i’m going on record right now to say: n/ancy never cheated on s/teve and people who think she did don’t have a brain.

also, she does love him, but it’s far easier for her to say it back than to say it first. and this stems from her being terrified that she’ll jinx their relationship and that they’ll wind up miserable like her parents as a result and she cares about s/teve too much to want that kind of life for them so she holds back from saying ‘i love you’ FIRST, but she DOES love him.

then, when she goes to m/urray’s, he plays on her insecurities and makes her question if her love is even VALID bc she’s scared to say it first, and as a result, she convinces herself to let s/teve go ( on top of her associating s/teve with the guilt of losing b/arb that she has to work through ) because he’s better off without her and m/urray ( and others who don’t even know her like that ) has her convinced that she’d be happier with j/on bc he’s handling their trauma in a way more similar to n/ancy than s/teve is, and so it goes...

but then being around s/teve in s/4 is rekindling old feelings and just makes things even more complicated for her, on top of her already complicated relationship with j/on.

but my point remains: she’ll always love s/teve, end of.

GET TO KNOW THE MUN. respond to the prompts out of character !

what made you pick up the current muse(s) you have? oh, where do i even begin?  well, i suppose i should start with how long sw has been in my life.  ANH was the first movie my mother ever saw when she visited the USA; she saw it with my grandmother ( and subsequently developed a massive crush on harrison, so indiana jones became a huge part of my childhood too lol ).  for this reason, my mother introduced my brother and I to sw when we were actual babies.  then, when the prequels came out, it’s all me and my brother consumed.  from the movies themselves to the original clone wars cartoon to the PS2 games to the novels/book series.  we watched it on a tiny portable player for every trip, and every time my relatives needed us to go away to let the adults talk lol.  it also helped our comprehension of english so much. i can’t recall a time in which sw hasn’t been present in my life! before i joined the tumblr swrpc, i kept to myself in the prequels community, wrote fanfic, and rped anakin on skype.  he’s always been a character that hit a little too close to home in one too many ways.  the main parallel i have with him (that doesn’t relate to his mental issues haha) is his love/devotion/attachment to his mother.  it’s difficult for me to explain without getting into the aspects of my culture (孝順 / filial piety), but in short, i am cantonese; if my mother asked me for my thumb tomorrow, i would give her my arm today.  anakin’s love for his mother, his determination to free her from slavery at an early age, was very touching.  EPII has been memed to oblivion, yes, but the pain i feel when anakin doesn’t get to hear his mother tell him she loves him one last time before she dies, and knowing that it haunts him for the rest of his life (eu), makes me want to throw myself out a window lmao  i have an extremely close relationship with my parents; this sort of pain is absolutely gutting for someone like me. anyway, when i joined the tumblr swrpc, writing han solo was never the plan.  i originally wanted to write luke but ended up changing my mind at the last second.  I’d written well over a dozen fics with han at that point, but was nowhere near confident, so i thought of it as more of an experiment. guess that doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of things, because if you really think about it, since the day i started writing him in fics, he hasn’t stopped butting into my brain.  in fact, he’s been harassing me ever since—to the point that i even switched from writing luke to him… lol given my upbringing and my mother’s love for him, han has always been my childhood hero, as well as my brother’s.  our dad was our han solo.  the nostalgic and familial associations run so deep, it’s difficult to articulate.  we share many traits, right down to his universally agreed-upon zodiac sign (sagittarius); i know han solo like the back of my hand—and it’s probably because i wanted to be just like him when i grew up.

is there anything you don’t like to write? character death.  if i have to say another, it’s when people conflate harrison with the character he plays and then decides to address that in a thread.  harrison was a ladies man back in the 80s, and that’s fine, but that doesn’t mean the same for han.  i hate seeing the conflation between the two.  not sure if this happens as often anymore, but there was a time when fics/threads/even han rpers would lean into it, by default, thus totally destroying his character in my eyes.  i mean, write it as a storyline, that’s cool and fine, but infidelity has never been inherently part of his character.  i will die on this fucking hill.

is there anything you really enjoy writing? most unpopular opinion ever: action sequences.  critical situations, fast paced action, thriller scenes featuring immediate, life-threatening circumstances.  i love writing that which exhibits a sense of urgency and tension, with sprinklings of emotional depth and contemplative introspective moments.  scenes with internal conflict combined with aforementioned external events.  even evading enemy forces, sustaining minor/major injuries, dressing wounds.  dunno why those are always the most fun to me.  aside from that?  romance/romantic angst.  i’ve had many writing partners over the years, and each one thought they could outdo me in writing romantic angst.  sometimes, the psychosomatic pain of heartbreak isn’t far from feeling like you’ve lost a limb in battle.

how do you come up with headcanons? by being the most annoying, meticulous person ever.  i’m extremely detail oriented; when i see incongruities in my own work, i perish.  so, when i come up with headcanons, i have to consider all factors that may affect the outcome of whatever question i’ve posed in my mind and feel the need to justify my choices, for whatever reason, by tying it back to XYZ.  my headcanons must align with my muse’s personality, their environment from childhood to adulthood, their current circumstances, and if it’s an AU, how it mirrors canon events.  canon/eu is everything imo, because they are their own choices; it’s what shaped them into the character we know them as.  ofc, this is my process and opinion, so make of that what you will.

do you write in silence or do you play music? no music, no tv.  sometimes people talking is too much for me.  i have adhd and my medication only helps so much.  i will absolutely start writing down the conversation or lyrics playing in the background lol

do you plan your replies or wing them? plotting vs planning replies is different to me.  plotting gives me a foundation, but it can’t be too confining.  to plan a reply is to block out each moment.  if you trap me, i will always deviate; so i wing everything, even when i have a foundation.

