#but today I have to do it all manually
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#there are so many customers that owe us money#I’m sort of like#unofficially interning??? with accounting???#and I have to send out invoices today#and oh my gosh#what the literal heck#I’m so in over my head#and I shared ideas to automate some of the process for next time#but today I have to do it all manually#and I’m so stressed#my goodness#TIME IS RUNNING OUT#AND I HAVE TO GET IT ALL DONE TODAY AHHHHHHHHHHH
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day 1246
#amphibian#salamander#axolotl#how i felt submitting my taxes a solid almost month before the final deadline today#the average citizen here just gets a paper with what info the government has on your income and how much taxes you paid#and all you have to do is sign it to say you think all is correct#now I had to actully manually do stuff because im self employed but it wasnt too scary#<- lying i had a big panic about it but i asked my mom for help and read a bunch of info on the taxes website and its fine now :)#and next time it wont be scary because i actually know what to do#i hear every american has to do their taxes like manually regardless of employment type? thats wack im so sorry for you guys#if thats true#if so heres your reminder to do them taxes if youre still reading the tags
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#something is very obviously different about these two compared to my normal images on this blog. i acknowledge this#also the sv model is Really good. and since they always stare straight at the camera anyway… and no one pays attention to the background…#and the only high-quality phantump model i could find was so horribly shiny that its eyes were just white voids#in my defense‚ phantump always just stare straight at you in game#the lighting is different‚ yeah. that's probably the dead giveaway. beyond the background. but like. i'm the only being on the planet who#really likes phantump anyway. i feel like it's a generally forgettable pokémon to most folks#phantump#HELLO this one is a weird one. i have some explaining to do. so when i did this one i didn't know how to edit models really at all#and when i got the models for these‚ the xy models were super shiny. shiny to the point that it made their eyes fuckin invisible#and i decided that since you could barely tell it was phantump‚ i needed a different way to get these images#i remembered that in the SV dlc‚ every time you find a wild phantump‚ it just fucking. stares. at you. and i was like. aha#i kinda remembered because of the test stream that i did. tumblr user alligayytorr (am i getting the right amount of Ys) said#“haha i am getting a sneak peek” when i zoomed the camera in on a phantump. and i remembered that. and i was like. i can utilize this#and ended up using just an in-game screenshot of SV in replacement of the regular content. later on‚ after that#once we got into gen 7 and it became less and less reliable to find models‚ i had to learn how to edit them manually to remove the shine#i am a software dev. not a 3d modeler. this ended up coming down to editing the code of the models directly (which i ended up writing a#script to automate). now‚ today‚ january 22nd (the day of me writing these tags and updating this post)‚ i remembered this post was in the#queue and was not normal. so i went back‚ ran the script on the phantump and trevenant models‚ and unshinified them#then edited these two posts to be normal. i have left the original pictures i took under the cut for reference and as bonuses#because i really enjoy phantump. so that's why those images are there‚ and that's why these tags are here#just for posterity's sake‚ the folks who come here mostly for my commentary‚ i've left the ORIGINAL tags of the post when i initially#made it with the SV pictures up at the top (i wanted to rearrange them‚ but tumblr makes that Very difficult‚ so i left them as-is)#so if these tags are confusing to read i Apologize. but i hope now that you're at the bottom you understand what happened#i'm gonna go edit the trevenant post now
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#it is literally homophobic that i have to do manual regression testing today#when i SHOULD be writing more post-s2 fic 😤#my docs are staring at me like. why are you ignoring us#and I'm like. it's because i'm being paid engineer money to do manual testing. nobody wants this to be happening#literally nobody. but it's what has to happen 💔#when I'm doing automation i can give myself time blocks to work on fic every couple hours and it's great#but my brain isnt made for manual testing and all the spreadsheet hell that goes with it#so i cannot deviate from it the entire day or i'll get lost and overwhelmed#because i still need executive functioning left over after work to parent two small kids 🤪#anyway this weekend I'm going on vacation to visit sister in law and her partner. mother in law will also join us#maybe. maybe i will have kid-free moments to write............. maybe 🙏🙏🙏🙏
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I worked a closing shift, then immediately got up and worked an opening shift and then they called me in right after I got home to work the closing shift...I am frazzled.
