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wilcze-kudly · 7 months

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The Gaang being 'bad parents' didn't ruin their characters.

I've seen this argument tossed around a couple times and it's honestly one of my least favourite criticisms of lok.

Katara (and Sokka but we have no confirmed kids for him, which seems unrealistic with how much game he had) lost their mother as children and their father was forced to abandon them when they were barely starting their teens. They were raised by their grandmother with little to no peers of their own age.

Aang did not know his parents and a huge chunk of his childhood was him being groomed into taking up the mantle of the avatar and mastering airbending. He also was isolated from other kids his age. His closest parental figure was Gyatso who was more of a teacher than a father. Also the Air Nomads were literally wiped out so that adds to the trauma pile.

I really don't think i have to talk about Zuko's family life here, but at least he had relatively positive parental figures in the form of Ursa (though i do have a burning personal dislike of ursa) and Iroh. Despite this his struggle around the subject of his family and his trauma relating to his upbringing was a focal point of his character arc.

Toph was raised in isolation by her asshole abelist parents who did not listen to her, sent people to capture and bring her back and then disowned her. (If my cursory understanding of 'the rift' is correct, I need to actually read it because i am unreasonably obsessed with the Beifong family.)

Where, pray tell, were they supposed to learn proper parenting skills? On their brief stint as child soldiers? While fighting a war as literal children?

There is the argument that they must've matured later in their lives, of course. But you can only recover so much from copious amounts of childhood trauma.

Being a bad parent doesn't necessarily make you a bad person. Sure it makes you a failure in an incredibly delicate and important aspect of human life but it doesn't make you a bad person. And saying that it does takes a lot of nuance out of the conversation.

Like, do you know how easy it is to fuck up a child?

Especially that the ways the members of the Gaang 'fucked up' as parents feel mostly in character.

Bumi was going to face some struggles with self worth due to being the firstborn child of the Avatar and arguably one of the most powerful waterbenders in history, while being a nonbender himself. That much was unavoidable, no matter how his parents approached the issue.

And Aang was obviously going to be over the moon when Tenzin was born. Think about it. He's literally the last of his people. He has no one else 'like him'. No one else to pass down the traditions, the teachings that Gyatso and everyone else he cared about and who were horrifically murdered to. Aang is getting older and he feels like his culture and history and his entire life before he got trapped in that damned iceberg will die along with him. And then Tenzin is born and Tenzin can take up the mantle that had been thrust upon Aang.

I'm going to withhold my judgement on Izumi and Zuko, since we barely know anything about them. She seems well adjusted but that's all i can say right now. But Zuko has also been shown to be extremely, painfully aware of how fucked up his family is and has clearly been putting in a lot of work to unscrew what his ancestors have screwed up.

Toph situation feels very tragic to me,because it's obvious that she thought she thought she was doing better than her parents. She gave her daughters the freedom to do what they want, to not feel opressed and trapped like she had. How was she supposed to know that she was making her girls feel like she didn't love them? (Here's another post of mine about the Beifong family and how they just feel like they're cursed or something at this point.)

TLDR; I get annoyed by people saying that the Gaang being 'bad parents' ruined their characters, because to me it felt like it actually enhanced them.

Neither Aang nor Toph acted out of malice or a lack of love. On the contrary, Toph was trying not to repeat her parents mistakes, accidentally committing a bunch of her own. While Aang probably didn't even realise that he was neglecting Kya and Bumi.

But just loving your children doesn't always make you a good parent.

I think these flaws only add to them as characters. It makes them feel more real.

It's unrealistic and, frankly, just plain boring to go 'oh the Gaang were all good people so they would be good parents too.'

The Gaang were a gaggle of traumatised children forced into saving the world, because the adults around them failed them, that then grew into traumatised adults who have no idea how to be good parents.

