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corpsentry · 3 months

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at the asian american studies sponsored movie screening i run out of my seat to press a button for the presenter and you look away, not in shame, but in anger

go make your own movie.

One where you’re the star

and everything’s my fault

the way you want it to be. I know, it’s easy

to let someone else hold this grief

and sit in the bathtub,

all dressed up to go to the party.

Maybe in this movie it’s your party

and I the party crasher,

holding cymbals and a baseball bat, et cetera.

But we don’t stop getting older when we’re angry

and you’re only twenty,

can’t listen to lullabies at night,

can’t sleep without a blanket

over your head like you’re scared

of your own shadow. God, go

write your own movie.

You could do it,

you’re still

pretty. Angry? Me too.

The bathtub’s overflowing,

the bathroom’s flooding

with whatever you couldn’t say

to the poet with their palms glued shut

in a cheap simulacrum of prayer.

Didn’t you say you were tired? Angry? Me too.

Upset? Unhappy? Me too. Hungry? Lonely? Me too. Me too.

Standing barefoot in the grass

I remembered the month of bad weather.

How I parted the fog with broken hands each night,

looking for your voice.

Oh, I will not forgive you.

Not like this.

With your fingers splayed

against the brute February sky,

lips cracked open like windows,

waiting, like you always are, for me to say the first word.

#my writing #my words #there are many reasons i like tumblr. for example the number of people who keep getting older is very impressive #but also it is nice because unlike my goddamn poetry account (self inflicted damage) half my friends irl do not follow me here #so i can put this poem down. it’s not public grief here it’s anonymous grief! woo #anyway i have just survived possibly the most brutal four weeks of my life and this is including getting dumped a week #before the dance concert in which my ex and i were in more than half the items together. this is including that #but i am OUT #and this poem was written while i was still in but i am O U T #lord being hurt and hurt and being mature and brave and smart makes your HR voice get really good #not by choice #for survival purposes #i am wondering if i should get this laptop. as my water bottle exploded and destroyed my old laptop #i think i will do it #yes. i think so #it is time to start taking care of myself. and so on #so here’s this poem. i wanted to share it because it’s raw and unedited and it has some lines that i think are neat #if it makes you feel some stuff that would make me very happy

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sunshades · 5 months

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One thing about canto VI is like. I see so many people predicting it'll be about Fighting Evil Wife or Breaking Codependent Toxic Relationship and I just kinda think that would suck? If the major theme isn't grief AND love and the way both are seen as like Kinda Weird/inappropriate in the setting of the city. Then I'll be very sad.

#bell.txt #not putting it in the tag i dont wanna spam but yes limbus posting yes girls will be thinking about mortal regret #LIKE. LIKE. remember the discourse on twt about how like it was bad writing that yi sang didnt mourn dongbaek etc #and like that was the thing right. thsts not a thing you do in the city. that was part of why roland (who takes lots after wh's themes)#was so exceptional. that is the whole thing about the sickness of the city #to say it in comedia literary criticism terms: sins are split between wrongly-directed love and excess of love with sloth (lack of love)#being an outlier. i think heatho and generally og wh is about excess of love and not wrongly-directed love. it is the thing that lasts #all the way to the other side. it is the shared coffin and meeting again in the next life #i think itd be AWFULLY disappointing to get some boring boring 'they make each other worse' take. being APART due to societal pressures #makes them worse and horribly lonely. death makes them worse baby. so in my mind thats it #we get to see cathy die or still be unreachable in some way and then in very roland style we get furioso mode #and then the ending is about recognizing the love that has in fact been there all along and carrying it with u. and hoping to reunite some #where some other time. NO more slander of that awful girl. YES to the comfort of the memories.#me typing over my foscolo notes like i can surely post about heathcliff really fast and not write a novel in the tags (unaware)#i have more thoughts about this in regards to ruina with xiao and some stuff from leviathan but in the meantime. listen to my ramblings boy #ALSO. considering that implication. he feels for her what queequeg feels for ishy. ARGHH. RIPPING MY HAIR OFF #ok actually its been enough hours to not spam ppl I'll tag it now for blog org. i should maybe have a tag for posting specifically #limbus company

