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juodojimirtis · 11 months

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It’s a shame there are only the icon and header, no third spot... I want to put Adriel somewhere, but I'm so attached to both Valak and Malthus. Not to menthion they've been in the spot of honour for years.

#thoughts #thought journal #diary pages #warrior nun #the conjuring #warrior num fandom #the conjuring fandom #come on man how am I to choose #among my beloved demons and the fake antichrist #i mean i like adriel's face a lot

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nibeul · 10 months

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uncle aaron in spiderverse fucks me up so badly because here is a man who has done terrible, unforgivable things, and he loves his nephew very much

#augh... augh #like he's selfish and he chooses the wrong path in order to stay afloat but this #n his love for miles r not mutually exclusive #the whole thing about how he wanted miles 2 look up to him what if I explode #srry no other iteration of him holds a candle esp the comics when it comes 2 his death #I am an itsv Aaron Davis apologist man #and the lack of content surrounding Aaron n miles makes me so sad ToT #itsv #atsv

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crossbackpoke-check · 11 months

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Why I Am Not Coming In To Work Today [abridged], Jess Zimmerman

part one | part two

#me when everybody is posting the maple leafs sad narratives and i am furiously generating this like HOLD ONNNN HOLD ONNNNNNN #honestly i could've been SOOOO MEAN about this because i saw this poem & alexandra got the preview on the poetry blog #where i just reblogged the first half of this poem point blank with the tags #kyle dubas #toronto maple leafs #& got yelled at aksdaksf & it literally only didn't go on this blog bc i usually write more & then it was percolating & i looked up the poe #& it was only the FIRST PART i'd reblogged i didn't know there was more & then brain immediately went brrrrr ok time for an edit.#this is a long one lol & i also have no idea if it makes sense to anybody but me but because y'all know me i will always overexplain so!!#my reasoning for the reasons obvi kyle. that's a given i hope he's doing well i hope he & his family r good but man is not coming in to wor #the second edit took me a stupid amount of time bc i am nitpicky but also i learned how to do the layers & transparency from the claude edi #that actually y'all don't know about lmao but i lost my mind when i saw how perfectly those pictures align i was scrolling getty & was like #ok december i'm gonna do a headline one (in my brain with the november/june quote about choosing to die again) w/ maple leafs playoff odds #how they say at winter break you know who's gonna be in the playoffs & who'll win & they thought they had a shot but it's mitchie overlaid #the 2003-04 team who'd last won a playoff round with the atlantic division stats from dec for 22-23 & how long it's been & dec headlines #i wanted breakup/recent/never loved to be a recent trade acquisition somebody who bounced around & somebody else so i almost had simmer #brodie & zar but then i wanted to make murray for breakup at any time &i forgot zar & him were on the pens together &it hit me like a truc #bc there's a photo of the two of them EXACTLY the same so close it's scary of this one but them as pens so they had to be it & i did always #know never loved again was mitchie. sorry. also mitchie in the penalty box the last game but i couldn't find footage of it & this one works #no i could not find a photo of tyler bertuzzi fighting a leaf for a dog looked at me yes i tried.#i almost made the bunting photo jt but instead it's 'bunting a rat etc' anyway the one i really feel unhinged about is dead pets bc at firs #i was gonna make it the handshake line & look to see if the leafs had drafted anybody on the panthers (dead pet former draft pick)#& they had & it was carter verhaeghe & i couldn't get a good pic of matthews & verhaeghe but it's fine bc i thought about the mo/luke schen #narrative (in which they are a perfect d pair long lost) & schenn was drafted by the leafs & that line fits jut trust me. also how i feel #about the kniesy luminous line that one possessed me it had to be kniesy idk why. i almost put gussy as girls are too pretty though ALSO #did u like my joke. daylight SAVINGS time on the goalie. thank u. also my photo magic on the jt (me very poorly editing in him as an isle)#OK ALSO HOLD ONNNNN there is a part two but i have to wait for the Content i want it will come out as soon as [redacted] or sooner #if i get bad at waiting &everyone will pretend like it is always the way it will be once i have the photos i want. speaking of did the leaf #simply not take a team photo this year?? it Does Not Exist for me i have tried very hard to look for it also i'm excited for part 2 #one of them is named oh you're so unhinged for this one & the finished product is you're unhinged in ways you didn't even know u were sorry #liv in the replies

