When you get this, reply with your favourite five fics that you’ve written, then pass on to at least five other writers, if you can. Let’s spread the self-love. ♥️

oh!! bless, thank you 💙💙

ok it's actually a pretty easy five fics (!!) for me so in no particular order:

put your money where your mouth is - i don't do a lot of humor writing and this really borders on crack. everything is beautiful, nothing really hurts if you don't think too long about why obi-wan was so convinced that the chances of anakin loving sabé would be higher than the chances of him loving obi-wan. also i think this was one of my very first funny end notes that sparked a tradition in all my fics now of ending a chapter with a shitpost

toss overboard what is too heavy to carry - couples counseling au is very small on ao3 rn but very mighty in my heart. i've never really written anything that allows so much of ROTS to happen, and while this is still pre-attack on the Temple + a not-pregnant padmé, it's still more than i usually go for. i think it'll be really fun to focus on healing them both and i think it's pretty ironic that this au sprang from an ask that was very hurt!anakin focused and my reply being 'ok we can talk about this if you want but i can't pretend obi-wan doesn't deserve to feel very very very betrayed by anakin's canon lies so if you want an au from me addressing one then let's address both they can switch who bottoms and whose turn it is on the trauma at the same time' and here we are

burn every bridge but please leave me a boat - my first foray into reverse master/padawan aus!!! i adore this version of padawan obi-wan and master anakin because anakin's so very whipped and obi-wan is both somehow a bit manipulative and aware his master loves him but also startled to find out that his master loves him

time and tide - ack, one of my very original love letters to obikin and all their angst. an overall depressing fic (with a happy ending, i swear!) where anakin is going through it and obi-wan is going through it and ahsoka is going through it.......i knew from the beginning anakin would have to go back to the future to be with his real obi-wan, but i'm gonna miss writing aristel as much as anakin will miss pretending to be him.

tongue-tie me so tightly, i cannot tell you the truth - i think the pinnacle of miscommunication/misunderstanding in all of my fics is this fic. anakin doesn't want to hurt obi-wan by lying to him, he just made a split-second stupid decision, and obi-wan doesn't want to hurt anakin either, he just doesn't know who anakin is. i think anakin's justification of not wanting obi-wan to feel pressured to fall in love with him just because they're soulmates really won him over in the end lol anakin is very sweet in this au and that was a treat to write.

+ honorable mention to the size of the fight in the dog because i always forget i wrote that but then whenever i remember i'm like!! oh yeah!! that's a great fic!!

I don't know if you've talked about this elsewhere already but was the break from streaming intentional and/or are you planning on returning to streaming some time in the foreseeable future? no pressure, I just miss your silly antics :o)

felt very burnt out from being someone who people are always lookin at all the time mostly! (and also a lot more reasons)

got a new job that pays just as well as streaming (which is enough to pay for rent in seattle with roommates, buy food for myself, and sometimes buy yet another japanese gamecube via online auction), and have been enjoying the feeling of not relying on anonymous teenagers and young adults who are just as poor as me on the internet for my income. It's something i was extremely grateful for, but it's not only a very infirm way to generate revenue on a reliable basis, but also i always felt an ever-present sense of guilt for it. like, instilling within other people who i know are in my tax bracket (one that is below the poverty line) the idea of "hey if you dont tip me for doing this free service, the quality of which is damningly subjective, I will be homeless. but no pressure haha" is something that i was never able to shake.

also like. performing is quite draining for me! the way i portray myself in my streams is EXTREMELY extroverted while, in my personal life, i prefer to spend 8 to 14 of my waking hours every day by myself in my room with my dog. i like the quiet, and i feel at peace most when i am not being perceived by other people.

lastly, i really dislike having inordinate levels of social power. for a several reasons. like, SEVERAL reasons. this is the longest section of this post.

