hello nero my beloved soulmate!!!

i have pride stories!!! i went to pride this saturday and it was so much fun i need to tell you all about it!!!

well first of all i really hate that i had to work in the morning because it made me so tired and it was the first weekend of sales so yea, not fun. but anyway, my friend picked me up at 3pm and we got to florence. we had to park pretty far from the meeting point and then take a bus, and it was amazing because we were totally lost looking for that bus and at some point we see a bus full of people with rainbow flags, glitter, signs, flower crowns, rainbow stickers and temporary tattoos and all of that. and we just went in, no questions asked. we just figured we’d follow them out of the bus too 😂 i love our people honestly. we were so colorful

anyway we got to the meeting point and it was deadly hot. i swear there were like 45 degrees. but it was so amazing to be around all of those people dressed in all colors and wearing all sorts of things we’d usually be judged for, it felt so safe. except that there was a religious protestor so we got to give him the finger like the heartstopper cast did :)

also my sister came with me. she’s always so supportive and it meant the world that she came with me. anyway the parade started and there were some amazing floats. there were rainbow families, drag queens, all the lgbtqia+ associations from our territory and we started walking behind this float that had amazing music, so we started dancing and singing and it was so much fun!!! we got to talking with some people, there were some amazing signs that were just perfect and i had to go there and tell them how much i loved them :) it was just so fun, i loved meeting random people and it was just the perfect environment. at night there was also a dj set and a band singing to keep the show going!!

then when we were walking back to the bus stop at night we got the whiplash of not being surrounded by queer people anymore. we got catcalled like fifteen times in the span of three minutes. i kinda wanted to punch everyone because we had such a perfect day and i hated that we had to go back to the real world where people are shit 🥲

but still i got so many amazing memories and now all i want to do is book a flight to london for next year and have you come with me so we can celebrate together and see the heartstopper cast!!!!

also, i got a new tattoo yesterday!! and i actually had red white and royal blue with me to distract me so i almost finished the book again and cried in from of my tattoo artist lol it took me the whole day again and it was so painful but so worth it!!! i got medusa on my leg 😻

also, as to our previous letter i just wanted to say that of course i believed in you!!!! i knew you could do it!! but i can definitely believe you had to close your eyes to open that message 😂 getting grades back is always so stressful!! now manifesting a spot for the exchange 🕯️🕯️🕯️ i really hope you get it!!! it’s an amazing experience, you’d definitely love it!!!

and i’m really glad you found someone who specialises in what you need. it can take a while to find the right therapist but i hope this one works out!!

(i’m also writing down sydney and melbourne for when i’m rich enough to visit 😂 i literally booked a flight for august and my bank account kinda yelled at me to stop spending money i don’t have lol)

anyways i’m really sorry i’ve been away for so long, i had a crazy week between the beginning of seasonal sales, pride and the tattoo appointment. i kinda didn’t have time to do anything 🥲

i’m giving you a hug and some homemade chocolate chip cookies with biscoff cream on top <33

hello cece my beloved soulmate!!!!

oh my god i've been so excited to hear about this!!!

that sucks you had to go to work, boo!!! but at least you were off early enough to still go to pride!!!! and how cool that you got to share the experience of going on the bus with all the queer people!! i bet there was no straight and/or cis people on that bus 😂😂😂 just follow the rainbow!!

hot days are the worst, but pride would have made it so much better. i would not be focused on how sweaty i was or the temperature with the amount of queer joy happening around me! it's so wonderful that in a parade full of people and colour that you were able to feel so incredibly safe, and it would have been such an intimate moment for you! and fuck that religious protestor, i'm so glad you gave him the finger. the heartstopper cast would be so proud of you :')

oh that warms my heart that your sister came!!! that was so nice of her to come with you!! the floats sound amazing, and the singing and dancing!!! i am feeling some of the joy through my screen!! seriously, cece, this sounds like the most incredible time. i want to cry just thinking about you having so much fun with your friend and your sister, celebrating your queerness and talking to new people and singing and dancing like there's no one else around 🥲🥲🥲

the trip home must have been so dull in comparison! and how dare those people catcall you, i hope you gave them the same treatment as that religious protestor because seriously what the fuck.

