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"The Sun Always Comes Out After A Storm" - (post 9x15)

Description: Kim and Hailey and Adam and Jay's conversation after Makayla was found and a Little Upstead and Burzek moments. Kevin will also make an appearance. This was supposed to be a short one shot, but it ended up being long, but I hope you like it anyway. Let me know what you think.

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*PROV OF HAILEY AND JAY*

To say that this case was hard is a huge understatement. Kidnappings, especially of children, are difficult for most police officers, even more so when it involves the child of one of their own. Intelligence has been through a lot over the past year and just when it seemed like things were finally looking up, another tragedy pops up. It's hard not to think that there isn't some kind of curse hanging over this department. Hailey's only thought was to go home and wallow in her husband's arms and forget the whole case. Yet 30 minutes after Voight let them go home, Hailey sits on the locker room bench against the cold wall and can't stop thinking about her friends and willingly asks herself if the next step she and Jay want to take is a good idea. After, despite the exhaustion she is starting to feel, Hailey can't get the thought out of her head that there could be a child of hers and Jay's in the place of Kim and Adam's daughter. Throughout the case, she hadn't let her thoughts even go in that direction, but now that the adrenaline had worn off, she couldn't stop herself.

- Hailey? - She heard a soft voice and didn't have to open her eyes to know it was her husband's. - Honey, are you okay?- He asked, and after a moment Hailey heard a bench creak, which could mean that he had to sit down next to her.

- Yeah, I'm just... - She sighed heavily, unable to quite find the words to express what was going on in her head, but she knew Jay would know what was left unsaid anyway.

- I know, I know. - Hailey opened her eyes at Jay's sigh as he sat facing her, and she could see that exhaustion was painted on his face as much as hers. - I can't imagine what Kim and Adam felt, and what Makayla went through is something unimaginable. - He said, shaking his head.

- Jay she is only 7 years old, and she has been through hell in her short life. - she whispered, feeling that she was close to tears just thinking about what this little girl has gone through in her few years of life. - It's not fair. - she added now crying.

- Come here. - Jay stretched out his arms and Hailey clung to him without thinking so that one arm was wrapped around her back and the other was wrapped around her stomach, so that when she pressed her face against his chest she could feel and hear his heart beating, which always helped her to calm down and feel completely safe.

- As I looked at the distraught Adam and Kim for a really short moment, it crossed my mind what would happen if something like that happened to us, if someone kidnapped our daughter or son. I don't know what I would do then. - she said quietly into Jay's chest.

- It was hard to watch them despair. - He said, laying his cheek on her head.- I can't even think what I would have done if you or our little princess or our little bud had been taken from me. I wish I could tell you and promise you that nothing like that would happen to us, that our children would be safe, that our work wouldn't affect our family, but you know that wouldn't be true, but I can promise you that I will do everything in my power to try to keep you safe. - He added in a confident voice, hugging Hailey tighter.

- I know, Jay. - She said, smiling slightly. She's known Jay for 5 years now they've been together for a year and married for 4 months and not a day goes by that Jay stops surprising her and that she stops falling in love with him again and again and each time more and more than before. And she knows that their life as police officers requires them to make a lot of sacrifices and that they don't know if the next action won't be their last and that not everything in their life is 100% given, but Hailey has always known that she will be safe with Jay, and she feels safe, so she doesn't doubt that when their children come along it will be no different.

- Do you think they have a chance to put things back together after all this time? - she asked after a moment of silence. Kim didn't say much, but Hailey could see that things weren't very good between her and Adam, and just a few days ago when Kim's custody was finally granted Hailey thought that everything between her friends would work out, but as she watched them through this whole thing she wasn't so sure.

- Between Kim and Adam? - He asked, and when he felt Hailey nod, he spoke again. - I don't know. I think Adam went a little overboard, don't get me wrong, I understand that he was terrified of losing his daughter, but it could have ended a lot worse because of him. - he replied with a sigh.

He had known Kim and Adam for 9 years and had seen all the stages of their relationship and as much as his heart wanted the best for his friends, his sense told him that their relationship wasn't exactly healthy, and he knew from experience that it wasn't worth wasting his health on a toxic relationship. It takes more than love to build a healthy relationship and family. And it wasn't until they started dating that they learned what a healthy and successful relationship was and wished the same for their friends.

