Updated my pinned introduction because I'm really struggling with money right now 😭

Hey it's been a bit since I've drawn this big guy huh?

today my parents are going to my psychiatrist where they’ll be told about hte fact that I’m probably not a boy, I asked my psychiatrist to do this, but I’m still super nervous and worried and honestly a bit scared, they’re pretty open minded but it’s still really scary, I was always terrible at talking about this type of stuff, I really hope it goes well 

Recently I've been feeling an urge to look at posts made by She Ra antis when I don't actually want to do that, and honestly, why do I do this to myself? All it does to me is make me fucking sad and anxious, and it makes me feel like some scumbag degenerate for just enjoying a show. I feel like a lot of the antis water the show's plot down and make it look worse than it actually is.

i'm so fucking tired of this shit. im just done. good bye for a little while. ( not suicide, just at a low point where i need to read and zone out to music and overthink everything while disassociating.)

I JUST GOT A CALL FROM A BIOTECH COMPANY NEXT TO MY HOUSE FOR AN INTERVIEW!! GAY RIGHTS!!!

okay, so, this morning my cat decided she wasn't going to drink from her water dish unless i brought it directly to her feet. i don't want this to become a habit, but I also have personal issues which mean I can't afford to have her meowing angrily and following me around everywhere like she did this morning until I brought her the water bowl. does anyone who has a cat, or has had one in the past, have advice on this?

My last begpost died off and the goal is outdated anyway because it took so long. I'm late on rent and still no closer to getting a new vehicle to replace the one that was stolen. I feel trapped and tired and doomed and I don't know what I'm gonna do

As always, anything helps if you can spare it, here's my ko-fi and you can DM me for my paypal, venmo, etc. Please share

Still accepting Ideas? If so, Spy asking advice on Sniper on how to tell Scout that he is his dad.

been thinking a lot about Kris... and their relationship with the player/the soul.... I am so excited to see where Toby Fox goes with this arghhhh

hi people of studyblr

how does one study for many hours without feeling like their brain is dehydrated?

When people have been asking you for years whether you're going to eventually update your fic, and you just keep telling them, "I plan to!" instead of telling them that you don't know how to go forward because you don't know whether Damian should keep calling Dick by his first name or switch to calling him Grayson 💀.

working on building a brand new shiny blog website for comics and such (in addition to here) so folks can see all my stuff in the same place! and hopefully can have little forums and comments and a fun community on there. maybe a shop.. who knows

I'm really sorry if this question is a bit of an overstep, but I'm genuinely curious!

You've been around in the Alterhuman community for so long, and you're such a prevalent name as well! How did you (and other Alterhuman folk, like Page and Orion) end up being such big names in the community? And since you guys have been around for so long, do you have any advice you'd like to pass along?

Again, really sorry if this seems pushy, but curiosity killed the cat, y'know?

I hope you have a great day!

Your question isn’t overstepping at all! (So sorry for the delayed answer, offline life has been busy and seasonal depression has left our "writing energy" a bit low for now.)

To the question on how we became “big names in the community,” our system honestly has a hard time understanding it ourselves. To be fair, our system suffers from some serious chronic Imposture Syndrome and self-esteem issues from trauma from childhood echoing mean stuff said about ourselves long ago, plus we’re just overall kind of social anxious creatures, (all while simultaneously desperately wanting validation and the idea that we’re ‘liked’ by people.) Because of all that, internalizing that people like us, let alone look up to us in the community has never been something we have been able to do. We seem to be psychologically incapable of feeling about ourselves and our work half as highly as others view us and our work. We always see ourselves as just “some guys,” in our own eyes.

We just… like writing. We have a lot of special interests and one of them revolves around the history of the communities we are a part of, and we have a lot of tendencies towards hoarding links and copies of materials relevant to these communities. So out of these two things we’ve ended up becoming a community historian and archivist of sorts. Our academic background in history (and to a lesser extent anthropology and library science) certainly has helped us develop skills towards these projects of ours.

And sometimes people like what we write, I guess. We’re always just flattered and happy people like things we have made or done.

As for advice,

A lot of our advice on community engagement is echoed in  Page and Orion’s “YOU ARE NOT A MUSEUM PIECE: Putting Yourself Out There in the Alterhuman Community” 2023 Othercon panel. Our partners, @who-is-page and @frameacloud explain dozens of things there 100 times better than we ever could on that matter.

Other than that -

- Be kind; not just to others but to yourself as well. - Create stuff you want to see made in the community and things you enjoy making, first and foremost. - Every project ever, no matter how large or small, has all started out as nothing but a blank page. Try to not see it as intimidating and instead see it as a blank canvas of endless possibilities.

We hope that answered your questions, and may you have a great day as well. - Earth Listener (she/her/hers)

just bought olivia rodrigo tickets from viagogo i hope they’re legit 🤞🏼🤞🏼

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