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List of Songs
Hi! so music is obviously an effective (and usually not harmful) way of coping with your feelings, so I thought I'd make a little list of songs that suit different emotions! The songs are obviously based on stuff I know so sorry if that's not your vibe. I apologise if the list is not that long atm, I'll be focusing on five categories sadness, joy, comfort, and lastly, rage (although of course there are more emotions). TWs and links will be given for the songs!
**orange -> emotion at the extreme, E -> Explicit
Note: I do not encourage or agree with self-loathing or harmfully dealing with any emotion. Music can be a cathartic way to process and cope, but ensure your safety and health (mental and physical). Take care of yourselves!
Songs below
Sadness/frustration (take care guys)
internal sadness
Least Favourite Only Child by Leanna Firestone (tw: su*cidal references)
Stay Down by boygenius (tw: some su*cidal imagery, self-loathing) (loud)
Why am I Like This? by Orta Garland
Youngest Daughter by Superheaven (loud)
external sadness
Moon Song by Phoebe Bridgers
Everybody Does by Julien Baker
Something by Julien Baker
Two Weeks Notice by Leanna Firestone
Letter to an Old Poet by boygenius
Joy
Silk Chiffon by MUNA, Phoebe Bridgers
Got Me Started by Troye Sivan (E)
All Good in the Neighbourhood by Ethan Fields
DANCING IN MY ROOM by 347aidan (E)
Little Grace by Hippo Campus (tw: drug reference)
comfort
madhouse by Matt Maltese
Everyone Adores You (quiet) by Matt Maltese
little person by Matt Maltese
Warm Glow by Hippo Campus
Take Yourself Home by Troye Sivan
rage (loud, sad rage is under sadness/frustration)
GROWING UP ON THE INTERNET by NOAHFINNCE (E) (tw: references to internet creeps)
Take A Look Around by Limp Bizkit
bangers (additional category)
Kilby Girl by The Backseat Lovers
Better by Makari
Semi-Pro by Hippo Campus
Sci-Fi by EDEN
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okay, that's all for now! Hope some of you enjoy this. please tell me if anything is linked wrong or any warning isn't there, stuff like that, or just to ask about the categorising. feel free to add on! :)
#songs#song list#music#cae likes this#cae's stuff#aritists tagged#leanna firestone#boygenius#orta garland#superheaven#phoebe bridgers#julien baker#MUNA#troye sivan#ethan fields#347aidan#hippo campus#matt maltese#noahfinnce#limp bizkit#the backseat lovers#makari#eden
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time's a ticking
rated G - basically a character study of immortal Danny
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Danny's seen many loved ones come and go, and he has almost been beaten down countless times. But life goes on, and through the years, Danny's learned to live with that by making new memories to remember, and rekindling old ones.
“Mr. Leverton, it’s already past seven! I’ll be heading out in a moment, you can close up shop soon,” Danny heard a young voice call from the second floor of an old mechanics shop. He took off his gloves and wiped his forehead before mumbling, “Is it really that late already?” to himself. But it seemed that his apprentice still heard him once he started strolling down the wooden stairs.
“Yes, really! Now, please don’t continue working on that and just go home to rest, will ya?” Sawyer chastised the older man with slight exasperation; knowing that if he did not hound Danny, the man may stay holed up here all night and not even realize it until Sawyer returned the next morning.
It’s happened before. Several times too many, in fact.
Danny chuckled, “Who’s in charge of who here?” he joked with a roll of his eyes. But he still did as told and started to put all his tools in their right places.
“Har har, you know you’ll get too invested otherwise if you weren’t already, Mr. Leverton,” the young man reiterated once more. He then went and shrugged on his winter coat before saying goodbye and walking out of the shop with a skip. Danny waved at him as he did so, of course.
“Well, he’s not wrong,” Mr. ‘Leverton’ said as he pushed himself up from his stool and cracked his neck.
It’s been a long time since Danny’s gone by the last name ‘Fenton’; it’s been roughly 170 years, in fact. After all, he didn’t have any family when he was a kid, besides his parents, sister, and aunt Alicia, of course. But Jazz and her wife never had any kids of their own, despite fostering many others. Aunt Alicia never remarried after her divorce, plenty satisfied to live her life ‘till the end on her own.
That left Danny, but given the … circumstances of his existence, he quickly shot down any idea of having kids, biological or adopted.
So the Fenton Family’s lineage ended with Jazz and him, some 350 years ago when Jazz passed. He’d faked his death for the public long before then. You could only claim you’re an exceptionally young-looking 40-year-old for so long, after all.
That was until he decided to bring it back briefly, about 200 years ago, for another run and go. He didn’t like the idea of disconnecting himself from his first identity forever, entirely. Even if he had to use a different first name that time.