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scattered-winter · 4 months

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the fascinating thing about the maze runner books vs the movies is that they're both tragedies, but just...different kinds. in the books no matter what wicked did, they never got close to a cure. it was all for nothing: all the torture, all the death, all the money and effort spent trying to cure something that was just unstoppable. the world burned while a few hundred immunes survived, and there was no other way the story could have gone.

but in the movies they were so close. thomas was the cure. they had it in their hands and could have saved everyone, but they were just too late. wicked was destroyed, the last city fell, and with it the world's last hope for a cure. they almost got the cure in time. they almost made it in time to save newt. they almost won.

#tragedy where it was all inevitable vs tragedy where victory was within reach but it was just too late for everyone. fight.#anyway i am insane about this tonight. good day #just watched the death cure deleted scenes for the first time and man......................................................................#the way all the complexity to gally's character was practically left out of that movie. what if i explode.#also the way everyone hates teresa for LITERALLY no reason like girl........god forbid morally gray women do anything.#honestly while we're talking. thomas is morally gray too.#he's choosing himself + his friends over the entire world. while teresa is sacrificing her friends to save the world.#two sides of the same morally gray coin etc etc. i will defend teresa until the day i die btw.#not idly do i choose my blog title.#but anyway it's just insane to me how much moral complexity and nuance there is in these books/movies #and how much of it was left OUT of the movies too. litcherally insane.#oooough.....role reversal au..................#tmr mutuals here's some food. i havent maze runner posted in ages but the brainworms are coming back #winter speaks #the maze runner

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futuristichedge · 2 months

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Fic so good u start imagining more fic for it

#rambles #man. SATBK fic (specifically 'what isnt yours') killing me atm #thinking abt the satbk cast interacting with main world counterparts and goddd #silver and galahad would be so. like what do you mean you got to be raised in a relatively healthy environment with a dad and stability #youre a knight and training to improve and here i am doing the same thing but with no guidance and the future on my shoulders #satbk save me. save me satbk #also nimue and amy would get along i think. tails and the blacksmith too (trading of special interest info)#percival and blaze both having that high level if dignity and duty but one coming from being a knight and the other being a princess.#gawain and knuckles might clash over small things but overall get along #shadow would not fucking stand lancelot. what do you mean all these rules of following a king dictate how i should act. i choose for myself #and lamorak and jet i have no fucking clue. mutual recognition for skill but also 'what is WRONG with you' maybe???#too busy with school to write or draw comic... so i must daydream

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coffeeandcalligraphy · 2 months

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jeremiah and reeve in canon meetup WHENNNNN

#+ LONAN & JEREMIAH MEETUP WHENNNNNNN #sorry to sideblog ppl who are now seeing these thoughts TWICE LMAO #but THE WAYYY JEREMIAH AND REEVE WOULD LOVEEEE EACH OTHERRRR #HARRISONNNN YOU FUCK !!! lmao my fault sorry BUT ALSO #lonan would admire and enjoy jeremiah's company so much like he would like that man #he would be like harrison wtf why did you choose me lmaooo #how can I canonically get jeremiah to meet both lonan and reeve #he could realistically meet reeve if he's ever idk... in fucking new york (guess Who Else is there)#waitttt jeremiah post breakup novella in new york #why am I literally just coming up with ideas for the novellas I've already written #body back = me and my ex are living in the same city we broke up in #we cannot do this again. OR CAN WE!!!!!!!!#I love novellas I could write these for the rest of my life #TAG ESSAY OVER OKKKK #wait editing to add it is actually 20 million times more plausible that jeremiah and lonan meet considering #THEY BOTH LIVE IN DOWNTOWN LAS VEGAS