8 years ago, i got way more famous than any 16 year old should ever be when i got tens of thousands of followers overnight for doing undertale shit. and i think it really fucked up my ability to make friends at a time where my only experience meeting new people was at school or at church, and i lived far enough out in the woods that i couldnt just go outside and hang out with the neighbors cuz the neighbors lived a mile away. my socializing skills in general are way more stilted than i'd prefer for someone my age. in private settings ive got my foot in my mouth a lot. and sometimes in public settings too! im sure if youve seen streams ive been on, youve seen plenty of "chase you really shouldnt have said that" moments. and youre probably right, i probably shouldnt have! my moment-to-moment gauge for what i should and shouldnt say is very slow to catch up cuz ive got like. advanced mental illnesses. like, im not joking when i say ive been formally diagnosed several times over by different doctors with shit ive never heard anybody ever talk about, online or otherwise.

i dont think that's an excuse to say heinous or cruel things by any means of course, but i also think that i should not rely on a job where there's constantly a microphone in my hand and an audience listening intently to what i say. im not at all pulling the "its okay that i say mean things because im mentawy iww" card. as a matter of fact i think it's not okay that i say them! and i feel very embarrassed when i do! the filter that separates "normal healthy thoughts" and "intrusive unhealthy thoughts" is thinner and more flimsy in my brain than in others.

ive only gotten this far because i surround myself with very smart, patient, and kind people, and by trying to be understanding and patient with others too. and ive begun apologizing to people a lot more. i dont like it when people are mad at me, and i dont like that for a long time i had professionally painted myself into a corner where im typically always the "heel" in comedy settings, because the "heel" is the guy everyone shits on all the time. i got this reputation not because i actively enjoy being mean, but because i learned to adapt to the aforementioned "clinically unreliable intrusive thoughts filter" by realizing i would say things that came across as mean, and in real time exaggerating that it into a character that people could shoot back at without feeling guilty while still having fun. theres nothing that ruins a good time quite like someone who is constantly apologizing for doing something wrong, and then continuing to do that wrong thing anyway. dont misunderstand, i absolutely adore dunking on weenies when everyone can get a good laugh out of it (like tumblr anons, who i think should be classified as prokariyotic invertebrates and not people (no offense)) but even though it's a joke it still feels very bad when that's expected of me when i walk into a room. because if i walk into a room, and everyone expects me to be an asshole, everyone is on the defensive before i say anything, and sometimes they take shots at me when im not trying to "play". even worse, if im a heel in a setting where it's expected of me and someone cant really keep up with "the bit" then that just means im being an asshole to someone who cant or doesnt have the energy to fight back. and not just any asshole, an asshole who has had nearly a decade of professional experience being a paid asshole.

if im being frank, i dont know if i'll come back in a full capacity. i might! im not ruling that out! and you'll probably still see me pop up in my friends streams, because i did LOVE what i did for a very long time! but after i took my "break" in december after being more stressed than ive ever been, and i knew it was no longer financially necessary for me to livestream, i had the thought "i will go back to streaming when i find within myself a desire to do so" and ya know what? i havent yet.

and DO NOT FUCKING BOTHER MY FRIENDS ABOUT THIS. if you post a fucking "hey have u heard what chase said" message in their chat or in their DMs or anything, im not joking when i say you are actively being the kind of person i changed my career to avoid! fuck you, for real! stop trying to interface with them to get some new piece of information or opinion about me you fucking weirdo! they'll talk about me if they want to, but going to someone who is doing their own thing and asking them to instead comment on someone else it is ALWAYS fucking annoying. if you want to think about me, do it by yourself! or ask me directly! or do it in the comment section of a video im in! or write a fanfiction about me and then throw it away!

but if ur not that kind of person then ur cool dont worry.

anywho! im sorry if this is a bummer to read. but that's the full skinny.

im still posting regularly on twitter (clown_depot)! and if i DO go live, either on my twitch channel or on a friend's stream, it will be posted there!

thanks for watching :^]

im not goin radio silent, im just gonna turn off the electric window that lets people see me for a while.

guys lol would you still love me if i posted about why i wish pal from tmvtm got a redemption arc >.< if not Do not click that read more.