the only thing that matters now is that you had a safe and wonderful time at pride and you can cherish those memories for the rest of your life! and yes, we must do it!! i will literally stay for an extra month just to go to pride in london with you <3

oh my god yay!!! i bet the medusa tattoo looks so cool! and yes reading rwrb while getting tattooed is properly not your best idea, but i'm already rereading rwrb any chance i get to annotate it fully before the movie so i can't say much 😂

okay, cece, i must let you know, because i said to myself i would let you know as soon as i could. but this morning, i woke up (quite late actually). i checked my watch for my notifications. i see an email waiting for me. i die a little inside realising it is from the exchange team at my university. i run out to grab my phone from where i charge it. i speed past my mum. i unlock my phone. i open my email and click on the newest one. and.... I GOT A SPOT EARLY!!! AT MY FIRST UNIVERSITY TOO!!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT??? i'm still in so much shock and i thank you for your manifesting and belief in me!!! oh my god i have so much to do before then (mostly saving money ngl 😂) but oh my god cece, i'm going to england for exchange!!!!!!

me too!! i just need to find the time to get a referral, so i can go and see them!!

(literally sydney and melbourne are lowkey expensive, but it is totally worth it!! and i would be more than happy to tell you where to go and where to stay! <3)

do not apologise!!! we are all busy! i am literally working the equivalent of a full time job over the next two weeks and i'm also dogsitting over the weekend :') pray for my poor soul.

i'm giving you the biggest hug i hope contains the same warmth as pride and i'm fighting off your customers so you can have a few moments to breathe <3333

those boys really saw people focusing on landoscar and charlos and then posted their full ass date like, “we aren’t dead, bitch”

KICKING MY FEET AND TWIRLING MY HAIR LIKE A LITTLE GIRL JWNKSNJENSJDG

my mom, brother and i made pizza for lunch today and look:

my mom was the one who could actually get the shape to look this pretty so all props to her <3

it has tomato sauce, cheese, homemade pesto, sauted mushrooms, red bell pepper sauted with garlic, caramelized onions and olives, and of course a bit of oregano and merkén to top it off.

HI ITS BEEN A MINUTE BUT BEAT’S BIRTHDAY SOON.

MAYHAPS A RETURN THAT I SHOULD HAVE DONE ON SHO’S—

nick kissed me! WHAAAAAAAAA

I simply CANNOT just sit here and listen to Steve pant and groan in pain, i want him carnally.

NERO MY BELOVED SOULMATE BESTIE!!!!

i’m back!!! i took a few weeks off because life has been a lot and i felt like i needed a little break from everything 🥲

how are you?? what have you been up to in these last few weeks?? i missed you so much!! and i have stories to tell!!

so, i went to paris for a week back in october. i don’t know if you knew this, but paris has been plagued by a bug infestation lately, and the week before me and my friend were supposed to leave they also started having bomb alarms around the city. like the day before we left versailles had been evacuated for a bomb (it was a false alarm in the end) so we were kinda scared and worried. but the city was okay and we didn’t have much of a choice so we went. it was amazing!!! the first two days were perfect, the weather was absolutely amazing, freezing but always sunny, and we walked around the classic spots of the city. we had lots of macarons and croissants too. that was always the best part of the day. then on day three we’d booked versailles. on the day before it had been evacuated again for a false alarm so i thought it would be safe, they checked the night before, but well… after we’d been inside one hour the guards started to talk hurriedly to each other and they led us to the exits, we got evacuated. it looked like they were trying not to cause a panic but it didn’t work, also because there were way too many people inside!! it was crazy and scary, but luckily we were okay and we got safely out. and it was another false alarm, luckily. we decided not to let it ruin the whole trip so that night we went to the eiffel tower and had a nice dinner and dessert. then day four was disneyland!!! it was SPECTACULAR!!! nero have you ever been to a disneyland park?? it is everything you could ever hope it to be. it is pure magic, pure happiness. my friend and i felt like we were outside of the universe, it felt like nothing could touch us, like no problem could reach us. we were kids again. we were singing along to all the songs from our childhood and riding all the attractions and posing with princesses and cartoon animals and we bought so many little souvenirs to keep the magic with us. i got a cheshire cat plushie which is now my favorite thing i own. i have absolutely no regrets even if it costed 30 euros. same goes for my minnie’s ears which had a unicorn horn and a rainbow veil (see attached photograph) another 30 bucks, i have worn them only once, and i love them to pieces 😂 anyways, now is where the fun part really starts. we walked out of disneyland at 11pm after the night show (made me cry for 30 minutes straight, totally would recommend) and we had to take a train to get to the underground. well obviously there was a suspicious backpack at the station so it was closed for about 30 minutes to figure out what it was. it was late and our phones were almost dead so we tried to look for a taxi or bus and they’d put up a special bus service to take us to the closest train station, but as you can imagine it was absolutely packed and when we got off my friend noticed that her bag was open and her wallet was gone. we rushed back to the park to see if they’d had it in the last shop where she bought something but nothing, then we rushed back home to call the police and block all the cards, but of course we only got to the champs-elysées and then they kicked us out of the underground because it was closing. again our phones were out of battery so we didn’t even know if the buses were still running or not or how to call a cab, but luckily a cab passed by like two minutes later and we managed to get back to the hotel. and well, the 24h hotel door was closed. we panicked for about 10 minutes and ringed the bell a thousand times before anyone came to open the door. they were “just in the back for a minute” and i mean, fair enough, but on top of everything it was just the last drop.

