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tofixtheshadows · 3 days

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I've been thinking a lot lately about how Kabru deprives himself.

Kabru as a character is intertwined with the idea that sometimes we have to sacrifice the needs of the few for the good of the many. He ultimately subverts this first by sabotaging the Canaries and then by letting Laios go, but in practice he's already been living a life of self-sacrifice.

Saving people, and learning the secrets of the dungeons to seal them, are what's important. Not his own comforts. Not his own desires. He forces them down until he doesn't know they're there, until one of them has to come spilling out during the confession in chapter 76.

Specifically, I think it's very significant, in a story about food and all that it entails, that Kabru is rarely shown eating. He's the deuteragonist of Dungeon Meshi, the cooking manga, but while meals are the anchoring points of Laios's journey, given loving focus, for Kabru, they're ... not.

I'm sure he eats during dungeon expeditions, in the routine way that adventurers must when they sit down to camp. But on the surface, you get the idea that Kabru spends most of his time doing his self-assigned dungeon-related tasks: meeting with people, studying them, putting together that evidence board, researching the dungeon, god knows what else. Feeding himself is secondary.

He's introduced during a meal, eating at a restaurant, just to set up the contrast between his party and Laios's. And it's the last normal meal we see him eating until the communal ending feast (if you consider Falin's dragon parts normal).

First, we get this:

Kabru's response here is such a non-answer, it strongly implies to me that he wasn't thinking about it until Rin brought it up. That he might not even be feeling the hunger signals that he logically knew he should.

They sit down to eat, but Kabru is never drawn reaching for food or eating it like the rest of his party. He only drinks.

It's possible this means nothing, that we can just assume he's putting food in his mouth off-panel, but again, this entire manga is about food. Cooking it, eating it, appreciating it, taking pleasure in it, grounding yourself in the necessary routine of it and affirming your right to live by consuming it. It's given such a huge focus.

We don't see him eat again until the harpy egg.

What a significant question for the protagonist to ask his foil in this story about eating! Aren't you hungry? Aren't you, Kabru?

He was revived only minutes ago after a violent encounter. And then he chokes down food that causes him further harm by triggering him, all because he's so determined to stay in Laios's good graces.

In his flashback, we see Milsiril trying to spoon-feed young Kabru cake that we know he doesn't like. He doesn't want to eat: he wants to be training.

Then with Mithrun, we see him eating the least-monstery monster food he can get his hands on, for the sake of survival- walking mushroom, barometz, an egg. The barometz is his first chance to make something like an a real meal, and he actually seems excited about it because he wants to replicate a lamb dish his mother used to make him!

...but he doesn't get to enjoy it like he wanted to.

Then, when all the Canaries are eating field rations ... Kabru still isn't shown eating. He's only shown giving food to Mithrun.

And of course the next time he eats is the bavarois, which for his sake is at least plant based ... but he still has to use a coping mechanism to get through it.

I don't think Kabru does this all on purpose. I think Kui does this all on purpose. Kabru's Post Traumatic Stress Disorder should be understood as informing his character just as much as Laios's autism informs his. It's another way that Kabru and Laios act as foils: where Laios takes pleasure in meals and approaches food with the excitement of discovery, Kabru's experiences with eating are tainted by his trauma. Laios indulges; Kabru denies himself. Laios is shown enjoying food, Kabru is shown struggling with it.

And I can very easily imagine a reason why Kabru might have a subconscious aversion towards eating.

Meals are the privilege of the living.