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demonbarberofbeepbeep · 23 days

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morning toddheads

#look he did have fun #he liked it #*walter white voice* he liked it. he was good at it #you know what i do think he loved her a little bit too #final scene is so sad #everything faaaaalllllsss apaaaart #i guess when i say i don't think sweenett is love #i do think they love each other in their ways #but the lie about lucy is so enormous #so central #to have lucy still alive and badly needing help #and have nellie continuously hide that from a man who is GRIEVING HIS WIFE #and trying to avenge her #it bothers me a lot #so i think the betrayal at her lying to him is multifold #it's not just you LIED to me #it's YOU lied to me #i thought you were on my side #all our confidences and tender moments had this lie beneath it #who are you #even #idk. i'm writing my fanfic and im in my feelings #their relatinoship is so complicated #what is love anyway #WHAT IS IS LOVE #baby don't throw me in the oven #in the oven #anymore #text post meme #sweenett

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oatbugs · 4 months

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Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it #it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper #provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the #interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after #50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked #his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it #he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from #when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has #his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever #but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how #we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe #cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna #back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed #practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence #we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one #who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted #to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say #goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art.#you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea?#if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa #the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding #his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.

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iphijaania · 1 year

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i think that after everything adam does genuinely try to have michael talk through his issues but at a certain point it stops being therapy and starts being adam keeping a mental list of things about michael that would drive early-20th century psychologists insane. like.

adam: so your father developed a psychosexual obsession with the man he created to be your true vessel?

michael: hm yes in retrospect that is slightly strange

#adam voice and youre sure you dont know who elektra is #i want to psychoanalyse hin soooooo badly its unreal #update: ive thought more about this and im pulling out my copy of euripedes #lettos says #spn #midam

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7roaches · 7 months

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chat is this real 🙁

#my art #adventure time fionna and cake spoilers #adventure time spoilers #petrigrof #wow #i think ive said the word wow out loud like 10 times in the past 20 minutes because im still fucking reeling in sheer disbelief #like. obvi im pulling a ep9&10 (as in i am oversimplifying nuanced and complicated thoughts) but wow #in the big picture it wasnt even like. Horrible it was just badly mediocre #how does a tv14 cartoon get even more dumbed down and babytalk than a y7 one #i was really really worried about this like. like only a few days into waiting for the finale i was less nervous like foaming at the mouth k #inda excited nd more scared they were just gonna. abandon it. nd they did #nd this is such a pattern that i hope there isnt a season two #and something in me almost hopes that this is like. the end because i dont know how they could come back from this or give any more closure #if the biggest idea (or one of) of at is that everything changes i think the other is everything ends and ive felt this since atdl ep 4 but #theyre drinking from a dry creek atp #i hope people continue to love this show as the beautiful complicated thing it is and pretend that that didnt exist #what didnt exist #where am i #(in the same tone of voice as ice king from the beyond the grotto ep)#ill still be drawing at stuff tho i still love it beyond words #tumblr needs to let me add paragraph breaks in tags jfc if i was me reading this i would literally not even read it

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dearedwardteach · 7 months

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so why is nobody talking about the fact that the song is not only sexist but also racist? like WHAT the fuck who at hybe was stupid enough to let white men write a song and put a racist and sexist Asian stereotype in it and went "oh yeah checks out"??? it's not even a matter of saying the song is bad at this point! it's fucking awful! who the fuck thought it was a good idea genuinely i have questions. who the FUCK.

#honestly I wasn't gonna voice my opinion on the song but it's even worse that i thought #jesus fucking christ #im so angry #isn't it bad that jk is choosing to do bad white ppl music does he have to like go all the way and let the white man on it go all racist???#like what the FUCK goes on in his brain or does he so badly understand the lyrics he didn't get what ABG was about? PLEASE #honestly at this point y'all cannot defend him #not only does he put out a sexist song AGAIN but this time he adds racism too #ugh I cant fucking stand this im so pissed #3d #3d jungkook #jeon jungkook #BTS #anti big hit #Anti hybe #at this point im gonna become anti jungkook tbh he sounds more and more like another sexist bro who just doesn't give a fuck about anything #literally the only one in this band who's not disappointed me is namjoon #wooooow im so pissed I should not have given a single stream to that mess

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statsvitenskap · 11 months

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ranvie makes an original post. insane. but yes warning for good omens s2 leak. if you do not want to be spoilered or you haven't seen the leak pls don't look under the cut

so the kiss is. somewhere in the show. that is pretty much guaranteed. and i've seen a lot of people complaining about whether it might end up being a dream sequence for either aziraphale / crowley. a lot of people want it to be "real".