The second name he’d decided to use was Nightingale. In a hilarious turn of fate, during that 30-year period, there seemed to have been a resurgence in interest in witchcraft.
A lot has changed in the over 400-year period he’s wandered the Earth, yet, not so much has changed at all. And that was why Danny nowadays preferred to keep himself under the radar, and people at an arm’s length.
While he technically retired himself from the superhero business several centuries ago, what, with the amount of his rogues mellowing out and there being less need for Phantom to be able to show up at any moment; he would still help out whenever necessary. Such as, when there were catastrophes from space threatening the entire globe and its attached afterlife, something he’d done before but no one remembers nowadays. Or, when the wrong people got a hold of the rapidly developed technology and weapons of warfare, ones so strong and destructive the humans themselves do not even have any preventive measures for. But that was neither here nor there.
He preferred it this way. He was getting old – albeit not physically, he definitely was mentally – and he’d never been too fond of being part of the superhero business in general. He was merely thrust into it at a ripe fourteen years of age due to a stupid mistake stupid kids made. He was thankful he could mostly part ways with that life, nowadays. Jazz also said that it had made him happier.
“Speaking of…” it’s been a while since he’s visited his sister. The only one from his immediate circle that became a ghost. His parents likely would’ve rather been burned to death than become ghosts in the afterlife, and Sam and Tucker … Danny supposed they’d lived a fulfilling enough life to not return.
He was happy for them, for that fact; even if it had hurt at first when he realized. Even when it still hurt, over 300 years later to know they’d moved on from him. But perhaps love was never meant to be, for a being such as himself.
Jazz, on the other hand, said that she would never be able to leave her baby brother to fend for himself, especially if this baby brother was some immortal semi-godlike being who’s made more than a few bad decisions in his then-normal-lifespan. Danny had laughed at that proclamation at first. Until she really came back to haunt him forever in the afterlife that is.
Danny went ahead and locked up the door of his mechanics’ shop before heading up the stairs to the second floor, personal belongings in tow. He’d rather not open a portal and disappear through it, right in front of the large windows the first floor had.
The halfa took a gentle breath and dipped into a bit of concentration before tearing a hole through reality – its veil was rather thin, all things considered. After all these years and so much experience, creating portals was like child’s play to him – hell, even creating duplicates was.
He then let his familiar transformation wash over him before flying through the portal and closing it off again with a wave of his gloved hand once he was on the other side.
Danny found himself in a familiar area of the Ghost Zone – some small spectral village that was built roughly 700 years ago, if he remembered his history correctly. He shouldn’t let Clockwork know that he’s already forgotten the lessons he gave him; he’d be so disappointed.
Danny looked around in the air briefly before slowly floating down toward the paved roads, and just when he came to a halt, a few inches off the floor, a shrill voice caught his attention.
“Phantom!” it happily called out, loudly – and before Danny was able to turn around he was tackled into a hug by some familiar weight.
Once his eyes landed on his assailant, everything made sense.
“Hi there to you too, Brianne,” he greeted kindly. The ghost child giggled and kicked her feet before she looked up at him again. “Aunt Jazz has been worried sick!” she continued.
Danny’s eyes widened momentarily, and he quickly tried to hide his shock again. “And why would she be?” he asked as he patted the girl’s head, even though he had several guesses for why Jazz could be worried to the point others would know about it.
“She’s been muttering to herself about how it’s been too long since you visited…” Brianne answered with a scrunched expression, as if deep in thought and racking her brain to remember the details. “Also something about … afraid that frostbite would get to you? Or not get to you? I don’t know why she would be though! You have an ice core,” she continued on.
Danny chuckled and patted her head once more, “She’s probably worried that Mr. Frostbite, chief of the Far Frozen-” “Wouldn’t be able to find this reckless uncle of yours when he inevitably forgot his check-ups again,” Jazz added.
“Jazz!” Danny remarked surprised, but also excited, “Did you really have to put it like that?” he asked sheepishly.
“It wouldn’t be the first time, now would it? It’s a valid concern; you haven’t visited me in two years!” she chided her brother, her always younger baby brother – no matter how old or powerful he’s gotten.
Danny’s expression became slightly pained. He huffed and motioned his head to the side briefly as if to tell his sister, ‘Let’s continue this at your place,’ and it seemed that Jazz agreed. His sister looked down at the girl standing confused between the two of them and quietly told her something or another – Danny didn’t quite catch it – and she immediately went on her merry way.
Jazz started walking once Brianne had gone off, and Danny made it a point to close the distance he had with the ground and walk alongside her. Despite being able to fly, as the skill was part of any ghost’s basic repertoire, Jazz was one of the few ghostly inhabitants of the ‘Zone who had always preferred to feel her feet planted on the ground, even after death. He saw no need to mention it and was always happy to join her; gently grabbing her hand as he did so.