#Dungeon Meshi #Delicious in Dungeon #Kabru #Kabru of Utaya #Laios Touden #Dungeon Meshi meta #you can have him in the tags too. as a treat.#Dungeon Meshi spoilers #this was directly inspired by livelaughlaios's post about Kabru self harming but I decided it got too long to make it a direct reply #this is a theory I've been working on for weeks because I kept noticing this while skimming for screencaps #I'm hesitant to trigger tag this because of the way certain subcultures on tumblr operate #but if anyone needs me to add a content warning please let me know #also I included image descriptions! I did my best #I think they even help illustrate my points but my god were they sad to write. Kabru is so fucking sad you guys #musings with Dea

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 23 days

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Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 5: Flip Slip.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 4.5)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #mdzs au #Yungmang Jiang Training Arc AU #lan wangji #wei wuxian #digital art #Trying out some digital techniques to see if I can get closer to feel/style of my traditional comics.#So far the biggest difference is *colouring* Digital colouring feels...not good. I have complained about this before and I'll complain agai #Before we get into the sad stuff with Yungmeng Jiang in the PD-MDZS comics lets have some lighthearted fun!#Remember that if anything bad happens to these Jiang disciples in the canon comic - they are happy in this AU B'*)#I think one of the funniest things about the teenxian dynamic is how WWX accidently finds things that get LWJ to feel flustered.#My guy wwx goes 'I'm going to lightly bully/tease this nerd 'cause his reactions are funny.' and LWJ goes “My god. He's everything to me.”#Part two of the fun part of this dynamic is that LWJ is ever so lightly self aware enough to LOATHE THIS CRUSH.#Hence why I have been marinating on this 'Accidental Lan headband miscommunication' concept.#This is how LWJ assumes that WWX knows what the band means in this AU. This will be relevant later.#And YES! I am still going to be making comics for this AU. I have so many ideas I simply can't hold onto forever.

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unpersoniverse · 3 months

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I saw a tweet that said Korra's only a softie around Asami and one thing led to another...

#totally inspired by taylor swift's song gorgeous #you know that line #you make me so happy it turns back to sad ??#these two before they got together #then they been dating so long and still look at each other and go😡 can't 😡 believe 😡 you're😡mine😡i 😡love😡you😡#god bless korrasami #yeah #korrasami #korra #asami sato #my art #fanart #tlok #avatar the legend of korra #atla #wlw #valentines day #these two being soft for and only each other are my weakness bye #they're in love your honor

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cactus-juiceee · 8 months

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epilogue

#SHES FINALLY OUT OF THE WIP FILES #thank god #hueegh epilogue yhk make me sick.. what do you mean their only happy ending was together and they sacrificed everything for that huh #just realizing I forgot to give han sooyoung glasses which is honestly a crime but #ough oh well #also im so sad I couldn’t do yhk week bc I was busy so think of this as my late contribution #anyway im finally free of rendering hell (has already started 10 billion other pieces that require rendering)#orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv spoilers #yoohankim #kim dokja #han sooyoung #yoo joonghyuk #yhk #cactusjuiceart

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udonli · 1 month

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poorly drawn piastri (the sequel); now with 100% more organic chemistry.

i’ll never stop thinking abt that karaoke video,,,, oscar heart-eyes piastri u will always be famous

#god i hate orgo #it makes me so sad genuinely #why am i premed i need a job where i get paid to draw my pookies all day #f1 #formula 1 #op81 #f1 fanart #oscar piastri #heart eyes piastri #poorly drawn piastri #udon art

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yangjeongin · 2 months

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HYUNJIN BIRTHDAY COUNTDOWN (2024): hyunjin in every letter... ↘ D-26 | EATING

#hwang hyunjin #hyunjin #stray kids #bystay #createskz #staysource #a9gifs #food cw #*gif #*hyunjin #*ccarly #*carly:hyunjin #*series:hjbday24 #this set makes me laugh....he's so funny #the one gif of him trying so hard to be normal vs all the others takes me out.#i also didn't blur [Sad] because it's so funny #god bless him