but honestly... is even a dream sequence not a good thing? i mean, even one of them IMAGINING a kiss i feel would be an incredible amount of progress in their relationship. at the very least, it means its a very explicit acknowledgment of one of them feeling romantic love for the other. like. as someone who was a johnlock shipper once, i just. i don't really see how this compares to that? i can't really speak much for spn, because all i know about it is november 5th, but i mean...

idk i've just been seeing a lot of negativity about s2 since the leak, with a lot of people insisting that this is queerbaiting... but to my knowledge, crowley and aziraphale are canonically in a queer + asexual relationship? and honestly as someone who is ace, their relationship has already been incredibly inspiring for me. their love doesn't really have to be physical for them to be totally in love. and i'm hoping that maybe, just maybe, s2 will further solidify the romantic aspects of their relationship. this leak, though it frustrated me at first, gives me a lot of hope.

maybe in september once the last ep has come out (edit: oops!! in JULY, since the eps are all coming out at once), i will look back at this post and curse my naivety. but i hope not. i hope this ages well. because as a bi / ace youth, i would really like to not feel fooled by one of my favorite shows in years. i would really really like to see a relationship that is akin to what i would like to have one day. that would be lovely

#good omens #good omens spoilers #good omens s2 #good omens s2 leak #bleghh i hope im not entering discourse territory im just voicing my thoughts #i just hate to see all this negativity. i mean obviously the situation is incredibly unfortunate but #i think that if anything it should be generating a lot of hype?#though i totally understand that a lot of people have seen this kind of situation happen in real time and end badly #but i'd really like to think that maybe. just maybe. good omens is better #again naive of me i know. but i have hope.#ranvie rambles

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forcedhesitation · 10 days

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I TRIED AGAIN TODAY AND GOT A HUX, MY LOVE <33333

the game still runs like pure trash though, and many, many other players I've spoken to are saying they are struggling with the same thing T___T

#dbd #thoughts about media #this is my first hux in months!!#poor lad was just someone trying to do his adept...I'm so sorry stranger...my vicious love is not like any other killer...#he could not manage even one kill. the three ladies with me were clearly a swf and were giving him a run for his beautiful long legs...#I even tried to die for him- but he downed me and brought me to the opened gate. such a kind soul!#but since the lag was so that I could not tell where I actually was on the screen at any given moment- I accidentally left... T___T #my game was freaking out badly...it was a wonder I didn't DC. or the game did not full-on crash.#like someone unhooked claudette in front of me. and from that point on. claudette only remained in that spot on my screen.#she was still running around and doing stuff! but on my screen she was fixed in place!#fortunately the archives challenges are incredibly easy so I did get two survivor challenges done :)#and I SAW A HUX! I heard his sweet voice! that alone has filled my heart with such joy <3

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stuck-in-the-ghost-zone · 7 months

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im SO UPSET i cant look up farmworld finn art to reblog rn because i KNOW hes in fionna and cake and i dont want to spoil that part for myself. i missmy boy. :(

#i saw like. a half second clip of ice prince from fnc too and i closed outta that SO FAST i want 2 be surprised #im EXTREMELY extremely so so very happy that theyve brought him back bc he fucks me up so bad in the head #but i want 2 be surprised.....#BUT ALSO I WANT TO REBLOG ART FROM LIKE. 2013. FUCK #hell world! hell world hell word #i miss my guy he lived in my brain for so long u dont understand #at the end of jtd when his voice starts to crack and sound more like ice prince. it fucking kills me #dont worry jake.... ill share the secrets of ice and snow with thee!#<< that line gets me . it gets me so bad. bc its still finns voice but he sounds SO MUCH like the ice king. fucked up!!!!!!!!#aaugrhrghghhhghg #roswell if ur reading this i need u to get to season 5 NYAOW i want 2 see ur thoughts on these 4 eps so so so so badly .#i love my mutuals brains and i love that ur experiencing this for the first time bc it drove me CRAZY when i first saw it #reaction time

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moonlighter · 2 years

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Sharing these tweets and casting call here since as far as I know there is no offical tumblr Blue uses and theres a pretty big fan presence here.

Image ID in alt text and below the cut

[ID: four pictures about updates about Camp Here & There.

Two tweets by M&B @MayfieldnBelov, the first says:

“Cringey notesapp screenshot, eh? In all seriousness, here's a bit of news, and an update beforehand, on what the auditions will look like. Thank you to everyone for remaining fans of the show, and I can't wait to see all your auditions when the call goes up!”

