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#delete later#the last couple weeks ive had more brain screaming thaj the last year combined#its distressing!!!#it makes my ears hurt and my shoulders almost ache bc of how tense it makes me#it always is likr a radio station where itll suddenly come into focus snd there'll be these just piercing screams#from somewher in ky head that i cant Hear but can hear. like singing a song in your head. its so loud. idk why its happening so much#atm. it used to come eith emotional flashbacks but i havent had any in a bit. brains been too busy recovering feom#mabor meltdown and teying to stave off mini ones#most of my routines are still fucked. havent dkbe physio or self care thngs ij like three weeks#shit sucks#but we'll bounce back
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WIP Wednesday
Thanks @indestructibleheart @junebugclaremontdiaz @hgejfmw-hgejhsf @getmehighonmagic and @onthewaytosomewhere for the tags! Hitting post on this earlier than usual because I feel like death warmed over—I'm posting this and going to bed... at 9pm on Valentine's Day. Follow me for more sexy action stories.
I feel like this snuck up on me this week... I was so focused on finishing and posting sex club spanking that I stopped paying attention to the passage of time. It's a scam anyway, so.
Today's snippet is the opener to chapter three of the Big Secret Collab, because the amount of the Anastasia AU I've shared is getting a bit ridiculous lmao.
Alex is dimly aware that he’s having a panic attack.
It’s not an unfamiliar feeling. He averaged one a semester in law school, not to mention the whole ‘forcefully outed on a global stage’ incident. He has a number of grounding techniques taught to him by an excellent therapist, and Cash’s hand between his shoulder blades, pressing so hard it’s just the right side of painful and giving him a physical sensation to focus on that isn’t his racing heart or sweating palms. He has a boyfriend who—
A boyfriend who—
“Breathe, Alex.” The hand that isn’t on his back reaches out and Alex grips it, fighting through every breath. He’s pretty sure his nails are digging into Cash’s skin, but Cash doesn’t flinch; he just sits there, solid and dependable and calm, and waits for Alex to come back to himself.
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#wip wednesday#kiwiana-writes#wip: rwylm#bouncing between docs like a particularly rabid pinball right now#one day my wip list will be back under 50 and we'll all feel so blessed
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WHO NEEDS GOD WHEN YOU CAN BE WORSHIPPED LIKE ONE?!
#shep arts#content smp#csmp#doctor4t#this was supposed to go up after i finished it but again i went back to sleep so uhm good morning part two here's more contentsmp#my friend said it was a crime for me to draw arathain without R4T cause i talk about them together so much#anyway lol drew this really quick so it doesnt parallel arathains properly also its just kinda wack in some places#i think they were just teasing me but i mean yeah.. I cannot shut the fuck up about them once i get started#honestly i still have no idea how to draw R4T... I think this is like the third time I've drawn him :/#scratch that actually i dont know how to draw anyone on the csmp and thats a sin I need to atone for#we'll see if i draw more lol. i keep going I should draw this and then not drawing that at all#typical neurodivergent swag moment tbh#btw the caption is roughly taken from attention seeking demon by winchifrost#i think that's the lyric but tbh rn all the stuff bouncing around my head are all just song lyrics but a bit wrong so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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Thinking about:
The two moments in ep 1 (6:08) and ep 2 (32:37) when Jihyun is seen in the background between Jaewon and Tae Hyung/Eun Ji respectively.
The way Jaewon's taller shadow engulfs Jihyun's smaller shadow as Jaewon walks towards Jihyun on the beach in ep 2.
Yoon Won singing on the beach.
Just how fantastic Yoon Won, Ae Ri, and Jihyun's boss are.
How it looks like Jaewon drew himself and his younger brother and maybe a young Jihyun in the landscape of the Han river in ep 4.
The way Jaewon tugs Jihyun into him after putting the rucksack on Jihyun in ep 4 (7:03).
The tale of the country mouse who ran back home (ep 4)...and me wondering if it's foreshadowing a separation and/or time skip in future eps.
Jihyun keeping Jaewon's art in case he becomes famous...and me wondering if that will come back if there's a time skip/separation at the end.
