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Team ZIT

hermit charm update hehe

So these may not be internationally shipped anytime soon but I will be selling the little dangles at supanova (a con happening in april) in Melbourne (Aus) which will be like $12 each. And depending on how that goes I will open to international if I can work out overseas shipping that isn't like double the price :'-]

But I could probably work out shipping within the country so hurray for Aussies!

after almost five months im finally fully caught up with one piece manga 😭 it's so surreal!

idk ive been getting more sad lately about being excluded from stuff not having friends ik this is just the commuter's life or whatever but im still bummed. like i cant go to parties still i dont do any sort of drugs so the ways to connect w ppl are so limited :(

god i shot those last two photos i posted on a digital medium format hasselblad a like $10,000-$20,000 camera or something and the files are so pretty. Each photo is 7000 pixels wide and has such lovely color and detail. It hurts not having access to that anymore lol

banging head against wall

a family can be seven superions

hmm. had an actual conversation with nightmare coworker today that seemed mutually productive. she apologized for saying some bullshit that hurt my feelings and i clarified that my intentions are to help not to undermine her, and we both agreed that there's no competition against each other and that it's the lack of growth in our role that's the problem. it was...productive.

and further cementing for me that it is time to begin making my Exit. i will be sending out my resume to a few places this weekend.

i'm still processing the conversation, and am struggling to place myself in where i am responsible to better my behavior. because i genuinely don't want to be an ass, even though i really don't like this lady and will jump for joy the day i never have to see her again. she stated that she knows my intentions aren't to hurt her, and that she thinks i'm very kind. i apologized for if my behavior came off as undermining her, and said that my intentions are only to better my own growth—and that i know she's trying to succeed too. i validated her feelings, and complemented the effort she is putting in.

where i'm struggling with is: am i in the wrong/causing harm and needing to change if the issue is that her feelings are incongruent with what she knows of my intentions? her feelings are her responsibility (WOW i almost typed "her feelings are my responsibility". i feel like that's a freudian slip) and she states that she knows i don't mean to hurt her. i'm going to try to be more clear in wording my intentions with her (she feels like me trying to take work off her plate is to undermine her. when really, i'm caught up and see her getting overwhelmed, and i want to help and also have something to do since i'm bored).

but i'm really struggling to look at my role in this and pass judgement on myself. i can and want to do better, and i don't think i did anything wrong, but i'm always so hesitant to say it's not my fault or i didn't do something bad. like i can't trust my judgement on that. my intentions were good, her bad feelings are ones caused by her insecurities, which she more or less has expressed to be aware that they are not true—the hurtful thing she said to me, she acknowledged was said out of hurt and not what she actually thinks. so, is it fair to say i'm not the bad guy? i'm not in the wrong? i know good intentions that still result in harm don't absolve anyone, but when the things that are clashing are insufficient communication and reactive insecurities... i'm not a monster, am i?

i know im deffo not the first one to complain about it but i really don’t like how the netflix bee and puppycat condensed down the first season and the pilot partially as well. the original season one gave you time to get to know the characters personalities i feel? moreso than the characters importances plotwise, like season one had a charm to it and while it could be a little hard to follow at times i suppose, it gave you time to piece things together. and cutting down the pilot and season one down into three episodes really feels like such a disservice to bee and puppycat to me. like i still enjoy the new episodes but i’m really missing getting to see bee and puppycat’s relationship towards each other grow as it does in the first season. especially with the absence of bee’s line, “if you want, i can help you figure out a nice ending” in reference to puppycat’s story... the smushed together, more of a recap version of the season one episodes really made things feel a bit too rushed, at least to me

some absolutely ancient screeenshots from the unlisted 10/31/19 minecraft stream (posted by u/LightningLouise7), where F1nn's twitter had voted for different Halloween stream costume ideas:

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what i say: i love friday the 13th ( pt. 6, jason lives ) do you like friday the 13th ( pt. 6 jason lives) ?? 

what i mean: how long are you going to listen to me talk about this movie before you either tell me to stop or walk away from the conversation 

𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐞 𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲?

     The antihero .

ah yes, hello edge lord. it is lovely to see you again. you my dear, are the incarnation of duality, and you might think of claws and venom mixed with grace but alas, nothing near as poetic. you my friend, are mixture of what is seen as right, and what is questioned.   you follow the path of your own two feet,   you know the twists and turns of life's forests quite well if I do say so myself. and you can meander along them wonderfully. you strive to stay true to a certain sense of principles you might call your code, but whereas in reality, those would be your morals. people tend to see you as strange. sharp edged and glinting you hide behind a cloak of chain mail but really you just prefer to show off your imperfections first. unlike many who scramble to make it as if their flaws never existed, you proudly raise yours up. saying,    "this is me, this is the worst of me, now you know what to expect."   and might I say, it is quite an intriguing mindset, for truth be told, the ones that love your spikes and craters are the ones who appreciate your softness the most. you wish not to be loved as something lovable, but as a monster. for aren't we all just beasts in human skin? you are brave, but you are lonely. you know quite well how to scare off most, making even the heroes with the boldest bravado creep away with their tails between their legs. you are not a villian, sometimes you play the part a bit too well. but nevertheless you are no hero either. you put yourself first, but if one wins your trust then may the gods have mercy on those who might wrong them. you long to be a poetic mess of sorts, and well, if the ink sets in long enough you might just become that sooner or later. but for one who is so dead set on truth you sure do hide a lot don't you? please, step out of the shadows, there is a difference to not making your flaws visible and to simply acting as if you're the most despicable person in all the realms. it's because you're afraid of attachment is it not? well let me tell you a little secret, everyone is. you say you wish to be left alone for eternity but than why are you craving connection.   you wish to be known and understood truly,   but you snarl and push the ones that might be trying away. please little wolf, accept you are lovable. you are not some ravenous beast that terrifies the multitudes, sure, you are not for the faint of heart but that does not make you an inkling less perfect as you are. young antihero, step into the sun. you would do better actually reaching for the things you want rather than pining for them in the darkness.

wip of malory!!

I missed submissions for he would fuck his clone but PLEASE tell me someone submitted Il Dottore from Genshin Impact I just know he would do it

I do see his name in the list!