The second says:

Casting call (in all caps and surrounded by two red emergency lights emojis)

Voice auditions for Camp Here & There season 2 are live! (A google docs link is attached)

Auditions are open from May 15th -May 31st 2022 Spread the word!”

Five hashtags follow the text

#voiceover #castingcall #voiceacting #auditions #camphereandthere

Additional: the google docs link https://docs.google.com/document/d/195bNsIf4Nw6aDLB7NeHSbmUvEC9ery4ILCe0d3e4wKM/edit

The third image is a screenshot of black text over white background from the notes app that says:

“I regret to announce that, as of this February, Nicholas has left the project. He voiced that he no longer wanted to work with it, nor with the company, and has left it to my jurisdiction.

Camp Here & There will certainly not end! It is ridiculously important to me that this story be told, and I am still writing it with as much of my skill and heart as ever. But, I've labored for some time over what to do for Jedidiah. I know his original voice is beloved by everyone, myself included, and that an outside voice actor for him raises production costs far beyond the original scope.

That being said, I will (in italics) be including Jedidiah in this round of auditions (and removing Nicholas's name from the branding over the next few weeks). I do not know just yet how this will be explained narratively, if at all, or how I will be working out the technicals. But I do want to give everyone a chance to try for his voice if they please. Thank you to everyone for sticking with me! And thank you for allowing me to share this somewhat vulnerable piece of news. Auditions will be out soon!”

The fourth image is the graphic for Camp Here & There season 2, consisting of a warm brown wooden grandfather clock with fire surrounding its base. Behind it there’s the outline of a dark forest, each row of trees is a different shade of grey and black. Below it, in white and all caps it says “Camp Here & There”. end ID]

Thanks to @camphereandtheredescribed !!

#camp here and there #camp here & there #chnt #ch&t #sydney sargent #jedidiah martin #jedidiah a a martin #Podcasts #Casting call #voice acting #up and adam #elijah volkov #Natsume shiota #fennel marlborough #I so badly want to audition for Natsume but blue is very clear he want to stay true with rep and have an asian actor which i totally get #Also i hate my voice soooo #Thought about adding WW tags but some of those fans can be so toxic and dont want to drag them anymore into chnt

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beomgyutruther · 3 months

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#snapped at my mom because im stressed about my preboard results and then i apologized and explained that i was rly stressed and accidentally #lashed out and she started saying that im always rude to her and taking my stress out on her ??? and that i never do this to my dad #and then she said i never talk to her about anything even though she's the only one who does everything for me yet i still dont talk to her #and well. maybe if she didnt tell my brother 'if u do this u will end up like ur sister in the future. u dont want to fail in life right ?#then dont do this' (nearly exact words) when she was scolding him . i mean maybe then i would actually want to talk to her #and it sucks because i cant rly talk to anyone irl about this because i still feel scared that they'll like. judge my mom #because i still love her a lot and dont want people to think badly about her #but its getting harder ! to exist here ! and the fact that i am constantly used as an example of what my brother should NOT be #especially when i work this hard partly because i want to be someone my brother can look up to #and to have that come from my own mother . it's really hurtful and makes me feel like nothing i ever do will be enough for her #not to mention the fact that i have come out to her 4 times and she still constantly asks me if it's just a phase #<- i thought that part was getting better but apparently not #but i've stopped expecting anything from anyone in that respect so it doesn't really come as a surprise lmao #anyway rant over i just needed to get that off my chest because i really dont know how long i can keep crying and then forcing my voice #to be normal so that no one asks what happened because wow it is taking a toll on me! who knew #do noooot perceive this

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icewindandboringhorror · 1 year

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I think the hardest thing in writing for me sometimes is the like “show don’t tell/let people communicate through subtext/Normal People don’t just walk around openly explaining their motivations for everything That’s Unnatural” thing because like.. I literally DO walk around openly explaining my motivations for everything, that is how I talk, I am an analytical detail oriented over-communicator who explains everything as thoroughly as possible and and will give a fully detailed 2 minute long answer to something simple like “how are you doing today?” .. like it’s hard to make things sound Natural and Normal when you yourself are inherently unnatural and abnormal in your methods of communication to an extent lol