The fact that the therapist is always in the same top, which might indicate that the therapy scenes are all from the same session...maybe meaning everything else that's happening are flashbacks from the time of the session...which ends in ep 5. There are no scenes of the therapy session in ep 6.
The bust on the shelf in the therapists room, with hands over its eyes...
Jihyun's dream of going to the Hanson Tower with a lover and putting a lock up there...and me hoping he'll do that with Jaewon.
The "traffic won't stop for you" sign behind Jaewon as he gets drunk in ep 5 and talks about siblings. If it turns out his brother died because he ran into the road I will throw fists.
The way Jaewon's little brother is dressed in a light blue t-shirt with something cream over the top in the flashback and then Jihyun is also wearing light blue/grey under a cream jacket in the next scene.
Jaewon's "We are always living in other's frameworks in this world". And "Don't try to get out of the box".
The silence as the credits roll at the end of ep 6.
#the eighth sense#the 8th sense#t8s#I don't gif and viki prevents screenshots so all I can do is bounce them around in my brain like a washing machine#I'm not making predictions about ep 6...#well apart from after my second watch I think the beach scene IS real#but from the point of the overhead shot of them lying on the surfboards on the beach#until them surfing again feels like it's in one or both of their imaginations#that's the point where continuity fails for me#so I think they either talk about the possibility of spending the night together#or one of them (maybe jihyun) imagines/daydreams the bed scene#and then they go back into the water where jihyun almost drowns#I think he gets taken to hospital but he's fine#jaewon however will then distance himself from jihyun because he's scared he can't keep him safe#anyway...#I also wonder what trauma jihyun has suffered because he's hinted to it a couple of times#and I don't just mean the water hazing#but we'll see#I can't believe I have to wait SIX more days to find out 😭
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We still don't have a name but he's pretty settled in now, enough to play with my wool when I'm trying to crochet (it's okay he's helping) (he's not but he's cute so I'll let it slide)
#Bittybones#He likes the wool which is good because we can bounce crafting puns back and forth#Coming up with names is hard how do pregnant people do this#For now I've just been saying 'bud' when we talk cause that's what I call everybody#But we'll think of something better#And if he ever gets out of my craft supplies I will try to make him a lil blanket or something for winter
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Someone put the doomfist fight on my Twitter timeline time to be annoying
#( ooc. )#IM SORRY#every few months i go feral about it i dont know how to process my emotions#but literally ripping a prosthetic from her BACK#honestly if i used my own headcanons with that logic she should be paralyzed/dead but yknow#so we'll just stick with gravely injured and just kinda deposited back in time#the fact that winston eventually had to go home and put the feelers back out for her again#dust off the iso chamber and fix it up; burning precious time#time moved differently for her the first time too#where 6 months in overwatch was 2-3 years for her once she bounced around and did the math#so he knew that 1 day his time could he 1 day#1 second. 1 hour. 1 week. etc etc#but he put those feelers out knowing that she sustained thst injury#and was conscious before falling into time but could she stay that way? no#raaaaaaaaaaaaaah i love that short#🔫 someone write it with me this is a threat
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strawberries!!! they're so red and pretty
#my strawberry patch is finally taking off#there's a ton of weeds that grow really fast but i actually think they're giving ground cover#i took them all out but they always bounce back so we'll see how the patch does#m2a#garden tag#food
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YOU'RE SOOOOO RIGHT ABOUT EZRA YOU'RE SO RIGHT IT'S LIKE YOU LOOKED INTO MY HEAD AND WROTE EVERYTHING DOWN
he's so in tune with the force I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS
NO YOU'RE RIGHT HE IS
And it's like. Being in tune with the force is one thing, right? Lots of Jedi are, lots of force users in general are, even!
But like. Okay so Hera mentioned in the pilot that Ezra opening the Holocron being a level of test, right? And it sounded like she and Kanan had discussed before something about him opening the Holocron meaning Kanan would train him.
But that's such a horrible test! In clone wars they specified that you could only open a Jedi Holocron as a Jedi. You had to be so dialed in specifically on the light side of the force.
So walk with me here. Ezra Bridger. He not only has a strong connection to the force. He not only instinctively calls on it without knowing a thing about it. He effortlessly tunes into the light side of the force, like it's as natural as breathing.