do you enjoy shipping? yes, absolutely!  i’m not sure why people tend to assume otherwise, but i’m more open to it than people think.  i’ve never cared about who you write, if they’re in the sw franchise, or even what era of sw etc etc  never given a shit about what people think; if our muses click, they click.  honestly, some of the best ships i’ve had with han, as in the most enjoyable and enlightening of his character, have been ‘crack ships’.

what’s your alias/name? vin, vince, vincent.  vincent van hoe.  trash bin vin.

age? 27!

birthday? dec 2!

favorite color? silver.  if that’s not a color to you, then blue.

favorite song? you can’t expect me to… well, ‘in your eyes’ by the weeknd has been up there for a long time.

last movie you watched? star wars: the clone wars (2008)

last show you watched? … the clone wars lol

last song you listened to? billie jean - MJ.

favorite food? my mother’s 番茄炒蛋 ( egg and tomato stir fry ), unagi, freshly baked breads, fresh fruit …

favorite season? i get mostly tropical weather, but i love a cold winter.

do you have a tumblr best friend? unfortunately, so many people have left the site over the years, but i'm grateful to call these people some of the closest friends i have in the rpc: @techniiciian @desiccation @vibraea @rcvanchist @sgterso @voxcrystallis

tagged : @debelltio thank you for thinking of me!! tagging : if you're still reading this, i tag you!

anonymous sent . . . I remember one of the girls I used to be friends with in high school kept mercilessly hating on Jin Kazama and she always called him "selfish", "war criminal", and "autistic n*zi". She was an insane Ragna the Bloodedge and Sasuke Uchiha fangirl who got pissy that someone on twitter/reddit/youtube dare compare two characters she loves to a character she hates. She one day went on a tangent saying something like "Sasuke Uchiha deserves better than being compared to Jin!!! Sasuke risked his life to save Naruto's ass in the Land of Waves arc, Sasuke only killed like what 3 people (danzo, orochimaru and deidara are bad ppl anyways), and Sasuke loves his beloved Uchiha family and wants to avenge them. Jin is a selfish sociopath who wants to kill his entire bloodline because of 2 people and he showed no remorse for killing Jinpachi and millions of people!!! Jin doesn't give a shit about Hwoarang, he would let Hwoarang die like how he left Hwoarang to rot after Hwoarang risked his life to save him in Tekken 7!! Jin never suffered in life as much as Sasuke, Jin got to live a normal childhood with his mom for 15 years, got to live in some fancy rich ass mansion with his grandpa, and his mom was actually alive all along and came back anyways!! Sasuke was a child abuse victim who was tortured by his older brother when he was only 7 years old, lived life alone in an abandoned home where his parents died, and Sasuke's dead Uchiha clan never got revived they're still dead. Ragna erased himself from existence to protect those he loves and give humanity a good future!!! Ragna should not compared to Jin either!!". She fucking drew poorly drawn fanart of Sasuke decapitating Jin Mortal Kombat fatality style, and then making out with Kazuya in front of Jin's corpse. Don't worry, I'm no longer friends with her. Sadly this girl and other ppl hating on him saying "haha emo edgelored"/"war" jokes for the billionth time gave me very negative first impressions of Jin back then. Now after I finally started getting into Tekken playing Tekken 8 and the older games like Tekken 2, 3, 4, and 5 and learning that it's Harada's fault for fucking up his character in Tekken 6 to prop up Lars and Jin was OOC in that game compared to his character depiction in previous games - he's now my second favorite character in Tekken behind Lili. It pisses me off too, he's not selfish because he saved Hwoarang in Tekken 4 and he is shown to be supportive of people (supportive of Xiaoyu in her Tekken 4 ending, and he's also supportive of Phoenix Wright in Project X Zone 2).

Honestly hearing stories like this makes me glad I was homeschooled lol. Like OKAY I def knew ppl like this as a teenager, but only online, through the interwebs!! I've been blessed to have never known other teens like this irl LOL. And honestly, maybe it's just me but... I never get viciously hating FICTIONAL CHARACTERS to the point of drawing hate art of it or whatnot. Or to those nasty rpers who will actually follow the character they hate, just to have their muse be cruel to that character or even kill 'em or whatever. It's just... I can't imagine doing it! I don't think I have any characters in mind that I legit hate. Not even the bad ones that I don't like. I just don't like them and that's it lol. And I know these were high schoolers, but like... I don't even remember being like that during my teen years either. I might've been a lil like that as a kid as I was more annoying as a child (we all were lol) but... I still don't really remember haha.

Also Jin didn't want to kill his ENTIRE bloodline lol. Like iirc, even in 6, I don't think he's ever tried to seriously kill Lars? (Could be wrong about that I legit don't remember lol lol) Like Jin wanted to kill Heihachi and Kazuya because at the time, he legit thought they were the ONLY ones of the bloodline (along with himself) and well... they were time proven to be EVIL, therefore... yes, Jin was right, his entire bloodline (except for himself) was evil at the time lol. That was before Jinpachi and Lars were properly introduced in the series.

AND LIKE. LIKE. Some ppl do talk about how it's weird that Jin never showed remorse for killing Jinpachi but LIKE. I am pretty sure it's CANON that JINPACHI IS GRATEFUL TO JIN. Much like how Jin wanted to kill himself in TK4 to stop his Devil from taking over, Jinpachi wanted to be killed to stop the monster / demon possessing him from destroying the world. Like canonically, it was something both Jin and Jinpachi knew had to happen.

I get tired of those acting like Jin never "suffered." It's like yeah, Jin DID have a good childhood up until he was 15 years old. Jin still spend most of his teen years being abused by an old wrinkly fuck, only to be killed by said old wrinkly fuck. Of course, the stupid game's writing did ruin a lot of Jin's suffering. (His mother isn't actually dead, so like... yeah. But I guess he still grieved her and she's been missing for years. His devil isn't actually bad so he was rejecting something that was actually beneficial LOL LOL LOL) But... that's just Tek writing for you. If we forget a lot of the stupid retcons, we can say Jin had a good amount of suffering. HELL, he was created TO BE a tragic hero.