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pyrriax · 2 months

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HI TUMBLR late footnote posting before i go to bed (i took a nap today........ ate up most of my time)

not a lot to talk about with footnotes today since i was Busy and my brain wasnt working pfndkmlfd i blame seven hours of modded oneblock

#haunted ecosystem #haunted bookshelf #i might make a tag for these footnote posts? i think its a fun way to document what ive written about without sharing All of it #also yes thats a random crack au that i've have in the back of my head for a bit what about it #i dont think its canon in the slightest its just a funny little thing in my head for writing random bs #honestly i might start trying to work on more wtds stuff. this is kind of a perfect excuse #also! i think how i might work this is that if i work on a larger project during the day then i'll just do the daily prompt #since its a good exercise and an excuse to keep some kind of writing streak going #i actually asked one of my partners for a prompt since i was struggling to find an interesting one #ended up with 'last man standing' for spoke... very fitting tbh #i might write a more canon take for that. the concept i wrote down was much more set in an au than anything since i was also thinking #about asomatous zam at the same time so i kind of just incorparated both of them into it with it being paracosm-era #OH did i ever mention that i have a general title plan for the other parts of that kind of. world #its very set in stone that if i do write more it'll be two more parts #metamorphosis (5 part) and paracosm (1 part with multiple scenes. functionally 3 part maybe?)#asomatous goes in the middle of that. i need to kind of plan all of them out better and see how it wants to flow #metamorphosis was started as a concept because i had a few bad things happen bingo prompts i wanted to be used for asomatous #but didnt end up using. so metamorphosis is my excuse for that. paracosm is just a Concept thats been really plaguing me basically since i #originally wrote asomatous... i should probably come up with a temporary series title. i think something about shattering skies?#its a reoccurring theme and symbol throughout all of them....... i just think its neat #ANYWAYS goodnight to you especially if you actually read through all my tags :)

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atsu-i · 9 months

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Hello, I just saw the anon ask talking about you not being on tumblr that much anymore and we don't really talk to eachother (I think we only ever exchanged messages once), but I wanted to say, while I can, that I have wonderful memories of this website and a lot of them include seeing the mangacaps that you reblog or reading your tags, including all of the occasional venting and even some of the adorable auntie stories.

If you allow me to ramble a little bit, I want to talk about the blog that you called "shitty" and how I think it is actually really cool.

You might not think that you do much because you mostly just reblog stuff, but I feel like all the mangacaps that you reblog are more meaningful than most people think. I think that they are an act of self-expression and throughout the years I've felt like those kinds of posts express a desire that people have to be more honest with their feelings and put them out into the world. I've felt like the mangacaps, combined with all of your text posts, probably do accomplish some of this.

I am not going to say that your blog changed how I view life or anything like that, but I can say that your blog, along with many other similar ones, have seriously been a part of my journey of better understanding myself.

For example, today I liked a post that had a guy feeding a cat in it. And I didn't like the post because the art was amazing. I liked it because I thought that the guy is gentle and that aspect of gentleness resonated with me personally. And obviously, there are times where I might like a post just because I think that the art looks cool, but I think that a lot of times when I'm browsing through tumblr I'm just learning more about myself through the things that I like.

Maybe the whole thing isn't supposed to be that deep, but sometimes (not always) for me it is. I think that this whole thing feels unreal for you because you don't put a lot of effort but I think that it is pretty cool that a bunch of people like the blog despite that.

As always, have a nice day and drink some water.