"but Void" I hear from the crowd "Ezra also tunes into the dark side of the force"
Indeed. Yes. Correct.
No but just stick with my crazed rambling for a sec okay? Because the dark side is supposed to be the easy path, the one that's so simple to fall into, it calls to force users, I mean, we see that the dark side is exactly that time and again.
I bring this up because. It's not for Ezra. The first time he grasps for the dark side he's in a panic, and it hurts him. It does get them away from the grand inquisitor but it almost doesn't. And the next time? It's after encouragement from Maul, and even then he's having to actively pursue it. He has to try to use the dark side.
And, because I think of this oh so much, when Maul needs him to open the Jedi Holocron--after he's been using the dark side and frequently, mind you--Ezra still can.
And like I have so many more incoherent thoughts about him and his force connection there's just so much he has taken up my entire brain<3
#void answers#star wars#ezra bridger#seriously words cannot encompass the amount of emotions i feel about him#why and how and what#how are you the way that you are ezra bridger#literally i have seen never seen a single other character as confounding as ezra#there are REASONS everyone latches onto this kid#i just feel like when he's actively using the dark side and clearly changed a lot#like. okay sabine says it's still ezra 'sometimes' when we see him using the dark side.#and i don't know. this part i know is more of a stretch but it feels like ezra is less called to the dark side#and more is convinced that it's the way to protect his family in a logical sense. like he has logic'd his way into thinking he NEEDS#the dark side of the force. and therefore it makes sense for him to continue using it wven though it's not natural to him.#it's still him 'sometimes' because he's having to put effort into using the dark side. when he's not trying he's...bouncing back.#and once he found a reasonable argument to NOT use the dark side. to see that it wasn't helping. it was pretty easy to step back again.#i don't know i might have just literally lost my mind from thinking about him too much i am in the middle of yet another watchthrough#we'll see how well my thought processes hold up against seeing it all transpire again#anyway
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Its okay Liv, we'll get him next time.
No moodboard today bc i'm going to assassinate Jeryd so please accept this in the meantime @rxgirlie
Liv can sit with me and @aurorag98 (and kaninchen) in the Jeryd's victims section. 💀
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Man refuses to take a day off.
I wasn't going to follow this comic up but I decided to go into work today
#I love my boss tho she said I could only work a half day if I wanted (which I don't even know if I made it that far)#and if coming in today made me feel worse to just not come in tomorrow (we'll see)#I thought my head had cleared enough to work but wow was I bouncing between being lightheaded and nauseous all day#But yes my voice has come back (but clearly not enough because my boss commented on it lmaoo)#Serizawa is trying to desperately to make him stay home but he is resisting#Yeah I'm learning how to draw ugly and be okay with it. If anything the crappy art style helps reflect how we're feeling#But these are about 75% what my actual sketches look like. I just compromise accuracy for cleanness#Also why does Reigen always look terrible in these but Serizawa is decent. I don't understand myself.#Okay back to bed now weeee#reigen arataka#serizawa katsuya#mob psycho 100#mp100#eudikart
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Hey friend. I noticed you reblogged a bunch of Chronic Illnesses posts in a row so I wanted to just do a check-in. I hope your flare up goes down soon and that you can eat something tasty that you like and maybe get some cuddles from a person or animal if that's your thing. Idk I just know how awful chronic health issues are and wish all my fellow Spoonies the best ❤️
OH!! this is so sweet thank you!!!
i just saw a bunch of those posts on my dash and related to them just in general!! thankfully i'm not dealing with a major flare up atm, but i am pretty exhausted from going out earlier. i'll definitely pay for it for the next few days cause my entire body is already pretty sore from it. totally worth it tho!!! i got tons of cute stuff today.