- You know, I was thinking, why don't we stop by? - he asked. Hailey raised her head to get a better look at her husband. - I'll call Kevin, and we'll take Adam to the bar, and you could stay with Kim.

- Do you think we should? - She asked skeptically. She didn't think her friends would be happy about their unannounced visit.

- I think they need to know that whatever happens they have someone to count on, and if they ask us out, we'll order pizza and go home. What do you think? - he explained, looking into Hailey's still unconvinced eyes.

Maybe Jay is right, maybe this is what Kim and Adam needed right now? When Hailey thought back to the night two weeks ago when they had celebrated her 10-year anniversary and after knowing that she had people behind her who cared about her, she felt that at the end of the day she wasn't alone because she had a family.

A family made up of a group of related people, but people she had chosen for herself and that she was not alone. And maybe that's what their friends need, to know that they have people in their corner.

- Can we go home and freshen up first? - she said, partly because she wanted to wash the day away, but also to give her friends a few more moments of peace and quiet before they dropped by.

- Of course. - Jay said, smiling gently, which Hailey did as well.

- I love you, Jay. - she said before she got up.

- I love you too, Hails - he replied and bent down to kiss her forehead and pulled his wife into a strong hug for a moment more.

*PROV, KIM AND ADAM*.

She didn't know the last time she was this exhausted, and all she dreamed of was closing her eyes and erasing the last two days from her mind. When Makayla'i finally managed to sleep for a while, she kept looking at the girl to make sure she was really with her and listened to her breathing to make sure she was breathing.

Kim needed to be sure that her daughter was okay, that she was safe with her in their home. After a good hour she left her daughter's room, closed the door as quietly as she could, against which she leaned and let the air out of her lungs. After a few minutes, she pushed herself away from them and headed for the kitchen to get a drink and clear her mind.

The room was dark, so she turned on the light, walked over to the fridge and grabbed a cold beer from it.

- Had Mak fallen asleep? - Kim had almost let the bottle out of her hands when she heard Adam's quiet whisper coming from the kitchen.

- Yes - she replied, reaching for another bottle, which she handed to the man. - How's your hand? - She asked, looking at her right arm in a sling. How ironic, she thought. Not only are they both injured mentally, but physically as well. He has a dislocated shoulder, and she has an injury on her hand after squeezing a glass stone from the sea too hard. Sometimes, Kim wondered if fate was giving them signs that being with each other was not meant for them. Just 24 hours ago, they were jumping for joy that they had Mak, that she was officially their daughter. When she'd told Adam that the court had awarded her custody of the little one, for those few minutes she'd allowed herself to think that finally, after all they'd been through, they had a chance to make things right, but now she didn't know if that was still realistic. Too many words had fallen between them to glue it together, and she didn't even know if she had the strength to fight one more time for something that may never have had a right to happen.

- Okay, I think. Crockett said, I'll be on desk duty for a few weeks. - He sighed, putting the bottle down on the table where he sat a moment later, and Kim did the same a few seconds later.

- Adam - Kim started after a moment of silence, but paused, not knowing what to say, feeling too many emotions at once.

- Kim, not now. - He said, shaking his head with resignation. He didn't have the strength for this conversation, for hearing once again how badly he had behaved, that everything he and Kim had started to build together was falling apart again. He wanted to live in this bubble where both of the most important girls in his life were by his side, at least for a little while longer. He didn't want to, couldn't face the truth, not yet.

- You know we need to talk about this, putting off conversations has ended badly for us, remember? - she said softly. -

I feel like our talks aren't good for us, either. - said Adam, resigned and tired. - I'm not saying that we shouldn't talk about it at all, but I really don't have the energy for it today, and neither do you. Besides, Mak needs peace now, I don't want to wake her up with our argument. - He added, rubbing his face with his healthy hand.

Kim only now noticed how tired Adam was and suspected that she must look the same, but she knew and felt that they couldn't leave the whole situation between them without talking. If they were to create a family for Makayla, they must learn to communicate.

- Adam... - Kim tried again, this time in a firmer voice. - We are creating a family, and we can't leave things unresolved. - She said, trying to stay calm, but her insides were boiling. When she remembered how quickly this could end badly.

