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tsukiyon · 2 years

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I'm trying to keep myself so hard since it is literally fiction and not real but there is insanely toxic people in Akayona fandom, it is hard to ignore them after some point. I don't even care about getting bashed by the whole fandom at this point, i love Yona and i'm not a big fan of neither Hak or Soo-won nor the romance in series so block me if you are uncomfortable with that. This fandom has stupid double standards when it comes to only Yona and Yona ONLY, no matter what she does she is always the worst character just because she is a female protagonist and some people trying to hide behind "meaningful"(!) excuses for hating her is even funnier.

The dragons got their powers from dragon gods which means they are semi-gods, yet we don't see them beating up the villain for at least once. Kija swings his hand for a second, Jaeha breaks the ground with his foot for ONCE and they are already done. Shin-ah is already useless once he uses his eyes and look; Zeno, who is supposed to be the strongest character, a goddamn immortal yet we have never seen him ACTUALLY fighting ever. Yet, look at Hak who is a DEADLY wounded HUMAN in latest war but he doesn't die no matter what happens, instead he kills the whole ass army? On his own?? Honestly i won't be suprised at this point if it gets revealed that if Hak is immortal and stronger than Zeno. And then Yona kicking a man just for once after days of training and that becomes "unrealistic", of course, i mean it is Yona and not Hak.

I don't remember if it is ever mentioned in manga that Soo-won studied things such as politics or wars. Nor he was even worked as governor for training like how usually happened in history. And yet, in Fire Tribe Arc where he had literally 0 experience he already won a war. Don't get me wrong, i believe some people has intelligent mind about some certain topics that they are suited to do naturally but it is weird how it was obvious that Yona wasn't even going to lead the army, she was going there just for the needed support due to Soo-won's condition and people already started to shitting about her before the war even started, nobody gave her a chance and waited her to "experience" whereas no one had a problem when the same happened to Soo-won.

I don't have time to reread manga and i don't like talking about these kind of things either since i'm more of the type of person to use fiction as a way of inspiring and expressing myself. Akatsuki No Yona isn't perfectly written however i still loved it, because how it focuses on the suffering of those people who are waiting desperately for someone to hear their voices and how influentially it conveys their emotions despite being a fictional series with fantasy elements. Yona is a special character for me because she inspired and made me a much better person when i was still a fresh teenager who couldn't find any value in living and had no idea about how to find courage in myself and live for other people. So that is why i genuinely can't understand it, how people can constantly keep hating on Yona when she literally just breathes. She appears in a panel and the fandom is already like "STUPID YONQAA BOHOGOASHH YOU DON'T SHOW YOUR LOVE TO HAK AND YOU BREATJED THE SAME AIR AS SOO WON 😡😡 YOU B*TCH" I have even seen somebody stubbornly keep repeating that Hak is underrated and gets the most hate in fandom. Lol, no. The most hated character is Soo-won, followed by Yona.

I've written this to get rid of the stress inside of me after seeing a toxic *i usually hate using this word but honestly they deserve at this point* Hak stan on Kusanagi's Twitter again. I didn't care at allback then when i saw them in a platform for the first time and thought they just like a character probably because of special reasons just like how i love Yona but no, they are calling themselves a Hakyona fan yet never stops shitting on Yona because she doesn't show love to Hak enough. They even said Yona is fine about being engaged to Soo-won...? Look, i don't even care about the romance in manga, but this really sounds like a joke and i'm questioning if we are reading the same manga. You can like romance or simp for your favorite male characters HOWEVER obviously, if they aren't the main priority in this manga, stop hating on a fictional female character whenever she breathes, it is not normal. I don't even understand how you can ship the very special love of your life with a character you hate to death. I actually even think it is because they see Yona as self insert at this point lol. Yona has her own character so if you want to see her smooching with Hak 24/7, go write your own reader fanfics and make fanarts of yourself and Hak. Calling her Mary Sue or "perfect" then hating her for not being "perfect" and having normal human traits doesn't make any sense at all. She is not only just an 16 year old girl trying to stand on her own feets after losing both of her parents, but also someone that is trying to be light of hope for her people despite already having enough issues for herself. I'm not even talking about how the family she found after losing everything she had, passed off her condition by saying things like "Yona is strong, she can do it" when she was suffering with her trauma all alone in castle.