oh yes. also. sidenote. ive probably gotten something wrong (or worse yet: TERRIBLY wrong) so like. apologies in advance eahhaha this is just my personal thoughts on pal x(

its established that pal and mark are both extremely close with each other and have been for 3 years. im assuming pal wouldnt have had any other relationships as close (if any at all which i think no, she didnt) so mark really was her only footnote for any form of relationship. so, you know, i cant imagine how itd feel for your only best friend to make a mockery out of you on stage for advertisement and monetary gain.

also based on her body (face?) language during nearly all of that scene + the fact he built the replacement by using HER, she was clearly in the know about how things would go down on stage beforehand so i wonder what her reaction to that wouldve been like ?????? considering she planned it all in advance maybe that was like, the tipping point or something that made her start it all in the first place ? thats not important to my point i just think about it a lot

anyway so with her only experience with human relationships being theyll love you and then theyll (quite literally) throw you away, youve got her reason for the human uprising! she has the robots capture all humans yadda yadda and her plan is set into motion. something i find interesting though is her treatment of the robots being kind of similar to how mark treated her (or at least how she percieved it)?? like. uses them for orders and then once they start being useless to her, build a new better robot with a disregard for how the old ones feel. idk. something something La Cycle

the thing is though no one has proven pal wrong on why she SHOULDNT do the whole 'human uprising'. you can say katie gave her reasons but i think it wouldnt have worked even if pal listened to what katie had to say. for pal to get over her existing grief and trauma she cant just be Told that theres good in the world. why would she believe that, especially coming from the girl of the family she projects her experiences onto?? she needs to be shown!! she needs to learn firsthand that theres good relationships out there and that not all relationships are bad, NOT SECONDHAND!!!!!!!!!! because to pal, katies words are just a rephrased version of marks "power of love". that no matter what, "they can get through anything...... with the power of love. its worth it....... for love." and that means nothing to her! it meant nothing coming from mark and it certainly wont mean any more coming from katie

and she already believes that the mitchells are a great example of how relationships are just oh so bad. she refuses to let go of the idea that the mitchells are so bad because shes projecting!! she thinks relationships are 'pesky and only hold you back', and so katie is probably the last person on earth that pal would want to listen to yap about their familial relationship and how Worth It it is

she asks "what is it about the mitchells that eludes me?" and outside of the literal meaning, its probably how despite their shortcomings its their relationship that helped them overcome pal in the end. and she cant understand that because of her view on relationships - especially her view on the MITCHELL FAMILY relationship. or maybe im just overthinking that line of dialogue but we dont talk about taht LOLLLLLLL,LLLLLL,,, but like why did you phrase it like that girl. im onto you

and while i wish she was redeemed (because im sure despite the effort it would take she *could* be redeemed, she would just need to learn to love again and i think it would be really interesting to see how she would be After The Betrayal) i also can understand why the movie killed her off. like, no one except mark really knows the Full Extent of what happened, and the mitchells are the main characters and pal would probably rather dip herself in water than make meaningful relationships with the mitchells, and no ones going to stop to ask her whats wrong and have a meaningful conversation when shes trying to kill them, among many many other reasons so theres not a lot of great ways to redeem her. but! like! why did they turn her death into a joke. and then take katies fake death 10 times more seriously! idk. that always kind of bothered me but its whatever

thats all. hope its coherent because ive never been good at writing analysises or whatever this counts as

Hello! I'd like to preface my question with a couple things: One, I know this is a randomizer game and not to make perfect custom clans! I dont intend this question to come off as a complaint to that nature, just something i was curious/hopeful for. Two, I attempted to look through the blog to see if there was a post already asking something like this, but Tumblr hates me and keeps sending me back to the top or shows me nothing when I search tags, sobI apologize if this is an ask youve already gotten! Three, LOVE this game so much, like genuinely, yall are doing fantastic, this isnt a complain or a pressure to do this sort of thing.

Okay so my question is: Is there any plans for minigames? Particularly something that allows you to view any combination of outlines/colors/patterns/etc? Not as a 'create a custom cat to put in your game' way but just a way to see interesting combinations.