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heartorbit · 8 months

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a new world together

#project sekai #emu otori #pjsk #prsk #proseka #colorful stage #HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMU!!!!! MY BAYABTBTBTHTBTB MY ITTY BOTTY MY SILLY WILLY DAUGHTER MY DESTROYER OF WORLDS. HANDS HER A SWITLY LOLLIPOP.#🍭FOR YOU MY BEAUTIFUL SON. I LOVE MY BESUTIFUL SON.#i make bday profiles for all of wondershow but I FEEL LIKE I DIDNT DO AS GOOD ON EMUS. IM SAD. T_T IT'S STILL CUTE BUT... HEEEM.....#WAAAAAH WAAAUAUAUAUAUGUGUUHGU WAAAAAH #UEUEUUEUEE T____T!!!!!#i had to spark her bday card. i ammdown to 2000 gems. darkness fes here i come.#IM SO SAD I HAVE TO SKIP EMUS PAINTER CAAAAAARD ITS SO CUTE I LOVE IT SO MUUUCH ill draw the outfit lots.... snimiffle. and hope it comes #to me during color fest. About to go play more splatfest i had to finish this while its still the 9th FRYESWEEEEEP PLEASE BE IN THE LEEEEAD #EDIT I LIEEEEED PAINTER EMU IS MIIINE EHEHEHYEJEYEHEHEYEHEY #Peaches and love on planet earth:)#EDIT OH MY GOD IM SO SORRY FOR RUSHING THIS TO GO PLAY SPLATFE ST I DIDNT REALIZE HER RIGHT ARM IS SO MESSED HELPME its fine shes perfect

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skrs-cats · 9 months

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rut was really good im such a sucker for anything that just wants to be uplifting and genuine. so, here is them :3

#brightheart #cloudtail #warrior cats #art #i wanted to draw the designs they used for the map but i cant find official ref sheets anywhere wahhjksdf #god whenever anyone makes a video w these two it never fails to make me cry.#swiftpaw too T-T #ALSO IM SO SORRY FOR TAKING SO LONG TO RESPOND TO THE LIONBLAZE ANSWERS YOU GUYS SENT #I WANTED TO ANSWER W DRAWINGS BUT CAUGHT UP W ART FIGHT AND I JUST. got burnt out w drawing lion #i think #which is a... problem that you can imagine #. how sad i am about

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flintbian · 9 months

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There's a disabled angel in good omens 🥺

#listen im only in episode two and i know there's some drama going down but im focusing on this lol #i love that not only do they show the angel using a wheelchair and being ambulatory #but they also visibly show them miracling innaccessibility issues so that they Can still use the chair #instead of just getting rid of the disability #part of my is conflicted bc im like... there's disabilities in heaven? and that makes Me sad bc my disability is hell and painful as fuck #But getting rid of disability in fantasy is eugenist crap and showing that god made a disabled angel is a net good thing #while it personally makes me sad to think if there was a heaven i could still be in pain all the time #not all disabilites are bad and need to be cured we're a wide spectrum and we've been fighting for disabled rep esp in fantasy for ages #it's objectively good my personal feelings about my own disability aside #part of me thinks it's cliche to say 'you were made perfect' bc they're an angel But it's not we literally havent had this type of rep lol #anyways it made me happy to see #and im so glad it's a power chair user that's ambulatory it's important for abled ppl to see that #anyways y'all keep your drama and spoilers off my post im not far in and im only talking about this shoo #oh also!! love the fantasy hover chair they use in heaven specifically too i wish we had that it kicks ass #p

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artheresy · 4 months

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IM ABOUT TO START UGLY CRYING, NO BIDY TALK TO ME I CANT I. CA N T

ITS MY BOY ITS MY BABY UGH I LOVE HIM

I woke up to this, the outcome of my dayhas already been decided I will ne crying

#hoyofair ty for this MEAL #I have been fed #i havent even watched the full thing and im already emotional #he makes me so sad #AND BABAH YINGXING LOOK AT HIM #LOOK AT THE BABY!!!!#god Im so #i love him so much #my heart is weighed down so heavily by my love for yingxing and blade #i love #hsr blade #hsr #honkai star rail #yingxing #hoyofair

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lil-vibes · 20 days

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was trying my hand at a shamura design and now im :((

#god they make me so fuking SAD #narinder bothered lambert (aksed once) for silk for a 'personal project' (he misses his sibling)#side not shamura is so very tall! narinder isnt short by any means yet they tower over him #drawing anthropomorphic spiders is so hard for me #i also sketched out witness allocer !! spider gang yuppie! yay!#my art #cotl #cotl narinder #cotl shamura #cotl fanart #bishop shamura

