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tsubasaclones · 1 year
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back to using tsubasa panels as my own personal coloring book <3
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astrolavas · 1 year
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thinking about the... potential clawthorne woodcarving mentorship.
+ bonus cuz also thinking abt how if hunter ever met dell's palisman and got reminded of flapjack, he'd probably feel bad abt making that association cuz he knows what it's like to be seen only as someone's different version (even though the bird wouldn't mind much so lol)
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#eda having that palistrom seed.. hunter saying he wants to learn how to carve palisman... his relation to clawthornes. it HAS to mean STH js#the owl house#toh#hunter toh#toh hunter#hahaa always thinking abt hunter growing a soft spot for palismen and loving creating and bringing them to life#but never being able to replace flapjack no matter how many palismen for other ppl he carves. I'M GONNA-#:((((( :///#like he's not going to want to replace flapjack just like that rn. cuz he LOVES that bird. it's gonna be so hard for him to just.. Move On#and flapjack's a PART of him.. so very curious where they'll go with this because..... HM. HM like he serves as his disability aid almost#and he can't just REMAKE him. but he cannot also just.... ignore what happened straight away. but it's also important to heal#but whatever he decides to do i feel like he'd love to just............ create. whether it be for himself or others#BUT GAH. ANYWAY XKJSJSK wrote an essay abt this already don't need to write one in the tags TOO. so uh .. yea#little guy.. pls find happiness#my art#fanart#hunter#hunter noceda#hunter wittebane#eda#eda clawthorne#dell#dell clawthorne#dell's palisman#toh art#edalyn clawthorne#also like...... if flapjack and dell's palisman were caleb's and evelyn's palismen...... and knew each other........#and while flapjack was waiting for his new person at the bat queen's cave dell's palisman was being passed down clawthorne generations#OUUHGHHHHGHHHH they were probably friends..... they Knew each other#what's up with you you mysterious yellow bird with eyebrows...... what's your story
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wildflowercryptid · 2 months
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dumping a bunch of meme edits at 4am like a well adjusted member of society. also debut of the bb!jules edit i made a while, but then never shared.
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royalarchivist · 2 months
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[A sad violin song plays over an image of a sad hamster]
Pac: This doesn't have anything to do with me – I wear a blue sweatshirt, you're crazy, this mouse doesn't even have a sweatshirt, this hamster! [Reading chat] Am I a depressed hamster?
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[ Transcript continued ↓ ]*
Pac: Actually– that's fine! I embrace that idea – of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy? [He hits his desk, then starts counting off people on his fingers] Fit is gone, Richarlyson is gone, Ramon is gone, Bagi and Empanada who were always there when we were there are also gone, I haven't seen them! It's just me and Tubbo, and sometimes Philza shows up.
Pac: I lost Chume Labs, I lost the Favela, I lost Murder Mystery, I lost Ilha Chume Labs, it's crazy! Look at how much I've lost, and I've gained nothing! Of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy?! How am I supposed to be happy?!
Pac: [Reading chat] "You have us Pac," that's true, thank you. No, that's true, sorry.
* NOTE: Please note that this is an incomplete transcript, as I was primarily relying on Aypierre's translation mod at the time and if I am not confident of the translation, I do not include it. As always, please feel free to add on translations or message me corrections.
#Pactw#QSMP#Pac#March 18 2024#As much as I love keeping people updated about Pac / the other Portuguese-speaking creators#I think I might not make as many transcribed posts for their clips anymore#I just don't think I'm qualified enough to be transcribing things for a language I don't know#like yeah we have the Qlobal Translator and Aypierre's translators to rely on#And I'm always upfront when I'm not 100% sure about a translation#but I've been thinking about it a lot and it kinda makes me feel a bit icky. Idk.#I might be overthinking this but I just I don't want to spread around translations I'm not super confident about#esp. since I know a lot of people cite my clips in analysis posts or link them to other people as resources#and 90% of the time I'm like ''Hell yeah I love seeing people getting a lot of use out of the archive''#but sometimes I get a bit anxious like ''Did I do a good enough job translating this''#''Am I ruining someone's entire perception of a conversation or character because I left one word out or mistranslated something?''#And like I said that's normally not a HUGE concern since if I'm not certain about a translation I just won't post a clip. but you know#idk it might just be the anxiety talking but I really really don't want to spread bad info#Happy to hear other folks' perspective#I'm really grateful for people like Bell and Pix and others who translate clips and I always try to reblog those#but we don't have a ton of people posting clips & translating things on Tumblr since we're so English-centric#which is part of the reason WHY I like sharing clips of the non-English-speaking CCs#but at the same time I want to do an accurate job representing what they're saying#Maybe I'll just start posting things and give a TLDR context of what they're talking about but not a transcript#that way native-speakers can hop in and add translations if that's something they're comfortable doing#and if not then well. at least I'm not sharing something that isn't super accurate#idk I'm just thinking out loud a bit in the tags#But I'm open to hearing other people's thoughts on the matter#Anyways giant rant aside. q!Pac is NOT doing ok rn
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thekittyokat · 5 days
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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ectonurites · 1 year
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Byler Week Day 5 — Secret Identities
very loosely interpreting the prompt for today but i've had this idea for a while and... secret identities, Superheroes, that works. anyone who knows me well probably could have seen something like this coming LMAO
also trying to draw Robin & Superboy costumes that look thrown together and home-made when i have spent so much time drawing their actual designs was a challenge
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[ID: a digital drawing of characters from the owl house based on the song "up the wolves" by the mountain goats. At the top of the drawing there's a rectangular panel showing Camila and Eda. Camila looks out at the boiling isles at night with her bat. Eda mirrors her pose, with her arm covered in feathers. Shadows form to look like the collectors face, covering Eda's eyes and parts of Camila. Beneath this panel is a star with King and the Collector inside of it, holding hands and spinning midair. Beneath this is the archway portal from thanks to them, which is glowing, and at the bottom of the image is the hexsquad lined up in their designs from for the future, lit by the portal light and looking determinedly into the distance. The lyrics that span the image are "our mother has been absent/ever since we founded Rome/but there's gonna be a party when the wolf comes home". The background is black. End ID]
I knew I couldn't say goodbye to this show without redrawing one of my favorite old pieces, this lyric comic based on Up The Wolves by the mountain goats. I made it pre-ttt and was honestly really vindicated by all the wolf imagery that ep, lmao
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oH Ted as the 'someone coming every week to cook and stock her fridge with meals'!! your brain does so much good work and I am so thankful we get to reap the benefits <33
yeah!!!!!! and i couldn't think straight until I got rid of it!!! here take this it's killing me!!
