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metabolizemotions · 20 days

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705 had the best action sequence in recent seasons. I love callbacks to the skyscraper fire and storage facility fire. Rewatching those scenes also reminded me of how different the show has become. It had more variety, and humor - even in tragedy. It was more character-driven, and had a better focus on team camaraderie and friendships - Dean/Jack, Maya/Andy and Vic/Travis ...

After Dean's passing, they really don't know what to do with Jack. Vic and Travis haven't had many substantial scenes. Maya and Andy were sort of besties in name only. There was a shift to focus more on captaincy race, SFD politics and darker issues w/o the necessary levity for balance. Let alone any breathing space for them to just hang out together. The inter-personal dynamics became more isolated and the characters became more one-dimensional to shoehorn the stories to serve the overall plots.

705 showed 5 women as impactful and effective first responders. Ross commanding the scene as chief; Andy directing the rescue efforts; Maya leading and supporting from her position; Vic taking control of a claustrophobic rescue situation giving first aid n emotional guidance; Carina providing improvised professional medical care for accident victims on site.

I wish there was more follow-thru on the complexities of the characters sprinkled thru out the seasons... that the show had been more about friendships, esp female friendships and not rivalry... that they didn't make it a zero-sum game but allowed both Maya and Andy to thrive cos they are both leaders in their own way.

I wish Maya, Vic and Andy still hung out, even when their friendship evolved and Carina had joined them in their shenanigans before all she thought about was babies... that Carina hadn't just thought about and talked about babies.

I wish they hadn't structured the narrative to have a female chief put down a fellow female firefighter cos of a man.

Rewatching also reminded me of how good, just n meticulous Ripley was as a chief. I can't get behind the way they are framing Ross as the best chief of Seattle, almost like just cos she's a woman. As a woman, she could have been more empathetic towards the sexism women faced n even if she didn't lift them up, at least don't push them down. She toed the line n was part of the system until it didn't serve her. Only then she called out sexism when she was caught red-handed at breaking the rules she claimed was of the upmost importance to uphold no matter what, as a good soldier.

The way Maya broke the rules to save a dying kid, accepted demotion to keep 19 together, but got buried for supporting BLM, was not giving a proper hearing, even when she was a good captain. She got no support from the team and was basically told to suck it up. The way Ross broke the rules to have a sexual relationship with an ex she promoted, but the whole team was in full support of her, cos "love is love", and one had to do what it took to be whole human beings...?

After being biased against Maya, and giving Beckett the benefit of the doubt despite the rumors of his almost-demotions. Ross respected him, give him many chances despite his poor attitude n performance n complaints against him...

In a way, Ross and Sullivan giving Beckett empathy w/o holding him accountable enabled his addiction and spiral. Also, both holding Maya accountable w/o empathy led to her mental and physical breakdown. They should have facilitated Beckett's therapy, not Maya's abuse.

Addiction can be substance-based or behavioral. Beckett was never sober b4 704. Maya's bottle was not the sole reason for his drinking. Drinking was his coping mechanism (n apparently bullying too). Maya coped with physical assertion, like how she pushed herself to her limits under Lane's abuse.

Ultimately what they did or didn't do reflect on who they were as people. They all made mistakes. Only Maya truly owned up and made amends. The way Ross didn't trust Maya when she handed her the photo mirrored Beckett's distrust. I interpreted it as from Ross's perspective, she would have an angle using the photo for her adv if she were Maya, so she questioned if Maya did. Beckett did not trust Maya cos he knew the team did not trust him as captain having not gained respect or trust. In part also maybe due to their guilty conscience of what they did to Maya and ashamed of their own abuse of power? Possibly as subtle subtext?

When Ross wanted both her job and her relationship and was afraid that Sullivan would make her play small cos in her careers men had made her feel small n saw her as a chess piece. Yet, she, together with the men, saw Maya as a chess piece n made her feel so small...

#i know it's about maya's unhealthy obsessive nature #n her priorities shifting #but the way they had ross tell carina happily #that maya was not applying to be captain...#when she took part in breaking her spirit n ambition #instead of having ross have a convo with maya #showed some decency or remorse...#maya was wrong but she wasnt right either #i don't know if it's to be implied #but if only maya's apologies r on screen #i'll assume those r the only apologies going around #not angry rant #but got too long again...#station 19 comments #station 19

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elizabethsharmon · 4 years

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reblog if you feel disrespected by skam france and demand official apology

below a full list of all the offenses:

Manon going back to Ch*rbage after he emotionally manipulated her to not testify against his brother (who got her drunk, took nudes of her, and kept blackmailing her) because “after all nothing happened = he didn’t r*pe her”

Making Arthur and Alexia a couple in the first place just so he could cheat on her with Noee and lie to her for weeks and then having her break up with him, only for them to suddenly being good friends in s6 and kissing in the last clip (which ngl almost made me throw up)

Bringing up Lucas’ insecurities and abandonment issues but never letting him talk about them with Eliott; posting some damage control posts on instagram instead and pretending like Lucas is fine with Eliott kissing Lola for the film (which he clearly wasn’t, the writers seem to not know him at all)

Wasting time to edit Tiff’s head onto different animals and posting things on that cyberbullying account that no one cared about instead of posting something from the grew + the worst social media ever

Not giving us a proper goodbye to the grew and not really saying anything about their future