#i'm dead tired and on every piece of equipment that can break has broken#the techs keep fixing things “remotely”#meaning they haven't fixed anything at all and have even made some problems worse#the repair guy they called in for an essential piece of equipment that I LITERALLY CANNOT DO MY JOB WITHOUT doesn't work today#so it won't be fixed until tomorrow and i have to do everything manually#which means i will be working at least an hour after closing on top of the fifteen hours I'll have logged by then#i'm so done with absolutely everything right now#i have been on the phone with field support so much in the past few days that I know who's picked up my call based on the background noise#Oh hey there's a dog barking that means its Jeremy#lots of fan-type whitenoise means it's Dustin#printer going crazy in the background means it's Laquisha#Far off and echo-y means it's a guy who might be called Adam...but I'm not sure because I can never tell what the heck he's saying
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god I hate knowing how to do things at work because it means I actually have to do things and can’t just look at something and go “ah I’ll leave this for the people that know it” because these days I am one of the People That Know It
#I hate getting up at 5 am lmao i just wanna be done with work go for a swim and then head home to finish my Renegades rep…#z talks#not horse game#Too tired to have energy for ANY of this customer service emailing today#It’s all the same stuff!!!! I’ve sent the same email probably 20 times today already to 20 different people with slight adjustments!!#I am going crazy!! No we don’t just copy paste the formula is just In Our Heads Memorised and we type it out manually!!!!#(we do have some copy paste responses but we still have to like yk. Adapt Those to the Specific Situation#which doesn’t take less time than just typing it out so)#in better news i just cracked my neck SOOOOOOO fucking good
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#i was supposed to spend the last 2 days prepping and relaxing for the start of this big project tomorrow#but ive spent thr last 2 days frantically coding as fast as i could and focusing v hard to get a lot of bullshit done#and ive fixed things since yesterday. the changes i had to make were too too bad bc the thing that went wrong was so fucking weird#but it should be okay by tomorrow. knock on wood. but this does mean ive done fuck all to prep for tomorrow#so we r winging it bby. ugh. just gotta fucking pray that everything goes ok. pls let nothing b broken and let everything seal properly 🙏#i was also supposed to meet with my boss today. probably for her to make sure i dont fuck up this project but apparently their safety hood#was having an emergency... whatever that means. so im sure shes having a week as well. and im free to fuck everything up for everyone#ugh. im so. theres a certain point in burning out where youre not really in pain anymore. you dont really feel anything all your joy and#hope dissolves away and u just exist to be useful. and i feel like its easier to maintain that than trying to b happy#i do not advise that bc its a fucking miserable. wasteful way to live but i dont really have time to try for anything better#god. i really hope my measurements friday dont take a full 8hrs. i dont know if i can handle that. literally i would have stay intensely#focused with my brain being Interrupted every 5min so i can manually record data points. its gonna b agony#so that fun. but maybe it wont. maybe itll be great and fun and ill have a wonderful time. seems unlikely but ya never kno#lets not think abt the fact that having to rush all this is preventing me from being able to do all thr other bullshit i need to get done#to prepare for the future. future? what future? hard to imagine from the bottom of this pit im digging myself#sigh. in a few months i can leave this place and never come back. soon but not soon enough#lol i was literally crying listening to cold play earlier bc idk thats the type of music my parents would put on at parties in summertime#so it evokes a v specific mood. which is i guess me hiding away from ppl at parties haha#back when i didnt have to worry abt things so much and i could just listen to the frogs chirping and watch the fireflies#oh god. now my boss is asking if i reached out for help tomorrow. no. lady i would rather drink bleach than have to direct an undergrad#tomorrow. its 10pm im fucking tired. just let me be sad. did i reach our for help? no my brain is on fire#tomorrow is gonna b a long day ugh#unrelated
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My ex friend finally kicked me off his steam library sharing
Only took him half a year
#im not particularly torn up about it#tho its funny to me that he hadnt noticed up until now#im like 95% sure he removed me manually cause i saw him online today and i played one game from his library#which i havent been doing much cuz all the good games were on his sister's account which steam always liked kicking me off randomly#anyway im the winner here still cuz i have our shared terraria world#this all sounds incredibly petty but the main reason i havent disabled the library sharing was because i thought it was funny#its such a random situation. ive legit not heard anything from the guy since march. but you bet your ass i played games from his library#the only reason i know hes still alive even is that it took him a few months more to ghost another mutual friend and she mentioned him#i got the terraria world in the divorce. idc that he built the castle. i fished there. blood sweat and tears went into that goddamn phone#pork talks
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ok i took a nap sorry for miseryposting