I'm not gonna go on to explain, but I have stated on this blog many reasons why the "Jin is selfish / doesn't care about anyone" has always been a misconception, even prior to Tekken 8 where he gets a lotta friend buddies. But I am glad he's one of your favorites lol. Really, I feel like MORE people would love Jin if they actually looked at him with critical thinking, rather than just... accept the rancid writing of Tek6 and be like "yup, he's a bad character!" Like Jin's a REALLY damn good character prior to Tek6. And when ppl actually look back on those games, play his stories, really pay attention to his character, they would know that.

Before I start venting, I just wanna make one thing abundantly clear: This is not an attack against my roleplay partners or anybody in the League fandom. It is not an attack on the fandom. I just need to get something off my chest. I'll likely delete this before I go to bed anyway. But for now, here I go.

I feel like I am struggling to connect with my roleplaying partners on an OOC level. Especially those in the League fandom. I mean, yes, I can plot and all, and write with you, guys, and believe me, I love writing with every single one of you. When it comes to writing and telling stories, this fandom is everything I could have asked for.

But when it comes to talking to people out of character beyond plotting, I struggle. The thing is, I am not socially shy. Or at least not when it comes to fan stuff. At least, I wasn't as reclusive as I am now. Panda suspects that it may be a response from events, which we both went through probably half a year ago or something. I may have closed myself off because that way I can avoid getting hurt.

I want to connect with you. Obviously, I do not have to be best buddies with everybody, but I still long for closer connections. Yet, I can barely manage a one-on-one conversation because I am too much of a coward. Again, plotting and praising someone's writing ... That's easy. But ask me to interact with you afterwards and I basically hit a barrier.

I think, what makes it even harder is that a lot of rpers in the League rpc have probably been here or well, immersed in the lore for years. I cannot help but notice my newness, not just to the game itself but to Runeterra as a whole. Sure, I am learning more piece by piece, but there is a part of me that feels like I should already be as knowledgeable as the rest of you. I know that's impossible.

In a way, I feel more like a stranger in this fandom than a family member. It is like being that wallflower guest at a house party and the only reason I am invited is because I happen to collect the same toys as the rest of you. Plus my figures are slightly differently painted. Sure, you can tell who they are supposed to be, but they are still not quite the same.

These feelings also often make me feel like I cannot or should not give my thoughts on my characters or things happening. I know, this is all just my head and my perfectionism trying to demand more out of my psyche than I am ready for. It is just ... it is incredibly troubling and upsetting to want these connections but being too scared, insecure and cowardly to take that leap.

I am not asking anybody, reading this, to fix this for me or whatever. It is not on you. It is on me. It is just... I am so tired of knowing where I want to be, but actively knowing my mind is somehow not ready for it. I hate how hard things have become.

((Looking back, Burai's personality is something that I don't feel has been terribly consistent on this blog. I can laugh about it now, but I've possibly been overthinking it - a lot. Especially recently, with so much of last month being spent going through old RP files and reading Tribe's manga iteration "Tribe Shooting Star Rockman Battle Side Story" all the way through- finally. [It's in Japanese, but like 30+hrs went into translation and transcription this Jan.] Yeah... I dug scans out of my ancient hard drive. Yes. You can DM me if you want to know more. I'll prob post about it again sometime. However, the dialogue isn't in the bubbles rn, just in a large labeled sheet w/ Japanese + English.]

Also years ago I translated the ever-elusive 8pg promo where Burai eats fried cabbage. It could use a couple touch ups now. Only version I ever found was in Spanish... You bet - that means it went from Japanese to Spanish to English. Annnd mic drop.

Anyway,

I've been weaving more headcanons in and out of my muse here from elements in the anime, game, and manga verse. A big part of the character is his ties to Mu, so I've gone on a hunt to piece the lost continent's history and culture together. This blog is an AU pulled from the anime, but I keep having ideas for potentially introducing a backstory for Laplace [potentially... I just love him too much and can't not think about it.] Also ideas about Burai's friends from before Mu was sealed.

[To iterate, I'm not selective about what verse I RP with, it's just that I don't feel confident enough to RP game-verse Solo all that well yetttt, and just find certain elements from the anime version easier/more inspiring personally for me to write.]

I like that flair RPers give their muses. People have dif perspectives and experiences that influence how they write even the "same" character someone else may write. That's something I look up to in my mutuals with OCs or canon characters.

Hope ya'll have a nice day ^v^ ))

@mayxthexforce​ has sent: *-slides my url in-*

SEND A URL AND I WILL ANSWER THE FOLLOWING;  [NOT ACCEPTING]

Do I Follow Them?: I DOOOOOOO

Why Did I Follow Them?: Gotta support the RPers who write those unpopular and lesser known characters! NGL, I came in kinda of blindly, because I wasn’t familiar with your muses’ main backbones. But I’m super glad I followed anyway!!

Do We Role Play?: YES! I just need to get to our stuff on tumblr, but I’m glad we have been hitting it off so well on Discord!

Do I Want To Role Play With Them: I’ve been slow on tumblr buT SDKBHFDKHBDF YOU BET I DOOO!!!

An AU Idea For Our Muses: -spins the roulette-  I have to introduce u to my clones rebellion AU JBHSDSD

A Song For Our Muses:  Aqui, Nesse Terraço À Beira-Mar (Sabé/Fox)

Do I Ship Our Muses?: We got more options on Discord, but I dig our Sabé/Fox and I’m looking forward to Quinlan/Fox!