Lying to the fans about god knows what we will see in s6 and baiting them to watch even though legit nothing of it happened

Not continuing Arthur’s story in s6 (fine, I don’t really care about that but we were supposed to see it so ???? )

Treating some fans more privileged than the others, giving them spoilers about the new seasons, inviting them on set

FranceTV Slash and SkamLaSerie instas mocking fans in their stories - saying stuff like Lola will cause the break up between Daphne and Basile, “addiction can be useful for flirting” (yikes), creating a ship war between fans in s5 by posting two photos of Alexia/Arthur and Noee/Arthur with a caption “we love them both, we can’t choose”, the host of the live of s6 calling people on tumblr “obsessed” and not apologizing when people said they’re offended by that, blocking people who were asking questions about why the SA was never mentioned again during the live

Liking all the praise but constantly ignoring fans when they were asking questions about writing choices and then blocking them

the rest of 50 offenses under cut cause turns out they really disrespected me more than I thought

feel free to add whatever you want if i forgot about something

None of the girls really apologizing to Imane at the end of season 4 after all they’ve put her through and after they took the side of the racist (who already had a history of drama with Emma) instead of their friend

Taking away Noee’s integrity and making her say “I love you” out loud (which was totally ooc cause an episode earlier she said LSF is her language and she doesn’t like her voice) after Arthur (who was leading her on for weeks) told her they can’t be together

Male gaze in s5 because even though the sign language is a body language, the way camera was lingering on her flat, bare stomach, a few times showing a close up on her boobs during the “song-dance” scene was male gaze

Lack of beautiful, slow-mo, piano music scenes for Alexia with Arthur staring at her awestruck because apparently she’s not worthy enough

Completely sidelining the deaf/hoh storyline in favour of cheating/love triangle plot

Reducing Camille to a translator and randomly making him Mika’s boyfriend because why the hell not

Completely forgetting about Mika and Lisa after s5 (did they ever find that roommate????)

Noee kissing Arthur right after he shared his traumatic story with her and overshadowing domestic abuse with cheating

Absolutely no follow-up about P*trick and domestic abuse after s5

Having P*trick cheat on Arthur’s mom with Emma’s mom because they’re all one big family

Random crackfic farm episode that didn’t make absolutely ANY sense

Killing Fifi rip [*]

Arthur getting hit by The Car and being perfectly fine the next day

The Boy Squad becoming cheating apologists, Lucas giving Arthur the same advice he gave to Emma in s1 and Yann (who got hurt because of it back then) supporting it

Character regression, especially for Lucas, and the whole boy squad acting out of character

Continuously trying to make Lucas look like a bad guy because they knew we would forgive him everything

Arthur suddenly liking art even though it hasn’t been ever mentioned before and his whole instagram was filled with space related posts

Parallels between Eliott/Lucas and Arthur/Noee

Catherine - or lack of her - aka the queerbait from s3

Completely ignoring character’s birthdays - Basile and Manon (second year in a row)

Not introducing Lola before and making s6 about a complete stranger but still expecting the fans to like her from the get-go and watch the show by baiting the fans with the promise of “unofficial mains” (Daphne and Eliott)

Forcing the Lola/Eliott friendship and selling it in the promo as sister/brother relationship instead of writing it in a way that would make it flow naturally

Making Eliott Otteli Urbex King only to forget the plot after more or less three clips; also having Eliott hide the truth from Lucas for months and then pretending to resolve it in a text to Lola ??? which didn’t make sense in the first place but then it turned out that it was just damage control

Making Lola hook up with much older guys than her over and over again and having one of them s*xually assault just so Eliott could play the hero and save her; never bringing that up again

Making Eliott punch people left and right - anything to protect the ladies, Sofiane punching Ch*rbage in s4 can agree I guess

Letting Eliott talk about his past and insecurities only so Lola could prey on them later and emotionally manipulate him into drinking

Also Eliott not letting Lola apologize and brushing off her apologies because apparently that was nothing at all and it’s okay to let people walk you over and manipulate you

Not letting Lucas speak for himself

The whole Lux & Obscurus plot, having Eliott write the film about his and Lucas’ relationship and what his love means to Eliott only to have Lola play in it, not adjusting the script so that it would fit the change and still keeping the Eliott/Lola kiss as a big fuck you to the fandom instead of having it end with a forehead touch and fade to black especially that they haven’t even showed it to us again during the screening of Eliott’s film (but it made all the other couples turned on enough to kiss in that exact moment so maybe it had a purpose) (it didn’t what the fuck was that)

Also acting like Lucas can’t spare a few hours to film it with Eliott cause he has to sTuDy FoR tHe BaC when they were filming it in the middle of a night on Friday, how is that realistic

Not giving Eliott any friends of his own and pretending like he’s a lone wolf even though he’s the biggest sunshine ever and he’s naturally drawn to people; acting like there are no other studens at his film school who could help him film his project so instead he let Lola find random people who knew nothing about filming to help him; having a bunch of random people at the screening of his film and if they were supposed to be his “friends” from the film school then I’m gonna throw hands

Acting like we will see what “minute by minute” really means and “see Eliott like we’ve never seen him before” which never happened

Switching POV for two clips only and they all revolved around Lola because they decided to go with su*cide attempt in episode 9

Also ending that episode with a su*cide note even though the next clip was before midnight on Friday