“I’m sorry that it’s been so long,” he started after a moment of not-so-uncomfortable quiet, “It’s just … After all these years-” “Time catches up to you, and you lose track of it instead,” Jazz finished his sentence for him once more. She exhaled, revealing no emotion with that action, not really. “I know, we’ve been through this plenty of times before, I got that by the time you turned 320 well enough,” she continued.
“But that doesn’t mean I can’t still point it out. Who knows what would happen otherwise?” she added after a beat of silence.
“What? You’re afraid I’ll forget to visit you for decades at a time, or something?” Danny asked with a chuckle, rhetorically, mostly.
Jazz halted in her steps, forcing Danny to a stop too, and making him turn to see her raising an unimpressed eyebrow at him.
“Heh, maybe you’re right,” he said with a sigh.
“You’re the one who said you lose track of time, after all. And I don’t think it’ll ever really get better,” she said, her tone devoid of judgment.
When they continued walking, but Danny didn’t respond for a few moments too long, Jazz spoke again. “You know I don’t blame you, right? It’s not unnatural – it’s just – I don’t want to lose you also,” she said quietly.
“You don’t have to! Isn’t that why you became a ghost in the first place? So we’d never lose each other,” Danny responded.
Jazz sighed and nodded. “Yes, but when you don’t contact me for so long, it’s … hard to not get scared. And before you say anything about me joining you – you know very well that I can’t sustain myself outside the Ghost Zone for long like you can, now that you move around the globe instead of staying put in Amity. Not that you should ever feel compelled to do that, of course.”
Once they’d arrived at Jazz’s doorstep, she removed her hand from Danny’s to find her keys and unlock the door, before opening it and letting Danny through. Doors in the ‘Zone were very much Ghost-proof, after all. But not so much human proof. Danny quickly dropped himself on the sofa with a satisfied “Humph”, making Jazz shake her head at him as she locked the door again.
“Do you want something to drink?” she asked, already making her way to the kitchen.
“Some ecto-jasmine will do,” Danny responded.
“Do I even want to know if that’s a poor attempt at a joke, or not?”
“Why not both? And hey! It is not poor,” a beat went by, “Okay, maybe it is.”
Danny sighed as he watched his sister work, shaking his head, “But no, you’re … right. I should probably be putting more effort into this … relationships thing. At least for others, even if not myself.”
“Oh?” Jazz responded curiously from the kitchen across.
Danny noted long ago how her home in the Ghost Zone – her Keep manifested from herself – resembled the different houses she’s lived in in her human life. That’s nothing strange, not at all. Many ghosts’ Keeps reflected parts of themselves, or their mortal lives. What was notable however was just how akin to the Fenton house in Amity Park Jazz’s was. Despite everything, it meant that her memories tied to it were comfortable and strong enough to manifest like this.
Contrary, Danny’s Keep – besides the one previously belonging to Pariah – was a weird amalgamation of their childhood home from before they moved to Amity, his many houses since then, and hell – it even saw a bit of Sam’s home! And it still changed to this day, as every new house he inhabited for a longer period of time would shift it again, even if it had been happening less frequently or substantially than before. One thing stayed consistent, however, and that was that there was a distinct lack of their home in Amity Park.
Jazz had mentioned before that it likely meant Danny had separated himself entirely from that aspect of his life, and that that was okay. That it was a form of healing as well.
But Danny couldn’t help but feel like it meant he was running away from it. His life and experiences there were what made him into the man he is today, after all. But that was neither here nor there.
Danny nodded, even though he knew Jazz wouldn’t be able to see it, and responded, “Yeah … for you. For Brianne,” a child taken too soon. A young ghost Danny found wandering around, lost in the Ghost Zone, shortly after her death. Now in the care of the community here, “And I’ve … taken on a human apprentice.” Danny finally bit the bullet and admitted it.
Danny then heard some ceramic shatter.
He jumped up from the couch alarmed, “Is everything alright?” he asked hastily.
Jazz sucked in a breath of air through gritted teeth before responding, “Yeah, I’m fine. Don’t worry.”
She then grabbed a new cup, poured the tea in it, and returned with two of them in hand to the living room. As she set them down, she continued talking, “I was just caught off guard. I mean, you? Of all people taking in a human apprentice? When your only answer to me goading you into establishing more relationships with people again was ‘Nah.’ for the longest time? Sue me for not believing it immediately,” she said sarcastically.
“Very funny, Jazz. But I really can’t blame ya,” Danny responded, accepting defeat.
Jazz’s expression turned softer as she pinned her brother down and sighed, “Of course you can’t. Anyway, care to elaborate?” she asked as she raised her cup of tea to her mouth, taking a gentle sip of the hot beverage.
