#anyway suffer with us :D
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Don’t imagine the Perfect Captain Ending where the Captain has to go clean out Mark’s locker, only to find the cologne he always wore.
And don’t imagine the Captain taking the bottle for themself because now he’s gone but hey, at least they can still be reminded of him like this.
And don’t imagine the Captain spraying it on every now and then to imagine that they are still near him in some kind of way.
And definitely don’t imagine how devastated they are the day that the cologne runs out.
#iswm#in space with markiplier#perfect captain ending#this is all based in the idea they knew eachother before getting on the ship btw#which is how a lot of my friends imagine it ajdnfdk-#anyway suffer with us :D#iswm captain#iswm mark#captaineer
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all I wanted was to save them... (ID in alt)
#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#tw blood#let me know if there's any other tags i need to use!!! not sure if it counts as gore#ruporas art#*vash voice* YOU ARE NOT WRONG/LOST WOLFWOOD!!!!!!#i think very often about ch 49 where wolfwood thought it was fr over for him for that brief moment. he was already bearing with so much#fatigue that it wasn't going to be enough for him to fight back properly.. and ough... augh..... for the first time after bearing that cros#someone saved him. someone saved himmmm AUGHHHH <-- guy who can't be normal about it even though its been 7 months since i read it#but he's suffered alone for so long and continued to do so because it's all he ever knew in those short years#and its devastating. his one and only desire was simple and it was still difficult for him to reach T_T#anyway... i love him... holds him tenderly in my palms
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pls i need to provide updates
#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year#and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire#and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f#friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl#acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what#are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and#friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me!#LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after#everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to#invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me#i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother#and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids#so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo#any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷♀️#but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd#and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk#THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date#w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a#few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay#scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK#like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl#like is that even doable#but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much#.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us#god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x#but it would be soooo funny#I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed#popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x#i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like#its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe
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Waddles in here, places down my Dungeon Meshi insert, and waddles away into the night–
#i decided on gnome for the insert!!#those lil facts are all true about me btw :D#i suffered Foot Abuse and decided to finally shove it onto an insert#ALSO ARCHERY WHEEHEE. i am the only one of my friends who genuinely enjoys archery in fantasy settings#unironically plays stealth archers in skyrim and loves using bows in destiny#in this house we archery#sci's art#sci inserts#si: stella pittor#anyway shes kissing laios#and possibly my other crush in dunmeshi who i am Not Saying Yet
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I have panic disorder and it sucks. But I just made it to the double digits! No panic attacks for 10 days straight due to healing and meds! (*/∇＼*)
#art#my persona#panic disorder#I CAN’T BELIEVE I MADE IT 10 DAYS WITHOUT A PANIC ATTACK!!!#I used to have them multiple times a day and gosh was it exhausting#I’m trying to come out and speak about it more because I know other people are suffering too#this feels like a really big accomplishment for me :D#from multiple times a day to none???#that doesn’t mean I don’t get anxious but there is a a difference between anxiety attacks and panic attacks :D#anxiety attacks can be brought on by thoughts are triggers#for me panic attacks come out of no where with no real threat#it’s like your body is giving a false alarm#anyway I’ll give myself a pat on the back :D
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Round 5 match-ups!
The gradually updated table with all the poll results
Round 4 results
(I honestly don't know why I keep making this table but it has meme cats)
Group 1 finals
Catbus (My Neighbor Totoro) vs Tabby Slime (Slime Rancher)
Group 2 finals
Shoe + Wagahai (Ace Attorney) vs Baron Humbert von Gikkingen (The Cat Returns)
Group 3 finals
Findus (Pettson and Findus) vs Ghost (The Owl House)
Group 4 finals
Hobbes (Calvin and Hobbes) vs Spot (Star Trek: The Next Generation)
Group 5 finals
Salem Saberhagen (Sabrina the Teenage Witch) vs Khoshekh (Welcome to Night Vale)
Group 6 finals
Thomas O'Malley + Aristocats (Aristocats) vs Pusheen (Pusheen)
Group 7 finals
Jiji (Kiki's Delivery Service) vs Tom (Tom and Jerry)
Group 8 finals
Meowth (Pokémon) vs Schrödinger's cat (you know the one)
Not so many rounds left huh 👀👀
All the polls will come out April 4th 7pm GMT. Together, because what's the point dividing them further. If they don't, that means I probably crumbled under the heavy load of whatever last-minute assignments they're giving us at the uni so hard I didn't have a minute to make eight pictures and polls.
