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fisherfurbearer · 4 years

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fuck sam walmarts

and fuck management

I’ve had it. Left the store in tears tonight.

as some peoople probably/hopefully know. walmart closes at 6 pm on christmas eve. no one actually gets to leave at 6 becuase of shitty last minute customers. but it is what it is.

this. is really personal but im honestly SO close to just. killing myself? so who cares

basically. had a really really bad last few days. spent a lovely time with family (jessies family, his oma and opa and sister and parents and it was just a great time. theyre more family to me than most of my blood family) but it did make me Sad in Deep ways as we dont know if this is going to be our last christmas with his oma who isnt doing so good. and it just twisted me up a little but was othewrsiwse a great day. but then sunday i just...had a huge breakdown in the morning and decided to use my accomodation (i get 2 excused absenses a month) to cool down and gte myself together. slept a lot. woke up adn got a lot done, felt great, then i CRASHED really really bad, got really angry, lashed otu, took like...8-10 sleeping pills...theyre horrific things and im never doing that again...had to sleep for two days after that...felt horrifically sick, in pain, just awful. had repeating nightmares over and over. which has also been wearing me down recently. wasnt able to work monday either because i still couldnt stand and between the pills and the depression/anxiety and really just. felt like the world was ending.

decided sometime last night id just...try my best to make it in today, work my shift (really long 9-6, knowing i wouldnt leave on time nad htisis my first time working in 5 days now...which is rough...) and if i can get through this, i have another couple days off in a row after that (schedules fault, not mine...do feel awful i missed 3 days before that though...) and we can just. get back on track

today i DID go to work, jessie drove me in

i worked. a long time. im supposed to get a break every 2 hours and a 1 hour lunch

i gott my first break on timeish.

then i got my lunch 6 hours after i got in. at which time i got “locked out” for not taking my lunch and coudlnt do anything on the registers. i was supposed to get it 4 hours in. its christmas eve and excruciating and im still in pain and tired from my previous days breakdowns, but otherwise?? i did really good. i didnt mind at all that my lunch was so late. i was a little miffed, but its ok. i dont care, so long as i get it eventually. anyway they FINALLY noticed i was locked out and got me coverage and i ended my lunch at 4. things continued ok. worked on self checkout, met a lot of regulars i really like, prevented $200 of theft (HAHA WOW that was really really funny i love preventing petty theft. i prevent so much theft every week its my pride and joy) just did okay. then they had us close self checkout that took a little while. then at 5:00-5:10 or so i went to my Manager/Supervisor/”““People LEad” as walmart is now trying to call them, lets call her manager Y, and i told her i still need my break and will i get it before i leave. she said go to register 4. i asked again hey will i get my break though and she said yeah and i thought to mysel HAHA thats not going to happen but ok

really stupid that after bieng locked out the first time she couldnt give me my break before i openned a register with a line i cant get rid of

anywayy i did ok otherwise for a while

but at 5:25 or so i reminded a CSM “hey i need my break still can i get that?” and she just ssaid yeah well try to get someone and then more time passed so much time. i put through an ask on the register “assistance needed”. waited another 10 minutes. “assistance needed” again. starting to get anxious. its past 5:40. the line is so long. theres so MUCH NOISE. Its SO LOUD. the intercom keeps going off, no one is responding to me, i dont have a mat to stand on so my knees HURT,, im not doing okk

i switch my light to flashing/need assistance and start looking for someone to ask for help. its 5:45, i need my break NOW, i DESERVE IT for workng this long ass shift and they already missed several of my last breaks a week ago AND got me locked out today and im STARTING TO GET ANXIOUS PELASE I JUST WANT MY BREAK SO BAD

nnthgen a csm is passing by im about to lose it, so i tell her CSM J, please i really need my break now PLEASE and im starting to ccry and i try to tell her whats going on but she shushes me and goes and gets sometone

im full on tears at this point, im so strreesed out,,

manager Y and some other snooty manager come over andd. ffkcing. ask me whats wrong. im crying and i try to explain im really really stressed out, i havent had my last break, ive been trying to get someone for so long now, i just really need to leave im so sorry

and theyy just. fckkng

ffcking manager Y jjst ssays ok “ill give you your break” and “this is your last break” and i ssaid?? yeah i knoww?? andd she saidd “next time youre like this, just dont come in”

i quote that completeltyyy....i really lost it then...i cried som muchh

this isnt the first itme she said something like this to meee...