- Now we're making a family? What about the fact that she's your daughter? That I can't decide? That I can't... - poured out all the frustrations he had been trying to suppress throughout the affair.

- I didn't say anything like that. I meant that you should be in control of the situation, that you should be calm. I was scared enough about our daughter, I didn't want to be scared about you too, Adam. - She said, close to tears as she saw the pain on the face of the man she still loved.

- How could I be calm when my child was kidnapped and no one knows what happened to him. And you were calm and still resented me and expected me to turn off my emotions. Makayla is my child too. - He said, and his gaze fixed on Kim, full of pain and disappointment that broke her heart.

How could Adam say something like that? - Adam, I didn't expect something like that from you, ever. - Kim was crying now. She felt as if she had gone back in time. All their problems come down to the same thing over and over again. - I needed you to be strong, to know that I had support in you. I didn't know I was afraid that I wouldn't have enough strength for the two of us. Makayla needs us to be strong for her and her alone, okay? - she said, trying to speak calmly. Adam lowered his head, knowing that Kim was right.

- I can't sit around and do nothing. I'm not like that, if I'm not doing something 100% and no matter what, that's not me. - he replied after a moment. Kim reached across the table and grabbed his good hand to force him to look at her, and when he did, she spoke up.

- I know, and I love you for it, Adam. But the truth is, your behavior today could have led us to tragedy. You can't lose your head. We have a child who needs us. - She didn't know if Adam understood what she meant, but she hoped it would at least give him something to think about.

She didn't know if there would be anything between them and if she would want to be in the same circle again, but she knew one thing, she couldn't imagine raising Makayla with someone other than Adam. This is their family, hers, Adam's and Makayla's. Even if she and Adam aren't together, that will never change.

- We're lost, aren't we? - Adam asked.

- Unfortunately. - Kim nodded, then added. - But we'll put it together somehow. - Adam smiled softly at those words, which Kim reciprocated.

Unexpectedly they heard the doorbell ring, they looked at each other surprised that they weren't expecting visitors. Adam just shrugged his shoulders, but hissed when he felt the pain in his dislocated shoulder.

- I'll go open it. - Kim said, standing up. The last thing she expected was to see their three friends on the other side.

- What are you guys doing here? - She asked, seeing the people standing there smiling gently at her.

*PROV HAILEY*

- We wanted to see if you were okay. - Hailey spoke up, seeing the surprise on Kim's face.

- Hey man. - spoke up Kevin seeing Adam approaching them.

Jay reached for Adam's jacket hanging on the coat rack and threw it at his friend.

- Get dressed, Kevin and I are taking you to the bar. - He explained to the still surprised man.

- I don't know if that's a good idea. - said Adam, unconvinced.

- You guys need a break. - Hailey looked from Kim to Adam and smiled softly.

- Come on, you could use the talk, brother. - added Kevin. Adam looked at Kim with a confused look, silently asking what they should do.

- It's been a long time since we've had a chance to have a girl talk. - said Kim, looking at Hailey, who smiled.

- Great, we'll take care of the men's ones. - said Kevin, causing everyone to giggle quietly.

- Go ahead - said Hailey as she hurried the men to leave.

- Are you asking your husband out? - asked Jay teasingly to the blonde. It's not that in public they aren't so keen on flirting with each other or being such carefree versions of themselves in front of their friends, but this is the first time they've allowed themselves to take down their walls and show their friends a version of themselves where they're not detectives but married people. This is a big step for them to allow

- Yes, and now we say goodbye to the gentlemen. - She said again trying to push her husband out and when Jay was already at the door he grabbed his wife's hand and leaned in to steal a kiss.

- I love you. - He whispered, pulling away.

- I love you too. - She whispered back.

- Jesus, you are not going to be separated for long. - said Kevin, standing in the hallway behind them, causing the couple to burst out laughing.

- I'll call you later. - added Jay with one last squeeze of Hailey's hand, who said another okay to Jay and closed the door, finally being left alone with Kim and a sleeping Makayla.

- I have to say, love is good on you. - said Kim, looking at her friend with a smile, delighted by her friend's happiness.