×
She begs Phillip to keep her on. She begs him, tries to double his fee even, to keep him from total retirement, but he's steadfast in his decision. 
The thought of hunting down another chef is horrific. But he gives her no choice. 
She blows through them like tissues for three months, suffering over-complicated meals, over-powering flavors, chefs clearly trying to impress as if she wants a Michelin star meal every night. She doesn't – if that was what she wanted she knows exactly where to get it. 
When she's at home she just wants good food, that's easy to reheat and easy to eat. Which is how she ends up finally succumbing to Leslie's repeated insistence that she give his man a chance.
“He comes over once a month,” he tells her, more than once. “Puts together some things we can freeze and just pop in the oven. Simple enough for the boys to do it, so Julie and I can have at least a couple evenings where they can feed themselves.”
He brightens when she gives and asks for his info, and when she gives him a call, she's struck dumb hearing his American accent.
She's running out of options, so she takes a chance on him.
×
She taps her fingers on the counter, waiting for the doorbell, checking her watch when she finally hears it. He's perfectly on time, but she feels like she's already searching for a reason to be disappointed with him.
He has a pleasant smile for her, though, and a friendly demeanor and a firm handshake and a handsome face – none of which she can immediately find fault in as they introduce themselves.
“I'm sure you're busy,” he says as she leads him to the kitchen. “So I appreciate you taking the time to let me peek at the kitchen and ask you a couple questions.”
“Of course,” she says, used to the procedure by now. Most of them have some kind of sheet they have her fill out, usually via email, but she doesn't mind taking a moment to meet the person who's going to be cooking her food.
“Oh, this is nice,” he compliments, looking around the kitchen, as he sets down the backpack hooked on his shoulder.
“Thank you,” she says, gesturing for him to claim a stool. “Though you can probably infer from your presence that it gets little use.”
“That's okay, I'll go easy on it,” he chuckles, pulling a binder from his bag and opening it up on the counter. “First, though, I wanna make sure I know what I'm cooking.”
He doesn't have a questionnaire or the like, it seems. The lined paper in front of him is blank before he scrawls her name at the top.
“How many people am I cooking for, first of all?” he says without looking up.
She licks her lips, her gaze shifting. 
“Just me.” She keeps her tone matter-of-fact. She hopes.
The way he glances up makes her doubt whether she managed it.
“Makin’ it easy on me already,” he says with a soft smile, adding a 1 to the corner of his sheet. “You have any allergies or dietary restrictions?” 
“No,” she says, then adds, “Though, I do have the tendency to drop meat for a while every so often.”
“A part-time vegetarian?”
She cracks half a smile. “Sure.”
“Okay,” he chuckles. “What kinda meals are you after? Breakfast, lunch, dinner?”
“Dinner, mostly, though I won't say no to the occasional breakfast. Mostly out of curiosity.”
She doesn't think any of the chefs she's hired have offered to make breakfasts.
“I make a mean frittata,” he grins. “What do you like, then? What are some of your favorites, so I can get a feel for what you want?”
“When I eat at home, I want quick and easy,” she says. “The less steps for me, the better. I don't want extravagant, elaborate meals. Shepherd's pie, any kind of pasta, soups, salads. Fish, chicken, red meat on occasion, not every week preferably. Anything veg heavy will probably be a hit with me.”
He nods, taking rapid notes in what must be a very familiar format to him. He fires off a few more questions for her, elaborating a bit further on what she likes before switching gears.
“Anything you absolutely don't want?”
“Not especially,” she says. “I don't like to limit a new chef too soon. I'd rather you make me your best and I'll let you know.”
“Uh oh,” he smiles.
He does that a lot.
“Am I on trial?”
She opens her hands up, giving him a small smile and he chuckles.
“I've had six chefs in ten weeks,” she tells him. “So yes, maybe a little bit.”