What I Think About The Mun: I met you not long ago and now, look at us. We are VIBING SDHBDSHB. Jokes aside! I’m really enjoying our talks so far, you’re also a lovable bean! I love your passion for SW lore, and the care you’ve put into your muses.

Overall Opinion: This is why you gotta love and support RPers, who pick up some hidden gems as their muses.

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Thief King for the ship ask 😁

Send me a character and I'll tell you (<- Still Accepting)

**Just a warning, I accidentally wrote 1000+ words and probably more then half of them are slightly off topic

My NOTP for them 

If I had to choose, probably Ryou Bakura/Yami Bakura but only because I write him (Thief) as 32/34 and them as 16/18 and as his little brothers. So I can’t see them in a romantic light, which is a shame cause I had this cool fic I was writing back in 2016/17 that I can’t finish cause I write Thief so differently these days. But as found family they are absolutely the best group you could imagine!!! (Thief virtually is prepared to sign adoption papers for them in most things I’ve been writing lately. Hideki doesn’t mind letting his sons have an extra sibling so it’s all good.) In saying that I still adore when others draw them (mostly cause I know they draw a different Thief King to me) 

My BROTP for them

Mai Valentine, I mean they’d gossip about girls and boys all day and go shopping maxing out Thief’s budget constantly and never even leaving a dent in Mai’s. They stay up late watching trashy tv with the most sarcastic remarks and they try on perfume together. They have loads of fun, Ishizu still isn’t overly keen on Thief but still her GF loves him, what she gonna do? It confuses people sometimes since Mai on odd occasions refers to Thief as Big Brother and Thief refers to her as Big Sister. They don’t know why they can’t both be the oldest sibling.

My OTP for them 

Atemu!!! (Pharaoh Atemu, not Yami Yuugi-I count all Yami’s as completely separate people to their host or past selves) but I love enemies to lovers and the amount of times Thief has tried to kill Atemu until it turned into crappy flirting and plus while he was trying to murder the guy, Atemu still felt compelled to help bandage him up if any of the attempts backfired like when Atemu moved in with Yuugi for a while to figure life out and Yuugi smashed Thief with a chess board. Yeah… he kinda kept breaking into Atemu’s places to fight, Solomon set up a curfew and battle hours because Yuugi needs his sleep. 

My second choice pairing for them 

Hmmm, honestly not to sure. I kinda been stuck on the he’s married to Atemu thing for a few years now? maybe if I wrote him younger, Otogi? but honestly I made all the ancient peeps a lot older then the main cast, I just can’t think of anyone from that era for him as a second choice pairing. But I mean him and Otogi can sit around playing with dice and looking fabulous. Plus I think Thief would 100% support his dice game, anything to show up duel monsters just cause he knows how important it is to Atemu and co. The only issue with this pairing would be that Otogi and Malik’s relationship can be iffy and Thief would probably be one of Malik’s besties if they were the same age -_-

Actually!!! I changed my mind, but like a platonic ship if thats fine, I mean Otogi was sorta platonic anyway so I doubt it matters. But Kisara. I feel like she could kick his ass and he’d be totally amazed by that, plus she looks flawless and moves so swiftly when she kicks him in the cheek to stop him stealing her lunch. He also likes that she’s sorta deceiving cause no one expects her to stand up for herself and he smirks, takes a step back as she tells off whatever jackass was being rude to them. That and they can share jewellery and stuff, probably have things in common about lost and found family, young deaths, unjust deaths. Fire… I honestly don’t know a lot about Kisara but this old RPer (they’ve sadly deactivated) wrote her really well and I’ve read one or two short fics about them and thought they were cute!!! ((still leaving my above answer just cause))

My fluffy pairing for them

Atemu… I know it’s enemies to lovers, but like image when they get to the lovers stage. They’d be so cute and fluffy half of the time. I bet Thief would love to snuggle up to his husband and probably bite him at random yes… but still! I love writing random domestic stuff too and they’re so cute. Thief cleans their place and if Atemu tries, Thief just redoes it claiming he did it wrong. Where as if Thief cooks, Atemu has to recook it since it’s all basically raw. Atemu is supposedly Thief’s control tower to stop him doing stupid stuff, but honestly Atemu can get distracted from time to time and find himself in the middle of it instead -haha >u< ((Yeah for people who didn’t know, basically all I write about is casteshipping already married or engaged. It’s like my second or third favourite yugioh pairing - I say that cause currently two are tied for first, otherwise it’d be second for sure))

My angsty pairing for them 

Mahado / Dark Magician. I’ll admit I’ve never written or drawn them romantically and Mahado’s aromatic and not very interested in a relationship let alone one with Thief, but I do like their dynamic. In all honestly I feel like there’d be a lot of difficult feelings between them, different to how Thief would be with Atemu. Atemu he blamed for a massacre his uncle did and his parents hid. Thief may never forgive Atemu for this, not completely but he can come to terms with it, it wasn’t his fault and they were both messed up kids by fate and the Gods. 

Where as Mahado, he fought along side Atemu and I do believe him and Atemu are best friends, but theres a lot of difficult feelings between him and Thief that I don’t think either would want to address or bring up so they’d put it off until you could cut the tension with a knife somedays. It’s complicated. 

Thief doesn’t overly hold many hard feelings toward Mahado in a general sense, not for the things that happened in their first life, if anything he’d probably be the one to form the crush first. But Mahado, Thief killed him. Thief threatened the life he knew, everything her cared about was threatened because some misguided child waged a war against his childhood best friend over something he didn’t even do. Mahado has trouble seeing that Thief has changed, that things are different now, he more so tolerates him. Which pisses Thief off because he’s worked hard on himself and it hasn’t been easy putting his entire past behind him when it was apart of him for so long, and he thinks Mahado can still be a ‘Self sacrificing coward with no will of his own. Pathetic.’ If they dated I’d say they’d break up, but I do enjoy the dynamic and the idea.