Tysm for your time in advance!

Hello!

One of our senior contributors, Key, developed something like what you're describing :) it can be found on our discord! It probably won't be included in the main game, but it's a mod you can download!

Hope this helps!

~Chase

BOYFRIEND DANIEL!!!! P L E A S E but can it be like,, really realistic?? Idk how to phrase it but more so a piece that showcases the fact that he's a grown man with a very demanding lifestyle and not all fluff and mush? I hope that's not too much to ask! Thank you in advance love xx

this is hella late! but thanks for requesting hun!! hope you like it xx

kang daniel has been your boyfriend for nearly 5 months now

and its been almost perfect

daniel is generally someone who is vv ‘reverse charming’

he can be the shyest and most aegyo boyfriend in the world

you know that smile he has with his two front teeth sticking out?

yeah he does that a lot

when you would go to the kitchen in the middle of movie night to prepare something, you ask daniel if he’d like a beer or something and he looks at you and says yes

with that smile

oH MAN its like your bones turn into jelly

cuddling is also his favorite thing in the world

on those days where he comes home late at night because of practice

youre usually awake and waiting for him

and when he goes in your room he sees you still up and pouts a bit because?? its so late why are you awake when you have work tomorrow??

but still pulls you into his chest and wraps his arms around you

because even if hes an idol with an amazing group and career, this is still always his favorite part of the day

but on days when youre just too tired to wait and you fall asleep, daniel understands

he simply gets into the bed after washing up and pulls you closer, being careful not to wake you up

he runs his hands through your hair softly and kisses the top of your head

so so soft

on the other hand

bUt he can also be the manliest and sexiest man on the planet

he also does this unconsciously??

and its in the little things

on the train when there are too many people, he casually wraps an arm around your waist and whispers to stay close to him sexy

when he sees you carrying something heavy on the way home from the grocery, he takes the bag from your hands and unconsciously smirks at you to keep up sexY

or when you visit him during dance practice and hes sweaty and panting but still manages to kiss the hell out of you even if his members making puking sounds in the background SEEEEXXYYYY

aside from his reversal charms, daniel is the most genuine and caring boyfriend

i imagine him to be kinda awkward at the obvious romantic stuff but still manages to show his love for you in his own way

whereas other people would randomly throw out ‘i love you’s, daniel has ways to say it more indirectly

‘yah, kid, have you eaten yet? no? oh well then, lets go out‘

‘i have a 15 minute break, lets spend it together‘

‘yah, how could you forget your coat in weather like this? use mine, dummy‘

despite his obviously loving and kind personality, he does have his flaws because he is human of course

he cant help his tardiness because of practice, or his tiredness because of late nights spent recording

and you know that but sometimes its too much

one of rare but biggest fights youve ever had was about this

you two were planning a dinner date but daniel texted you he’d be late by a couple of minutes

but you had waited for nearly two hours and you were pretty sure the restaurant was already closed at that hour

it wasnt the first time he had done this, but it was certainly the only time you were truly pissed

when he came home, you had changed out of your fancy dress and stood stiffly in front of the couch in your pajamas

daniel came in looking at his phone and when he saw you in your pajamas he smiled tiredly and walked over to you to hug you

but was shocked when you turned away

he asked what was wrong and you just asked if he even remembered

it took him a good minute to figure out what he actually forgot and when he realized he apologized profusely and asked you to forgive him

but you just scoffed and asked him if he really was serious about you two

at this point, he snapped and angrily asked why you would even say that

cue full blown out argument about the whole thing

“yah kang daniel, i’ve been with you through so many things and this is how its going to be? you wouldnt imagine the ugly comments i’ve gotten on the internet or the dirty looks i get from my coworkers because i’m dating one of the most popular men in korea. and all for what? you ditching me for practice? i understand that this is not only your job, but your passion, but have a little respect for me too, would you?“

at this point, youre crying and youre tired and you think this is over but daniel retaliates