;-;

#wasnt expecting a reply to that anon reply but tysm for....somehow telling me how you felt about this blog #and somehow me?#also just like the anon...i wanna say ty for appreciating this blog of mine #like seriously I just reblog stuff that resonates with me #and sometimes I just rant and share stuff I wanna share and yeah sometimes I just reblog coz I find it pretty #also the manga's i read shows i watched and will watch...its all here lol and it's...how should I put it #it's just me and somehow it doesnt feel 'real' that anyone will give attention to it? am putting myself out here and not expecting anything #but somehow...some of you notice and am like why lol coz you know my content.....it's very depressing most of the time tbh #anyways haha i still remember you btw haha we talked I think twice? waayy before and am glad I did #thanks for rambling to me...it's always welcome btw #I like reading what you guys think and feel #and somehow I always receive kindness which I think I still dont deserve but you still give it anyway #all I could do is say ty ;-;#like this blog really is my escape tbh....and some of you appreciating it makes me sad and glad at the same time? ;-;#really tysm #and yes am rambling too in my response haha i hope it doesnt bother you reading all this nonsense lol #again ty idk how many times i should say it but yeah #this means a lot...you and everyone else who appreciates me being here #and with that....I would like to say have a nice day/night dear!#I always stay hydrated lol but yeah i hope you do too ^^ stay safe yeah?#oh also! thanks for thinking the blog is cool ;-; you are nice for thinking it that way ;-;#lastly ty for still following me and remembering stuff I shared on here even the personal stuff #again tysm ;-;

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dbphantom · 1 year

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this game is so pretty it's not fair

not pictured: lucien clipping through the floor behind me

#i've been really into skyrim lately #the vibes are immaculate #it's a huge comfort game for me #been falling asleep to those '10 hour skyrim ambiance' videos on yt lmao #reminded me i should share some of these screenshots i took the past few days #cruddy rambles #yes my dragonborn is a battlemage what about it!!!#it's genuinely a really fun playstyle to play support while your teammates destroy everything for you #play on legendary and setav their damage values to like .3 and it's so so so fun to play support #you get oneshot by everything so your followers HAVE to take aggro #im a conjuration/alteration mage so i can summon walls of earth to block enemies and wraiths that explode on impact #the thalmor embassy is going to suck but it'll be a fun experiment to see how far this build can take me #currently my dragonborn's goal is to 'save up' enough money to pay for his education at the college of winterhold. so he's roaming around #doing bounties and got roped into the main story by accident #so far we've found lucien kaidan inigo and lydia (who is getting replaced by auri when we get close enough to make me beelining to her #believable on the 'roleplay' part of things) naturally #my dragonborn is originally from solstheim and came to skyrim for the college. which. he doesn't know it's horrible so that'll be fun.#listen i wanted a reason to actually have my character 'established' before i did college stuff as for roleplay reasons i'll be leaving #my followers at home for that questline #so he needs the money lmao

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zuala-bear · 1 year

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The BW: Hero Swap protag(?) designs. The AUs still pretty much a WIP so some things may or may not change, but so I'm happy w/ their designs. (Although- I might redo Hilbert. And keep this 'fit as something more casual than usual).

Alt designs under the cut^^

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foxovobear · 1 year

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Pov: you said 2003 Donnie is baby and are paying for it asdfghjkl

#my stuff #listen i am aware of the slightly unhinged and homicidal tendencies that all donnies seem to share #did he do some questionable things? yes #but is he still baby? YES #should you mess with him? NO #and nothing will ever change my mind about that

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woosansang · 2 years

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#jazzy talks #hmmm #i just dont think i get the same joy out of tumblr as i used to #and i know a lot of that has to do with the fact that the people im friends with slash enjoy talking to on here have also been busy lately #and it sort of just feels like im screaming at a wall #or a void #or a room full of people who are looking the other way #its like if youre a content creator but you dont put out new stuff every day or every few days #then suddenly people stop paying attention to you #and its nice to say i should gif things that i want to gif and not really care about them getting notes #but thats not the reality #maybe for some people it is but not for me #half of the reason i gif is bc i want to make something and half is bc i want to share it and show people #and yes its nice to get feedback too but mostly when i read peoples tags i just want to hear about the content more than my actual skills #like half the fun is seeing random strangers losing their minds over some guy #but people dont rb anymore #its hard #its demotivating #im so busy with work and i dont have that much time to gif during the week so when i do make something and no one looks twice #or maybe only a few mutuals look twice #it makes it even harder to find the energy that i dont have to keep making stuff #idk what im saying #i come here to scream about things i like and hear people scream back in solidarity in a way #and now im just screaming to nobody #which is just disheartening #idk #i think im gonna delete the app again for a bit #anyway check out my pinned post if you're reading this. and reblog please maybe? <3 #bye for now

