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#and i know logically they're just tighter because 1. im actually fucking eating properly
fandomestloser
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4 months
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#i really fucking hate my brain right now
#i put on a pair of jeans today
#and they're the only jeans i bought when i was at my lowest with my eating
#which means they're the smallest ones i have
#and i put them on td and they were tighter than usual
#and i fucking hate that im using them as a yardstick for my body but i still do it
#and i know logically they're just tighter because 1. im actually fucking eating properly
#and 2. i'm bloated anyway from my period
#but there was this little voice in the back of my head screaming at me that im not fucking good enough and nobody will ever want me
#and i've made alot of progress with my eating
#i've not intentionally skipped a meal in almost a month
#but my mind wont shut the fuck up
#and my partner always says “text me if you need me” but i cant
#because it's the middle of the night and for once
#for ONCE
#theyre actually taking care of themselves and sleeping
#and it'd be so shitty to ruin that because i know that thats really hard for them
#so now i'm just lying in the dark listening to music
#and trying to drown out my thoughts with it
#but it's not fucking working and nothings fucking working and im so so scared im going to relapse again
#because i dont want to do that anymore but i dont feel like i have a fucking choice
#and nobody will probably read this except alex
#gods bless them
#but i just needed to write the words
#because if i dont do something
#i'll do something else that id regret a lot more
#tw eating
#tw eating disorder
#ed vent
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