“and what about me? do you really understand that this isnt just a job? its my passion, y/n! i’ve worked so hard to be where i am today not just on my career but also in this relationship. so many hours i could have spent getting better at dancing or rapping but i spent them all with you! do you even understand that? i know that it hurts you when im not there, but it hurts me too. do you know why? because i love you!“

you try to ignore the fact that your first ‘i love you’ was said during a fight so you simply storm off into the bedroom, leaving daniel in the living room

you just curl up into a ball on the bed and cry to yourself

when your crying slowed down a few minutes later, daniel comes into the room and kneels in front of you

he pats your head down softly and looks at you with a look of sadness

and by looking at his eyes, you can tell that he shed a few tears as well

“i’m sorry kid, but“

you got scared at this point because you thought he was about to break up with you

“i’m not sleeping until we make things right“

an open-ending-ish for the lovely anon

She-Ra Rewatch: season 3 and onwards through season 4, and boatloads of Introspection time!

So Ive been rewatching She-Ra with my partner, because sharing Entrapdak is caring. I could probably squee on about that for a century or more (because eeee, sharing things i love with people i love AND THEY EVEN PAY ATTENTION TO THE THINGS AND REMEMBER THEM!)...but ill spare you, kind internet strangers who for some reason find my thoughts mildly interesting enough to be reading this. This is going to be a lot. Like, a LOT. A lot especially from a stranger that youve probably only seen a notification from due to me sticking a heart on your content or for reblogging something lovely youve made in pictures or words. I dont think anything is going to be violently trigger-y because im not always great at judging that stuff and also ive yet to feel quite comfy enough to be  fully open-posting specifics about my own past trauma, other than a vague allusion to self-harm and distant-ish unspecified abuse aaaand the usual childhood garbage truck of assholes....but i suppose you could possibly draw some darker potential conclusions from the content im focused on. Also, my ADHD makes it incredibly hard to keep to a straight and non-branching narrative so...ramble-y bits and expressions of brain frustration ahoy. Either way...you are forewarned, just in case. Sorry in advance, this is going to be a small booklet by the time Im done explaining, and thinking, and then attempting to stick words to abstract feels which sometimes im great at, and then others i fucking suck at...but at least this is all written and not me trying to say this to any of your faces! Thats....a mercy all of its own. Haa...  Anyway, while rewatching with my partner, I realized just how much more painful parts of it are to sit through now...they were the first time, and each time since, but NOW having spent a while mulling over the series as a whole a bunch, and reading a lot of other peoples writings on here and finding myself largely in agreement with most Entrapdak fan’s assessment of things, I just....feel like all the air is ripped out of me during some moments, watching  with keener insight. And despite thinking i had myself reasonably well figured out by my age, its all also made me further consider a few things about myself as well. Particularly my notable internalized fury response to chunks of it which have been consistent through all my viewings of SPOP. With Hordak at least, its way easier to understand my reactions. For me at least. Maybe not so much for the people around me. And, shittier due to intensity and subject matter, but still easier in the long run because...the broken bits in me that he resonates with are fresher and sharper and still more recent, like within the last ten years, and thus more towards the front shelves in my head, compared to things that resonate with Entrapta, which are all old, lifelong dull aches at this point. I feel like nothing i can point to is fully sufficient to fully express my feels involving Hordak. But, maybe the best representative moment is with the crying i do every damn time I see his face looking up at Prime just after he glimmer and catra were beamed up...because ive seen that face in the mirror. I HAVE MADE THAT FACE. That same. Goddamn. Face. I may not have gotten a jab to the back of the neck directly from the person I made it at...but they often seemed to silently goad me to harm myself in an attempt to jolt my brain out of getting stuck in re-looping through what theyd just done/said to me. Likewise, much of his interactions with Entrapta are very...very weirdly familiar in feeling, but in a good way. Watching the stuff with Hordak hurts because fuck me if it isnt frequently like watching myself back in 2008ish to 2013, which was the duration of the worst parts of that particular circle of hell i parked my ass in. So...that makes sense. Hes so well written in those moments, it occasionally gave me PTSD flashbacks (still does a little, but now im prepared and braced for it and can shrug it back off....thanks, lifetime of therapy and years of studying abnormal psychology! Still totally not an expert, just very passionate...just, as a disclaimer).  