Danny closed his eyes and shook his head as he picked up his tea as well, responding, “It’s not like you’ll let me out of here until I do so,” he said. “You know me well, little brother,” she teased.
“What caused this change in heart?” Or resurfacing perhaps, that’d be a more accurate description.
Danny pouted in thought for a moment. “I just met this kid, Sawyer’s his name, a few months ago. He has a talent for engineering, but I found out soon after that his family probably wouldn’t be able to send him to college for that. Even after so long, the world hasn’t really become more fair. If it hasn’t gotten worse, that is,” he explained.
Jazz sighed, disappointed but not surprised, “That doesn’t shock me in the slightest. Anyway, so you thought you’d teach him the ropes?”
The halfa nodded, “Basically; and maybe he’ll be able to get a scholarship after that, if he wants to, anyway.”
“You saw a part of yourself in him, didn’t you?” Jazz said, seemingly out of nowhere.
Danny huffed, just barely amused, “What made you think that?” he asked with suspicion.
“A young boy with uncultivated talents, really, Danny?” his sister asked in return, unimpressed.
Danny quieted at that.
He’s been a lot quieter in general, especially compared to his youth, Jazz noted.
It wasn’t a surprise to anyone, and not a secret for anyone, that Danny changed a lot when his loved ones started passing one by one, while he stayed young and living forever. Jazz wasn’t exempt from that either, as the only one who continued to stay by his side, even if that meant continuing without her wife and dear friends who happily moved on.
The two of them always knew it would come to this, and they’d both made peace with it now. But it didn’t take a genius to realize that Danny’s solution to not experiencing this heartbreak again, was to distance himself from humankind. He stayed close, residing more in the human realm than the ghostly one, but he detached himself from relationships just enough for them to not get too close. For him to not get hurt too bad once he’d inevitably see them for a last time.
Unfortunately, in doing so, Danny separated himself from both communities that he was a part of.
Now, Jazz felt that for the first time in over a century, she saw the care he once carried all around him, emerge once more. This Sawyer kid, no doubt has been a huge part of that.
She saw the need to point it out as such, “I think this change has been good for you, little brother.” At Danny’s puzzled face, she continued, “You seem more energetic, more comfortable in your own body,” she said with a smile.
She set her cup down on the lounge table and walked over to Danny who was on the opposite side, kneeling down and holding her hand on top of his knee. “It must’ve hurt, keeping a part of yourself buried for so long,” she whispered quietly, but without another sound nearby it was louder than clear.
It was this comment that broke Danny’s defenses down, an attack so gentle it wouldn’t even have left a scratch. First came one tear, and then another, before they were followed by many more soon enough until her little brother was sobbing uncontrollably. Jazz didn’t think twice before embracing him in a tight hug.
He hugged back just as tightly, if not tighter. If Jazz were still human, she would’ve had to beg for air soon enough. So it was a good thing she didn’t have to.
The siblings just sat there, crying into each other’s shoulders for Ancients know how long.
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On a clear spring day, Sawyer was prepared to head into Daniel Leverton’s shop early in the morning as he’s done many times before, half expecting he may have to wake up his teacher again; an occurrence that had become quite familiar to him as of late.
Instead, he was met with a decked-out first floor, a cake at his workbench, and a very awake Mr. Leverton.
“Happy birthday, I hope you’ll like your gift!” the raven-haired man had exclaimed.
Sawyer barked a laugh at that. “I honestly didn’t expect you to have remembered,” he said. His tone wasn’t rude, not in the slightest. He was merely stating a fact.
“I didn’t either, but hey, seems like old-timers still run alright once in a while,” he said with a wink.
And that had always been a peculiarity to Sawyer. He knew that Mr. Leverton was older than he looked. Even if he didn’t always act it, he had way too much experience for that not to be the case. But other times he would sound like any of his slightly older friends. Yet on occasion, he sounded like so much more. Even his grandparents wouldn’t have compared when they’d been alive.
Sawyer pushed those silly musings out of his head before accepting his gift – some tools that he may or may not have been drooling over while he was out with Mr. Leverton gathering supplies a few weeks ago, as well as some chocolates he vaguely remembered noting he enjoyed once, offhandedly.
For someone so air-headed – or perhaps, appearing to be on another plane entirely, the elder was attentive like no other.
Daniel Leverton was a curious man, and he continued to surprise the young mechanic.
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It was on a different spring morning, several springs after that birthday, that Sawyer received an important email.
It was an email of acceptance into college – one dictating that he’d be the recipient of a scholarship, no less.
Mr. Leverton was the first person he’d tell about this news.
Instead of the immediate excitement that he’d expected of the man, he received a pondering expression.