My favourite poly ship for them 

And despite the above statement, most likely Atemu and Mahado. Mostly cause I think Atemu would be interested in a three way, while he admits it’d most likely be a very hate filled three way, he’s curious. Thief and Mahado took a hard pass. 

My weirdest pairing for them

IDK, most of the things I do with Thief revolve around him being married to Atemu, Mahado checking in on him to make sure he’s not fucking things up ((the gods assigned Mahado to do this)) Thief adopting Ryou and Bakura cause Hideki’s always working and Amos and Amelia are dead. He plays big brother a lot of the time, and I say he’d like guys only so IDK between everyone being too young for him in the universe I’ve created in my head and I’ll be honest I got sorta off track with canon and non-canon when it comes to ages and siblings and family and everything else. Also Zorc is trapped in another dimension and he calls him his uncle when people ask and Diabound is just Diabound, his protector and guardian angel. Basically watches over him…

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Your pinned says you like crossovers! What crossovers are you looking for! Thanks!

[[YES I LOVE CROSSOVERS!

I'm down for almost anything, even if it makes no sense?

-Just finished The Magnus Archives and would sell my soul to an Fear God-But-Not-Actually-God-Tho-Just-A-Big-Bad just to somehow merge these things

-Supernatural. I got up to Season 9, I think?? And I have no idea how or why it would work? Something something found family stuff. IDK.

-Hero stuff. Especially with my other characters (Peter, Sve, Den, Alfred. Especially having the first three with Thor and Loki because, well, Nordic fam. I have not seen most Marvel and DC movies or read the comics. I do not care. I want it anyways). I want it with Raivis, too, though... despite it yet again making no sense. Uhh, something something persevering against all odds? Sure.

-DOCTOR. WHO. I've seen 9, 10, and most of 11 before we got rid of our Netflix subscription. IDK if it's still on there, but if it is, I gotta get back into it. An 11th Doctor RPer is literally the person I can pinpoint as making me put effort into writing. He and Peter were close, and at the time, I was 15ish and writing two-liner, nothing-burger replies. This person kept writing paragraphs with great characterization, detail, and tone, and it was the first time that I paused before a reply and planned, the first time I wanted to do better, become better at this hobby I love. I absolutely adore the idea of Peter, this immortal(-ish) child, getting to bond with a non-nation semi-immortal being.

-uhhh so many things that I haven't actually seen/read but have strong interest in? (I hadn't watched Doctor Who when I did that RP I mentioned. It made me decide to watch it). Other anime, cartoons, books, just... anything where there could be an interesting character dynamic.

Characters make me so happy, no matter how ridiculous the concept.

picking up the reread happy birthday to me the ildaan epub project is a whore for distracting me

Obsidian woke up unusually early and got dressed, then softly tiptoed outside. The light was dim, and he could see a figure in the darkness. "Hello?" Lupus turned around, "I'm feeding the unicorns." "I see," said Obsidian.

Least aggressive interaction between Lupus and Obsidian in a hot minute. They've been down the plot device journey and have to character develop now, and by character develop i mean develop back into the people they were before they arbitrarily disliked each other. I pull the "my two male rpg characters hate each other" thing off marginally better between Coran and Fornax because (as he points out multiple times) Coran has a deeply valid reason to dislike Fornax, which is "he tried to eat me and Holt." Actually that's a little too far in the other direction given that Fornax is largely supposed to be a sympathetic character (sighs a long sigh), so maybe never mind all that.

I don't know why I had such a penchant for writing male-male rivalries that I insisted were not homoerotic. Coran and Fornax really are refined versions of Obsidian and Lupus, just class-swapped so nobody will notice. Well, I'm wise to your tricks, Katia.

Max and Twink have made friends, which is awesome and I have no notes. Lupus says he "doesn't like horses but likes horses with something stuck onto them" which is incredibly goofy and also a baldfaced lie. Methinks the horseboy doth protest too much.

Inexplicably alan is there and he gets comedically thrown into a stream by lupus and ky, which he thoroughly deserves. The plot then moves on, as it rightfully should. We were in a silly goofy mood, I guess.

Obsidian not riding a unicorn with Chuji is soooo profoundly lame of my 12-year-old self. Number one rule of RP is YOU HAVE TO PLAY BALL! I was a pretty good rper overall, but not submitting to the rules of Yes And over things that are super arbitrary like obsidian riding a unicorn or fornax's eye color was for sure my biggest flaw. And also obsidian using darkness to make a magic carpet is distractingly fucking silly.

That said, Obsidian and Chuji having silly banter about riding unicorns and Tozi responding by being like UGH obsidian is so CRUEL to CHUJI is really fucking funny. fucking teens.

spark's unicorn ditches her and -

"Want to get on with me?" Quartz asked. "Sure." she climbed onto the Unicorn. "Stupid Bananacake. Who's names a Unicorn Bananacake anyways?" she laughed.

what if we rode a unicorn together. and we were both girls. this is just the yuri version of draco and endey riding draco's dragon together.

JACK: I'll introduce Charlie AUGUSTINE: okay! remeber counter1 JACK: (Rass I'll introduce him then you talk about the clothing. From that point on we can both control him.) KATIA: (I'm gonna chill now cause it seems like you planned it out in microscopic detail)

The Charlie Scene is coming and probably needs its own post that i probably need to make while i'm not on the clock. probably. but love this charming mix of bitchiness and affection from me, katia. deeply on brand. "i love you guys. i wept profoundly when i couldn't go to rhode island with you. now get on with it already." 12 year old katia i would venmo you seven hundred dollars if i could

1, 5, and 18?

