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#but nah fuck therapy
starwolfafton · 2 months
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I relate to Click-Clack. From Dinotrux. The one with severe anxiety who's scared of everything.
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((The last time I went to therapy, months ago, i was like 'so how can i stop being anxious' and she was like 'you can't'
and that shit rlly stuck with me lmao))
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alilaro · 10 months
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the barbie movie should be state-sanctioned mandatory viewing
#i saw it today and like......... i crie#like its such a good movie that gives a perfect breakdown of misogyny and just the overall toxic beauty standards society holds over people#and even kinda touches on how easy it can be for young boys to be black-pilled and sent down pipelines for like andrew tate-type misogyny b#and how thats untrue and ultimately makes men unhappy and ends up damaging all genders#its very like nah fuck you its not women its bc ur depressed and toxic and you cant hold women responsible for your own misery#and not her job to educate and hold your hand or reward u for not being a piece of shit#but ALSO if you are AFAB boy howdy this shit was like free therapy#like thanks greta my pores are clear my mental illness is gone and my cellulite & unproportionate body with asymmetric features looks GREAT#like fr movie to watch when you got low-self esteem bc it makes you feel human and worthy and YOU are beautiful and important#also theres a trans; plus-sized; and disabled barbie !!!#two of them are the main barbies!!!!!!!! AAHHHHH#plus many non-white barbies#bro fr blows my mind theres a trans woman on screen as like a main barbie thats fucking WILD#they mustve had to fight like fuck to get that#oh another reason to like the film: conservatives are going to VOMIT BLOOD over it#mfs are going to be pissing and shitting and crying and cumming and contracting and just MALDING over a feel-good barbie movie#and i love that for us as a society 💅🏻#barbie#greta gerwig#barbie movie#barbie spoilers#???? i guess#also sorry for all the tags holy SHIT#i just have a lot of FEELINGS
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theprodigypenguin · 6 months
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Can people please stop reblogging my Dragon posts with shitty Dragon takes, just make your own post, I'm very tired. I just want to enjoy my Good Dad Dragon content without people trying to kick over my sandcastle. If you want to throw a fit just make your own post, it is so easy, leave me be ����‍💨
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anyways all my homies love felix fathom, mf was doing what the social services could never do ❤️❤️❤️ king shit
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enevera · 8 months
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sorry abt the complaining tonight i have a headache and ibuprofen did jack shit so im like a little irritable
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siderains · 2 years
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so secret wars is being adapted, can we PLEASE have charles fighting for erik just as in comics?? please please please can gay people win just once
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holyluvr · 8 months
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“You won’t be saying that you hate doctors when you need life saving surgery”. Sure, I will.
For starters, similar to “man-haters” and their experiences with men, I have PTSD from repetitive medical and psychiatric abuse and mistreatment. No shit, logically it doesn’t add up to generalize all doctors as horrible. I’m venting from a place that hasn’t been healed and rage at injustices still happening, using my own language that it’s fine if you don’t understand or know what I’m referencing, but I’m aware of this.
I hate the healthcare system, and doctors are their mascots. Man haters usually hate the patriarchy for the trauma it’s allowed men to give them. They hate men by extension of the patriarchy as if to say, “Men are what the patriarchy is based around and who are held free of consequences and responsibility because of it. Men are the mascots of the patriarchy”. Unless they’re sexist on top of the PTSD, they’ll recognize that it’s a social issue that they’re being harsh on from trauma and rage and that anyone born male isn’t inherently dangerous. The misogynistic men were raised in a patriarchal society, but that doesn’t excuse or justify rape, abuse, femicide, and kicking women down to climb higher.
The same for doctors. They’re a product of a fucked up healthcare system and the light of that system shines mostly onto them. So, yeah. I have medical/psychiatric PTSD. I’m not going to trust them even if I’m aware that good doctors, just like good men, exist. I’m going to be on edge because the knowledge of good doctors existing doesn’t work in the present when you don’t have any around you and have only met dangerous ones.
Secondly, but most importantly, life-saving surgeries and treatments were incorrectly used on people in my family, killed my sister, and dangerous mistakes were made with me that there’s almost no excuse to have made while in ER rooms, and those workers had zero excuse— which was maybe why I wasn’t told about it and found out after I was released. Unless they’re so bad at being ER workers that they simply forgot 🤪😋 to tell a 22 year old that I started to have a heart attack and showed signs of organ failure! Silly mistake on their end.
Nurses either are exceptionally bold or don’t realize that patients can hear them gossiping at the reception desk. I have heard 2 nurses/techs say that I was better off dead when I was a teenager because they thought I was still drugged in the room they were leaning against for their little conversation on how they’d disown their child if they harmed themselves so selfishly like I had(My mother snapped from stress and told me to kill myself. That’s why she did not answer her phone nor show up at the hospital when I was being transferred, but sure since y’all know-it-all).
It’s like how my father scoffs and says, “Who would you call if you were raped?”(🤡 he’s gotta be in denial about how much of a pig he is) when I make a comment about not trusting the sherif. I wouldn’t call them because the times that law enforcement were involved were traumatizing with no positive outcome.