“Y’know, I was about to ask if you were interested in taking over the shop,” he’d said after he left Sawyer to wander about in his own confusion for a while.
Before he could respond, however, Leverton continued, “I’m proud of you, you should definitely go for it, I know how much it means for you. Just know you’ll always have a place to return to.”
“What are you going to do then?” he responded.
Mr. Leverton hummed with his trademark smirk and grinned, “I was thinking of taking an early pension and traveling the world for a bit. I still have a lot of inheritance left from my too-rich godfather, too. And I’ll keep the building for now, but clients will have to find a new favorite mechanic. Oh, I just know how much it’ll pain them to not find me again though, truly tragic,” he explained dramatically.
“You know, Mr. Leverton, sometimes it really doesn’t feel like you’re the older one of the two of us anymore,” Sawyer teased.
“Oh, but I can assure you I am,” the other said with a wink, “But feel free to call me Danny. Seeing you call me Mr. Leverton to this day really does make me feel so old,” he continued, placing a hand on his heart with a pained expression.
“Heh, okay, Danny,” Sawyer tested the name on his tongue. “I’ll let you know about the shop when I get close to graduating, yeah?”
“We have a deal!” Danny responded as he theatrically shook his hand. “Those stuck-up academics won’t know what’ll hit them.”
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Danny didn’t actually travel the world like he’d told Sawyer; he’d done that plenty of times before. Going on two world-round trips within a century sounded kinda overkill, even to him.
No, what he did in actuality was that he decided to reside in the Infinite Realms for a little longer again – while still returning to Earth on occasion to let the systems know that he had not, in fact, died yet. He didn’t plan on doing that for a few years yet.
Well, that wasn’t entirely true. Danny’s been planning on his new identity for a bit now. Or, well, old identity.
“Do you think the world is ready for the return of Danny Fenton?” he’d mused to Jazz on a seemingly random day.
“I don’t see why not,” she responded. “What brought you to this decision?”
“I just think it would be nice to revisit some old memories, friends, and places.”
Jazz smiled serenely at that. “I think that’s a great idea, Danny.”
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“Heard anything from Sawyer recently?” Jazz asked him one day, a different random day. Danny shook his head.
“Nah, seems like he’s been living a good life. He hasn’t been updating me as frequently lately, but I like to see that as him broadening his circles,” he responded fondly. But then, his mortal phone rang – techniques to make them compatible with ghost-tech and the ‘Zone courtesy to Tucker, of course – and he laughed. “Speak of the devil.” He transformed into his human form before picking up the call.
“Hey there, Sawyer. How’s school been?”
“It’s … been very great, actually, Danny. I have met someone very great, in fact. But uhm – more on that later. Remember what you said about the shop?”
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Danny returned to his cozy little shop for the first time in roughly four years, not so long after he’d attended Sawyer’s graduation ceremony. He picked up a few of his belongings he couldn’t miss, and threw them inside his pocket dimension for safekeeping.
It was as he did this, that Sawyer entered, and caught him in the act.
He’d been planning for this to happen, really.
The young man looked a bit confused but didn’t see any need to press further. If anything, Danny figured this would answer some questions in the long run, once the other thought about it.
“Heh, that’s not something you see any day,” was the boy’s first comment.
“Really? I see it happen plenty of times,” Danny snarked back.
“Man, I’d so want to punt you if I didn’t know for sure I stood no chance.”
Danny hummed, “I think you’ll have to stand back in the line for that.”
Neither man said another thing for a while after that, until Danny’s eyes landed on a small ecto-ornament he’d put on his table when he left for the Ghost Zone those years ago. He picked it up and held it out to Sawyer.
“Here, keep this. If you’ll ever be gone for a while, put this out in the open and it’ll put the area into stasis. Nothing will age for the worse, and it’ll serve as a protective charm against burglaries,” Danny said in a light tone at the end, though he wasn’t joking. Attempted burglars will wake up more than a little dazed if they so much as dare touch upon the shop.
“I … Honestly, I’m not even gonna question that. I just saw you tear a hole in reality,” Sawyer responded.
“That’s probably for the best,” Danny said with a gentle nod of his head before putting the ornament into the young man’s hands.
“Anyway, I’ve got everything I need. You can keep the rest, or throw it out – whatever floats your boat. This place is yours now. I left my key and the spares on my workbench,” Danny explained with a tilt of his head.
“What are you going to do this time?”
“That’s a secret,” Danny replied. “But do come find me again, as a man named Daniel Fenton.”
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Years pass by, with Sawyer finding no such man.
Until one day, into his later years, when his children had already taken over the shop, he heard a familiar voice he’d not heard in decades, but could never forget.
“Hey there, Sawyer,” Danny Fenton said, in the flesh; not looking a day older than their last meeting all those years ago.
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“I’m proud of you.”
And I of you.