Giving Lola the worst therapist ever and a really poor attempt at cheering her up from the nurse

Enforcing that “having a loved one” is “the real reason to change” instead of sending the message that you should change for yourself first and foremost and showing that reaching out for professional help is a good thing and can really help you

Acting like ED can be cured by italian cuisine and not mentioning it again for weeks; having Daphne ask Lola not to go to rehab because they have each other and a few clips after that she’s suddenly after her first therapy (love that for her but there’s something huge missing here)

Making Lola’s life a living hell and a misery porn for 10 weeks straight

Making P*trick, Thierry and Lola’s biological dads The Worst (men are trash but it would be nice to see some good parenting on the show)

Giving all the members of La Mif two or three personality traits and not fleshing out their characters

Giving Maya a girlfriend because a season without a love triangle is a waste

Not really developing Mayla well and having their first kiss right after Eliott/Lola cursed kiss as a preemptive damage control to shut us up

Never mentioning why Lola was doing

Wasting a good chunk of the season on Tiff and that insta account and ending it with “she’s addicted to social media”

Giving Yann like one line each season after s3

Reducing Sofiane to the background dancer in s5 and s6

Hating female characters

F/M friendships are only possible if the guy is gay, otherwise cheating always had to be involved

and you know. in general. pretty much everything they did after s3.

#skam france #skamfr

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sotorubio · 4 years

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hey! i totally understand being grossed about by the kiss. i was just wondering, why do you hate the season as a whole? I’ve been thinking other than the kiss the season has actually been pretty good! Just wondering your opinion!

hey!! for starters i use the word "hate" v liberally so if u see me using it it doesn't necessarily mean i have had a terrible time 24/7 in fact there have been a ton of stuff i rly enjoyed since i love lola's character n lamifex n all that jazz it's been cool!

however, objectively i think it has been p bad n tonight's whole thing ruined a lot for me (not only the kiss but also i rly... didn't like the "you're my addiction" thing.. what was that :/). this season, for me, has been p similar to s5 when it comes to its problems. individual clips? often v nice there have been so many great clips w daphné n lola but as a whole? they just never lead anywhere and/or aren't addressed properly like when lola found out daphné told their parents abt her n it was a whole thing but then it just. ended w the supermarket clip even tho lola had a right to be angry. then when maya ghosted her lola was hurt n angry n maya said she couldn't talk to her while she's drunk even tho she knew at this point lola was an addict. that fight/ghosting was never properly resolved n next time they met LOLA was apologetic n while yes she was v rude to maya but like. she had a right to that n it ended in her apologizing instead (the exact same thing that happened in season 5 w the le gang falling out n then arthur showing up to the trip apologetically when AGAIN he had EVERY right to be angry w the guys)

second thing is the amount of storylines. this season has felt v.. introductory? up until like the sixth episode they just kept bringing up new things that never went anywhere n Still haven't gone anywhere

then the things they haven't acknowledged yet (there's still time so they Might acknowledge these at one point but personally i think it should've been done way before now)

the above mentioned fights

lola's true feelings abt her mom n how she has treated her + lola's relationship w thierry (probably will be explored more but last time we saw them she just forgave him immediately after seeing him slightly sad)

the sa storyline (if they don't acknowledge this AT ALL... ❌ but it should've been discussed by now that's a traumatic event)

lola sleeping w adult men? jfc pls bring this up soon lmao

lola's psych/therapist who was never seen again w/o ANY explanation (this season is supposed to be abt addiction n mental health right? so let's give the main character a professional to support her but then show how bad professional help is for u n how u should just find love instead we have such great rep /s)

then there r a few more things that they truly need to address but I won't criticize it for those yet bc there's still time to go through stuff

bonus points if daphné is benny.taxi that will completely destroy the amazing n well written development of their dynamic n no there absolutely is not any time to mend that again if it breaks their bond (n if it doesn't that's simply just bad writing bc checking on ur sister like that is extremely creep n crossing personal boundaries) + if we count sm as a part of the season never forget how bad their social media game is it's laughable

then a more personal reason rather than an objective criticism is that the interactions between lola n the og squads feel so forced (except w daphné ofc). it would be much more fun n enjoyable if lola had a group of her own age n much more realistic like idk abt y'all but i would not want to make my little sister a permanent part of my friend group msjflsjfkd

ALSO! everyone is loving the wlw rep which is always great for sure but i still don't know if lola's a lesbian or bi bc originally she was hinted to be a lesbian by the director himself but then she keeps sleeping w men w/o it ever being addressed anywhere n some ppl were saying she was stated to be bisexual off screen in an interview or a live show of some sort so if that's the case i personally don't think wlw rep can be that good if the ppl making the rep don't even know the simple difference between a bi woman and a lesbian.

#anon #inbox #skam france #hopefully this answers some of it!!!#there's probably more but this is the stuff i remember rn

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blackhakumen · 4 years

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Mini Fanfic #389: Reflection of Your Past and Mistakes(Phoenix Wright Ace Attorney)

Athena: (Cuddling on One Side of Apollo's Arms and Shoulder) ('Sigh Relaxingly') Doesn't this feel nice, 'Pollo?~ Just a simple R&R together after work~

Apollo: (Smiles a Little) Yeah....It does feel relaxing....It would also more romantic if a certain Little Miss Magician isn't here to join in.

