I made a fanfic for bom. I worked rlly hard on it.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/46710496

thank yoh so fucking much for thsi we are absolutely obsessed this is the greatest thing kn the entire world

Hi can I have some advice?? In a little bit of a pickle rn.

So basically, I identify as aroace (like no attraction whatsoever end of both spectrums). My best friend, who we'll call S for the sake of making it easier, is somewhere on the spectrum (I don't remember where rn but it's not very important to the story). We have a mutual friend, A, who is allo. The three of us have been friends since around 3rd grade, and have gotten a lot closer due to sharing more classes over the past year or so. They're both lovely people.

Now, the problem arose a few days ago, when we were riding back from somewhere we'd gone for S's birthday together. It was cold, and because of where we'd gone I'd dressed up in a cape. So I put my arm and the cape over A's shoulder, so he wasn't cold and also because it was kinda funny. We joked around, I sent a selfie of us to the gc the three of us have captioned "No Hetero" (because I'm female and A's male, it was meant to be an adaptation of "No Homo"). All normal things.

Later that night, when I'm at home, S sends me this text:

"Hey uh

I don't want you to tell [A] or make hints bout it or anything

But he likes you now"

We talked, she told me that she told him I'm aroace (which, while technically outing me, I didn't mind because I trust them both and I'd sent the flag in the gc that night so he would've figured it out with a quick google search anyways), and said she'd tried her best to explain. Meanwhile, A is texting me saying that he's sad (I'd asked how he was doing after he asked me), and responding "I found out something really disappointing and discouraging abt a friend" and saying that "it's really private, sorry" when I pressed for more. Which I'm almost 100% sure is about me.

I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I love them both (/p) and I don't want our relationship to change at all. And so far it hasn't, but I can tell A's more down than usual now. I don't want to break my promise about talking about it to S, beside I don't really want to discuss it unless I have to and A doesn't know I know, but I also don't want to feel like I'm walking on eggshells. I'm so scared of losing my friendships to romance, and this just happened in the middle of a really big and stressful life event for me.

So far things are staying the same, and I'm really hopeful it continues that way. But I'm also very aware that we'll probably have to talk about it at some point, because it has definitely shifted our relationship, at least internally.

Idk, something about knowing that a friend had/has a crush on me completely changes my worldview. Before I was scared of losing friends because society has made us believe that friends and family are second to s/o. And while I do still fear that, I just realized that it's actually possible for this to happen where I'm the "s/o", and after someone gets rejected or breaks up, it's not common (at least in media) to see them just chilling as friends again.

So, yeah. That's the situation, if anyone has any sort of advice, I would be very grateful.

-Raven (signing in case of future updates)

These situations are definitely complicated. It does sound like A developed some feelings and is disappointed those feelings can't be reciprocated. Even though no one did anything wrong, it can still be hard to deal with a situation like this. I'd recommend taking your cues from A. So for example if A pretended that it wasn't the situation with you he was disappointed by, I'd take that as a sign he doesn't currently want to talk about it. But there may come a time in the future he does want to discuss it, or does want to talk about you being aroace, and I'd talk about it then. Sometimes people need a bit of time to deal with hurting feelings, and sometimes when that hurt subsides a bit, they may or may not want to talk and clear the air.

Similarly, sometimes in these situations, the person who caught feelings may want a bit of space to deal with those feelings. If this happens, it doesn't necessarily mean he doesn't want to be friends anymore, so don't panic. And give him whatever space he asks for, but make it clear you still care a lot about him.

Situations like these are going to be more up to A how things turn out, but the best thing you can do to preserve the friendship is just keep being A's friend. Be there for him, listen to him, etc.

Beware treating media like real life. I know of lots of real life examples where someone caught feelings for someone that weren't reciprocated, or dated someone and they broke up, and they stayed friends. These things depend a lot more on individual personality and what kind of dynamic the people involved have than anything else. And when rejection comes because the other person just isn't attracted to their gender, while it's not 100%, people do tend to be forgiving because it's not personal at all.

Remember too that you didn't do anything in this particular situation. You didn't cause him to be attracted to you, it's all just chance. And I'm sure A recognizes that too, so be careful you're not beating yourself up at all over this. Just do your best to be a supportive friend, and I think that's really all you can do in these types of situations.

All the best and good luck, Anon!

“Matter on Canvas”, 2019  - Taemin

Introduction to “Walking the Earth” - my new Horror story collection about a group of Hellions, featuring NCT, Taemin and the rest are a surprise... 