#for chrissake I hate teachers who forget to send us a new assignment after class and then suddenly remember that the day before the next one#sure I'll do the bloody translation of course I didn't have anything else to do in my free time anyway#sorry for being bitter on the poll blog :D#best fictional cat#cats#competitions#some of this match-ups are cruel to me specifically just so you know I'm also suffering
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Have any of the other Links seen Legend pull on his feathers? If so how did they react to seeing it for the first time? Also if they do know that he pulls when upset do they try getting his mind somewhere else like Warriors teasing him or the others allowing him to preen them?
Hello my friend! Excellent question! The answer is yes, everyone in the group has seen Legend pull at his feathers at LEAST once because it's kind of second nature to him now. Now the level of extremity they've seen of his plucking does vary between different Links however. For example, Time and Sky are the main ones who see him when he's REALLY bad to the point where he needs physical intervention because he's literally shaking and bleeding from it, whereas the younger members like Wind and Four usually only ever really see the "fidgeting" side of it.
You can basically compare his everyday feather fiddling as the equivalent of somebody biting their fingernails or repeatedly picking at a scab wound. It's usually not too bad, and it's a minor inconvenience at worst, but the severity of it can change depending on circumstances and can become a real problem if left alone.
As for how the others reacted to seeing his plucking for the first time, it actually wasn't that exciting or significant of an experience! The only one who was really concerned from the beginning was our resident bird lover Sky, mainly because he's had experience in seeing how that behavior can escalate into a real problem in both Loftwings and Hylians alike.
Now this is not to shame or underestimate the observational and emotional skills of the other Links by any means! In their defense, when they first saw Legend fiddling with his feathers it seemed to be a very casual, normal experience for him and they genuinely saw no harm in it. Again, it's like watching somebody absentmindedly biting their fingernails or picking at a scab. You don't usually put much thought into it.
However, once they witnessed his first really bad "episode" since joining the group, their opinions regarding the matter completely changed. Now, whenever the others start to notice him spiraling, they often act in many of the ways you listed! Whether they're teasing him or simply offering to spar with him, their ultimate goal is to distract him and keep his mind and hands busy. Any other efforts such as forcibly trying to make him rest or forcing him to talk about it usually just results in more yelling and fighting than actually helping, so they try to focus their efforts more on distraction rather than confrontation. This has resulted in many preening sessions that were...harsher than they needed to be and resulted in a lot more discomfort rather than actual helping, but the others are more than happy to make those sacrifices for their brother.
Anyways, I just wanted to say thank you again for all of your questions!!! I'm always more than happy to go into more detail if you have any further questions or theories! :D
#winged au#LUWAU#Linked Universe: Winged AU#linked universe#linkeduniverse#loz#loz link#legend of zelda#lu legend#AHHHH!!! Thank you again for your questions friend!!!#I got so excited when I saw the notification because my greatest passions are my boys birds and making my favorites suffer#I could've gone on but realized that the length of my post was getting out of control again lol#Contrary to popular belief I do in fact have some self control when it comes to rambling#I just don't use that skill very often as seen by the majority of my posts#Anyways#That's irrelevant#But I hope this response was able to answer all your questions friend! :D
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Me, looking at vulgar french words for penis: Oh neat they also have Verga
Also tbt to the time a teacher of mine said "Le bilo bitte" instead of Bic and we spent a full hour laughing
"verge" is commonly used in french smut and is at least marginally better than "membre" which is a nightmare imo. "organe" is another euphemism which i feel like you need to be very confident in order to pull off. i haven't written smut in french in so long i'd like to write some this year
"bite" is always funny altho i do think going a step further and reaching for "teub" gives it a real special flavor
#la réponse d#also bite is just always a riot in english.#french smut is a lot less vulgar than in english in general funnily enough at least in fic#people will use euphemisms for everything. even in like pwp#i saw 'bite' only in like. two fics back when i was researching for my in-universe fanfiction#i do have a soft spot for 'verge' tho even if it's silly#when i was writing the bad french smut i wanted to try and use 'engin' somewhere but couldn't do it#i do think augustine would use 'engin' to talk about lysandre's dick to aggravate him tho.#would probably make puns and jokes about him being an engineer.#anyway sorry for going in a tangent i am still shiniless and suffering💔#talking about funny peepee words helps#WHY DID A BUNCH OF THE WORDS GET ADDED AS TAGS LMFAO.#ohhhh it's bc i forgot not to use quotes oughhhhhhh brain empty#okay i'll fix this on pc later but first missing word was bite. second was uhh i think verge. last was ENGIN#my tags are ruined but i'm not retyping all that sry#i fixed it on pc.