Trucy: (Pouts at Apollo while Snuggling on the side of his Arms and Shoulder) Hey, I worked hard today too, ya know? There's no way would miss this opportunity to rest. Plus, this is one out of the hundreds of Cuddle Times you owe me, Polly.

Apollo: (Rolled his Eyes) Uh huh....

Trucy: Don't you roll your eyes at me, mister! You know I speak the truth here!

Apollo: Are you really, though?....

Athena: (Giggles Softly) Now, now, children. This is a time for relaxation, not a sibling fight.

Apollo: ('Sigh In Defeat') Yeah.... (Gently Ruffles the top of Trucy's Hair) Sorry, Truce. If I'm being honest here, I'm actually kind of glad you're here with us.

Trucy: (Smiles Brightly) Me too, Polly~ And I'm sorry too......You still owe me a lot Cuddles though.

Apollo: Seriously?

Trucy: Yes.

Apollo: Fine......(Gotten Silent for a bit by Looking up in the Ceiling)

Athena: Hey, Apollo....

Apollo: Hm?

Athena: This just might be me here, but....you look like you have something on you might mind. (Gets a bit Worried) You okay?

Apollo: (Got Back to Reality) Oh! Uhh...Yeah. I'm okay. I just..... thinking about the past and stuff....

Athena: Oh? (Snuggles on her side of Apollo's Shoulder a bit more) And what kind of past you've been thinking about, Pollo?~

Apollo: Nothing too exciting, if that what were wondering....('Sigh') It's... about this old mentor I used to work with name Kristoph Gavin....

Trucy: (Eyes Widened) !!!!

Athena: Kristoph Gavin?.....(Eyes Widened once she puts the pieces together) Wait! Isn't he-

Apollo: Klavier's older brother? Yep. Before I joined the Everything's Wright Agency, I worked under his wing- (Noticed Trucy Clinging on to his arm) Truce?

Trucy: (Gives Apollo A Firm Frown) Polly, why are you thinking about that man?

Apollo: I-It's nothing too personal, really! I was just.....wondering what would it be like if I'd still work alongside him....If I didn't know about his true colors sooner....If I would be a complete different person if I haven't met you or-

Trucy: Well, you don't need to think about that anymore, okay?! You will NEVER be like Kristoph Gavin! And that's because you're still the Apollo Justice that we all know and love to this day! So I don't EVER want you to try to compare yourself to that heartless monster again!! You hear me?!

*Silence*

Apollo: (Surprised by Trucy's Outburst) Trucy.....

Trucy: (Sighs Heavily as she continues Snuggling onto Apollo's Arm on her side) I'm sorry...I-I didn't mean to yell like that....

Athena: H-Hey! Don't worry about it. You just caught us by surprise is all..... Mostly me, but still.

Apollo: (Frowns Sadly) Yeah. If anything, I should be the one apologizing here for even mentioning his name around you in the first place.

Trucy: But I shouldn't have yelled at you at all. I just....('Sigh') I love you so much, Apollo. I'm worried about you sometimes, you know?

Apollo: (Smiles Softly towards Trucy) I love you too, kiddo. And trust me, I won't let myself be like him anytime soon. (Kiss the top of Trucy's Head) I promise.

Trucy: (Smiles Brightly to her Normal Self again) I know you won't, Polly. And I will definitely make sure you won't you down that route either.

Athena: (Turns to Trucy) You wanna talk about this whole Kristoph situation now or.....

Trucy: I will eventually....But not now. (Snuggles onto Apollo's Arm some more) I wanna keep relaxing and cuddling for the night.

Athena: Works for me. We can finally move on with another thing our Polly's been thinking about here.

Apollo: What makes you think I was thinking about anything else?

Athena: Emotions. (Points Down at Widget) Widget. Remember?

Widget: (Red Screen) Be Honest, Apollo!

Apollo: ('Sighs Heavily') Fiiiiine....So maybe I was thinking about the time I falsely accused you on court that day....

Athena: (Soft Glares at her Boyfriend) Are you serious right now?

Apollo: Yes! (Took a Deep Breath) Look, I know all of that happened a while ago, but.....I can't help but to feel bad, you know? I practically turned on you.

Athena: (Got up and Gently Grab Both of Apollo's Hands) You were only trying to find the truth of what really happened that day. So was everyone else in the court. And I understood that.

Apollo: Y-Yeah. But-

Athena: (Gently Squeezes Apollo's Hands) But nothing. Apollo, I promise you that I never blamed you for all of this, even now. So please don't worry.....(Gives Apollo a Kiss on the lips) Okay?

Trucy: (Frown a Little) She's right, Polly. It's not healthy to worry too much about past mistakes. That's why we need to keep moving forward.... together.

Apollo: (Finally Nodded in Agreement) You guys are right. I'll try not to think about it anymore for you both your sakes.

Athena: (Smiles Brightly as she Continues Cuddling with her boyfriend's should on her side) Thank you!~ Everything's going to be okay, babe. I promise.

Apollo: (Chuckles Lightly) I believe you. I'm just glad to have you guys in my life.

Trucy: Aww~ Really?

Apollo: Yeah. I mean, you two, Mr. Wright, Ema, Klavier, Pearls, and Maya are just practically family to me just like Clay was, you know?