she asked me “why are you CRYING” When i had an anxiety attacki n the store once, when ic cloked in and couldnt get myself together,, she didnt give me time to calm down, she didnt listen as to why, she just said “why are you crying. this is a BUSINESS. you cant be CRYING Here.” and i just said ok ill go home bye and leftt

andd when i tried to get my availability changed from 7-9 to 7-6/7-7 because the random late shifts with 7 am shifts was messing me up really really bad and my doctor thinks i need to hcange it too, she just said “i cant do that. thisi sa BUSINESS.” and she wouldnt listen when i said i might have to quit because of this, this is for my health, im literally scheduled 7-2 every sunday in december, busiest day of the busiest month and you cant even chop TWO HOURS off my weekend availability????

andd i jjst

ive HAD IT with her

ive had ittt

im so ashamed and angry and anxious and i still havent stopped cryingg. she called me over to her again as i was leaving and she blamed me for it. she ssaid a customer was upset that i “Screamed” (ues i raised my voice a little but i wasnt screaming??? also the two customers i was attending to when this was going on and i cried were VERY KIND nad jjst said i was doing a good job and thanked me for being there) and called a manager over (but...csm J got them?? not a customer...??) and i cant be acitng like this, i cant do customer service when im stressed,, and d i should just STAY HOME If im going to be like that

then shee fufkcing toold me i DID IT WRONG, that i “shouldve called someone over” I TOLD HER I DID!!!!! I DID!!!!!!!!!! YOU NAIL INTO MY HEAD IM NOT ALLOWED TO LEAVE THE REGISTER SO I DIDNT, I DID EVERYTHING ELSE I COULD THOUGH!!! I REQUESTED HELP TWICE!! I TURNED MY LIGHT TO FLASHING!!! I TRIED TO CATCH A MANAGER WALKING BY TO HELP ME!!! N OONE LISTENED UNTIL IT WAS TOO LATE, I DID EVERYHTING I COULD!! yet she seriously told me to my face that “you didnt call anyone”, “you couldve turned your light to flashing” WHICH I DID and sshee jjst said that i made customers uncomfortable and i cant work like thatt and just stay hhome

ii stayed home sunday because i was having a mjor mental emergencyy.

i came in today because i was feeling better and i took it eaasy and ended up doing a wonderful job and mad eso many people smilea nd fixed so many problems that wouldve otherwise upset a lot of folks and i met my regulars and made old folks smile andd i prevented a lot of theft that no one else wouldve caughtt and i jjstt broke down after 9 hours and not getting a last break and all the chaos of register (WHICH BY THE WAY THEY KNOW I DONT LIKE REGISTER!!! I THRIVE ON SLE FCHECOUT!!! THATS MY JOB TITLE!! THATS WHAT I DO!!!! THEY KNOW THISS!!!!) and HER AVOIDING GIVING ME MY FUCKING BREAK and NOT RESPECTING MY FFUCKING METNAL DISABILITIES LJNASDKAJHDBASJSDNAJSNDKANSD

I JJST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DOO

i really want to die and i really want to never go back but i really loved my job i loved helpting people ii jjst hate her so muchhh and i feel GENUINE DREAD/SEVERE ANXIETY jjst SEEING her nnow

she doesnt CARE about anyone but herself shes a horrible peson i cant tell the store manager though cause she wont care either and manager Y has more clout than me so shell just twist my words and make me out as the bad guy as hte “CRAZY ONE” who cries and gets stressed (FOR COMPLETELY VALID REASONS AFTER BEING PUSHED OVER THE EDGE) even tthough i work SO FFRIKCING HARD and do SUCH A GOOD JOB and asdjanjsdhajshdas

i d ont know what to doo

i cant work another job because no where else pays as much or will let me do self checkout only, because being a cashier stresses me so muchh

ii...really wanntted to grow stuff and make preserves and sell bee products and work with folks raising heritage sheep and make more fiber art andd open a little stall at a local market and sell all that,, and offer more online and do customs andd stuff

i know i could mkae money that wa ybut i ccantt start it so sudenly and im too Broken to do it seriouslyy and i dont even want to HAVE to quit because of ONE PERSON But shes done this so many times now and this is the nfinfal streaww

i jjst dont know what to doo...