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good update;
they told me to brush my teeth and i didnt hate doing it for once :D
being like, somewhat forced to take care of myself by a person i like actually isnt as bad as i thought
#j isnt suffering for once?#j is still down bad as fuck#j is down bad and doesnt know how to deal with it#by “forced” i really just mean that they know id do literally anything for them#theyre literally just said to brush my teeth lmao 💀#its kinda shocking how they use that ‘against’ me so that i take care if myself#opposed to how *they* used it#sojdbrndns anyways anyways not tryinf to ruin the mood :D
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Goal: Be normal
Obstacle: Watching literally any interpretation of Treasure Island, apparently
#Why's it Stevenson again. What has he done for me lately (Jekyll and Hyde)#That was like the one book that I just straight up refused to read in school and it's back to haunt me#And honestly I'd be fine if it was just one thing! But no it's a weird fucked up web of loving stuff!#'Cause first of all it's RLS as previously states - Jekyll and Hyde author (love) which just puts me in a clone/doppleganger state of mind#Okay fine I'm already there you got me#But then you've got me in a pirates mood which my brain Is Still After All This Time in love (love!) with the Pirate Fic#And it super doesn't help that Treasure Planet is also sci-fi as if I wasn't aliens enough lol#But like the relationship between Silver and Hawkins and growing into your own person and just jfskalfsdf#Stop being good! Stop it! You're giving me Feelings and Feelings spawn Ideas and I Am Trying To Edit!!#I am backlogged to fuck btw I am suffering :'D I legit might have to pump the breaks I have so much to edit#We're talking in the hundreds - meanwhile my brain is trying to point me back to the Pirate Fic because look ♥ Authors (love) Stories (love)#Stop your nonsense! I'm trying to focus!#Doesn't help that I haven't drawn for a couple days either so The Energy is building meanwhile I'm trying to wall up against the flood#Stop making! The two halves are out of whack! I'm making way way Way more than I can keep up with!#Editing has gotten boring as well which is :/ It did used to be relaxing but I'm just so impatient now#I want to draw! But then I also want to show off what I've drawn! But I want it to be pretty!#I need to tear through this notebook - drawing brain likes this idea and editing brain hates it - 'cause the paper is subpar :/#Dark lines with a grain that catches graphite not fun to work with - fine to draw on but a pain to edit#Anyway lol ♪ Back to what I was doing before#Update: WAIT I forgot the Feelings I had about Arrow fjdslakfdjf#The dynamics are non-specific and apply all the way around because I say so
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Sorry guys but now matt hancock is here I genuinely can't watch it anymore
#no shade to the people who will continue! i just have my limits#man makes sweat with anger and i know how powerful the reality tv redemption cycle can be#and i just cant ethically be a part of that#(i mean in a small way thats what got boris johnson into power)#even making him suffer feels like the viewership would become complicit in his rebranding#if i was a celebrity (big if) i would just walk off the show#and grrrrr a&d arent thick they know how this reality redemption cycle works!!!!!#the tens of thousands of deaths this man caused from his direct acctions cannot be forgiven im sorry#similarly i stopped watching taskmaster when they tried this with baroness warsi#'ohoho tories are just like us they can be funny and human too' yes but they are still part of the same killing machine#anyway fuck#cris watches iac
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being julieta is s u f f e r i n g (derogatory; /srs; no /j)