Trucy: (Heart Begins to Melt) Polly....Thank you. (Snuggles close to Apollo's Shoulder on her side once more) I'm sooooo happy you agreed to be my big brother~

Athena: (Snuggles close to Her Boyfriend's Shoulder on her side) And I'm a million times happy to have you as my cute, dorky boyfriend~

Apollo: (Rolled his Eyes with a Smile on his face) Uh-huh....I love you guys.

Athena/Trucy: We love you too, Polly~

@apollo-justice-for-all

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@26shann

@chompycroc

#ace attorney #apollo justice #athena cykes #trucy wright #lots and lots of fluff here #hurt/comfort #a bit of angst #apollo x athena #justicykes #trucy is the best little sister to polly #cuddling & snuggling #heartwarming #have to edited it again to make it perfect. sorry about that

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oniusagimaru · 6 years

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[Akutagawa/Atsushi Fanfiction] Collide (6/?)

Title: Collide Pairings: Akutagawa/Atsushi, Akuatsu Author: Oniusagimaru Rating: T Warnings: None Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters Summary: All it takes is one chance meeting and Atsushi’s life slowly becomes tangled up in Akutagawa Ryuunosuke’s. This has to be some kind of cosmic joke. A/N: Someone needs some comfort.

[10:09 PM]: look! look! I Rolled my first SSR! [10:09 PM]: [PHOTO ATTACHED] [10:10 PM]: (＾▽＾)

Akutagawa Ryuunosuke [10:13 PM]: Now you can finally take that crappy R off your team Akutagawa Ryuunosuke [10:14 PM]: Also change your damn friend support idol Akutagawa Ryuunosuke [10:14 PM]: Maya’s stats suck

[10:14 PM]: she has decent stats! [10:14 PM]: and her art is cute! [10:15 PM]: WAIT DOES THAT MEAN YOU’LL FINALLY ADD ME??? Σ(･口･)

Akutagawa Ryuunosuke [10:17 PM]: …Maybe

[10:17 PM]: (ﾉ≧∀≦)ﾉ

Akutagawa Ryuunosuke [10:18 PM]: You are so goddamn annoying

Atsushi can’t help but snicker as he stares at his phone, because Akutagawa has typed those very same words to him numerous times so now there doesn’t feel like there’s real bite behind them.

After the visit to the Akutagawa’s apartment, the shift in their relationship was very apparent the next day. When the other approached him after class, Atsushi had been shocked. He asked if he was aware of the event going on in the game, to which Atsushi just shook his head, too stunned to answer. With a huff, Akutagawa dragged him to the courtyard where he shoved him onto one of the benches.

Once he sat himself down next to him, he took out his phone to explain the rules of the event. Truth be told, Atsushi was only half listening, so the scowl he received was deserved. The fact that Akutagawa was talking to him out in the open like a normal (although rough) human being really threw him for a loop. Sure, he expected something, but so soon? Akutagawa threatens to leave since he wasn’t paying attention, but Atsushi quickly apologized so he didn’t end up chasing him.

And so began their new ‘relationship’.

Akutagawa would pester him after class about the game, saying that if he wanted to get any better he needed to keep playing. At first, their meetings were limited to the courtyard, but they always seemed to attract confused looks from students and teachers alike. It’s not like he didn’t understand; if he saw two people who only ever argued and brought out the worst in each other suddenly acting civil, bickering, but still civil, he’d be confused as well. So he wasn’t surprised when Akutagawa told him they’d be moving location, adding that he wasn’t a fan of all the unwanted attention.

Okay, he was surprised, but the other’s reasoning made sense to him. Sometimes they’d alternate between apartments since it was the easiest alternative, other times they’d end up in cafes since Akutagawa didn’t like the tea Atsushi made whenever he came over. ‘This is what tea is supposed to taste like’ was what he said every time, and Atsushi always grumbled into his cup because, goddammit, it was good tea. Of course, he never gave Akutagawa the satisfaction of knowing he was right.

When they were at Akutagawa place, Atsushi spent half the visit trying to get on Rashomon’s good side. After a few minutes of staring, the dog always ignored him in favor of curling up near Akutagawa’s leg. It was an amusing sight, especially after learning that Akutagawa originally didn’t like the dog. Gin confused that she found Rashomon in an alleyway a couple of years ago, and her brother had been none too pleased about it. Akutagawa muttered that all he did was teach him a couple of tricks and suddenly the dog was attached to him at the hip, but Atsushi felt like there was more to it than that.

The more time he spent around Akutagawa, the more he began to realize that the other didn’t like showing any range of emotions that didn’t fall under angry or indifferent. Whenever it looked as if he’d express anything outside of those two, he’d scoff, playing it off like it was nothing before averting his gaze elsewhere or covering his mouth. It was the strangest thing, so when not playing the game, he found himself stealing glancing over at Akutagawa whenever he could. If he could decipher what each little movement of the other actually meant, it’d make trying to understand him a little better go a lot smoother.

Plus, he could add it to the paper, even if it did come off as a little…creepy.

One thing above all Atsushi noticed was how Akutagawa changed whenever Dazai was around or mentioned. It went beyond sitting in the front row whenever he gave a lecture, Atsushi had already noticed that. No, it was like…you could feel the shift in the air, and Atsushi couldn’t help but feel awkward whenever it happened. One incident had jarred him so much that he began to question what their relationship was. He’d been waiting for Akutagawa near the building entrance for more than 30 minutes, and since the other was running late he didn’t see a problem with looking for him. The last text he got said that Akutagawa talking with Dazai, so he headed for the teacher’s office with the intent of waiting outside.