“Why didn't they fit the bill?” he asks curiously. “So I can avoid a similar fate.”
“I don't think they quite believed me when I told them how simple I wanted things,” she says. “Too many sauces and sides and heat this up separately and put this on this. If I want a five course meal, I know where to get one. When I get home from work, I want to throw something in the oven or dump it on a plate and microwave it, not anything glamorous.”
He looks pleased to hear it – he seems to actually relax slightly, as if he'd been uncertain he could deliver on what she wanted.
“Well, I can guarantee you that going too fancy will not be a problem with me,” he says, writing a few more things down. “I'm used to basic.”
“Good.”
“I've got Tuesday afternoons free, if we're doing every week.”
She nods.
“Between noon and four, if that works for you.”
“I'll be at work, so you'll have free reign,” she says, opening a drawer on the island and pulling a house key from it. “Make yourself at home.”
“Alrighty,” he says, taking it from her. She watches him pull a roll of masking tape and a ring of maybe half a dozen keys from his bag. He rips off a piece of tape and labels it with an RW before adding it to the keyring. 
“If you ever have any requests, that number you have is my cell. Shoot me a text before Tuesday if you want it that week, or you can leave me a note.”
“Okay.”
“And let me know if you think of anything else you want me to know,” he says, starting to pack everything away again. “If you hate olives or can't stand Bleu cheese.”
“I love olives,” she says emphatically. “And there's no kind of cheese I will refuse.”
“Cheese is the best, right?” he remarks. “They're all good. Yellow, white, hard, soft. Even stinky, moldy…still good.”
She snorts a bit, but fully agrees.
“I'm pretty much always stocked with fresh mozzarella to nibble on so feel free to help yourself.”
“Oh, don't tell me that,” he says, shaking his head. “I'll clean you out every week.”
She chuckles as he throws his backpack over his shoulder. 
She sees him out, intrigued now to see what he cooks up for her.
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When she gets home on Tuesday, there's a delicate cacophony of smells hanging in the air and she remembers for the first time today – after a long, trying weekend – that Ted was meant to come.
And apparently did.
The kitchen is spotless (thank God – chef number two had a tendency to slack on the cleaning up bit) and she eagerly makes her way to the fridge.
Each covered pan has a strip or two of tape on top – 35 minutes @ 175° the small square one requests. Thank God. One singular step.
If it tastes like shit, she's going to cry.
It reveals itself to be a lasagna and she flips the oven on, lets it get hot while she peeks at the rest of what he's made, then pops it in the oven while she goes upstairs and gets comfortable.
She notices the extra pan by the kettle when she comes back down, this one without a lid, left on a trivet. 
Three neat rows of shortbread lie within it, a note flat on the counter in front of it.
A little extra treat – maybe a bribe so I don't end up being Disappointing Chef Number 7 – and a thanks for giving me a shot. I'm told these are a winner with a cup of tea. 
He's signed it with a mustached smiley face that makes her chuckle.
They smell divine. She can't resist prying one up and taking a bite.
“Oh, fuck me,” she mutters to herself, looking at the biscuit with a bit of wonder as it melts on her tongue, perfectly sweet and salty.
Oh, wow. She glances at the oven, then the pan in front of her.
She might have struck gold.
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Everything is delicious. He's clearly not a professional five star chef, but every bite has her in disbelief.
It's just so good. She was skeptical, but he even nails a shepherd's pie for her, dumping cheese on top without her even requesting it. Nothing is unpleasant or poorly made, nothing has her thinking to text him and tell him she didn't love it. His portions are more than enough for her and she frequently takes what's left to the office with her. She has never taken lunch with her to work. Ever.
His cooking tastes like dining at a friend's house, like family made it, like he loves cooking for people and puts it in every bite.
And the biscuits. She finished the pan before the week was even out, unable to help herself.
She's a little bit devastated when there are none on the following Tuesday. 
She leaves a note the next time she expects him.
Any chance for biscuits again? 
She's ecstatic to find a fresh pan when she gets home.
She's nursing her last three by the weekend, determined to make them last long enough to request more.
×
I hope no notes is a good thing?
She's been meaning to text him, tell him how pleased she is with everything he's made, but it continued to slip her mind.
How am I doing?
No notes is a very good thing, she sends back. Everything has been absolutely delicious.
Oh good :)
I love to hear it
The biscuits have become a problem though
No biscuits next week then?
God no
I'm hooked on them
Don't do that to me
You got it boss
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She almost laughs at herself when she gets home.
She's turning down dinner dates and good-looking men in favor of a date with the container labeled prosciutto stuffed chicken breast in her fridge that she's been thinking about all day.
He'd probably get a kick out of the fact that his food is so good it's ruining her dating prospects, but that's most definitely not something she'll be telling him.
She gets herself a little bit of this week's salad while she waits on the oven – romaine with candied walnuts, dried cranberries, gorgonzola, sliced green apple with a deliciously sharp vinaigrette. She peruses the fridge in her typical Wednesday fashion – on Tuesday evenings she's made a habit of grabbing the first thing she sees and letting him surprise her – looking for the small container of sauce that the lid of the chicken makes mention of.
