this song makes me think about Andre and his relationship with his dad.
I think Andre loved his parents but his relationship with his father specifically was very strained. I think Andre lived with the burden of obligation to following in his dad's footsteps. Never being praised by his dad definitely didnt help, and when he was finally told that his dad was proud of him, it was too late.
He had 17 years to praise Andre and be proud of him- support him and accommodate him and that never happened. Andre's father most likely believed he didnt need to tell Andre these things, that it was an understood thing since he's his dad. But, as Andre was harassed, bullied and ostracized, the lack of recognition from a parent can be a devastating weight.
His parents seemed to try, and Andre seemed to love them, though I don't think it was reaching his needs.
The only movie ever came out on this day in 2003. Andre and Cal are amazing characters, the acting in this movie is spectacular and LORD. IT IS FUCKING UNDERRATED. I love this movie and the boys with all my heart <3
there is something so heartbreaking about andre's gaze in the car scene with his dad, the one on the prom night. it's so.... full of everything and completely empty at the same time, if you know what I mean.
he never looks at his dad. his eyes are all over the place. i knows he's driving so it's partially justified, but it persists even when he seems to be just waiting at the traffic lights.
out of all the days, his dad chose the evening not even 2 days before the massacre to tell his son that he was proud of him, something he apparently had never done before. but the message never got through. it hit an invisible wall between them and it wasn't strong enough to tear it down. it was simply too late.
I can't help but think that to some extent, Andre feels sorry in that scene. not enough to back out, not enough for it to give him any hope, but he knows that this man right next to him will be thrown straight into the deepest pits of hell in just two days. and that man is proud of him.
but most of all, he feels sorry for himself.
maybe it's one of the moments when it gets to him how everything could have been so different, so casual. an ordinary life. but it's not. it could never be him. and he knows this.
but here he is, listening to his dad offering this grand gesture to help him pay off his car. little did he know his son didn't give a fuck about paying off a car. it's all so trivial compared to what was in store for both the father and the son.
low quality zero day stamps bc i was bored pls use them if u use them i will literally kiss u a million times on the forehead and tuck u into bed every night