As soon a he rounded the corner, he stopped dead on his tracks. Atsushi watched as Dazai emerged from his office followed by Akutagawa, and Dazai turned on his heel to share a word with the other. From the distance he couldn’t hear what was being said, but that wasn’t important…the look Akutagawa was giving him was what mattered. The tension in his face and shoulders has lessened, and his mouth…even if he could only see his profile, the corner of his lips looked as if they were turn upward ever so slightly. It was a smile… Akutagawa Ryuunosuke was smiling, however small it was, and Atsushi could only stare dumbly.

The moment their eyes met Akutagawa reverted to his usual self, as if nothing had happened at all. Atsushi scolded the other for being late, but he uttered not a word of what he saw. For two months they continued their little meetings, and every now and then Atsushi would think about that day. What had Dazai said to make him smile? Or was it the mere presence of his teacher that made Akutagawa feel at ease? It was truly a dilemma: he wanted to know, but at the same time it was probably best if he didn’t.

[10:19 PM]: OH! [10:19 PM] You’re working, sorry for disturbing you ( ´ △ ｀)

Akutagawa Ryuunosuke [10:20 PM]: I got off work early so it’s fine Atsushi lets out a sigh, thankful he hasn’t bothered Akutagawa due to his own excitement.

In the beginning he really had tried to text the other only when he needed help with the game, but Atsushi slipped up. All it took was one random photo of an alley cat, one absentminded text, and he was sure Akutagawa was going to delete his number for sure. When he received an ‘ok’ as a reply two hours later, Atsushi knew he managed to dodge a bullet. Then Akutagawa texted him randomly at a different point, and it all just snowballed from there. They talked about whatever was on their minds, much to Atsushi’s surprise, and it was kind of nice having someone to text other than Kyouka.

Turning over on his futon, Atsushi texts that he hopes Akutagawa has a safe trip home, to which he is told to stop worrying about him and worry about the leveling the SSR he just got. With a snort, he connects his phone to the charger near his futon, and he tries his best to get comfortable. He has two tests to take in the morning, one of which is for Kunikida’s class. The man is a stickler for punctuality, and heaven forbid you had the audacity to show up late to his class on a test day. Atsushi is not a morning person, so the sooner he fell asleep the better.

All he remembers is closing his eyes, and the next minute he’s jolted awake by the sound of his phone vibrating loudly. In a drowsy haze, he blindly feels for it, fingers fumbling with it once they finally brush against it. The bright light from the screen causes him to hiss, his eyes squinting as he tries to make out the notification that had awoken him. Some part of him hopes it’s a weather alert saying that morning classes were canceled due to a nasty storm blowing in, but he knows that’s too far-fetched to happen in his lifetime.

Akutagawa Ryuunosuke [3:01 AM]: Come to the park Akutagawa Ryuunosuke [3:04 AM]: Never mind Akutagawa Ryuunosuke [3:04 AM]: Ignore this

He stares at the texts, blinking a few times as his mind begins to slowly process them. The first thing he notices is the timestamp…who the hell texts at three in the goddamn morning? With a groan, Atsushi sits up, a loud yawning escaping him as he rubs his eyes. Now Atsushi could very well ignore Akutagawa’s text like the last one instructs, he could curl back up on his futon and decided to yell at the other for once class starts for waking him up.

But…a part of him, the part that cares too damn much about everyone for his own good, won’t allow him to. Concern bubbles up inside of him, because Akutagawa may text him randomly, but he’s never done so this late before. What if something’s wrong? He won’t be able to live with himself if he ignores the text and something happens to the other, so with a sigh he rolls out of his futon. He checks on Kyouka before making his way to the front door, and he sends a ‘I’m on my way’ text before slipping his phone into his pocket. Atsushi hesitates for a second, wondering if he should-

No. He’s already made his decision. Stepping out of the apartment, he locks the door behind him before setting off. The nearest park is about 20 minutes away on foot, and instead of being annoyed about the distance, he focuses on just getting there. He’s never been out this late before (he’s never had a reason to) so of course he’s nervous, and damn near jumps at very sound, no matter how minor. The sudden clatter of a trashcan lid hitting the ground damn near gave him a heart attack, and he almost turns around to sprint back home.

Gripping the phone in his pocket, Atsushi doesn’t stop, driven by the mere fact that he hasn’t received a single message since leaving the apartment. Despite how often the two of them still argue, Atsushi can admit that his dislike for Akutagawa isn’t as strong as before. Did he still get on his nerves? Absolutely. This, however, does not dull the concern he has for him, because Akutagawa might be a royal pain in the ass, but Atsushi believes there’s a decent human being buried underneath all that hostility.

Making his way into the park, he hopes Akutagawa isn’t wandering around and has seated himself at their usual bench. The vending machine next to it is the only reason they took a liking to the spot, though it did provide a good amount of shade during those days when the sun became too much. He tries not to let the eeriness of the park get to him too much, but there’s a stark difference between visiting this place in the evening verses now. Every rustle of greenery makes it look as if something is moving out of the corner of his eye, like the shadows themselves are trying to get him. It’s creepy and just makes him want to run home even more.

