I don’t want to sleep. I want to be awake doing things, but I can’t decide what to do or how to do it. So instead I just sleep.

IM FINALLY MAKING OC LORE POST YALL BETTER HYPE ME UP. Starting with explaining the premise of the main antagonist in my story, Pandemonium. Once you know his whole thing My others characters will make much more sense. heres an ref of him for newcomers

Anyways into the lore mines.

Trickster God of Mischief, Deception, and Illusions. It oversees all mortal affairs concerning these domains. Pandemonium was created for the purpose of spreading entertainment and surprise to mortals. However, he quickly grew bored of this task and sought to create entertainment only for himself, rather than for the mortals he was created for.

He began to make deals with mortals, or as he calls them, “Stories.” He would prey on mortals in vulnerable situations, promising them solutions. But the deals were always rigged. Through illusions and lies, he set them up in ways where the deal maker was bound to fail.

He called these deals stories, because of the effort he put into each one. He was creating storylines. Pandemoniums goal isn’t how many people he can trick, but how grand he could do it. In some situations it even lead to him creating Entire Illusioned worlds for the deal maker to be tricked in. (This will be a bit clearer once i explain the premise of some of the deals hes already made..)

When a deal is broken or failed, Pandemonium turns them into his puppets. (puppets are always dressed in clown/jester attire, no matter the previous aesthetic. mortals are his court jesters lmfao)

how his puppets curse works:

He stores their souls in mind prisons, the mind prisons reflect the person and their traumas. There is a “window” to the eyes in all of them, so the puppeted person can still see through their own eyes. (If you try to close your eyes in the mind prison to look away, you start seeing out of your Actual Eyes. There is No Escape.) Puppets are still capable of feeling pain inflicted to their bodies. Pandemonium thrives off pain, and torments his puppets to no end. What are they gonna do it about it. Say something? The puppets can still talk to an extent, but he filters out and silences anything he Doesn’t Want to hear, so a lot of mortals just give up on trying. They are just toys to him now. And toys can always be put back together no matter how many times you break them.

other random stuff:

Pandemonium has a storage room for all his puppets when he’s not playing with them. Its a long, infinite (aka you could just keep going Up or Down forever.) cylinder shaped room. Along the walls are stairs that twist and turn and quite frankly Don’t Make Sense. In the hollow center of this room, cabinet’s float. There is a cabinet for each puppet, and they r personalized to the mortal. Some of the puppets who have been long forgotten have probably been floating around in this room for years. Yayyy.

I have a small drawing but erm its a bit old and i never finished it. all those boxes r suppose to be cabinets lmfao

erm i tried to compress this as much as possible so there are details left out but. i think this is a pretty good summary.. if u have any questions/something is confusing. Bink bink.

I wanna see this decision bite Rick in the ass. I wanna see Rick grabble with the concept that there isn’t really anyone to keep him in check anymore, not truly, not how morty did. i want to see an awkward pause in their conversations, because Rick automatically expects morty to pipe up with some criticisms. i want to see Rick stare forlornly whenever morty meekly follows ricks instructions. i want to see Rick bring up how he should “have more of a backbone” mockingly, when really, internally, it’s a plead for morty to just be himself again. I want to see Rick shake his head whenever the past comes up, and morty apologizes for things that were never his fault. I was to see Rick miss morty. I want to see a grandpa yearn for his grandson to find himself again. I wanna see Rick yearn for the part of himself that knew how to properly love his family.

i didnt choose the name jude because of the song, but its not like that waaaaasnt a factor tbh

Man the whiplash between these storylines is crazy

if anyone is still up, some advice would be nice

Uhm. Tornado moodbord

do you guys want me to upload more chapter previews for Chaos

my fuckign armarouge got scared by my meowscarada and shot a beam of fire into my cARPET!!! IM NEVER GETTING MY SECURITY DEPOSIT BACK im moving back to sinnoh i miss snowpoint and its lack of fire types

Confession #570

Appreciate a reblog to pass it around if possible

Daily reminder that it is incredibly cool and sexy to own a 3ds and even cooler and sexier to hack it

Okay, so my writing for Season 3 has taken a mighty unexpected twist (I'm focusing more on plot! Plot! Me? Who could have seen it coming) and to make sure I'm actually able to make something that ties up all the threads introduced in the previous seasons I am gonna have to spend today listening to the whole show and taking notes on what I do or don't what or what I forgot. I'm also hoping it will trigger some ideas.

I haven't listened the to the show all together (in fact I think the last time I even heard an episode was sometime last year and the only time I regularly listen to the show is when we are finalizing the episodes in post) so I'm quite excited.

We have made a fantastic project, but because I know it so well and I am, more or less, always working on the next part, I rarely actually go and just reflect on it.

So making decisions is hard and I can’t decide what dress I want to wear to my friends wedding this weekend.

My new dress I got at goodwill for seven dollars and is great, BUT it’s a much better fit for my other friends wedding in august with how short and summery it is and it just matches her vibe better tbh. And is maybe too short for semi formal/cocktail at a classic wedding venue vs the summer wedding in the mountains.

The Christmas dress I wore this Christmas to my work partyand I already have pictures in it, and it might be too wintery. But it is all different people.

My former wedding dress feels springy and honestly would match the vibe of this friends wedding perfectly and I don’t have any recent pictures of it BUT I wore at last summer at a wedding with almost all the same people I’m going to be seeing this weekend.

So I’m torn.

In order: new dress, Christmas dress, former wedding dress

yeah so regarding the shit ive been posting about lately: i am safe, i am okay, im staying with family for a little while until its safe to return to school and move dorms. i appriciate all the support and its been a really tough few weeks, but im really trying my best to keep my head up. i love you all.

Wildcard!!!

Due to the uneven number of contests for round three, as requested, Jester from the Darkest Dungeon will be entering the competition!

I've officially given up, I'm watching atsv , migraines be damned, wish me luck in not having to deal with the consequences of my own very dumb and stupid actions o7