Hak is an adult man, not a child. Yes, they are a couple but they can't flirt 24/7 for the sake of your stupid fantasies that craves nothing other than cringe romance, especially when the manga is built on a fantasy world that focuses on serious topics from real life.

#leave yona alone #i can already see the hak simps coming at me after posting this but i dont care at this point #literally hating on yona whenever she breathes is okay but hak is our sexy perfect boy so his character cannot be wrong any kind of way #i wish i could like hak and hakyona but i was very unlucky i started seeing this shit since i read the first chapter of manga #if you are uncomfortable by the things i said please just block me im tired #akatsuki no yona #yona #hak #soo won #cant believe i actually ended up writing this #but i feel somewhat relaxed #it shows just how much i was trying to keep it inside so i did the good thing anyways #yona of the dawn

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forgetme-eternally-blissfully · 1 year

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Choi Han sees a weird stick in Cale’s hair.

“Oh, wait Cale-nim, let me…” With the slight height advantage, Cale doesn’t actually have a choice but to let the swordmaster do as he wishes.

For moment he fiddles around, trying to grab the elusive, tangled object, when he suddenly feels Cale lean into his hand. He watches with bated breath as Cale closes his eyes.

(‘Ah, I’m so tired that I’m leaning on Choi Han. Aigoo, he must think I’m pathetic.)

Choi Han spends another minute to get the stick out, claiming that it was particularly stuck in his long hair. He burns this memory into his mind while also promising to never tell another soul.

Eruhaben is next. He notices the red head’s soft locks, freshly washed and neatly air-dried with magic. As a dragon, he doesn’t think twice about the temptation, standing from his spot on the couch to test if Cale’s hair is even half as soft as it appears to be.

It is, he learns.

(Cale shivers. Is Eruhaben threatening him? Just in case, Cale bows his head to hide his fearful expression.)

The dragon watches with amusement, thinking that it’s only natural to offer one’s head to a dragon as powerful as him. Until he feels Cale almost… press into his palm absentmindedly. Eruhaben vividly feels the exact moment that his heart melts into a puddle of affection.

He definitely will use this against the bastard next time he has the opportunity.

Oddly, On and Hong figure it out next. Cale is sitting in his usual chair, reading a book with his hair falling into his face picturesquely. On recalls when Rosalyn did her hair up with a pretty pin, making it easy to move around without getting in her face.

On considers if Cale would mind On experimenting a little, immediately coming to the conclusion that he wouldn’t give two shits.

She transforms into her human form and moves behind the chair. Of course, Cale doesn’t bat an eye at her unusual movements. When she gathers his hair up in her hands, he doesn’t miss a beat, leaning back to give her better access. He only changes the angle of his book so he can still read. Hong observes his sister from Cale’s lap with curiosity.

Her upbeat attitude is ruined quickly because she doesn’t know how to braid nor tie up hair, and is missing the necessary bows and pins to do it in the first place. She runs her fingers through his vibrant red hair as she tries to remember what Rosalyn did.

Hong’s eyes go wide. Cale had stopped reading as his sister continued her ministrations, closing his eyes and leaning back, relaxing into his seat. Hong urgently signals for his sister to witness this.

Her eyes narrow in on the sight with a calculating gaze. She changes the way her hands run through his hair, simply running her fingers through and carefully untangling it instead. Cale’s face gradually loses its constant pinch.

(‘Yes, the children should do whatever they want, even play with my hair.’ Cale internally nods to himself.)