He finally slows once he sees a familiar somebody sitting where he’d hoped he would, a nearby streetlight illuminates his figures just enough for Atsushi to see him. Akutagawa has always looked pale, but the lighting makes him look ghostly. Had Atsushi not been looking for him, he probably would’ve been scared out of his mind at the specter he’d come across. But instead of feeling terror, feels a wave of relief wash over him.

“Hey,” he calls out, and the other’s body seems to jerk.

Akutagawa quickly looks up from his lap, his eyes widening as he stares at him.

“You…actually came.”

“I said I would.” Atsushi says as he seats himself next to him. “Besides, if I ignored your texts and something happened to you, I feel like your vengeful spirit would haunt me for the rest of my life…I don’t need that kind of stress in my life.”

Snorting, Akutagawa looks away as he covers his mouth, and Atsushi thinks that’s probably the closest he’ll get to seeing the other laugh. Atsushi wanted to lighten the mood a little, because Akutagawa body seemed so tense he feared the other might snap in half. It helps to some degree, but once the other regains his composure, there’s something hanging in the air.

“So…what are you doing out here so late?” Atsushi asks, and Akutagawa tenses again.

“…Couldn’t sleep.”

He can’t tell if that’s a lie or not, but Atsushi still hums in acknowledgment. Things go silent, and it and with each passing second it becomes clear that Atsushi doesn’t know how to deal this situation. Akutagawa had called him out for a reason, but with so little information to go on, Atsushi can’t fathom why. He could be direct and ask, but Akutagawa doesn’t seem all that talkative at the moment. Not to mention he isn’t sure how much truth will come out of the other’s mouth, so…Atsushi doesn’t say a thing.

After a while he buys the two of them canned coffee from the vending machine, decaf since it’s still so ungodly early. The air is heavy, but it’s not uncomfortable, so much so that Atsushi nods off a few times. He catches himself a second before his head falls on Akutagawa’s shoulder. He mutters a small apology before straightening up, and after a long yawn, he can see the other eyeing him oddly.

“…When…I was in high school…” he hears Akutagawa mutter, and Atsushi feels very much awake. “Dazai use to be one of my teachers…”

Atsushi’s goes stiff. He knows there’s weight behind that name, knows this is something important so he needs to listen carefully.

“I…he helped me out for three years, even when I was being difficult…So, when I heard he accept a job at a local college, I…”

He doesn’t need to finish, Atsushi can piece together the rest. For three years Dazai had been…a mentor? Someone Akutagawa clearly looked up to, and when given the chance to follow that person, he did so. Atsushi doesn’t dare to ask just what Dazai had helped him with, he doesn’t need to know, because Akutagawa had opened up to him of his own volition. That means more to him than getting details. He contemplates what he’s just been told, wonders what he should say next, because this is a situation he never dream up- oh. With a quick pinch, Atsushi confirms that he is not in fact dreaming.

“Is…that why you couldn’t sleep-?”

“No.”

“Wait, then why did you tell me all that?”

“I owe you something since you came all the way out here when you didn’t have to, so I gave you a piece of information for your paper since you’re always fishing for some anyways,” Akutagawa mutters as he rubs the back of his neck.

“I…see…” Atsushi says as he absentmindedly fiddles with the can of coffee in his hands, “I never took for that kind of guy…You know, there’s a phrase for that…”

“What? ‘Blinded by kindness’-?”

“’Hot for teacher’.”

Akutagawa spits out his coffee, and Atsushi blames the exhaustion for his loose lips. Slapping his hand over his mouth, he watches as the other coughs into his own, and Atsushi feels nothing but mortification. Not only has he killed the mode, but there’s a good chance Akutagawa might kill him, so he needs to think of something to say before that happens. From the glare the other gives him, he only has a matter of seconds to do so.

“What the hell did you just say?” Akutagawa growls out once he finally catches his breath.

“I am, so, so sorry, that was completely out of line, but you really made it sound like you followed your high school crush to college.”

Atsushi scooches away from Akutagawa slightly, but it’s the anger in his face that stops him from looking away. No…upon closer inspection, the look on the other’s face isn’t purely anger. The lighting isn’t great, but he can still see just how flushed Akutagawa’s cheeks are. He’s embarrassed, but given that Atsushi has just accused him of having a crush on Dazai, his reaction is understandable. Akutagawa looks away with a click of his tongue, and as he crosses his arms, Atsushi knows he needs to take responsibility and fix the situation. There’s only one way to do so, but he’s willing to go that far since Akutagawa did the same for him.

“Um…throughout most of high school, I was bullied,” he says, eyes lowered as he swallows hard. “I’m not really sure why they picked on me, but they were pretty ruthless sometimes.”

He watches the other, watches for any sign the he understood what Atsushi just did. Akutagawa’s jaw is still tight, but his shoulders begin to sag before he finally uncrosses his arms. The silence that hangs in the air isn’t uncomfortable, it’s more…thoughtful than anything, and for Atsushi that’s fine. He thinks the two of them need a minute to just be, because now they’ve both given the other a taste of something personal. ‘For the paper’ he thinks to himself, but that logic is starting to sound flimsy even to him for some reason.

“…So, now we’re even. I still want to hit you for that teacher comment…” Akutagawa says with a huff.