anyways, the next morning we went to the police and got all the documents we needed to get back to italy and it was okay, it was just a very long wait for a two seconds job so it pissed me off a bit, but still we had a whole day and a half left so we enjoyed it. we had the louvre planned for that afternoon and it was so beautiful. and it was very heartstopping. pun intended 😂 we actually went and looked for every room we saw in the show and stayed about five hours in each one. this is where elle and tao kiss for the first time, it’s the exact place. can you guess how much i cried??

the only thing we couldn’t find was the painting on the stairs where nick talks to elle. i was very upset about that :( but anyways, the next day we came home and all i can say for this trip is wow. it felt like a five months trip somehow 😂 it was tiring and stressful and it tested my anxiety a lot, but honestly it was kind of perfect. this friend i was with is my opposite and my half in a lot of things and somehow we managed to laugh it all off whenever something crazy happened and we still had one of the absolute best trips of my life. i am so happy, i actually am getting a tattoo for our day at disneyland because it feels necessary hehe

and speaking of tattoos, i have a new one to show you!!! i finally got another heartstopper tattoo!!! and it is perfect and my favorite ever ♥️ i’ve wanted this vignette on my skin forever, and every time i see it it reminds me of everything about this story and it makes me so happy

anyways, enough about me!!! i’ve been away from this hellsite for so long, so how are you?? how is life?? i am very eager to catch up!!

i’m sending you a macaron because i am craving them again now (i’ve tried the marie antoniette macaron and i swear to god it feels like drinking a cup of tea, it’s unreal) and a warm tea to drink as you read because i’ve written so damn much, i can’t tell a simple story i missed you so so so much nero <3333

HELLO CECE MY BELOVED SOULMATE BESTIE!!!

it is so wonderful to hear from you!! i missed you so so much!! i was wondering how your trip went!! tbh i have been very on and off this website just because life is so exhausting :') i'm very excited to catch up with what's been happening with you!!

yes! i did hear about the bedbug thing! i had a few friends in paris around the same time and it was also all over the news here (funny that...) but i did not hear about the bomb alarms, that must have been so scary!! oh i can only imagine how lovely the macarons and the croissants were. nothing would be better than the original! i'm glad it was a false alarm and that you all got out safe. that must have been terrifying. AND DISNEYLAND?! cece i have never ever been to a disneyland but it has always been a dream of mine! i think the closest disneyland to me is japan or singapore 😭😭😭 but that's so wonderful to hear that you had such a lovely time!!! what was your favourite ride? any snacks you would recommend?? i would love to see the cheshire cat plushy, it sounds adorable! and the minnie ears!!! i'm obsessed and you're right: buying ears at disneyland is essential, it doesn't matter if you only wear them for the day! and what an end to a good day 😂😂 that sounds so anxiety-inducing, i audibly gasped as i was reading 😂

literally!!! government documents and officials make you wait so long for something that takes so little time!!! it's so fucking frustrating >:( the louvre!!! that would have been so cool, and it would have had extra meaning because of the show!! and i think i would have died a little, looking at the exact spot elle and tao had their first kiss! i don't blame you for crying at all 😂😂

a positive is that you got to see every other painting and iconic place from heartstopper and that's all that matters!! the trip sounded like so much fun, but yes, very draining with all those things not going to plan!! and i'm so glad you went with a friend who would laugh it all off with you and still make sure you guys had a good time!! that would have been so lovely! oh and absolutely you need to get a disneyland tattoo!! that would be perfect!