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noxtivagus · 2 years

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5 am enlightenment

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matoitech · 2 years

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i wish i had tagged all my promare meta but i mean at the time i didnt rly know itd be like at least three years of analysis to prepare for n want to keep around lol

#ITS OUT THERE SOMEWHERE <3 i know ppl used 2 find me from analysis n stuff n it does pain me that i dont rly write it much anymore #but at some pointu kind of run out of things to say for a movie n two ovas #but if i think of things i say them :) if i get asked i talk abt things i love talking abt it #even if ppl whove followed me the whole time might be like god is he talking abt this AGAIN. yes <3 #*new exciting meta-y things to say for a movie n two ovas ig i should say. like im sure theres things i havent said #but ykwim like #i assume my mutuals know my opinions ive shared them for years

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inversefireman · 2 months

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Immediate family try not to turn my every passing interest into profit challenge [instant fail] [difficulty impossible]

#oh i hear you like stuff and thing?#yes theres good money in that isnt there #PLEASE let me fucking enjoy what i do #PLEASE let me share with you my passions and my interests without everything bring shrugged off as an opprotunity to bring in some cash #i shouldnt be out making money i should be in the woods getting mauled by large animals

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eternally-tired-cryptid · 7 months

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.....i need to get therapy again

#like in general yes.#but lately ive been struggling with a very specific issue. and i have no idea how to seek out support w it #bc like. a lot of my trauma is stuff my family went thru together. even the not whole family stuff me and my brothers went thru together #like most of the Big Shit i can at the very least turn to ky dad or brothers or even my gma and be like 'do you feel this too?' but with thi #s specific traumatic issue. i... i cant. they may be able ti see where im coming from and sympathize and validate the struggle. but they won #t have the same specific struggle due to our shared trauma. and its kinda terrifying??? bc like. the people around me can support me and lov #e me but. no one has actual solutions on how to cope w the fear of it. i just. i dont know.#the problem is. i have no idea how to find support groups. so i dont even know if thered be some sort of. like. therapist type.or specialty #id look for? tbh i should just look for therapists who can help w depression and trauma and hope they can help w the specifics

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romeoandromeo · 7 months

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#people say that some of my fics are written like I'm truly in love with the character #well when i write it I'm just putting down my little fantasy of being loved the way i want to be loved #and like it makes me feel good when people read my stuff and can feel the same emotions i felt writing it #like yes! feel the burning romance. feel the love and care and desire. feel the butterflies in your stomach and the tightness in your chest #the fact that I've been able to evoke those feelings in people simply by writing out MY OWN desires with a charter we both happen to love #maybe we just share the desire to be loved tenderly and passionately #idk. like i was just thinking about a comment someone left on one of my fics ages ago when i was actively writing #where they said they could literally feel the love #and I've had other similar comments too and like gosh it makes me feel mushy #maybe i should put out a new fic

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always-a-slut-4-ghouls · 8 months

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Sometimes I get into some really specific and niche argument with someone online and it’s clear that the other person has no idea what they are talking about and I sit back and go, “why am I doing this?” Before getting back into an argument about how bodies can be preserved at the bottom of Lake Superior, and yes it’s that cold, yes it limits bacterial growth, yes your body fat can turn into soap under certain conditions! It’s chemistry! We have observed it many times before!

And someone who isn’t in the argument is like “woah, that’s cool” and I’m just like. Well I guess someone listened. Now I’m going to eat or something.