She chuckles when she sees it. Some of his notes on things have gotten more elaborate, sometimes teasing, sometimes with a wine pairing suggestion, sometimes just with a little smiley face. The lid for the sauce only says creamy pesto, but there's masking tape wrapped in a spiral over its sides, covered with writing.
I know, I'm gonna get in trouble for making a separate sauce for something but all you gotta do is dump it on when it's done! It's worth the extra step I promise! 
She snickers around her salad, setting it on the counter. 
It's well, well worth the extra step.
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When she gets home on Tuesday, she's unexpectedly greeted by a strong, delicious smell and noise from the kitchen. She leaves her heels and her coat before turning into the kitchen.
Ted's at the stove, looking almost mortified as he immediately starts apologizing.
“I'm sorry, Rebecca, I'm so behind today, but this is my last one and then I'll clean up and get out of here–” he rambles, but she's taking him in more than listening. Namely, she's taking in his tired bloodshot eyes and his disheveled hair and the way his hands shake as he gestures to the mess of the kitchen. 
“I'm sorry–”
“No, Ted, it's alright,” she insists. “It's not a problem.”
“I'm almost done.”
“Are you okay?” she asks gently.
“Yeah, yeah, I'm fine, I just need to finish this…”
She frowns and rounds the island, unconvinced and unsettled – he's almost frantic with energy.
“Come here.” 
He frowns as she pulls him away from the stove.
“No, it'll burn–”
“In which case I'll survive with one less meal,” she says firmly, pushing him to the dining table. “Sit.”
He does – reluctantly – and she gets him a glass of water.
“Take a deep breath. Relax,” she insists before stepping to the stove. The pan there has a sauce in the making, a plate of meatballs next to it, as well as a pot of water getting hot.
“What needs done here?” she asks.
“I can–”
“Stop,” she commands, lifting a brow at him before he can rise. “Sit. Just tell me.”
“The, the cream needs to go in,” he says. “Give it a second, then the other two little bowls there, the Dijon and the Worcestershire and then the spices.”
“Okay,” she says, keeping her voice steady, hoping it'll relax him, show him she's far from upset that he's still here.
She follows his instructions, pouring the measuring cup of cream in and mixing it with the little whisk that's already there. She lets it get hot, then adds the rest, stirring it in.
“What am I making?” she asks with a small smile.
“Swedish meatballs,” he supplies, sounding distracted. “One of my favorites.”
“Swedish, hmm?”
“Well, I can't speak to them being authentic,” he says. “Recipe was my mom's. And she's definitely not Swedish.”
It smells delicious – whatever spices she just added were warm and aromatic and it makes her mouth water.
“What next?”
“Uh, turn the heat down and let it simmer,” he says. “Needs to thicken.” 
She dutifully turns the stove down and then joins him, taking a seat next to him. 
“What's wrong?”
“Nothing,” he deflects, “I'm fine. Just…didn't sleep so good and then this morning was…I'm fine.”
She doesn't push, seeing how much effort he's putting into forcing a smile and changes course.
“Do you have anywhere else to be today?” she asks.
“No, no, you're my last client on Tuesdays.”
“Then stay,” she insists, gesturing to the stove. “Looks like enough for two.”
“I shouldn't,” he tries, shaking his head. “I should get out of your hair.”
“You're not in my hair,” she asserts. “I would enjoy the company and I'm most certainly not complaining about getting a meal fresh off the stove.”
He looks her over for a moment, presumably looking for any hint of falsehood before he nods a bit haltingly.
She smiles.
“Should, uh, should put the meatballs back in to finish ‘em,” he murmurs. “And get the noodles on.”
“Yes, chef,” she says, giving him a wink when he finally smiles. 
“I'll do it,” he says, and she lets him this time for how much calmer he seems. She occupies herself by offering him a drink and pouring herself a glass of wine. He accepts a couple fingers of a scotch he's apparently had his eye on for the last few weeks and she watches with interest as he takes a sip.
“Oh, that's nice,” he mutters. 
“The only one I buy anymore.”
“You have excellent taste, I have to say,” he remarks. “Thank you.”
She helps him get the rest of the dinner together and is glad to see him relax more and more, until he's smiling easy as they both sit at the island with bowls of noodles and meatballs.
“Well, it smells fantastic,” she says, eagerly stabbing a forkful of noodles and half a meatball.
It's delicious. Creamy and warm and truly everything about it screams comfort food. 
“Oh, Christ,” she mumbles around it. 
“Yeah? That one a winner?” 
She nods emphatically, eyeing him as she chews.
“Nothing you make is bad,” she mumbles, watching him take his own bite.
“That's ‘cause I only make what I know I can make good for you,” he chuckles. 
“Why's that?” she asks. He can take a chance on her – he's built up plenty of faith in him already. One bad meal isn't going to have her canning him.
“Oh, to impress of course,” he says with a crooked smile that she returns. 
“You've already done so,” she says. “I haven't had a single thing I didn't like.”
“I'm very happy to hear it,” he says, sounding very genuine about it.
They eat slowly because conversation comes very easily. Whether it's the drink or the distraction of her company, he's light-years away from the frazzled ball of anxiety she was met with.
“Safe to assume you don't enjoy cooking much, huh?” he asks her as they both scrape their bowls. 