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this got a lil long so i cut it LOL

1! long threads

ooooh okay i LOVE long threads. i've had threads with people lasting for years. but. my favourite thing is telling one continuous story, even through many threads. like one of my friends and i have a whole universe for Claude/leth that has spanned many threads and asked and i'm super into it. or one messy love triangle story line with another friend. basically i love long long plots. long threads. long writing. honestly it's my fave. i don't like disposable plots and threads. I'm pretentious: I wanna build connections with people and characters. i don't tend to get on with people with disposable ideas to RP

i do however like short threads too, as long as it's all working to a greater narrative. some one-liners or whatever. like sometimes that's necessary to keep shit moving, you know? otherwise you're stuck like "oh shit i genuinely cannot keep describing trees here"

basically. all forms of RP have their merits and disadvantages

5! dash commentary

personally, i don't tend to engage in it. i don't read people's RPs, i only read dash comm/short posts. idc if people read my RPs but i just. don't. i dunno! i prefer to write actual threads. if people wanna comment on what i'm doing that's their choice, just how it's my choice to remain anti social

also i won't lie but i feel weird taking part in dash commentaries. bc it feels like very much an 'in group' kind of thing and if someone outside the group takes part it's just ?? it feels awkward. i'm definitely much more of a one on one person. it's why i do not thrive in group RPs and stuff

idc what people post tho. like. if i didn't like it i straight up would not survive on Tumblr lol

18! shipping

hehehehehehe. okay SO i didn't even get into RP for shipping but the instant i was aware shipping was a thing i begged all my RP partners to ship with me (also when i started out i promised to ship my OC with someone else and then just went. anyway he's gonna fuck someone else. young teens are the worst honestly)

i am a ship focused person. i won't lie, that's most of why i RP to this day. i want to ship. i want romance. like i know that's not for everyone and that's cool, i also adore familial and platonic stuff. honestly like i am not a plot person. big cool plots with things happening? nah i can't write those. intricate plots about feelings and all that good stuff? yes. that's what i want. intimacy

i do have a habit of shipping real quick so if you think our muses vibe i'm there with you. i probably also think they should kiss. i'm so easy to ship with it's unreal. even if it's not on my ship bias, it doesn't mean i'm not into it - it just means i haven't thought about that ship

all my fics are shippy. i just??? i love ships. i don't care if that makes me a 'lesser' RPer bc i know the RPC snubs people like me. i don't care. i like what i like and no one can stop me

uhhh TL;DR give me more ships. i love ships. that's 90% of why i'm into fandom

also for fun, my fave FE ships from the games i've finished aaaaare Chrom/Frederick, Leo/Odin, Mae/Celica, Caspar/Ashe aaaaand. hm. maybe Mauvier/Alear

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Hi, I’m Skull!

I haven’t touched an rp blog in about 4 years, so I’m a little rusty. But Jan was always a favorite muse of mine, and, lately, I just haven’t been able to shake him. So, I figured I'd try my hand at RPing once more. But some things to know about me;

I’m currently 25 years old

Pronouns: They/Them 

I was an active RPer from 2013 to 2018, my character of choice mainly being Jan Valentine.

The main reason I stopped rping originally? I kept getting deployed on the ocean (can't maintain an account on a boat), and then I got stationed at a hospital where I aided in the treatment of Covid-19 patients. I still love writing, I always have; I just got really busy.

Rules and Boundaries

No Nazi shit - Yes, I’m aware of Hellsing canon. No, I don't want to write about the Nazis, WWII, or the Holocaust. I don't have any intention of making light of those subjects by using them as a plot point for our silly thread.

Triggers - I don’t have any. This, first and foremost, is a Hellsing RP Blog, and, if I’m being honest, there’s very little I’m not willing to write (those exceptions being nazism, homophobia, transphobia, racism, and pedophilia). With that being said, I tag basic triggers as #cw, #[trigger], and #tw [trigger]. If there's a certain type of post that you want to be tagged, please let me know.

Have Patience - Unmedicated ADHD is my greatest weakness, and I have a relatively busy home life. I promise I’m not ignoring you or our thread. I’m doing my best to stay on task, and that proves to be difficult more often than not. This isn’t, in any way, a reflection of how I feel about you or how excited I am to write with you; I just have a hyperactive squirrel on crack for a brain.

Shipping - I’m open to shipping with chemistry. If you’re feeling our characters might have some kind of chemistry going, let me know because, more than likely, I do too! I don't ship with underage characters and never will; no exceptions.

NSFW Content - I’ll be honest, I’m all for violence, but as far as smut goes? I’m not sure. Jan is a maybe, but Anita is the only character where NSFW is a hard no. All NSFW Content will be tagged as #NSFW.

Canon - As far as Hellsing Canon goes, I’m not that concerned with it. Anita is completely independent of the Hellsing Canon (or any canon for that matter) anyways.

Personalities - For everyone's sake, I toned down Jan's personality by... a lot because, let's be honest, interacting with an abusive jackass is about as fun as gouging your eyes out with a plastic spoon; it gets stale after a while, and it's likely to piss someone off one way or another. This doesn't mean he's a big softie- he's still predominantly evil, still an asshole/shit disturber, but less... like his canon counterpart.

A Hard No - Please do not write a scene where either one of my characters is sexually harassing/assaulting one of yours. The first time, I’ll politely decline the thread and we can work on something else, but the second time will result in a hard block. 

No Tolerance - I don't care what we're writing, I absolutely won't tolerate slurs in or out of character. I don't care if you've reclaimed it, I don't care if your friend said it's okay, I don't care if you're personally okay with them- I don't want them in my inbox, DM's, threads, or anywhere near me. Same as before, I'll only tell you once and the next offense is going to result in a hard block.