- I won't hide that being with Jay makes me happy. - sighed a smiling Hailey, who quickly got serious as she remembered why she was really here. - How are you? How is Makayla? - she asked her friend with a worried look on her face.

- Makayla doesn't really understand what happened yet. - Kim started pulling out a fresh beer from the fridge, one of them handing it to Hailey. She tried not to think back to the moment when she found her daughter unconscious, but it was impossible. Until now, she can still see Makayla lying unconscious, cold and drugged in the back of the car. Those few seconds in which she tried to wake her up were the longest of her life, but she finally opened her eyes and said mom felt a stone drop from her heart. - I think it will take her some time until she realizes what happened. - She sighed. She couldn't imagine what such a little creature could go through. - But yes, overall she is healthy. She was cold, but the drugs she had been drugged with had not left any permanent damage to her body.

- That's good. - said Hailey, smiling gently at the news that the little girl was healthy and in no danger. - The most important thing is that she is home with you now and that she is safe. - She added, and Kim nodded in agreement. - How are you guys holding up? How are you holding up? - She asked, watching her friend carefully.

- Honestly? - Kim asked the question more to herself than to her friend specifically. With this whole thing of first fighting to be recognized as Mak's full guardian and then getting her back from her kidnappers, she hadn't had much time to think about it. She had to be strong for Mak, for herself, and for Adam. She still had to be strong. She knew that if she allowed herself to think about it deeply she would have to face the painful truth, and she didn't want to, to tell the truth she was afraid to face her fear. But as she now sat on the couch with her friend, she felt all the tension fall from her. And only now did she allow herself to feel all that she had kept closed up until now. - I'm so tired, I have to restrain myself from going to her room and making sure she's okay with me. - She began quietly, fearing that she would lose the last bit of control over her emotions. It wasn't that Hailey was here, but it was about herself, she was afraid of falling apart. She didn't want Mak waking up from her nightmare to see her like this. Her daughter needed her fully. Hailey sat quietly, listening intently to her friend and trying to support her. - Just a few days ago I was afraid that the court would take her away from me and give custody to her uncle, and in the last two days I was afraid that she would come back to me. - She laughed sadly at the irony of her recent fate. - Sometimes I wonder how much this little girl is still able to survive and how much I am able to survive. - she whispered, feeling tears welling up in her eyes.

Hailey also had tears in her eyes, she didn't know what to say to support her friend, so she put her hand on her shoulder to let her know that she was not alone.

- On top of that, Adam isn't making things any easier. I understand that I hurt him, that the words I said cannot be taken back even if I wanted to, but the way he acted. He went into a kind of amok that I couldn't pull him out of. He was terrified for Makayla, and I totally understand that, but I was too, and I needed him to tell me that everything was going to be okay, that we were going to find her, that we were going through this together, you know? - Only now did Kim look at Hailey, who silently nodded understanding.

Hailey wasn't a mom, at least for now, and she didn't know what Kim was going through, but she knew that if she were in her shoes she would want to feel that whatever bad things were happening she had the support of a strong man who would not only be strong for her but for her. And that's what Jay was, and he proved it through the whole thing with Roy, or rather the aftermath that is North.

Hailey and Kim were similar on one point, they were both independent and strong women who could handle most adversities on their own, but there are some things, some things where they needed the support of a man, even though it was hard for them to admit it.

- I don't know what to do, Hailey. I feel like whatever we try to build again falls apart and every time we try to fix it, it falls apart again even more, and although I love Adam very much, and I know he loves me and Mak I just I don't know if getting back together again is the right thing for our family. - It was hard for Kim to admit this, but she knew it was the truth. The painful truth.

- I wish I could tell you that there's a golden solution for this - said Hailey, who couldn't bear to look at her friend's despair. - And I don't know if what I'm going to say now is helpful or worth anything, but as coming from a family with complicated family relationships, I'll just tell you that it's not worth risking your child's well-being on a complicated relationship. I love you both Kim and I only say this for the sake of you, Makayla and Adam. - She added quickly, not wanting her friend to misunderstand her. - Mak has been through enough to watch you and Adam jump down each other's throats.