but i did a good epsom salt soak a little bit ago and definitely plan on going to bed early, so i'll be okay! thank you for asking and checking in!!! i hope you're doing okay!!! ️😊
#eri's posts#then i ended up having a seizure earlier#which was pretty unexpected cause i didn't have any warning signs beforehand#so thats pretty wack#but i bounced back from it super quickly#now if only my nose would stop bleeding then we'll be making some progress#its not painful or anything its just annoying
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#diana's music diary#🌗#I never really slept so I'm trying to get some now#but I think things are getting better...#it seemed like it wouldn't but something clicked and now it is? we'll see...#I hope it stays this way.#I played tabletops with friends basically and that was kind of all I did last night#was mostly a combat session but it was very close.. couple of our characters almost died.... someone else's character had A Moment#something related to their backstory#it was cool and makes me excited for my character's upcoming stuff#I think I've been really enjoying playing them#they bounce off of other characters in a very fun way for me#after their job was done this session and they all went back to their work office my character used an item they have#that lets them roll a random effect.. and the random effect was them instantly dying (which makes them the first death ahaha)#it was really really funny that it was a silly joke item that did it#I'm glad it happened because it sort of balanced some of the heavy rp stuff that happened... they're okay too they're just a ghost for now#we didn't know how the revive mechanic worked until now so that's fun!#I'm excited for more...#now I will sleep#good night......
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So I keep hitting roadblocks when trying to write more logan angst
Which means it's time to do another animatic (that's long overdue at this point)
and/or possibly this, like, flashcard art project idea I had where I take song lyrics from a few different songs I associate with Logan and make storyboard-ish art on 2 or 3 index cards based on lines from each song
Or if I do it digitally, maybe just record a speedpaint and put the music for each over those, idk
Hopefully by the time it's done, I'll be back in the writing spirit
#i have so many wips that are like 90% done but i cant figure them out#so maybe bouncing back to an overdue animatic or two will help#we'll see#orbs thought bubbles
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Second pre-adoption meet for Eviebean today! Things went surprisingly well. The dogs were much more relaxed with each other, she likes the people a lot, and they have a clear understanding of her needs and behaviour plan, so.... cautiously very optimistic?
She even had a couple of attempts at play which, given her complete lack of socialisation and knowledge of How To Be Dog, is fantastic.
It was the pretty paddock, too, so gratuitous picspam under the cut.
Also, Chance handles being left really well. But I feel like there's a slight degree of pouting. Maybe.
(That is harold, his favourite emotional support stuffie.)
Next week: Evie gets to go check out her potential new home!
#dogs#foster dog diaries#eviebean#project dog#when he will walk on the lead without pretending to be a sea slug#and be less of an asshole to other people#then he can come too#also#he's making like he doesn't care again now i'm back#but i distinctly saw tail wags and puppy bouncing when i returned. i know i did. i'm just too nice to make a big deal about it.#we'll let him keep pretending humans are all evil
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My bros it truly feels like Kaija and I are making backwards progress in training right now. Hard to believe that we did semi okay in our first rally competition in April because now we wouldn't even make it through a full course...
#i cannot keep her focused on me for more than maybe two signs#attention span = 0#i so hope this is just teenage weirdness/hormonal/she doesn't want to work in this heat#and that we'll bounce back again#there's also some extra weirdness going on#it's like she's more reactive and suspicious of everything on our regular walks#more worried about her environment#which has *never* been the case before#she's always been very environmentally solid so i'm just ???????????#desperately hoping that all this is going to pass
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Is anyone else's immune system just total and complete trash since covid
#like i can't even get a cold now without it turning into a whole Event™#it's not FAIR#i have SHIT TO DO#and i swear i used to be one of those people who rarely got sick#or if i did i would bounce back really quick#now i'm down and out for at least 4 days#i hate it here#especially bc my useless optometrist wHO JUST CAME OFF ALMOST 3 WEEKS LEAVE#had a cough on friday#and had the audacity to say to me#his boss#'oh i might have monday off... you know... to rest'#and i said#no❤️#because how convenient that tuesday is a public holiday and it's become A VERY VERY NOTICEABLE PATTERN#that he does this shit#anyways what i rly said is we'll see how you're going over the weekend like mATE#so now i'm purely showing up to work tomorrow just to spite him#LMFOSMSOWMSOSKSKSKSMOSEJKDKEKDKE#i'll do a few hours and leave early it's fine i'm not a total workaholic#⬅️ me when i lie#anyways#what was the point of all this?#oh right#I'M SICK AND I HATE IT#it was barely a sore throat and the LIGHTEST cold symptoms#and now i'm 😴😴😴😴#dying a little#but it's fine#i basically just ate a whole lemon smothered in garlic and shit LNFODMSOEMDKD
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