Mind Reading - Unfortunately, I was not blessed with the gift of telepathy, and probably never will… probably. But, in the meantime, if there are any issues: you don’t like a reply I gave, I said something off-color or problematic, posted something untagged that squicks or triggers you, etc - Just let me know. I’ll apologize and do my best to correct the behavior. 

18+ Only - Regardless of what I’m writing, I’ll only interact with muns who are 18 and older. I don’t have anything against teens who want to rp (I mean, I started rping when I was 15), but, as someone who’s 8 years older than someone who’s 17 on top of the fact that I’ve worked with kids/teens in the past… I don’t feel comfortable with that. There are no exceptions to this rule. If I find out that you’ve lied about your age, that will result in an immediate block.

Lena's 2023 RPer Resolutions!

Write your RPer Resolutions for 2023! (What are some goals for yourself as a writer? Improve descriptions? Plot with more members? Etc.)

The first thing is I really really want to get better at descriptions. I always get so in character's headspaces and not enough in describing. I'm hoping my next muse will kind of force more of that out of me anyway because of the way I plan on writing them but it is definitely one of my main goals.

Go for plots that I want without thinking about what others might think! I feel like I used to hold myself back from telling some stories I might want because I didn't think others would think it was good or like it like I do. But now I kind of feel like...hey if I like it then I like it and that's good. Gotta get out of my own head a bit with that. If I really like shippy things and romantic stuff or any other sort of plot type thing I want to embrace that more without second guessing myself.

I want to involve myself more in other people's stories even if it's in the smallest ways. I feel like I got more awkward and distant and I want to get away from that and plot with more people again. Let's do some wild and fun stuff!

Write at least one resolution, or “goal,” that you have as an RPer for your character(s)

My current goal for Finn is to focus on bringing him back into the college world and get him actually involved in more things. Clubs? Sure! Weird friendships he wouldn't anticipate? yes! Gonna force my more antisocial muse to be more social.

Also [redacted] muse coming up I intend to really develop the magic side and like go into it more than I have with a number of characters I used to write. That's my goal.

Write at least one resolution IN CHARACTER for your characters. What do THEY want to accomplish or change in the New Year?

Finn wants to be a better friend and figure out how to balance school stuff better. He has so many things he likes he wants to figure out what his real dream is. Where he wants to be after college. That's kind of his big focus is figuring that out.

List one or more characters you have never interacted with that you would like to do so

oh man so many. I feel like so many new characters came in after I had to leave for a bit. Lightning McQueen Paul Leonard "Doc" Hudson James "Hook" Jones Cruz Ramirez Grace Tilly Reba Stray Luca Paguro Milo Young Jeremy Johnson Sophie Hadder Marcel Hare Samuel "Smee" Smiegel (my old Tad muse would get a kick outta his name lol) Gaston D'Avanant Cecil Clayton Kiig’nc ‘King’ la’ornh

Talk a bit about your plotting style – what plots are you most drawn to? Do you prefer to come with a fully-formed idea and plot off that, or throw stuff at the wall and see what sticks?

Honestly I think it kind of depends. With some muses I have a fully formed idea and try to find the people that would really go with that idea, but sometimes I do throw things out there. It depends on what my plans for the muse are. Like Finn I feel like I have more flexibility with him because he's a college student. His future is out in the open and so I feel it's more open to go different directions. With my upcoming muse I have more formed ideas that I'm ready to direct at people which is kind of exciting.

I do think having some more formed ideas can be helpful with a direction but as I said it really depends. I sometimes like to plot too based on something I want to do or a plot type I've been craving and just reach out and see if anyone else has been craving that sort of plot.

I love romantic stuff, but ironically I don't tend to plot that a lot. Or like I was often very hesitant and awkward about it even though I do love it. I think that goes with my resolution earlier wanting to embrace the things I like without getting into my head. I also like friendship stuff and found family. And then of course...I do love to create chaos. In different avenues but if one of my muses isn't causing a little bit of trouble...it doesn't feel right lol.

Talk a bit about character relationships – what relationship are you most drawn to? How do you prefer to approach shipping (if at all!)? What, specifically, are you looking for right now for your character relationships? 

I think I kind of mentioned this, but I like romantic and friendship and enemies. I like a lot of those. At heart I am a cancer and i do love love I can't deny, but I'm very slow with committing to that usually. It really depends. Sometimes muses just click and that's great! As far as shipping goes to me it's like, if we're both feeling it and the muses are interested then I'm all for trying it out and seeing where it leads. For Finn he's still sort of figuring out what he likes, but I do want to explore that side more for him. I want him to find his comfort zone in it.

[redacted] will not be seeking romance, though ngl I think it'd be funny to see someone try with them.

Talk about your dash reply style and your Discord reply style! (And if applicable, also your doc reply style). What do you like about each type of interaction? What is something you feel is difficult? 

As far as the dash goes, rn with one muse I've kinda just done them all when I'm on at once. I think with the beta editor it feels weird/almost impossible to queue since I don't want the posts to look stupid if I queue middle of the day and then like it posts weird you know? So mostly just gonna post when I'm inspired and do it right then.

Discord wise kinda depends. I tend to get a little more overwhelmed with those events sometimes. The fast paced of it is both great and not great to me. If I do throw myself in I'll be pretty quick to it and it's a nice back and forth that doesn't require too much planning.

I don't really love docs. I think it's nice to try to keep plot stuff secret, but I forget about these easily and often need to be nudged.

Plotting Exercise! Pick one of the resolutions/goals in #3 and plan a rough guideline to how you could accomplish it.

FINN decides to try to be a better friend and goes to meet NEMO and TAE and hang out with them more.

NEMO is struggling with school stuff and FINN goes to OLAF to see if there's anything he can do to help or to change things for him.

NEMO and FINN have a disagreement and try to figure out where their friendship/relationship is now.