#purrs#i don’t feel better per se but i do feel less angry so i think that’s good. but i did have a fucked up and disturbing dream so now im#focused on that a little bit but it’s whatever. i think i just feel stuck in my life and overwhelmed rn but i have to be gentle with myself#and okay with accepting outcomes that are compromises even if i really don’t want to. but idk. i have to think on it more. and i wish i felt#less lonely bc i KNOW i am not it’s just i have no emotional object permanence and i keep dismantling all my inoculations and then crying#out for more inoculations and i don’t know how to stop. and now im getting upset again typing this so I’m going to stop even though i havent#gotten to the end of my thought yet and like reblog some things or watch a video idk. i really need to find a counselor and speaking of#which i feel like someone told me lately (on here probably and ididnt reply im sorry) that my counseling place should give me referrals to o#other places and they didn’t and maybe it’s bc i told them i was taking a break from counseling but i am kind of like 😐😑. but i’ll figure it#out and find someone. i think there’s a thing i can do through work i just have to gather the spoons to actually do it and i spent all of th#them on the drivers manual today. also i read like half the drivers manual today! which is something to acknowledge. ok im done now bye
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anyone else permanently tired
#i did do manual labor today but honestly i feel like this all the time#avoided getting really sick this time tho so improvement 👍#but i have to get up early tomorrow 😞#when i should be allowed to sleep all day actually
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I grow weary of the app-ification of everything.
#today's edition of I'm So Fucking Tired is sponsored by 'I just had to download an app to my phone to login to work starting next week'#'because the company that manufactures the code generators we were using decided to switch to an app and phase out the physical devices'#all this to 'secure access to' a computer no one who isn't me is going to have any hope of logging into anyway#the internet of shit continues apace wiping out all manual inputs for something that can data-mine you and assumes you have a smartphone#bite maim rip tear bruise gouge rend shatter kill#do you know this bitch asked for camera and recording access? for what? It is a fucking access code generator! NO.#'oh it's ok to not give it camera permission don't worry' I wasn't worried. I was about to update my resume REAL quick if it wasn't ok tho.#had me about to try to figure out wtf my linkedin and indeed passwords are again for the first time in over two years
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besties good news for once
I made an appointment with my rheumatologist Dr SillyName (god I wish I could just doxx him (im kidding) bc his name is so silly I adore him what do you mean you have a s and a c next to eachother im dyslexic how do you say that) and I’m going to talk to him about my mobility decreasing and how much pain I’m in every day and bring up ring splints and wheelchairs with him because he’s the first doctor who ever believed me when I told them I was in pain and he’s the one who diagnosed me with my hEDS and if he tells me I don’t qualify for a wheelchair at least i know it’s coming from a doctor who cares, understands, and wouldn’t lie to me
#camshitposts#taking??? care of??? myself??? woag#today was really hard and I did it#I even managed to be sickly sweet to customers#except like one lady who came in and just dumped a pile of receipts on my counter and was like#I wanna return all this I don’t know what’s on what#bitch are you fucking kidding me right now#and her receipts were expired so I had to find each item by sku on her receipt to manually input the price of the item#and my system can only do one receipt per return#nobody tell her I have an override code and could have done it but if ur gonna make it painful I’m gonna make it painful bitch#also it all would’ve gone back to her card instead of a store return card and I’m a petty fucking bitch#for some reason there’s no way even with an override code to put something on a store return card unless the system tells you to put it on#one it makes literally zero sense if I have to do the return through the scan aide I should be able to be like no this receipt is from#6 months ago store return card only. nice people get it on their debits or cash tho cuz I’m a bitch like that#bc it’s all rich white moms it’s never normal people#anyway this turned into a work rant bc today was too fucking much#anyway fingies crossed Dr G has my back 🤞🏻#im so tired of everythign dislocating I just relocated my thumb I’ve relocated my knees countless times today#my ankles are in braces bc I wouldn’t have been able to walk or stand today otherwise#this made me body check which made me realize my shoulder was subluxed which caused a chain reaction that healed me#my body is so broken Jesus Christ#I’m so tired#im so tired of hurting
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why is every single tutorial a video now I'm going to scream
#i have to annotate a book that i can't write in and I never...learned how to do that.#and my note-taking strategy is heavily dependent on my ability to mark the book beforehand so I'm just like >:[#this is absolutely a side effect of how i didnt actually have to take notes to pass classes in highschool#so i didnt have to learn how tf to mark a book i dont own.#and all the instructions im finding are videos#and im in public w/o headphones so I Can't Fucking Watch Them. I would like to commit violence#what happened is the one (1) lady who was fully proficient with our computer system got a better job#so the rest of us are just kind of trying to figure it out and today the manager was like ''wait hang on I think i have the manuals''#and then he came back & slammed 2 college-textbook size tomes on my desk & was like 'I got these from the guy before me & forgot i had them'#which like. i too would have blocked the existence of these books from my memory.
