Smth ive been thinking about since i reböogged that thing about men not getting comforted and how shitting on all men is fucking aweful.

And i experienced that.

i sorta socially transitioned into a more masculine role over the past year. And its astounding that there are actually people who treat me like predator or bad person since i had top surgery and go by masc pronouns.

It hurt.

Being openly told "youre not allowed to hug and cuddle because you are a man" when im not only not a man but non Binary, but also always have been treated like someone to trust with this stuff. Its just a hug. Just flopping on each other and watching a movie. But because im a "man" its suddenly all sexual and predatorial.

I have never felt as lonely as i did in that week meeting with these friends.

It was a hard pill to swallow.

And a wild mix between getting treated like a piece of shit because im masculine (they were btw not the first ones in my life to do that) and also still being treated like a woman by others with all pros and cons.

Treating all men like shit has consequences on trans folk too.

hi!! (god i hope the way i type doesnt rat me out skddk jesus at this point it might who even know i feel like its distinct but maybe thats just me idk) but!!! time to just Rant abt twwda, *sighs in the best way possible* ****this***** fic. man. the Very first thing it helped me (that was memorable to me) honestly was the whole acne thing where toph was like are you good looking and zuko’s like ‘well i have a scar and acne’ and toph’s like ‘acne’s a normal thing’ my hesrt just idk why but whenever i have a Bad day abt myself (or the parents are on my back abt it skdhdj i Hate that but thats Not what this rant is abt) im just like ‘its a normal thing’ and!!!! i got that from **your** fic!!! genuinely you Cannot understand how close twwda is to me as a person bc

the whole test anxiety? and zuko not telling his teachers he has trouble hearing? in the fifth grade i needed glasses Bad but i never told Anyone bc i felt Bad (still hold strong to this habit 😃) but God i just- i just *relate* and Finally.

the enby aang. ive been able yk even tell my irl ant me possibly being she/they (maybe even they/them) solely bc of your fic (i even told her that it was thanks to your fic and explained everything abt the whole enby aang!!!) ill seperate this mess into paragraphs skdhdk but!! please just know how Much you helped me

OH SHIT FUCK the whole a flower in shade can also grow in the sun. that Hit bc its like ‘you dont Need to suffer just bc you can survive in that condition, you deserve the basic necessities too’ and honestly when i read that i just sat there stunned like wow. so?? true??? i honestly just love you and your fic (okay bye sorry skdbdksk !!!!!)

thats my four paragraph essay for you boom <3

okay anon, it’s nearly 2:30 am (probably will be by the time i finish typing) so if im a bit incoherent i apologize. i just know im going to be busy tmrw and i didn’t want this to sit in my inbox (sorry to everybody else who didn’t get responses whoops)

(honestly idk who you are and i hope you feel comfy telling me at some point, but it’s okay if not!) (i do have a few guesses but i keep changing my mind so basically im clueless ahdhdjsks) (actually right after i typed that i noticed something that’s unique—i think—to you. the person i’m thinking of is absolutely lovely, but i’m not going to start guessing or anything cause if you don’t feel comfy having any identity connected to this, that’s okay! that’s what anon is for!! just do what makes you most comfy)

i love that the acne line resonated with you? i think you’re the second person to mention this and i 🥰! it’s such a throw away line but i always hate in fics when people make them high school age and then are like “except for his scar, zuko’s skin was smooth” or whatever the fuck. like no!!! high schoolers have acne!!! and obviously zuko is embarrassed of it, but sokka is just like dude. we all have it, im good looking and ive got acne so just don’t even worry. and that’s the energy im sending you (and your parents cause they better not be on your back about acne that’s dumb af) cause no one is judging your acne (they’re too busy worrying about their own) AND even if they were, that makes them a shitty person whose opinion doesn’t matter. you’re beautiful with acne

i want you to work on asking for help, like mx mak said, it’s not a limited resource! and often teachers/adults are happy to help you. (and often it’s their job/the law that they have to). but also? i wrote zuko missing shit in class being like “oh this is unrealistic if someone was missing what was being said in class they’d get notes from someone” and then i took a class where the prof spoke way too fast and my audio processing said NOPE and there would be days where my notes would just be question marks like zuko and i didn’t ask anyone for help. (i did start recording class which is literally illegal without permission but shhh it’s fine)

i’m so glad i was able to help you and please know i’m here to help in whatever capacity i can outside the fic as well. it’s kind of a joke that being trans is contagious but actually being able to hear about other people’s experiences is So Important. cause six months ago i could’ve confidently told you i was a cis girl and had been sure of that my whole life. but then i finally admitted to myself that my “thinking they/them pronouns were the coolest thing ever and kind of being jealous” thing was not very cis of me. and yeah, everyone’s experience is individual. but we can at least share our thoughts and what we learn to help each other. cause i wanna support you

you deserve MORE THAN basic necessities. you deserve so much more, but the necessities are a good place to start. treat yo self.

please don’t apologize!!! i appreciate this sm, i love you and your four paragraph essay <3

So my friend is basically gonna get with the man I have a crush on 🙃🥲🤡 She flirts with him so much Its not even funny and like is he a straight man who will never like me because im amab yes but it still hurts. I now get paranoid that this friend is going to tell my crush that I liked him and im sure she already has because she talks shit about literally everyone and im sure ive been talked about and shes told all of my secrets to whoever the fuck she has decided is bffl this month. I feel like im being irrational but like I feel like she likes that im jealous of her like she tells me details like how he calls her good girl and princess and I just hate it. Also the man made a joke about being eternally single 😐😑😐 what the actuall fuck actually eat shit idk if that was because they didnt want one of their friends to know they they are doing their weird fucking fliting but honestly like that drove me up the wall like you have a list of what this person likes and it has shit on like neck kisses fuck all the way off. All in all im sick of heteros (even tho the girl is omni and not actually a girl and is genderfluid but she doesnt respect my fucking gender in any fucking way like I doubt she even can remember what it is at this point well it has recently changed but thats besides the point ahe just treats me like a cis gay man when I think im enby but shes too self absorbed to fucking notice) I dont know how true and valid some of these thought and feelings are and I think ive created this narrative where she is out to get me but that might be my obsessive delusional ass being obsessive and delusional. Honestly I really need to stop and I think I may have to talk to my friend and say its quite hard for me to listen to shit about your to be realtionship with the straight guy I have a crush on and I want to tell her like if she tells him that I have had a crush on him It would be the end of our friendship and by that I mean I will literally cause shit like talking behind peoples back kinda shit before I peace out honestly like I build up this big almost conspiracy level delusion in my head but when I actually spend time with her we are like nice and friendly I honestly dont know why Im getting this worked up like I'm trying to find hobbies but I can only crochet so many granny squares before I have to actually address the problem and I dont wven know what to call it me being possessive over a man who at this point probably forgets I exist 90% of the time. Ps I am feeling so annoying like because i feel so shitty im going between being overly complainy to my friends and thwn overcompensating and just failing ro make jokes im now convinced everyone hates me and I just start to spiral and then I feel like people dont want to be around me because Im spiraling even more and now I just want to get lost in the woods and become a urban legend of a witch who doesnt do anything but like is just really scary. Theres been a lot said and none of it productive honestly in my melodrama era and no matter how good of an album it is I need to stop. Anyway if anyone does read this sorry or you're welcome I dont know your life you may enjoy the rambling that are borderline trauma dumping of a stipid bitch but anyway thank you for listening my imaginary audience.