#danny phantom#danny fenton#jazz fenton#cae's writing#fanfic#phan phic#character study#been a while since i posted my writing here jlkasdf#hopefully i edited it for tumblr properly...#its always a bit hard here bc it doesnt automatically put stuff in italics#damn#dp#fic
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Me, squinting at the tv a few minutes into 2x03 at Buttons in the background bc it looks like he's trying to do something with the spells Auntie gave him in the last episode:
WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS, YOU DEVIOUS LITTLE MAGIC MAN?!?!?!?!
+I just gotta say, I know everyone’s been saying stuff about about “Where’s Ed?” in the high def photos that dropped, but we already saw clips so I know he’ll be there somehow. BUT I'M CONCERNED ABOUT BUTTONS! WTF IS THAT CRAZY SEA WITCH UP TO?!?!?! Bc the only photo we got that he’s in, is him standing next to Stede and he hadn’t even changed out of the Red Flag’s uniform whereas everyone else seems to have gotten somewhere back to or closer to their original styles…
I haven't spotted him anywhere in the promo that dropped yesterday, I haven't spotted him anywhere in the teaser for 4&5 that showed after episode 3- But what we do see, the very first shot of that teaser, is of a seagull flying away from The Revenge into the night sky.
What if... he ACTUALLY transforms and goes back to The Red Flag to communicate with the Auntie or something???
I was originally on team "It's so silly and fun that they are playing with the idea that he's seriously a magic user. Haha, very funny guys." Bc shows often like to hint at things like magic or a divine power, but don't often actually canonize those things. But Buttons might legitimately be doing something insane... I cannot wait.
#Cae Has Lots of Feelings About Our Flag Means Death#Hello like 1/3 of Vico!#Taking up a lot of attention you are#It's because you look like *that* (compliment)#But I'm trying to focus on that little weirdo over your shoulder#And I'm trying to figure out who's rustling around in front of him#BUT I'M CONCERNED#WHERE IS HE IN THE LATEST PROMO STUFF?!?!?#DID HE GET TRANSMOGRIFIED???#WHAT'S FRENCHIE GOING TO DO WHEN HE FINDS OUT THEY HAVE THE REINCARNATION OF *THE* SEA WITCH ON THEIR BOAT???#(not a sea witch. The Sea Witch.)#I am theorizing like the wind rn#I need to know wtf is going on NEOW#Our Flag Means Death#OFMD#Our Flag Means Death Season 2 Spoilers#Our Flag Means Death Spoilers#OFMD Spoilers#OFMDS2#OFMD s2 spoilers#Nathaniel Buttons#OFMD Buttons#OFMD Meta
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i am so easily entertained but. doctor who is so good when its good.
#im rewatching the old stuff with nine.#is it good as in well constructed? eeehhhh... is it good as in i like it? yeah#cae speaks
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90% of the new merch is very middle school boy in a triforce shirt
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A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut, thoughts
A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut by Have A Nice Life from the deathconsciousness album, 2008
*scroll down for spotify link to song
This is not incredibly detailed, a quick review
This is a requested review from @ka0mojiz
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I will say that I absolutely loved this song. An instrumental piece that begins with a floating sound that feels outer space looming over, and coming closer to you, while you stand in awe of its magnificence. A guitar, from what I can tell, a classical one, then plays an eerie yet nostalgic riff that, following the outer space theme, feels like space has taken you and you are now floating with it. the song achieves an emotional detachment, a liminality that feels like retrospectively looking back at a lost childhood down a corridor. Throughout the song, a “wind howling” sound that in context ends up sounding more like a space vortex that takes all underscores the piece, producing a feeling of blackhole-like emptiness. One can only imagine oblivion approaching, or you are already in, as you orbit within the dark vastness of space. A harsh, alien like synth-piano begins spearing into the track which feels like space focusing on and the track takes a turn —the nostalgic detachment is gone and is replaced by ominous dread. The track ends on a sound, feeling like a “spiral through space”.
overall, the song captures an emptiness and a loneliness. the vastness and oblivion can be felt through the spacey background sound, but the sharp emotion of blue nostalgia can be felt through the guitar. its title achieves a feeling of emptiness too, “devouring”, but places the location on earth instead of somewhere unknown to human civilisation, such as outer space. it allows us to capture those other-worldly moments on our earth, and ponder its alienation yet interlinked nature to the human experience. The song is 7:52, long enough for you to dissolve yourself in the feeling as it progresses. it’s a perfect listen for those who want to tune out the world for just a moment.
