(Jun. 29- Dec. 20, 2023)
Someone New
“[I]t seemed, standing there in Finny’s triumphant shirt, that I would never stumble through the confusions of my own character again.”
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hi goobers
i wanted to practice doing backgrounds and different coloring methods bc i rarely ever get to do them anymore. The methods i used were basic one point perspective lines and using the grayscale to color method (honestly yall i didnt know wat i was doing😀)
i started making this back in june and i intended to finish it within a week but it went on for months bc i am unfortunately a perfectionist so i kept redoing it lol 💀💀 and i kept adding more to it.
yea i was honestly being over-ambitious rendering a bg, trying a new coloring methods, and blending a character in all at the same time 🙂🙂 i’ve been working on this art piece for so long that i got tired of looking at it
yea i was cycling through the stages grief and lost my sanity 😊
but anyways here’s Gene trying on Finny’s pink shirt ^0^ ik Gene had put on Finny’s shirt in their dorm but like i really wanted to do a nasty bathroom for sum reason. i thought it’d be a fun bg to play with
i was also gonna make the pink shirt glow bc my friend suggested it to me but i didn’t really know how to do that ;_;
also, the rendering style is based off of the Spider-Verse movies ^^ cuz can we all agree that the spiderverse style just looks super cool and an absolute masterpiece
first vers. no text
2nd vers. without the kooky effects
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I simply do not understand final girl. Fandom police is pretty self explanatory. People who care to much about fiction cause they don't have a real personality. But what is final girl??
its a trope in horror movies, specifically slasher films, referring to the final woman who survives the story. thats a pretty simplified exolanation, though. it was coined in the book Men, Women, and Chainsaws: Gender in the Modern Horror Film, to describe the trend of how girls are treated in slasher movies. in addition to surviving to the end, final girls are typically also: virginal yet subjects of sexual desire, become the viewpoint character after the killer in at least the 2nd half of the movie, saved by a man OR for later iterations falsely saved by a man, and acquire a phallic weapon such as a knife to fight back. essential examples include jess in black christmas, laurie in halloween, nancy in nightmare on elm steet, and sidney in scream :)
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What is your favourite thing about Billie Lurk?
(Answers are obvious possibly but i love when people talk about her👍)
thanks for the ask!! YEAH ME TOO I love when people talk about Billie! I can't say I have a favourite thing specifically, but I can explain why she's my fav. apologies for not taking this qn literally, but -
short answer: she’s really cool
& you can stop reading there, or, for the maybe 2 mutuals who might have time to read this my thoughts on her as a character, her meta, and her character as raw potential...
long answer:
i considered making this entire thing a gush so you could read a gush about Billie. but, part of what draws me to her is that she’s not always well written, and in fandom she’s underrated for a literal protagonist.
since you ask...
billie is a cool character
when I played Dh2 (hadn't played Dh1), I was excited to see a black woman with disabilities who was captaining a massive ship by herself. wow.
then I discovered Billie’s backstory with Deirdre, the way she responded to that, then having to survive while living on the run, and her bisexuality. as well as her history with daud & delilah. fascinating!
she’s an outsider who has so much to lose, and knows what it's like to lose everything - having lost everything not once but three times - but nevertheless speaks truth to power. she's so brave! she went and helped Emily & Corvo and she must have known they might kill her! plus, she’s smart, she’s funny, she gets shit done, she’s gorgeous.
but... the meta
mild critique of fandom & arkane incoming.
skip this bit if you want - you've been warned twice now - jump to tired Hayao Miyazaki and read from there if you'd like my thoughts on writing her.
i thought Death of the Outsider was going to be amazing and then... well. *sad trombone* i've written about that before so i won't keep banging on. i figured others must be disappointed too, so I joined a few fandom spaces in hopes of finding camaraderie.
most people with complaints about DotO didn’t like how the Outsider and Daud were handled. which is valid & I agree. but it seemed like most paid no attention to Billie; when people talk about her it’s with respect to Daud, as opposed to in her own right. you could argue for fandom misogyny because people don’t talk about adult Emily Kaldwin that much either, but in Billie's case, it’s misogynoir (compare & contrast with the popularity of thomas, particularly the popularity of thomas portrayed as a white man for no particular reason that i've been able to discern - i keep asking around, is it in the books???).
i think this is a LOT better now than it used to be, which is fantastic. or perhaps i have found the correct echo-chamber? ha.
ultimately, The Fandom is a fraction of the entire picture, and not even the important bit since The Fandom is not who these games are made for. you can't make money relying on only your hardcore fans even if all of them spent a fortune on merch, this is true for any AAA game.
while it's true that Billie is underrated from a fandom perspective - but Billie as an underwritten protagonist is squarely Arkane’s fault.
it was reasonable when she was a side character - the lack of info in Dh2 makes perfect sense (if anything there was more lore in Dh2 which is kind of wild)-
- but as a protagonist in Death of the Outsider?
