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thief-of-eggs · 2 months
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No but you don’t understand. In years to come, one day Neil and Andrew will finally hit a point of complete trust, where both of them are still a bit cracked and shattered, still riddled with stone walls and iron gates to guard themselves- but with eachother, those walls are down.
Neil will still have nightmares, because those don’t ever fully go away. He’ll wake up screaming or nauseous, but the thing is- he won’t feel the need to hide it. He’ll instinctually turn to Andrew for comfort, instinctively letting him in, letting him see the twisted damaged version of himself that lies under his surface.
And Andrew? Andrew will open his arms for him without a second of hesitation. He’ll let Neil fall into his embrace, therefore allowing touch that isn’t fully spelled out or perfectly permissioned. He’ll let Neil cling to him as he chokes on his own breath, he’ll sooth him with careful touches and nonsense words.
And in that moment of brokenness- both of them will realize that they’re one step closer to whole.
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fortheloveofexy · 5 months
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personally i think Andrew gets jealous soooo easily. like he literally warned Nicky off from Neil with a knife and was so afraid his brother would ditch him for a girl that he made him swear to a "bros before hoes" pact. he has so many possessive tendencies, that man is JEALOUS.
a key part of his character is that he is convinced nobody would want to be around him without something in return. he literally makes deals because he doesn't trust people to stay with him. that man doesn't know the meaning of secure attachment! he's never even seen it before!
even if Andrew logically knows Neil is demi and doesn't feel attraction towards anyone else, that's not gonna snuff out his bone deep belief that he is disposable. he's gonna feel jealous and possessive and even insecure at times, even if he won't outwardly show it.
this isn't to say he doesn't learn how to have a secure attachment style with Neil or that their relationship is unhealthy. it just wouldn't be unusual for Andrew to experience extremely jealous feelings, feelings that he'll have to work through with Neil and also with Bee
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iambeetle · 1 year
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Do you think that Neil ever gets worried that Andrew will actually get bored of him eventually?
Like maybe after practice one day he'll be rambling to Andrew about exy plays and how the practice could've gone better. He stops mid sentence as he realizes he has been talking about the same thing for five days now. He goes quiet as he searches his brain for a new thing to ramble about to keep Andrew interested. To keep himself interesting.
But then Andrew says, "keep going, I'm listening" and Neil's face lights up as he continues his rant.
Andrew doesn't really listen to the words Neil is saying, he just listens to Neil's voice because the sound of it is comforting and grounding. Andrew will never get bored of Neil or Neil's rants because he could never get bored his voice.
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andreilsupremacy · 6 months
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[In the team bus with Neil walking around while they’re driving on the highway]
Andrew: Neil, sit down.
Neil: Don’t tell me what to do.
[Neil crashing in the background when the bus turns]
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ohmycuckoo · 1 year
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idkw but I'm pretty sure they spend a lot of time just staring at each other 
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allforthe-gays · 9 months
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andrew: no one is allowed to touch a hair on kevin’s head. he cannot be damaged.
*neil in the background climbing kevin like a tree clawing his eyes out trying to get the remote because kevin keeps turning the volume up all the way on the tv whenever neil tells him that he and andrew are about to take a nap and dear god neil just wants to sleep*
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peterpatterr · 1 year
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I think over Neil’s sophomore year at PSU he slowly starts to reveal his real, unfiltered personality, and each of the Foxes have their own realization of why him and Andrew are actually perfect for each other.
If they thought Andrew was crazy, just fucking wait until they see Neil truly angry, until they hear about some of the things he’s had to do, about his own twisted morals, until he stops faking emotions to fit in and instead allowing himself to remain blunt and seemingly emotionless half the time. He’s not at all the boy they thought he was, but they love him all the same.
This also causes them to rethink their opinion of Andrew - they saw the rough parts of him first, whereas Neil’s came out later. Maybe there’s more to Andrew after all, especially as he starts allowing the occasional emotion to slip out.
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numnue · 1 year
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hc that andrew is really good at jeopardy and whenever it's just him and neil sitting in the dorm living room - and eventually their own living room later on - he'll just sit and answer each one word-for-word while neil watches, amazed
maybe neil is also super good (idk man i just think he holds on to useless info since he'll never know when he might need it) and they compete to see who can get the most points between the two
whenever neil beats andrew he just gives him the most smug smirk that andrew has to kiss off his face (and it has nothing to do with the fact that the smirk maybe makes andrews knees weak and ears hot, and maybe he lets him win sometimes just to see the easy confidence that neil takes on, maybe)
and one day the foxes are there to witness the back-and-forth between them and they're like "you guys should go on the show" and i just know that andrew would think that winning jeopardy would be the funniest thing ever and neil would like that it showed his new freedom in that he could go on live tv with no risk.
