!! i just feel like them all being cops really destroys the potential for REAL friendship#i think even the miracle that brought kim and harry together will lose its luster if they don’t change#where was i even going w this idk anymore 😭#just lots of complicated feelings abt jean and harry’s friendship#i think he’s a v funny and interesting and complex character but also not a good guy#what does any of that mean in the end? i dunno im falling asleep
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ok i love akeshu roleswap and all this new content abt it is Great but i wanna vent bc. a lot of the time when i see swap aus they don't quite gel with how i think it should be and i go :/
like idk for example i think in a swap au goro's outfit as the pt leader should be black. bc like, the pt's are morally gray/on the wrong side of the law. his outfit is white in canon bc his idea of true morality is too perfect and idealistic. too childish. he hasn't reconciled that vision of justice with reality so he ends up with these two extremes. but in a swap au, he should be able to reconcile these extremes bc he no longer has the same hangups as he does in canon. his sense of justice is more singular instead of an oppositional contradictory dichotomy.
maybe the problem is i want the swap au to be too direct. too like, exact parallel to the game. but that's kind of what appeals me about it? that akira and goro are so similar that under different circumstances their roles could swap and the story would stay the same. but people change things too much and kinda undermine what appeals to me about it. or on the other hand, they keep too much from canon. goro shouldn't be as jaded as he is in canon in a roleswap. akira shouldn't be as open. their circumstances have shaped them into different people than canon and the au should reflect that.
#sera posts#not going to tag this bc i don't want to upset people but yeah#i tried to use vague examples or less important ones to not be mean/call out anyone specific#i reblog a lot of these aus bc i like seeing my bois and they look Interesting but yeah i just have some hangups with how people interpret#them in a swap au i guess. all the problems with fandom akeshu feel amplified this way i think. this is why i didn't fully enjoy antithesis#despite fucking adoring roleswap as a concept. maybe i just disagree with most akeshus about a lot of things i dunno. its hard when im#not on twitter so can't see what the consensus in fandom really is (all the worst most popular takes seem to come from there)#the only Amazing swap au content i have consumed is Synthesis tbh. that one nailed it on the head while everything else. hit or miss
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