.... there’s lousy writing, and there’s whatever is going on with Billie Lurk, a black woman who mostly exists as a foil or saviour for light-skinned characters. In her own game there’s barely any of her own lore except where it's relevant to saving two dudes.
lore hints at, but barely touches on what race means in the Dh universe (xenophobia is stronger in Dh1; separate essay i guess), but Arkane has patted themselves on the back for portraying non-white characters, which feels like the same thing as the aesthetic of diversity we're seeing in advertising currently because it’s in marketing trend guides. it's self-congratulatory and it's a missed opportunity for deeper storytelling.
you can see an example of diversity at its most shallow in the way that Billie’s written: there’s little engagement with her as an entire person with history & wants & preferences, and the world she walks through in that game feels like it has nothing to do with her. you could make a case for alienation as a theme, but then, how do you handle the titular premise of 'Dishonored' without ever letting Billie make changes in an environment without a chaos system? it's disappointing from that angle too.
in my opinion, whatever it's worth, it was an accident Arkane created such an awesome character - they needed someone to betray daud. congrats billie.
all this said, it makes her an underdog as far as characters to enjoy & create art & stories for. it's nice to find so many like-minded, switched on people! <3
billie's character potential
she’s got a wealth of unexplored lore, being deeply intertwined with both Karnaca & Dunwall’s fates & criminal underbellies, as well as her connections to the witches & whalers, and three Empresses.
she’s lived a few distinct lifetimes and in the games we get to meet her at two peaks (KoD & DotO) & a low (Dh2 as Meagan).
her voice is very distinct, her dry & often dark humour is entertaining & fun to write. her perspective is really interesting - she’s had the widest variety of void-powers of anyone canonically, and she’s also lived through the highest highs and lowest lows.
she's got everything going for her :) i couldn't really pick a fav thing!
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One thing that’s always been weird to me about pahkitew is how much of a vacuum it exists in compared to the rest of the series. No inclusion of pre-existing characters aside from chris and chef, no connection to the show’s original setting, no previous story built upon, absolutely zero tie-in to anything that happened before it except the fact that they needed to use a new island. ROTI had the new cast back at Wawanakwa and cameos from the original campers. RR, despite not having chris, had returning characters that play key roles in the season + get new development. The only thing connecting PI to the total drama canon at all is chris, chef, and Leonard’s very brief appearance in RR (and even that was a spin-off). This isn’t really a criticism but I think it’s definitely a big reason why nobody really remembers this season at all compared to the rest of the show and I don’t really see it brought up often? If you just change the host + tweaked the elimination game format a bit it could be its own separate show entirety
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this might not be quite what i mean to say, but a few days ago i was thinking about pairs of shoes and how they relate to each other. these shoes have known each other entirely, they are twins and complements and go on all the same adventures. when one shoe is lost the purpose of both is lost. it hurts to walk in mismatched shoes. their purposes are so entwined with one another that alone they are something else entirely. they must love each other and miss each other when one is lost, but really everything about their life changes when their partner is lost. now i am not at all saying phan is like this (that would be unhealthy lol). i am just thinking about how we don't have enough words to describe the depths and types of love that may exist. twin/best friend/partner- none of these sufficiently describe how shoes must feel about each other. did my point make any sense? lol
omg sorry i saw and answered the second ask first LOL
but YES YOU GET IT!!! i feel like sometimes what i talk about can come across as a bit anti-label, but it's moreso that labels can be malleable and are constantly changing and sometimes necessary but not always accurate cuz you can't really capture the human experience with words
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Cumulus is always the dommy mommy.
Dont get me wrong shes hot as a dom but i dont really care for the mommy part if that makes sense. Let her be a mistress or sir or something!!
interestingly enough, i dont really ever see cumulus as dommy mommy? or rather, i should say she is most often 'mommy' coded but i feel like i dont see that dom aspect? i feel like the fandom assigned dommy mommy has been cirrus historically (we'll talk about that in a lil bit)
but, and you can correct me if im wrong, i think im understanding you here when you say 'mistress' or 'sir', because of the fact when she is more dominant, its paired with the 'mommy' thing. she doesnt typically get written with a hard dom edge. theres always some aspect of softness, is how im taking that.
which is true, ive seen that. and i might derail a bit from your personal point and maybe even the common theme that ive seen so far . . . but i dont know if anyone else feels this way, but cumulus and sunshine, to me, dont feel like ghouls who typically enjoy that hard edge (at least in my personal hc). i would group mist and aurora in that category, with cirrus somewhere in that middle ground.
i totally get wanting to see that from a ghoulette like lus, due to the fact she's not the type of character people would 'assume' would act that way. its very easy to say we should write characters in protest or in opposition to the roles most commonly assigned to them. but i also want to offer the idea that maybe we're just doing the same thing but in reverse. im of the belief that its perfectly okay to write feminine characters with feminine stereotypes, so long as those traits are balanced with other elements of their character.
again, i completely understand wanting to see her in different roles, especially bc people who look like lus are literally all shades of different from each other. AND that the prevailing characterization of lus tends to sway in one pinpointed direction, which isnt good either. AND AND that you could literally have all kinds of ideas about who cumulus is to you, and its technically correct. all we know is how these ghouls act on stage. we dont have actual plot and things to critique like a show or movie would. we're critiquing each other, which many a time ends up as a critique of the greater societal stereotypes and ideas about fat women. which is valid. and i know im rambling and this is more of what i specifically want to talk about in another (even longer lmao) post.
in the end, i agree. it would be nice to separate the dom and the mommy thing from being cemented together, because dom in itself has soooo many flavors and shapes etc. maybe lus doesnt want to be nice. maybe she does want that hardness. i dont know! but youre right, i dont see that of her much.
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