On, unlike Choi Han or Eruhaben, tests her limits. She continues her gentle pattern without pausing. After a few minutes, both of the cats hear Cale’s breathing taper away into a relaxed rhythm. On silently makes eye contact with her brother, and they make a secret promise to not make a big deal about this, lest this trick never work again.

They hear Ron before he enters the room and On casually returns to her car form, stealthily and softly landing on Cale’s lap. Ron enters, pausing at the sight of his puppy young master.

Smiling benignly, he darkly assumes that Cale had been so exhausted that he managed to fall asleep in the middle of reading.

On and Hong don’t correct him.

If Cale has an especially bitter lemon tea that night, he doesn’t make a big deal about it. Not when the crown prince calls him soon after it arrives.

He arrives at the palace where the Crown Prince learns of this spreading secret. Cale uses his superior glib tongue to force a frown on Alberu’s exhausted expression, and the exasperated hyung sighs, walking around to the couch where his dongaeng is sprawled. He places a hand on his shoulder, threatening Cale with a high political position if he doesn’t stop doing dangerous things and causing trouble.

Cale shudders and agrees. Alberu smiles at this, his hand moving to ruffle his adorable dongsaeng’s hair.

(Cale sighs, closing his eyes and humoring his affectionate hyung. He leans back, questioning why everyone has been so touchy lately.)

Alberu feels his heart stop and stutter at the fragile sight. Cale looks completely at ease, slumped in the couch cushions and pressing his head into Alberu’s palm like a cat. His lip is quirked up slightly, but Alberu would bet a golden plaque that Cale hasn’t a single idea on what he looks like right now, otherwise he wouldn’t be even half as relaxed as he is right now.

He resembles a lazy cat. He’s being pet whilst lounging, with a content and pleased expression edging on his face. If this goes on long enough, Cale might even fall asleep.

Alberu continues talking without letting his smile leak through into his words, stroking the top of Cale’s head in an absent minded motion.

(Cale ignores the sneaking chill on the back of his neck, too focused on Alberu’s words about the kingdom. The petting is a bit strange, but Alberu is the crown prince, so he’ll allow it.)

As predicted, Cale doesn’t mention it.

After a minute though, Cale starts to frown, beginning to acknowledge the feeling that he’s being scammed somehow.

“Hyung, do you have a headache?”

Alberu acts like a polite and caring hyung, starting to massage Cale’s head.

(Cale frowns more. Something is definitely going on.)

Cale opens his eyes, protesting. “Your highness, my health is perfect at the moment. You, our shining sun, couldn’t possibly-“ Alberu changes from massaging to running his fingers through Cale’s hair.

(Cale sighs, cutting off. It was just a ploy to play with Cale’s hair. He should’ve expected his highness to scam him in this way too.)

Alberu grins when Cale stops talking, looking resigned to his fate. He goes completely limp, and Alberu’s blunt fingernails scratch against Cale’s scalp gently. Cale visibly shudders at the feeling.

(‘Too scary, what if he scratches and draws blood? If Raon finds out, he’s going to feed me soggy apple pie…’)

Alberu preens at finding Cale’s weakness.

On slyly asks Rosalyn to do up Cale’s hair one day- as an experiment- and is extremely pleased when Cale not only agrees, but he closes his eyes and falls asleep soon after the Mage is done gently tugging his hair into place and adorning it with intricate pins and accessories. Choi Han walks in on this scene and threatens Rosalyn to keep it a secret (after melting a bit on the inside). She agrees with a sly smile.

If only Cale knew how everyone was going to use this to scam him in the future…

Eventually the misconception that Cale likes to have his hair played with goes around the entire group. Cale- of course- is completely clueless. He just thinks that everyone suddenly became obsessed with his hair.

Ron is the only one who can’t get Cale to relax. Even Bud somewhat managed it, but Cale stays vigilant no matter what his old butler does. Ron finds his puppy young master to be amusing.

Cale really doesn’t understand what they want with his hair. Do they want his hair?