FINN chooses to support Nemo in a new way.

(idk i'm bad at these dsdfsf)

Okay I’m still thinking about this so I’m going to go on a super long rant/explanation of my very first OC

Her name was Kazu Takeda, and she was an Inuyasha OC/ripoff. SHe was a half demon/human/dragon that could grow dragon wings and light things on fire my flashing her eyes (however that works). She was tall with long with hair and black dog ears and massive gazongas. My idea was making her the opposite of what a stereotypical Japanese woman looks like. Yes, I agree that’s stupid and probably racist.

She met a human man named Sabor played by an online fellow rper and she was a big jerk at first, but they fell in love and had two children. He also had another character whose name I forgot but was an antagonist who was trying to kill Sabor Because Of Reasons.

Anyways, that whole rp arc ran its course, and Kazu was retired for a few years before I found a new RP group and brought her back from the void. I nixed the dragon thing because I realized it was terrible. Also, instead of being a half demon, she was only a quarter human; her mother was a half demon, and her father was a demon. And because I hadn’t fully abandoned her Inuyasha origins, I decided that she turns human once a year. Also, Kazu isn’t her real name anymore; it’s Amaya, which I read on some baby name website means “night rain,” she she turns human on the first rainy day/night of the year because it was raining when she was born,

This is also where she became super duper edgy.

Demon daddy isn’t in the picture because he left her mother before she was born and promised to come back eventually. SPOILERS he never does. Her mother was killed by demon slayers when she was only eight years old, but they didn’t know she had a child, so they never found her to kill her too. She witnessed her mother’s murder by beheading. She grows up resenting her father for abandoning them, and her resentment ran so deep for him that she refused to acknowledge his mere existence by claiming she was a virgin birth.

She lived on her own for the next eight years struggling and scraping by before meeting a human man named Gale. He found her injured and took her in, and the two fell in love. Nevermind the fact that he’s a grown twenty-something and she’s a teenager ssshhhhhhhh. Anyways, he gets killed by demon slayers that were looking for Kazu Amaya because he helped her escape and refused to tell them where she was.

So heartbroken and angered was she that she abandoned her old life as Amaya and renamed herself Kazu. She became an assassin and made her living killing people because if she’s not allowed to have a happy life then she’ll make other people hurt just like she hurts. 

Oh, and she can transform into something I called her feral state. Basically, because she’s mostly demon she’s able to transform into a more demonic form (again, going back to her Inuyasha roots somewhat). However, because she’s not completely demon, she can’t actually control it. It triggers due to extreme amounts of adrenaline like fear for her life or unfathomable rage. She basically takes on a werewolf-like form and attacks everyone around her until she wears herself out and goes unconscious or someone manages to knock her out.

Anyways, in this new iteration she made unlikely friends with a half cat demon named Kyoko, a fairy named Tsu-maru, a young Japanese (Or Chinese, I honestly don’t remember which) human named Mihao, and a man named SHel who was a big buff fighter that could control plants.

Long story short, Shel and Kazu fell in love, got married, and had a son named Kojiro. Her story once again ended, and she was retired for good so she could enjoy her happy ending.

Except then I took that happy ending away because I had plans for making my own universe for all my OCs to live in together. Pretty much all of her revamped backstory was kept as well as her friendship with Kyoko.

Because I wanted to give back her pointless edginess, I decided that she was a hundred and thirty-two years old (cuz 132 is one of my favorite numbers, you see) and basically isolated herself so she hadn’t had friends in over a century. She also abandoned the assassin gig after she unwittingly killed a woman in front of her young daughter, mirroring what happened to her when she was just a little kid. This resulted in her having a nervous breakdown and fleeing Japan to presumably the states/where ever my little setting existed.

She finally found a friend in a young woman named Kaiya, who belonged to a race of empaths. She was able to see Kazu for the damaged and hurting person she was, and the two became close. Eventually Kaiya died saving Kazu’s life, which just made her miserable all over again.

That’s about the point I got bored of all my original characters and their universe, so she never really got any closure from losing the only friend she had. :D Ain’t I just the worst?

Anyways, I think I’m done ranting about her now. If you actually read this big long mess, thanks for humoring me!

Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up Just stay this little Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up It could stay this simple I won't let nobody hurt you Won't let no one break your heart No one will desert you Just try to never grow up Never grow up

an excellent family from @land-ofthe-lost!!

Meadowfur belongs to @meadowfur, Nightpaw belongs to @aug-ust-a​, and Wildpaw belongs to @kagaskorner​!

okay so. ive listened to TAZ: Balance and now ive listened to TAZ: Amnesty and. there are a few common themes with how the Boys interact with Griffin's worlds.

get clint in a room with an antagonist? BAM NOW A FRIEND-TAGONIST (jon and merle. the quell and thacker. duck saved billy but ned housed him like- clint likes to make friends with his son's imagination and thats a mood)

travis exists? he has a pet. do i need to say more. he has multiple pets. every time. i am WATCHING Devo in Ethersea for when he acquires his pet. i hope it is a fantasy sunfish.

justin. Ultimate older sibling vibes and good at making Snarky and Sarcastic characters. but also. good at dating NPCs. Taako and Kravitz. Duck and Minerva. I love it but also these were not npcs explicitly created to be partnered with taako or duck. these NPCs were just vibing and in swoops the Justin's character with a rose between their teeth and it the chemistry works and. its so funny. justin why is your thing that youre good at dating your brother's funny lil imagination friends. justin why.

meanwhile Griffin is off in the corner and plotting how to Terrify people with Ominous Storms and honestly go off king.

one of the greatest feelings in rp is seeing two of your mutuals interacting together, knowing that they likely found eachother via your interactions with them. it makes the community feel more like...idk a community i guess LOL