“I don't think I would mind it if I had ever learned,” she muses. “But I've had a cook for most of my life and learning how now just to feed myself seems more trouble than it's worth.”
“You've had a cook most of your life?” 
“My parents kept one when I was a kid, and then when I was married, my ex-husband insisted on a cook,” she says, half rolling her eyes. “Thank you, by the way, for not inundating me with pork pies and sausage rolls and roasts and dousing everything in gravy.”
“I enjoy a good gravy, but, oof, that's heavy eatin’ right there.”
“Too heavy,” she agrees. “Though my tastes were rarely taken into account.”
He hums as he wipes his mouth and she finds understanding in his eyes.
“How long were you married?” he inquires.
“Twelve years,” she says slowly.
“That's a lot of gravy,” he says more seriously than the words might call for. She hears his meaning plain enough.
“Yes. It was.”
“Well,” his tone brightens a bit, “now you got me to make whatever you please.”
“Too right,” she chuckles, sipping her wine. “And it's always spectacular. I don't know how you do it, what you're lacing everything with…”
“Oh, I just make sure I put a little love in everything, that's all,” he grins.
She takes in the sight of him, smiling and content, his creased eyes warm, and she likes this. She's enjoying this. She likes him. 
It's so hard to know though, even as his eyes move over her face, the quiet stretching long, if she likes him or if she's simply missed enjoying a comfortable meal at home without having to do it alone.
Her eyes drop, aware of how intensely she’s looking at him. She's not sure when it happened but they're both turned completely towards each other on their stools, leaning on the counter, and his fingertips are right there at the edge of hers – the mere straightening of her fingers would bring them into contact.
“I appreciate you letting me stay and have some of your dinner,” he says softly.
“You made it,” she offers with a grin.
“You paid for it,” he returns.
“It's not a problem at all,” she says, meaning it wholeheartedly. “It's nice to have some company.”
“I'm gonna be honest with you, Rebecca, you don't seem like a woman who would have any problem finding company.”
Her brows lift alongside the corners of her mouth, a little internally delighted by his boldness.
“I think I'll take that as a compliment,” she grins.
“As it was meant,” he assures.
“In which case…I'll amend to say it's nice to have such comfortable and easy company.”
His cheeks round, his gaze dropping in something akin to bashfulness and she thinks it really might just be him that's growing on her.
“I’m glad you stayed,” she says, her smile slanting crookedly. “Even if I pretty much made you.”
“I didn't wanna impose. You were very kind to give me a second to…calm down.”
She's not sure if it's embarrassment, exactly, or shame that has him toying with his glass instead of looking at her.
“Felt like I was trying to catch up to myself all day,” he admits.
“I know the feeling,” she sympathizes.
He's quiet for a moment before he responds. 
“My ex-wife was supposed to come out with our son in the next couple weeks here, but she called and they pushed it back until the summer.”
His frown is back and his gaze is faraway, but she doesn't speak.
“Been here for almost a year now and they still seem to be getting on just fine without me.” He sounds like he wishes he could say it with detachment, but it comes out rather devastated. 
“They're in the States?” she asks gently, pulling him back to here and now as he shakes himself a bit. 
“Yes.”
“Why don't you go see them?” she tries, though she's very aware she's got the bare minimum of facts.
“‘Cause I'm still stinging from her snapping that she just needs some goddamn space,” he says, giving her a twisted, wry little grin. 
She frowns but he shrugs, lifting his drink to his lips. 
“S’pose it's about time to just get over it,” he mumbles.
“That's not easy to get over,” she says kindly. “Especially from someone you love.”
“No, it's not,” he agrees. “Ain't much love to lose these days, though. You're probably right, should just take matters into my own hands, hop over the pond.”
“Don't go too long,” she says, only half teasing. “I shouldn't be left to feed myself for a prolonged period of time.”
He smiles again and the sight has warm satisfaction melting in her.
“Oh, if I go anywhere I'll set you up, don't you worry,” he assures her.
“Thank goodness.”
It's odd how difficult she finds it when she rises and steps away. A part of her wants her to stay put, keep the space between them minimal, but she writes it off as a result of just how long it's been since she had sex.
“Now, I don't see any biscuits,” she says. “But I suppose I'll give you a pass this week.”
He rises with a soft chuckle, following her with his own dish to the sink. 
“No, no, I'll do it,” he says as he starts to clean up from dinner. “Unless you need your kitchen back.”
She starts gathering dishes – he must clean as he goes, because it's not nearly the mess she'd imagine would come from cooking four whole dinners. 
“Oh, for what? You think I have a chef on the side coming over tonight?”
He turns, expression scandalized, a hand landing on his chest as if he's been shot.
“Tell me you'd never.”
She chuckles, joining him at the sink, hands full.
They clean up together and then she pours them both another drink before she claims a stool, content to watch as he puts together a batch of biscuits. She watches him move comfortably around the kitchen, chatting easily with her, and it's making an impression, one she's blatantly ignoring.
She half expects him to try to leave her once they're in the oven and has her excuses for him to stay at the ready, but he sits again, waiting the half hour they need to bake at the island with her. He asks her about her job, how she came to own the club, and conversation wanders to and fro.