Warnings: GORE. A brief description of sexual activity, foul language to come. 

Word count: 840 (a little drabble to get this started)

“Artistic expression” is a very broad term: It enables an individual to perhaps say, or do something that will convey their emotions. Some people prefer prose or poetry, others – painting, sculpture or even dance. Then there are the select few who often go down unorthodox routes. Much like our current protagonist:

Taemin.  

You see, when you have abilities beyond those that are human, the mind wanes and often becomes bored with the toys around you. You start to harbour ideas that occasionally slip into reality – like applying just that touch more pressure to easily break flesh like that of an over-ripened peach. It all becomes too easy to lose control over digits and limbs and teeth; appendages that have had power on the edge of spilling out for too many years. Taemin gasps as the warmth seeps onto his hand and forearm, pupils dilating, ears ringing as the sheer excitement muffles out the cry of the body on the black silk sheets beneath his form. He can feel the sheer want spreading from his abdomen: through his chest and down his limbs, parched mouth suddenly filling like a spring as he moves forward undulating into plush hips, too fast for normal comprehension. His canvas taking on hues of clay red through to indigo with his momentum and puncturing grip. He can slightly feel now, their weak push of life trying to break past the haze of pleasure - his subject far gone under the cloud of deception he conjured.  

Humans were all too easily coddled into situations beyond their means. Whether it be for money, success, love or lust – they were pliable – and being the artist that he was, Taemin had the tools to manipulate as he desired.  

With a feral grunt, he lurches forward and presses an opened-mouthed kiss, sealing the fate of the human below. The Kiss of Death draws out a pleased whine from him, satiating his need for a long-awaited meal. The energy is not nearly enough the demon decides, as his strong jaws close around supple skin, relishing in the tension that gives way under his teeth before being met with that same metallic warmth now sticky on his arms. Whole chunks of forbidden fruit slide down his gullet, spit mingling with the red that now drips down his chin. He inhales the pungent scent of warm, raw meat diffusing into the air and moans. The whole dining experience is enough to make him hard again, so he finds that with laboured breaths and a smile too wide, his sharp thrusts now make wetter sounds. In the wane light of his studio, Taemin looks ironically ethereal with his sweat-sheen glow. Combing back his ashen locks, he runs an oddly-long tongue over his top lip to catch what’s fallen there before looking down at the now-still body. The air in his lungs has stopped burning with adrenaline, his expression calm and almost stoic as he casts his gaze over unfocused eyes and a slack mouth. A short sigh echoes in his room when Taemin realises that his fingers were once again too strong – one by one he removes them from the lesions in the milky thighs he made unknowingly, sucking on scarlet fingertips, releasing each one with a smack of his lips. His subject lays limp and cooling on the bed and our demon thanks his intuition for laying on a dark bedspread – at least if he cannot get any stains out, his next visitor would be none the wiser.  

Clambering off the blood-sodden mattress, sagging under both their weight, the demon silently reminds himself to buy a new one as he slides his brass Zippo along the scratched-up ebony table into his grasp. Amber reflects onto his complexion as he lights a menthol cigarette, taking a glance at the display before him while he drags on his pseudo-digestif. It’s quite a sight; all his passion was poured into this little endeavour after all. “The arrangement’s not that bad either” he rasps to no-one as he makes to unplug his phone on charge, awkwardly snapping some photos with speckled hands. He knows that at least someone in his Kakao group would appreciate his groove, though the photos with flash didn’t look as artistic as he had hoped. The iPhone gets tossed onto a nearby beaten-up green wingback chair as he makes his way to the shower, not before stumping out his cigarette in the remnants.  

He misses the notifications, glowing in the din.

[Hellions GC]

12:07am

「 Henderick’s: Holy shit hyung, maybe not great to send when I’m trying not to get a stiffy in the club rn? 💦💦」

12:09am

「ISO_king: ^Watch your tongue, fledgeling 」

「 ISO_king: ...what did you even take this on, your phone? At least use a filter, dude. Think of it as impartial advice for next time 👌」

12:20am

「 동영: you better have concealed this mess by tomorrow or you know what will happen, Lee Taemin. No traces.」

...He’d need to clean up to sleep, anyhow.