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paula-dot-jpg · 21 days

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Puffries!!!!!!!!!!! yippee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wahoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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birdricks · 5 months

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the really interesting thing about mortys fear of relying on rick is that it really does go both ways. like as much as hes afraid of needing rick... rick needs him just as much, if not more. and i think this ties into mortys fear of having to be responsible for ricks sadness.

there are SO many times where morty threatens to leave rick... just as rick constantly reminds morty that he can be replaced.

the difference is that morty COULD leave rick behind if he really wanted to. and he could probably be okay without him. but hell always come back to rick... because thats how hes meant to be. a mortys defining trait is how he will always put rick and his emotions first.

we can see this in evil morty and how he was able to escape the cycle simply by no longer caring about ricks feelings. what makes him different isnt being evil... its simply no longer prioritising the feelings of rick over his own.

like how many times do we see morty choosing to stay with rick despite everything rick puts him through? and i think this is partly where his forgiveness comes from. of course he does truly love rick and that plays into it, but hes also terrified of what might happen without him there to fall back on.

any time rick feels he might lose morty he spirals and lashes out in some weird manipulative way to keep morty reliant on him (which is ironically the very thing morty fears most).

and whenever he DOES lose morty for any amount of time he turns into a complete wreck. probably part of the fear of his own reliance on rick comes from knowing its largely manufactured by rick and not fully his own choice.

even WITH morty there to support him rick is incredibly prone to suicidal ideation and self destructive tendencies. its not hard to work out what would happen if morty was no longer around to cater to his emotions.

so he stays. of course its awful for him. but he does it. hes willing to sacrifice himself and his own emotions to save rick over and over again. because he knows what will happen if he doesnt.

#rick and morty #rnm spoilers #I HOPE TO GOD THIS MAKES SENSE. i had to rewrite it like 3 times #i feel like this kinda loses the point halfway thru but oouuguughhh. being responisble for ricks sadness. its all so paifnully real #hopefully the screenshots make sense too LOLLL #i have soooooo many thouhts abt this ep. i just wanted to get this thing out specifically #its hard to organise my thoughts properlyyyy like this but its hit me like crazy

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zevzevarainai · 2 years

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video game challenge: [3/7] male characters – Fenris (Dragon Age: II)

If there is a future to be had, I will walk into it gladly at your side.

#fenris #fenris dragon age #dragon age #da2 #daedit #da2edit #dragonageedit #dragon age 2 #da fenris #dragon age edit #gamingedit #vgc*#my gifs #my edit #mine #my sister gave me her game pass login so i can finally gif da2 #but god at what cost #(i only ever play da2 when im having a prolonged mental breakdown.)#i could not fit all the fenris lines i love. it is sad but i gotta make sacrifices.

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thealternatemind · 1 month

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trent, arriving at the blooming grove and seeing essek next to caleb: well this is an interesting turn of events

essek: dick too bomb 🤷🏻

#im on the finale of my c2 rewatch #god I’m going thru it so so slow cuz it’s gonna make me so sad to finish it again #but god the Trent fight is so good #critical role #caleb widogast #essek thelyss #shadowgast

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acrosstobear · 4 months

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figured that while we're all missing f1 i would share this incredible work of art set to Charles' music. the skaters are Kaitlin Hawayek and Jean-Luc Baker and this would have been their 23/24 free dance skated to Kyle (I Found You) by Fred again.. and AUS23 by Charles Leclerc.

for context, they have spent the last few years dealing with injuries and mental health issues and have chosen to step away from competition for the foreseeable future. they are so consistently stunning and special and magical and i'm heartbroken but hopeful that they will find peace in this decision.

#f1 #formula 1 #charles leclerc #figure skating #kaitlin hawayek #jean luc baker #am i crying? perhaps #they are the only dance team to ever make me feel in a way that tessa and scott did #like. in this shirt. come on. we still think about it i know we do #god im sad but this is just so unbelievably stunning #like. WORLD CHAMPIONS PERHAPS #ok bye

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