#emma posts #I get into arguments online and I hate when I do it #i fucking know it’s stupid to argue about the preservation of a corpse in Lake Superior with a guy who just says fish would eat it #and refuses to actually read anything #does getting dog piled by idiots affect my mental health? yes. should I stop? yes.#and I’ll be so so good about it until someone starts shit about something I’m interested in and I’m having a bad day #and it gets even worse because rsd is a thing and my memory sucks so I have to dig through a bunch of shit for some sources that are #more read/watchable #and I’ll HAVE that shit but finding it is a pain #and anyone who is like ‘source’ and don’t care about an article on a topic that uses multiple good sources #and just goes ‘study?’ it’s like. the footnotes aren’t that hard to find! there are multiple sources for the single thing I shared!#and then it’s something like global warming and you have read and watched so much about it and have been doing it for years #and the shear VOLUME of everything you have read and watched just makes you completely blank out #like where am I even supposed to start? there is so much stuff!

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letstrywritingmaybe · 10 months

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Maybe it’s just cause I don’t bookmark anything, but for real why don’t people comment more? I love commenting, but also I know I’m leave good ones. I may not be a real writer, but I am definitely a fangirl who leaves gushing comments. It’s not only great for the author, but it’s great for me too! I can read my own comment and remember which fic this is and what part really got me! I was looking for a fic and was going back through ao3 when I saw a name I didn’t recognize and I’m like how is this possible? I’ve read like every fic posted on this site. Turns out the author changed their name, but I clicked onto one of their fics and went to the comments cause I know I would’ve left one if it made me feel something. And of course there it was! Immediately I was like Omm! Yes! I remember this fic! I loved it so much!! In fact I’m gonna reread it right now, actually I’m gonna reread the entire series cause now it’s been grouped into one and I love that!

I’m sure I’m being annoying, but I know I’m an excellent commenter so no I’m not gonna shut up about it. I mean yeah it’s a lot of rambling and going back and forth over all the parts I loved, but I’m genuinely so caught in my feels that I just cannot think coherently. And I prefer to leave long comments, especially when the author writes a long fic or a multichaptered one. It’s the least I can do! I read so many words, so please accept my praise! I mean it’s nothing compared to the amazing work I just read, but just know that I absolutely loved it and I’m so happy it was posted.

So yeah, y’all should really leave comments for your fav works. It’s part of the experience. Okay I’m gonna go reread fics now <3

#I was just on the phone with my sis talking about this and I’m like yeah why don’t people leave comments more???#and she’s like cause they suck and I’m like yeah you’re right #yeah yeah I know why some people don’t and I’m not saying you should on every fic cause if you hate it then just exit out #and I also know most people comment normal things like I liked this and stuff which is great!#but I’m extra as fuck and will write whole ass paragraphs over how much I smiled or cried or whatever #so my comments really do help me remember the fic more #but I also understand not everyone is like me. but at the very least you should let your authors know you liked their fic #so go comment on some fics. I was a silent reader in the beginning but I haven’t looked back since #it’s so much better leaving comments and giving love to authors #as someone who’s always reading fics. I really appreciate writers sharing their stories #yes just let me read fics about my ships falling in love and being cute. I’m so here for it #yeah I’m totally gonna go back to being a reader. I just gotta tie up some loose ends #I thrived so much more in fandom when my role was just to leave comments and be supportive over other’s works #I miss it a lot. I’m just a fangirl and I want to fan girl. is that too much to ask?

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nobodysuspectsthebutterfly · 3 months

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FYI artists and writers: some info regarding tumblr's new "third-party sharing" (aka selling your content to OpenAI and Midjourney)

You may have already seen the post by @staff regarding third-party sharing and how to opt out. You may have also already seen various news articles discussing the matter.

But here's a little further clarity re some questions I had, and you may too. Caveat: Not all of this is on official tumblr pages, so it's possible things may change.