#''hey. whats up? you look kind of sad.. is something wrong?'' normal answer (apparently how people are supposed to talk): *looks away #remosefully and stares into the distance* ''n-no.. I'm fine. don't worry about it.'' abnormal answer (how I would respond): ''Yeah I #'m mostly fine. I was just thinking about what the future is going to be like 30 years from now and if I'll ever actually accomplish anythin #g that I want to. which makes me feel X way for XYZ reason. you see because I had a dream last night that made me think of *continues to exp #lain my exact emotional state and inner thought process completely matter of factly in exact detail for 5 more minutes*#tfw you would be a badly written character if you existed in a story lol #This is also why I struggle making conflict because most conflicts can be resolved through conversation and I personally love to have long #detailed conversations about everything. Like literally I don't have hardly any conflicts interpersonally because if something happens it's #immediately followed up with like ''hey sorry if my tone of voice sounded a bit pointed or harsh. when you were talking to me I was trying #to balance all the stuff I was taking up the stairs and also my leg hurts so I think all my mental energy was being used there and I just #didn't feel like talking. I should have just said 'wait a minute and we can discuss it inside' instead of trying to end the conversation qui #ckly in a short rude way.' ''oh yeah thats fine. I thought it was something like that. sorry for hounding you about the topic as well. i #havent eaten in a while so I think I'm just a bit prickly at the moment. we should both rest for a while and destress from the store #trip and then talk about it later. maybe after lunch?' 'sure. sounds good.' like LITERALLY. lol #it is so hard for me to write characters who are bad communicators or don't understand their own internal states or arent constantly #analyzing their own actions to understand what they do/don't feel and why and what the cause of it is and etc. etc. etc.#I just naturally want everyone to perfectly undertsand everything and communicate amazingly and have complete self awareness and #logical presence of mind gjhbj.. which like.. of course comes across as unnatyural and also those type of people rarely ever get involved in #conflict and conflict is APPARENTLY what drives stories (even though I don't like most conflicts and just want to resolve them lol) so ...aa #I mean you can get around this to some degree by the fact that (at least in my opinion) no rule for dialogue is 100%. dialogue is good if it #sounds naturally like it comes from the character who said it. It can be meandering and pointless and rambly IF that matches the character.#it can be dry and overly self aware IF your character is that way and it suits them. So like throwing in a few detached scholar types or lik #e '5000 year old cave dwelling hermit' type people is good for me and works BUT the thing is an ENTIRE cast of characters can't be that way.#at some point - even in a setting where everyone is reserved and academic (like a research camp in the wilderness full of scholars and stuff #) still SOMEBODY has to be the one who's conflict prone and doesn't pristinely understand all of their emotions and etc. etc. Because statis #tically that is still literally the majority. Kind of like my tendency to make everyone 100% aromantic and asexul when it's like.. YES.. may #be 2 or 3 or even 4 out of 10 of them could be that way. but like.. an entire group? a diverse group of 10 people from all walks of life and #EVERY single one is like that??? hgjh . you have to add realistic variety #As much as I'm pro 'have more stories where sex or romance are literally NOT involved at all in any capacity since it's already oversaturate #d in media' I'm also dedicated to realism. alas. (at least as realistic as you can get in a fantasy setting lol)

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thesunoosshining · 4 months

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shout out is like. The Best Friends Song Ever to me. THAT SOUNDS NOT THE WAY I WANT IT TO BUT LIKE ?? idk how to explain it. but it reminds me of my friends SO badly. just like. us yelling and laughing maniacally over nothing and yelling about k-pop idols and playing those like "pick one drop one" k-pop games on youtube. maybe this is too specific but like ??? i just had to share this info with y'all !

#⭐️; star talks #ok maybe. i just love my friends #ramble about them incoming #but i just love them so badly i've never met people i feel so comfy around #and we disagree and shit sure but we've never had Big Fights that we didn't resolve #i can talk abt anything with them. i can be super cringe and unmasked adhd moment and like #they still love me !! and i love them ! even when they do dumb things #i just love them so badly. i can actually Be Myself w them for real?#idk how to explain it like my old friend group? yeah i loved them but honestly some of them always had me like “ugh” bc they were like #clearly homophobic or just talked about people weirdly #BUT?? MY CURRENT FRIENDS?? oh i love them so bad #enough that i literally made my smau ocs based off them. and i showed my irl best friend my riki smau #and told another one of them about the smau. but tbh she didnt rlly get it el oh el (shes not chronically online like i am)#BUT LIKE? filters dont exist im genuinely so comfortable around these girls #will i show them this? no but i hope they know bc i do voice my affection for them enough 🫶 and hopefully thru my actions #my girls fr! i love them #anyways if u actually read all that ty for reading 😭 if u dont have that group of friends you feel That Way towards. keep holding on bc #i never thought i'd have these girls either. but i do!#your people are out there somewhere 🫶

