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nellyrosesdenial · 19 days

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Six Months! 🎉💕✨

Tumblr!! I’ve done what I never thought I would be able to do. It’s officially been six months since my last orgasm. Well technically it’s tomorrow but it’s my birthday party so we are celebrating my six months today instead. It’s been a hell of a ride, I’ll be doing a few extra edges to celebrate so long being good. Have some pretty cleavage as a thank you to everyone who encouraged me. Love and ache xoxoxo

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nutlessspeedrun · 12 days

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god i so badly want someone to control my orgasms like, full-time.

id love to have someone who'll just casually reach into my pants and work me up, and then tell me to go about my day (despite the throbbing between my legs)

or knowing that whenever they initiate sex, it isnt for the sake of making me cum. they know that my true pleasure is in being a good toy! making cute noises, making them feel good, dripping all the lube they could ever need...

or even just being a toy for them to play with during a movie. fingers lightly brushing all my sensitive spots over and over, but theyre barely even looking at me... turning into a leaky, panting mess beside them, meanwhile theyre just enjoying the feeling of my wet skin against their fingers.

i just wanna be a good little edge toy for someone!! play with meee...

... any takers??

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edgegf · 2 months

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today i woke up and immediately edged for an hour before i had to go do errands, don’t know if they were hard edges? but i got at least five in where i had to stop touching to cool down so i didn’t go over.

then i had little sessions throughout the day, i wanna say like three or four? no hard edges during those, but god they kept me needy. been soaking wet all day, like have had to change my panties twice 😵‍💫

almost every time i’ve gone to the bathroom i end up gagging on my own fingers over the sink just bc i wanna see myself drool in the mirror 🫠🫠 plus there’s something really hot to me about it being casual, like my holes should be ready at any time or something? gagging and drooling just makes me feel so pathetic, it’s fun.

just got done edging before bed, got three more hard ones in. not being allowed to ruin is fucking me upppp, it’s like a deep deep need i can feel in my cunt for some release that i have to just ignore 😭 edging makes it worse but i can’t stop rubbing, which i guess is the point. so now i’m in bed about to go to sleep playing with my tits because if i don’t make myself get my hands off my cunt im never going to sleep but god i could go all night

#genuinely feel like i’m losing my MIND #barks #denial journal #asked my gf if i could have a ruin and she said no but maybe tomorrow if i’m good 😭😭#dyinggggggg

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youre-in-big-trouble · 2 months

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You enjoying denial? Not being able to go over that edge and just having to throb instead 😈

-🥟

im enjoying it, but i can tell my body is SO frustrated! like, within two minutes of touching myself, im wet enough to start dripping, and hard enough to stuff my dick into a toy...

last night i literally couldnt stop whimpering as i put my vibrator on high against myself. like, begging for mercy, even though i was the one doing it...

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side-pen · 1 month

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I fucking love my new skirt! It makes me feel so slutty walking around in it. I never wear anything under it, so if I move even just a bit, you can see my pussy.

I got so wet wearing it for the first time! And with nothing under it, you can hear my wetness. I wish I could wear it more often --"

#nsft #ftm nsft #trans nsft #queer nsft #side talk #denial nsft #nsft denial #denial #long term denial #denial journal

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knowledgevariabledarcy · 2 months

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neuralnetsprettypatterns · 1 month

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Daddy needs your dream journal.

You remember. We said all-the-time control. That includes sleepytime.

Sleepytime’s extra important. You get edged and denied in daytime, so you turn into a nightslut. It’s happening. You toss and turn and wake up with soaked sheets. You‘re turning into a sleep rubber.

I like it. But do it right. Write it down. Show me your journal, even before you show me your body. You’ll remember your dreams and you’ll remember what’s important.

They belong to me.

#mind control #neuralnetsandprettypatterns #dream journal #gaslighting #edging nsft #edging and denial #somno k!nk #nsft concept

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nellyrosesdenial · 14 days

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Hi. 24F

Can you please describe how you physically feel from 6 months of denial?

Do you find it more/less hard to remove your hand as you edge?

Have you gotten "used" to not orgasming?

Hey!

Thanks so much for the ask!

Physically it’s an incredibly intense feeling. I feel like my body is fire, my skin, between my thighs, all the way up the back of my scalp constantly waiting to explode. If something turns me on now, rather than just feeling a tingle, I feel like an electric rod stabs through my entire body, I nearly convulse over nothing. It’s delicious and terrifyingly powerful all at the same time. It takes me a long time to come down from that arousal euphoria, and even when I come down the baseline is still high, I never don’t want to be fucked these days. I could be on my death bed still trying to spread my legs.