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spotify link: A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut by Have A Nice Life, 2008
#a quick one before the eternal worm devours connecticut#the band have a nice life#review#requested review#cae’s saying stuff
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thinking about tma s5 now that its been a while.. i havent relistened to it but lookingback at it. it was a mixed bag for me. disclaimer that i am very easily entertained. i liked the statements much more than the plot. the statements really dug in with that sort of.. like sick fascination element, scratching that sort of itch, at a much higher average than the other seasons.
the plot was the weakest out of all the seasons though. s1-4 were structured around the whole.. chekov's gun + putting all the little pieces together. s5 largely just.. dropped that. and that element was honestly the best part of the show's plot (for me). the feeling of "wait- i recognize that name!" and such was great!
the red herring of the extinction was a huge let down for me personally bc i love the extinction statements
idk. overall mixed opinions. i liked the statements iliked the creativity of the different fearscapes. was meh on the plot - it was entertaining but not.. memorable.
#a large portionof why i like horror is that it can scratch the 'holy shit thats fucked up. what happens next' itch yknow?#and like deep analysis and stuff doesnt really come naturally to me (especially in longform media) . so like i love reading that stuff but#i am mainly here for the 'oh shit!' factor of it all#tp be competely frank. i do not remember a lot of s5's plot#uhh what to tag this as.#tma critical#tma#cae speaks
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New fic soon...
I never know what to say beyond fic updates really 😅 I'd feel weird/bad rambling about non adjacent fic stuff when most of y'all follow me for that reason.
Anyways! Yup! I'm still working on the Peppino x Reader fic "Repairs" (actual title to be published with the fic) and I've finally gotten the motivation/inspiration to work on it again! I've made a decent bit of progress after almost two months and I'm very proud of how this is turning out💜 As it stands, this fic might actually be the longest one I've written and I hope when it comes out y'all enjoy it as much as I have making it.
Stuff below also not completely finalized but here's the Summary/Contents so far!👀
💜Summary: With your home needing to be repaired you find yourself needing a place to stay for a few days. Your friends couldn't help you so when Peppino offered that you could stay on his couch you were nothing short of being grateful. Although when you're together neither of you know what to call that feeling in your stomach when you're with the other. Must be something you ate.
🫐Contains: Fluff, Uncomfortable sleeping arrangements, Cleaning out of boredom, Alcohol, Slight Angst, Domestic platonic fluff, Tipsy Noisette, Oh look you're both in debt now, Oh, this isn't the couch...and that isn't your pillow.
That aside, I've decided to attempt a Vigilante x Reader fic too, so that's also been a thing I'm working on. Not much content for everyone's favorite cheeseslime that thinks he's a human. I won't spoil TOO much on it though but Y/N goes over to his farm and helps him for the day because reasons you'll see when it comes out. It'll be platonic/not dating yet so it'll be more like a friends to dating trope.
Thank y'all for your continued support of my fics 💜 Stay fruity! :>
(As a side note, here's the chaotic mess of stuff I've written this fic to: Entire PT soundtrack of course, Lakebed and Great Bay Temple from Zelda, Skeleton Metal X and that Minecraft album by Joel, Pikmin 2 OST, Groovy Long Legs theme, and Deja Gas in the Fire on loop. I don't know why I can listen to some of these and focus on writing lol)
#pizzatower#pizza tower fanfic#Cae does an update for once#I'm still alive but never know what to say#I try to post more but I'm not good at thinking ppl won't be annoyed if I post non fic stuff. Whoops lol#Please clap /jk#I hope everyone's been doing ok💜💜💜
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I wish everyone on twitter making jokes about no russian right now a very die
#real people actually died. i do not want to see the fotage uncensored while looking for information on what happened.#stuff like this is why mw3 is toned down vs the original btw#yeah it lessens the impact but you cant trust teen boys with this stuff.#cae rambles#(if ppl havent seen there was a terrorist attack in russia earlier today and at least 40 people are dead)
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they actually let us use both of them on the same team lmao
#hsr stuff#cae and jy can have one each!#i'm so used to gacha games not letting you use the og and the awakened version#idk why would i use them together though
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heard you also have a wheelclair brainrot
hi! yeah i do :) wheelclair is like my favorite ship right now
it is very difficult considering that there are only like 40 fics on ao3
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I'm working on an album for release maybe next year?
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A veces sufro que en ingles no le puedo decir a la gente “maquina figura mastodonte” es que no es lo mismo no lo entenderían .. . .
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Izzy the character is beloved and by the writers and within the show. If they wanted him to suck and be unloved they would've directed Con differently or cast a different actor. Con didn't even audition for Izzy, Jenkins saw his audition for another character and asked him to read for Izzy instead. Your hate of Izzy is biasing you to authorial intent and ruining the show for you, not the other way around.
You are free to your opinion, so are the folks who worked on the show, as am I.
This is obviously in response to this post I just made earlier, but, as I literally said in that post: I know.