- I know, it's just... - said Kim, who had thought about it more than once since the girl had been with her, whether the relationship between her and Adam would be a good one for a teenager. But she wanted to believe that they would get along and be able to build what she had always dreamed of. Now she sees that this is not possible.

- It's hard to cross out something we've always thought we were destined to have? - Hailey said exactly what Kim couldn't say. - I understand you Kim, but now you are not alone, now you have a daughter who all she needs is to know that stability, security and love is what you can give her.

- Thanks Hailey. - Kim was skeptical about this girl's night out at first, she was tired after everything that had happened over the last few days, and all she wanted tonight was to forget the whole thing. Although talking to Hailey didn't solve anything, it helped a lot.

- You're welcome. You can always count on me, on us. - Hailey smiled gently, and although she didn't really agree with Jay's plan, now she knew that he was right.

For even though each of their team had found their own meaning of family, in the end, the five of them made a family, or rather six if you counted the sleeping seven-year-old.

*PROV JAY*

In between the girls talking, the men sitting at the bar near Kim and Adam's apartment were trying to keep Adam's spirits up, which was proving to be a very difficult task.

- I don't know what to do anymore. I try my best to give Mak and Kim everything I can, but in the end it just doesn't seem to be enough. I feel like I'm not enough for them. - said a heartbroken Adam.

- You're wrong and you know it. - said Jay. - You're a good dad to Makayla, that girl adores you. - he added.

- I could have lost her today, guys. - He said being close to tears. - And Kim gave me the impression that I let her down. I know I do things impulsively, but that's who I am, and I was thinking.... - He paused, feeling a lump in his throat. - I thought she was accepting it. - He finished.

- Well, you didn't have a cool head, I have to admit, but I understand you wanted to find your kid. - Jay said. - But I'm trying to understand Kim, too. It hasn't been easy for her, either, and maybe instead of being so hotheaded, you should be calmer and more importantly give her support when she needs it. - He suggested gently to his friend.

- But I can't do that, when I do something I do it 100%. - said Adam, taking a sip of his whiskey.

- I know, but look, shooting Lonnie down today could have gone very badly if we hadn't been able to locate the other kidnapper in time. - Jay pointed out. - Look what Voight's lack of coolness got him into. You're a good cop, a good man, a good dad. Don't screw up what you have just because you don't think you can. - added the brunet, causing confused yet admiring looks from his friends.

- What? - he asked confused, thinking he said something wrong.

- Nothing, I just didn't think that marrying Hailey would cause you to become such a smartass. - Kevin said, whistling in awe. - Which I still think is mean that you didn't tell us, by the way. - He added in a serious and offended tone.

- You guys will never stop telling us that, will you? - he replied with a question, but smiling gently as he saw both his friends shake their heads in denial. - Seriously, I admit that being married to Hailey and especially Hailey herself showed me that I don't have to take things so impulsively with all my heart, but also looking back on some of my behaviors I know that if I had handled them coldly everything would have turned out completely different. - he said seriously. - Do you remember, for example, the Mendoza case, after my father's death? - He paused waiting for confirmation, and when he got it, he continued. - If I had listened to Hailey and Voight back then, I would not have been shot. Angela's case wouldn't have happened at all if I hadn't lost my head. - He admitted it. - I know, these cases are nothing like the Makayla kidnapping case, I just mean that if we don't keep our cool, we could lose a lot. Too much to be worth losing just because we're cops, and we're in deep water. Do you understand? - he finished his argument, looking intently at Adam, who was beginning to get the whole point.

- You are right. - admitted the blond quietly.

- You know what, Jay? - said Kevin seriously looking at his friend. - You're going to be a phenomenal Sergeant someday. - He said, surprising Jay, who didn't even know how much he needed those words.

He hadn't told anyone that he had thought about becoming a Sergeant, only Hailey knew about it. But the fact that his friends saw him as a good leader meant a lot to him.

- But that doesn't change the fact that we'll never forget that you didn't invite us to your wedding. - Adam said with a look of confrontation, causing Jay to roll his eyes, but a moment later the three of them burst out laughing.

Not everything has been explained, there is still a lot of work ahead of them, they will manage.

With this kind of moral background, with family around, anything is possible.

Because no matter what, the sun always comes up after the biggest storm.

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