“I'm intrigued to see what you've cooked up for me this week, chef,” she remarks at one point.
“You know I ain't really a professional chef, right?” he chuckles. “I dropped out of culinary school actually.”
“Really? Why?” 
He lifts a shoulder. “I wasn't having fun. I love cooking, I love making food and feeding people, but I didn't wanna do it the way they train you to, you know, cooking in a restaurant or joining the race to be the next big something. I like doing it this way. Getting to know people and cooking what they like. Feels like I'm paying the bills by cooking for friends and that's…” He clicks his tongue with a nod. “That's just perfect for me.”
“Well,” she says, smiling at how clearly he loves what he does. “You're still a chef. Definitely to me at least.”
He rises when the oven chimes, giving her a smile. 
“That's enough for me.”
The biscuits have filled the kitchen with the warm scent of vanilla – the same scent that's usually still barely lingering when she gets home.
He stays long enough to let them cool slightly and cut them and she watches as he arranges them on the trivet by the kettle, just as he always does. He packs his things up then and she sees him out, exchanging smiles and goodbyes.
She's still smiling when she finally goes upstairs to change for the evening and it takes her a while to identify the feeling.
She feels like she just got home from a really, really good date.
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It wasn't a date, so she doesn't know why she's disappointed when she doesn't hear from him again over the week. She doesn't contact him either, trying to recategorize the evening in her mind. 
She's very pleasantly surprised, in that case, when she comes home the following Tuesday and he's still there. She knows by the smell of something sweet and nutty filling the air before she even gets to the kitchen. 
It's spotless this time. He's not all anxious energy this time either – he smiles when she peeks in, looking rather uncertain about his welcome, but it still makes something deep in her chest ache.
It's rather nice. To come home to a smile from someone.
“Hi,” he says.
“Hello.” She lets her smile ease his uncertainty and her tone ask her questions for her.
“I, uh, wanted to say thank you,” he explains. “For last week, when I was…when I wasn't feeling so great, for being so kind, letting me hang out for a while.”
She starts to wave it off again, but he continues.
“I made a little something special for ya. Something I can't really leave for you to reheat later,” he says, gesturing to the ovens. “If you want a little snack?”
She nods eagerly, kicking her heels off toward the stairs before she joins him.
He pulls a dish from the oven and sets it on the counter. He fiddles with something there, but she doesn't see what until her turns, sliding a round plate to the center of the island between them.
Whatever it is is perfectly golden brown, looks delicious and smells heavenly.
“Honey baked brie,” he informs her. “With some walnuts and some fig jam, tiny bit of rosemary.”
“Oh my god,” she almost moans. “And it's what, wrapped in pastry?”
“Yes, ma'am,” he smiles. “Thought it might be something you like.”
“I can tell you already you're correct,” she says, rounding the island to find them some forks. “I can't wait to taste it.”
“Let me know how you like it.” She frowns, but he's got a small smile when she looks up. “I'll let you…”
“You think I'm going to eat that entire thing myself?” she asks, lifting her brows as she pulls two forks from the drawer.
“Well, I know how much you like cheese,” he chuckles.
“I'll share,” she says, handing him a fork. “With you.”
She doesn't even have the patience to sit down – she slices her fork through the pastry and creamy brie begins to ooze out. She scoops it up with some pastry, catching a nut and a bit of fig and shoves it in her mouth. 
“Careful, it's hot–”
“Fuck me,” she mutters without thought.
It's delicious. Creamy and sweet and savory, the pastry flaky and buttery. It's rich and indulgent but not sickeningly so and she’s in love.
She's bringing another bite to her mouth when she realizes he's just smiling at her, pleased as punch.
“Please eat some,” she begs around her bite. “Because I can not eat all of this and I will if you leave me alone with it.”
“Alright, alright,” he chuckles, cutting off a bite for himself. 
He hums, pleased with his handiwork. “Mm. Not to toot my own horn, but that's good.”
“Mm!” she hums, getting an idea. She steps away to the wine cooler, squatting down to look for one of her less frequent whites. She comes back with a pair of glasses and an off-dry Riesling.
“This was a bit too bright and citrus-y for me, but it might be gorgeous with this.”
“Okay. You’re the sommelier here, not me,” he says as she pours, then slides a glass to him.
“Oh, please, your pairings are always spot on.”
It does go nicely, complimenting every bite.
“God, this is lovely,” she tells him. 
“I'm glad you like it,” he mumbles around his own bite. 
“Did you make the pastry?”
He shakes his head. “No. Normally I would, but I didn't decide on this until I was shopping today and that takes some time.”
“How long did this take?”
She listens with interest as he explains how he made it, amazed at how straightforward it sounds.
“Christ, it sounds like I could make it.”
“Uh oh,” he says, eyes widening. “Am I talking myself out of a job?”
“Oh, hardly. Even if I figured out how to make everything you cook for me, I'd still keep you around,” she admits. “You’re good company.”
“Well, that's nice to know,” he smiles, eyes soft.
“Also, knowing how to definitely doesn't mean I actually have any desire to cook any of it myself,” she chuckles. “So you still have plenty of use.”
She winks with her teasing as his warm laugh has him tucking his chin, his crows feet deepening. 
“I see how it is.”