“That’s fair,” Atsushi mutters into his coffee can before taking a sip.

For a quick second he thinks he should brace himself from a strike, but Atsushi doesn’t feel any real malice behind the other’s words. Akutagawa stands slowly, and Atsushi watches as he tosses his can in a nearby recycling bin. Atsushi takes this as a sign that he’s ready to head home, but he stays seated until the other makes a move. He doesn’t expect Akutagawa to turn to him, an unreadable expression on his face as slides his hands into his pants pockets.

“…Thanks.”

Atsushi feels like the wind just got knocked out of him. He stares wide eyed at Akutagawa who, with no hint of smugness or irritation, has just thanked him. He doesn’t say another word as he turns on his heel, and Atsushi watches his retreating back disappear into the darkness.

He has a lot to think about on his way back home…

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Misconceptions, Miscommunication, and Misinformation Pt47

Inspired by @ozmav Maribat AU

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Damian sat in the apartment, suited up as Robin, and waiting for Ladybug to show up so he could call Oracle. They’d decided that it would be better if everyone thought they only knew each other as heroes for now, to stop any questions they wouldn’t be willing to answer. Marinette didn’t want her identity compromised and since she didn’t know Damian was a Wayne he felt it best if his family wasn’t given a reason to compromise their own identities by giving away his. He fully expected one of them, likely Todd, to make that mistake anyway which was another reason to hope this business would be concluded quickly.

Ladybug entered through the balcony, slightly out of breath. He raised an eyebrow at her but she just shrugged at him. Most likely she and Chloe had lost track of time. Alone, neither was very punctual, together you were lucky if they remembered they were supposed to be somewhere at all.

“Are you ready for me to call Oracle?” She hesitated before answering and Damian wasn’t certain he wanted to know why. Eventually she just nodded at him, but he had a feeling whatever was on her mind would make an appearance once they were done. But he hit the send button quickly just in case she changed her mind. Oracle picked up immediately.

“Robin are you going to be available to accept a delivery there around six in the evening tomorrow?” Damian couldn’t help but frown. Gordon didn’t ever just get down to business.

“Hello to you too.” Oracle just blinked at him while Ladybug hit his arm.

“Look, I’m about to tie Red Robin’s record for days without sleep so my etiquette is a bit lax. Can you be free to accept the delivery or not?” Damian could hear the strain in her voice. They’d refused to keep him updated on what was happening in Gotham because they were afraid if he left Ladybug wouldn’t let him back into Paris. He’d tried to explain that wasn’t going to happen but none of them would listen.

“Yes I can. What exactly are you sending and why?” It was bad enough that they kept him in the dark about Gotham, but she and Drake weren’t really keeping them apprised of what they’d found out about Paris and their quest to find Hawkmoth. It was unacceptable.

“Didn’t Red Robin update you?” It took everything he had not to throw a knife at the screen.

“I wouldn’t be asking you if he had. No one’s given any sort of progress update and while I’m used to your complete lack of professionalism it’s beyond bad taste to leave Ladybug out of the loop on your investigation of her city.” He watched her let out a tired sigh and rub some tension out of her neck. He’d feel bad if anyone had bothered to talk to him.

“I apologize Ladybug. I was under the impression that you knew what we were looking at. As you’re aware our focus is finding out Hawkmoth’s identity. The data you gave us was very comprehensive so we were able to narrow down to a specific part of the city quickly. Within that section is a blind spot where one of your primary suspects is. I’m sending Robin some cameras and other surveillance devices to place there so we can gather more data.” Ladybug let out a sad sigh.

“Gabriel Agreste.” It wasn’t a question but Oracle nodded anyway. Ladybug looked at him and he could see exhaustion. “Do you think you can wire his office? Video and sound if possible. If we’re going to get any useful information it’ll be in there.”

“It would be best if I can get him out of the house.” She hummed in agreement.

“There’s a fashion show featuring up and coming talent this weekend. I believe he’s planning to attend, but I’ll try to make it a certainty.” Damian felt his eye twitch. He’d completely forgotten about the show. He knew she was working for pieces to show in it but hadn’t asked when it actually was. Was that something he was supposed to ask? Either way it looked like he’d be missing it now.

“Have you found anything else useful?” Oracle just glared at him.

“Given Ladybug’s wish for us to not look to closely into her or her partner’s movements there isn’t much to find. The Akumas never appear when Gabriel is out of the country and we haven’t found any patterns to the one that are created that Ladybug hasn’t already mentioned. As of right now we just need concrete proof that Agreste is Hawkmoth.” Damian noticed Ladybug rubbing her temple and knew that she didn’t really need any more proof but she did feel the need to get it so she’d be able to justify her actions to others. “Oh, there is one other thing. Not long after his wife disappeared Agreste paid for a lot of work on his house but we can’t find out what was done. Bets are that missing construction is involved somehow.”

“Send me the name of the contractor and we’ll see what we can find.” That was actually a promising lead that would allow him to do something. Oracle just nodded absently and he felt his phone buzz as she sent him the information.

“If there’s nothing else, I should try and sleep.” He looked to Ladybug who just frowned in thought.

“No, I don’t think there’s anything else. Thank you for your help.” Damian ended the call and Marinette detransformed. She really did look tired. “I was hoping I was wrong, but he’s the only one that ever really made sense.”

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