I have been back and forth on whether it’s easier or harder to stop now. I guess the answer is both. Easier in the way that I absolutely know without a doubt I don’t cum. I know that continuing isn’t an option. I don’t even have to think about trying to beg or plead or reason why I should come, cumming is not for me and I accept that place now. It’s harder in the way of the physical feeling, when I am on the brink of an orgasm I feel every single one of the thousands and thousands of edges I’ve done. They have built up and burn through me. When I know how hard I would cum if I let myself it does make it a battle to take my hand away and let that world destroying orgasm fade away, again.

I definitely have got used to not orgasming now, it feels like a part of my day to day. It’s normal that I don’t get to cum. I don’t expect to. The thought of cumming now actually makes me feel guilty and anxious. Orgasm free is a safe place where I can embrace my submission, focus on pleasure and enjoy the absolute firestorm that charges within my body.

Great questions, thank you xx

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nutlessspeedrun · 4 days

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im horny and feeling stupid ♡ lucky for you

for every note this gets, ill do one edge before my next orgasm.

every ask i get, i'll post-pone my next orgasm by a day. dont just spam, though, write something hot and worth sharing! i wont count any suuuper low effort asks :p tease me a little, please!

depending on how many notes this gets, i'll do the top 1-3 leading options (unless they conflict lol)

#dante's journal #denial journal #nsft #denial #long term denial #nsft denial #long term chastity #nsft txt #0rgasm denial #nsft edging #0rgasm control #edgeslut #edging kink #edging and denial

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edgegf · 2 months

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i forgot to post but earlier while edging i accidentally had a ruin bc i had been edging for only like ten minutes and i could tell i was getting too worked up so i thought i’d just rest one finger lightly on my clit for a while and just that barely touching it pushed me over 😭😭 like how fucking pathetic

#barks #denial journal #people should ummm help me and my partner come up with a punishment for me for breaking my no ruins rule

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youre-in-big-trouble · 2 months

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Do you want to go over that edge?? It would feel incredible

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part of me does, but part of me doesnt... i crave that tingling heat that comes with a complete orgasmic release - back arching and voice breaking, the contractions and throbbing - and i know it would be so easy to get there...

but on the other hand... i love that all it takes is a few light touches for my body to become aroused. i love that my cock starts straining and pulsing at the drop of a hat, and that i get wet enough to make obscene noises within minutes. i adore gently touching myself and feeling an edge slowly creep up to meet me, and then fall away as i take my fingers back. not to mention how much better internal play feels when im denied! every thrust makes my eyes roll up...

really, when i compare the two, why on earth would i take momentary bliss over long-term arousal?

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side-pen · 2 months

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Finally, I got something to share! A little bit of back story. For a while now I've wanted what I call a slut outfit. It is supposed to be exactly what it sounds like. An outfit that would make others think I'm a slut.

Well, a few days ago, I ordered it ^^, and today it arrived!!! I was so lucky that when it arrived, I was alone at home! So I instantly stripped down and put it on. And oh my god, do I love it!!!

It consists of a black mini skirt, which is just a bit longer than a belt. And a cropped hoodie, which is basically just sleeves and a hood.

No matter what I do. It looks so slutty!!! I bend over and you can see my cunt. I try to pick something up from up high and you see my T-dick. And you can always see my stomach and chest. I even got nipple sticks that say "fuck me" though I have yet to try them. I got so fucking wet while walking around in it!!! I didn't even touch myself. I was so on edge going out of my room in that even though I knew I was alone.

I don't think I'll be able to stop wearing it/ thinking about wearing it for a while now @///@

#nsft #ftm nsft #trans nsft #queer nsft #side talk #denial nsft #nsft denial #denial #long term denial #denial journal

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skitskatdacat63 · 9 months

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"The Boy With The Thorn in His Side"(x) - The Smiths × 2023 Strollonso moments + pundits' reactions