She can't help but take him in, delighted by how carefree he is today. God help her, she really does like him – she wants to know him better. He's so genuine, so unselfish and generous, and she wants to keep him smiling.
“Thank you,” she says when she finally really can't eat any more, maybe a quarter of the round of brie left on the plate. “That was very kind of you.”
“No, thank you,” he echoes. “It was nice last week, to sit and eat with someone and I needed it.”
She nods get agreement, leaning her hip against the counter.
“I won't, uh, make a habit of just hanging out here, though,” he says, presumably to reassure her.
Her brows tip, eyes on his as she lets out a disappointed, “No?”
His lips part, but he doesn't manage to form a response. It hardly matters – they're communicating plenty in their gazes, trading glances at each other's lips. The moment stretches, and stretches, her breath changing to suit the surplus beats of her heart at the intensity in his warm eyes.
He leans closer, tipping his head, and something jolts through the center of her when he kisses her. She returns the gentle pressure, daring to part her lips to close them against his. Her fingers curl into her hand at her hip with restraint, fighting the urge to sink into his hair or pull him closer.
It's too delicate, this lovely feeling, and draws a tenderness up through her she hasn't been able to find for months.
He eases back slowly and she catches the breath he stole. Her eyes open, finding his still closed and she watches his parted lips begin to tighten as he fights a smile. The sight inspires one of her own, pulling at her cheeks as he opens his eyes, the smile winning and straightening his mustache out.
“I, um…”
She rolls her lips into her mouth, not even trying for words. She has none.
He can't find any either.
She drives forward again, prepared this time with a little extra breath in her lungs, a little more confidence. He kisses her back with a little more something too and she can't restrain her hands anymore from rising to hold his face. She tries to imbue the motion of her lips with plenty of invitation, but it's not until she pulls back and he follows, wavering toward her, that he steadies himself with a hand on her hip. Her attention goes straight to the heat of it through her dress as it slides to a more respectable height on her waist.
“You are very welcome to linger here as much as you like actually,” she exhales.
“Oh, I feel welcome,” he says, voice low.
She grins, pulling him in again. “Do you?”
“I sure do.” 
He barely gets the words out before they're kissing again. She opens to him, tastes the brie and honey and the dry sweetness of the wine and finds it appropriate that he should be so indulgent. His hands finally make their way around her, narrowing the space between them even more. She's not sure when her arms found their way around his neck but they tighten there in response.
He doesn't let her go far when they part again, dropping a kiss on the corner of her mouth, her cheek. Her eyes close with the sensation, the scratch of his mustache and his warm lips. 
“I really like cooking for you,” he murmurs.
The way he says it makes it sound like a deep confession and she feels silly for how fluttery it makes her to hear. She smiles against his lips and discovers this isn't new information to her. It's in every bite.
“I know you do,” she says low in his ear. “I can taste it.”
“Can you?” He sounds surprised and pleased.
“Yes.” She guides him back to her lips. “I can.”
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hi....scrapped wip again. im rlly not built for color. yap incoming
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sorry my productivity tanked my 7 year old laptop is nearing its final breath and im just stalling buying a new one as long as possible to not violate the boycott but she (laptop) is making this shit DIFFICULT
im gnna be so honest w yall i havent had the drive to do shit all lately like. i need dopamine kicks to function but nothings working for some reason ??? i bought a jjk book and i fucking love jjk so i should be excited but im ??? not????? fucked up how that works
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beeholyshit · 5 months
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My little bebes ❤️
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scaryarcade · 1 year
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hey, this is a post about trauma but if it resonates with you for any reason then it's for you, too. anyway:
if you went through something that's difficult to explain to other people, i believe you.
if people find it hard to understand why the thing you went through affected you as much as it did, i believe you. i believe you that it felt as bad as it did and affects you as much as it does.
if you feel like you can't prove that what you went through really happened the way you feel like it happened, i believe you. you don't need to prove anything, you can trust yourself and your own perception of events.
if you've had experiences that people tend to find hard to believe, shocking, bizarre, or just so far out of their realm of normality that they can't conceptualize those things would really happen to someone i believe you.
your experiences are your experiences, they're owned by you alone and nobody else's unwillingness to understand them can change that.
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rainbowthedragoncat · 6 months
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for anyone else suffering through aegis cave playing through pmd explorers: use the recruitment search. it'll tell you what pokemon are on that floor, not just possible spawns, so you can just skip the floor if it doesn't have the unown you want. anyway have fun with the rng grindfest
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mike-haters-dni · 2 months
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Scalding, unnecessary take that I'm going to use as an excuse to yap about my hyperfixation characters more than anything, but El's character is actually impossible to stick into coffee shop fanfiction No Supernatural Shit AUs. That's Jane you're writing about. Jane and El are not the same person. At all. And like, Jane is interesting to think about, don't get me wrong. I have thought about Jane. I love Jane. She's adorable and vaguely autistic. But Jane != Eleven.