i cantt stop cryingg

i cant even enjoy christmas nnow. wanted to see my stepdad and give him his presernt and maybe be ok.

last christmas we had to move because our house was condemned after a fire. now im going to have to lose my job because of a horrible manager who doenst respect my metnal health or anything about me reallyy. and unfortunately im such a failure that i cant. do anything else and if i lose this job ill lse my animla sand i wotnt be able to do anyhtingg andd im jjust fucking trash

goddammit i dont know what to do. i really dont. hhahaaa. i just really want to end it. ive come so far and none of it fucking matters because of thiss fucking horrible manager.

#jjst...ffeels like shes violating somethingg #and treating me a LOT like how my abusive mother used to treat me #why are you CRYING? you cant be trying here. this is a BUSINESS.#is a lot like Why Do You look so MISERABLE all the time?? why are you CRYING??#and shit like IGNORING ME when i try to change my hours #straight up ignoring me #she basically made it clear shed rather me QUIT than fuckingg chop 2 hours off my AVAILABILITY #ITS SO FRUSTRATING #AND SHES SUCH A HYPROCRITE #scheduled 7-2 every sunday!!#yet you cant change my availability to 7-7??#you NEED ot keep it until 9???#but working until 9 and getting home around 10 and getting no sleep because i need to take care of my pets and myself #and get up at 5:30 the next morning for work at 7 #WHEN THAT COULD EASILY BE ALTERED BY CHIPPING A COUPLE HOURS OFF MY AVAILABILITY #AND MY DOCTOR ALSO THINKS I NEED TO CHANGE IT TOO #BUT WHO FUCKING CARES RIGHT ITS A BU S I N E S S #SURE SURE BUT WHEN A CUSTOMER FLIPS THE SIGN ON A $7.94 SHIRT #TO SAY 0.94 CENTS #WITH THE CENTS SIGN!!!!#THEN I HA V E TO HONOR IT #THATS A+ BUSINESS RIGHT THERE #BITCH DOESNT EVEN KNOW HOW TO APPROVE A COUPON ON SLEF CHECKOUT!!!!#AND OUR FRICKING STORE MAANGER MAKES TRIPLE FIGURES!!!#BUT NO ONE FUCKINGG CARES #NO ONE FUCKING CARES #I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMOREE #id dont want to have to lose my job and stability over this one person #but this isntt...ok #i shouldnt have to go to work and deal with MORE emotional abuse

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kathiestudies · 7 years

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hello! i recently graduated middle school (gonna be a freshman this fall!) and i’ve learned quite a bit during those three years. thus, i accumulated 15 tips to help others stay on track during middle school. i just uploaded a youtube video that has all of these tips, so you can either watch that or read this (or you can do both haha). if you do watch the youtube video please like & comment & subscribe ily! now let’s get on to the tips

don’t worry about your grades too much—nobody cares if you get a B+ in science instead of an A (coughme). colleges don’t look at your middle school grades. don’t stress out too much. in my middle school, the only thing rewarding about getting a 4.0 GPA all three years of middle school was recognition in the honor society + graduation ceremony and an extra certificate (and bragging rights)

EVEN SO (yes i am a hypocrite) don’t slack off! in middle school, you can prepare for high school. figure out what study methods are most helpful to you and stuff—it’s like a trial-and-error kind of process. for example, i tested out different study methods in middle school: rereading the textbook, taking/rewriting notes, using flashcards, etc. flashcards worked best for me, so now i know the basics of how i can study efficiently for high school. find out what works best for you!

get into a good mindset! this is so important. start thinking about your future (well, if you’re in sixth grade, you don’t really need to worry about this yet ahaha). i started thinking about college in eighth grade. now, you don’t have to do that, but it really helps to get you motivated to work your hardest in school. plan out your life. you want to be successful in life, not homeless. for example, i know someone who didn’t really think about their future all through high school. they didn’t do well in school and spent most of their time at home on tumblr and/or watching anime. now they are in their senior year of high school and kinda in deep trouble. don’t do that to yourself. you don’t want to finish high school knowing you could’ve done better, so get started in middle school.