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n4rval · 2 months

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ough. toriel my beloved

#comics may or may not be coming #(they are i am drawing them)#why is it so difficult. not the process of drawing but something about choosing a canvas size and marking the panels makes my brain lag #okay kingdings is something that exists i guess but can we have a little old lady interaction.#need more content of wingdings actually being a part of that world and an important individual for the people around him #rather than just existing as a satellite to a handful of characters and straight up being barely acknowledged by others #specially considering he was the goddamn Royal Scientist the man genius himself #anyway toriel. their relationship would be funny #she may be perpetually confused by his mannerisms but shes immune to creepy (re: her own creepy ass children across universes)#woman always sees right through him and thinks hes the silliest thing #she knows how badly you want a family mr weirdo come now you can sit at the thanksgiving table #feels kind of bad her efforts cannot undo the debilitating loneliness he radiates however 😔#but my favourite thing: will never Not kiss her hand #there are no romantic undertones it is just a gesture of reverence #will do it to your mom your grandma your sister. really any lady he feels he owes formal acknowledgement #and queen toriel is always owed formal acknowledgement #gugunghhuhguh. ily toriel cant wait to finally figure out how to draw you

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loveofastarvingdog · 11 months

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okay say what you will about "comphet" and "settling," and maybe this is my arospec-ness showing, but i don't feel any attraction to women (romantic or sexual) and would still be 100% down with being in a relationship with one and even marrying a woman. i am pretty much entirely gay when it comes to actual attraction, but mostly consider myself bi or pan when it comes to my approach to relationships, and i just? think that maybe it'd be cool if more people recognized that however other queer people approach relationships and sex when it comes to gender, it doesn't negate their identities. it doesn't mean it's comphet. it doesn't mean it's secretly harming them. sometimes people just choose to have sex, or be in a relationship, or whatever, and it might not "align" with what you think their label ought to be, but it sincerely does not matter at all. it's not your sexuality, or your romantic orientation, or your own personal understanding of yourself, it's theirs. and it doesn't make them bad at being queer, it just means that they're human and get to 1. make their own choices and 2. not conform to other people's ideas about themselves

#timothy's txts.#saving this to drafts for a little bit because i don't want this to come across as targeting something specific #and because i want to make sure i'm not posting this when i'm upset. because i'm not!! it's just that i am passionate about the complexes o #attraction and gender and everything #and while i am specifically referencing how people talk about allosexual gay / lesbian characters experiencing comphet #and also about irl gay / lesbians choosing to hook up with each other for any reason #this is pulled a lot from my own experiences being asexual and arospec and how that colours how i approach sex and relationships #it feels... unfair to say that a gay man choosing to have sex (fun consensual sex with full knowledge!) with a woman #invalidates his sexuality? and i think i've managed to handle action not equaling attraction when it comes to asexuality #but it's a lot less normalised or recognised or accepted or whatever for allosexual people #you know it really is just. an action you can choose to make. for any reason.#ask to tag #no longer in drafts. be free babey

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love-has-a-way-ofgrowingbackward · 8 months

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okay i don't know WHAT it is about regency era arranged marriage novels i don't know WHY im so obsessed but i cannot put this down

#reading mansfield park #why am i reading a book where a girl has to choose between regency version of sweet boy next door and modern city boy #i hated those in hollywood romcoms. how am i so invested in this?????#jane austen #i sigh and put my hand over my heart every time edmund comes on. clearly im the target audience.#never been more targeted as an audience. never had a book show me an attractive man and have me ACTUALLY attracted to him #god. some of these romances make me want to bite my lip and fan my face. he's buying her a horse. gonna pass out #politely ignoring the fact that they're cousins #mansfield park

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bootyful-seventeen · 1 month

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YALL I GOT A DVD PLAYER AT WALMART AN HOUR AGO AND STARTED CRYING WHEN I POPPED IN THE BARBIE IN RAPUNZEL DVD