Eleven is the way she is almost entirely because of her experience/trauma of growing up in the lab and having supernatural murder powers. Her main characters traits are being a self-sacrificing hero and not being sure who she is due to the fact she grew up in an isolated sterile inhuman environment. Unless you're directly translating those things into something unsupernatural (like growing up in a fucked up cult or something and like fighting her way out and now she'll fight to protect other people from similar experiences or something idk) you're writing about Jane the normal gorl who got to grow up with a normal personality in a normal world. And like, you can do that. It's fine it's fandom do whatever u want. But personally, the first thing I come up with when I birth an AU is what crazy powers and fucked up backstory we give Eleven here. Also how do we make her and everyone else really fucking cool but that...might be beside the point idk.
The powers have to basically ruin or have had ruined her life at one point. They have to be a curse that she either reclaims or gets rid of at the end. If she isn't tortured she isn't Eleven Stranger Things lmao
And then yeah yeah my next step is to figure out how Mike AND THE OTHERS OK but mostly Mike get involved in this. Which brings me to my next point: Jane and Mike have no real reason to talk to each other. Mike x Jane is just Normal Gorl x Normal Boy which is like, fine sure if that's what you want, but also you kinda just erased everything interesting about their dynamic. You wanna know what makes El and Mike's relationship so compelling? Objectively? I'm objectively right about everything I'm about to say here? Ok their dynamic is this: Eleven is the most important person in the world, and Mike is the only boy who will ever love her. And yeah that second one sounds really sad but 1. yeah it kinda is :) 2. its not really true that's just what El thinks which is like a major theme for her character TO ME, her underestimating how 'normal' she is esp in her later years 3. it also is kinda true because he's the only boy romantically interested in her who actually understands and experienced all the supernatural/lab trauma bullshit and is actively fighting beside her through the plot of the show, and 4. he's literally perfect and also the only boy she'll ever love and need so it all works out.
And to explain the first one, I mean, you know she's saved the world twice right? She kinda literally is the most important person in the world considering its up to her to stop the apocalypse probably in the end? But its not the being important exactly that makes Mike love her ok, that's more of a meta character thing. Like she doesn't have to literally be the key to saving the world and the most powerful being in the universe. Its more that she has to have something really special about her that draws Mike specifically to her and binds him to her permanently and inseparably and he belongs to her forever and ever and they die in each other's arms. Like she deserves. In canon I imagine objectively and correctly that it went like this: Mike is a natural outcast collector and protector due to his pervasive unconscious need to be needed and his fear of losing the few people who like him, who meets the ultimate outcast girl who literally has nothing and needs him in a very real way, and this gives him an excuse to just pour his entire self into her, fulfilling one of his deepest interpersonal needs. The best part is that she's super selfless and amazing and she loves him the same right back so its actually a beautiful thing they get going. Basically the idea of being anything less than perfect for her is so sad and horrible due to how fucked her life was that it drives the already caretaking Mike into overdrive to make her happy. Not at the cost of him still being an individual person, mind you. But that's the vibe. Also let me just say, all the self-sacrificing vibes and obsession and desperation can become toxic under certain circumstances and that is absolutely a feature not a bug. Sorry you don't like watching your faves yell at each other but we are not the same.
Anyway what the fuck was I talking about? AUs? Yeah ok so when translating Mike (AND THE OTHERS...and the others) into other stories there's more flexibility u kno because he's mostly just Some Guy. He really just needs (TO ME) an excuse to be fighting with Eleven (she has to be fighting something with the powers I know you gave her). He shouldn't be directly involved with whatever gave her the powers but he should generally know of and be somewhat affected by it. Or become aware of it/involved with it over time. Like in the show. You get it. Honestly his only real consistent character traits are being kinda moody and being the leader of the party in whatever vague or not way. And being intelligent. Like he has to be leader for a reason. I guess that's a decent base for a character right there.
oh right side note: you have to do something fun with her name. like she was basically branded Eleven by the freak that gave her the powers so u gotta take that energy and translate it into another branded name that has el in it because she needs to get the nickname ofc. unless its a cyberpunk au in which case Eleven is a pretty normal name and she can just go by that lmao.
So the point ig is Jane and Mike break up when they go away to different colleges and don't talk to each other again until their next high school reunion, while Mike and Eleven are...well you should know by now.
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aqueousammonia-art · 29 days
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i don't have much to say because school but I am really enjoying watching trigun (98 anime)
originally I was going to cut off my adventures at episode 13 (which I found out was just a rehash of previous adventures + some new scenes) and pick up the other half during my June holidays
*then I found out the 'next day' that netflix was pulling the show in about 9 days from this post.(hhh)
*that was in march
so I'm trying to slowly finish the show now and draw out all my thoughts at the end instead of splitting my review into two like I intended (which was stupid now that I think about it.)
legato's interesting to me - I don't eat sweet stuff often but I would be down with this guy
he'd recommend the meanest cakes. he'd know the wackiest spots for heavenly delicacies.
for anyone who's read this far, take this legato doodle with you as thanks ♡⁠˖⁠꒰⁠ᵕ⁠༚⁠ᵕ⁠⑅⁠꒱
I'll be back with my thoughts when I finish the 98 anime!
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mitamicah · 6 months
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Not me brainstorming ideas for my post op tattoo (context) like I'd contact the tattoo artist tomorrow and not in a 1,5 year or more
This was where my inspiration took me today I guess :'D
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ace-geographer · 1 year
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Special delivery for you all!! Bet you can't guess what it is :)
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Part 15/?
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