#used an image from the [redacted] anime to emphasise on the suffering™️#pl s lemme sleep i need to be up at 6 in the am c r i e s#i’ve been tryinggngnfngngngn to sleep for the past 2 and half hours but cursed lxl ideas plague my mind instead of sleep and i auauaudufujxh#g o a w a y lxl pls come back when i’m more well rested thanks (<-says this despite usually being even grumpier with sufficient sleep)#i keep tryinggngnfng to sleeeep but i always somehow end up on the lxl side of pixiv and auauauu it’s a vicious cycle fr#a c tu al l y in tears rn pls claim me sleep i love sleep i wanna sleep 25/8 i’d marry sleep if i could so p l s. lemme sleeeeeeep#though. i did try to chase lxl away with minami and amended my kareshikaku tl a little so it reads a little better now at parts.. i think.#but that didn’t help in the long run auuauauauaaaaaa i wanna sleep so bad but i can’tttttt#c. considering the thought of taking some chlorpheniramine for the drowziness side effect tbh#b u t then i’d prolly oversleep and miss work and that’d be troublesome as heck…#nvm i usually end up crashing the moment i resolve to stay up for the entire night anyway so. i’ll. hope for the best.#go d. im gonna. regret posting this in the morning aren’t i. <-master of regretful posts#wa it if i can’t think straight atm i should just… tHINK BEE!!!!! THINKING BEE!!! THINKINGNFNFNFNF BEEEEEEEEEEEER
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⚔️ // she felt DISHONEST.
as though she were BETRAYING HER FRIEND right then and there , by not staying. as she walked away yellow carnations sprouted from her hair. into the fabric of her coat , bursting through skin and climbing vines up her wrists and ankles. byleth grimaced and tore them out. she shuddered as the front door closed behind her.
her chest heaved.
in her empty house with no one around and no one to watch as pain lanced through byleth’s chest , she slid down , DOWN , down the door frame.
the lump in her throat worsened.
if she had a heart , perhaps it might stutter. perhaps it might stop. but it didn’t. and she fiddled with the edges of her cloak before drawing her knees to her chest.
. . . perhaps she should go back.
make sure he got his gift. ensure he was okay.
after all , his abode was only a block down. she could — . . . what? wait in the cold for footsteps that wouldn’t come? for a door that wouldn’t open? watch while his eyes burned cold , if the door did reveal him? stay helplessly silent as dimitri snarled , told her it was a WORTHLESS ENDEAVOR , and turned his back? ( again ? )
her eyes closed as fragments of time spun in the darkness there. . . . glimmers of a chapel in ruins . . . of a blue cloak. of a voice that rumbled low as it snarled out words she couldn’t place.
byleth’s head ached as more flowers bloomed there.
the lump suddenly lodged within byleth’s throat , constricting her lungs as it whistled through her teeth. her shoulders SHOOK and HEAVED before byleth coughed and CHOKED — before her lungs , with great effort , spluttered out. she spat out the lump - the OBJECT - out into her hands , fingers tinged red and mouth tasting of copper from all of the words she hadn’t said , and all of the words she hadn’t written down either.
( and the iris petals had fallen from her desk with each penned word , just as more flowers bloomed and choked the earth in its place. )
. . . a garden anemone. its petals were pale and white and fragile. they shook in her hand as she lifted it to eye level. tainted only by the red in her hands.
another to add to the growing pile of dead and wilted flowers torn from her hair and her skin and her clothes. ( dizzy. she was — suddenly feeling dizzy. with pain from flowers blooming and crawling up her skin ; fatigue from - she didn’t really know what from , anymore. )
byleth twirled the anemone between her fingers. she slowly , slowly , stood to her feet.
she would push through this.
ENDURE.
the anemone fell to the floor with the rest of them.
perhaps she would check on him another day.
when she wouldn’t choke on petals and flower bulbs.