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my super cool very extroverted 1.3k insta follower having sister just told me there's only 8 people in her close friends and im one of them.. i am #not okay
#i thought she had like 50 minimum#bc she has A LOT of friends#but just 8 people 😭#like pls the privilege#what have i done to deserve this#in today's ep of how i miscalculate my place in people's life :#and the fact that she isn't active really on normal storys but VERY active on close friends#i am hurt#why are people so complex why do they all have different love languages why is it that they tell you that they love you but you don't#understand bc what you think is love is different from what they think of it as#i wish there was like some measuring scale or like a thermometer#like i would put in on them and it would tell me how much they like me on a scale of 0-10#and whenever i would feel unsure or confused I'd just be like come on give me your arm im testing u#like pls i think so much and then it doesn't work so i don't think at all but then it still doesn't work#and im sooo blindsided by whenever people tell me stuff like this like hello god can u just give me a manual of how everyone i love works#why do u make me figure it out myself it's harder than like#taxes#smh shut up shut up shut up brain subah subah kya hai ye sab 😭#mes
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#hhhh my body is tired. i couldnt sleep and then my day was upside down and i spent 4hrs transfering algae#i still have 1 work day until i go home. which is to say i will do 2 days of computer work and 1 day of manual labor in the field before i#go home. bc i have to get these fucking manuscripts done#but i guess it was an ok day. it wasnt yesterday where i left the lab by 12 for fear of bursting into tears. sometimes i just cant stand to#work sitting down. its really annoying#but i did have to say goodbye to our visiting phd student today bc she goes back to spain in the new year#which is sad bc shes really cool but she liked to do snail mail so im excited to be pen pals with her#bc ive never done the snail mail thing. shes like 5 to 10 years older than me? like old enough to have fully formed memories of the 90s#hhhh i still have to order Christmas presents. i just. i wish i could stop the present exchange. no body buy me anything so i dont have to#buy u anything. im so tired.#and i still have to make Christmas presents for my parents and sisters. with what time?#ill have to burn away my vacation time for that. hhhh i shoulf just sleep now#but i wont. ill pack bc i might as well while im being unproductive and i wont make time for it later so ya kno#i just wanna be home not doing anything but also i have many things to do and lots of things to prepare before i can do school visits#assuming i get more than one. and oh fuck thats right i still have that last application. tomorrow morning thsts what ill do. god dammit#the 4 hrs of algae transfering was my break and me being unfocused now#just 3 more days and 2 full day of traveling then i can whine at my parents abt how sad i am lol nah ill do that thing where u go#haha yea im in a lot of pain lmao so no one fully takes u seriously even tho ur saying something fucked up#that my mo bc i cant take my pain seriously. part of my brain detaches itself and thinks its all v funny#bleh. brain is goo#unrelated
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hey tumblr fuck you remember my fucking tags jfc
#do you guys have any idea the pain ive been in#all tags have been manually typed today#i had to look up half#of my character tags for jjk#Awful -1000/10#this isnt even abt anything im just talking rn
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