speaking of perfect, your new tattoo is so cute!!!! i love that panel too and it's just such a good representation of nick and charlie's relationship throughout the series!! and a really good placement too. ugh you always get the best tattoos!

as for me, i've been doing okay!! i have finished university for the year, and i am currently preparing for my exchange (i go to the uk NEXT MONTH! cece that is so crazy) a part of preparing for my exchange is unfortunately working a lot, but i have been rostered every single public holiday coming up so i should be getting a good amount of money before i leave!

and you'll be happy to know that after the christmas/new year's period, i'm going to stop working and have a few weeks of rest before i go!! i'm planning on just catching up with friends before i leave, packing and just actually getting a good night's sleep 😂😂

oh, also! i know you wanted little updates about what was going on in my love life, sooooooo... in the time you've been gone, i managed to get a girlfriend!!! i'm very happy and i have no clue what i am doing at all times, but it's good :)

i'm going to send you a little pavlova (a meringue like dessert australians typically have around christmas time, loaded with fruit and cream) and a little iced tea to go with, because my god, is it hot in australia right now. miss you heaps!!! <3

Okay but can we talk about lando and fan reader? Bc now I can’t stop thinking ab him finding her blog/fan acc. She’s mortified but he thinks it’s HILARIOUS and his ego def skyrockets when he sees his girl fantasying about her for so many years😭

Oh and he’s 100% teasing you every chance he gets reading aloud all your old posts.

In the most dramatic annoying voice ever he’s like “but guys look at landos eyesssss🥺🥺👉👈” imitating the posts he’s found & u just wanna kill yourself then and there bc why has ur bf found your old fan account😭

- 🧛‍♀️

NO BECAUSE IM OBSESSED WITH THE DYNAMIC

but also imagine fans making fun of you or people giving you hate for it, sayings it’s weird or creepy or you were some manipulative mastermind, and lando isn’t having it

and just imagine him making his own wee fan account for you to shut haters up😭it’s a bit cringy and cheesy but he loves you and he doesn’t care and it’s just so🥹

i need alastair’s ability to change the subject

1 January 1961

Bells were ringing all over the city, but only one celebratory jingle was all Frankie wished to hear. Just as she began to think her dearest friends had made better plans for the evening, the bell above the diner door chimed as Todd and Cecily walked past the menu stand to their regular table. Though the city was crawling with tourists, New Year's Eve at the diner remained quiet as ever. Without disrupting the sounds of the jukebox that kept her company through her long shifts, Frankie retreated to the kitchen to start preparing Cecily's coffee and Todd's usual strawberry milkshake with a single straw.

"At least the diner can count on our orders tonight. Where are your friends?" Cecily asked as she placed her cat-eyed sunglasses atop her head, scanning the empty seats. While she had been invited to the fraternity party, Pitts was attending, and she still expected to see Meeks hanging around the diner. It was assumed he spent just as much time at the restaurant eating cherry pie a la mode as Frankie spent serving it. 

Todd shrugged as he followed Cecily's gaze. He shook his head and "They are not here, but I am not in charge of them. Seriously, try telling them they can't do something." He smirked at an untold memory before returning his attention to his menu.  

"Well, I just thought Meeks would like to ring in the new year with…." Cecily stopped to smile at Frankie, who sat at her side with coffee and a milkshake in hand. She slid further into the booth to allow space for the tired waitress. 

"It is so good to see you two tonight. I thought I was all alone for the new year. I have barely had a single customer all night. Still, I was hoping there would be at least one more," she hummed with a sigh and directed her gaze to the pie display.