The doctors in hospitals who asked about it did nothing about it either besides write it in my files that I have a history of sexual abuse— ignoring that it was ongoing and probably needed some legal or social work support. The only focus brought towards that was using it to say why I must be LGBT+/GNC. Just like with the law enforcement, it was weaponized against a child and used to further focus on sexualizing said gay child.
No. I wouldn’t have my trust in a doctor to save my life because my experiences with healthcare workers are eerily similar to law enforcement. And many of them are cruel and petty alike law enforcement while on the clock.
I’d have to hope and pray that I survive whatever they’re doing to me and that it doesn’t permanently harm me because they got distracted by other orders or didn’t want to use expensive equipment or didn’t want to admit they have no experience with something a diff specialist needs to be called in for or don’t think someone like me should exist in an ideal society,…
Or their version of what sounds exactly like the “Poor me, forced into insanity and murder because I had no choice but to look after this failure of a burdensome human everyday or kill them!” caregiver burnout murder case defenses, as if caregiver burnout itself by caregivers of highest level needs disabled people justifies abuse or murder. It does not! You can quit being a carer before you decide to abuse or kill the disabled human you’re caring for! Just like you can divorce your wife instead of abusing and killing her! Seriously, what the fuck? 😀 Ahaha. I understand pride is a problem, but what the fuck? Just like these cases, you can and should quit being a healthcare worker or put it on hold indefinitely if you start acting abusive or selfish on the job.
I was in hospitals more than school growing up. People used to argue with my parents about how they were letting strangers raise me. It’s not like I became physically disabled a few years ago and entered the world of doctors to see a few new horrors. I was raised in that system.
You think they did a good job? This is how the end result of people educated in child psychology and pediatrics talking to a child more than any other demographic should be? It’s a bit off base imo to come at me for what’s seen as hysteric and insane takes on doctors when they told me who to be. They and my mother chose what I ate, what pills I took, what I was allowed to say, what I was allowed to believe, who I could be friends with if I dared speak to anyone, how much time outside I was allowed to get,…
Do people think I was born a snakey and insensitive bastard? I spent my life so far metaphorically figuring out puzzles to locks on doors that kept getting more difficult every time I managed to open them in rooms without windows. Then I saw that I was just in a damn hallway with my mother that lead me right into an identical room owned by doctors. Over and over again. That’s been my growing up. None of my doctors gave a single damn about my health or the abuse I had been through.
I won’t trust a doctor. I’d have no other options of who to turn to. Letting someone die is illegal, so as soon as you lose consciousness, doctors can legally treat you even if you said no— but it’s like making a deal with someone who could be the Devil and not knowing what will happen.
I love doctors. I respect their work, and the concept of healthcare is important to me. Doctors are usually my favorite characters in anything. They were my only idea of who I felt OK looking up to and basing my ideals on.
I don’t trust them nor their workers and connections and tools anymore at the same time, and I think that’s fair to say, especially right now, as an adult trying to heal out of everything they’ve told me about myself. I don’t think it contradicts to say that the concept of working-healthcare practices in place is admirable to me while the real, corrupt industry it’s turned into is Hell.
When I hear the word, “mother”. My first thought is my biological mother. Then memories of psychologists and therapists come to mind all the same. If you say “father”, my first thought is my biological father. Then memories of psychiatrists and techs. I think, for myself, I at least have a better idea than anyone else on my experiences with healthcare workers.
Healthcare workers traumatizing me and killing people in my family doesn’t mean they didn’t save or majorly better the QOL of someone else. Personal bias or better treatment of who they like. State regulations. Cultural differences. The existence of doctors who are doing everything in their power to hold the pillar up while their coworkers long let it go in defeatism, propaganda and erasure in education, socioeconomic stress, stress from higher-ups in control of funding, or whom never really cared and prioritized lives in the first place.
“That’s just how it is”/“Theres nothing in my power to do” is something both my parents and therapists have said to me while looking downcast and defeated when I’ve questioned why they hurt me, themselves, others, or let it happen with others.
A lot of people have heard that from adults as children and were pissed or hurt every time. “Life is unfair, get over it”. That mindset. That language and standby on violence that goes with it. The refusal to stand up for a child asking for Justice.
Full offense at every person who has said that while on the job or to a child when I say this….How much of a fucking coward do you have to be to look at someone smaller than you and injured from people on equal footing with you and say that? If you really think you aren’t being a POS coward, say it louder while looking the kid in the eyes, and don’t apologize or sound apologetic along with it. Do you give a fuck or not? Does it bother you or not? Do you have issue being associated with that or not?
Just like my parents, the same with doctors. Nothing is more frightening than someone in power over you who is unpredictable and goes back and forth between what they say and how they act. Especially when they hold unhealthy attitudes or are outright abusive.
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just-an-enby-lemon · 1 year
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I love how Ivvy has absolutly no shame during Gotham City Sirens. Like first issue starts with her having put Eddie in a catatonic state with her feromones for months so she and Harley could steal his house and end with him free from the trance but they destroyed the house.
And then very little after that Harley goes missing and she goes to Riddler to ask him for help in finding her. He dennied because what was she expecting? But it is still soo funny.