I am aware that the people who worked on this show liked the character and wanted to do a redemption for him. And just as you accuse me of being blinded by my Izzy-Hate, they (and you) can be blinded by Izzy-Love, there is no subjective metric to see which side is more "correct." I simply expressed an opinion that his redemption was rushed.
I never bash Con's portrayal of the character. I never say he did his job incorrectly. I never even say that Izzy shouldn't get a redemption arc. I also never go and tell people they are wrong when they post happy things about Izzy, even though I don't like him.
People are allowed to like his character, I even acknowledge that in the tags under "I know I'm not an Izzy-Enjoyer so it's not catered to me. I know some people are excited this is how it's working out. Good for them." I'm happy you seem to be enjoying how the show is handling his character, congratulations, I wish that was how I felt about it, it'd be nice.
As I also state that those are just my barebones opinions being posted and I am currently writing up more while I rewatch to explain myself further, in which I do look into Izzy as a character deeper than "he was an asshole in S1" for your information.
But my biggest point is that it felt rushed from where we left off in Season 1 and I wish we'd been given the screen time to explore more of that part in-between the seasons where the crew makes the decision to be more open to him. I just wanted more development and evidence of growth, a reason for Jim to have accepted him as an important member of the crew, a reason for Frenchie to have comforted him like he did.
We didn't get that. And maybe it's the fault of the cast and crew having too much fun with each other they've gotten a little divorced from the events of season 1, maybe it's the fault of the studio not giving them enough time to show it even if it was scripted and had to be cut to fit in the episode amount, maybe it's no one's fault.
But, I went through the trouble to even tag that post "Izzy Critical" so folks who do like him have the option to block the phrase if it improves their experience on the internet. Feel free to try that if it'll help you. But I am going to continue expressing my opinions and analysis on shows I like, because it's fun and I love this medium of storytelling.
Have a good day 😊
#Cae Answers Y’all’s Asks#Cae Has Lots of Feelings About Our Flag Means Death#Hey buddy#I get it#You like the character#I don't#And I don't *have* to like him to watch the show#He was a huge antagonist for season 1 and I'm still looking at him in that frame of mind#Maybe I'll adjust#Maybe I won't#Either way I'm going to exist on the internet and I am going to discuss my thoughts and feelings#I know Izzy Hands is a hot fuckin topic to discuss#But please. Bother to read carefully when you encounter an opinion you don't really like/agree with.#I don't like having to point out stuff I already said#It's tiresome#I can and often do admit I'm biased. But that doesn't mean I'm saying a thousand other things I haven't said.#Our Flag Means Death#OFMD#Our Flag Means Death Season 2 Spoilers#Our Flag Means Death Spoilers#OFMD Spoilers#OFMDS2#OFMD s2 spoilers#Izzy Hands#Israel Hands#Izzy Critical
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finished my math homework eveyrbody clap.
#sans like 2 parts of 2 different problems. that i just gotta ask about cause theyre like true/false stuff . btu like. 2 parts of uh. so many#2 parts out of So Many is not bad. in my humble onion#cae speaks
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Hey! Can you explain what meshes are?
sure thing!
so meshes are essentially the surface, or shape, of a model. (models are the complete thing- with textures and whatnot)
for example: here's part of zaltanna's model. each of the black dots are vertices, which connect to form planes (one plane is highlighted in the second example). connecting planes together creates the shape (called geometry) of the mesh!
now it's not uncommon for characters to be made up of a bunch of meshes- really it's uncommon for them not to be! it's especially common when it comes to humans: often there will be separate meshes for the body, head and hair at the very least. (splitting humans up into these different meshes makes it much easier for developers to iterate and make a bunch of different humans, w/o having to remake the body/hair/etc each time!)
going back to zaltanna, here's what each of her meshes look like!
(i can show some of the other character meshes like this if anyone wants, but zalt has a much lower mesh count than the others so shes' my guinea pig rn lol)
honestly im just a bit confused over why the meshes are divided in the ways that they are. i mean, her antennae and One of her skirt wing things are grouped together as a mesh. no idea why that's the case. my guess is it has to do with either the animation pipeline or limitations of the game engine. bc of how old the game engine is, id assume there's some pressure to limit how many meshes r being shown on screen (and thus limit how many instructions have to be sent to the player computer). i dont think wiz or pirate have any sort of occlusion culling (aka not rendering things that aren't in the camera's view)? this is all speculation of course. and i am very much a noob when it comes to *gestures* All This . so
anyways. got a bit off topic but i hope i explained meshes alright? if you have any other questions i would be happy to give answering them a go!!
#(as you can see i had a lot of fun answering this :D so dont hesitate to ask stuff)#ask#anon#cae speaks#i should probably make a tag for this stuff?#w101 models#<- close enough for a general purpose tag yeah?
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