Frankie was pulled from her cherry pie dreams by the sound of the bells jingling over the door as Claudie made her way into the diner. "Sorry, I'm late. The set strike from the Christmas pageant kind of turned into a party. Once we got the staircase torn down, I had to scoot. The stage lights are hot, and I'm exhausted, but the extra credit was worth it." Claudie huffed an exhausted sigh and fanned the sweaty sheen from her forehead. Despite the chill outside, the work was hard, and the diner remained warm and cozy, too cozy for Claudie as she slid into the open seat at Todd's hip. "Frankie, hun? Can I get a strawberry milkshake?"

"Hey, uh, Claudie, I probably can't finish this all on my own. Would you, maybe, want to share?" he asked as Frankie slipped him an extra straw from the pocket of her apron. Claudie's cheeks matched the strawberry milkshake as she nodded in Todd's direction, blind to the smirk shared by her roommates. "Here, take this, too. You'll freeze on the way home without a jacket," he offered as he shrugged off his leather coat. 

Once again, the silver bells alerted Frankie that another hungry patron had entered. She let out a frustrated groan at the thought of a quiet night with friends disrupted, but the diner was struggling. She glanced at the door with a polite smile only to find Steven Meeks behind the menu stand, not daring to break the rule clearly posted, 'Please wait to be seated as his friends had. With that, Frankie rose from the table to greet him. 

"The party at Pittsie's place is still going strong, but I couldn't miss getting a last slice of pie for the year," he informed the group of friends as they rearranged to create space for him. 

Cecily laughed into the bitter brew at her lips, "Meeks, you didn't come here for pie any more than I came for coffee," she challenged and glanced in Frankie's direction. 

With Frankie at the pie case, Meeks sighed and acknowledged Cecily's teasing. "Ok, the pie isn't the best. But what do you suggest? A poem? A song on the jukebox? I don't do big odes like that. I just, I want her to know how much I -" he twisted his class ring around his finger as his voice trailed off. "Anyway, it is almost midnight. I got here in time to start the year off right. With you guys."

"I am glad you did," Frankie hummed in response before placing the pie plate on the table and taking the seat next to Steven. "I was hoping I wouldn't have to kiss Cece at midnight," she added, enjoying the way her words changed the features across his freckled face. 

Leaning back in the chair she had added to the end of the table, Cecily groaned as she watched her friends, cozy and happily paired for the holiday. "Well, put your worries to rest. Nobody is kissing me at midnight." 

"Where is Charlie tonight, Cece?" Todd asked innocently, but the question was enough to give Meeks whiplash as he turned to Cecily in surprise. Cecily shrugged. "Don't know. Probably some jazz thing. I thought about finding a jazz thing tonight. Might not be a bad idea. As Meeks said, it could be neat to start the year off right," she muttered, suddenly uneasy at the thought of who he may kiss in celebration. She left enough cash on the table to pay for pie, coffee, and the milkshake. "Happy New Year, kids. I'm going uptown." 

A flurry of snow met her at the door of the diner. Despite the darkened skies, she pulled her sunglasses over her eyes to shield herself from the incoming storm. The roar of the merriment from Times Square was deafening as she made her way further north. Before she knew it, she was nearly sprinting through the streets on her way to him, only stopping to acknowledge another romantic as he dashed through the white haze in the opposite direction. 

"Cecily?" the zealous lover skidded in his tracks at the sound of her voice. Charlie removed the hood from his jacket. He ran across the street, nearly missing a taxi and several jay-walking tourists on their way to the celebration. 

Wrapping her arms around him for the warmth they both desperately needed, Cecily giggled. "I was on my way uptown for a jazz thing. Charlie, I'm starting to think you just really like running through the snow all dramatic like." 

The celebration behind them exploded into song and fireworks as the clock struck midnight. When he was able to pull himself away from their kiss, Charlie nodded. "I love a grand gesture."    

sending all my love to those who are reading and those who have allowed me to bring their beautiful girls into this story. @cursebreakerfarrier - dearest Claudie is a joy @hystericalqween darling Frankie is a delight, always.

I hope writers know I’m only liking their works because I’m saving them for later and not because I’m scared to show I’m feral

purple kiss and txt fighting battles in my head rn