Tbh the Sirens are at least 3/4 of the reason he is collapsing back to villany. And Harley is the only one with a bit of self-awareness, like at least she feels a tad guitly and recognizes the fact that maybe fucking with a severally mentally ill man who is trying to change his life and do some good isn't a very nice thing to do. Selina, who I expected to be the person who would be "I'm still doing it but it's kindda shitty", is super chill. I did not expect annything else from Pam, she is just mean and she owns it and I love her more than annything else in this wolrd.
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my therapist basically told me to find more shit that brings me joy (especially sensory things) and incorporate it into my life so im not in a constant semi-dissociated state (bc brain will eventually realize that being embodied isnt actually pain and suffering all the time anymore). so that basically means i have to buy more perfume right? thats what that means ive decided.
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hjemlengten · 8 months
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also, if you look at a friend as 'nothing but a druggie' for smoking a bit of weed while going through a fucking traumatizing life event, you're the problem and need to take a morals check lol.
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vagrantclown · 9 months
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Not to ruminate on main but I just remembered searching my art online years ago only to find it on a shit talking board where people were dragging it for “the tumblr nose” and also knowing someone I once knew posted my art in his discord to mock it despite it being years old at that point just.
Hm. No wonder I have a hard time posting my WIPs
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sleepychaika · 2 years
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HEY. as a matter of fact. why are we all sleeping on vrisjohn!! johnvris!! as <> to be specific!! they're straight up excellent!!!
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nexus-nebulae · 11 months
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how to explain to 60 year old white woman that constantly "putting it off until later" means that eventually you cannot put it off any longer and it gets significantly worse the longer you don't do it
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shrimp1y · 11 months
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Every moment that ggf doesnt blow up is a blessing I think. Like I'm like damn I wish for some virality! And less than a second later im like no that would be a terrible idea. This might sound like that fox who want the grapes but bc its outta reach he says its green but do remember my accounts are very hackable and I gptta do smth about that before the internet gets its grippers on me
#my passwords are dumb#i still use my first ever email#and like. the more I think about it the less i care about popularity. im not even on socmed#the only reason why i want virality is bc i want money. i wanna be rich. i want to move out and spend money on so fucking much therapy#i like going to the dentist#ill get all my weird symptoms checked out at the doctors#i want money. i want money!!!!!! i wanna buy houses for my besties#got distracted. anyway it sounds great but virality doesnt always equal to money thats the problem hence im like. ehhh.. nah#like. ill be happy to be viral in 5 years when my shits more together but rn im a weak frail shrimp im like a small victorian boy#ive been eating orzo in veggie broth#the internet will instantly kill me#im still gonna get my symptoms checked out at the doctors mind you. i am rich co#my parents are. and theyre in their guilty 50s stage where they look at me sadly and say shit like 'i dont remember that' when i tell them#they neglected me#so ill still get to go to my doctors. its just a matter of gettin there. but i reaaaaaally hate going out#growing up is learnin tjat no money or fame can fix u#the autism is winning. the asthma is winning. the allergies are winning. the hypermobility is winning. apparently its not just funny that#i cant hold up frying pans and choppin stuff hurts my wrist. its a runnin joke that im super weak but now im like. is this normal#my feet hurt all the time. is that normal. i get a desperate need to lie down after i do anything. 'i love being horizontal'#thats my irl catchphrase. and like. my nose are always clogged. i only recently started visiting the dentist bc they booked me in for#regular visits after comin to them to look at my wisdom tooth. and they say they can tell im a mouthbreather from my teeth#and im like girl what. i didnt know theres consequences to breathing through my mouth. and ive been thinking about the fact that im#congested 95% of the time and im like. maybeeeeee... thats not normal....... its been liek this for most of my life jsyk. is that why my#ears pop and ring all the time. apparently sinus problems can lead to ear problems. like i can sorta tell bc my nose gets completely blocked#and i gotta 'stretch' my jaw to relief the pressure on my ears every once in a while. but i thought that was just normal#i joke that im allergic to joy bc my asthma flares up when i laugh. which is kinda funny#i kinda have warmed up to like. the idea. of me bein disabled. bc im autistic and im regressing as i relearn how to actually do stuff in#a sustainable way. but man. i didnt consider my many bodily failures to be a part of it. but like with becoming more intuned with my body#and my fatigue..... its like yeah. not being able to breath is kinda tiring. i dont sleep very well either. maybe thats why i sleep so much#this is also why i shouldnt ever be known i talk too much
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wahbegan · 1 year
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I think Hannibal shit just tickles me because not only do i live in the area, but i drove straight past Quantico on my way to and from college so like
More than anything, watching the show, i'm like HANNIBAL DID NOT GET FROM BALTIMORE TO FUCKING QUANTICO IN AN HOUR AND A HALF AT 7:30 AT NIGHT THAT IS BULLSHIT constantly pissing and moaning about Will's commute
I mean commuting from Wolf Trap to Quantico isn't like an abnormal thing, although it's more common for someone to be commuting from VA to the city for work instead of the other way around but like it would be a fucking OBNOXIOUS commute i'd probably go kill-crazy too
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