#oMFG I REALLY GOT HIT HARD WITH THE NOSTALGIA JUST FROM THE GOD DAMN DVD MENU 😭😭😭😭#also picked up a few movies while I was there cuz that 10$ and under bin was calling my name omfg #but the old Barbie movies were hitting so hard on just the dvd menus alone I’m so excited!!!!#even popped in Barbie nutcracker cuz I forgot how it opened and I just ughhhhhhhh they were geniuses for putting stage curtains up #and I am so gonna be going back again soon cuz I saw they had a Scooby foo collection and TMNT COLLECTION TOO #LIKE BRUHHHHHHHHHHHH I LOVED WATCHING THAT ON YTV BACK IN THE DAY #my god I am never gonna ever want to leave my room once the movie collection starts to grow #and they had some collections in that bin too I was losing my shit #it was hard choosing between taking home the Batman collection and the cluesless mean girls and she’s the man feature collection #but I’ll come back again for mean girls cuz they had a few copies in that bin #my god I am going to be such an irritating person talking to people about my dvds lmao #and it’s gonna get even worse when my second copy of happily ever after comes in cuz my old one was so fucking scratched it would skip #well more like freeze and then skip at the scene where the evil queen’s brother is trying to kill Snow White by turning her into stone #and I’m def gonna be looking up more dvd discount stores in my area to find more dvds for the things I’ve liked #maybe if I’m lucky I’ll come across a movie that’s out of print!!!!!

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astridthevalkyrie · 2 months

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feeling like you’re 12 when you’re 22 is genuinely such a humiliating experience.

#my dad and mom have been on my case ab asking for permission before I go places and it makes me kinda sick #seeing everyone around me make plans or whatever and then being like ‘I’ll have to ask 🥺 👉🏽👈🏽#’#and my dad’s a liar he’s like it’s not like we ever say no #except my mother does and so does he???#even the muslim girls I am friends with have more freedom and you know what’s amazing ab this is #they can’t stop me from going to school. they don’t pay for that #they can’t take my car. they don’t pay for that #my mom can stop making food for me and I will manage just fine #they wanna kick me out???? blessing in disguise #but it’s hilarious that as an adult i’m still paying for everything I use but I still have to ask permission genuinely fuck off #my parents when I have to stay late on campus for some school event: 😒#the way I’d be making money rn if they didn’t decide to come and stalk me at work and see me without my hijaab on #and that one’s on me I could choose to just work with it on and make them happy #but I literally can’t as a matter of principle #i’m given such little pride as it is and if I say I don’t want to work with a hijaab on that’s that #i got an internship two days ago for the summer and you can bet your ass I’m not wearing my hijaab #except it’s not paid #and as much as I have guilt spending I really don’t spend a lot and it makes me so angry #i know that your 20s isn’t your whole life and people shouldn’t think that if they waste their 20s their life is up #but it’s like #my teens were already so shitty and abusive and trapped #how much longer do I have to deal w this before i’m treated like an adult #trick question! it’s only until a man can own me bc then he can make my decisions instead of them <3

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pepprs · 11 months

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my mom isn’t letting my dad go back to his office bc him being out of the house stresses her out and makes her have a flare up and it’s like kind of insane. like i understand why the idea of him doing that would make her panicky and angry as someone who also struggles w separation anxiety and abandonment shit / has physical symptoms from that kind of stress (though not to the same degree ofc) but also he is a grown man. he should be allowed to go to his office and not have to shape his entire life around her needs. and she keeps guilt tripping him out of it and it’s impacting his quality of life a lot and the whole thing is kind of… hm