so they apply and get on the show (idk how that works) and immediately act like they don't know each other, they're just contestants to each other. and quickly they start trash-talking each other, i mean come on, and the host probably mentions that they're both professional exy players and have been on teams together in the past, so they probably trash talk each other about that even more
and it gets to the point where the old (or maybe new idk) minyard-josten rivalry hashtag starts trending again and at this point they're not publicly out so everybody believes they just really hate each other
anyways, andrew eventually wins (IM SRY BUT I JUST THINK HE'D BE BETTER BECAUSE OF HIS MEMORY) and they ask what he's going to do with the prize money and he turns to neil and is like "i'll probably take my husband on vacation, but i wouldn't know where he'd want to go" and neil smiles at him and is like "anywhere is fine as long as i'm with you" and thats how they come out to the public
"minyard-josten marriage?!" trends for a month after that
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ravenexy · 9 months
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something about neil and aaron always "hating' each other but kinda learning to care about each other means so much to me i cant even???
just imagine it's the middle of the night or something, and neil is being an idiot and somehow manages to hurt himself and he can't reach the injury so he needs help. he doesn't go to andrew. he goes to aaron. yes, aaron will give him a lot of shit about it jokingly, but he'd use the most gentle hands, stay with neil for a few minutes after to make sure he's okay and he doesn't have any other injuries. insults will never seize to flow off of his tongue, but his mannerisms will still be full of care
now i'm thinking of an au where they might've become best friends someone stop me
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deadpoetsdarling · 1 year
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when ronan lynch said “maybe i dreamt you” and andrew minyard said “you are a pipe dream”
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double-aa-batteries · 4 months
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"Neil reached for a gun and hit Andrew's arm instead" (TKM, 323).
We've already talked about what this means for neil. the symbolism that Neil keeps important things under his pillow, safety/protection is no longer a gun but Andrew and his family etcetera etcetera but what about what it means for Andrew?? what about the that fact that this is a king bed (312)?? these boys are tiny and a king bed is designed to comfortably fit two average sized adults plus plenty of breathing room. since this is their first time sharing a bed and considering Andrew's past and how set his boundaries with touch are, one would assume they'd each keep pretty strictly to their own sides of the bed. Even Neil alludes beforehand that he wonders if Andrew won't be comfortable with this (312) but no! in a large king bed, with plenty of space for both of them and probably also a whole body of empty space between then, Andrew is close enough to Neil to have his arm under Neil's pillow.
and even more than that, Neil mentions he went to bed before Andrew and "made himself comfortable on his side of the bed" and "he woke up briefly when Andrew came in, but drifted off again as soon as Andrew settled down" (323). We know from other places that neither of them really moves in their sleep, and that Neil didn't move from his side of the bed after he turned in for the night. That can only mean that Andrew made the conscious decision to lie close to Neil. He made the decision to lie close to him while he slept, in a vulnerable and unguarded state, a state that many people had taken advantage of so many times before in his life
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juicegremlin · 2 years
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Andreil + Physical Intimacy
Neil is usually the little spoon, but every once in a while, Andrew will let Neil press himself against his back, ghost his lips over the skin of his nape. He’ll let Neil hold a hand over his heart to feel his rapid, living pulse, and Neil will whisper, “Who’s the rabbit now?”
Andrew likes to ruck Neil’s shirt up in the mornings while they’re still in bed. He’ll trace the scars on his stomach, the lithe carvings of muscle. If things are headed in a particular direction, Andrew will run his tongue along his favorite lines.
When Neil is looking to drive Andrew crazy, he’ll take his thumb and drag it along Andrew’s lower lip. He’ll take Andrew’s earlobe between his teeth, walk his fingertips down the length of his spine. All Andrew can do is hold onto Neil’s shoulders for dear life.
When Andrew is looking to drive Neil up the wall, all he has to do is show off a little. Put in some effort on the court, give Matt a run for his money at the gym. One time, Andrew wore his (and Neil’s) favorite muscle tee to bench in and Neil actually biffed it on the treadmill.
Neil will sit on Andrew’s lap when there isn’t enough room. The other Foxes have learned not to mention it. Card games are the only exception; Neil is a chronic and compulsive cheater.
When Andrew can’t stand the feeling of his own skin, let alone someone else’s, the closest Neil can get is the other end of the couch. He doesn’t waste the space, though—fills it with various details about his day, interesting things he read online, things he likes about Andrew. Andrew grips the lifeline with both hands and lets it drag him back to safety. When he finally gets there, Neil’s arms are open, loving, and ready.
Neil’s bad days are characterized by sporadic bouts of dissociation. Andrew doesn’t like to touch him when he’s like that, but Neil has made it clear that it’s okay—it helps—so Andrew will clamp a hand over the back of his neck. He’ll stroke his thumb over the bone that juts out at the top of his spine, press his forehead against Neil’s. “You are Neil Josten,” he’ll say. “You are real, and you are home.”
When they move in together after college, Andrew declares Sundays a “no-run” day. Sometimes, Neil sleeps in with him. Others, he’ll roll out of bed to make them both breakfast. When that happens, Andrew will find him in the kitchen and wrap his arms around his waist from behind, forehead pressed into the space between Neil’s shoulders. Neil will smile, let the back of his head rest against the top of Andrew’s, because this is it, for him—Andrew will always be it.
