going crazy about an oc again. like it's my fault

this game literally sucks so much though :<

like i was just trying to have my sims go out on a date and get some pics and it was almost IMPOSSIBLE to get them to sit at the same time and i have free will off!!!! they kept standing up randomly like, stop!!! and sims always got in the mf way when i was trying to take photos. and i got no good pictures and it UPSETS me :///////

idk how gameplay girlies do it because honestly getting photos from just regular gameplay interactions is so hard. but im not gonna pose my sims for every single legacy post its just not happening lmao

this is the information that we had about D dog. that's the info on her page (put through a translator, but its accurate) regarding how she is with other animals, and during the interview reactivity was only mentioned as a possibility not as a known fact about this dog. only dog? no problem. no cats? even less of a problem. potential for reactivity? sure. it can happen with any dog. known aggression towards other dogs? why the hell are you waiting for people to apply and go through a fucking interview before letting them know a week later that they're not fit for this dog and that that's the reason why. all that does is give people false hopes and upset that could be avoided by clear, direct, honest communication of a dog's issues/challenges. i heard about the specific language/way of wording things shelters and rescues use but i had hoped it wouldnt be a universal thing, at least not something i'd experience myself. turns out i was wrong!

maybe im being immature and unfair to these people, they probably dont all have the same amount of knowledge of the dogs and communicating all that inbetween volunteers/workers/and us can be difficult. but im angry and im allowed to express that ffs.

Christopher Nolan making movies: I'm gonna make a film that is so confusing and non-linear

me and the work girlies having socialist convos at the end of the day

controversial opinion of the year is that i dont think barbie was that great bc its message was all over the place and also they didnt realize they had made kens the women in their story so it just seemed bizarrely misogynistic to me

ggghhg i hate vehiclessssssss ghghghhghhhhh [dies dies dies forever]

anyways. having fun with the album project thing I mentioned. Using the flat small brush from here for krita. One brush only, no undo button, all done on 1/54th of a 1.5k x 1k canvas. it's actually pretty therapeutic, I listen to the album I'm drawing while I draw it. This does mean that for AM I got to like. track 2 though and most of that was bc of formatting issues lol.

no srsly tho is like the concept of like letters to my younger self and knowing how your younger self would feel about your present self figurative or do ppl actually like have a connection with their younger self and remember things their younger self wanted and stuff like that???

wtf do ppl ask for on their bdays, this is so difficult goddamn

this is the most ridiculous and first-world problem to have but im trying desperately to think up anything that i could ask for this year bc my bday is coming up and my mother is asking for a wishlist from me, but all i can think of is either things she would judge me for (plushies, cute decor like figurines, etc) or expensive stuff like an external harddrive - i'll probably still put that on the list just in case fdsjkl my sister asked for some wickedly expensive stuff this year, maybe more than one person can go in on it together to get one for me oughhh i hate this though bc it makes me feel greedy and selfish fsfdjkl gifts stress me out so badly

im desperately wracking my brain to come up with maybe art supplies that i dont have yet but i think i have mostly everything that i can use for now and that is easily acquired (i dont want parents to have to go searching for shit online fdsjkl that makes them cranky w me) and that i can use without having to have five other tools at my disposal already so,,, augh. hrm. sigh.

good morning!! :3

i hate working here

there's some thoughts to be had about being vulnerable, having very little personal community and being okay with that, and needing to ask for support—and being lucky enough that teeny community can pull off that support but.... feeling the dearth of impersonal community.

havent had the brain space to think about all this yet and too sleepy to do it now but.

like so many others have said in better words than me: we need institutions of support. personal communities can't do it all. we need people who's jobs it is to care for others—and the deep social framework to accommodate that. because as much as the shitty asshole guy who doesn't have a personal community because he's a shitty asshole deserves and needs support, so do the people like me who, for one reason or another, choose not to have a personal community. either not a robust one or entirely one at all.

we need impersonal community support because personal community should not be a requirement.

istg one of these days.......

Being a 9-1-1 fox fan and a teacher is so interesting and fun bc we took our preschoolers to the local fire station today and one of my only thoughts was about the 118 going offline for a bit just to give local schools and daycares tours. Special interest brain rot.

uh oh sisters! the pit inside myself is desperately, violently begging to be filled, despite nothing on earth being strong enough to fill it!