i was tagged by my dearest child, @tilyoutryit​. i nominate @teddyaltman​, @rachelgreene​, @freaking-isadorkable​, @hotgirlwizard​, and anyone who’s as bored as i am and wants to make time pass faster.​

last text sent: 'every time we say twss we have to pay for drinks’ to the wife and stevie in our gc about the broody lesbian’s drink money jar list three favourite colours: red, black, blue what time did you wake up today?: a little before 7 i believe what were you doing last night at midnight?: tbh i think i was sleeping already name something you can’t wait for: stevie’s visit and LONDON IN SEPTEMBER when was the last time you saw your mother: that’s a good question...last week i think one thing you wish you could change about your life: i wish i was tidier what’s getting on your nerves right now?: the fact that i have to eat slowly bc i got my lip pierced last night favourite tv shows: friends, one tree hill, (old school) grey’s anatomy first best friend: probably jess listening to right now: fall out boy 3 fears: clowns, being abandoned, the dark 4 turn ons: thighs, neck kisses, tattoos, girls in general 4 turn offs: omg four is probably not enough tbh sexual orientation: lesbiaaaaaan senior quote in your yearbook: oscar wilde; “to live is the rarest thing in the world. most people exist, that is all.” first thing you notice in a new person: eyes shoe size: 8.5-9 eye colour: dark brown hair colour: naturally dark brown, currently it’s blonde favourite item of clothing: all my bowties probably what colour underwear you’re wearing rn: they’re light blue and they have dark blue flowers and yellow dots all over favourite season: summer and spring how much time did you spend designing your blog: i’ve been working on it on and off since last week tbh but i’ve been busy the reason you joined tumblr: grey’s fandom and i wanted to gif do you ever get ‘good morning’ or ‘good night’ texts?: generally i get good morning texts in our group chats bc we usually all fall asleep before saying good night...but sometimes we say good night. when did you last hold hands: babe and i sometimes hold hands in our sleep so last night/this morning how long does it take you to get ready in the morning?: depends on where i’m headed, if it’s work maybe like 30 minutes have you shaved your legs in the past three days?: yes where are you right now?: sitting at my desk at work do you like music loud or at a reasonable level?: loud 3 things you love: my wife, our fur babies, and my friends how you feel right now: so sleepy and tired something you really really want: to be home already 3 things that upset you: people talking over you, hateful people, the fact that tr*mp is still the “president” what do you find attractive in other people?: sense of humor, how they carry themselves, how they treat others something you fantasize about: our future house something you’re talented at: being anxious about anything and everything probably the blog you give the most notes to: lately probably one of my newly followed sanvers blogs and babe’s of course the last person that reblogged something from you: my dear laura! @ethanschandler do you smoke/drink: i drink but rarely smoke cigarettes your favourite food: babe makes the best mashed potatoes, corn and chicken meal...and anything seafood your favourite dessert: chocolate cake what you did yesterday: drove the wife to work, , took a shower, played with wilbur and nala, played ratchet and clank, got my lip pierced and just hung out with the wife at home watching tv  number of kids you want: three number of siblings you have: one older sister something that’s constantly on your mind: london last person you messaged on tumblr: wifey bc i sent her a funny photoset can you drive?: yes what state or part of the world do you live in?: pennsylvania are you in school?: not since 2012 do you get grossed out easily?: sometimes somewhere you would like to visit for a week: anywhere my friends are tbh I’ll love you if …: you play with my hair last show you binge-watched?: one day at a time what words upset you the most: hate words tbh what words make you feel the best about yourself: there’s a few a wish that you’ve wished for repeatedly on 11:11: i used to wish on 11:11 all the time as a little kid..not so much lately who would you switch lives with for a day?: probably wilbur or nala bc they sleep all day and i want that life your favourite ice cream: chocolate allergies: none that i’m aware of sexiest person to come your mind immediately: my wife ;) your childhood career choice: i wanted to be a teacher or an engineer one of your insecurities: my body and my nose how many blogs are you following?: 176 how many tabs/windows do you have open right now?: 5 coke or pepsi: coke all the way tea or coffee: coffee movie or book: book a sense you would be willing to lose: omg none probably but if i had to probably smell quote you live by: “on particularly rough days when i'm sure i can't possibly endure, i like to remind myself that my track record for getting through bad days so far is 100% and that's pretty good.” type of accessory you wear most: watch, earrings, bracelets and rings last awkward situation you found yourself in: i got up too quickly and my desk chair rolled all the way into the wall behind me..everyone looked at me what time is it right now?: 1:36pm a song that’s made you cry: the words by christina perri first song you ever sang at karaoke: i can’t remember tbh