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fortheloveofexy · 1 year
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andrew fiddling with neil's fingers when he's anxious and itching to fidget with something but he's fresh out of cigarettes. he used to reach for his knives for this sort of thing, but these days neil's hands are often in much closer proximity.
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purpleshadow-star · 2 years
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Hc that once Andrew is more comfortable with touch, Neil will just put his legs over Andrew's legs when they sit on the couch and no one comments on it. It's just normal. They just sit there and have team discussions with Neil halfway on top of Andrew.
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neilsracquet · 1 year
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andrew minyard really was the definition of liking someone so much that every single thing they do annoys you
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jsctens · 1 year
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 ok but have we considered
- before andrew leaves to play pro during neil’s last year of school, he conveniently forgets to pack a bunch of his old ‘MINYARD’ fox merch (definitely not intentionally at all) (he does not like the idea of neil wearing his clothes when he’s missing him shut ur mouth)
- and bc neil can read andrew he knows EXACTLY what he’s up to but he just smiles to himself about it bc if he says anything he’s SCREWED and tbh andrew’s fox sweaters are so much softer than his and they smell better and he’s going to miss andrew so fucking much—
- neil’s worn andrew’s team merch before but only around the dorm or the house in columbia (once, to practice, when he came back from a run half-dead on his feet in the morning and grabbed the first warm thing he laid his hands on in his dresser. the locker room was an insufferable place to be that day)
- neil is somewhat used to missing people now that he’s lived through all of the original foxes leaving, and as much as he knows andrew leaving is going to hurt worse he still doesn’t expect to use the sweaters much except for nights when everything gets too loud and he desperately needs something to ground him
- but nope
- he wears a MINYARD hoodie the day andrew leaves. andrew kisses him just that much harder for it.
- when the semester starts up again and Neil’s loneliness creeps in on him faster than expected, he starts wearing the hoodies and shirts almost everyday.
- especially when he’s on the court. he loves exy regardless of who he’s playing with but being on a court without both andrew and kevin leaves him feeling aching and unsteady. nostalgia is not easy to reconcile, is what Bee had told him when he’d described it to her. he’s never had anything in his life to be nostalgic for. the new feeling sits like water in his lungs.
- so he wears andrew’s team merch to practice, and to team meetings, and basically everywhere he can. for the first 2 weeks of the season, Josten merch is extinct.
- it gets to the point where the entirety of the freshman players just . think neil’s last name is Minyard .
- none of the rest of the team says anything bc they already Know about neil and andrew and even though none of them really understood andrew (besides robin) they understand that neil and andrew are two halves of a whole
- but the freshman are just like . o yea thats captain minyard bc neil is terrifying and no way in hell are they calling him by his first name. they’ve only ever referred to him exclusively as ‘Captain’ on the court.
- the day this gets exposed some dopey freshman backliner walks into the lounge for morning practice and just goes “Hey, has anyone seen Minyard?”
- the entire room (besides the freshmen) FREEZES
- wymack whips around from where he’s been talking to abby and just goes “the fuck?”
- and the backliner is just like uhhh……. our team captain?
- wymack: what, and i can’t stress this enough, the fuck?
- everyone is just standing in utter bewilderment. the freshmen are now confused bc why is everyone else confused????
- and then robin bursts out laughing
- for like 5 minutes straight my girl is clutching her stomach in TEARS
- when she finally comes up for air she just goes “HE MEANS NEIL. NEIL MINYARD”
- at this point Neil has walked into the room and is like wtf is taking everyone so long
- and lo and behold, he’s wearing a Minyard hoodie
- the rest of the veteran team are losing it now. Wymack is holding his head in his hands. neil is, as always, oblivious and annoyed.
- then robin goes, “sorry we’re late, Minyard”. Neil is confused as fuck but also . ouch. he hasn’t heard that name spoken in this locker room in so long it feels like both a punch to the gut and a breath of fresh air hearing it again
- the rest of the team veterans join in on it. “We’ll be right there, Minyard” .”What are our teams for scrimmages, Minyard?”
- at this point the freshman can tell they’re being made fun of. abby takes pity on them and explains that neil’s last name is Josten. Minyard is …. and when she comes up short on a word to describe andrew to neil, she turns to look at neil
- who just goes, “andrew’s my person. get your asses on the fucking court.”
- the team milks the shit out of it. the joke goes on for a good WEEK before the freshman have to be like OKAY WE GET IT . WE’RE DUMB .
- neil isn’t even phased . he will continue to be a sap and wear andrew’s hoodies . (and maybe a tiny little part inside of him that he’s too scared to think about likes being called Minyard).
- eventually the joke dies down. but every once in a while someone will throw in a “See ya, Minyard” or a “What’s up, Minyard?” when they see neil
- wymack thinks the whole thing is somewhat hilarious until neil submits a personal information update form at the end of the year. he nearly files for early retirement the entire time he’s putting in an order for “JOSTEN-MINYARD” team merchandise.
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