#baby's first web weave please be kind #frankly i could make a giant masterpost on my opinions on which Smiths songs fit which drivers/ships #i like their music a very healthy amount and I don't spend countless hours daydreaming to it...no....#but this particular song has been haunting me bcs i think it fits them super well!!#with their relationship dynamics and then the way everyone doubts their relationship #though its been hilarious watching the f1tv commentators kind of resign themselves to 'ah well ig this is what AMR/Fernando is like now'#went from being confused and shocked at their on track comradery to just accepting it for what it is #now theyre like 'ah yes lance dutifully lets fernando pass' compared to the previous ouright disbelief and denial #yeah thats right...theyre in love...what are you gonna do about it...#i think one day itd be fun to make a vid comp of all the times the commentators were ?????? at strollonso's lovey doveyness it is fun TO ME #it was really funny to look through shitty articles for negative comments #but the funniest part is that istg all of the articles just quote this one singular man who is hellbent on being a hater #i am in your walls peter windsor.#i think its silly when they bring in 'f1 experts' for their opinions ona drivers motivations and mindset #they act like such armchair psychologists like bruh your degree is probably engineering or journalism calm down!!#hehehe anyways happy with this!! i wrote it out on paper like a whole ass essay draft to brainstorm what to put #and then i scrolled thru the draft while listening to the song and im just EEEEEEE IT FITSSSSSSS #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1 #lance stroll #fernando alonso #fa14 #ls18 #1418 #1814 #strollonso #alonstroll #normal posts that catie normally makes in a normal fashion

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babypuppiboi · 5 months

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So far this nnn I haven’t been playing with my cock that much it’s not exactly no touch but I have been mostly training my hole 😵‍💫

Not to mention I got some new toys today including a cock gag and… I never knew how big my oral fixation was I put that thing on and my head immediately got sooo fuzzy

#mine #puppy babbles #ftm nsft #ftm sub #ftm bottom #denial kink #edging and denial #nnn #denial nsft #subspace nsft #Jj’s denial journal

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knowledgevariabledarcy · 2 months

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remembertheplunge · 5 months

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This Zoe thing: it's impossible to describe in words

May 7, 2023. Sunday. 8:48pm

Home.

Thank God

Motel living gets old.

There is such a feel of lack of privacy.

Talked with neighbor Alice on my return from Chico around 6pm this evening.

Regarding Zoe’s impending death, she said “It will be quick. It will happen soon.”

She will pick up my mail and put the trash cans up while I’m gone Wednesday to Sunday.

She said to check on donating Zoe’s body for scientific research. They pick the body up. Cremation is free.

This is ghastly to discuss. Horrible. But, it’s apparently a reality. I told Zoe today that I still don’t quite believe that she will die.

She told Javiar, her neighbor, that she wanted nothing that would extend or prolong her life.

Zoe wrote journals! I never knew. I glanced in one and saw that it was dated 1987. I brought 5 of her journals home. I will bring the rest next trip.

She said “Don’t get mad about what I wrote about you.”

I said “I never would, that’s what journals are for.”

I brought home Red Fred, Lovable Pinky and the painting I did of LE and Anna’s house in Cassie Loving’s art class in 1983!

When I hesitated taking the painting, she said “Take it, I’m dying.” She said to take things now, they may disappear later.

Letting her precious things go is a sign that she is dying.

The first blog re: Zoe’s illness and impending death came out today.

It got 5 likes.

Driving away from Chico about 1pm, I cried.

I played on Apple Play Greg Brown’s " Spring Wind” in which one lyric is “A Spring wind blew my list of things to do away.”

And a song I’ve never heard before Van Morrison’s “Into the Mystic”

And Phil Ochs. “Changes”.

This feels raggedy and horrible.

It’s so hard not to feel guilty about all that I could have done that I didn’t through the years for Zoe.

So, I breath in healing.

9:55pm

I tried to sleep. I’m vey anxious.

Such odd times. This Zoe thing. I’ve never felt like this before..

This kind of uneasiness.

It’s impossible to describe in words.

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Notes:

My sister, Zoe, died May 14, 2023.

I live in Modesto, California. Chico, where she died, is a 4 hour drive north from here.

LE and Anna were my father’s parents. The house I painted was their 1926 home they had built in Lincoln Nebraska. That is the city I was born in in1955.

Alice, my neighbor is a retired nurse. She also said on May 7 that my sister’s death would be a rough ride. It was. Zoe died of pancreatic cancer.

Red Fred and Lovable pinky were stuffed animal dog’s that we had as children.

Cassie Loving was my art instructor and later close friend in Placerville, California. I began practicing law in Placerville in the early 1980’s.

Walking up to the court house Monday May 8 here in Modesto, I got the call from Zoe that the Doctor earlier that day said that she had weeks to live.

I returned to Chico Tuesday May 8.

#journaling #writing #sister's impending death #death denial #Phil ochs #Van Morrison #Greg Brown #pancreatic cancer #Linclon Nebraska #Chico California #death arrangements

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