#( fun fact garden anemones/windflowers = rejection in victorian flower language)#(what a fantastic flower to perfectly encapsulate her ENTIRE. VIBE. IN GENERAL. W EVERYONE SHE KNOWS ;;V;;)#(she's ok. she's fine.)#choking tw#hanahaki tw#(well kind of it's not actually bUT the concept of the crocus event)#(giving u pain and growing flowers all over u from things u haven't said)#(listen byleth is the type to suffer in silence :'D she'll just stay quiet and keep it to herself and Stay Strong)#(until nobody needs her to be anymore)#(yes i am saying for every secret she keeps and lie she tells and has told and continues to tell)#(for everything she refuses to say and tear she refuses to shed and pain she won't release)#(because 'she can't yet')#(is one more flower to bloom and choke on)#(one more emotion to choke her :D)#(except literally in this case)#(yeah anyways so nobody asked for this but here we are)#drabble#event // a crocus among us#areadri#(hmmmmmmmmmm yea)
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sigh. the weather is absolutely kicking my ass AND i am vitamin d deficient again so i am EXHAUSTED. getting my 2k words in is gonna be a bitch
#she bork#tbd#my thumbs hurt so so bad bc i've sprained them so many times i have bone spurs and the weather is very rainy and damp so it's making them#hurt real bad. the rest of my body hurts too (like my right knee gets it really bad even though i've never injured it??) but my thumbs are#by far the worst. which unfortunately i will need those for typing. as for the vitamin d lol i ran out of my vitamin d gummies and w rent#coming up and my bank fucking me mercilessly i don't have the money rn to buy more. i'm gonna have to wait until payday next friday. it just#sucks bc i like can hardly stay awake when i'm deficient in vitamin d like back before i had my labwork done and found out i was deficient i#used to sleep 12-14 hours a day and STILL be fucking tired when i was awake. feels like i'm wasting my fucking life. anyway so yes i'm#suffering but nonetheless we persevere and i will still get my words in. i just might fall asleep immediately afterwards
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you. yes you, the one who wrote I've Got No Time to Live (And I Cant Say Goodbye) and Startled by Yourself (Still) aka the Doodleduo (MK&inkMK) fanfics that lives in my head rent free 24/7
you, author. i'd like to say thank you. theres barely any fics with them and seeing that you made TWO???? REALLY GOOD??? ONES????? EXPLODES. made my day.
also im making a physical book with one of them bc i need to read this at school too. 🥰🥰🥰 (also for practicing my book binding skills :P)
HI! Yes that is me! (*^^*)♡ AND TYSM!
I absolutely adore them SM, there's SO MUCH FUN you can have writing these two it drives me up the wall in the best way possible. And ofc! There's so little fics for them, and I LOVE THEM SM! Their interactions live in my head rent free 24/7. IT'S SO INTERESTING!
AND OMG I did not know the dynamic had a NAME? And good luck with the book binding skills! That's so exciting and I'm so flattered you're gonna do it with one of own my fics, thank you omg. ( 〃▽〃) You're making MY day with this message, ty! (´,,•ω•,,)♡
#asks#words that make me feel things#tysm for the message anon! :D#legit giggling and kicking my legs rn#AND RAHHHH i am so obsessed with the doodleduo it's so hard to vocalize#how there isn't more ppl going bonkers of their dynamic is mind boggling#THEY'RE SO INTERESTING#first of all as a dynamic all their own#and then as a reflection of mk's inner thoughts and how he sees himself#and you can strip back the layers even further#is inky mk a reliable source if mk isn't? and the CYCLE of LACK of self acceptance when Inky MK attacks him and MK attacks right back USING#MACAQUE'S OWN FUCKING MOVE BACK AT HIM HELLO?#the first moment of betrayal echoed out by a version of urself that KNOWS how painful that moment meant to you? ON PURPOSE?#and then the WHY ink mk does it as well#is he just the scroll tormenting mk? then why is mk's biggest nightmare himself? if that IS mk's inner thoughts THEN what does inky mk RLLY#want?#does he want to go apeshit or does he want to apeshit so he can stop suffering and fighting back against a world that keeps pulling#him in one specific direction?#Anyways hi yes hello i think about them alot#legos rattling inside my brain
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#ooc; kogi rambles#queerphobia /#//sometimes i remember the violent bigotry i've suffered#//& every way the l/d/s church damaged me#//& am very proud that i came out on top#//like tf u cunts can throw at me now shy of death?#//planet's on fire anyway so even then I'm not sure that freaks me out like it should#//in ur efforts to eradicate us uve made a pack of cockroaches gl getting rid of us now
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