#purrs #delete later #also she’s guilt tripping me into coming to the stupid fucking potluck on sunday bc she needs the extra help and it’s like… what are you #gonna do when i move out. like i am a grown woman and i should be able to choose how i spend my two precious weekend days. and my dad is a #grown man and he should be able to choose where he works. like is that not a little bit insane. i get it but also….. i do think it s kind of #fucked ip that it’s her way or the highway and her needs take priority over all of ours and she’s asking us to bend to what she wants when #she wants it. like i get it bc she’s sick but it’s not fair for her to expect that from my dad especially. particularly when me and my #brother are back at work / school in more high risk environments than my dad who would be in a private office alll day. and the thing is no #one is brave enough to all her on it bc if we did it would be the END of the world. she even threw a fit on my dads bday and complained bc #the things he wanted to do were things she didn’t want to do like all the man wanted to do was go mini golfing and when that wasn’t good #enough he just wanted to go on a walk and my mom complained the whole time and also scoffed the movie he wanted to watch and said it was #boring and it’s like… wtf it’s HIS birthday??? but what do you expect from the woman who (and in fairness her friends got her these as gifts #but still) has TWO kitchen items that say some variation of ‘a marriage is when one is always right and the other is always the husband’ 💀#i look at that little plaque every night bc it’s in front of the sink when im doing dishes and it makes me so fucking angry. like my dad is #a whole fucking person and he can be right too and he deserves to make choices and be happy and not have his wife put him down all the time.#idk. and she puts down his family all the time too and complains when he wants to do the most reasonable things for his own enjoyment that #don’t align with hers and criticizes his interests all the time and it just sucks to see. he never shows hurt or anything so idk how he #feels about it but it makes me so angry and sad and when i tell her to stop she just lashes out at me so. 🤪. like how do we get her to stop #making her needs more important than everyone else’s bc… she may be our mom / his wife / whateger but that doesn’t make her queen. no one is #(andalso this has only gotten worse bc of covid / her being sick. like this has been a lifelong thing it’s just it’s a lot worse now bc the #circumstances gave her room / forced her to have to take up more space. and it’s just so frustrating. i get it. but none of us are pawns or #dolls or subordinates or anything. there’s 5 adults here and we should all be able to make choices and not be guilt tripped by her. lol #)

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scryclown · 6 months

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anyone else simultaneously super anti-gender labels but also feel insane over the fact you have no words to define it. the struggle continues on

#GENDER IS SUCH A BAD OBSESSION FOR ME I CANT EVER STOP THINKING ABT IT ONCE THE THOYGHTS GET TRIGGERED WEH #not a vent btw im jsut like. 😔 man gender hard am i right fellas #im very much I NEED TO USE THE RIGHT WORDS FOR THIS while also knowing yhe words dont matter at all #but also how ppl will see me based on however i choose to define myself has so much baggage that comes with it. i need to choose carefully #oh well!!!!!! such is yhe life of a queer #💾

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moe-broey · 6 months

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Me, losing my absolute mind over the fairies and the greater implications of it all and the intricacies I swear to fucking god are there I swear to fucking GOD there's way more to them than meets the eye and I'm going to fucking get all the alts I fucking can so I can study The Lore and I'll fucking get to the fucking bottom of it all --

.............. you know what. A nap does sound nice.

#fire emblem #feh #i think maybe peony is just like that.#man.... i'm like. split between desperately wanting them to do more with her character ESP this new development #and like. almost respecting it. actually.#like knee jerk reaction of crying bad writing/god forbid women get anything ever aside #EXCLUSIVELY considering this in-universe. peony knows exactly what's she's about #she knows exactly what she wants and has an unwavering optimism one track mind about it #LIKE....... i kinda want to put her in the same category as corrin.#someone who actively CHOOSES kindness and love and hope ESP in the face of The Horrors #which can come off as naive or gullible or childish but like. corrin isn't stupid for it.#they have hope and they were sheltered. they hold onto hope even after learning how harsh #and complicated things can be outside of their tower. i almost want to say the same can be said for peony.#she's always been hopeful. she's always been optimistic. and maybe absolutely in the beginning #it was childish naivety (esp on the account of. being a child LMFAO)#but i think what i'm thinking here is now she's finally gotten a chance to grow a little....#remember and reconcile w her past... reconnect with her sister....#and in it all she chooses hope. also not to mention her desire to help others above all else #which IS WHAT MADE HER PEONY IN THE FIRST PLACE‼️‼️‼️ IF/WHEN SHE SWAPPED W SHARENA‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️#peony i am NOT overthinking it. i suffer from divine visions you see. I WILL CONTINUE TO BE OBSESSED W YOU #(also both of these are her 40 convo i just had to go back to grab the overthinking it dialogue)#(and i want everyone to see. my one orb of incredible pain. i did have to spark for her. 🫥)#fe peony

