so. the apartment truly did have a superfluous sink right in the middle of the shower. and there was no place for a bed other than right in front of a large window facing a busy street. and the balcony was nice, but you could have roasted a whole pig in it and it's only a moderately warm spring day.

in a surprise twist the real estate agent also had arranged to show an apartment in the neighboring building right after. (the person who had arranged it and the other person who meant to come see the first place didn't show up.) and it was a smaller but much, much cheaper, with a sensible layout. sixth floor. windows in the kitchen and the bathroom too. wonderfully cool, because the windows face northeast and southeast (corner apartment).

also. for some reason. rent includes four times faster internet than what you usually get to pay for if a building has made its own collective deal. gamer apartment????

i feel like we don't talk about how much madd distorts your sense of identity, especially if you have a paraself that is meant to be the person you want to be and/or cannot currently be. when i look at myself in the mirror i almost don't recognize myself because That's Not Me that's just like. idk. some meat suit i need to be alive on earth??

and update to [this] post. please stop trying to moralize silly fictional ships and have some fun for a change.

Lololol i cannot resist to giv another sneak peek of the comic 😂 But this time not in high res...

I finally managed to take care of my balcony - and now i am outside with coffee, drawing and wanted to share my happy moment! @neonghostcat 🥰

Aaaand added candles 😁✨

more hermit/empires stufffs

honestly I find it really weird when people get mad at "cozy" or low stakes popcorny stories for not being deep and meaningful.

like no, shit, why on earth did you pick up the cozy book thinking you were gonna get gritty realism that had something to say about society. like you don't have to read those books, no one is making you, but literally the point of them is make you not have to worry and turn your brain off for a bit. like???? are we gonna get mad at "squeecore" again now? are we back here again??

nothing like a call from your mother to make that escapism feel extra sweet

Drink at your own risk 💀

I've never been a "born in the wrong generation" type of guy because for So Many reasons I would be dead. Full stop like I would have died during childbirth I would have died of appendicitis age 8 and that's not even factoring in my queerness and neurodivergency and ultimately my mental health (carefully maintained thanks to support/modern advances in medicine and treatment). On Top Of That my hobbies include The Video Game and many such things that are of modern invention (adjacently: including The Device I'm typing this out on right now which has become my main avenue of communication to the outside world)

But I'm just saying that. It WOULD be nice. To exist in a world where fluorescent lighting doesn't exist and everything is possibly 99% less overstimulating all of the time forever.

december is the month of creeping grief. a mercuric entropy with a mouth full of teeth. i don’t know what do to with myself anymore, when the night falls so soon.

Phoebe Bridgers, “If we Make it Through December” // Nelly Sachs (translated by Eric Plattner), “Enigmas of Night” in The Seeker // Sarah Kay // me (lol)

for all its issues, i really fell in love with tumblr's format for rp - it just feels so compatible and smooth for roleplaying and writing and it just feels so unique and like no other experience out there. i don't think i could ever go back to forum or chat room role-playing if tumblr ever went down. something about tumblr just feels so cozy and comfortable for rp.

the phantom form phantom of the opera is so like.. GGREAAHAHHSHEHSHHSHEHHW..

he’s literally kinda daddy, but it might just be me and my mask kink ngl. I’m watching like all the movies of panthom of the opera rn and I might faint 😭😭

I’ve never seen them?! that’s probably very criminal and something I shouldn’t admit out loud (uncivilized little rat) but should I watch them??

my mom for one reason or another is super hyperfixated on everything phantom of the opera related, haha. I was supposed to go see an actual opera adaptation of it a couple of years ago with her but little miss corona rained on my parade. my mom on the other hand went three times, lol. 🥲

he does look like a daddy though. suddenly I feel kinda motivated to watch them hahaha

i'm love him

terribly sorry for progressively getting more and more annoyed and tired with jn. this show kinda gets a lot more exhausting on a rewatch when you know its not going to get better

taking all my fellow struggling mutuals' hands and lying down on the floor. we're all going through it. floor time now. love you. let's rest