Bby girl, he’s also the birthday boy

E forced me to post this on main

so here's some Spectrum and Sheriff from @rhapsoddity 's au

I hate how art turned into "content" in the past few years

Zedtober where everyday for the entire month of October you draw Zedaph

I binged Fleabag in two sittings and I am in awe. What a brilliant, beautiful show it is. There is so much to love about it, but the one thing that I can't stop thinking about is the way the narrative was crafted, and the way Fleabag breaking the fourth wall made us part of the story.

So season one pretty much establishes that her talking to us while going about her life is a coping mechanism, a metaphor for dissociation. It was a really great season, but the finale, instead of showing her actually begin to heal, showed shit hitting the fan, and then towards the very end kind of sort of depicted her turning toward the general direction of getting her life on track. At the end of this season, I was like. Wait. That's it? That's the end? Aren't we going to see her actually get better? Well thank god there's season two left still because I want to see her try to get her life back together.

But then season two began with '371 days later' and that really threw me off. Apparently she had managed to get her life a fair bit together by then, but why didn't we get to see that?

Something shifted in episode two, when the counselor asked Fleabag if she had friends and she winked at us. To me, it felt almost like another layer of the fourth wall removed: she isn't just saying stuff to herself and it's being shown as her talking to the camera: she's actually speaking to us. This isn't her only being self aware from the third person's perspective as a way to block out her real life, it's a back and forth. A conversation. It was at this moment that I very distinctly wished someone would notice it within the show.

And then came episode three and the Priest did. It's significant that this happened in the same conversation as when he confessed to liking her, because now he's starting to actually see her. And we all know what happens next— they fall further in love, Fleabag starts messing up who she's talking to, and the Priest–fouth wall relationship concludes with her physically pushing us away when they're having sex because for once, she wants to be present in her own life.

I think it was after this really that it really started to hit home for me: there's a reason we don't ever see her heal. We see her start to heal and get better, but we never could have seen her simply running the café, or petting Hillary and Stephanie just because, or spending time with Claire, or simply being. There's a reason we don't see those 371 days when she started to get better. There's a reason why we left Fleabag's life the last time she saw her family, and returned to it the first time she saw them again after a year. Because we're who she turns to when she's sad, afraid. Lonely.

This is the genius thing for me: we're part of the story. Not only as a coping mechanism, but as a plot device. As something that influences the story simply by watching it unfold.

This story would simply not have the same impact if it existed in a vacuum. It would have been a story about a fucked up woman doing fucked up things and trying her best not to, and it would be good, but it would not have been the same. Actually, this particular story would just would not have existed if we weren't watching it. If she wanted to say what she wanted to and we weren't there to listen, where would she have put her grief? We are integral to this story. This back and forth between Fleabag and us, this communication, this awareness of each other is what makes this story alive.

No, she said to us when we tried to follow her after the guy she loved told her he loved god more. We care about her, and we started to follow her to make sure she's okay. But she shook her head. Not tonight.

And that's how we know she'll be okay.

bruh why is everyone suddenly saying Izzy’s gonna die this season no tf he’s not shut up y’all are scaring me 😭😭 genuinely tho y’all are clowning if you think he’s rlly gonna die after all that. like besties haven’t you learned by now that the Narrative can’t touch us here.

Oh “I want it to hurt” scene from nitw, you will always be famous

MORE SERIOUS ASK TIME. uh. bonnie and isabeau friendquest having bonnie trying to get isabeau to confess because bonnie wanting a piggyback ride because if isabeau confesses now they'll actually be able to get their piggyback ride now, where after the king them having to cook a meal will never happen. grins

OHHH THATD BE CUTEEEE bonnie sillying... give them !! piggy back ride!!

i'm taking a break, guys. i'm sorry i'm just. really tired right now.

I save so much money on video games because so many new ones are about space and I just cannot make myself care about games about space that aren’t like. (early) Spore because the concept just loses my interest in like 5 minutes

hey anybody have some good podcasts i might like. i only like good podcasts & not bad ones ❤️

Why don't you make full paintings in stylized semi realism anymore?

i dont make anything anymore man [crying emoji]

why is writing smut so boring 😮‍💨😮‍💨

so im trying to be more thorough in linking back to every source i use, but im not sure what looks better as the label of the source. a short vague "via" or a full written out "internet archive" or "flickr". what do you guys think looks better

been fawning over your stuff and how you answer asks for a while now and haven't really had anything to ask of you until your recent posts:

sell me on skyrim. no holds barred. been back and forth on buying it for a while and want to decide once and for all

(also your art is awesome and good and i get on tumblr almost exclusively to check your page blah blah blah all that)

i unfortunately cannot sell u on skyrim because that game sucks ass JK FIRST OF ALL THIS IS SO NICE TGANK U IM SO HAPPY U LIKE MY ART WTF !!!!!!!.!!!!!!! um um um ive been obsessed w skyrim and elder scrolls stuff on and off since 2011 like it was ALL i drew and it was my only source of inspiration my entire child/tweenhood (more specifically the general dull fantasy aesthetic and IDK JUST THE WAY IT MAKES U FEEL WHILE U PLAY IT) if u wanna feel rlly badass and pretend ur just a little guy working their way to the top from nothing i definitely recommend I FEEL LIKE IM DESCRIBING IT SO BAD but the dark brotherhood questlines( in skyrim and oblivion) literally shaped me into the freak i am AND ALSO U GET THE OPTION TO PLAY AS A CAT OR LIZARD PERSON WHICH IS LIKE TGE BEST THING EVER

im not necessarily opposed to a time skip since with the actors ages its kinda required but the fact it has to happen for two years under these kinds of circumstances makes me question how theyll manage handle it