(He asks Ron for a trim a few days later. Ron only cuts off the dead ends and leaves it neat but long, much to the young masters displeasure.)

#for the record cale is definitely somewhat enjoying it. he’s just oblivious to his own emotions #and rejects all ideas of enjoying physical affection. bc all he needs is his slacker life and nothing else #so if he gets used to the petting and feels more relaxed afterwards… it’s purely coincidental #tcf #I’ve been mimicking the writing style of tcf recently and I’m not sure if that’s a good or bad thing yet #… I should write smth and ask my sibling to peer review it and tell me if it’s better or worse than my style before #trash of the count’s family #lcf #lout of the counts family #cale henituse #choi han #eruhaben #on and hong #alberu crossman #rosalyn tcf #ron molan #not a reblog

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superfruitland · 9 months

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testing out new brushes on some sketchy leos

#rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt leonardo #rottmnt future leo #lee's art #live life extras #had a pretty shit day so i felt like doing something fun tonight #feeling somewhat accomplished cuz they look good and all #im gonna go relax now

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jils-things · 2 months

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to love someone is to heal someone

#~ art #♥️ memoryshipping #ignore tags if youre just here for the art and not me going full diary mode #anyways ... this is a little personal to me #especially with how i treat her here. i think this is a direct projection of how i'm feeling right now #today has been a little harsh on me - maybe a little painful even #i'm okay now - because i resolved it. albeit harboring some bits of anger to it but its not worth fighting about anymore #its hard to say that i'm - very optimistic so to speak because it's only one pillar i just jumped over and there will be more later #and this is me coping with it and im lucky to have mustered some energy to at least express it through drawing #i havent been drawing much for myself and it makes me sad because its my source of happiness #my time for drawing is being repurposed for other stuff right now and it still is and i dont feel entirely happy doing it unfortunately #i still have many things i want to follow up on my drawing list especially in my recent interests peaking again #but i resorted for now to making something im already used to. stevaide lol fgsjsddsjjsdjkghsdjgdjkhskjghshsgsasjhjsjksdjfhsfasgs corny ass #rest assured im at a somewhat relaxed state right now. throwing boops here and there calmed me down because theres people around me #who ig thinks im cool eajdhajhd #ahh anyway

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 10 months

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Im surprised that you haven't drawn anything laughingstock related based off of the new content lmao-

my guy! patience! i draw & create slowly, and i am still Absorbing and Resting!

#that and my brain's still a lil fucky from two migraines in one week - i am Trying to avoid a third!#spirits are high but the energy is low and some days i simply cannot scribble very much #i will get there when i get there!#rambles from the bog #and honestly i'd rather respond to some scribble-prompting asks first #the box is getting quite full #im nearly at 60!#im determined to stay somewhat on top of it with this blog!#as a sort of backwards apology to my other one... 630 asks strong.... eugh....#do i feel terrible about it? yes. yes i do #someday i may return...#welcome home may relax its death grip on my soul.... eventually....

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licorishh · 5 months

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For personal reasons I like to think Jing Yuan is narcoleptic and that's why he's constantly dozing off because my word the average human being is not slipping into unconsciousness as often as he does with as little intensive work as he has going on

#honkai star rail #hsr #jing yuan #hsr jing yuan #i feel like this makes sense because i've read all his lore and character stories and nothing ACTUALLY says he slacks off or is lazy #he “appears lazy” because he's somewhat languid and always sleepy but he's honestly incredibly tough and does work very hard #i feel like it's a bit of a disservice to call him an actual lazy moron because he really doesn't seem to be #he's careful and methodical and often that involves portraying himself as not having much drive but i imagine that's to keep up appearances #i mean everybody in-game knows he's an excellent leader so like what's the problem #also when i say “keeping up appearances” i mean subverting expectations #he's extremely laid-back i guess i should say. not lazy just very relaxed pfft #but yeah. narcoleptic jing yuan for the win i think

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araiz-zaria · 1 month

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