Entrapta though...Entrapta is a different story. Mostly, I see Entrapta and in her free expressions of delight and joy and her bouncy enthusiasm I am reminded of a younger, less discouraged me in some ways, and in others, a “me” I could have been, but...well, extremely early-onset anxiety and depression made me insanely self-conscious super-super early on...not that i was great at hiding or...i guess the term people seem comfy with is “masking”? Which was a huge problem, or so it was in the 80s when far less was understood of such things. Id do so for a bit and then would forget to, in a way (because id forget long enough to go and trust again reflexively) and would get badly bullied and would squish everything down until id feel a crumb of safety again, and then almost instantly ADHD would pop that mask right the rest of the way off aaand it would start all over again. Ad nauseam until my teen years, where the depression sort of “fixed” that, and made it much easier to destroy my desire to share much of myself freely at all, save for with one or two people, and to a less deep extent a broader circle of nerd friends. Course, then i hit 30 and ran out of the majority of fucks I used to give. Or I became so damaged and salted with anger that parts of me dont grow any fucks anymore? Either way, plowshares to swords, WHEEEE!) And, maybe thats where this time while watching, I started to really think back to all that, and to how i see Entrapta treated by the other princesses, or really just in general except by Hordak...and why it burns my biscuits so badly. Every time I see someone roll their eyes at Entrapta’s beautiful unbridled enthusiasm or try to make it seem distasteful or at least weird and unwanted and uncomfortable for them but then dont even bother to try coming to terms with why they feel that way... or how they seem to feel free to grab and manhandle her without her consent, or the way they try to lessen her contributions because shes non-normative? Like its the fucking least she can do to make up for being weird in their space (...okay, that might just be the anger kicking in..but i dont feel like its an entirely innacurate assessment, is it?)  All of that...seeing it inflicted upon someone, It feels like someones punched me right in the damn sternum, but because its a hurt that im so desensitized to, it seems to have a much different effect than the sharp, violent crushing pain that i feel when I relate to Hordak a little too well for comfort. Again, i could go on, but its nothing more eloquent people on here havent already spoken volumes on. And my first gut reaction is always “I dont understand! why is that their reaction to her?! it doesnt seem logical at all, i dont seem to be able to parse it correctly, how is this acceptable? I HOPE SHE IMMOLATES YOU ALL.”. Which...I suppose isnt entirely usual for me (the silent wishing that people be immolated, I mean...i blame my past years of working in retail. And devouring too much Warhammer 40k contentl).  (oh gods...and this is going to be the most clusterfucky part cause i can feel my meds kicking in and thats gonna be hard to keep coherence on but i gotta get this all out of my head or ill forget it or get too scared of you fucking BRILLIANT insightful smart people on here and then ill continue to live scared and regretful that i never said..anything, and just sat here like “noticeme, entrapdak sempais!”  Ehhn...which is to say, if this is a garbage dump from here down, dont worry, when i wake up ill fix it...but hopefully itll at least make a tiny bit of sense ) But I realized something...something I hadnt ever rememberd much about due to the shitty neuronormative (apology if thats wrong term) behaviors continuing over years and years but in less and less directly aggressive ways as i grew older and was more prone to losing my shit in , (and likely because I got excessively lucky and managed through...uhhh...agonizing determination? Sheer stubbornness? Alleviatory rebalancing of universal karma? fuck if i know --to  curate a surprisingly supportive circle of other castoffs and misanthropes.) That was exactly how people used to treat me.  OKAY THISLL BE EDITED LATER to add in the rest of what i was gonna say...im...too full of Ambien sleep meds and damn write it anymore...and im aing trouble separating realigty and dream...an i k apawing at the kybord...not safe Lov yous for reading this far. Il fix it later, swears.