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reddiamondyeet · 8 months

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#red rants #I'm so fucking awful. god #I care about people so much but my first thought everytime is me first. me me me.#One of my friends will be crying and there will be that overwhelming voice in my head saying “can't they just get over themselves already?”#AND I DON'T WANT TO BE THAT WAY. I DON'T WANT TO BE CRUEL LIKE THAT.#BUT I DON'T LOVE. IT'S NOT SOMETHING I FEEL. IN ALMOST ANY WAY.#the closest thing I have is my mother #I care about them. I really do. But I can't keep doing this.#I can't keep watching them break and not being able to feel anything for them but apathy.#what am I even supposed to say? all the tactics that work with them require those emotions i can't feel!#and all the tactics I can use only hurt them more! I'm so sick of this!#I'm sick of seeing them suffer and my first thought being “At least people see you. You're lucky and you don't even know it”#I'M SICK OF BEING A JEALOUS LOVELESS ANTISOCIAL ASSHOLE I WANT FRIENDS I WANT LOVE I WANT IT SO BADLY #but what the fuck am I supposed to do. I'm too tired to even think about changing myself.#I might as well not even try to be friends with anyone. I'm not going to able to be there for them when it counts most.#maybe I've just fucking doomed myself into loneliness. I don't wanna be alone. I don't want you to be alone. You shouldn't have to be alone.#but turns out my fucking shitty broken brain is too exhausted to care about people more often than not.#i care so much i loop back around to not caring. how fucking amazing. whatever. i've never kept anyone for that long anyway #guess I'm just doomed to fail

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perenlop · 5 months

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hi i just revamped my toyhouse folders a bit. the descriptions arent finished caused im tired jslkdjfldsf

#i thought the flattened style for each of the three current stories up there now #was more cohesive #widoria is just. shes floating in the void for a bit cause idk if im adding my kirby stuff there yet #cause i feel like some ''ocs'' are literally like. just my takes on characters w little going on like knuckle joe ig? au takes?#and like its baaaasically an oc at that point but its an oc wearing a canon character/design's skin. so.#and idk can you add au versions of characters to toyhouse? idk #ik you cant do that for artfight #so just to be safe im not doing that til i have confirmation #echoed voice #also god i need to finalize and upload pyre so fucking badly cause team horizon is empty in general rn but its especially empty without her #shes the heart of the entire team. the head. if you take her out you take out the entire group

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bitin-and-barkin · 6 months

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Btw feel free to use any concepts I make as writing prompts/material for ur own fanfics

#art deserves to be shared #whats mine is yours brother #Especially that saiki k fanfic becuz I had a really good story idea for it but my aass is too lazy to write #Im lying my idea of a story was actually one scene idea inspired by the silent voice suicide scene #To expand on it I had an idea where Saikis limiters began to stop working and his bro gave him an esitmate of 30 days before they completel #cut out and stopped working #But he didn't want to be a psychic again and so he decided that in 30 days he would khs and for every single one of those 30 days he would #do something he always wanted to do as a normal person #During this time he began to apperciate his friends but also become more a more depressed because despite him hating being a psychic he #couldn't live without being one and so he gets really bad mentally and physically.#But he also begins to apperciate life. And his friends notice thisbut he pushes them away. It all comes to a stop where on the last day it'#A firework festival which is something he always wanted to enjoy but couldn't due to him only being able to hear everybodys thoughts due to #the crowding of those places. Anyways he decides to khs and as the fireworks go off and he steps over the balcony and is leaning on the edg #He questions why he's doing this #and why does he want to kill himself so badly #These past weeks haven't been all that bad #Does he really hate being a psychic that much?#Or does he really just hate living?#He then cries in the first time for a long #But then his friends comes up and in surprise he lets go of the railing and falls #U can decide where it goes from there #Make me cry

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