{ u should gush about that nerd emily aka @thedanceofblades :p }

LET ME LOVE YOUR FRIENDS. // on hold until I finish the ones I currently have

my dude I’m literally always ready to gush about @thedanceofblades bc em is just. such a stellar person.

hey. hey em. hey. I literally don’t remember how we met at all (like I tentatively want to say through dan but I?? I also have no clue honestly) but I am so so so glad we did. you’re so, so, so ridiculously fun to develop with. like -- I dunno, what I really appreciate is how open you are to, well, anything? 

I mean. I’m biased towards anyone who’s willing to do an order of the shadows au lmao

but that’s hardly the only reason! I dunno, like, the fact that I can go through development hell with kat and ekko and then immediately proceed to turn to katarina bothering zed for the worst of reasons is great. you’re willing to explore both extremes of crack and serious threads, and I love that. you’re very open to any ideas, I suppose, and that’s wonderful.

also, I love the fact that I can not talk to you for weeks on end and then immediately jump back into several hours worth of development :’) 

I’m struggling to word this properly fuck. 

I dunno, man. you’re just. you’re a really, really fun person to interact with. your writing is succinct and works very, very well, and you force me to be more concise, which I definitely struggle with. you yourself are super, super fun to talk to, whether it’s random star wars things or development or league. even though it’s been a while, I really enjoyed playing arams with you the one time. you’re ridiculously funny and immensely creative.

seriously. your katarina. the development. oh my god. you’ve done so much it’s amazing I will literally never stop being astounded by how much you’ve gone through and fleshed out katarina. you’re good at adapting, too -- like, I dunno, it’s difficult to think, “ah, yes, zed and katarina, that’s an interaction that will Definitely Work,” yet I’ve probably had more threads with you than anyone else.

and I’ve loved them all. I get so, so excited about receiving thread replies from you. you’re so easy to reply to, because I always love our threads so so so so so much. with modern, it was great watching both of them steadily get more pissed off. it was hilarious. with the one order of the shadows thread from before my sudden disappearance (oops), I really enjoyed getting to explore that... odd transition phase for both of them, I suppose. it’s an area I haven’t gotten to explore since, but it’s so... it’s one I’d like to? I dunno, they were both vulnerable, tentative, unsure, and it was good to see something new. with past verse -- I mean, c’mon, past verse is fun. two assassins ripping on the kinkou. my fave.

like. thanks for interacting with me and talking with me and stuff. I’ve had such an amazing time, I really have.

I can’t wait for more.

I can't bear playing league of legends anymore like every time I slightly want to play and install it and start an Aram I will be like I had enough with just 2 or 3 matches and never touch it again in months bc the people playing it are so unbearable BUT then worlds start and I watch EVERY SINGLE MATCH every year and I love it. And I actually enjoy watching it a lot but I really hate to play it. I mean, it is actually an enjoyable game if you play it with friends but when I play alone it's just so uuugggh I don't have to cope with strangers shit u know? I have my job for that already u know...? And yeah, I'm watching the play-in now and I still haven't finished watching all the matches (yeah watching them all in YouTube, can't watch them live) and I haven't been so excited about anything in months! Not even in my or my family-friends birthdays (I love gifts, giving them mostly and I love to do it to people I love so birthdays are special to me). I have a lot of things going on rn in my job, I've been so disappointed by so many people this year at my work but it is fun how some professional competition of a game I already can't bear to play anymore is cheering me up and actually making me feel exited. So yeah, I'm just gonna hype about it in silence but enjoy this feeling alone :)