(1) "I heard they already have access to my data and it doesn't really matter if I opt out"

From the 404 article:

A new FAQ section we reviewed is titled “What happens when you opt out?” states “If you opt out from the start, we will block crawlers from accessing your content by adding your site on a disallowed list. If you change your mind later, we also plan to update any partners about people who newly opt-out and ask that their content be removed from past sources and future training.”

So please, go click that opt-out button.

(2) Some future user: "I've been away from tumblr for months, and I just heard about all this. I didn't opt out before, so does it make a difference anymore?"

Another internal document shows that, on February 23, an employee asked in a staff-only thread, “Do we have assurances that if a user opts out of their data being shared with third parties that our existing data partners will be notified of such a change and remove their data?” Andrew Spittle, Automattic’s head of AI replied: “We will notify existing partners on a regular basis about anyone who's opted out since the last time we provided a list. I want this to be an ongoing process where we regularly advocate for past content to be excluded based on current preferences. We will ask that content be deleted and removed from any future training runs. I believe partners will honor this based on our conversations with them to this point. I don't think they gain much overall by retaining it.”

It should make a difference! Go click that button.

(3) "I opted out, but my art posts have been reblogged by so many people, and I don't know if they all opted out. What does that mean for my stuff?"

This answer is actually on the support page for the toggle:

This option will prevent your blog's content, even when reblogged, from being shared with our licensed network of content and research partners, including those that train AI models.

And some further clarification by the COO and a product manager:

zingring: A couple people from work have reached out to let me know that yes, it applies to reblogs of "don't scrape" content. If you opt out, your content is opted out, even in reblog form. cyle: yep, for reblogs, we're taking it so far as "if anybody in the reblog trail has opted out, all of the content in that reblog will be opted out", when a reblog could be scraped/shared.

So not only your reblogged posts, but anyone who contributed in a reblog (such as posts where someone has been inspired to draw fanart of the OP) will presumably be protected by your opt-out. (A good reason to opt out even if you yourself are not a creator.)

Furthermore, if you the OP were offline and didn't know about the opt-out, if someone contributed to a reblog and they are opted out, then your original work is also protected. (Which makes it very tempting to contribute "scrapeable content" now whenever I reblog from an abandoned/disused blog...)

(4) "What about deleted blogs? They can't opt out!"

I was told by someone (not official) that he read "deleted blogs are all opted-out by default". However, he didn't recall the source, and I can't find it, so I can't guarantee that info. If I get more details - like if/when tumblr puts up that FAQ as reported in the 404 article - I will add it here as soon as I can.

Edit, tumblr has updated their help page for the option to opt-out of third-party sharing! It now states:

The content which will not be shared with our licensed network of content and research partners, including those that train AI models, includes: • Posts and reblogs of posts from blogs who have enabled the "Prevent third-party sharing" option. • Posts and reblogs of posts from deleted blogs. • Posts and reblogs of posts from password-protected blogs. • Posts and reblogs of posts from explicit blogs. • Posts and reblogs of posts from suspended/deactivated blogs. • Private posts. • Drafts. • Messages. • Asks and submissions which have not been publicly posted. • Post+ subscriber-only posts. • Explicit posts.

So no need to worry about your old deleted blogs that still have reblogs floating around. *\o/*

But for your existing blogs, please use the opt out option. And a reminder of how to opt out, under the cut:

The opt-out toggle is in Blog Settings, and please note you need to do it for each one of your blogs / sideblogs.

On dashboard, the toggle is at https://www.tumblr.com/settings/blog/blogname [replace "blogname" as applicable] down by Visibility:

For mobile, you need the most recent update of the app. (Android version 33.4.1.100, iOs version 33.4.) Then go to your blog tab (the little person icon), and then the gear icon for Settings, then click Visibility.

Again, if you have a sideblog, go back to the blog tab, switch to it, and go to settings again. Repeat as necessary.

If you do not have access to the newest version of the app for whatever reason, you can also log into tumblr in your mobile browser. Same URL as per desktop above, same location.

Note you do not need to change settings in both desktop and the app, just one is fine.

I hope this helps!

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