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hobisexually · 1 year

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#hello it’s your weekly scheduled trauma dump on tungle dot com!#I never knew how to explain why I don’t like the holidays right #because yes! I’m full of love and warmth and want to celebrate nice times with the people I love! absolutely #and I like the coziness and the everything #but Monday it was Sinterklaas and it used to be my favourite holiday of them all #it truly makes me feel like a kid and I used to hold on to this holiday with my tiny fists SO tightly because it was just. pure joy.#minus the racism re: piet obviously that’s a whole other can of worms I won’t get into rn #but this Monday it all exploded because of my dad and it was truly a throwback to my entire teenage years #and how it was all about appearances and pleasing anyone but me only to sit in a car and think about how fake it all is and how #that love isn’t. felt. not really. it’s always been about unspoken pain hè projects onto everyone else without respecting your boundaries #and I just can’t do it anymore and this time I set a firm hard no and his temper tantrum led to my mum choosing him over me EVEN THOUGH #THEY ARE LITERALLY DIVORCED??????????#‘amber hes crying it’s heartbreaking you’re coming’#yeah well I was also crying at WORK by myself where it is of the UTMOST importance to me they don’t know about any of this #but no no this whole grown man who is in a fucked situation with his family OF HIS OWN UNDOING is who we’re choosing instead of your child #I went! I put on my big girl pants and went and said hi to his family and was more than civil and celebrated with the kids #but it cost me so much. and for the first time ever I saw exactly how much it really cost me #I spent three whole days trying to set a boundary and stand up for myself only for it to be discarded because my No doesn’t matter ever #then I was so stressed i broke my own body in an attempt trying to be civil like my entire cheek is swollen from biting it I literally #haven’t been able to eat properly since Tuesday. my stomach hurts. my headache hasn’t gone. and I am so so so tired I fell asleep at 7pm #and I’ve been white as a sheet everyone at work could tell something was wrong but they didn’t know What exactly #and just. the contact with this man. I can’t keep doing it not when it does /this/ to me #I can’t even properly explain what it’s like or what happens. just that I can’t do it anymore because it’s tearing me apart and it actively #holds me back? I spent the past four years in therapy talking about and trying to fix everything he instilled in me but is holding me back #in my life. in my relationships. in my work. in the way I look at /myself/#I can’t keep surviving I have to start living #and it’s ALWAYS worse around the holidays. the worst fights and nights of my life have been during the holidays #I am thirty years old and I was suddenly a fifteen year old this week who desperately needed help but wasn’t getting it #and I refuse to live like that ever again. I’m done. I’m done!#and it’s deeply sad and upsetting but we can’t fix this. we just can’t.

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casiavium · 2 years

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About to go on vacation with my friends and while I do like them and their company if I have to deal with one oh I love every woman ever too bad I'm stuck with my stinky gamer bf how ever did you manage to get a girlfriend I am going to fucking snap

#not real names used #but yes [jessica] tell me again about how beautiful women are and how you would pick literally any one of them over [josh] your generic man #because wlw relationships are soooo much easier aren't they #because it's not like I'm afraid to fucking hold hands with my gf is it? that she's not out to her parents because she's worried about #how they will react since they're super conservative? since her brother goes to christian college?#it's not like because I am now visibly gnc with a fem gf we can't always pass off as 'sisters' or 'just friends' in an emergency.#because no one believes that #it's not like your fucking boyfriend is the type of man who thinks it's hot you like girls and doesn't think you making out with one #at a party is cheating #but yes you'd choose any woman ever over him. you're just so pitiful and unworthy you had to date him #if wlw would just stop complaining about how hard it is to get a girlfriend and fucking DATE EACH OTHER we wouldn't HAVE these problems #you know what? men deserve better. I'm siding with the het man who has bi wife energy over the bi wife who 'hates' him any day #it's not ~quirky~ ~cute~ or ~validating your identity~ to degrad your SO for their gender just because they don't make you look #visibly queer enough to get hate crimed on the streets of Old Town Williamsburg #(which to be perfectly clear had not happened to me personally BUT to MANY of the people in LGBT circles I know. everyone has a story)#and if ONE person comes into my gd ask box with some bullshit about biphobia—the real biphobia is the fact that they are perpetuating #a stereotype that bi is just a stepping stone to gay #be fucking proud of your attraction to men or don't date them. they're real live people too [bethany] they do have emotions just! like! you

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