don’t grow up too fast! you’re still a kid. act like a kid. thank u

adding on to the previous tip—there’s no need to get into a romantic relationship. you’re, like, twelve years old. i mean i get it—it’s fun to have crushes, but you and i both know they probably won’t last that long. unless you have a two-year-long crush then good luck

socialize! your friends in middle school will probably be your friends in high school as well. go hang out with them, facetime them, eat food with them, whatever. friends honestly are the best part of school—they make school so much more fun.

explore what you like! find what clothing style suits you, what sport you’re good at, what your hobbies and passions are, etc. try new things. it’s fun and will likely follow you through life. for example, in sixth grade, i did basically no extracurriculars. then in eighth grade, i joined green team, WEB (which is a program where eighth graders help sixth graders get used to middle school), and did community service. it was fun! i also ran for ASB. i failed. but i learned new things and it was fun as well. don’t be afraid to step outside your comfort zone.

don’t worry too much about your appearance! you’re only in middle school—everyone’s ugly in middle school. except for some people. but i’m ugly, so it’s ok igotchu anywayy don’t wear tons of makeup! it’s really unnecessary and time-consuming. if you really want to, though, then you do you, obviously. but really, there’s no need. confidence is more beautiful than a face caked in powder. you can slay life without makeup.

enjoy middle school while it lasts! you don’t really have to worry about anything until high school—you don’t have to worry about grades, your looks, blah blah blah. so just relax and have fun. spend time with your family and friends and cherish those moments. you’ll look back and smile.

a way to treasure those moments is to keep a journal/diary! you don’t have to write a page-long entry every day or anything—a few sentences a day is more than enough. for example, in my bullet journal, i wrote a few sentences about what fun things occured every day at the end of the day. even now, i can look back at my february weekly spreads and reminisce in those memories. furthermore, when you travel or when there’s a particularly special occasion, that’s when you should write a page-long entry! for example, when i went to china in the summer of seventh grade, i wrote a page-long journal entry every day for three weeks. it was actually pretty fun and now i can read those entries and smile! if i hadn’t written those entries, i barely would’ve remembered what i did in china. i also wrote journal entries for when i had a snow day or when my cousin came to visit for the first time in years. SELF-PROMO CHECK OUT MY BLOG IF YOU WANT TO READ MY CHINA TRAVEL DIARY

use technology wisely! i love social media. it helps you stay in contact and get closer to friends. however, be careful. don’t do anything online that you will regret.

love your family! a bunch of tweens/teens hate their parents and stuff, but i’ve always tried to show as much love and appreciation as i could for my parents. they’ve done so much for me and my sibling and i love them to death. yes, parents might be embarrassing or strict every so often, but they really just want the best for you. unless they’re actually mean parents in which case call your school counselor

be respectful to teachers. they might seem like they hate you, but they choose to spend time with children for a reason. they love teaching and they love kids. also, it’s natural to dislike some teachers more than others, but you shouldn’t be rude or anything. this way teachers will like you more and they might be more lenient on you if you forget to turn in an assignment (...wink)

stop worrying about what other people think! i’ve struggled with this a lot in the past. i still do! i think everyone does, tbh. but really, why would you care about what your peers think? in ten years you probably won’t remember who they are. therefore, do whatever the hell you want and have fun.

surround yourself with people who will help better you as a person! for example, in eighth grade my friends were mainly overachievers. that DEFINITELY helped me get AMAZINGGGGG grades. like holy crap my grades were so high in eighth grade and i don’t mean to brag but really spend time with good people. my friends viewed 100%s as the norm. that mentality transferred over to me, which was reflected in my grades. in conclusion, spend time with people who will study with you and work hard in school with you. spend time with people who will make you smile and laugh when you’re feeling down. don’t spend time with people who make you feel down. and don’t spend time with drug addicts

well that’s it for this masterpost! i hope you found this helpful. feel free to add more tips if you reblog! thank you so much for reading all the way through :^)

previous masterpost: how to prepare for the upcoming school year

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x kathie

08.27.17

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